so there's this opening for yg teachers in church right now. am i ready to become a teacher? am i willing to really commit to the students? will i be able to handle all the responsibilites? i prayed and thought about it for a while. i talked to a few people about it, only receiving vague and ambiguous answers. don't you wish people could just give you straight answers sometimes? i always end up with answers that depend on the circumstance or where it's "up to me." anyways, i started to grow a heart for the yg kids this year. i had a desire to really teach the youth and just be an older brother to those who were going through their adolescent years. but the more i thought about it, the more i felt like i wasn't ready. i still have alotta growing to do. i'm still learning a grip in college group and i'd rather be really commited to one thing than being half-hearted to two different things. i mean, there is a need for yg teachers but i think i've made up my mind for now: co-lead welcoming committee.

but yeah, it's alot harder than i thought it would be. i just thought i'd be sitting at the desk, greeting everybody, taking attendance, and welcoming newcomers. nice and easy. head of welcoming committee. haha. but nooooooo, there's responsibility: writing down absent people for every week, sending out cards, setting up dinners, planning annual budget, assigning people to do stuff...geez, delegating stuff. i like and dislike doing that. i don't like to be mr. control-freak boss, but i also do want people to get certain things done my way. oh geez, being a leader. i'm sure i'm over thinking all this stuff. once i get the hang of things, everything should be routine routine! but thanks to crawford and jess for joining the team. i need some people that i can work with comfortably. man, this is going to be some experience! may God be glorified!

man, chatting and blogging don't go hand in hand too well. your train of thought is so inconsistent. hey, it's kind of like being the whole yg teacher thing. i need to be commited to one thing at a time. how ironic.

ok now i can finally concentrate on one thing...

so the freshies came up to college group on sunday. man, they look so small. i mean, i know that they're still in high school but still. they look so small compared to us. but i'm looking forward to getting to know them. the sophomores (us) are working pretty hard on this banquet. dude, are gifts are so nice and we put in alotta time in the video. those kids better come this friday.

last night, the ccm freshmen had our freshmen outing...well kinda. we seriously didn't do anything for like the first 3 hours, but things started getting a little fun after we started telling stupid jokes..."ihaveahondaishould'veboughtayamaha." ahahahahaha. and of course, "SPARKY!" lol. i got to know boden, the other chinese guy in ccm. it's so weird cause he looks JUST like jeff wang with a hat on. but they sound and act totally different. he's a pretty cool guy...first b-boy i ever met. and he's real good too!

so we got all bored again so i introduced the sentence game to everyone. unexpectedly, everyone really liked the game so we started playing for a while. but an RA stopped us and wrote us all up for being too loud, telling us this was like our third complaint. whack...

ra: are you guys some organization?
us: no, we're just chillin.
ra: then what's with all the clapping?
us: oh, we're playing a game! ahahahahahahahha

but it was so funny cause boden look REALLY scared. aahahahhahaha. "555."

so we walk to cha's and continue playing as we were walking. we just chilled there for a long time, talking about random things...ghosts, catholicism, boden's scared face, and CLUBBING! looks like simone's taking us out this thurs. night. those freakin' girls thought we were joking the whole time too. geez.

but the more i hang out with these guys, the more i realize that our friendships are superficial. we're pretty much no different from pagans. i mean, hanging out like this is supposed to be a bridge to fellowship right? something deeper. something that's more christ-centered. i guess it's cause our group is just so big. man, i really gotta do something about this.

this morning, my mom called to tell me that my dad was coming to visit us next tues. crazy. i haven't seen him since last summer. doesn't seem that long ago either. but it's really weird cause i'm not even that excited that he's coming. it's really unfortunate that i didn't get to grow up with my dad. i feel like the older i get, the less i appreciate my dad. i mean, that kinda tends to be the case b/w sons and fathers. but i think my case is different from other people. i still love the guy but his presence doesn't seem to affect me as much anymore. sad.

so tonight's my gospel choir concert. all those hours of practicing will be used for tonight. i'm kinda nervous cause i think we're gonna mess up. to be honest, i think we are so unprepared. but the songs we do know, we sing them pretty well. i'm just really glad that i got to take this course. a new perspective and appreciation for gospel music. and all the stuff we sing are GREAT songs! i so wish i could record our singing. well, time to get ready...nnnnnn laters.

Thought of the Day: World History replaces World Religions. WOOHOO!
Song of the Day: Utada Hikaru-First Love Piano Mix