i suppose since my life was lacking excitement, God decided to add a little twist last night...
another day with jisun. i already checked off 6 Flags, The Getty, and Westwood off my list. the last three items were Hollywood, Citywalk, and 3rd St. i was actually planning on finishing the list yesterday and i got SO close too!
Hollywood was pretty cool. i got to see all those "concreted stars" on the sidewalks and visited the Grauman's Chinese Theatre with those hand/footprints of the special stars. i never knew they had stars for musicians and tv show actors too...i thought it was just strictly movie actors. but more than seeing the various stars and signatures, i found myself being more impressed with seeing the actual Hollywood letters on that ugly mountain. you know, you always see it on tv and in the movies, but to see it in real life was a "woah" moment for me...(staring off into space). there was one funny incident where we passed by the Guiness museum place and there was this magician looking guy who was doing the robot dance on this small platform. he had alotta makeup on to have a fake looking face so he looked pretty scary when he looked at you. anyways, there was this kid who was watching him but was really scared and wouldn't approcah the guy. jisun started getting scared too so we had to leave while i was being totally entertained...
jisun: (really loud). let's go! the guy's scaring me too!
(on the way back passing the same guy).
me: hey look, he's still dancing!
(guy looks at jisun and starts coming after her on purpose).
jisun: AAAAAHHHHHHHH!!!
me: ahahahhaahhahahah.
gosh, i can't help but think that i would've done the same if i were him. haha. what a nice fella.
so odyssey #2 was Citywalk in Universal Studios. i was supposed to go there a while ago with chang but it just never happened. man, that place is pretty fun. it's like an interesting version of The Block with cooler stores. we watched American Wedding and ate at Bucco di Beppo. fiiig, they hook you up! i seriously feel like i eat like a girl these days. i get so full so easily it makes me sad. even tiny little jisun ate more than me! anyways, the place was full of random naked pictures EVERYWHERE! did you know that they have over 2000 pictures in that restaurant? crazy i say. dinner was good.
and finally, we decide to kill our third bird with one stone at Santa Monica. *sigh* there was alotta traffic on the way and i remember exactly what we were talking about when my car stalled. as she was telling me about how she meant CCM friends instead of CPC friends, my car started grumbling some unhappy noises at me. my gears were shaking and the more i accelerated, the lower my tacometer decreased. as soon as i exited and stopped at the signal, my car fell asleep. F!!! luckily, there was a 76 gas station on the corner so i got a guy to help me push the car.
an hour later, billy and chris came to the rescue and added some coolant to my car. amazingly, my car started up so chris took jisun home, and billy and i attempted to make it back to irvine from la. CURSED 10 E TRAFFIC! but as soon as we got to Fullerton area, my car wasn't satisfied with the coolant we had offered so it decided to stop again. more pushing only this time, i got to hop into my car while my car was rolling fast down a hill. exciting and scary stuff, especially when i barely passed the signal and actually made it into Del Taco. ironically, we ended up parking next to billy's church, which (even more ironically) is next to a stripclub. haha. after more coolant, we thought we might be able to finish our trek only it stalled again after one block. more running, pushing, and difficult steering. we park it at another 76 gas station and leave it there for the night. you have to understand that i was FREAKIN' tired while all this was happening. all that walking, sightseeing, and driving around in Hollywood and Citywalk. and to go through all this car trouble b/w the hours of 11 and 1. i just wanted to sleep my problems away.
yesterday was a HOT day.
this morning, i went back to Fullerton with chris around 8 and got the car checked up around 8:40. a hole in the radiator operating tube and problems with the misfiring something something transmission something something. $117+ tax. so here i am back at home until the guy calls us to pick it up. it's time like this where i wonder how Job still could have praised God when He put him through so much misery. i have a few minor problems with my car that'll only cost me $125. Job lost property, family, and a healthy body. how is it that "Job did not sin by charging God with wrongdoing." (Job 1:22). awe.
i want a new car. i'm such a sinner.
Thought of the Day: Back to where i started.
Song of the Day: Contours-Do You Love Me?
August 8, 2003
college retreat was awesome! our theme for the retreat was Between Two Worlds. i actually thought that the theme was talking about how christians struggle with living in a secular world. BUT, the theme was actually talking about THIS world and Heaven! this was probably one of the reasons why i didn't like the speaker at first cause i thought his sermons were garbage. lol. i was like, "what the heck does this have to do with the theme of the retreat?" while everyone else thought he was a great speaker.
it was really encouraging to see alotta the freshmen come out to the retreat. i got to know each of them a little better, even if it meant just using their toothpaste or canoeing in the same boat. i was really surprised to meet such a mature group of kids who were so hungry for knowledge and scripture! well, there were obviously times where they acted really stupid and immature but we're all like that growing up right?
i felt like i discovered some new things about myself, especially during the times of personal reflection. i thought the idea of being alone to yourself for an hour was brilliant! i mean, how often do we spend some time to be silent to ourselves out in God's creation just to reflect on our own lives? NEVER! even if you're driving alone, you turn that music on. if you're walking to class, there's still noise coming from other students. when you're home alone, you sign on to your AIM and chat away. we seriously do no make any time to just sit there and reflect. man, i had some startling revelations, just writing and thinking about my life. my hope is that i'd complain (alot) less and start using my blessings to bless others.
even though this was the first time i had gone to a retreat that had no skits, we did have alotta fun with the different games and activities prepared by sean and sarah. man, body worship was just an ingenius idea. scavenger hunt was very well organized. and of course, the relay race was fun fun fun! praise was just like ben said it would be. a rock concert. haha. free time was straight up GUMPCH time! and yes, lori and i continue to stay undefeated.
and of course, there was the final night with the bonfire. so many of the younger students actually took the opportunity to share different things to the whole college group. and we all can't forget how dennis actually opened up to us for the first time. that's definitely going in the cpc memory log. haha. praise God for such convictions!
the night was young so a good number of us stayed up. i really like the fact how college retreats don't really enforce curfews on the students. and even though we all stay up really late, we're still ready to have worship and stay awake. man, it was fun playing all those games...memory, "bzzzzz...is it dead?", crawford's stupid bus and Who Am I game, and concluding with CUPS!
it was really good seeing dinko's friends coming out too. at first, they came off as being all gangster and whatnot, but they're really cool people...really have a heart for God. man, it was SO encouraging to see some of my discussion group members wanting to know some good things to read in the Bible. i mean, how often do you hear, "hey, can you reccomend any good things in the Bible that can help me when i'm struggling?" ENCOURAGING up the butt! it really pays off to read scripture and remember the different passages that God has used in your life.
oh and i got to spend time with my favorite senior girl (no sarcasm), prisicilla! i think she is one of the funniest girls i've ever met in my life. her mannerisms, her reactions, her speech, her laugh! what a wonderful person! i know she thinks i'm full of crap but i really really enjoy her company. man, she was telling me the funniest things in the car...
priscilla: i hated barbies growing up. like i would look at it and i was like, "what the crazy is this?!" and i'd rip the head off and burn the parts.
she told me and jimmy alotta embarrassing stories and i wouldn't be able to do justice if i were to repeat it with my spoiled memory. gosh, she makes me so happy. i even like the way she talks like a valley girl. "um, like Chipotle right?" lol.
and here i am, back in irvine. i already sense the difficulty of trying to stay passionate for God. but anyways, i feel like i learned more from spending time with people rather than the discussion groups and sermons. kinda sad no? but i guess it's alrite. God uses different things to reveal His glory to us and i praise Him for showing me so many things at this retreat...about me and different people. may this retreat have been pleasing to God...all glory to Him!
Thought of the Day: I am SO arrogant.
Song of the Day: Tim Hughes & Paul Oakley-Jesus, You Alone
it was really encouraging to see alotta the freshmen come out to the retreat. i got to know each of them a little better, even if it meant just using their toothpaste or canoeing in the same boat. i was really surprised to meet such a mature group of kids who were so hungry for knowledge and scripture! well, there were obviously times where they acted really stupid and immature but we're all like that growing up right?
i felt like i discovered some new things about myself, especially during the times of personal reflection. i thought the idea of being alone to yourself for an hour was brilliant! i mean, how often do we spend some time to be silent to ourselves out in God's creation just to reflect on our own lives? NEVER! even if you're driving alone, you turn that music on. if you're walking to class, there's still noise coming from other students. when you're home alone, you sign on to your AIM and chat away. we seriously do no make any time to just sit there and reflect. man, i had some startling revelations, just writing and thinking about my life. my hope is that i'd complain (alot) less and start using my blessings to bless others.
even though this was the first time i had gone to a retreat that had no skits, we did have alotta fun with the different games and activities prepared by sean and sarah. man, body worship was just an ingenius idea. scavenger hunt was very well organized. and of course, the relay race was fun fun fun! praise was just like ben said it would be. a rock concert. haha. free time was straight up GUMPCH time! and yes, lori and i continue to stay undefeated.
and of course, there was the final night with the bonfire. so many of the younger students actually took the opportunity to share different things to the whole college group. and we all can't forget how dennis actually opened up to us for the first time. that's definitely going in the cpc memory log. haha. praise God for such convictions!
the night was young so a good number of us stayed up. i really like the fact how college retreats don't really enforce curfews on the students. and even though we all stay up really late, we're still ready to have worship and stay awake. man, it was fun playing all those games...memory, "bzzzzz...is it dead?", crawford's stupid bus and Who Am I game, and concluding with CUPS!
it was really good seeing dinko's friends coming out too. at first, they came off as being all gangster and whatnot, but they're really cool people...really have a heart for God. man, it was SO encouraging to see some of my discussion group members wanting to know some good things to read in the Bible. i mean, how often do you hear, "hey, can you reccomend any good things in the Bible that can help me when i'm struggling?" ENCOURAGING up the butt! it really pays off to read scripture and remember the different passages that God has used in your life.
oh and i got to spend time with my favorite senior girl (no sarcasm), prisicilla! i think she is one of the funniest girls i've ever met in my life. her mannerisms, her reactions, her speech, her laugh! what a wonderful person! i know she thinks i'm full of crap but i really really enjoy her company. man, she was telling me the funniest things in the car...
priscilla: i hated barbies growing up. like i would look at it and i was like, "what the crazy is this?!" and i'd rip the head off and burn the parts.
she told me and jimmy alotta embarrassing stories and i wouldn't be able to do justice if i were to repeat it with my spoiled memory. gosh, she makes me so happy. i even like the way she talks like a valley girl. "um, like Chipotle right?" lol.
and here i am, back in irvine. i already sense the difficulty of trying to stay passionate for God. but anyways, i feel like i learned more from spending time with people rather than the discussion groups and sermons. kinda sad no? but i guess it's alrite. God uses different things to reveal His glory to us and i praise Him for showing me so many things at this retreat...about me and different people. may this retreat have been pleasing to God...all glory to Him!
Thought of the Day: I am SO arrogant.
Song of the Day: Tim Hughes & Paul Oakley-Jesus, You Alone
August 2, 2003
man, i can't believe i'm finally free! after working 45+ hours this week, i am a very tired guy. tomorrow will be my first official FREE day since i have absolutely NOTHING to worry about. no work for another week. no more summer school papers to work on. it's just free for the next week and tomorrow is going to start it off. omg i'm going to sleep so well tonight. you know, one of those sleeps where you cry in your sleep b/c you're so happy that you get to rest? haha. well, i actually have a few errands to run tomorrow but that isn't anything dutiful like work or school. but dude, i was sooooo tired at church today...
(praying).
me: dear God, you are an awesome God....
(5 min. later).
ben: ok, now let's pray for the summer retreat...
me: dear God, you...
(10 min. later).
ben: ok, let's pray for our whole church now...
me: dear...
you get the idea. i was like time traveling into different zones as if everything was being fastforwarded. i am going to crash like no other tonight! woohoo.
man, i'm really getting tired of working now. it's like the same thing everyday. i see the same kids, the same tests, the same demerits, and the same workers all the time. some kids really annoy me too. sometimes, i wonder how they became such a jacked up student...all stupid and loud and immature. you just wanna shake them real hard and ask repeatedly, "why are you so stupid?!" gosh, i just wanna get a baseball bat and...
but there are few a students you really grow to like too...
1. gene baik-11th grader. always cheerful and makes fun of my boss. we all like him.
2. david lee-11th grader. really nice and simple kid who's very patient and kind to me. always greets me with, "how's it going phil?" =D
3. paul kim-11th grader. lol. this kid ALWAYS forgets his stupid math book and always apologizes as i make copies for him. the kid hates class and tries to kill time by going to the bathroom every hour. i always overhear him talking about beating up people when he's talking with his friends. i like the kid.
4. michelle shinn-11th grader. really tall and skinny. pretty girl that's real quiet, gentle, and neat....the type you choose not to crack a joke at b/c her response is just too unpredictable. mysterious. fragile. i always use her tests to compare with the other students in her class.
5. monica nguyen-11th grader. one of my favorite students. very cheerful and nice. always greets me and has a nice comment to say every time i see her. "your hair! you look like you got electricuted!" she always aces her vocab. quizzes.
6. jaye shin-11th grader. big fella with braces. never gives me any problems. gets a good # of demerits and tries to clear them by taking 3 quizzes in one day. haha. one of the first kids i started liking.
7. sheila moaleman-11th grader. like another version of michelle but not korean.
8. sally yi-11th grader. acts really cute. she's always late and i'm supposed to make her do situps. but she always insists that she can't do them b/c she's wearing a skirt. haha. just one of those students you can't punish.
of course there's a flipside!
1. kevin kim-11th grader. loud fat bastard who does NOT shuttup! always demerits, always talks during SATs, always complains about stupid things. no one likes him except for his friend, bryan.
2. bryan kim-11th grader. i thought this kid was alrite until today. during SATs, him and kevin just talk talk TALK! i told him to turn his phone off and he did. then he turns it back on, receives phone calls, turns it on and off, on and off, on and OFF! i later give him a parent demerit b/c of an assignment he was supposed to turn in and he freakin' lies that he never got one from me. SUCH a bad liar! i hate you bryan kim!
man, i can go on and on about every student. there's some good ones and some bad ones. i have to see them everyday.
i need to sleep.
Thought of the Day: I'm so sick and tired of grading tests.
Song of the Day: Tim-I Love You
(praying).
me: dear God, you are an awesome God....
(5 min. later).
ben: ok, now let's pray for the summer retreat...
me: dear God, you...
(10 min. later).
ben: ok, let's pray for our whole church now...
me: dear...
you get the idea. i was like time traveling into different zones as if everything was being fastforwarded. i am going to crash like no other tonight! woohoo.
man, i'm really getting tired of working now. it's like the same thing everyday. i see the same kids, the same tests, the same demerits, and the same workers all the time. some kids really annoy me too. sometimes, i wonder how they became such a jacked up student...all stupid and loud and immature. you just wanna shake them real hard and ask repeatedly, "why are you so stupid?!" gosh, i just wanna get a baseball bat and...
but there are few a students you really grow to like too...
1. gene baik-11th grader. always cheerful and makes fun of my boss. we all like him.
2. david lee-11th grader. really nice and simple kid who's very patient and kind to me. always greets me with, "how's it going phil?" =D
3. paul kim-11th grader. lol. this kid ALWAYS forgets his stupid math book and always apologizes as i make copies for him. the kid hates class and tries to kill time by going to the bathroom every hour. i always overhear him talking about beating up people when he's talking with his friends. i like the kid.
4. michelle shinn-11th grader. really tall and skinny. pretty girl that's real quiet, gentle, and neat....the type you choose not to crack a joke at b/c her response is just too unpredictable. mysterious. fragile. i always use her tests to compare with the other students in her class.
5. monica nguyen-11th grader. one of my favorite students. very cheerful and nice. always greets me and has a nice comment to say every time i see her. "your hair! you look like you got electricuted!" she always aces her vocab. quizzes.
6. jaye shin-11th grader. big fella with braces. never gives me any problems. gets a good # of demerits and tries to clear them by taking 3 quizzes in one day. haha. one of the first kids i started liking.
7. sheila moaleman-11th grader. like another version of michelle but not korean.
8. sally yi-11th grader. acts really cute. she's always late and i'm supposed to make her do situps. but she always insists that she can't do them b/c she's wearing a skirt. haha. just one of those students you can't punish.
of course there's a flipside!
1. kevin kim-11th grader. loud fat bastard who does NOT shuttup! always demerits, always talks during SATs, always complains about stupid things. no one likes him except for his friend, bryan.
2. bryan kim-11th grader. i thought this kid was alrite until today. during SATs, him and kevin just talk talk TALK! i told him to turn his phone off and he did. then he turns it back on, receives phone calls, turns it on and off, on and off, on and OFF! i later give him a parent demerit b/c of an assignment he was supposed to turn in and he freakin' lies that he never got one from me. SUCH a bad liar! i hate you bryan kim!
man, i can go on and on about every student. there's some good ones and some bad ones. i have to see them everyday.
i need to sleep.
Thought of the Day: I'm so sick and tired of grading tests.
Song of the Day: Tim-I Love You
July 30, 2003
today was possibly the worst day of work in my life!
1. i was super tired this morning...i mean SUPER tired! i seriously could have fallen asleep on the floor if you gave me 5 min. man, just thinking about how tired i was this morning is actually making me tired right now! but anyways, you get the point.
2. i was checking my account balance online and i found out that i was negative $9. F!!! i always did wonder why my balance was so high cause apparently, i had totally forgotten that i had written a $36.66 check for my oil change and car wash. man, that's the bad thing about checks...you totally forget about your balance...well, at least i do.
3. i had to make a GRIP of copies. i probably use our copy machine for at least 2 hours everyday. it's really depressing and stressful. there's sooooo many different lesson plans you have to copy and trust me, the directions are insanely complicated. example: you have to open up Week 5, look at the list, find the book, copy, look for the lesson (i don't understand why the page #'s are wrong), and you copy. you make copies for the upcoming classes. you make extra copies for the binder itself. and after you've taken care of all that, you have to make the INSTRUCTOR'S BASTARD EDITION! and yes, EVERY part has an instructor's edition! so b/c i had forgotten such vital things today, i had teachers complaining to me. i had my boss complain to me. i had MYSELF complaining to me! about halfway through the day, i just asked my boss to fire me. (laughter). ugh.
4. and just to make God laugh even harder at me, i was working through a gassy GASSY stomach. standing there next to the copy machine, squeezing my butt real hard, and positioning my legs in an awkward stance, i was seriously in no mood to make tomorrow's copies for the English classes. man, i can only imagine how uncomfortable my face expression was. lol. i was honestly having thoughts of just letting it all out and accept the laughter and ridicule from andrea and the students. goodness, how did i get through today?
obviously, only by God's grace alone. haha. God is seriously a genius, planning out my difficult day, cracking up at my discomforts, and still receving all the glory for it! lol. praise God.
man, i have to fix my car.
made my day...
arthur: yeah, you'd save so much money if you just had a garden!
billy: do you see anybody our age with a garden?
arthur: no seriously, i was thinking of starting one you know?
billy: phil, you're no longer the homo of the apt.
me: ahahahahhahahahah.
take that you itchy bastard!
Thought of the Day: I hate copy machines.
Song of the Day: Take-Baby Baby
1. i was super tired this morning...i mean SUPER tired! i seriously could have fallen asleep on the floor if you gave me 5 min. man, just thinking about how tired i was this morning is actually making me tired right now! but anyways, you get the point.
2. i was checking my account balance online and i found out that i was negative $9. F!!! i always did wonder why my balance was so high cause apparently, i had totally forgotten that i had written a $36.66 check for my oil change and car wash. man, that's the bad thing about checks...you totally forget about your balance...well, at least i do.
3. i had to make a GRIP of copies. i probably use our copy machine for at least 2 hours everyday. it's really depressing and stressful. there's sooooo many different lesson plans you have to copy and trust me, the directions are insanely complicated. example: you have to open up Week 5, look at the list, find the book, copy, look for the lesson (i don't understand why the page #'s are wrong), and you copy. you make copies for the upcoming classes. you make extra copies for the binder itself. and after you've taken care of all that, you have to make the INSTRUCTOR'S BASTARD EDITION! and yes, EVERY part has an instructor's edition! so b/c i had forgotten such vital things today, i had teachers complaining to me. i had my boss complain to me. i had MYSELF complaining to me! about halfway through the day, i just asked my boss to fire me. (laughter). ugh.
4. and just to make God laugh even harder at me, i was working through a gassy GASSY stomach. standing there next to the copy machine, squeezing my butt real hard, and positioning my legs in an awkward stance, i was seriously in no mood to make tomorrow's copies for the English classes. man, i can only imagine how uncomfortable my face expression was. lol. i was honestly having thoughts of just letting it all out and accept the laughter and ridicule from andrea and the students. goodness, how did i get through today?
obviously, only by God's grace alone. haha. God is seriously a genius, planning out my difficult day, cracking up at my discomforts, and still receving all the glory for it! lol. praise God.
man, i have to fix my car.
made my day...
arthur: yeah, you'd save so much money if you just had a garden!
billy: do you see anybody our age with a garden?
arthur: no seriously, i was thinking of starting one you know?
billy: phil, you're no longer the homo of the apt.
me: ahahahahhahahahah.
take that you itchy bastard!
Thought of the Day: I hate copy machines.
Song of the Day: Take-Baby Baby
The Starting Line-A Goodnight's Sleep
Sleep a better slumber
was in your arms
spent tangled up in you
a sudden morning
crashed in the room
with an uninvited sudden change in you
what can i say
wheres that girl from last night
whos stuck outside
and looks just like you too
you can sleep in your own bed tonight
sleep away as summer came screaming out my name
you can sleep in your own bed tonight
i hope for your sake that you dont wake up as broken as i am
for the lack of better
words to say
all i said was goodnight
once again
in self defense i wont sleep a wink
to prevent dreaming of you
you can sleep in your own bed tonight
sleep away as summer came screaming out my name
you can sleep in your own bed tonight
i hope for your sake that you dont wake up as broken as i am
sleep in your own bed
tonight
i that some day you will wake up as lonely as i am
you can sleep in your own bed tonight
sleep away as summer came screaming out my name
you can sleep in your own bed tonight
i hope for your sake that you dont wake up as broken as i am
sleep in your own bed tonight
i thought some day you will wake up as lonely as i am
cause it works both ways
cause it works both ways
cause it works both ways
sleep in your own bed
yeah, i know no one reads the lyrics but that's ok. it's a song that fits the mood too well these days. isn't it the best when a song can totally say everything you're going through? you feel so comforted cause you feel like there's empathy and support. this secular music...gosh. haha.
i cooked spaghetti #2 today. it was alot easier this time and i actually made JUST the right amount for me, arthur, and billy! they actually didn't make any suggestions this time so that means it tasted alrite. woohoo! dude, i already know i'm going to be the mom of my apt. next year. i'll be the guy always buying the groceries, running the errands, coming home after work to cook dinner, doing the dishes, and cleaning up my room. it's all too clear to me already. seriously, sometimes i feel like i'm taking care of the guys in this apt....oh how i must emphasize the word SOMETIMES! some people just refuse to take out the garbage and doing the dishes is out of the question. yeah, these bastards never cook either unless someone special (a girl) comes over. but it's all good cause when they DO cook, man it is a quite a piece of work...especially when my homosexual roommate, billy, cooks for us. i seriously think that guy should just quit school and become a cook and fish for fun. that's practically his life...oh yeah, and uh his minesweeper. yeap, he's got loser written all over him.
i'm working alot this week. 45+ hours. i love it but i hate it. i love the fact i'm gonna get paid up the butt but i hate the fact that my butt doesn't get enough sleep every night. i had to learn how to make coffee at work just to get through the day too and i hate drinking coffee. it just feels unhealthy too...brown sugar water is what it is. but i don't get jittery anymore so that's good. but things with andrea aren't so bad either. i think we're pretty much used to each other. and today, i finally met my last coworker, candice. the way eugene described her, i thought she'd be this huge dumb elephant but she seemed like a pretty productive person. the scary thing is that she reminds me of crawford...physically that is. *shudder* *barf* you know the drill. yeah, i'm kinda glad i don't have to work with candice. i'm cool with just working with irene, the nice and quiet one who prefers korean over english phone calls. we work well together. =D
ok, i'm lazy. with as few sentences as possible...
The Hat sucks. chillin' with jess was cool.
done with summer school.
i will conclude.
Thought of the Day: She's a "no-go."
Song of the Day: U2-With Or Without You
Sleep a better slumber
was in your arms
spent tangled up in you
a sudden morning
crashed in the room
with an uninvited sudden change in you
what can i say
wheres that girl from last night
whos stuck outside
and looks just like you too
you can sleep in your own bed tonight
sleep away as summer came screaming out my name
you can sleep in your own bed tonight
i hope for your sake that you dont wake up as broken as i am
for the lack of better
words to say
all i said was goodnight
once again
in self defense i wont sleep a wink
to prevent dreaming of you
you can sleep in your own bed tonight
sleep away as summer came screaming out my name
you can sleep in your own bed tonight
i hope for your sake that you dont wake up as broken as i am
sleep in your own bed
tonight
i that some day you will wake up as lonely as i am
you can sleep in your own bed tonight
sleep away as summer came screaming out my name
you can sleep in your own bed tonight
i hope for your sake that you dont wake up as broken as i am
sleep in your own bed tonight
i thought some day you will wake up as lonely as i am
cause it works both ways
cause it works both ways
cause it works both ways
sleep in your own bed
yeah, i know no one reads the lyrics but that's ok. it's a song that fits the mood too well these days. isn't it the best when a song can totally say everything you're going through? you feel so comforted cause you feel like there's empathy and support. this secular music...gosh. haha.
i cooked spaghetti #2 today. it was alot easier this time and i actually made JUST the right amount for me, arthur, and billy! they actually didn't make any suggestions this time so that means it tasted alrite. woohoo! dude, i already know i'm going to be the mom of my apt. next year. i'll be the guy always buying the groceries, running the errands, coming home after work to cook dinner, doing the dishes, and cleaning up my room. it's all too clear to me already. seriously, sometimes i feel like i'm taking care of the guys in this apt....oh how i must emphasize the word SOMETIMES! some people just refuse to take out the garbage and doing the dishes is out of the question. yeah, these bastards never cook either unless someone special (a girl) comes over. but it's all good cause when they DO cook, man it is a quite a piece of work...especially when my homosexual roommate, billy, cooks for us. i seriously think that guy should just quit school and become a cook and fish for fun. that's practically his life...oh yeah, and uh his minesweeper. yeap, he's got loser written all over him.
i'm working alot this week. 45+ hours. i love it but i hate it. i love the fact i'm gonna get paid up the butt but i hate the fact that my butt doesn't get enough sleep every night. i had to learn how to make coffee at work just to get through the day too and i hate drinking coffee. it just feels unhealthy too...brown sugar water is what it is. but i don't get jittery anymore so that's good. but things with andrea aren't so bad either. i think we're pretty much used to each other. and today, i finally met my last coworker, candice. the way eugene described her, i thought she'd be this huge dumb elephant but she seemed like a pretty productive person. the scary thing is that she reminds me of crawford...physically that is. *shudder* *barf* you know the drill. yeah, i'm kinda glad i don't have to work with candice. i'm cool with just working with irene, the nice and quiet one who prefers korean over english phone calls. we work well together. =D
ok, i'm lazy. with as few sentences as possible...
The Hat sucks. chillin' with jess was cool.
done with summer school.
i will conclude.
Thought of the Day: She's a "no-go."
Song of the Day: U2-With Or Without You
July 28, 2003
dude, i've just been gone for so long. been working, papering, and playing with my brother this past week.
there's so much i wanna write about but i don't have the strength and patience to write all of my thoughts on my past happenings...and i'm sure you don't have the patience or care to read it all either.
but like i said, my brother came down FINALLY to stay with me in irvine. dave and sol brought him down and i showed them around irvine. the whole time, i was just hearing "dude, this is so nice!" the whole time. haha. yeah, i'm a spoiled crap who takes this bomb city for granted. but i think compared to the average irvine resident, i really appreciate the weather and clean streets of this city.
i was really happy that my roommates were so nice to my brother too. he fit in quite well with all the smash we enforced and all the food he ate with us. they were really good to him so i was quite grateful for such nice roommates. i think if i left him with dykas, my brother would've had this bad image of college students. haha. but it's such a shame that he had to leave so early. i didn't get to do much with him cause i was so busy with work and church. sorry simon. but i AM glad that i got a chance to show him around campus. a whole buncha "woah, what's that?! what the!" haha. my brother is definitely coming to so. cal for college.
whizzing by...
i had my last class for summer school on friday. to be honest, i really liked my teacher! he may have blasphemed God and acted like a homo but dang was he a nice and funny teacher. lots of care and time put into all the papers he read and graded. he had some crazy open office hours and was down to help us with anything we needed...
teacher: you guys are by far the best class i've ever taught and i've taught for 7 years. thank you.
class: (applause)....(students throw chalk at teacher). ahhahahahahahahahha.
man, there were so many funny things that were said in class but i can't seem to remember them. fudge! they were really funny...i promise!
but like i told my welcoming committee, i am VERY pleased with the efforts i've been noticing. lots of people were telling me on sunday how i'm doing such a great job with the committee. but really, i'm not doing crap. all i do is attendance and email the group every week. other than that, i'm doing exactly what the rest of the guys are doing. so when people are saying good things to me, that means my committee is doing an excellent job! they are the ones who are truly worthy of receiving the compliments...not me. so welcoming committee, my gratitude cannot be expressed with words but God knows my appreciation for you guys. and of course, none of our efforts and progress come from us but our God alone. all glory to God!
well, i'm going to NY to go see justin in 3 weeks. i finally get to see that pagan bastard after 7 months. it does and doesn't seem that long since i last saw him. i've never been to east coast in my life. i think it'll be a great experience, seeing NY and even that retarded school, cornell. haha. but of course, that means i have to work a gang of hours for the next few weeks. fortunately, monica wants me to work almost everday...most of the days working from open to close...8:30am-7pm. jeah!
man, i took a 5 hour nap today.
crazy trailer
Thought of the Day: You think you know but you have no idea.
Song of the Day: Ace Of Bace-The Sign
there's so much i wanna write about but i don't have the strength and patience to write all of my thoughts on my past happenings...and i'm sure you don't have the patience or care to read it all either.
but like i said, my brother came down FINALLY to stay with me in irvine. dave and sol brought him down and i showed them around irvine. the whole time, i was just hearing "dude, this is so nice!" the whole time. haha. yeah, i'm a spoiled crap who takes this bomb city for granted. but i think compared to the average irvine resident, i really appreciate the weather and clean streets of this city.
i was really happy that my roommates were so nice to my brother too. he fit in quite well with all the smash we enforced and all the food he ate with us. they were really good to him so i was quite grateful for such nice roommates. i think if i left him with dykas, my brother would've had this bad image of college students. haha. but it's such a shame that he had to leave so early. i didn't get to do much with him cause i was so busy with work and church. sorry simon. but i AM glad that i got a chance to show him around campus. a whole buncha "woah, what's that?! what the!" haha. my brother is definitely coming to so. cal for college.
whizzing by...
i had my last class for summer school on friday. to be honest, i really liked my teacher! he may have blasphemed God and acted like a homo but dang was he a nice and funny teacher. lots of care and time put into all the papers he read and graded. he had some crazy open office hours and was down to help us with anything we needed...
teacher: you guys are by far the best class i've ever taught and i've taught for 7 years. thank you.
class: (applause)....(students throw chalk at teacher). ahhahahahahahahahha.
man, there were so many funny things that were said in class but i can't seem to remember them. fudge! they were really funny...i promise!
but like i told my welcoming committee, i am VERY pleased with the efforts i've been noticing. lots of people were telling me on sunday how i'm doing such a great job with the committee. but really, i'm not doing crap. all i do is attendance and email the group every week. other than that, i'm doing exactly what the rest of the guys are doing. so when people are saying good things to me, that means my committee is doing an excellent job! they are the ones who are truly worthy of receiving the compliments...not me. so welcoming committee, my gratitude cannot be expressed with words but God knows my appreciation for you guys. and of course, none of our efforts and progress come from us but our God alone. all glory to God!
well, i'm going to NY to go see justin in 3 weeks. i finally get to see that pagan bastard after 7 months. it does and doesn't seem that long since i last saw him. i've never been to east coast in my life. i think it'll be a great experience, seeing NY and even that retarded school, cornell. haha. but of course, that means i have to work a gang of hours for the next few weeks. fortunately, monica wants me to work almost everday...most of the days working from open to close...8:30am-7pm. jeah!
man, i took a 5 hour nap today.
crazy trailer
Thought of the Day: You think you know but you have no idea.
Song of the Day: Ace Of Bace-The Sign
July 21, 2003
i cooked spaghetti for the first time today. man, i thought it'd just be boiling noodles, cut up some onions, and throw them into the spaghetti sauce. uh nope!
first mistake: boiling onions and garlic in alot of vegetable oil in a small pot.
lesson learned: just cook everything in a big pan. THEN pour the spaghetti sauce over it.
second mistake: not checking the cupboards for helpful supplies.
lesson learned: sometimes, you won't even have to buy spaghetti noodles cause you'll already have a FREAKIN' box at home.
i learned something even greater than these two mistakes today. i was thinking about how our mothers have always been cooking for us ever since we were little. alotta times, we complained about the food, didn't finish it, or just went out to go eat with our friends. after today, i realized WHY our mothers always encourage us to eat at home. it's not JUST to save money or to eat healthy. alot of it is b/c they put much time and effort into the preparation of our meals. i'm glad i'm learning from my cooking failures. i'm becoming more creative with the things i choose to make and i have a greater appreciation for mama's cooking. i'm also reminded by what i told tina with her serving in the welcoming committee: "you can only get better dude."
i went to the Getty with jisun yesterday. the Getty is this big art museum in la and i've always wanted to go there cause i've heard alot of great things about it. you know, most people wouldn't expect me to really appreciate different arts like plays, music, or in yesterday's case, paintings! but i think i appreciate these kinds of things much more than the average person. haha. sometimes you just wonder, how the fudge did that bastard paint that thing?! it's not with pencil or pen either. it's straight up with just paint and a paintbrush! haha. but i also realized that people can interpret different things from the same piece of art...
jisun: what's your favorite one?
me: this one with the snow and the dog.
jisun: that's MY favorite one too! why do you like it?
me: well when you look at this picture, you feel like you're part of the picture. like you can almost imagine a story that went along with it while you're there you know? something like that.
jisun: oh. well, i looked at it in more technical terms. like it must have been difficult to take this picture in that kind of weather. but in this picture, there's no snow flakes on the camera and it's really clear. it's really hard to do that.
me: oh.
but the Getty wasn't what i expected. i thought it'd be a place with white walls, classical music, and a whole buncha glass-framed paintings. but there was no music with dim-lighted rooms and lots of paintings that were unprotected. seriously though, you need to appreciate art and have alotta patience and strength to go to an art museum. otherwise, you're in for a bore.
billy: dude, i love movies with lots of action. lots of gun fighting and people blowing up. didn't you grow up watching Chuck Norris movies?
me: i don't really like Chuck Norris.
billy: omg dude. i swear you're gay!
me: ahhahahahaha.
Thought of the Day: I'm going to NY!
Song of the Day: No Use For A Name-Friends Of The Enemy
first mistake: boiling onions and garlic in alot of vegetable oil in a small pot.
lesson learned: just cook everything in a big pan. THEN pour the spaghetti sauce over it.
second mistake: not checking the cupboards for helpful supplies.
lesson learned: sometimes, you won't even have to buy spaghetti noodles cause you'll already have a FREAKIN' box at home.
i learned something even greater than these two mistakes today. i was thinking about how our mothers have always been cooking for us ever since we were little. alotta times, we complained about the food, didn't finish it, or just went out to go eat with our friends. after today, i realized WHY our mothers always encourage us to eat at home. it's not JUST to save money or to eat healthy. alot of it is b/c they put much time and effort into the preparation of our meals. i'm glad i'm learning from my cooking failures. i'm becoming more creative with the things i choose to make and i have a greater appreciation for mama's cooking. i'm also reminded by what i told tina with her serving in the welcoming committee: "you can only get better dude."
i went to the Getty with jisun yesterday. the Getty is this big art museum in la and i've always wanted to go there cause i've heard alot of great things about it. you know, most people wouldn't expect me to really appreciate different arts like plays, music, or in yesterday's case, paintings! but i think i appreciate these kinds of things much more than the average person. haha. sometimes you just wonder, how the fudge did that bastard paint that thing?! it's not with pencil or pen either. it's straight up with just paint and a paintbrush! haha. but i also realized that people can interpret different things from the same piece of art...
jisun: what's your favorite one?
me: this one with the snow and the dog.
jisun: that's MY favorite one too! why do you like it?
me: well when you look at this picture, you feel like you're part of the picture. like you can almost imagine a story that went along with it while you're there you know? something like that.
jisun: oh. well, i looked at it in more technical terms. like it must have been difficult to take this picture in that kind of weather. but in this picture, there's no snow flakes on the camera and it's really clear. it's really hard to do that.
me: oh.
but the Getty wasn't what i expected. i thought it'd be a place with white walls, classical music, and a whole buncha glass-framed paintings. but there was no music with dim-lighted rooms and lots of paintings that were unprotected. seriously though, you need to appreciate art and have alotta patience and strength to go to an art museum. otherwise, you're in for a bore.
billy: dude, i love movies with lots of action. lots of gun fighting and people blowing up. didn't you grow up watching Chuck Norris movies?
me: i don't really like Chuck Norris.
billy: omg dude. i swear you're gay!
me: ahhahahahaha.
Thought of the Day: I'm going to NY!
Song of the Day: No Use For A Name-Friends Of The Enemy
July 17, 2003
drug: carne asada burrito
symtoms: drowsiness, euphoria, difficulty breathing, relaxed state of mind.
treatment: sleep.
warning: lack of appropriate treatment can result in rolling eyes, lack of strength, collapsing, and depression.
my writing class was sooooo boring today! we were going over different sentences from different passages and articles. the majority of the period was spent on "improving" each sentence to help us with our remaining paper. *snore* and just to make things a lil more interesting, God decided to hit me with the meanest food coma that i could not fight off.
eyes open.
eyes close.
eyes open.
eyes close.
eyes close.
eyes open a little.
eyes close.
eyes stay closed.
body JERKS!
head shakes.
eyes stay open.
goodness, i bet at least five people from class blogged about the stupid idiot in class who fell asleep and woke up abruptly, awkwardly trying to play it off. but the good news is, i only have two more assignments left and four more classes to go. after summer school, i think i'm going to dedicate the rest of my summer to just work and alotta reading. it'd be great if i could finish all the books that chang bought/let me borrow and maybe even some of the books that others have recommended to me. always, much easier said than done.
i've been playing alotta ball and trying to somewhat keep my body in shape these days. but dude, every time i work out i realize that it's so hard to exercise with a Soli Deo Gloria attitude. i mean, we all go to workout to improve our bodies or keep it from losing its attractive physique. how often do we tell ourselves that our bodies are meant to glorify God? don't we just go there and lift those weights with intentions of pleasing man? how sinful we are even in trying to keep our bodies "healthy." Romans 12:1-Therefore, I urge you, brothers, in view of God's mercy, to offer your bodies as living sacrifices, holy and pleasing to God--this is your spiritual act of worship. AMEN TO THAT! even in playing ball or lifting weights, may this be our prayer.
but speaking of working out, my weight is actually down to 148 pounds! i haven't weighed below 150 since sophomore year in high school! i don't know exactly what it is. i mean, i know i'm eating pretty unhealthy almost everyday too with all the free lunches from work and all. yeah, i don't get it.
Thought of the Day: It's hot and I love it. I'm hot and you love it.
Song of the Day: Lee Jung Hyun-Summer Dance Trance Mix
symtoms: drowsiness, euphoria, difficulty breathing, relaxed state of mind.
treatment: sleep.
warning: lack of appropriate treatment can result in rolling eyes, lack of strength, collapsing, and depression.
my writing class was sooooo boring today! we were going over different sentences from different passages and articles. the majority of the period was spent on "improving" each sentence to help us with our remaining paper. *snore* and just to make things a lil more interesting, God decided to hit me with the meanest food coma that i could not fight off.
eyes open.
eyes close.
eyes open.
eyes close.
eyes close.
eyes open a little.
eyes close.
eyes stay closed.
body JERKS!
head shakes.
eyes stay open.
goodness, i bet at least five people from class blogged about the stupid idiot in class who fell asleep and woke up abruptly, awkwardly trying to play it off. but the good news is, i only have two more assignments left and four more classes to go. after summer school, i think i'm going to dedicate the rest of my summer to just work and alotta reading. it'd be great if i could finish all the books that chang bought/let me borrow and maybe even some of the books that others have recommended to me. always, much easier said than done.
i've been playing alotta ball and trying to somewhat keep my body in shape these days. but dude, every time i work out i realize that it's so hard to exercise with a Soli Deo Gloria attitude. i mean, we all go to workout to improve our bodies or keep it from losing its attractive physique. how often do we tell ourselves that our bodies are meant to glorify God? don't we just go there and lift those weights with intentions of pleasing man? how sinful we are even in trying to keep our bodies "healthy." Romans 12:1-Therefore, I urge you, brothers, in view of God's mercy, to offer your bodies as living sacrifices, holy and pleasing to God--this is your spiritual act of worship. AMEN TO THAT! even in playing ball or lifting weights, may this be our prayer.
but speaking of working out, my weight is actually down to 148 pounds! i haven't weighed below 150 since sophomore year in high school! i don't know exactly what it is. i mean, i know i'm eating pretty unhealthy almost everyday too with all the free lunches from work and all. yeah, i don't get it.
Thought of the Day: It's hot and I love it. I'm hot and you love it.
Song of the Day: Lee Jung Hyun-Summer Dance Trance Mix
July 16, 2003
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Thought of the Day: Godliness is crucial.
Song of the Day: Remy Zero-Shattered
July 14, 2003
i went fishing for the first time yesterday. billy's been going alot these days so he asked me if i wanted to come with him since he could get me on for free. seriously, my roommate gets hooked up everywhere. he got alotta stuff in his car for dirt cheap. he got hooked up with his oakley's. he got us on the fishing boat for free last night. the connections this guy has. it's great!
yesterday's fishing trip was a very interesting experience for me. i didn't know what to expect at all. what kinda boat was i going to be in? what kinda people were going to be there? was i going to catch any fish? how do you catch a fish? how long were we going to be there? at first, i was regretting that i chose to go cause i was FREAKIN' tired and i had forgotten my sweater. but really, i think it was all worth it.
we left at 6 and got back to the dock at 12. man, you have to go faaaaaaaar out into the sea to catch some fish. fortunately, i didn't get seasick at all and i had an awesome burger on the boat. there were about 15 people on the boat so it wasn't so bad. but anyways, as soon as we begin fishing...
*phone rings*
me: hello?
friend: hello phil? hey, how do you get to Guppy's?
me: oh, it's on...(my fishing line tugs).
everyone: WHAT'RE YOU DOING? PULL IT UP!
me: hey, it's on South and Pioneer.
friend: what?
everyone: HANG UP THE PHONE AND BRING YOUR FISH IN!
me: PIONEER AND SOUTH! BYE!
so i ended up catching a sandbass which is this fish that's about a foot long and weighs about 5 pounds. pretty tasty stuff. but man, that was some embarrassing stuff. you are never supposed to talk on your phone when you're fishing. haha. this old man was like, "hey, can i take a message?" haha. but man, fishing is so much fun! i thought fishing was like an old white man's hobby that required no skill or energy. (clearing throat). uh NO! fishing actually involves MUCH skill and energy. i was catching a whole gang of baracudas which go from 2 to 3 feet! they weigh 5-10 pounds, which sounds like a little but try bringing that thing up on a piece of line while it's flapping all over the water and trying to bite the hook off. seriously, if you're not conditioned like the other fishermen, you'll have sore arms the next day...like me.
today at work, my left arm was shaking if i kept at it at a certain angle. it still hurts when i try to lift stuff with it. those bastard fish! haha. but i was pretty happy with myself cause i caught like 6 or 7 fish. not bad for a newb no? haha just kidding. that isn't THAT great compared to those other guys. it was really easy catching fish cause right now is a good time to catch sandbass and baracudas...well at least where we went. you just drop your line and wait for your line to jerk from the fishbite. then you YANK that sucker and wheel her in. there was an interesting group of people last night. one young teenager who couldn't have been older than simon, a black lady, a white lady, an old man, and a whole buncha middle aged white guys. at least it wasn't just old white guys who'd bore you with their fishing stories.
but dude, you get so dirty on those boats. pieces of fish scale in your hair and on your arms, fish blood all over your boots, and your pants get pretty wet too. ok i just realized no one would be interested in hearing about my fishing experience. haha. boring ish no? let's talk about today's work yeah? so moving on...
i had a pretty bad day at work today. lots of mistakes, dumb questions, and a really bad conversation on the phone. i really don't enjoy working with my co-worker, andrea. she isn't exactly mean, but she's not the most encouraging or considerate person either. like she expects me to know everything about everything. every time i ask her a question, i always feel so discouraged and stupid cause she reacts in a way that's not really mean but i know she thinks i'm slow and stupid...which might be true but at least the others are nicer about it. oh yeah, and she acts all nice to everyone else. she's really good at korean so she has no trouble speaking to our vice president and carries comfortable conversations with the parents. argh, if they only knew!
so yeah, i had this really bad phone call today...
me: hello elite.
mother: (in korean). hi how do you get to Elite?
me: (in korean). it's on jamboree and dupont. just take a right on dupont and enter the plaza. take another right and we're on the left side.
mother: oh, is barranca before or after dupont?
me: (i get lazy with my korean so i just assume she's coming from north). it's before.
mother: ok thank you.
(calls back).
me: hello elite.
mother: (in angry english). hi can you tell me how to get to elite?
me: (in scared english). where are you coming from?
mother: irvine valley college!
me: oh, you're really far from us right now. you need to get onto jamboree.
mother: may i speak to someone who can speak korean?
me: um, i can speak korean.
mother: no, i need someone i can understand.
me: oh....can you hold on?
so bastard andrea takes the call and does a perfect job of telling the mom how to get here. and when she sees me, the mom only speaks to me in her broken english cause i appear to be some kinda stupid idiot who can't comprehend simple korean words from her. *sigh* i hate the fact that my korean sucks. it's so humbling, especially with situations like today. "no, i need someone i can understand." *tears flowing* oh yeah? well i hate you!
but at least i played alrite in ball today. i love it when i play well cause i never play well. you know, you're just having one of those days. haha. dang, i sweat a grip.
i'm in an alternative phase.
Thought of the Day: The Starting Line rocks.
Song of the Day: Blink 182-Man Overboard
yesterday's fishing trip was a very interesting experience for me. i didn't know what to expect at all. what kinda boat was i going to be in? what kinda people were going to be there? was i going to catch any fish? how do you catch a fish? how long were we going to be there? at first, i was regretting that i chose to go cause i was FREAKIN' tired and i had forgotten my sweater. but really, i think it was all worth it.
we left at 6 and got back to the dock at 12. man, you have to go faaaaaaaar out into the sea to catch some fish. fortunately, i didn't get seasick at all and i had an awesome burger on the boat. there were about 15 people on the boat so it wasn't so bad. but anyways, as soon as we begin fishing...
*phone rings*
me: hello?
friend: hello phil? hey, how do you get to Guppy's?
me: oh, it's on...(my fishing line tugs).
everyone: WHAT'RE YOU DOING? PULL IT UP!
me: hey, it's on South and Pioneer.
friend: what?
everyone: HANG UP THE PHONE AND BRING YOUR FISH IN!
me: PIONEER AND SOUTH! BYE!
so i ended up catching a sandbass which is this fish that's about a foot long and weighs about 5 pounds. pretty tasty stuff. but man, that was some embarrassing stuff. you are never supposed to talk on your phone when you're fishing. haha. this old man was like, "hey, can i take a message?" haha. but man, fishing is so much fun! i thought fishing was like an old white man's hobby that required no skill or energy. (clearing throat). uh NO! fishing actually involves MUCH skill and energy. i was catching a whole gang of baracudas which go from 2 to 3 feet! they weigh 5-10 pounds, which sounds like a little but try bringing that thing up on a piece of line while it's flapping all over the water and trying to bite the hook off. seriously, if you're not conditioned like the other fishermen, you'll have sore arms the next day...like me.
today at work, my left arm was shaking if i kept at it at a certain angle. it still hurts when i try to lift stuff with it. those bastard fish! haha. but i was pretty happy with myself cause i caught like 6 or 7 fish. not bad for a newb no? haha just kidding. that isn't THAT great compared to those other guys. it was really easy catching fish cause right now is a good time to catch sandbass and baracudas...well at least where we went. you just drop your line and wait for your line to jerk from the fishbite. then you YANK that sucker and wheel her in. there was an interesting group of people last night. one young teenager who couldn't have been older than simon, a black lady, a white lady, an old man, and a whole buncha middle aged white guys. at least it wasn't just old white guys who'd bore you with their fishing stories.
but dude, you get so dirty on those boats. pieces of fish scale in your hair and on your arms, fish blood all over your boots, and your pants get pretty wet too. ok i just realized no one would be interested in hearing about my fishing experience. haha. boring ish no? let's talk about today's work yeah? so moving on...
i had a pretty bad day at work today. lots of mistakes, dumb questions, and a really bad conversation on the phone. i really don't enjoy working with my co-worker, andrea. she isn't exactly mean, but she's not the most encouraging or considerate person either. like she expects me to know everything about everything. every time i ask her a question, i always feel so discouraged and stupid cause she reacts in a way that's not really mean but i know she thinks i'm slow and stupid...which might be true but at least the others are nicer about it. oh yeah, and she acts all nice to everyone else. she's really good at korean so she has no trouble speaking to our vice president and carries comfortable conversations with the parents. argh, if they only knew!
so yeah, i had this really bad phone call today...
me: hello elite.
mother: (in korean). hi how do you get to Elite?
me: (in korean). it's on jamboree and dupont. just take a right on dupont and enter the plaza. take another right and we're on the left side.
mother: oh, is barranca before or after dupont?
me: (i get lazy with my korean so i just assume she's coming from north). it's before.
mother: ok thank you.
(calls back).
me: hello elite.
mother: (in angry english). hi can you tell me how to get to elite?
me: (in scared english). where are you coming from?
mother: irvine valley college!
me: oh, you're really far from us right now. you need to get onto jamboree.
mother: may i speak to someone who can speak korean?
me: um, i can speak korean.
mother: no, i need someone i can understand.
me: oh....can you hold on?
so bastard andrea takes the call and does a perfect job of telling the mom how to get here. and when she sees me, the mom only speaks to me in her broken english cause i appear to be some kinda stupid idiot who can't comprehend simple korean words from her. *sigh* i hate the fact that my korean sucks. it's so humbling, especially with situations like today. "no, i need someone i can understand." *tears flowing* oh yeah? well i hate you!
but at least i played alrite in ball today. i love it when i play well cause i never play well. you know, you're just having one of those days. haha. dang, i sweat a grip.
i'm in an alternative phase.
Thought of the Day: The Starting Line rocks.
Song of the Day: Blink 182-Man Overboard
July 10, 2003
i'm really bored ok? shuttup crawford...
firsts and lasts
first car: '94 Mazda Protege. i most likely bought my car for less than your computer.
first date: Durant Square...first time i ever ate pho. hated it.
first job: Wetzel's Pretzels. 14 years old.
first screenname: pretzelboi96
first self purchased album: Greenday: Dookie
first funeral: grandma's. 11 yrs. old.
first pet: goldfish that i won at a carnival when i was 10. died after 2 days. never had a pet ever since.
first piercing/tattoo: i'm anti-piercing/tattoo.
first enemy: irrelevant.
first big trip: first roadtrip to la during senior year spring break.
first play/musical/performance: 4 Hands 2 Pianos. dope performance.
first sport you played: basketball. 4th grade.
first musician you remember hearing in your house: Beethoven?
last good cry: after taking my psych. midterm winter qtr.
last library book checked out: what's a library?
last movie seen: Lovers Concerto. *sigh* i teared up.
last book read: Nickel and Dimed. required for Writing 39c.
last cuss word uttered: probably the F word. freakin' rap music.
last beverage drank: water.
last food consumed: Dole's fruit popsicle.
last crush: same chick cj's hitting on...kinda.
last phone call: called esther but talked to henry.
last tv show watched: Friends fo sho!
last time showered: today after ball.
last shoes worn: white nikes.
last cd played: Alternative Mix in my car.
last item bought: 2 onions.
last downloaded: 2pac-Still Ballin'
last annoyance: getting killed in Smash.
last disappointment: currently disappointed with my spiritual walk.
last soda drank: Coke for today's lunch.
last thing written: taking notes on an article in class today.
last key used: car key.
last word spoken: "no, i'm just kidding."
last sleep: slept at 3 last night and woke up at 7:30 this morning.
last IM: f i v e 7 x (1:00:37 AM): yummy
last weird encounter: seeing dave at Pink's.
last ice cream eaten: coffee flavored mochi! *drool*
last time amused: listening to joe challenge henry to an online chat freestyle.
last time wanting to die: winter qtr.
last time hugged: joey hugged me when i saw him today.
last time scolded: last time i was up north when i came home 7:30 in the morning and had to take brother to dentist.
last chair sat in: my nice black chair from Ikea.
last shirt worn: Aeropostale shirt that i wear to sleep.
last time dancing: that stupid club.
Thought of the Day: I don't know how to cut onions.
Song of the Day: Wayne Wonder-No Letting Go
firsts and lasts
first car: '94 Mazda Protege. i most likely bought my car for less than your computer.
first date: Durant Square...first time i ever ate pho. hated it.
first job: Wetzel's Pretzels. 14 years old.
first screenname: pretzelboi96
first self purchased album: Greenday: Dookie
first funeral: grandma's. 11 yrs. old.
first pet: goldfish that i won at a carnival when i was 10. died after 2 days. never had a pet ever since.
first piercing/tattoo: i'm anti-piercing/tattoo.
first enemy: irrelevant.
first big trip: first roadtrip to la during senior year spring break.
first play/musical/performance: 4 Hands 2 Pianos. dope performance.
first sport you played: basketball. 4th grade.
first musician you remember hearing in your house: Beethoven?
last good cry: after taking my psych. midterm winter qtr.
last library book checked out: what's a library?
last movie seen: Lovers Concerto. *sigh* i teared up.
last book read: Nickel and Dimed. required for Writing 39c.
last cuss word uttered: probably the F word. freakin' rap music.
last beverage drank: water.
last food consumed: Dole's fruit popsicle.
last crush: same chick cj's hitting on...kinda.
last phone call: called esther but talked to henry.
last tv show watched: Friends fo sho!
last time showered: today after ball.
last shoes worn: white nikes.
last cd played: Alternative Mix in my car.
last item bought: 2 onions.
last downloaded: 2pac-Still Ballin'
last annoyance: getting killed in Smash.
last disappointment: currently disappointed with my spiritual walk.
last soda drank: Coke for today's lunch.
last thing written: taking notes on an article in class today.
last key used: car key.
last word spoken: "no, i'm just kidding."
last sleep: slept at 3 last night and woke up at 7:30 this morning.
last IM: f i v e 7 x (1:00:37 AM): yummy
last weird encounter: seeing dave at Pink's.
last ice cream eaten: coffee flavored mochi! *drool*
last time amused: listening to joe challenge henry to an online chat freestyle.
last time wanting to die: winter qtr.
last time hugged: joey hugged me when i saw him today.
last time scolded: last time i was up north when i came home 7:30 in the morning and had to take brother to dentist.
last chair sat in: my nice black chair from Ikea.
last shirt worn: Aeropostale shirt that i wear to sleep.
last time dancing: that stupid club.
Thought of the Day: I don't know how to cut onions.
Song of the Day: Wayne Wonder-No Letting Go
July 9, 2003
praise God i just finished my paper! i started at 2 and finished at 12:20. for some reason, writing this paper wasn't as bad as the first one. but i'm pretty sure that'll be the hardest paper i'll have to write for a while. i have to admit that my teacher was really nice in helping me. he always invites people to cornerstone and tells us that he'll even buy us a drink when we go meet with him. and sure enough, the other day he offered to buy me a drink. anyways, he was just real nice about critiquing my paper. "i can tell you spent alot of time on this paper. this right here, Part Two, is what got you the check plus...blah blah blah." haha. yeah, i feel like i'm learning bit by bit how to write and write. stupid high school doesn't teach you how to write for crap. anyways, i'm hoping for a B.
random:
so my roommate, billy, really likes to play minesweeper on his laptop EVERY SINGLE DAY! this guy is hardcore. i just clear clicking and clicking at random times of the day. he's really good too...
billy: hey, did you know that i beat my old record?
me: what'd you get?
billy: 79 seconds. i was so happy that i wanted to go drinking that night to celebrate.
me: hahahahahaha.
yeah i know...loser.
so i haven't really blogged about the different things i've been wanting in my life for a long time...physical things that is. i haven't really THOUGHT about it so let's see what i come up with:
1. the brown cabinet thing for my desk from Ikea. $30
2. more naruto toys. $10?
3. staple remover. i either lost it or never brought one down. $5
4. more film. $10
5. Poolhall Junkies dvd. $20
6. comfortable pair of slippers/sandals. $30?
man, what a piece of crap list! haha. i guess that's good though cause it's a sign that i'm pretty content with the things i already have. plus i've kept my wish list to about $100. wow, i've never done that before. man, i'm not even halfway done with july and i only have $60 to spend for the next 4 weeks. what am i going to do?
Thought of the Day: My haircut WAS high.
Song of the Day: Smashing Pumpkins-Today Is The Greatest
random:
so my roommate, billy, really likes to play minesweeper on his laptop EVERY SINGLE DAY! this guy is hardcore. i just clear clicking and clicking at random times of the day. he's really good too...
billy: hey, did you know that i beat my old record?
me: what'd you get?
billy: 79 seconds. i was so happy that i wanted to go drinking that night to celebrate.
me: hahahahahaha.
yeah i know...loser.
so i haven't really blogged about the different things i've been wanting in my life for a long time...physical things that is. i haven't really THOUGHT about it so let's see what i come up with:
1. the brown cabinet thing for my desk from Ikea. $30
2. more naruto toys. $10?
3. staple remover. i either lost it or never brought one down. $5
4. more film. $10
5. Poolhall Junkies dvd. $20
6. comfortable pair of slippers/sandals. $30?
man, what a piece of crap list! haha. i guess that's good though cause it's a sign that i'm pretty content with the things i already have. plus i've kept my wish list to about $100. wow, i've never done that before. man, i'm not even halfway done with july and i only have $60 to spend for the next 4 weeks. what am i going to do?
Thought of the Day: My haircut WAS high.
Song of the Day: Smashing Pumpkins-Today Is The Greatest
July 7, 2003
man, i'm having a pretty bad day today. i haven't had a bad day in a while. remember in my last entry when i asked if i had to be broken by God? well, i got what i asked for today...
1. i just did alotta stupid things at work. i know andrea and monica think i'm slow and stupid.
2. the keyboard sliding board broke on me.
3. driving to sean's place, the middle of the road was blocked off so i went ALL THE WAY AROUND.
4. this big ugly girl in class was quite flirtatious around me. *shudder*
5. i have to rewrite my research paper b/c my thesis is totally irrelevant.
6. i hit sooooo many red lights on the way to the park today.
7. i played possibly the worst basketball in my life today.
8. billy and arthur didn't go to costco today. another day w/o trash bags.
9. no food in the house. dinner = cereal tonight.
but i know it's not over yet. i'm no where near being HUMBLED. God's going to break me hard...and i think it's going to involve my paper. dang, this is what happens when you live a life that shows no love for God. you can't fake it or force it. God knows everything. i can't write my paper in my condition right now. just rest and get ready for a terrible day tomorrow.
i love this song by The Ataris. you know how certain foods hit the spot when you're craving it really bad? well this song hits the spot for me right now...
"I Won't Spend Another Night Alone"
A star up in the sky goes slowly passing by,
The lights below...they spell out your name.
You're comfort on my mind and you're with me all the time.
And lot's of feeling that I can't explain.
I won't spend another night alone.
Out of every girl I meet, no other can compete
I'd ditch em all for a night with you.
I know you don't believe you mean this much to me
But I promise you that you do.
If I had one wish this is what it would be...
I'd ask you to spend all your time with me,
That we'd be together forever.
We'd buy a small house in south central L.A.
Raise lots of kids then we'd both join a gang
Just as long as we're together.
The things you make me wanna do
I'd rob a quik-e-mart for you
I'd go to the pound and let all the cats go free
Just as long as you'd be with me.
unfortunately, their other songs aren't as good as this one.
Thought of the Day: "Don't judge a book by its cover!"
Song of the Day: The Ataris-I Won't Spend Another Night Alone
1. i just did alotta stupid things at work. i know andrea and monica think i'm slow and stupid.
2. the keyboard sliding board broke on me.
3. driving to sean's place, the middle of the road was blocked off so i went ALL THE WAY AROUND.
4. this big ugly girl in class was quite flirtatious around me. *shudder*
5. i have to rewrite my research paper b/c my thesis is totally irrelevant.
6. i hit sooooo many red lights on the way to the park today.
7. i played possibly the worst basketball in my life today.
8. billy and arthur didn't go to costco today. another day w/o trash bags.
9. no food in the house. dinner = cereal tonight.
but i know it's not over yet. i'm no where near being HUMBLED. God's going to break me hard...and i think it's going to involve my paper. dang, this is what happens when you live a life that shows no love for God. you can't fake it or force it. God knows everything. i can't write my paper in my condition right now. just rest and get ready for a terrible day tomorrow.
i love this song by The Ataris. you know how certain foods hit the spot when you're craving it really bad? well this song hits the spot for me right now...
"I Won't Spend Another Night Alone"
A star up in the sky goes slowly passing by,
The lights below...they spell out your name.
You're comfort on my mind and you're with me all the time.
And lot's of feeling that I can't explain.
I won't spend another night alone.
Out of every girl I meet, no other can compete
I'd ditch em all for a night with you.
I know you don't believe you mean this much to me
But I promise you that you do.
If I had one wish this is what it would be...
I'd ask you to spend all your time with me,
That we'd be together forever.
We'd buy a small house in south central L.A.
Raise lots of kids then we'd both join a gang
Just as long as we're together.
The things you make me wanna do
I'd rob a quik-e-mart for you
I'd go to the pound and let all the cats go free
Just as long as you'd be with me.
unfortunately, their other songs aren't as good as this one.
Thought of the Day: "Don't judge a book by its cover!"
Song of the Day: The Ataris-I Won't Spend Another Night Alone
July 5, 2003
this four day weekend has been pretty good so far. lots of playing the whole day. i don't think there's been a moment where i felt bored these past two days. i went to la to go visit crawford and eddie on thursday. man, boxing is so much fun! it's really tiring but oh so satisfying when you hit the person in the face...right crawford? =D i didn't stay in la too long but i found out that jisun and deborah were there too so i decided to check out torrance for the first time.
torrance really isn't as bad as they said it was. yes it's kinda ghetto but it's not like they have absolutely NOTHING. there's Redondo Beach, that awesome park in PV, and "bobo juice!" haha. i don't know, i thought torrance was alrite. i always have a good time hanging out with those two girls. i finally figured out how to look for the Big Dipper! gosh, i couldn't tell you garbage about stars or space. it's an area that i'm quite interested in and i really enjoy looking at a starry night. but dude, i am one ignoramus when it comes to astronomologicalitionaly stuff...
if i had a gf...
me: you see that star over there?
girl: yeah?
me: that's a pretty star huh?
whatever...stupid stars. haha.
but i did learn something about myself that night. i am a VERY analytical person. i always observe. i always notice. i always realize. i'm always thinking and thinking and i almost always want to share my thoughts with people. i guess that's why people tell me that psychology fits me pretty well. i don't know, i don't think i was always like this. i think i am a result of hanging out with chang too much. that guy really taught me to think beyond the surface, to really go deeper and really THINK! but i suppose i can overdo it sometimes. i mean, what kinda person enjoys listening to unceasing analyses about everything.
this also reminds me of ANOTHER realization. haha. i think the older you get, the more you see your bad qualities. i think when we're younger, we tend to think that we're some awesome and perfect piece of creation. i'm not stupid. they are. i'm not ugly. they are. i'm normal. they're weird. but i notice that i see more and more imperfections rather that the "good qualities" in myself. you see problems with your personality, physique, walk with God, speech, habits, etc.. i guess it's kinda like sin. as you grow older and mature, you become more and more sanctified, growing in holiness. and as a result, you see more and more of your sin. well, not just your sin but sin in general...the sinfulness of man. the sin of this world. so i guess it's a good thing. i mean, i don't think it'd be good everyone just got prouder and prouder of themselves. man, some people are already too arrogant.
previous 4th of july's...
9th grade: blew up firecrackers for the first time at bis.
10th grade: Giants/Dodger game.
11th grade: Korea.
12th grade: Chili's and hang out at terrance's place.
this year was probably my best 4th of july ever. it was such a chill day. i woke up at 12. got a haircut from dykas. went to Los Alizanes. went to Nickle Nickle for 2 hours. lol. went to arthur's house and watched them play with fireworks for a long long time. went to Pink's. saw daybear there...freakin' coincidence. and it was really hot the whole day so i loved it.
ever since alice told me about how she LOVES hot weather b/c she loves to sweat, i started to really like hot weather too. she was telling me how she loves to sweat b/c it's so refreshing, opening up all your pores and just sweating! i really liked that kinda mentality. so ever since, i've been looking forward to some hot HOT weather in irvine. and today's weather happend to do much justice to my desires.
man, my walk with God is so dry these days. i read and pray but there's no passion. there's no fire. must i be broken for the nth time to come back to God in humility and give Him the praise that He deserves?
Job 1:21: naked i came from my mother's womb and naked i will depart. the Lord gave and the Lord has taken away. may the name of the Lord be praised.
*sigh* may the name of the Lord be praised. no matter what state i am in, i am to praise God. difficult.
Thought of the Day: Simon came back safe.
Song of the Day: Good Charlotte-La Clique
torrance really isn't as bad as they said it was. yes it's kinda ghetto but it's not like they have absolutely NOTHING. there's Redondo Beach, that awesome park in PV, and "bobo juice!" haha. i don't know, i thought torrance was alrite. i always have a good time hanging out with those two girls. i finally figured out how to look for the Big Dipper! gosh, i couldn't tell you garbage about stars or space. it's an area that i'm quite interested in and i really enjoy looking at a starry night. but dude, i am one ignoramus when it comes to astronomologicalitionaly stuff...
if i had a gf...
me: you see that star over there?
girl: yeah?
me: that's a pretty star huh?
whatever...stupid stars. haha.
but i did learn something about myself that night. i am a VERY analytical person. i always observe. i always notice. i always realize. i'm always thinking and thinking and i almost always want to share my thoughts with people. i guess that's why people tell me that psychology fits me pretty well. i don't know, i don't think i was always like this. i think i am a result of hanging out with chang too much. that guy really taught me to think beyond the surface, to really go deeper and really THINK! but i suppose i can overdo it sometimes. i mean, what kinda person enjoys listening to unceasing analyses about everything.
this also reminds me of ANOTHER realization. haha. i think the older you get, the more you see your bad qualities. i think when we're younger, we tend to think that we're some awesome and perfect piece of creation. i'm not stupid. they are. i'm not ugly. they are. i'm normal. they're weird. but i notice that i see more and more imperfections rather that the "good qualities" in myself. you see problems with your personality, physique, walk with God, speech, habits, etc.. i guess it's kinda like sin. as you grow older and mature, you become more and more sanctified, growing in holiness. and as a result, you see more and more of your sin. well, not just your sin but sin in general...the sinfulness of man. the sin of this world. so i guess it's a good thing. i mean, i don't think it'd be good everyone just got prouder and prouder of themselves. man, some people are already too arrogant.
previous 4th of july's...
9th grade: blew up firecrackers for the first time at bis.
10th grade: Giants/Dodger game.
11th grade: Korea.
12th grade: Chili's and hang out at terrance's place.
this year was probably my best 4th of july ever. it was such a chill day. i woke up at 12. got a haircut from dykas. went to Los Alizanes. went to Nickle Nickle for 2 hours. lol. went to arthur's house and watched them play with fireworks for a long long time. went to Pink's. saw daybear there...freakin' coincidence. and it was really hot the whole day so i loved it.
ever since alice told me about how she LOVES hot weather b/c she loves to sweat, i started to really like hot weather too. she was telling me how she loves to sweat b/c it's so refreshing, opening up all your pores and just sweating! i really liked that kinda mentality. so ever since, i've been looking forward to some hot HOT weather in irvine. and today's weather happend to do much justice to my desires.
man, my walk with God is so dry these days. i read and pray but there's no passion. there's no fire. must i be broken for the nth time to come back to God in humility and give Him the praise that He deserves?
Job 1:21: naked i came from my mother's womb and naked i will depart. the Lord gave and the Lord has taken away. may the name of the Lord be praised.
*sigh* may the name of the Lord be praised. no matter what state i am in, i am to praise God. difficult.
Thought of the Day: Simon came back safe.
Song of the Day: Good Charlotte-La Clique
July 3, 2003
you know, summer school isn't as bad as i thought it would be. i remember having dreadful thoughts of taking 39c over the summer during the school year. however, the workload isn't as bad as it normally would be. i guess alot of it also has to do with the fact that i'm only taking one course so i don't have to worry about anything else. even my writing teacher isn't as bad as my first impression of him thought to be. he has a very unique sense of humor that makes everyone laugh their laughs that they're trying to keep in. i don't know what is is...gay humor? but whatever it is, that bastard is a funny man. he actually does a pretty good job with teaching us writing too. today, he taught us how to write a good argumentative paper while playing his guitar. yeah, i can't believe it...the stuff actually made sense. but nevertheless, there IS work to be done! i had my first working draft due for my first paper today. last night, i started at 7 and finished at 4 in the morning. ugh, 9 hours on minimum wage. then of course i had to wake up at 7:20 to get ready for work.
but you know what's really cool about my job? our director, monica, actually buys us lunch every time we work! she just asks everyone what they want and she sends one of us out to go get it. how cool is that? i have a pretty chill job. i get good hours. i get good pay. i get free food. what more can a college student ask for? (more money fa sho!). but really, i'm content with my summer right now. i feel like i'm being pretty productive with summer school and work, and i still make time to have fun.
one thing i'm learning this summer is that you really need to make an effort to hang out with friends. i think everyone just kinda sits around at home and waits for people to call them with good ideas to hang out. but if everyone has this mentality, no one is going to hang out and everyone is going to be bored and sad. so i think it's important to really take the initiative to call people up and see if they wanna hang out. if not, too bad. if they're down, you now have something to do! i learned this through observation and personal experience...in other words, the hard way. yes, even a popular guy like me goes through periods of loneliness. haha. i called myself popular.
i watched T3 today with simone, simon, and dykas. i didn't think it was too bad. the action and dialogue was no where close to T2, but i was fairly impressed with the way they concluded the Terminator trilogy. and yeah, Kristanna Loken is hot.
Thought of the Day: Four day weekend.
Song of the Day: African Children's Choir-Thy Word
but you know what's really cool about my job? our director, monica, actually buys us lunch every time we work! she just asks everyone what they want and she sends one of us out to go get it. how cool is that? i have a pretty chill job. i get good hours. i get good pay. i get free food. what more can a college student ask for? (more money fa sho!). but really, i'm content with my summer right now. i feel like i'm being pretty productive with summer school and work, and i still make time to have fun.
one thing i'm learning this summer is that you really need to make an effort to hang out with friends. i think everyone just kinda sits around at home and waits for people to call them with good ideas to hang out. but if everyone has this mentality, no one is going to hang out and everyone is going to be bored and sad. so i think it's important to really take the initiative to call people up and see if they wanna hang out. if not, too bad. if they're down, you now have something to do! i learned this through observation and personal experience...in other words, the hard way. yes, even a popular guy like me goes through periods of loneliness. haha. i called myself popular.
i watched T3 today with simone, simon, and dykas. i didn't think it was too bad. the action and dialogue was no where close to T2, but i was fairly impressed with the way they concluded the Terminator trilogy. and yeah, Kristanna Loken is hot.
Thought of the Day: Four day weekend.
Song of the Day: African Children's Choir-Thy Word
June 30, 2003
June 28, 2003
I am the number 1 I am the loneliest number _ |
this quiz by orsa
what a number.
Thought of the Day: I hate seeing myself on video.
Song of the Day: Ace Of Base-The Sign
June 27, 2003
on wed., billy and arthur took me to this japanese market place called mitsuya. inside it was like a mini version of j-town up north. so for lunch, we went to the food court and i ate my very first bowl of real japanese ramen. *drool* sooooo good! i haven't had a GOOD meal like that in a while...you know, the meals that keep you happy for a very long time after you've finished it. so afterwards, we went to the market area and bought all this food. i kinda wandered off on my own and i ended up in the candy section. NARUTO CANDY?!
me: hey arthur look! naruto candy! it comes with a small toy and everything.
arthur: woah cool!
me: i think i'm going to get one.
arhur: me too.
(arthur opens his and gets Sasuke).
me: oh nice!
arthur: i'm going to get another one.
(buys one and opens it. another Sasuke).
me: ahahahahahhaha. another Sasuke?!
(i open mine).
me: yes! Sasuke!
arthur: dude, i don't want two Sasukes! should i go get another one?
me: dude, you're such a loser.
arthur: gosh, i wanted the Naruto.
(in the parking lot).
arthur: dude, i was about to go get another one.
me: just go in and buy another one! third time's a charm!
arthur: shuttup dude. i'm going to get another Sasuke!
me: no you're not! i bet you!
arthur: dude i will!
me: alrite i'll tell you what. if i buy one and get a toy that isn't Sasuke, you need to buy me another one.
arthur: FINE!
(i get a different character).
me: ahahahhahahaha. go buy me another one sucker!
arthur: omg.
(buys one).
me: you can do the honors.
(i get Haku).
me: hahahahahahaha. nice!
arthur: DUDE!
(goes back to buy another one for himself).
me: ahahahahahahahaha.
(gets one of my same characters).
arthur: DUDE!
me: hey c'mon, go get another one!
arthur: shuttup phil!
it was freakin' hilarious. this big college student going back to the same cashier buying the same toy over and over. lol. i was seriously dying.
living with arthur, that guy is such a funny guy. he says and does things that are so dumb...
(after eating popsicles).
me: what building has the most stories?
arthur: ...
me: the library!
arthur: I KNEW IT!
me: ahahahahahahah.
he reacted to it as if it were a riddle and not a joke. lol. so funny.
it started getting pretty warm in irvine yesterday. it's getting to the point where you have to wear shorts and maybe even sunblock! yes! this was the summer i was looking forward to. hot so. cal summer weather. it's really funny cause everytime i think of this cool la summer, i imagine listening to Ace the Bace-I Saw the Sign and driving through warm nights with all the windows down past alotta palm trees. jeah, those were the good ol' days! =D man, that thought totally defines chill. it's just like JEAH. haha what am i talking about?
last night, i met up with joey and henry. we ate in n' out, balled it up, and went to haila's place cause simone and sharon were there. gosh, i had one of those nights where i seriously regretted going out. since the guys lost in jenga, we had to buy the girls pat bing soo all the way in cerritos...Guppies. so we get lost and end up going on artesia the wrong way for a long time until we finally turn around after seeing this big airplane field. haha.
lesson learned: you don't always have to hang out with people just b/c they want you to come.
chris came back tonight! it's so good to see him again. he even hugged me after i came back from the arc! but yeah, that guy is finally driving again...brand new accord! freakin' chris, it's good seeing that guy again.
but dang, i was seriously feeling the pain working out today. 4 weeks. it's been too long. 2 miles is no longer considered a good workout. it's a marathon. i really need to start going again consistently. i've already gained back 2 pounds.
Thought of the Day: I hate research.
Song of the Day: Rockapella-In The Still Of The Night
me: hey arthur look! naruto candy! it comes with a small toy and everything.
arthur: woah cool!
me: i think i'm going to get one.
arhur: me too.
(arthur opens his and gets Sasuke).
me: oh nice!
arthur: i'm going to get another one.
(buys one and opens it. another Sasuke).
me: ahahahahahhaha. another Sasuke?!
(i open mine).
me: yes! Sasuke!
arthur: dude, i don't want two Sasukes! should i go get another one?
me: dude, you're such a loser.
arthur: gosh, i wanted the Naruto.
(in the parking lot).
arthur: dude, i was about to go get another one.
me: just go in and buy another one! third time's a charm!
arthur: shuttup dude. i'm going to get another Sasuke!
me: no you're not! i bet you!
arthur: dude i will!
me: alrite i'll tell you what. if i buy one and get a toy that isn't Sasuke, you need to buy me another one.
arthur: FINE!
(i get a different character).
me: ahahahhahahaha. go buy me another one sucker!
arthur: omg.
(buys one).
me: you can do the honors.
(i get Haku).
me: hahahahahahaha. nice!
arthur: DUDE!
(goes back to buy another one for himself).
me: ahahahahahahahaha.
(gets one of my same characters).
arthur: DUDE!
me: hey c'mon, go get another one!
arthur: shuttup phil!
it was freakin' hilarious. this big college student going back to the same cashier buying the same toy over and over. lol. i was seriously dying.
living with arthur, that guy is such a funny guy. he says and does things that are so dumb...
(after eating popsicles).
me: what building has the most stories?
arthur: ...
me: the library!
arthur: I KNEW IT!
me: ahahahahahahah.
he reacted to it as if it were a riddle and not a joke. lol. so funny.
it started getting pretty warm in irvine yesterday. it's getting to the point where you have to wear shorts and maybe even sunblock! yes! this was the summer i was looking forward to. hot so. cal summer weather. it's really funny cause everytime i think of this cool la summer, i imagine listening to Ace the Bace-I Saw the Sign and driving through warm nights with all the windows down past alotta palm trees. jeah, those were the good ol' days! =D man, that thought totally defines chill. it's just like JEAH. haha what am i talking about?
last night, i met up with joey and henry. we ate in n' out, balled it up, and went to haila's place cause simone and sharon were there. gosh, i had one of those nights where i seriously regretted going out. since the guys lost in jenga, we had to buy the girls pat bing soo all the way in cerritos...Guppies. so we get lost and end up going on artesia the wrong way for a long time until we finally turn around after seeing this big airplane field. haha.
lesson learned: you don't always have to hang out with people just b/c they want you to come.
chris came back tonight! it's so good to see him again. he even hugged me after i came back from the arc! but yeah, that guy is finally driving again...brand new accord! freakin' chris, it's good seeing that guy again.
but dang, i was seriously feeling the pain working out today. 4 weeks. it's been too long. 2 miles is no longer considered a good workout. it's a marathon. i really need to start going again consistently. i've already gained back 2 pounds.
Thought of the Day: I hate research.
Song of the Day: Rockapella-In The Still Of The Night
June 25, 2003
a n n i etardx2 (4:19:44 PM): remember minh's joke?
a n n i etardx2 (4:19:45 PM): haha
a n n i etardx2 (4:19:49 PM): what comes before part b
a n n i etardx2 (4:19:51 PM): aha
Pretzelboi96 (4:19:58 PM): ?
a n n i etardx2 (4:20:04 PM): partay!!
a n n i etardx2 (4:20:06 PM): hahaa X=
Pretzelboi96 (4:20:11 PM): ahahahahha
Pretzelboi96 (4:20:20 PM): did he say that last night?
a n n i etardx2 (4:20:25 PM): minh do joke yeah
a n n i etardx2 (4:20:26 PM): haha
Pretzelboi96 (4:27:30 PM): lol
christmas shopping is 100% complete...including the Zest, Pertplus, and Dove. lol. minh, janet, and bunz got me a $100 Gap jacket yesterday. nice folks (even though they got like over 50% off). but i'm happy that my shopping has come to an end. i went $50 over but that's ok. it could have been worse. yes, oh so much worse.
random: i didn't even bother to read CJ's xanga. what a bunch of crap.
Thought of the Day: Pagan style.
Song of the Day: Good Charlotte-Little Things
a n n i etardx2 (4:19:45 PM): haha
a n n i etardx2 (4:19:49 PM): what comes before part b
a n n i etardx2 (4:19:51 PM): aha
Pretzelboi96 (4:19:58 PM): ?
a n n i etardx2 (4:20:04 PM): partay!!
a n n i etardx2 (4:20:06 PM): hahaa X=
Pretzelboi96 (4:20:11 PM): ahahahahha
Pretzelboi96 (4:20:20 PM): did he say that last night?
a n n i etardx2 (4:20:25 PM): minh do joke yeah
a n n i etardx2 (4:20:26 PM): haha
Pretzelboi96 (4:27:30 PM): lol
christmas shopping is 100% complete...including the Zest, Pertplus, and Dove. lol. minh, janet, and bunz got me a $100 Gap jacket yesterday. nice folks (even though they got like over 50% off). but i'm happy that my shopping has come to an end. i went $50 over but that's ok. it could have been worse. yes, oh so much worse.
random: i didn't even bother to read CJ's xanga. what a bunch of crap.
Thought of the Day: Pagan style.
Song of the Day: Good Charlotte-Little Things
June 24, 2003
ever since i've moved in with the guys, my stomach's been upset every single day. like when i'm outside, i don't really feel it much. but whenever i'm inside just sitting at my desk or talking to arthur, my stomach is always in pain. it's really weird. i don't know if it's b/c of the food or it's the smell of crab in our apt.. perhaps it's just psychological or it's a combination of everything. but whatever the case, i hate it. even as i type these words into my blogger, my stomach is punching me with discomfort. any bio majors out there who might have an explanation?
but like i was saying, the food can definitely be a cause of my stomach upsets. i really don't eat in a logical and consistent manner. food has ranged from french bread with vinegar to late night crab to cereal after cereal after cereal. i eat meals at like 3 in the afternoon and 11 at night. gosh, i'm starting to experience this college life food stuff already and i'm not even a sohomore yet. it sucks cause it's not like i wanna spend money on fastfood all the time either. 1. it's like a waste of money. 2. it's just so bad for you.
so anyways, arthur has been telling everyone for a while that he was going to learn how to make pat thai and make it for everyone. most of the times, i just assume that it's just one of the things he'd like to do and that he won't actually follow through with his ideas. however tonight, we actually went to Ranch Market 99 and bought all the goods. he bought all kinds of stuff...egg roll wraps, garlic, peanut oil, and all this other garbage. it was funny cause watching arthur shop, it looked like he had no idea what he was doing. ahahahahahaha. that fool just seems so spontaneous you know? very confident and bold.
well when we got home, i was freakin' tired. i had had a looong day...busy day at work and freakin' summer school. so when we got home, i took a nap while he was cooking. i woke up right on time for his BOMB pat thai! i seriously wasn't expecting crap but this crap actually turned out to be great! i really enjoyed it alot. it was as if i was eating at Thai Spice! but just the fact that hard-to-trust arthur made the food, made my meal that much more delicious. his "kick ass pat thai." lol.
going into work today was no walk in the park. it was my first day working with andrea, the other worker who's been there for a while. gosh, i had to answer sooooo many phone calls! i hate answering phone calls, explaining our different programs, giving directions to our new place, and scheduling appointments for DTs and conferences....IN KOREAN! it's really a humbling experience. broken korean with people who have been put on hold. BUT like every other time i've worked, i get better and better at my job. i can now give SAT diagnostic tests to students, time them, and grade them. b/c i've been so humbled with some bad conversations on the phone, i feel alot more confident with some of the familiar questions that the parents have. it's funny how i only get calls from ahjumas and never the dads. haha.
summer school...
for roll, my teachers wants us to tell us what our names mean and how we got it...and anything else that is interesting about it...
teacher: philip chung.
me: (philip = lover of horses). i don't know what my name means.
teacher: well let's see. Philip means rider of horses. something with horses.
me: oh.
random student with laptop: it actually means LOVER of horses.
teacher: oh well there you go. lover of horses!
me: (thanks alot butthole!). you can call me phil.
so my teacher is gay. not happy. not annoying or retarded. he's a homosexual. i've never had a homosexual teacher before. you know, we're called to love all sinners...even gay people. but goodness, it's so hard to think of/love them as normal people b/c they're just so blatantly different. it's not like they try to act masucline or anything. they act gay with PRIDE! it's quite distracting for me in this educaitonal setting. however, i'm glad that my writing class is a little different from the regular course during the year. instead of 4 papers, i only have to do 3. and instead of picking my own topic and researching it, we read from a book and research stuff to have evidence specifically for that book. man, no hot girls in my class. well, there's this one cute vietnamise girl but she's nothing special. and there's this one intimidating girl who wears a grip of makeup. very hoochie you know? what's even more unattractive is her voice...the smoker's voice. very deep and coarse. definitely not fitting for girls. i think this course is going to be the fastest 5 weeks for me. it's not as bad as i think it'll be.
Thought of the Day: "Oh MAaan!"
Song of the Day: Blackstreet & Mya-Take Me There ABC Remix
but like i was saying, the food can definitely be a cause of my stomach upsets. i really don't eat in a logical and consistent manner. food has ranged from french bread with vinegar to late night crab to cereal after cereal after cereal. i eat meals at like 3 in the afternoon and 11 at night. gosh, i'm starting to experience this college life food stuff already and i'm not even a sohomore yet. it sucks cause it's not like i wanna spend money on fastfood all the time either. 1. it's like a waste of money. 2. it's just so bad for you.
so anyways, arthur has been telling everyone for a while that he was going to learn how to make pat thai and make it for everyone. most of the times, i just assume that it's just one of the things he'd like to do and that he won't actually follow through with his ideas. however tonight, we actually went to Ranch Market 99 and bought all the goods. he bought all kinds of stuff...egg roll wraps, garlic, peanut oil, and all this other garbage. it was funny cause watching arthur shop, it looked like he had no idea what he was doing. ahahahahahaha. that fool just seems so spontaneous you know? very confident and bold.
well when we got home, i was freakin' tired. i had had a looong day...busy day at work and freakin' summer school. so when we got home, i took a nap while he was cooking. i woke up right on time for his BOMB pat thai! i seriously wasn't expecting crap but this crap actually turned out to be great! i really enjoyed it alot. it was as if i was eating at Thai Spice! but just the fact that hard-to-trust arthur made the food, made my meal that much more delicious. his "kick ass pat thai." lol.
going into work today was no walk in the park. it was my first day working with andrea, the other worker who's been there for a while. gosh, i had to answer sooooo many phone calls! i hate answering phone calls, explaining our different programs, giving directions to our new place, and scheduling appointments for DTs and conferences....IN KOREAN! it's really a humbling experience. broken korean with people who have been put on hold. BUT like every other time i've worked, i get better and better at my job. i can now give SAT diagnostic tests to students, time them, and grade them. b/c i've been so humbled with some bad conversations on the phone, i feel alot more confident with some of the familiar questions that the parents have. it's funny how i only get calls from ahjumas and never the dads. haha.
summer school...
for roll, my teachers wants us to tell us what our names mean and how we got it...and anything else that is interesting about it...
teacher: philip chung.
me: (philip = lover of horses). i don't know what my name means.
teacher: well let's see. Philip means rider of horses. something with horses.
me: oh.
random student with laptop: it actually means LOVER of horses.
teacher: oh well there you go. lover of horses!
me: (thanks alot butthole!). you can call me phil.
so my teacher is gay. not happy. not annoying or retarded. he's a homosexual. i've never had a homosexual teacher before. you know, we're called to love all sinners...even gay people. but goodness, it's so hard to think of/love them as normal people b/c they're just so blatantly different. it's not like they try to act masucline or anything. they act gay with PRIDE! it's quite distracting for me in this educaitonal setting. however, i'm glad that my writing class is a little different from the regular course during the year. instead of 4 papers, i only have to do 3. and instead of picking my own topic and researching it, we read from a book and research stuff to have evidence specifically for that book. man, no hot girls in my class. well, there's this one cute vietnamise girl but she's nothing special. and there's this one intimidating girl who wears a grip of makeup. very hoochie you know? what's even more unattractive is her voice...the smoker's voice. very deep and coarse. definitely not fitting for girls. i think this course is going to be the fastest 5 weeks for me. it's not as bad as i think it'll be.
Thought of the Day: "Oh MAaan!"
Song of the Day: Blackstreet & Mya-Take Me There ABC Remix
June 21, 2003
billy: alrite phil. ready to get drunk?
freakin' 4th years.
billy: grades are out.
me: yeah i know. i didn't do as well as i had hoped.
(checks his grade).
billy: i did horrible!
me: horrible or just not as good as you had hoped?
billy: horrible!
me: oh. don't worry about it man.
billy: this calls for getting really drunk.
me: lol.
of course he's just kidding for all you slow ones.
man, my grades suck. but may my heart never fail to praise God.
Thought of the Day: Dykas failed writing!
Song of the Day: Psy-Seh
freakin' 4th years.
billy: grades are out.
me: yeah i know. i didn't do as well as i had hoped.
(checks his grade).
billy: i did horrible!
me: horrible or just not as good as you had hoped?
billy: horrible!
me: oh. don't worry about it man.
billy: this calls for getting really drunk.
me: lol.
of course he's just kidding for all you slow ones.
man, my grades suck. but may my heart never fail to praise God.
Thought of the Day: Dykas failed writing!
Song of the Day: Psy-Seh
i am finally home. not burlingame. i mean HOME! home as in IRVINE!
i ended up getting my 8290 with white lights on wednesday. it feels so small and light cause i haven't used it in a long time. it feels good to use the awesome phone that i once had in high school. those chinese people weren't so shady afterall.
that same night, i went to cashe creek and just like in the past, i failed to stop at my goal of $100. but unlike my previous times, i had some really fun games. unfortunately, my big games ended up with some sham cards...
i have a 10. dealer shows an 8. i actually double down on this. i hit ACE! (lots of hugging and cheering). dealer flips her other card over. a 2. she too hits an ace. push. (tears begin to flow).
that was a big game too.
but we all have our stories to tell that no one is interested in. after i was done, i went outside to cool off. of all the people in all the places of all the days, i meet old high schoolmate, bernard. his negative $4000 made me feel a little better. dang, some people really have problems out there. what a sad lifestyle.
since i had left the casino really late, i got home at 7:45. right on time for me to take my brother to the dentist (God knows WHY mom scheduled such an appointment). i hadn't been to the dentist in over a year but my mom told me that my old dentist wanted to check up on my teeth. so after my brother, i end up taking 8 different x-rays, clean my teeth, and have a chat with my dentist. gosh, i hated taking those x-rays. the guy would stick this wooden thing into my mouth until i started gagging. then he'd tell me to bite down and stay still while he took the picture...8 unforgivable times!
it was pretty embarrassing cause after each time they took the wooden thing out of my mouth, there'd be a line of spit trailing from my mouth and they'd just stop it with their hands. lol. so sexy.
the lady who was cleaning my teeth had some pretty eyes. you can't really see the rest of their face b/c they wear those masks but you assume whatever's inside is just as good as the eyes. gosh, you feel like such an idiot with your mouth open and that dumb stare...especially when you think the dentist look attractive. gosh, don't they also have the nicest voices? "can you say ah?" she says with that pretty voice. and you give them a stupid smile and give them a nasty AHHH! lol. it's funny when i think about it now but boy was i hating it then.
anyways, i received some bad news...
1. one of my teeth, just ONE is growing crooked so i have to wear a retainer when i go to sleep.
2. b/c of a few cavities, i need to get some fillings the next time i come in.
3. wisdom teeth are growing crooked so they're going to have to go. the avoided is no longer evitable.
4. since i grind my teeth when i'm asleep, i'm going to have start wearing a mouth guard for 6 months to fix this cacophony. did you know that teeth grinding is due to stress? i didn't know that. but i'm not the only one with this problem cause it's very common. even my dentist grinds his teeth. i bet you didn't know that one either.
i got 3 hours of sleep and didn't even get to say bye to my dad. freakin' shame. but i felt refreshed and started my drive at 3:40. amazingly, i arrived in la at 9:30! well, i only had to stop twice. once for bathroom. second time for gas. the drive actually wasn't as bad as i thought it'd be. just listening to music and one of chang's debates on tape. of course i could've used some company but driving alone is no impossible task. praise God that me and my car are still in one piece.
late dinner with crawford at Jose something. never EVER get the Spicy Galbi Kimchi Burrito. such things are only to be joked about...never actually created. but i did enjoy desert from Didi Rees(?). chocolate chip ice cream sandwich with expresso ice cream. yum! ucla is such a bujee berkeley.
san marino isn't as great as villa coronado. BUT i still like the place. i'm rooming with billy and chris while arthur is with eugene. billy's a really nice guy. he bought me Thai Spice today and took me around to buy a desk. oh yeah, today was my first time at Ikea. i don't know if it was just this one but dang is that place extravagantly big! i picked out this awesome $100 desk and $70 chair. but dude, i couldn't help but think that i could've bought this desk for free if i hadn't been so greedy at the casino. (shaking head). sinful bastard. it took me forever to finally unpack all of my stuff and put all of it onto my desk. i seriously love my desk though. it makes everyone's desk in this apt. look like scrapwood. haha.
i'm pretty lonely right now. everyone's in cerritos and i'm here all by myself. also since there's no fridge in the apt yet, there's no food. and since i didn't want to eat fastfood or spend money, i just ate pieces of bread with small carrots with my orange mountain dew. a depressing meal for a lonely boy.
so what better thing to do than blog on your new and beautiful desk? yeah, i couldn't think of anything either.
Thought of the Day: The desk fit in Billy's car!
Song of the Day: Jim Brickman Stuff
i ended up getting my 8290 with white lights on wednesday. it feels so small and light cause i haven't used it in a long time. it feels good to use the awesome phone that i once had in high school. those chinese people weren't so shady afterall.
that same night, i went to cashe creek and just like in the past, i failed to stop at my goal of $100. but unlike my previous times, i had some really fun games. unfortunately, my big games ended up with some sham cards...
i have a 10. dealer shows an 8. i actually double down on this. i hit ACE! (lots of hugging and cheering). dealer flips her other card over. a 2. she too hits an ace. push. (tears begin to flow).
that was a big game too.
but we all have our stories to tell that no one is interested in. after i was done, i went outside to cool off. of all the people in all the places of all the days, i meet old high schoolmate, bernard. his negative $4000 made me feel a little better. dang, some people really have problems out there. what a sad lifestyle.
since i had left the casino really late, i got home at 7:45. right on time for me to take my brother to the dentist (God knows WHY mom scheduled such an appointment). i hadn't been to the dentist in over a year but my mom told me that my old dentist wanted to check up on my teeth. so after my brother, i end up taking 8 different x-rays, clean my teeth, and have a chat with my dentist. gosh, i hated taking those x-rays. the guy would stick this wooden thing into my mouth until i started gagging. then he'd tell me to bite down and stay still while he took the picture...8 unforgivable times!
it was pretty embarrassing cause after each time they took the wooden thing out of my mouth, there'd be a line of spit trailing from my mouth and they'd just stop it with their hands. lol. so sexy.
the lady who was cleaning my teeth had some pretty eyes. you can't really see the rest of their face b/c they wear those masks but you assume whatever's inside is just as good as the eyes. gosh, you feel like such an idiot with your mouth open and that dumb stare...especially when you think the dentist look attractive. gosh, don't they also have the nicest voices? "can you say ah?" she says with that pretty voice. and you give them a stupid smile and give them a nasty AHHH! lol. it's funny when i think about it now but boy was i hating it then.
anyways, i received some bad news...
1. one of my teeth, just ONE is growing crooked so i have to wear a retainer when i go to sleep.
2. b/c of a few cavities, i need to get some fillings the next time i come in.
3. wisdom teeth are growing crooked so they're going to have to go. the avoided is no longer evitable.
4. since i grind my teeth when i'm asleep, i'm going to have start wearing a mouth guard for 6 months to fix this cacophony. did you know that teeth grinding is due to stress? i didn't know that. but i'm not the only one with this problem cause it's very common. even my dentist grinds his teeth. i bet you didn't know that one either.
i got 3 hours of sleep and didn't even get to say bye to my dad. freakin' shame. but i felt refreshed and started my drive at 3:40. amazingly, i arrived in la at 9:30! well, i only had to stop twice. once for bathroom. second time for gas. the drive actually wasn't as bad as i thought it'd be. just listening to music and one of chang's debates on tape. of course i could've used some company but driving alone is no impossible task. praise God that me and my car are still in one piece.
late dinner with crawford at Jose something. never EVER get the Spicy Galbi Kimchi Burrito. such things are only to be joked about...never actually created. but i did enjoy desert from Didi Rees(?). chocolate chip ice cream sandwich with expresso ice cream. yum! ucla is such a bujee berkeley.
san marino isn't as great as villa coronado. BUT i still like the place. i'm rooming with billy and chris while arthur is with eugene. billy's a really nice guy. he bought me Thai Spice today and took me around to buy a desk. oh yeah, today was my first time at Ikea. i don't know if it was just this one but dang is that place extravagantly big! i picked out this awesome $100 desk and $70 chair. but dude, i couldn't help but think that i could've bought this desk for free if i hadn't been so greedy at the casino. (shaking head). sinful bastard. it took me forever to finally unpack all of my stuff and put all of it onto my desk. i seriously love my desk though. it makes everyone's desk in this apt. look like scrapwood. haha.
i'm pretty lonely right now. everyone's in cerritos and i'm here all by myself. also since there's no fridge in the apt yet, there's no food. and since i didn't want to eat fastfood or spend money, i just ate pieces of bread with small carrots with my orange mountain dew. a depressing meal for a lonely boy.
so what better thing to do than blog on your new and beautiful desk? yeah, i couldn't think of anything either.
Thought of the Day: The desk fit in Billy's car!
Song of the Day: Jim Brickman Stuff
June 18, 2003
my dad is seriously the corniest guy in the whole world. but omg can that guy seriously crack up his family...
(lying down on my bed).
dad: ladies and gentlemen, can i have your attention?
*FART*
family: ahahahhaahhahahah.
me: dad, did you know that a lot of people drink boba over here?
dad: boba? the opposite of boba is "babo." stupid.
me: ahahahhaahhah.
but the more i've been spending time with him, the more i've been realizing how similar we are. the way he talks to people. the way he appreciate the music that he loves. the way he spends his time around the house. i can totally see myself being like him when i'm older...just not as corny and definitely not a fob. dude, some of his jokes just have to go.
last night, i ate dinner at this family's house. the family had a son and a daughter...junior and sophomore in high school. they lived in korea and switzerland but they're going to finish up school here in burlingame. i feel really sorry for people who have to move so much in their childhood years. they never get to see/make some permanent friends and it's especially difficult for them as they have to adjust to different cultures and languages. but still, they were fobs at heart. haha.
i was talking to the girl, kyung sun, in her room for like a bit cause simon was just playing starcraft with the other guy. she's a really cute and nice girl. she's one of those girls that reminds you how much you wish you had a sister. i think i'd be so good to my younger sister. i mean i'd be no perfect brother but i can definitely see myself loving the crap out of her. oh well. sharkface is a very decent sibling too...that ugly bastard.
just as dykas said, it's really boring up north. i too miss cpc people and even a FEW ccm people. but unlike my past breaks, i haven't been spending as much money. i remember spending like over $500 during winter break. (shaking head). man, talk about lacking discipline. but i've been pretty good this past week. i took out $100 before i came up and i still have some money for boba! i didn't shoot pool once this whole break! the old phil would've broken his poolstick on me for saying that. well, things change...which reminds me, i need to wash up and get out of these clothes. nnnnnnnnn...laters! haha.
Thought of the Day: Dad hasn't had BK in over two years.
Song of the Day: Shaun Groves-After The Music Fades
(lying down on my bed).
dad: ladies and gentlemen, can i have your attention?
*FART*
family: ahahahhaahhahahah.
me: dad, did you know that a lot of people drink boba over here?
dad: boba? the opposite of boba is "babo." stupid.
me: ahahahhaahhah.
but the more i've been spending time with him, the more i've been realizing how similar we are. the way he talks to people. the way he appreciate the music that he loves. the way he spends his time around the house. i can totally see myself being like him when i'm older...just not as corny and definitely not a fob. dude, some of his jokes just have to go.
last night, i ate dinner at this family's house. the family had a son and a daughter...junior and sophomore in high school. they lived in korea and switzerland but they're going to finish up school here in burlingame. i feel really sorry for people who have to move so much in their childhood years. they never get to see/make some permanent friends and it's especially difficult for them as they have to adjust to different cultures and languages. but still, they were fobs at heart. haha.
i was talking to the girl, kyung sun, in her room for like a bit cause simon was just playing starcraft with the other guy. she's a really cute and nice girl. she's one of those girls that reminds you how much you wish you had a sister. i think i'd be so good to my younger sister. i mean i'd be no perfect brother but i can definitely see myself loving the crap out of her. oh well. sharkface is a very decent sibling too...that ugly bastard.
just as dykas said, it's really boring up north. i too miss cpc people and even a FEW ccm people. but unlike my past breaks, i haven't been spending as much money. i remember spending like over $500 during winter break. (shaking head). man, talk about lacking discipline. but i've been pretty good this past week. i took out $100 before i came up and i still have some money for boba! i didn't shoot pool once this whole break! the old phil would've broken his poolstick on me for saying that. well, things change...which reminds me, i need to wash up and get out of these clothes. nnnnnnnnn...laters! haha.
Thought of the Day: Dad hasn't had BK in over two years.
Song of the Day: Shaun Groves-After The Music Fades
June 15, 2003
brother is taking a crap/shower so i have a few minutes to blog. so i'm obviously home right now and it feels good to be back in nor cal. the drive up/down seems to get easier every time b/c i get more and more conditioned. dykas and i have much more fun in our conversations too. this time, we talked about people at church and the best ways to make fun of them. haha. old phil chung is so easy. but yeah, praise God for the safe trip!
it's really good seeing my dad again. he really did get older! he was actually surprised to see that i got taller. even though i learned that guys don't stop growing til like 20, i thought i had finished sometime during my senior year. i guess i'm about 5 11 now but whatever. i was never concerned about my height...ever. oh yeah, and my UGLY brother! seriously, i always tell everyone in so. cal that my brother is a true piece of bad genes. believe it or not but his face got even bigger! literally every time i visit home, his face gets bigger and bigger. but at least he's growing taller too. he's definitely having a major growth spurt right now. and dang can that kid eat!
the other day, my family went out with my second cousins' family for some chinese food in san jo. i ate a grip and i know my stomach was defintely hating me for it. i had all this jjajangmyun and i seriously had to force the last 10 bites just to finish my food out of courtesy. but later, i found out that my brother was so unsatisfied cause he wanted to eat more. freakin' monster. he's at that stage. he's at that age. this kid eats like he's from the stone age. ok, rhymes are definitely not my forte.
but it was weird seeing my cousins again. it's the group of cousins that i don't really like to be around. i never feel comfortable when i talk to them about anything. everything always seems forced or we're just asking to be nice. b/c of this crappy family dinner, i didn't go see my uncle today with my mom and dad. screw that, i wanna go to the movies with old yg buddies!
before i went to the movies today, i went to irving with B to pick up my old cell phone. turns out that they couldn't fix my phone so i convinced them to hook me up with an 8290 or 8390 with white lights for free. they told me to pick it up on tues. but i don't know. they're always shady in terms of telling me to come back next time. we'll see. but i love going to irving b/c i get to have the best boba in the world. seriously, those chinese people know how to make the best tasting boba in the world. while tapioca express uses blenders and written up ingredients, irving has fobs who already know their stuff and they shake and make everything themselves. and it's only $2.50.
afterwards, we went to Office Depot cause i wanted to look at some of the desks that they had. man, they have some NIIIIIICE desks out there at some attractive prices. gosh, there was this one desk that had alotta glass and this awesome shelf...all for like $130 cause it was on clearance. dude, i was drooling all over that sucker for the longest time but i know i can't get it cause it's too big to be in the apts. i hate it when you see things like that. things that are too good to be true but certain circumstances just don't allow it. FUDGE!!!
Finding Nemo wasn't that great. just ok. Pixar has so much more potential than that. but like moe and every other girl said, "it was cute." but i had alotta fun hanging out with jessica, jomo, and "pastor dave" at in n' out. seriously, i've changed alot and they know it too. these former yg teachers, i actually talk with them and understand and can relate to what they're talking about. i mean, there's still a clear difference in age and maturity but still...my boat is closer to their boat rather than yg's island. haha. dude, and it's very obvious that i've BECOME very so. cal. they know it. i know it. it's really funny how they kept pointing it out. i like it though. so. cal IS better than nor. cal! haha. just so much cooler in alotta different ways. call me a conformist. whatever, i'm cool now. =D
funny....
(talking about sharing our sins in small group).
jessica: yeah, this one time 4 girls cried!
chang: with guys, it's just..."it's alrite man....ROMANS." ahahahhahahahhahah. (chang's laughter).
ahahhahahahha.
Thought of the Day: I'm going to need $300.
Song of the Day: Something Corporate-Punk Rock Princess
it's really good seeing my dad again. he really did get older! he was actually surprised to see that i got taller. even though i learned that guys don't stop growing til like 20, i thought i had finished sometime during my senior year. i guess i'm about 5 11 now but whatever. i was never concerned about my height...ever. oh yeah, and my UGLY brother! seriously, i always tell everyone in so. cal that my brother is a true piece of bad genes. believe it or not but his face got even bigger! literally every time i visit home, his face gets bigger and bigger. but at least he's growing taller too. he's definitely having a major growth spurt right now. and dang can that kid eat!
the other day, my family went out with my second cousins' family for some chinese food in san jo. i ate a grip and i know my stomach was defintely hating me for it. i had all this jjajangmyun and i seriously had to force the last 10 bites just to finish my food out of courtesy. but later, i found out that my brother was so unsatisfied cause he wanted to eat more. freakin' monster. he's at that stage. he's at that age. this kid eats like he's from the stone age. ok, rhymes are definitely not my forte.
but it was weird seeing my cousins again. it's the group of cousins that i don't really like to be around. i never feel comfortable when i talk to them about anything. everything always seems forced or we're just asking to be nice. b/c of this crappy family dinner, i didn't go see my uncle today with my mom and dad. screw that, i wanna go to the movies with old yg buddies!
before i went to the movies today, i went to irving with B to pick up my old cell phone. turns out that they couldn't fix my phone so i convinced them to hook me up with an 8290 or 8390 with white lights for free. they told me to pick it up on tues. but i don't know. they're always shady in terms of telling me to come back next time. we'll see. but i love going to irving b/c i get to have the best boba in the world. seriously, those chinese people know how to make the best tasting boba in the world. while tapioca express uses blenders and written up ingredients, irving has fobs who already know their stuff and they shake and make everything themselves. and it's only $2.50.
afterwards, we went to Office Depot cause i wanted to look at some of the desks that they had. man, they have some NIIIIIICE desks out there at some attractive prices. gosh, there was this one desk that had alotta glass and this awesome shelf...all for like $130 cause it was on clearance. dude, i was drooling all over that sucker for the longest time but i know i can't get it cause it's too big to be in the apts. i hate it when you see things like that. things that are too good to be true but certain circumstances just don't allow it. FUDGE!!!
Finding Nemo wasn't that great. just ok. Pixar has so much more potential than that. but like moe and every other girl said, "it was cute." but i had alotta fun hanging out with jessica, jomo, and "pastor dave" at in n' out. seriously, i've changed alot and they know it too. these former yg teachers, i actually talk with them and understand and can relate to what they're talking about. i mean, there's still a clear difference in age and maturity but still...my boat is closer to their boat rather than yg's island. haha. dude, and it's very obvious that i've BECOME very so. cal. they know it. i know it. it's really funny how they kept pointing it out. i like it though. so. cal IS better than nor. cal! haha. just so much cooler in alotta different ways. call me a conformist. whatever, i'm cool now. =D
funny....
(talking about sharing our sins in small group).
jessica: yeah, this one time 4 girls cried!
chang: with guys, it's just..."it's alrite man....ROMANS." ahahahhahahahhahah. (chang's laughter).
ahahhahahahha.
Thought of the Day: I'm going to need $300.
Song of the Day: Something Corporate-Punk Rock Princess
June 12, 2003
something i'm gonna rip off from some guy's xanga...
My Alphabet
A last night in the dorms.
Beating around the bush.
Cold outside.
Dying of insomnia.
Entertained by watching 4th season of Friends.
Frank is who we're waiting for to gamble.
Girls = drama.
Having different attitudes on different people.
Irvine Project is dope.
Justin's chills in Korea while i'll be summerschooling & working this summer.
Killing time.
Lacking patience.
Major regrets on not going to LA tonight.
Nas, Lauryn Hill, Chino XL, & Xzibit on my playlist.
Only thinking of something to type.
Pretty crappy way to end freshmen year.
Quite displeased with a number of things.
Reading profiles.
Sophomore year is going to suck.
Trying to think of something else.
Ugly heart.
Vile thoughts.
Wrong things to be saying to me right now.
X this!
You shouldn't care.
Zeal. tough.
Thought of the Day: See you up north.
Song of the Day: Nas, Lauryn Hill, Chino XL, & Xzibit-Wake Up Show Anthem
My Alphabet
A last night in the dorms.
Beating around the bush.
Cold outside.
Dying of insomnia.
Entertained by watching 4th season of Friends.
Frank is who we're waiting for to gamble.
Girls = drama.
Having different attitudes on different people.
Irvine Project is dope.
Justin's chills in Korea while i'll be summerschooling & working this summer.
Killing time.
Lacking patience.
Major regrets on not going to LA tonight.
Nas, Lauryn Hill, Chino XL, & Xzibit on my playlist.
Only thinking of something to type.
Pretty crappy way to end freshmen year.
Quite displeased with a number of things.
Reading profiles.
Sophomore year is going to suck.
Trying to think of something else.
Ugly heart.
Vile thoughts.
Wrong things to be saying to me right now.
X this!
You shouldn't care.
Zeal. tough.
Thought of the Day: See you up north.
Song of the Day: Nas, Lauryn Hill, Chino XL, & Xzibit-Wake Up Show Anthem
June 11, 2003
oh wow! blogger changed it's page quite a bit. weird.
ok, so i'm finally done with my freshmen year of college. i haven't written a LONG blog in a LONG time so just don't read if you don't like to read for a LONG time...
good/bad memories of this year:
1. meeting minh & kiyoshi for the first time.
2. shooting pool EVERYday.
3. minh hiding willburt's cupnoodle. lol.
4. watching all those movies on my computer.
5. exchanging x-mas gifts in the dorms.
6. gambling almost every single night! bang-bao to vegas.
7. crying after taking my psych. final...only by the grace of God!
8. all those parties in my room.
9. playing ball at the arc.
10. eating at common's everyday with dykas first quarter.
11. playing pingpong with bunz.
12. cramming for all those midterms/finals in our studyroom. those were some lonely nights.
13. doing pushups with minh.
14. watching gto w/J, annie, and minh.
15. watching naruto with minh.
16. watching minh watch slamdunk.
17. my first day at cpc.
18. winter retreat.
19. freshmen retreat.
20. women's/senior/freshmen banquet.
21. fellowship with clusters.
22. meeting aaron for the first time. lol.
23. watching all those korean movies with karen & dykas.
24. eating pizza for almost every dinner.
25. first time at ccm.
26. 6 flags!
27. pho 54.
28. chillin' at jisun's place on a very sick day.
29. first time at BCD's.
30. first time meeting eugene & chris! lol.
31. hurting my wrist after punching minh.
32. being so lonely the first two weeks of college.
33. running at the arc.
34. pool tournaments!
35. bleaching my hair!
36. cutting my hair!
37. visiting all the UC's.
38. *sigh* clubbing.
39. late night talks with minh.
40. meeting esther & hannah at progressive dinner...even though i had already met them before?
41. getting written up for playing the sentence game too loud.
42. buying my poolstick.
43. hating dormlife.
44. practicing & practicing that impossible bodyworship.
45. going to The Block for the first time with 20+ people.
46. casino morrango.
47. teaching everyone how to play gumpch at winter retreat.
48. justin playing in irvine.
49. GOSPEL CHOIR!
50. patbingsoo w/usc & crawford.
hmm, i'm kinda disappointed in myself. i thought i'd have way more memories than 50. well, i obviously have alotta small ones but i think these were the big ones. man, freshmen year is such a crazy year. just so much happens. you move in. you meet sooooooo many people! you study so hard. you play so much harder. you mature in unimaginable ways. you learn learn learn!
but this year, i must say that i've grown sooooo much closer to God. of all the years of my life, i think i've grown the most this year. i think one of the biggest things i learned this year was the idea of friendship. who your true friends are. who your hangout buddies are. who your acquaintances are. really, you see so much difficulty in making "real" friends in college. i think everyone also goes through some hard difficult times of loneliness. but it is in these times, you realize that man is that imperfect and God is that much MORE PERFECT! He is the only REAL friend. the only one that can understand what you're going through the most...even better than you! He is your only true source of comfort. He is always listening.
man, words can't express how sinful i've been this year. my actions, my mentality, my judgements, my desires. i know that i have been a horrible witness to nonchristian AND christian people alike. too many times i have been hypocritical and have been very selfish in my speech. how pitiful.
but through it all...my good times and bad times, God has ALWAYS been there with me. i think it is very true that God is closest to you in your most humbling circumstances...when you depend on Him the most. it is so true what it says in James 4:8...Draw near to God and God will draw near to you. so very true. i also think that as you get older, life gets tougher. but b/c life gets tougher, you also grow closer to God. it's true that you grow in holiness over time. not only do you mature physically and mentally, but most definitely SPIRITUALLY!
man, i have so many different ideas and i can't seem to write them in an organized manner. i wish i had like 20 different heads so i could just say everything at once. man, this year...this year. it was quite a year. man, college is quite something. i never knew it'd be like this. but gosh, praise God! everything that happened is only b/c of God. all Glory to Him. that's all i can say.
Thought of the Day: It is finished.
Song of the Day: Cannibus-Second Round KO
ok, so i'm finally done with my freshmen year of college. i haven't written a LONG blog in a LONG time so just don't read if you don't like to read for a LONG time...
good/bad memories of this year:
1. meeting minh & kiyoshi for the first time.
2. shooting pool EVERYday.
3. minh hiding willburt's cupnoodle. lol.
4. watching all those movies on my computer.
5. exchanging x-mas gifts in the dorms.
6. gambling almost every single night! bang-bao to vegas.
7. crying after taking my psych. final...only by the grace of God!
8. all those parties in my room.
9. playing ball at the arc.
10. eating at common's everyday with dykas first quarter.
11. playing pingpong with bunz.
12. cramming for all those midterms/finals in our studyroom. those were some lonely nights.
13. doing pushups with minh.
14. watching gto w/J, annie, and minh.
15. watching naruto with minh.
16. watching minh watch slamdunk.
17. my first day at cpc.
18. winter retreat.
19. freshmen retreat.
20. women's/senior/freshmen banquet.
21. fellowship with clusters.
22. meeting aaron for the first time. lol.
23. watching all those korean movies with karen & dykas.
24. eating pizza for almost every dinner.
25. first time at ccm.
26. 6 flags!
27. pho 54.
28. chillin' at jisun's place on a very sick day.
29. first time at BCD's.
30. first time meeting eugene & chris! lol.
31. hurting my wrist after punching minh.
32. being so lonely the first two weeks of college.
33. running at the arc.
34. pool tournaments!
35. bleaching my hair!
36. cutting my hair!
37. visiting all the UC's.
38. *sigh* clubbing.
39. late night talks with minh.
40. meeting esther & hannah at progressive dinner...even though i had already met them before?
41. getting written up for playing the sentence game too loud.
42. buying my poolstick.
43. hating dormlife.
44. practicing & practicing that impossible bodyworship.
45. going to The Block for the first time with 20+ people.
46. casino morrango.
47. teaching everyone how to play gumpch at winter retreat.
48. justin playing in irvine.
49. GOSPEL CHOIR!
50. patbingsoo w/usc & crawford.
hmm, i'm kinda disappointed in myself. i thought i'd have way more memories than 50. well, i obviously have alotta small ones but i think these were the big ones. man, freshmen year is such a crazy year. just so much happens. you move in. you meet sooooooo many people! you study so hard. you play so much harder. you mature in unimaginable ways. you learn learn learn!
but this year, i must say that i've grown sooooo much closer to God. of all the years of my life, i think i've grown the most this year. i think one of the biggest things i learned this year was the idea of friendship. who your true friends are. who your hangout buddies are. who your acquaintances are. really, you see so much difficulty in making "real" friends in college. i think everyone also goes through some hard difficult times of loneliness. but it is in these times, you realize that man is that imperfect and God is that much MORE PERFECT! He is the only REAL friend. the only one that can understand what you're going through the most...even better than you! He is your only true source of comfort. He is always listening.
man, words can't express how sinful i've been this year. my actions, my mentality, my judgements, my desires. i know that i have been a horrible witness to nonchristian AND christian people alike. too many times i have been hypocritical and have been very selfish in my speech. how pitiful.
but through it all...my good times and bad times, God has ALWAYS been there with me. i think it is very true that God is closest to you in your most humbling circumstances...when you depend on Him the most. it is so true what it says in James 4:8...Draw near to God and God will draw near to you. so very true. i also think that as you get older, life gets tougher. but b/c life gets tougher, you also grow closer to God. it's true that you grow in holiness over time. not only do you mature physically and mentally, but most definitely SPIRITUALLY!
man, i have so many different ideas and i can't seem to write them in an organized manner. i wish i had like 20 different heads so i could just say everything at once. man, this year...this year. it was quite a year. man, college is quite something. i never knew it'd be like this. but gosh, praise God! everything that happened is only b/c of God. all Glory to Him. that's all i can say.
Thought of the Day: It is finished.
Song of the Day: Cannibus-Second Round KO
June 10, 2003
You are Romans.
Which book of the Bible are you?
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Favorite book in the Bible!
EZEKIEL. After being visited by God, Ezekiel was
commanded to suffer in symbolic ways to portray
what was to come to Isreal. This embedded
these things into Ezekiel's mind, and led to
his desire to warn Isreal to turn from
wickedness, whether they would listen or not.
What prophet from the Bible would you have most likely been.
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Book i'm reading right now!
Thought of the Day: Done with psych..
Song of the Day: Utada Hikaru-Distance
June 8, 2003
jess...
kiMcHeeeeEe (9:41:25 PM): dang. in LA its finals week. in irvine its lets-watch-a-zillion-movies-because-we-dont-study
Auto response from Pretzelboi96 (9:41:25 PM): emperor's new groove
kiMcHeeeeEe (9:41:27 PM): -______-
kiMcHeeeeEe (9:41:30 PM): higher education my foot
crawford...
ilikelotsofsugar (9:32:57 PM): you swear you have finals, ebert.
Auto response from Pretzelboi96 (9:32:57 PM): emperor's new groove
ilikelotsofsugar (9:33:12 PM): (if it's on your computer send it to me later)
hannah...
hAnNaH bAnAnA xP (10:35:39 PM): i cant believe that u watched emperros new groove too
Pretzelboi96 (10:35:46 PM): lol
Pretzelboi96 (10:35:51 PM): dude, i'm so bored right now
hAnNaH bAnAnA xP (10:35:58 PM): go stuDY!
Pretzelboi96 (10:36:04 PM): maybe later
Pretzelboi96 (10:36:07 PM): like around 12
Pretzelboi96 (10:36:08 PM): =D
hAnNaH bAnAnA xP (10:36:12 PM): oh my the worst
Pretzelboi96 (10:36:26 PM): don't worry, i got this coach
hAnNaH bAnAnA xP (10:36:32 PM): OH MY
i am so laughing at my finals right now...or are my finals laughing at me?
kiMcHeeeeEe (9:41:25 PM): dang. in LA its finals week. in irvine its lets-watch-a-zillion-movies-because-we-dont-study
Auto response from Pretzelboi96 (9:41:25 PM): emperor's new groove
kiMcHeeeeEe (9:41:27 PM): -______-
kiMcHeeeeEe (9:41:30 PM): higher education my foot
crawford...
ilikelotsofsugar (9:32:57 PM): you swear you have finals, ebert.
Auto response from Pretzelboi96 (9:32:57 PM): emperor's new groove
ilikelotsofsugar (9:33:12 PM): (if it's on your computer send it to me later)
hannah...
hAnNaH bAnAnA xP (10:35:39 PM): i cant believe that u watched emperros new groove too
Pretzelboi96 (10:35:46 PM): lol
Pretzelboi96 (10:35:51 PM): dude, i'm so bored right now
hAnNaH bAnAnA xP (10:35:58 PM): go stuDY!
Pretzelboi96 (10:36:04 PM): maybe later
Pretzelboi96 (10:36:07 PM): like around 12
Pretzelboi96 (10:36:08 PM): =D
hAnNaH bAnAnA xP (10:36:12 PM): oh my the worst
Pretzelboi96 (10:36:26 PM): don't worry, i got this coach
hAnNaH bAnAnA xP (10:36:32 PM): OH MY
i am so laughing at my finals right now...or are my finals laughing at me?
i think it's really funny how so many people just do not want to listen to what you have to say. i'm sure many of you have already done this before, but just try listening to people's conversations. more often than not, each person will be more concentrated on what they wanna say about themselves. when they are "listening," the responses are so fake with the forced nods, the assuring "uh-huh's," and the spaced out eye contact. it's really funny just listening to people to talk. sometimes, you can so tell that they're not interested at all of what you have to say. haha. i think girls do that alot. like they'll ask you questions just so that they can answer them for you. "oh how was your week? really? my week was....." why do i bring this up? *shrug* i think i've always experienced this but i just always forgot to write about it. haha. i'm guilty of this stupid sin too.
you know, my flu got alot better after i took a nap a few hours ago. i was doing pretty bad this morning with the runny nose and coughing. but after this nap i just took, i felt so refreshed. i feel so happy right now. everything just seems so relaxed. peace. serenity. it's really nice. i haven't felt like this in a while. content with everything. physically, emotionally, and spiritually content. i wish i could stay like this forever. just sit here and stare at my Dasani water bottle with a stupid smile.
Thought of the Day: I don't like being responsible for money.
Song of the Day: Eugene-The Best (?)
you know, my flu got alot better after i took a nap a few hours ago. i was doing pretty bad this morning with the runny nose and coughing. but after this nap i just took, i felt so refreshed. i feel so happy right now. everything just seems so relaxed. peace. serenity. it's really nice. i haven't felt like this in a while. content with everything. physically, emotionally, and spiritually content. i wish i could stay like this forever. just sit here and stare at my Dasani water bottle with a stupid smile.
Thought of the Day: I don't like being responsible for money.
Song of the Day: Eugene-The Best (?)
June 7, 2003
wednesday was our last ccm meeting for the year. bonfire at corona del mar. another one. it was pretty much like any other bonfire. tossing a football, eating hotdogs, and that time of sharing around the bonfire. it was funny cause i started thinking about how i never have any meaningful conversations with people at ccm. then i started talking to bodin and asked him about his church. then we started discussing reformed theology vs. unreformed faith. it was discouraging in a sense that he was following to such unbiblical beliefs. however, it was very encouraging to see that he was very open to hear about reformed faith and to really be challenged with what the Bible had to say. it's quite surprising to see how some people interpret different parts of the Bible.
but dang, i got a sore throat that night. i had such a difficult time trying to fall asleep the other night too. you know your throat hurts when everytime you swallow, you clench your teeth to avoid some pain, but it's gotten to the point where you've clenched your teeth so much that your teeth hurt too. alex, simone, and jisun got sick too...but i think they were alot sicker. man, i haven't been sick since korea!
so thursday was a big day for me at work. i started answering alot more phone calls and started timing and telling the students when to move on the next section. man, i hate answering phone calls. the conversations i have never go smoothly. there's always a "can you hold on please?" and i put them on hold for 2 min. while i think of the answer to their question. and i started panicking when there's other phone calls on the other line. i think i hung up on this one lady just to answer the other one and she called back with much more aggression. BUT, i am getting somewhat better. man, i never knew scheduling appointments for people could be so hard. everything is booked and you gotta try to squeeze them into the more convenient times. haha. and eugene just sits there and laughs at me.
oh yeah, i got paid too and i'm getting it in cash! woohoo. however, thursday also ended on a bad note...
i went clubbing for the first time with a few of my friends. i was told to dress up pretty nice...no white tennis shoes, dress shirt, no blue jeans, no hat, etc.. when we get there, we see all these guys dressed up all ghetto in their comfortable white shoes and whatnot. the driving was no pleasant experience either. there were seriously so many signs that we shouldn't have gone clubbing...
1. the big lighted cross. lol.
2. traffic. three different times.
3. suspicious phone calls from james and newly.
4. a very very long drive.
we got in line around 10:45 and didn't get in til 12. a slow moving line with lots and lots of cutters. but anyways, we finally enter the place and start dancing. man, clubs are just really dark, really crowded, very hot, and really really loud. the bass was so strong that no one would've noticed an earthquake if there was one. but even dancing wasn't that fun. so many people bump into you and all you see is some nasty dancing. basically, if you're not freaking, you pretty much don't belong. man, some girls get really really freaky. i mean, you just stop and say to yourself, "dang, that's pretty sinful." haha. i kept telling myself that it would've been more fun if more of our friends had come, but i've come to the conclusion that the club scene isn't for me. i can definitely see why some people would have alotta fun (pagans) and why so many others would discourage people from going clubbing (i've joined this group of people). and to make things worse, i just happened to end up at the one club where a good number of my high school mates decided to hang out for the night. man, i've never seen such surprised expressions. "omG!" oh the awkwardness!
cindy: sorry you guys didn't have fun. you guys are just too nice. too good.
a nice way of saying that christians don't belong at clubs.
i was feeling like crap yesterday cause a flu decided to join my sore throat. after taking my korean oral, i went to bio as my last lecture for my freshmen year. pointless! i walk into class, fill out an evaluation sheet, and rest my eyes throughout the whole lecture. haha. isn't it funny when you're sleeping and your body has those short spasms at random intervals. cause everytime, i try to play it off by opening my eyes and shaking my leg as if i were doing it on purpose...which i'm sure makes me appear even more foolish. but dang, my body was aching like crazy and the freshmen banquet was the last thing i wanted to work on yesterday.
after 3 hours of sleep, i shopped, phoned, and prepared for the welcoming night. fortunately, the night turned out pretty decently. gosh, watching dykas dance makes me so happy. tearin' it up with all eyes on him. you know you like dancing in front of everyone. haha. alot of the freshmen came out and we all had a pretty good time with the video and games. i'll only say this once so listen carefully: i am ever so grateful to lisa crawford and her mother who took care of the sandwiches with jess and rachel. you guys seriously saved me alotta time and energy.
funny...
allen: i'm looking forward to hanging out with the irvine guys.
irvine guys: YEAH!
aaron: allen, do this (jjot hand motion).
allen: (does jjot with both hands).
irvine guys: YEAH!
lol.
but i was seriously giving all of my energy last night with my lack of strength and painful aches. flu's are never kind to you. so afterwards, we decide to crash jisun's place cause i needed some kind of pain reliever for my body.
aaron: dude, monkeys man!
lol.
man, the more i visit other people's apts, the more i anticipate next year's living. ugh, only a few more days in the dorms and i'm out of here! i need to start studying today. oh yeah, congratulations mills seniors. sorry i couldn't be there. and to the rest of us college students, let us study hard for the glory of God! don't forget that we can also love God with our minds!
Thought of the Day: Last weekend in the dorms.
Song of the Day: Eugene-Goodbye
but dang, i got a sore throat that night. i had such a difficult time trying to fall asleep the other night too. you know your throat hurts when everytime you swallow, you clench your teeth to avoid some pain, but it's gotten to the point where you've clenched your teeth so much that your teeth hurt too. alex, simone, and jisun got sick too...but i think they were alot sicker. man, i haven't been sick since korea!
so thursday was a big day for me at work. i started answering alot more phone calls and started timing and telling the students when to move on the next section. man, i hate answering phone calls. the conversations i have never go smoothly. there's always a "can you hold on please?" and i put them on hold for 2 min. while i think of the answer to their question. and i started panicking when there's other phone calls on the other line. i think i hung up on this one lady just to answer the other one and she called back with much more aggression. BUT, i am getting somewhat better. man, i never knew scheduling appointments for people could be so hard. everything is booked and you gotta try to squeeze them into the more convenient times. haha. and eugene just sits there and laughs at me.
oh yeah, i got paid too and i'm getting it in cash! woohoo. however, thursday also ended on a bad note...
i went clubbing for the first time with a few of my friends. i was told to dress up pretty nice...no white tennis shoes, dress shirt, no blue jeans, no hat, etc.. when we get there, we see all these guys dressed up all ghetto in their comfortable white shoes and whatnot. the driving was no pleasant experience either. there were seriously so many signs that we shouldn't have gone clubbing...
1. the big lighted cross. lol.
2. traffic. three different times.
3. suspicious phone calls from james and newly.
4. a very very long drive.
we got in line around 10:45 and didn't get in til 12. a slow moving line with lots and lots of cutters. but anyways, we finally enter the place and start dancing. man, clubs are just really dark, really crowded, very hot, and really really loud. the bass was so strong that no one would've noticed an earthquake if there was one. but even dancing wasn't that fun. so many people bump into you and all you see is some nasty dancing. basically, if you're not freaking, you pretty much don't belong. man, some girls get really really freaky. i mean, you just stop and say to yourself, "dang, that's pretty sinful." haha. i kept telling myself that it would've been more fun if more of our friends had come, but i've come to the conclusion that the club scene isn't for me. i can definitely see why some people would have alotta fun (pagans) and why so many others would discourage people from going clubbing (i've joined this group of people). and to make things worse, i just happened to end up at the one club where a good number of my high school mates decided to hang out for the night. man, i've never seen such surprised expressions. "omG!" oh the awkwardness!
cindy: sorry you guys didn't have fun. you guys are just too nice. too good.
a nice way of saying that christians don't belong at clubs.
i was feeling like crap yesterday cause a flu decided to join my sore throat. after taking my korean oral, i went to bio as my last lecture for my freshmen year. pointless! i walk into class, fill out an evaluation sheet, and rest my eyes throughout the whole lecture. haha. isn't it funny when you're sleeping and your body has those short spasms at random intervals. cause everytime, i try to play it off by opening my eyes and shaking my leg as if i were doing it on purpose...which i'm sure makes me appear even more foolish. but dang, my body was aching like crazy and the freshmen banquet was the last thing i wanted to work on yesterday.
after 3 hours of sleep, i shopped, phoned, and prepared for the welcoming night. fortunately, the night turned out pretty decently. gosh, watching dykas dance makes me so happy. tearin' it up with all eyes on him. you know you like dancing in front of everyone. haha. alot of the freshmen came out and we all had a pretty good time with the video and games. i'll only say this once so listen carefully: i am ever so grateful to lisa crawford and her mother who took care of the sandwiches with jess and rachel. you guys seriously saved me alotta time and energy.
funny...
allen: i'm looking forward to hanging out with the irvine guys.
irvine guys: YEAH!
aaron: allen, do this (jjot hand motion).
allen: (does jjot with both hands).
irvine guys: YEAH!
lol.
but i was seriously giving all of my energy last night with my lack of strength and painful aches. flu's are never kind to you. so afterwards, we decide to crash jisun's place cause i needed some kind of pain reliever for my body.
aaron: dude, monkeys man!
lol.
man, the more i visit other people's apts, the more i anticipate next year's living. ugh, only a few more days in the dorms and i'm out of here! i need to start studying today. oh yeah, congratulations mills seniors. sorry i couldn't be there. and to the rest of us college students, let us study hard for the glory of God! don't forget that we can also love God with our minds!
Thought of the Day: Last weekend in the dorms.
Song of the Day: Eugene-Goodbye
June 4, 2003
our gospel choir concert turned out to be pretty good! everyone looked really nice with their white shirts and black pants. it's funny cause our choir was so big since EVERYONE had to come to the concert. so many people never show up to class and just mouth the songs. anyways after that concert, i so did not regret joining bass over tenor. bass has all the blacks guys in the class so you always have alotta fun with them. like whenever one of them had to go down in front of the whole class to sing a solo, they'd always cheer that guy on. "I SEE YOU CHRIS! YOU SEE ME. I SEE YOU!" or "DANG, BOY GOT ASS LIKE GINUWINE!" ahahhahahahaha. so freakin' funny. but anyways, my group seriously tore it up at the concert. there was this one part where each group was singing on its own...sopranos, altos, tenors, and finally bass. so we were last. but while the tenors were singing their part, all the black guys were like, "alrite bass! shut 'em down! shut 'em down bass! let's show them!" and while we were singing, we'd all start dancing and waving and clapping our hands. it was tight. lol.
alex: man, i was so jealous of you guys. you guys looked like you guys were having alot of fun.
but yeah, aaron seriously tore it up! i've never seen that guy sing so hard. his face was red and everything. lol. freakin' karen. afterwards, this korean guy comes up to him and asks him to make a demo tape cause he has connections in korea. pretty crazy. you guys seriously missed out. our concert actually sold out! it would've been nice to see some familiar faces though.
man, i can't wait til i'm done with the freshmen welcoming banquet. shopping for gifts, making the video, being responsible for collecting irvine's money, and planning out food. it's alot. in fact, it's kinda stressfull with certain people complaining and others not helping out much. man, this is all for the freshmen. giving love that i never got last year. once again, those kids better come out this friday!
man, i've been so lazy this week. haven't gone to a single lecture besides korean. i wonder how i'm going to do on my finals.
Thought of the Day: Thursday and Friday are going to be really busy.
Song of the Day: Boa-Milky Way
alex: man, i was so jealous of you guys. you guys looked like you guys were having alot of fun.
but yeah, aaron seriously tore it up! i've never seen that guy sing so hard. his face was red and everything. lol. freakin' karen. afterwards, this korean guy comes up to him and asks him to make a demo tape cause he has connections in korea. pretty crazy. you guys seriously missed out. our concert actually sold out! it would've been nice to see some familiar faces though.
man, i can't wait til i'm done with the freshmen welcoming banquet. shopping for gifts, making the video, being responsible for collecting irvine's money, and planning out food. it's alot. in fact, it's kinda stressfull with certain people complaining and others not helping out much. man, this is all for the freshmen. giving love that i never got last year. once again, those kids better come out this friday!
man, i've been so lazy this week. haven't gone to a single lecture besides korean. i wonder how i'm going to do on my finals.
Thought of the Day: Thursday and Friday are going to be really busy.
Song of the Day: Boa-Milky Way
June 2, 2003
so there's this opening for yg teachers in church right now. am i ready to become a teacher? am i willing to really commit to the students? will i be able to handle all the responsibilites? i prayed and thought about it for a while. i talked to a few people about it, only receiving vague and ambiguous answers. don't you wish people could just give you straight answers sometimes? i always end up with answers that depend on the circumstance or where it's "up to me." anyways, i started to grow a heart for the yg kids this year. i had a desire to really teach the youth and just be an older brother to those who were going through their adolescent years. but the more i thought about it, the more i felt like i wasn't ready. i still have alotta growing to do. i'm still learning a grip in college group and i'd rather be really commited to one thing than being half-hearted to two different things. i mean, there is a need for yg teachers but i think i've made up my mind for now: co-lead welcoming committee.
but yeah, it's alot harder than i thought it would be. i just thought i'd be sitting at the desk, greeting everybody, taking attendance, and welcoming newcomers. nice and easy. head of welcoming committee. haha. but nooooooo, there's responsibility: writing down absent people for every week, sending out cards, setting up dinners, planning annual budget, assigning people to do stuff...geez, delegating stuff. i like and dislike doing that. i don't like to be mr. control-freak boss, but i also do want people to get certain things done my way. oh geez, being a leader. i'm sure i'm over thinking all this stuff. once i get the hang of things, everything should be routine routine! but thanks to crawford and jess for joining the team. i need some people that i can work with comfortably. man, this is going to be some experience! may God be glorified!
man, chatting and blogging don't go hand in hand too well. your train of thought is so inconsistent. hey, it's kind of like being the whole yg teacher thing. i need to be commited to one thing at a time. how ironic.
ok now i can finally concentrate on one thing...
so the freshies came up to college group on sunday. man, they look so small. i mean, i know that they're still in high school but still. they look so small compared to us. but i'm looking forward to getting to know them. the sophomores (us) are working pretty hard on this banquet. dude, are gifts are so nice and we put in alotta time in the video. those kids better come this friday.
last night, the ccm freshmen had our freshmen outing...well kinda. we seriously didn't do anything for like the first 3 hours, but things started getting a little fun after we started telling stupid jokes..."ihaveahondaishould'veboughtayamaha." ahahahahaha. and of course, "SPARKY!" lol. i got to know boden, the other chinese guy in ccm. it's so weird cause he looks JUST like jeff wang with a hat on. but they sound and act totally different. he's a pretty cool guy...first b-boy i ever met. and he's real good too!
so we got all bored again so i introduced the sentence game to everyone. unexpectedly, everyone really liked the game so we started playing for a while. but an RA stopped us and wrote us all up for being too loud, telling us this was like our third complaint. whack...
ra: are you guys some organization?
us: no, we're just chillin.
ra: then what's with all the clapping?
us: oh, we're playing a game! ahahahahahahahha
but it was so funny cause boden look REALLY scared. aahahahhahaha. "555."
so we walk to cha's and continue playing as we were walking. we just chilled there for a long time, talking about random things...ghosts, catholicism, boden's scared face, and CLUBBING! looks like simone's taking us out this thurs. night. those freakin' girls thought we were joking the whole time too. geez.
but the more i hang out with these guys, the more i realize that our friendships are superficial. we're pretty much no different from pagans. i mean, hanging out like this is supposed to be a bridge to fellowship right? something deeper. something that's more christ-centered. i guess it's cause our group is just so big. man, i really gotta do something about this.
this morning, my mom called to tell me that my dad was coming to visit us next tues. crazy. i haven't seen him since last summer. doesn't seem that long ago either. but it's really weird cause i'm not even that excited that he's coming. it's really unfortunate that i didn't get to grow up with my dad. i feel like the older i get, the less i appreciate my dad. i mean, that kinda tends to be the case b/w sons and fathers. but i think my case is different from other people. i still love the guy but his presence doesn't seem to affect me as much anymore. sad.
so tonight's my gospel choir concert. all those hours of practicing will be used for tonight. i'm kinda nervous cause i think we're gonna mess up. to be honest, i think we are so unprepared. but the songs we do know, we sing them pretty well. i'm just really glad that i got to take this course. a new perspective and appreciation for gospel music. and all the stuff we sing are GREAT songs! i so wish i could record our singing. well, time to get ready...nnnnnn laters.
Thought of the Day: World History replaces World Religions. WOOHOO!
Song of the Day: Utada Hikaru-First Love Piano Mix
but yeah, it's alot harder than i thought it would be. i just thought i'd be sitting at the desk, greeting everybody, taking attendance, and welcoming newcomers. nice and easy. head of welcoming committee. haha. but nooooooo, there's responsibility: writing down absent people for every week, sending out cards, setting up dinners, planning annual budget, assigning people to do stuff...geez, delegating stuff. i like and dislike doing that. i don't like to be mr. control-freak boss, but i also do want people to get certain things done my way. oh geez, being a leader. i'm sure i'm over thinking all this stuff. once i get the hang of things, everything should be routine routine! but thanks to crawford and jess for joining the team. i need some people that i can work with comfortably. man, this is going to be some experience! may God be glorified!
man, chatting and blogging don't go hand in hand too well. your train of thought is so inconsistent. hey, it's kind of like being the whole yg teacher thing. i need to be commited to one thing at a time. how ironic.
ok now i can finally concentrate on one thing...
so the freshies came up to college group on sunday. man, they look so small. i mean, i know that they're still in high school but still. they look so small compared to us. but i'm looking forward to getting to know them. the sophomores (us) are working pretty hard on this banquet. dude, are gifts are so nice and we put in alotta time in the video. those kids better come this friday.
last night, the ccm freshmen had our freshmen outing...well kinda. we seriously didn't do anything for like the first 3 hours, but things started getting a little fun after we started telling stupid jokes..."ihaveahondaishould'veboughtayamaha." ahahahahaha. and of course, "SPARKY!" lol. i got to know boden, the other chinese guy in ccm. it's so weird cause he looks JUST like jeff wang with a hat on. but they sound and act totally different. he's a pretty cool guy...first b-boy i ever met. and he's real good too!
so we got all bored again so i introduced the sentence game to everyone. unexpectedly, everyone really liked the game so we started playing for a while. but an RA stopped us and wrote us all up for being too loud, telling us this was like our third complaint. whack...
ra: are you guys some organization?
us: no, we're just chillin.
ra: then what's with all the clapping?
us: oh, we're playing a game! ahahahahahahahha
but it was so funny cause boden look REALLY scared. aahahahhahaha. "555."
so we walk to cha's and continue playing as we were walking. we just chilled there for a long time, talking about random things...ghosts, catholicism, boden's scared face, and CLUBBING! looks like simone's taking us out this thurs. night. those freakin' girls thought we were joking the whole time too. geez.
but the more i hang out with these guys, the more i realize that our friendships are superficial. we're pretty much no different from pagans. i mean, hanging out like this is supposed to be a bridge to fellowship right? something deeper. something that's more christ-centered. i guess it's cause our group is just so big. man, i really gotta do something about this.
this morning, my mom called to tell me that my dad was coming to visit us next tues. crazy. i haven't seen him since last summer. doesn't seem that long ago either. but it's really weird cause i'm not even that excited that he's coming. it's really unfortunate that i didn't get to grow up with my dad. i feel like the older i get, the less i appreciate my dad. i mean, that kinda tends to be the case b/w sons and fathers. but i think my case is different from other people. i still love the guy but his presence doesn't seem to affect me as much anymore. sad.
so tonight's my gospel choir concert. all those hours of practicing will be used for tonight. i'm kinda nervous cause i think we're gonna mess up. to be honest, i think we are so unprepared. but the songs we do know, we sing them pretty well. i'm just really glad that i got to take this course. a new perspective and appreciation for gospel music. and all the stuff we sing are GREAT songs! i so wish i could record our singing. well, time to get ready...nnnnnn laters.
Thought of the Day: World History replaces World Religions. WOOHOO!
Song of the Day: Utada Hikaru-First Love Piano Mix
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