You are Morpheus, from "The Matrix." You
have strong faith in yourself and those around
you. A true leader, you are relentless in your
persuit.
What Matrix Persona Are You?
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May 31, 2003
May 30, 2003
riverside visited us yesterday. we ate at commons and they absolutely loved it! gosh, it must've been like a feast to them since they eat food that tastes like dirt. i'm sure they liked mesa dorms but man were they criticizing my crap. and gosh, there's been this problem with my computer where it shows adult website ads when i just leave my computer alone. so they walk into my room...
me: so this is my room.
(everyone with awkward smiles with their backs turned to my computer).
me: oh geez. this stuff always comes up!
esther: yeah suuuuure!
everyone: ahahahahahahha.
freakin' embarrassing.
last night, me, dykas, aaron, and jay started filming for the freshmen welcoming banquet. we're making this video that gives tips for the incoming freshmen...Good Idea vs. Bad Idea. we had a great time making the video, but it's going to be like one of those things where it's going to be REALLY sullong or really funny. it sucks when you try to be funny and all you do is cause awkward silence and fake laughter. we'll see we'll see.
Thought of the Day: TGIF!
Song of the Day: Switchfoot-Meant To Live
me: so this is my room.
(everyone with awkward smiles with their backs turned to my computer).
me: oh geez. this stuff always comes up!
esther: yeah suuuuure!
everyone: ahahahahahahha.
freakin' embarrassing.
last night, me, dykas, aaron, and jay started filming for the freshmen welcoming banquet. we're making this video that gives tips for the incoming freshmen...Good Idea vs. Bad Idea. we had a great time making the video, but it's going to be like one of those things where it's going to be REALLY sullong or really funny. it sucks when you try to be funny and all you do is cause awkward silence and fake laughter. we'll see we'll see.
Thought of the Day: TGIF!
Song of the Day: Switchfoot-Meant To Live
May 28, 2003
CPC Day wasn't as bad as i thought it'd be. i didn't even get lost on the first try so that was a good sign for a very pleasant day. lots of volleyball with yg and EM. man, us college students really need to start playing volleyball or something. we got rocked out there by both groups. you would think that not being too old and not being so young would put you in the best position of winning everything. but no, we lose in wheelbarrel (all thanks to me), lose the watermelon eating contest (even with dykas?!), and end up winning candy for a pitiful third place (out of three) in volleyball.
but i had a really good time at the picnic. church picnics never fail to bring the best food and the weather was freakin' beautiful. lots of old people playing games and young kids sitting in the shade eating watermelon...me eating with them of course. =D it was fun playing catch with joe and playing with that cute baby that thought i was pretty. haha. it's amazing how much two year olds can understand when you talk to them. absolutely amazing!
i was extremely tired and ready to pass out as soon as i got back to my dorm. but joey jojo wanted to play some more so we watched this chinese movie called Shower in his room. not the best movie to watch for three EXHAUSTED college students in a highly temperatured room. but after we got through that, we ate dinner and decided to crash the ccm senior banquet. we didn't think they were going to let us in, but i said hi to jenn, smiled, and walked right in with joe's sweater and my shorts. it was really funny seeing people's reactions as soon as they saw us. everyone all dressed up and smelling good while three dirty kids greeted everyone in their oversized sweaters and dark faces.
man, ccm banquet was crap compared to cpc's banquet. but like i told esther, a free banquet is always a good banquet. haha. freakin' $25 dude! the food didn't even look that great and there were one too many bad skits....the senior class one for sure. but there was alotta time and effort put into the banquet and you could definitely feel the appreciation for the leaving seniors. i really liked kevin osako's speech how he encouraged us to use everything that we learn in ccm to be used for our churches. he encouraged us to be more involved with church rather than this pera-church. a loud amen to that!
i took jisun home and stopped by her place to check it out. pretty small but nice and cozy. one of those places where you wouldn't go there all the time but just stop by when you have nothing to do.
so there's a need for yg teachers at cpc now. i really need to discuss with dennis. but more importantly, i need to pray about it.
Thought of the Day: Drained.
Song of the Day: Amazing
but i had a really good time at the picnic. church picnics never fail to bring the best food and the weather was freakin' beautiful. lots of old people playing games and young kids sitting in the shade eating watermelon...me eating with them of course. =D it was fun playing catch with joe and playing with that cute baby that thought i was pretty. haha. it's amazing how much two year olds can understand when you talk to them. absolutely amazing!
i was extremely tired and ready to pass out as soon as i got back to my dorm. but joey jojo wanted to play some more so we watched this chinese movie called Shower in his room. not the best movie to watch for three EXHAUSTED college students in a highly temperatured room. but after we got through that, we ate dinner and decided to crash the ccm senior banquet. we didn't think they were going to let us in, but i said hi to jenn, smiled, and walked right in with joe's sweater and my shorts. it was really funny seeing people's reactions as soon as they saw us. everyone all dressed up and smelling good while three dirty kids greeted everyone in their oversized sweaters and dark faces.
man, ccm banquet was crap compared to cpc's banquet. but like i told esther, a free banquet is always a good banquet. haha. freakin' $25 dude! the food didn't even look that great and there were one too many bad skits....the senior class one for sure. but there was alotta time and effort put into the banquet and you could definitely feel the appreciation for the leaving seniors. i really liked kevin osako's speech how he encouraged us to use everything that we learn in ccm to be used for our churches. he encouraged us to be more involved with church rather than this pera-church. a loud amen to that!
i took jisun home and stopped by her place to check it out. pretty small but nice and cozy. one of those places where you wouldn't go there all the time but just stop by when you have nothing to do.
so there's a need for yg teachers at cpc now. i really need to discuss with dennis. but more importantly, i need to pray about it.
Thought of the Day: Drained.
Song of the Day: Amazing
May 26, 2003
Jars Of Clay-Worlds Apart
I am the only one to blame for this
Somehow it all ends up the same
Soaring on the wings of selfish pride
I flew too high and like Icarus I collide
With a world I try so hard to leave behind
To rid myself of all but love
to give and die
To turn away and not become
Another nail to pierce the skin of one who loves
more deeply than the oceans,
more abundant than the tears
Of a world embracing every heartache
Can I be the one to sacrifice
Or grip the spear and watch the blood and water flow
To love you - take my world apart
To need you - I am on my knees
To love you - take my world apart
To need you - broken on my knees
All said and done I stand alone
Amongst remains of a life I should not own
It takes all I am to believe
In the mercy that covers me
Did you really have to die for me?
All I am for all you are
Because what I need and what I believe are worlds apart
Additional lyrics:
I look beyond the empty cross
forgetting what my life has cost
and wipe away the crimson stains
and dull the nails that still remain
More and more I need you now,
I owe you more each passing hour
the battle between grace and pride
I gave up not so long ago
So steal my heart and take the pain
and wash the feet and cleanse my pride
take the selfish, take the weak,
and all the things I cannot hide
take the beauty, take my tears
my sin soaked heart and make it yours --correction
take my world all apart
take it now, take it now
and serve the ones that I despise
speak the words I can't deny
watch the world I used to love
fall to dust and thrown away
I look beyond the empty cross
forgetting what my life has cost
so wipe away the crimson stains
and dull the nails that still remain
so steal my heart and take the pain
take the selfish, take the weak
and all the things I cannot hide
take the beauty, take my tears
take my world apart, take my world apart
I pray, I pray, I pray
take my world apart
man, i love this song.
I am the only one to blame for this
Somehow it all ends up the same
Soaring on the wings of selfish pride
I flew too high and like Icarus I collide
With a world I try so hard to leave behind
To rid myself of all but love
to give and die
To turn away and not become
Another nail to pierce the skin of one who loves
more deeply than the oceans,
more abundant than the tears
Of a world embracing every heartache
Can I be the one to sacrifice
Or grip the spear and watch the blood and water flow
To love you - take my world apart
To need you - I am on my knees
To love you - take my world apart
To need you - broken on my knees
All said and done I stand alone
Amongst remains of a life I should not own
It takes all I am to believe
In the mercy that covers me
Did you really have to die for me?
All I am for all you are
Because what I need and what I believe are worlds apart
Additional lyrics:
I look beyond the empty cross
forgetting what my life has cost
and wipe away the crimson stains
and dull the nails that still remain
More and more I need you now,
I owe you more each passing hour
the battle between grace and pride
I gave up not so long ago
So steal my heart and take the pain
and wash the feet and cleanse my pride
take the selfish, take the weak,
and all the things I cannot hide
take the beauty, take my tears
my sin soaked heart and make it yours --correction
take my world all apart
take it now, take it now
and serve the ones that I despise
speak the words I can't deny
watch the world I used to love
fall to dust and thrown away
I look beyond the empty cross
forgetting what my life has cost
so wipe away the crimson stains
and dull the nails that still remain
so steal my heart and take the pain
take the selfish, take the weak
and all the things I cannot hide
take the beauty, take my tears
take my world apart, take my world apart
I pray, I pray, I pray
take my world apart
man, i love this song.
man, i practiced so hard for my part in the body worship. freakin' suzy training my slow learning body, and what do i at the senior banquet? 75% is turned into phil's bs moves. fortunately, no one noticed...i think.
the senior banquet was awesome...
1. Korea World Cup song welcoming.
2. "Run To You" intro.
3. "hella grip" of food.
4. dennis tearin' it up! lol.
5. sean's hidden moves.
6. junior girls's "3! 4!" dance.
7. oh, almost forgot about amenda & liza's video. ahhaahhahahaha.
8. amenda getting punk'd.
9. jay's drama fo yo mama.
it was like a much nicer yg banquet. bangin' food, much more formal wear (the senior girls were wearing hangboks!), and a grip of performances. 6:30-11? even dennis thought that this was the best senior banquet he had ever seen. and you know pastors see alotta banquets in their time.
so it looks like i'm gonna be head of welcoming committee. i still do not understand why they would pick a young soon to be sophomore like me to lead the whole committee. well, i'm actually co-leading with chester esther, but why me? i'm just a dumb freshmen who doesn't know anything about welcoming committee. never did it in yg either. but yeah, looks like this will be my position for now. may God use me effectively to make newcomers feel welcome.
man, so i finally got to eat Islands today. the last time i ate it was during the summer with chris, chang, and dykas. long time ago. man, those burgers still haven't let me down. freakin' delicious. it was nice to have crawford and drew as company too. i'm learning that lisa crawford is a very generous fellow...always down to spot people when they're low on cash. how nice. she may not be the prettiest girl in the world, but she sure is benevolent.
as i interact with more and more people, i've to realize that i like hearing Thank You's from people. it really bothers me when people don't show any signs of gratefulness to people who deserve it. i mean, of course they could be thankful in their hearts and not say a word. but that doesn't do much good for the benefactor does it now? i mean, is it so hard to so a simple Thanks or Thank You? but of course, who am i to demand such a thing when i myself fail to thank my God who is constantly blessing me? once again, my reflections have once again led to reminders of my hyopcrisy. seriously, when you think about it, alotta of your reflections always end up with the same answer. sin. it's b/c of sin. that's b/c of sin. we are b/c of sin.
oh how i pity the fool who does not see the sin in himself.
Thought of the Day: Clean.
Song of the Day: Unchanging
the senior banquet was awesome...
1. Korea World Cup song welcoming.
2. "Run To You" intro.
3. "hella grip" of food.
4. dennis tearin' it up! lol.
5. sean's hidden moves.
6. junior girls's "3! 4!" dance.
7. oh, almost forgot about amenda & liza's video. ahhaahhahahaha.
8. amenda getting punk'd.
9. jay's drama fo yo mama.
it was like a much nicer yg banquet. bangin' food, much more formal wear (the senior girls were wearing hangboks!), and a grip of performances. 6:30-11? even dennis thought that this was the best senior banquet he had ever seen. and you know pastors see alotta banquets in their time.
so it looks like i'm gonna be head of welcoming committee. i still do not understand why they would pick a young soon to be sophomore like me to lead the whole committee. well, i'm actually co-leading with chester esther, but why me? i'm just a dumb freshmen who doesn't know anything about welcoming committee. never did it in yg either. but yeah, looks like this will be my position for now. may God use me effectively to make newcomers feel welcome.
man, so i finally got to eat Islands today. the last time i ate it was during the summer with chris, chang, and dykas. long time ago. man, those burgers still haven't let me down. freakin' delicious. it was nice to have crawford and drew as company too. i'm learning that lisa crawford is a very generous fellow...always down to spot people when they're low on cash. how nice. she may not be the prettiest girl in the world, but she sure is benevolent.
as i interact with more and more people, i've to realize that i like hearing Thank You's from people. it really bothers me when people don't show any signs of gratefulness to people who deserve it. i mean, of course they could be thankful in their hearts and not say a word. but that doesn't do much good for the benefactor does it now? i mean, is it so hard to so a simple Thanks or Thank You? but of course, who am i to demand such a thing when i myself fail to thank my God who is constantly blessing me? once again, my reflections have once again led to reminders of my hyopcrisy. seriously, when you think about it, alotta of your reflections always end up with the same answer. sin. it's b/c of sin. that's b/c of sin. we are b/c of sin.
oh how i pity the fool who does not see the sin in himself.
Thought of the Day: Clean.
Song of the Day: Unchanging
May 23, 2003
I scored a 65% on the "are you HELLA nor cal?" Quizie! What about you?
Thought of the Day: It's so hard to play with the right heart.
Song of the Day: Jars Of Clay-Worlds Apart
Thought of the Day: It's so hard to play with the right heart.
Song of the Day: Jars Of Clay-Worlds Apart
May 20, 2003
ok so imagine this. you've stayed up all night cramming for your psych. midterm and only got 2 1/2 hours of sleep. you actually could've gotten an extra hour of sleep but your worn out brain accidently told you that your midterm was at 10 and not 11. not cool. you take a freakin' difficult midterm with the most meticulous questions that have nothing to do with applicable psychology. you come home and crash into your bed. JUST as you are about to fall asleep, KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK!
GO AWAY! WE'RE SLEEPING!
WE JUST WANNA GET "SMASH" FROM MINH'S DRAWER.
10 min. later...
KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK!
10 min. later...
KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK!
MINH, OPEN THE DOOR! LET'S GO!
GO AWAY!!! HE'S SLEEPING!
MINH TOLD US TO WAKE HIM UP!
HEY, I'M TOO TIRED JUST GO WITHOUT ME.
WHAT? I CAN'T HEAR YOU. OPEN THE DOOR.
10 min. later...
PHONE RINGS!
NO I'M TOO TIRED. JUST GO WITHOUT ME......OKOK. I'M COMING.
do you honestly believe that i can still fall asleep after this? oh wait, what a coincidence, i'm listening to a song that's totally capturing the moment...
Linkin Park-A Place For My Head
I watch how the
Moon sits in the sky / in the dark night
Shining with the light from the sun
The sun doesn't give / light to the moon assuming
The moon�s going to owe it one
It makes me think of how you act to me / You do
Favors and then rapidly / You just
Turn around and start asking me / about
Things you want back from me
I�m sick of the tension / sick of the hunger
Sick of you acting like I owe you this
Find another place / to feed your greed
While I find a place to rest
I want to be in another place
I hate when you say you don�t understand
(You�ll see it's not meant to be)
I want to be in the energy, not with the enemy
A place for my head
Maybe someday I�ll be just like you / and
Step on people like you do and / Run
Away the people I thought I knew
I remember back then who you were
You used to be calm / used to be strong
Used to be generous / but you should�ve known / That you�d
Wear out your welcome / now you see
How quiet it is / all alone / I�m so
Sick of the tension / sick of the hunger
Sick of you acting like I owe you this
Find another place / to feed your greed
While / I find a place to rest / I�m so
Sick of the tension / sick of the hunger
Sick of you acting like I owe you this
Find another place / to feed your greed
While / I find a place to rest
I want to be in another place
I hate when you say you don�t understand
(You�ll see it's not meant to be)
I want to be in the energy, not with the enemy
A place for my head
You try to take the best of me
Go away
You try to take the best of me
Go away
You try to take the best of me
Go away
You try to take the best of me
Go away
You try to take the best of me
Go away
You try to take the best of me
Go away
You try to take the best of me
Go away
You try to take the best of me
Go away
I want to be in another place
I hate when you say you don�t understand
(You�ll see it's not meant to be)
I want to be in the energy, not with the enemy
A place for my head
Shut...up
I�m so sick of the tension / sick of the hunger
Sick of you acting like I owe you this
Find another place / to feed your greed
While I find a place to rest
I�m so sick of the tension / sick of the hunger
Sick of you acting like I owe you this
Find another place / to feed your greed
While I find a place to rest
that's ok if you didn't read the lyrics. i never read lyrics in other people's blogs either. just know that sleep is something missing in my life right now and for some reason, God's not letting me have it. it's not that minh is a bastard or anything. it's living WITH him that's a bastard. i seriously wonder how much more peaceful this room would be if he had moved out. no more people knocking on that cursed door. no more phone calls from that phone that should've been turned off. no more no more NO MORE! i repeat, it's not that minh is a bastard (all the time...hehe). but it's living WITH him that's a bastard. *sigh*
so yesterday, after much thought i decided to take summer school. i haven't taken summer school since 6th grade b/c i'm a strong believer of being against summer school. it's just too hard you know? haha. summer was meant to relax and take a break. maybe make a few bucks or take a trip to korea. summer school? NO! but i've finally decided to take writing 39C for the following reasons...
1. it's supposedly easier during the summer.
2. you only have to concentrate on this subject which is already a handful.
3. summer school is only a month.
4. i won't have to worry about paying for arc during the summer.
5. i'm being productive.
6. mommy is encouraging son to take it.
7. i just gotta get this fudging class out of the way.
man, ever since i got my car, my driving skills have gotten alot worse. seriously, i make the worst decisions when i'm driving with aaron and/or dykas. it's so weird. i KNOW they think i'm the crappiest driver in the world, taking longer routes, making wrong turns, and getting lost. i seriously don't understand it. i know that everyone thinks that they are good drivers but i really feel like i'm a whole lot better than this. it's really frustrating. if i were to see myself drive, i know i'd be yelling the crap out of my head. geez, such a stupid idiot.
Thought of the Day: "I want to fly away..."
Song of the Day: Finch-Letters To You
GO AWAY! WE'RE SLEEPING!
WE JUST WANNA GET "SMASH" FROM MINH'S DRAWER.
10 min. later...
KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK!
10 min. later...
KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK!
MINH, OPEN THE DOOR! LET'S GO!
GO AWAY!!! HE'S SLEEPING!
MINH TOLD US TO WAKE HIM UP!
HEY, I'M TOO TIRED JUST GO WITHOUT ME.
WHAT? I CAN'T HEAR YOU. OPEN THE DOOR.
10 min. later...
PHONE RINGS!
NO I'M TOO TIRED. JUST GO WITHOUT ME......OKOK. I'M COMING.
do you honestly believe that i can still fall asleep after this? oh wait, what a coincidence, i'm listening to a song that's totally capturing the moment...
Linkin Park-A Place For My Head
I watch how the
Moon sits in the sky / in the dark night
Shining with the light from the sun
The sun doesn't give / light to the moon assuming
The moon�s going to owe it one
It makes me think of how you act to me / You do
Favors and then rapidly / You just
Turn around and start asking me / about
Things you want back from me
I�m sick of the tension / sick of the hunger
Sick of you acting like I owe you this
Find another place / to feed your greed
While I find a place to rest
I want to be in another place
I hate when you say you don�t understand
(You�ll see it's not meant to be)
I want to be in the energy, not with the enemy
A place for my head
Maybe someday I�ll be just like you / and
Step on people like you do and / Run
Away the people I thought I knew
I remember back then who you were
You used to be calm / used to be strong
Used to be generous / but you should�ve known / That you�d
Wear out your welcome / now you see
How quiet it is / all alone / I�m so
Sick of the tension / sick of the hunger
Sick of you acting like I owe you this
Find another place / to feed your greed
While / I find a place to rest / I�m so
Sick of the tension / sick of the hunger
Sick of you acting like I owe you this
Find another place / to feed your greed
While / I find a place to rest
I want to be in another place
I hate when you say you don�t understand
(You�ll see it's not meant to be)
I want to be in the energy, not with the enemy
A place for my head
You try to take the best of me
Go away
You try to take the best of me
Go away
You try to take the best of me
Go away
You try to take the best of me
Go away
You try to take the best of me
Go away
You try to take the best of me
Go away
You try to take the best of me
Go away
You try to take the best of me
Go away
I want to be in another place
I hate when you say you don�t understand
(You�ll see it's not meant to be)
I want to be in the energy, not with the enemy
A place for my head
Shut...up
I�m so sick of the tension / sick of the hunger
Sick of you acting like I owe you this
Find another place / to feed your greed
While I find a place to rest
I�m so sick of the tension / sick of the hunger
Sick of you acting like I owe you this
Find another place / to feed your greed
While I find a place to rest
that's ok if you didn't read the lyrics. i never read lyrics in other people's blogs either. just know that sleep is something missing in my life right now and for some reason, God's not letting me have it. it's not that minh is a bastard or anything. it's living WITH him that's a bastard. i seriously wonder how much more peaceful this room would be if he had moved out. no more people knocking on that cursed door. no more phone calls from that phone that should've been turned off. no more no more NO MORE! i repeat, it's not that minh is a bastard (all the time...hehe). but it's living WITH him that's a bastard. *sigh*
so yesterday, after much thought i decided to take summer school. i haven't taken summer school since 6th grade b/c i'm a strong believer of being against summer school. it's just too hard you know? haha. summer was meant to relax and take a break. maybe make a few bucks or take a trip to korea. summer school? NO! but i've finally decided to take writing 39C for the following reasons...
1. it's supposedly easier during the summer.
2. you only have to concentrate on this subject which is already a handful.
3. summer school is only a month.
4. i won't have to worry about paying for arc during the summer.
5. i'm being productive.
6. mommy is encouraging son to take it.
7. i just gotta get this fudging class out of the way.
man, ever since i got my car, my driving skills have gotten alot worse. seriously, i make the worst decisions when i'm driving with aaron and/or dykas. it's so weird. i KNOW they think i'm the crappiest driver in the world, taking longer routes, making wrong turns, and getting lost. i seriously don't understand it. i know that everyone thinks that they are good drivers but i really feel like i'm a whole lot better than this. it's really frustrating. if i were to see myself drive, i know i'd be yelling the crap out of my head. geez, such a stupid idiot.
Thought of the Day: "I want to fly away..."
Song of the Day: Finch-Letters To You
May 19, 2003
Philip What's in a Name? (Video with sound)
Important:
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The name of Philip gives you a very idealistic nature. Your desire for peace and harmony causes you to withdraw from situations where there is friction and acrimony. You are quite reserved and inclined to feel sensitive and self-conscious, even though you strive to appear poised and confident. Being rather secretive in many ways, and not liking people to pry into your affairs restrict opportunities for friendship; not until you feel you can trust others do you open up to them. The desire to help others and the generous side of your nature attract those who take advantage of you. You lack the necessary aggressiveness for business success. While you lack verbal expression and spontaneity under this name, you have a natural literary ability and writing comes easily to you. You also have a deep appreciation of nature and all the finer things in life. Weaknesses in the health arising from the use of this name affect the respiratory organs, and the nervous system.
now this is what i call Barnum Effect!
Important:
Dear Philip: This analysis describes a few qualities of your first name. There are many additional factors (legal name, nicknames, family surname, combined names, previous names, and business signature) that contribute to your entire personality - and your entire life. Order a Name Report for a full analysis.
The name of Philip gives you a very idealistic nature. Your desire for peace and harmony causes you to withdraw from situations where there is friction and acrimony. You are quite reserved and inclined to feel sensitive and self-conscious, even though you strive to appear poised and confident. Being rather secretive in many ways, and not liking people to pry into your affairs restrict opportunities for friendship; not until you feel you can trust others do you open up to them. The desire to help others and the generous side of your nature attract those who take advantage of you. You lack the necessary aggressiveness for business success. While you lack verbal expression and spontaneity under this name, you have a natural literary ability and writing comes easily to you. You also have a deep appreciation of nature and all the finer things in life. Weaknesses in the health arising from the use of this name affect the respiratory organs, and the nervous system.
now this is what i call Barnum Effect!
friday...
jinwoo: hey carol, i have that same piano at my house!
carol oh really? we should be best friends!
everyone: ahahahhahahaha.
so freakin' funny.
saturday...
6 Flags Magic Mountain with ccm freshmen. this past week, i really got a chance to know the ccm freshmen better...pho 54, matrix 2, and finally 6 Flags. it wasn't really the eating, watching the movie, or riding the roller coasters together that helped us bond. it was all during the insignificant times...the time after the meal, the hour long wait in line for Matrix, and those looooong hours in line just to ride Riddler's Revenge. it's really cool hanging out with a big group and getting to know each and every one of them a little better. everyone's so different and interesting in their own way. you have your fobs (jeesun), idiots (joe), silence (teri), and just happy fun (esther & sharon). man, freakin' joe...
joe: let's get some Dip N' Dots! DOUBLE D'S!
(walking through oriental music).
joe: hey, what's that place called in lord of the rings?
me: middle earth?
joe: THE SHIRE! hey aaron, IT'S THE SHIRE! ahahahahhaha.
me: omg. ahhahahhahaha.
seriously, i knew that guy was goofy and i always like to mess around. but it wasn't until saturday that i got a very good idea of what aaron had to grow up with. haha. that guy is SERIOUSLY so goofy. man, "goofy" is such a stupid word, but that's the best thing to describe joe.
and afterwards, we went to howard's place cause his parents prepared a grip of korean food for us! so incredibly generous and kind. food for 13 college students who had not eaten for 10 hours. man, all the freshmen think i'm some kind of food monster just b/c of two incidents. the time when i finished ALL of my pho really quickly and after finishing all of my food before everyone else. the only reason why i finished 2 plates before everyone else could finish their first was b/c they were watching Punk'd and were conversating with one another. my back was facing the tv and i didn't say a single word during our meal. whatever. they'll get to know dykas pretty soon.
so today's sunday service was possibly the worst service i've been to in my life. since dennis wasn't there today, we had pastor ezra kim speak for us. man, this guy made a whole buncha random points and ended his sermon by trying to be funny. i'm sure he jacked up everyone's sunday b/c of that, preaching sooooo unfaithfully. it makes me so mad to see someone totally disgrace the Word of God like that. it also doesn't help me with the already bad image i have of him...calling me right before my midterm and criticizing my application for the summer tutoring for over 10 min.. ugh, so hard to love people like him.
man, my brother's blogs are the highlights of my days. his criticism of Matrix was RIGHT on the money! YES! Trinity SHOULD have died! i totally feel for him and it makes me smile to see how similar we are. it's so true...simon is a mini version of me. haha. i love the way he describes stupid things like how he drinks the nasty medicine and the trembling. lol. he just needs to work on his grammar, "awesomely craziness." stupid idiot.
so i ended up getting an A- on my bio midterm. praise God! my very first A- on a midterm. one more midterm on tuesday. i just finished memorizing over 100 flashcards. tomorrow's assignment is to read over 100 pages.
Thought of the Day: Winning streak ends on Sunday.
Song of the Day: Jars Of Clay-Worlds Apart
jinwoo: hey carol, i have that same piano at my house!
carol oh really? we should be best friends!
everyone: ahahahhahahaha.
so freakin' funny.
saturday...
6 Flags Magic Mountain with ccm freshmen. this past week, i really got a chance to know the ccm freshmen better...pho 54, matrix 2, and finally 6 Flags. it wasn't really the eating, watching the movie, or riding the roller coasters together that helped us bond. it was all during the insignificant times...the time after the meal, the hour long wait in line for Matrix, and those looooong hours in line just to ride Riddler's Revenge. it's really cool hanging out with a big group and getting to know each and every one of them a little better. everyone's so different and interesting in their own way. you have your fobs (jeesun), idiots (joe), silence (teri), and just happy fun (esther & sharon). man, freakin' joe...
joe: let's get some Dip N' Dots! DOUBLE D'S!
(walking through oriental music).
joe: hey, what's that place called in lord of the rings?
me: middle earth?
joe: THE SHIRE! hey aaron, IT'S THE SHIRE! ahahahahhaha.
me: omg. ahhahahhahaha.
seriously, i knew that guy was goofy and i always like to mess around. but it wasn't until saturday that i got a very good idea of what aaron had to grow up with. haha. that guy is SERIOUSLY so goofy. man, "goofy" is such a stupid word, but that's the best thing to describe joe.
and afterwards, we went to howard's place cause his parents prepared a grip of korean food for us! so incredibly generous and kind. food for 13 college students who had not eaten for 10 hours. man, all the freshmen think i'm some kind of food monster just b/c of two incidents. the time when i finished ALL of my pho really quickly and after finishing all of my food before everyone else. the only reason why i finished 2 plates before everyone else could finish their first was b/c they were watching Punk'd and were conversating with one another. my back was facing the tv and i didn't say a single word during our meal. whatever. they'll get to know dykas pretty soon.
so today's sunday service was possibly the worst service i've been to in my life. since dennis wasn't there today, we had pastor ezra kim speak for us. man, this guy made a whole buncha random points and ended his sermon by trying to be funny. i'm sure he jacked up everyone's sunday b/c of that, preaching sooooo unfaithfully. it makes me so mad to see someone totally disgrace the Word of God like that. it also doesn't help me with the already bad image i have of him...calling me right before my midterm and criticizing my application for the summer tutoring for over 10 min.. ugh, so hard to love people like him.
man, my brother's blogs are the highlights of my days. his criticism of Matrix was RIGHT on the money! YES! Trinity SHOULD have died! i totally feel for him and it makes me smile to see how similar we are. it's so true...simon is a mini version of me. haha. i love the way he describes stupid things like how he drinks the nasty medicine and the trembling. lol. he just needs to work on his grammar, "awesomely craziness." stupid idiot.
so i ended up getting an A- on my bio midterm. praise God! my very first A- on a midterm. one more midterm on tuesday. i just finished memorizing over 100 flashcards. tomorrow's assignment is to read over 100 pages.
Thought of the Day: Winning streak ends on Sunday.
Song of the Day: Jars Of Clay-Worlds Apart
May 16, 2003
so i've been playing alotta 21 with my roommate. this past week, God's really been blessing me with wins wins WINS! so today was no different from cleaning out my stubborn roommate...
(all sad).
minh: did you check the mail?
me: yeah, didn't you see the note i put on your desk?
minh: (jumps out of bed). oh really? my day is good once again! (runs out the door). i'm running like the forest!
me: ahhahahahahah.
isn't it supposed to be "running like the wind?"
dang, it's so weird how girls seem to be really into the nba playoffs these days. since the lakers lost last night, alotta people were upset in irvine. haha. suckers. but yeah, it's so cool to have girls so excited to watch basketball. you even hear some of them talk about the players and how they've been doing all season. man, some of them even sacrifice dinner just to watch the game. craziness fo sho. it's tight. it makes me so happy to see Lakers fans so unhappy. take that LA!
(all sad).
minh: did you check the mail?
me: yeah, didn't you see the note i put on your desk?
minh: (jumps out of bed). oh really? my day is good once again! (runs out the door). i'm running like the forest!
me: ahhahahahahah.
isn't it supposed to be "running like the wind?"
dang, it's so weird how girls seem to be really into the nba playoffs these days. since the lakers lost last night, alotta people were upset in irvine. haha. suckers. but yeah, it's so cool to have girls so excited to watch basketball. you even hear some of them talk about the players and how they've been doing all season. man, some of them even sacrifice dinner just to watch the game. craziness fo sho. it's tight. it makes me so happy to see Lakers fans so unhappy. take that LA!
so the idiot decides to cram the night before the midterm again. i sleep at 6:30 in the morning and wake up 2 hours later. i totally got jacked on contraleteral eye processing and corticospinal tracts. man, i was so unhappy with those two questions. so i was thinking about how i told myself and even prayed that i would be content with my efforts. so i was reminded of Job and decided to read...
Job 1:20-22: "Naked I came from my mother's womb, and naked I will depart. The Lord gave and the Lord has taken away; may the name of the Lord be praised." In all this, Job did not sin by charging God with wrongdoing.
and...
Job 41:7-9: "Brace yourself like a man; I will question you, and you shall answer me. "Would you discredit my justice? Would you condemn me to justify yourself? Do you have an arm like God's, and can your voice thunder like his?
man, how humbling.
i finally went to Irvine Spectrum for the first time. it's kinda like a combination of Great Mall and The Block. the only stupid thing about buying Matrix tickets in advance was that the guy wouldn't let me buy multiple tickets b/c i wasn't 21. isn't that so stupid? they're getting really strict on the under 17 thing, trying to prevent underage kids from sliding in. anyways, dykas and i looked around the stores and it was so great cause i bought 100 blank cds for $20! TDK 80 min. and everything. it was a buy one get one free thing. don't you love it when you see stuff with great offers or steep discounts? especially if it's one of those stores where they overprice their stuff.
so we go back in line to buy a ticket for aaron but we see that the same worker is in the booth. so i ask the guys in front of me if they can buy my ticket...
me: excuse me, are you guys buying tickets for Matrix 2?
guy: (looks at his friend). no.
me: oh alright.
guy: why?
me: well, i was wondering if you guys can buy me a ticket cause you're not allowed to buy multiple tickets if you're not 21.
guy: oh really? (looks at friend again).
me: yeah, i'd really appreciate it.
guy: (looks at friend again). wanna buy it for him?
friend: alright.
me: thanks.
dude, people these days...so hesitant to help out strangers with a simple favor. was it b/c i was asian? or was it b/c they were just unwilling jerks who needed a nudge of sympathy? when he was giving me my ticket, i found out that they actually were buying tickets for Matrix 2. (shaking head). some people are so....but those cheap cds seriously turned my frowns upside down. i won't have to buy cds for another year!
after we get back, i'm pretty tired cause i had gotten less than 3 hours of sleep. but how could i turn down pingpong with frank? it was really funny cause as we were playing (we were hitting some really good rallies), this one guy asked him if he wanted to play for money. lol. what the crap right? of all the things, this guy wanted to play pingpong for money. seriously, there are some funny people out there.
so i'm like really really tired by now and i know that if i had decided to sleep, i wouldn't have woken up for a while. so i decide to catch up on my psych. reading and omg, i actually finish! it was especially hard towards the end cause the guys next door were drinking. don't you hate it when you ask people to do a simple favor and they just completely ignore you? is it so hard to just close the door so that you won't disturb others, specifically those that are living right next to you? and it's not like you guys are chilling in the halls. you guys are INSIDE the room, but the bumping music and the annoying laughter is just so loud with your stupid door open. but i mean, what can you do right? you ask, you ask, and you ASK! i just gotta keep telling myself that i only have a few more weeks left in the dorms. i should be able to put up with this stuff for just a little bit longer.
while i was studying, chris gave me a call and encouraged me to come to ccm cause there was this awesome speaker for the night. Mark Eastman, author of "Evidence of Creation?" sure enough, this guy struck me with awe. hardcore science guy, giving evidence for a creator and not evolution. very interesting stuff that i'm sure gave everyone a whole new perspective on science. the only problem i had was that he was trying to prove God using science. this guy was basically an evidentialist. i mean sure, evidentialism may seem more "practical" and "effective," but i think God would be more pleased with apologetics that was more biblical. start with God. end with God. highly debatable issue. but it was cool listening to all the things he had to say.
i had my first day of work today. Elite, a tutoring place for SATS and different placement tests. so i'm like the front desk guy who just answers phone calls, registers people, handles billing, makes copies, and start/end/correct tests. eugene is in the process of training me and i'm still trying to get the hang of things. i really hate the fact that i'm a slow learner. i seriously need people to show me multiple times until i finally get it the first time. but in time, i'm sure i'll be a super worker. man, looking at all that SAT stuff really depresses me, bringing back bad memories of junior year. eugene told me that starting my brother's year, they're gonna change the SAT so that there's like a writing section that's similar to SAT II in the SAT I. harder and longer. poor simon. you're not gonna get into any college.
last night, pho 54 with ccm freshmen. tonight, matrix 2 with ccm freshmen. saturday, 6 Flags with ccm freshmen. i'm meeting alotta cool people but i wonder if these friendships are pleasing to God. so far, it's just been all superficial fun fun fun. i wonder if i could really make some good friendships with these people. friendships that are grounded under Christ.
i was disappointed with Matrix 2. even before i went to go watch it, i talked to some people who had already seen it and they didn't seem too satisfied themselves. just a whole buncha "it's OK." i think alotta people were disappointed too. they were just being nice when people asked them about what they thought. but yeah, too many corny lines, unnecessary scenes, and bad plot? however, i did find alot of the fight scenes entertaining and dude, wasn't that french chick incredibly hot? i mean, i thought she was really attractive in alotta ways...the face, the dress, the accent. good stuff. haha. and yeah, the preview for Matrix 3 looked pretty whack. i'm kinda mad that there's a third one coming out cause then i have to go watch it just to know what happens. they should've just left it with the first one. oh well, french chick was hot. =D
Thought of the Day: "OMELAAAAAAAY!"
Song of the Day: For This Cause
Job 1:20-22: "Naked I came from my mother's womb, and naked I will depart. The Lord gave and the Lord has taken away; may the name of the Lord be praised." In all this, Job did not sin by charging God with wrongdoing.
and...
Job 41:7-9: "Brace yourself like a man; I will question you, and you shall answer me. "Would you discredit my justice? Would you condemn me to justify yourself? Do you have an arm like God's, and can your voice thunder like his?
man, how humbling.
i finally went to Irvine Spectrum for the first time. it's kinda like a combination of Great Mall and The Block. the only stupid thing about buying Matrix tickets in advance was that the guy wouldn't let me buy multiple tickets b/c i wasn't 21. isn't that so stupid? they're getting really strict on the under 17 thing, trying to prevent underage kids from sliding in. anyways, dykas and i looked around the stores and it was so great cause i bought 100 blank cds for $20! TDK 80 min. and everything. it was a buy one get one free thing. don't you love it when you see stuff with great offers or steep discounts? especially if it's one of those stores where they overprice their stuff.
so we go back in line to buy a ticket for aaron but we see that the same worker is in the booth. so i ask the guys in front of me if they can buy my ticket...
me: excuse me, are you guys buying tickets for Matrix 2?
guy: (looks at his friend). no.
me: oh alright.
guy: why?
me: well, i was wondering if you guys can buy me a ticket cause you're not allowed to buy multiple tickets if you're not 21.
guy: oh really? (looks at friend again).
me: yeah, i'd really appreciate it.
guy: (looks at friend again). wanna buy it for him?
friend: alright.
me: thanks.
dude, people these days...so hesitant to help out strangers with a simple favor. was it b/c i was asian? or was it b/c they were just unwilling jerks who needed a nudge of sympathy? when he was giving me my ticket, i found out that they actually were buying tickets for Matrix 2. (shaking head). some people are so....but those cheap cds seriously turned my frowns upside down. i won't have to buy cds for another year!
after we get back, i'm pretty tired cause i had gotten less than 3 hours of sleep. but how could i turn down pingpong with frank? it was really funny cause as we were playing (we were hitting some really good rallies), this one guy asked him if he wanted to play for money. lol. what the crap right? of all the things, this guy wanted to play pingpong for money. seriously, there are some funny people out there.
so i'm like really really tired by now and i know that if i had decided to sleep, i wouldn't have woken up for a while. so i decide to catch up on my psych. reading and omg, i actually finish! it was especially hard towards the end cause the guys next door were drinking. don't you hate it when you ask people to do a simple favor and they just completely ignore you? is it so hard to just close the door so that you won't disturb others, specifically those that are living right next to you? and it's not like you guys are chilling in the halls. you guys are INSIDE the room, but the bumping music and the annoying laughter is just so loud with your stupid door open. but i mean, what can you do right? you ask, you ask, and you ASK! i just gotta keep telling myself that i only have a few more weeks left in the dorms. i should be able to put up with this stuff for just a little bit longer.
while i was studying, chris gave me a call and encouraged me to come to ccm cause there was this awesome speaker for the night. Mark Eastman, author of "Evidence of Creation?" sure enough, this guy struck me with awe. hardcore science guy, giving evidence for a creator and not evolution. very interesting stuff that i'm sure gave everyone a whole new perspective on science. the only problem i had was that he was trying to prove God using science. this guy was basically an evidentialist. i mean sure, evidentialism may seem more "practical" and "effective," but i think God would be more pleased with apologetics that was more biblical. start with God. end with God. highly debatable issue. but it was cool listening to all the things he had to say.
i had my first day of work today. Elite, a tutoring place for SATS and different placement tests. so i'm like the front desk guy who just answers phone calls, registers people, handles billing, makes copies, and start/end/correct tests. eugene is in the process of training me and i'm still trying to get the hang of things. i really hate the fact that i'm a slow learner. i seriously need people to show me multiple times until i finally get it the first time. but in time, i'm sure i'll be a super worker. man, looking at all that SAT stuff really depresses me, bringing back bad memories of junior year. eugene told me that starting my brother's year, they're gonna change the SAT so that there's like a writing section that's similar to SAT II in the SAT I. harder and longer. poor simon. you're not gonna get into any college.
last night, pho 54 with ccm freshmen. tonight, matrix 2 with ccm freshmen. saturday, 6 Flags with ccm freshmen. i'm meeting alotta cool people but i wonder if these friendships are pleasing to God. so far, it's just been all superficial fun fun fun. i wonder if i could really make some good friendships with these people. friendships that are grounded under Christ.
i was disappointed with Matrix 2. even before i went to go watch it, i talked to some people who had already seen it and they didn't seem too satisfied themselves. just a whole buncha "it's OK." i think alotta people were disappointed too. they were just being nice when people asked them about what they thought. but yeah, too many corny lines, unnecessary scenes, and bad plot? however, i did find alot of the fight scenes entertaining and dude, wasn't that french chick incredibly hot? i mean, i thought she was really attractive in alotta ways...the face, the dress, the accent. good stuff. haha. and yeah, the preview for Matrix 3 looked pretty whack. i'm kinda mad that there's a third one coming out cause then i have to go watch it just to know what happens. they should've just left it with the first one. oh well, french chick was hot. =D
Thought of the Day: "OMELAAAAAAAY!"
Song of the Day: For This Cause
May 13, 2003
| Disorder | Rating |
| Paranoid: | Low |
| Schizoid: | Low |
| Schizotypal: | Moderate |
| Antisocial: | Moderate |
| Borderline: | Moderate |
| Histrionic: | Moderate |
| Narcissistic: | High |
| Avoidant: | Moderate |
| Dependent: | Moderate |
| Obsessive-Compulsive: | Moderate |
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May 12, 2003
instead of our usual Denny's after friday night bible study, we went to eugene's place and cooked us up some ramen and fried rice. man, fun stuff cooking up your own meal, your own style, and sharing it with everyone. if i live in eugene's apt. over the summer (which seems very probable right now), i think i'm gonna have alotta fun...and get really fat.
on saturday, the freshmen met up to do our Senior Banquet thing. dude, suzy is seriously one talented chick! she can think of some crazy body worship in a few minutes and teach it really well too. i haven't done body worship in a looooong time. i think the last time was junior year, WOW rally. lol. man, i practiced and practiced but just never got it down. but i was able to pull it off at the rally so that was cool. but yeah, i think our presentation is going to be great! with suzy's skills and dinko's leadership, we're gonna tear it up like no other.
later that night, i took norman and frank out to watch Identity cause they were the only people that were down to watch it with me. man, that movie wasn't too bad at all. simon WAS right! well, i didn't like it as much as he did but it was pretty good. it's just really unfortunate that the preview really sucked so people like me wouldn't have wanted to watch it. but yeah, "whores don't get a second chance." crazy.
today, i brought norman and frank out to cpc cause they wanted to check it out. i actually have a personal struggle with bringing friends to my church b/c i always worry about if they're gonna like the service/people or not. i have a hard time worshipping freely w/o any distractions when my newcomer friends are there experiencing this whole new place. however, i was glad that they liked it...
(crawford slaps me hard on the arm).
me: yeah, she's not too pretty is she?
(frank & norman laugh).
later...
frank: dang dude, that girl slapped you pretty hard!
me: yeah, i was rubbing my arm when she wasn't looking.
since i was in a good mood today, i treated them out to Thai Spice in irvine. second time eating thai food. not bad.
but dang, i've slowly been developing a sweet tooth lately. back in high school, i never ate sweets even if it was free or whatever. i mean, it's good and all but i just never prefered it. and in the dining halls, they always have these awesome cakes and pies and cookies and ice cream...all free all you can eat! but dang, i never touched any of them until lately...those cookies just started to beg me to nip at them! so what can i do? i can't just leave them alone and have them wait for me. i gotta satifsy THEIR need and even help out a brother or two. ugh, i gotta stop this unhealthiness...it's only making my workouts go to waste.
but the weird thing is, i weighed myself after i worked out today. 152 pounds. i lost 3 pounds in 2 weeks. how is that possible? i haven't been this light since sophomore year in high school? another funny thing is that i just found out today that i've been working one of the machines all wrong the whole time! i always thought i was working out pretty strong and making some progress. turns out that i've been wasting about 50% of my time for the past 5 weeks? instead of flexing my abs, i was flexing my upper body and not getting a full workout on my love handles. i always wondered how this was helping me out, but just concluded that alotta sweat meant alotta progress. i'm such a stupid idiot.
so henry was drinking tonight...
everyone: take another shot!!
henry: i can't...i...fool...no, you...i can't take another shot!
everyone: c'mon, just one more!
henry: i....you...i...naw, you try taking another shot! i feel sick.
lester: hey, you alrite? try standing up.
minh: naw, he's coo.
lester: alrite, just finish up your burrito then.
ahahahahahahahahah. i thought that was like the funniest thing. everyone's telling him to drink but he was feeling all sick. then lester suggests that henry just finish his burrito. lol. man, what funny reasoning.
dude, my wrist still isn't fully healed. i was talking to minh about it and he was telling me how his wrists still hurt too and it's been 2 months! fudge! the pain he was describing was very similar to mine. like when a person shakes my hand, i have to turn away and close eyes and bite down real hard. freakin' aaron, everytime he shakes my hand, i'm screaming bloody murder in my head! my hand will never be the same all thanks to my bastard roommate. i hate that idiot!
i just realized that my blogs have been short summaries of what i've been doing everyday. man, my entries are really lacking substance. i don't reflect much and when i do, it's just for a few sentences. reason: laziness.
you know, i think alotta people see me as cynical person. while i try to challenge to really see if they're thinking logically (or biblically), i think i rub off the wrong way to alotta people. i think many see me as this guy who's just out there to get them...really doubting their motives and reasons for their actions. so if you happen to be one of my "victims" of cynicsm, please don't take it the wrong way. i'm not out there to get you for my own wicked pleasure. i mean, i myself hate cynical people...always so pessimistic and doubting your reasons for everything.
Thought of the Day: 6 Flags!
Song of the Day: For This Cause
on saturday, the freshmen met up to do our Senior Banquet thing. dude, suzy is seriously one talented chick! she can think of some crazy body worship in a few minutes and teach it really well too. i haven't done body worship in a looooong time. i think the last time was junior year, WOW rally. lol. man, i practiced and practiced but just never got it down. but i was able to pull it off at the rally so that was cool. but yeah, i think our presentation is going to be great! with suzy's skills and dinko's leadership, we're gonna tear it up like no other.
later that night, i took norman and frank out to watch Identity cause they were the only people that were down to watch it with me. man, that movie wasn't too bad at all. simon WAS right! well, i didn't like it as much as he did but it was pretty good. it's just really unfortunate that the preview really sucked so people like me wouldn't have wanted to watch it. but yeah, "whores don't get a second chance." crazy.
today, i brought norman and frank out to cpc cause they wanted to check it out. i actually have a personal struggle with bringing friends to my church b/c i always worry about if they're gonna like the service/people or not. i have a hard time worshipping freely w/o any distractions when my newcomer friends are there experiencing this whole new place. however, i was glad that they liked it...
(crawford slaps me hard on the arm).
me: yeah, she's not too pretty is she?
(frank & norman laugh).
later...
frank: dang dude, that girl slapped you pretty hard!
me: yeah, i was rubbing my arm when she wasn't looking.
since i was in a good mood today, i treated them out to Thai Spice in irvine. second time eating thai food. not bad.
but dang, i've slowly been developing a sweet tooth lately. back in high school, i never ate sweets even if it was free or whatever. i mean, it's good and all but i just never prefered it. and in the dining halls, they always have these awesome cakes and pies and cookies and ice cream...all free all you can eat! but dang, i never touched any of them until lately...those cookies just started to beg me to nip at them! so what can i do? i can't just leave them alone and have them wait for me. i gotta satifsy THEIR need and even help out a brother or two. ugh, i gotta stop this unhealthiness...it's only making my workouts go to waste.
but the weird thing is, i weighed myself after i worked out today. 152 pounds. i lost 3 pounds in 2 weeks. how is that possible? i haven't been this light since sophomore year in high school? another funny thing is that i just found out today that i've been working one of the machines all wrong the whole time! i always thought i was working out pretty strong and making some progress. turns out that i've been wasting about 50% of my time for the past 5 weeks? instead of flexing my abs, i was flexing my upper body and not getting a full workout on my love handles. i always wondered how this was helping me out, but just concluded that alotta sweat meant alotta progress. i'm such a stupid idiot.
so henry was drinking tonight...
everyone: take another shot!!
henry: i can't...i...fool...no, you...i can't take another shot!
everyone: c'mon, just one more!
henry: i....you...i...naw, you try taking another shot! i feel sick.
lester: hey, you alrite? try standing up.
minh: naw, he's coo.
lester: alrite, just finish up your burrito then.
ahahahahahahahahah. i thought that was like the funniest thing. everyone's telling him to drink but he was feeling all sick. then lester suggests that henry just finish his burrito. lol. man, what funny reasoning.
dude, my wrist still isn't fully healed. i was talking to minh about it and he was telling me how his wrists still hurt too and it's been 2 months! fudge! the pain he was describing was very similar to mine. like when a person shakes my hand, i have to turn away and close eyes and bite down real hard. freakin' aaron, everytime he shakes my hand, i'm screaming bloody murder in my head! my hand will never be the same all thanks to my bastard roommate. i hate that idiot!
i just realized that my blogs have been short summaries of what i've been doing everyday. man, my entries are really lacking substance. i don't reflect much and when i do, it's just for a few sentences. reason: laziness.
you know, i think alotta people see me as cynical person. while i try to challenge to really see if they're thinking logically (or biblically), i think i rub off the wrong way to alotta people. i think many see me as this guy who's just out there to get them...really doubting their motives and reasons for their actions. so if you happen to be one of my "victims" of cynicsm, please don't take it the wrong way. i'm not out there to get you for my own wicked pleasure. i mean, i myself hate cynical people...always so pessimistic and doubting your reasons for everything.
Thought of the Day: 6 Flags!
Song of the Day: For This Cause
May 8, 2003
after clusters tonight, eugene was dropping the freshies off in our dorms. for some reason, irvine looked really really ghetto tonight...kinda like downtown sf. he takes a right onto el camino and i tell him that i can take the freshmen home from here. we get off and see a Samtrans bus (the old school version) and we start pushing it. as we're pushing, we have to stop at every bus stop cause all of the people at the bus stops are wondering why we're just passing them by. so of all the people, i am made the bus driver. i push, i drive, i push, i drive. i don't know why. gosh, controlling that bus is really hard with all of the swerving and almost missing the bus stops. when i decide to drive the bus again, i go up to the front but i see these two mexican guys who just got off work from the post office. i tell them that i'm the bus driver and they get off my seat. man, i was really scared that they weren't going to believe me.
(cell phone goes off).
me: (really tired). hello?
monica: hi phil, this is monica from Elite.
me: (wake up right away). OH HEY!
monica: yeah, i think i'll be hiring you so do you think you can come in for training?
me: oh great! yeah, i'm free on thursdays after 2.
monica: alrite great. how's next thursday at 2?
me: sounds good.
monica: ok see you then.
me: bye.
so bad dream but good news! i pretty much got the job and i'll be going through training. if i like the job, i'll be staying down here for the summer...might even pick up that tutoring job that was offered at church. awesome!
i saw Chicago last night alone in the dark cause i was so bored. unlike most people, i actually liked the movie. i thought it was really creative with two different parts going on at the same time. i liked the dancing, the characters, and yes those awesome gangster suits! even some of the music wasn't so bad. however, i am really displeased with how Rene Zellwegger turned out over the years. i really wish she could stay the way she looked in Jerry Mcguire...man, so pretty in that movie. oh well, you can't be beautiful forever...not even hyori.
AsianXboi56 (7:25:49 PM): i read your letter
AsianXboi56 (7:25:51 PM): good stuff
Pretzelboi96 (7:25:54 PM): haha
Pretzelboi96 (7:25:56 PM): mom got it?
Pretzelboi96 (7:26:07 PM): quick stuff
AsianXboi56 (7:26:24 PM): yeah
AsianXboi56 (7:26:29 PM): your awesome in korean man
AsianXboi56 (7:26:30 PM): good job
AsianXboi56 (7:26:34 PM): she freaken made me read it outloud
AsianXboi56 (7:26:35 PM): haha
Pretzelboi96 (7:26:38 PM): jeah!
Pretzelboi96 (7:26:39 PM): lol
AsianXboi56 (7:26:40 PM): she cracked up every second
Pretzelboi96 (7:26:45 PM): ahahahhhah
Pretzelboi96 (7:26:48 PM): nice nice
for mother's day, i wrote my mom a letter in korean, not just cause we had to do it for korean class, but i also wanted to. so wrote me an email telling me that this was by far the best mother's day gift she had ever received from me...a simple letter written to her in korean. i think today was the VERY first time i ever received an email from my mom too...actually any kind of letter in fact from her. i'm really glad that i have a mom who really loves her God. she always encourages me to pray and read the Bible, always trusting in God's sovereignty. not the typical korean mom stuff. i'm definitely a lucky child.
man, i wish i was closer with the ccm freshmen. they all seem so tight, hanging out together all the time...eating, playing ball, you know just chillin'. ugh, it's not like i just wanna include myself either when i haven't even been invited to whatever. all i do is class, study, 3 hour nap, dinner, work out, then gamble. i just kill time doing the regular stuff. oh well, i ought to be content with what i have. it could be worse...so much worse.
Thought of the Day: Not the usual Thursday.
Song of the Day: Boa-Shine We Are
(cell phone goes off).
me: (really tired). hello?
monica: hi phil, this is monica from Elite.
me: (wake up right away). OH HEY!
monica: yeah, i think i'll be hiring you so do you think you can come in for training?
me: oh great! yeah, i'm free on thursdays after 2.
monica: alrite great. how's next thursday at 2?
me: sounds good.
monica: ok see you then.
me: bye.
so bad dream but good news! i pretty much got the job and i'll be going through training. if i like the job, i'll be staying down here for the summer...might even pick up that tutoring job that was offered at church. awesome!
i saw Chicago last night alone in the dark cause i was so bored. unlike most people, i actually liked the movie. i thought it was really creative with two different parts going on at the same time. i liked the dancing, the characters, and yes those awesome gangster suits! even some of the music wasn't so bad. however, i am really displeased with how Rene Zellwegger turned out over the years. i really wish she could stay the way she looked in Jerry Mcguire...man, so pretty in that movie. oh well, you can't be beautiful forever...not even hyori.
AsianXboi56 (7:25:49 PM): i read your letter
AsianXboi56 (7:25:51 PM): good stuff
Pretzelboi96 (7:25:54 PM): haha
Pretzelboi96 (7:25:56 PM): mom got it?
Pretzelboi96 (7:26:07 PM): quick stuff
AsianXboi56 (7:26:24 PM): yeah
AsianXboi56 (7:26:29 PM): your awesome in korean man
AsianXboi56 (7:26:30 PM): good job
AsianXboi56 (7:26:34 PM): she freaken made me read it outloud
AsianXboi56 (7:26:35 PM): haha
Pretzelboi96 (7:26:38 PM): jeah!
Pretzelboi96 (7:26:39 PM): lol
AsianXboi56 (7:26:40 PM): she cracked up every second
Pretzelboi96 (7:26:45 PM): ahahahhhah
Pretzelboi96 (7:26:48 PM): nice nice
for mother's day, i wrote my mom a letter in korean, not just cause we had to do it for korean class, but i also wanted to. so wrote me an email telling me that this was by far the best mother's day gift she had ever received from me...a simple letter written to her in korean. i think today was the VERY first time i ever received an email from my mom too...actually any kind of letter in fact from her. i'm really glad that i have a mom who really loves her God. she always encourages me to pray and read the Bible, always trusting in God's sovereignty. not the typical korean mom stuff. i'm definitely a lucky child.
man, i wish i was closer with the ccm freshmen. they all seem so tight, hanging out together all the time...eating, playing ball, you know just chillin'. ugh, it's not like i just wanna include myself either when i haven't even been invited to whatever. all i do is class, study, 3 hour nap, dinner, work out, then gamble. i just kill time doing the regular stuff. oh well, i ought to be content with what i have. it could be worse...so much worse.
Thought of the Day: Not the usual Thursday.
Song of the Day: Boa-Shine We Are
Pretzelboi96 (3:55:12 AM): right now, i'm just looking through random xangas
Pretzelboi96 (3:55:13 AM): haha
Pretzelboi96 (3:55:15 AM): do you ever do that?
Pretzelboi96 (3:55:22 AM): just keep clicking on the links?
StReSsFuLLcHiCa (3:55:36 AM): hahahhaha
StReSsFuLLcHiCa (3:55:40 AM): HAHA i know what u mean
so i was looking through this one xanga with a girl from new york. interesting entry...
things i liked about los angeles:
- every single public bathroom i went to had toilet seat covers
- there are four to five highway lanes
- parking spaces everywhere
- there is a universal driving lane in the middle of local roads for cars to make left turns whenever and wherever they want...it prevents traffic jams and it's very smart and convenient
- palm trees instead of deciduous ones
- everything is cheaper
- the people there aren't so angry and are much nicer to you
- i've never had such yummy eggs in my life
- everyone drives nice ass cars
- all the houses and buildings look so clean..as a matter of fact...everything in LA is clean!!
- the beaches are beautiful
- no freaking pot holes
things i disliked about los angeles:
- you can't get around without a car...there is no well developed public transportation
- it gets too cold at night
- the water doesn't taste as good as new york
- they call eight bunched up skyscrapers a city
- their riceboys lower their cars only in the front so that the ass of the car is sticking up madd high...hahahaha
- it's not the shit like tupac says it is
- so many homeless people
- they think 50 degrees fahrenheit is cold...wtf? people in new york start wearing shorts in that kind of weather..haha
- i didn't get to see brad pitt
- LA is not new york...i am forever a new yorker! hee hee..i love nyc~!
man, it's pretty late right now...4 in the morning. i'm usually in bed by now but my eyes don't seem to want to rest for just a little bit longer. i think part of it is b/c i ate In N' Out at like 11. man, i really dislike eating food after 7. i don't like going to sleep all bloated and full cause you feel gross in the morning. dang, i totally sound like a girl.
Thought of the Day: Dormal no. Pat bing soo jeah!
Song of the Day: Fly To The Sky-Sea Of Love
Pretzelboi96 (3:55:13 AM): haha
Pretzelboi96 (3:55:15 AM): do you ever do that?
Pretzelboi96 (3:55:22 AM): just keep clicking on the links?
StReSsFuLLcHiCa (3:55:36 AM): hahahhaha
StReSsFuLLcHiCa (3:55:40 AM): HAHA i know what u mean
so i was looking through this one xanga with a girl from new york. interesting entry...
things i liked about los angeles:
- every single public bathroom i went to had toilet seat covers
- there are four to five highway lanes
- parking spaces everywhere
- there is a universal driving lane in the middle of local roads for cars to make left turns whenever and wherever they want...it prevents traffic jams and it's very smart and convenient
- palm trees instead of deciduous ones
- everything is cheaper
- the people there aren't so angry and are much nicer to you
- i've never had such yummy eggs in my life
- everyone drives nice ass cars
- all the houses and buildings look so clean..as a matter of fact...everything in LA is clean!!
- the beaches are beautiful
- no freaking pot holes
things i disliked about los angeles:
- you can't get around without a car...there is no well developed public transportation
- it gets too cold at night
- the water doesn't taste as good as new york
- they call eight bunched up skyscrapers a city
- their riceboys lower their cars only in the front so that the ass of the car is sticking up madd high...hahahaha
- it's not the shit like tupac says it is
- so many homeless people
- they think 50 degrees fahrenheit is cold...wtf? people in new york start wearing shorts in that kind of weather..haha
- i didn't get to see brad pitt
- LA is not new york...i am forever a new yorker! hee hee..i love nyc~!
man, it's pretty late right now...4 in the morning. i'm usually in bed by now but my eyes don't seem to want to rest for just a little bit longer. i think part of it is b/c i ate In N' Out at like 11. man, i really dislike eating food after 7. i don't like going to sleep all bloated and full cause you feel gross in the morning. dang, i totally sound like a girl.
Thought of the Day: Dormal no. Pat bing soo jeah!
Song of the Day: Fly To The Sky-Sea Of Love
May 7, 2003
today, i finally got to introduce chang to aaron! i always wanted aaron to meet chang cause you know, i just thought it'd be really interesting to see them interact. so i leave them alone in a room and when i come back, i see aaron reading the Bible. i ask aaron what he learned from chang and he shows me the REAL Revelations that is in b/w the Old and New Testaments. i'm thinking WOW! this is such an amazing thing...why didn't i ever see this? the whole time, chang is playing Smash by himself and i tell him how everyone's all into Smash except for me.
weird dream.
my roommate likes to play this punching game with people whenever he gets the chance. basically, you take turns hitting each other in the arm as hard as you can...kinda like bloody knuckles but you're hitting arms. so just out of the blue late at night last night, he starts bothering and bothering me to play with him. you have to understand that i think this is the stupidest game in the world. i know that he CAN punch and that i definitely do NOT know how to punch. this one time, he played with henry and minh seriously colored that arm black! it was definitely a Kodak moment...man, i regret not taking a picture of that crap. haha.
so just to shut my roommate up, i agree to one punch. he punches me first, which hurt but supposedly was a very bad punch for him. so then it's my turn. i have NO idea how to punch. i've seen people hit pretty well. i've seen people swing like idiots. *shrug* so i try to hit him as hard as possible, but i KNOW i threw that punch like a pansy. i think i hurt myself more than i hurt him.
so here i am now, the idiot who decided to play that stupid game with a jacked up wrist. everytime i turn a doorknob, wipe my butt, or try to climb up onto my bed, i close my eyes tight and clench my teeth with pain. we seriously take all of the smaller body parts for granted, more specifically our wrists. i can't do normal pushups and my hand gets all tight after writing a few words. yeah, you would think that i would start using my left hand to do all the normal stuff. BAH! that left hand better not think it's going to start getting my attention. my stubborn self is going to put my right hand through hell and back!
i've been thinking alot about friendship lately. i find myself totally following the Exchange Theory where a relationship won't last if you give and do not receive. i think we all have set expectations for different people in our lives. when a person doesn't meet up to a standard, you complain or you end the friendship. selfish. for a while now, i've been thinking about why certain people can't just change. why do they have to be like this? why can they NOT be like this? and after learning about meekness in clusters today, my eyes were open to my sinfulness. while i'm judging and asking people to change, i am being a big hypocrite. some people are harder to love than others. but dude, you just gotta be content with what you have and stop complaining. i'm still working on it for sure...i always will be.
yesterday in gospel choir, we learned this new song called A Praying Spirit. man, it's such a good song...pretty slow with some moving lyrics. i so do not regret taking this course at all. i think it's great how we can all sing songs that totally praise God as a course for 2 units! not only is it fun and easy, but you also get to hear some awesome music. and as you're singing these great lyrics, you can't help but think-dude, all these nonchristians are singing praises to God whether they like it or not! i mean God obviously only looks at the heart, but someday these sinful souls will be praising God b/c they really want to! it's gonna be awesome folks.
new 2 mile record: 16:57!
Thought of the Day: Blessed are the meek. For they will inherit the earth.
Song of the Day: YG Family-STP
weird dream.
my roommate likes to play this punching game with people whenever he gets the chance. basically, you take turns hitting each other in the arm as hard as you can...kinda like bloody knuckles but you're hitting arms. so just out of the blue late at night last night, he starts bothering and bothering me to play with him. you have to understand that i think this is the stupidest game in the world. i know that he CAN punch and that i definitely do NOT know how to punch. this one time, he played with henry and minh seriously colored that arm black! it was definitely a Kodak moment...man, i regret not taking a picture of that crap. haha.
so just to shut my roommate up, i agree to one punch. he punches me first, which hurt but supposedly was a very bad punch for him. so then it's my turn. i have NO idea how to punch. i've seen people hit pretty well. i've seen people swing like idiots. *shrug* so i try to hit him as hard as possible, but i KNOW i threw that punch like a pansy. i think i hurt myself more than i hurt him.
so here i am now, the idiot who decided to play that stupid game with a jacked up wrist. everytime i turn a doorknob, wipe my butt, or try to climb up onto my bed, i close my eyes tight and clench my teeth with pain. we seriously take all of the smaller body parts for granted, more specifically our wrists. i can't do normal pushups and my hand gets all tight after writing a few words. yeah, you would think that i would start using my left hand to do all the normal stuff. BAH! that left hand better not think it's going to start getting my attention. my stubborn self is going to put my right hand through hell and back!
i've been thinking alot about friendship lately. i find myself totally following the Exchange Theory where a relationship won't last if you give and do not receive. i think we all have set expectations for different people in our lives. when a person doesn't meet up to a standard, you complain or you end the friendship. selfish. for a while now, i've been thinking about why certain people can't just change. why do they have to be like this? why can they NOT be like this? and after learning about meekness in clusters today, my eyes were open to my sinfulness. while i'm judging and asking people to change, i am being a big hypocrite. some people are harder to love than others. but dude, you just gotta be content with what you have and stop complaining. i'm still working on it for sure...i always will be.
yesterday in gospel choir, we learned this new song called A Praying Spirit. man, it's such a good song...pretty slow with some moving lyrics. i so do not regret taking this course at all. i think it's great how we can all sing songs that totally praise God as a course for 2 units! not only is it fun and easy, but you also get to hear some awesome music. and as you're singing these great lyrics, you can't help but think-dude, all these nonchristians are singing praises to God whether they like it or not! i mean God obviously only looks at the heart, but someday these sinful souls will be praising God b/c they really want to! it's gonna be awesome folks.
new 2 mile record: 16:57!
Thought of the Day: Blessed are the meek. For they will inherit the earth.
Song of the Day: YG Family-STP
May 4, 2003
dang, i hate it when i don't blog for a long time. there's always so much to remember and write about. just TOO much!
i finally got to visit the last major campus down here in so. cal.. i first visited San Diego, then LA, then riverside, and thursday was USC. man, that whole day was just full of events. before we even got to the school, i thought i was gonna get pulled over for cutting out of the carpool lanes cause i ALMOST missed the exit. as soon as i exited, i looked in my rear view mirror and there was a cop RIGHT behind me. FUDGE! i started getting all these thoughts of paying hundreds of dollars and doing traffic school all over again. dude, i'm such a lucky bastard. i got to USC safe. no ticket.
roseann gave us a tour around campus during the day. quite impressive. water fountains, nicely arranged colored flowers, and gosh those stupid brick buildings. it was like going to ucla all over again only it had no hills and it was much smaller. usc is basically a crappier version of la that's stuck in a ghetto but contained by these big gates all around the school. i liked it.
so as soon as we meet up with albert, he suggests that we play some mad ball. he was saying all this stuff how we gotta get to the courts before the "hooks" (short for hook-geens) get there. lol. irvine vs. usc. dykas and i seriously tore up the courts. oh there was also this one really funny incident...
a group of black guys come up to us....
guy: hey wassup guys. we just have a quick question. you guys go here right? i mean, we know y'all are intelligent and all.
us: (laughing).
guy: we were wondering, isn't it true that in order to go to any college, that you need to take the SAT?
us: yeah.
guy: alrite thanks guy. appreciate it. (walking back to his other friends on the other court). STUPIDEST sons of...
us: ahahahhahahaha.
it was really funny cause even after they had asked us, we saw those guys just standing there for like 30 min. just arguing and complaining. haha.
after ball, we started talking about "shabba shabba," "ding ding ding DING!," and "GOT 'EM COACH!" lol.
since we were so close to k-town, i told him that i really wanted pat-bing-soo cause i hadn't had in a long time...
me: pat.
albert: bing.
(silence).
dykas: soo.
albert: omg. jjah jeung nah!
ahahhahhhahah.
last funny incident...
me: dykas has a photographic memory.
dykas: dude shuttup!
albert: oh are you serious? (does a fob pose). dykas, take a photo.
everyone: (laughter).
on friday, i went to this annual korean festival thing in Garden Grove with hannah, esther, and dykas. the only reason why we went was to see kangta and shin hye sung in person. haha. *shrug* i had nothing to do and i thought it was going to be cool cause they were filming Dream Team there too. so we get there and don't see our expected stars. we got too see the Turbo guy, kim ming jong (?) (the guy who looked like the turbo guy from Namja Set Yuja Set), Bi, and Harisu. oh yeah, the only cool person who came was Cha Tae Hyun...the guy from My Sassy Girl. he looked like a pretty cool guy, always smiling and just chillin'...what girls would call "cute." whatever.
saturday:
x2: good movie.
YMCA: bad movie.
dude, i just realized that i am super busy this month. 2 midterms, 2 tests, one project, and 3 different banquet to work on. not exactly having the bestest of sundays.
Thought of the Day: Dormal?
Song of the Day: Park Ji Yoon-Track 9
i finally got to visit the last major campus down here in so. cal.. i first visited San Diego, then LA, then riverside, and thursday was USC. man, that whole day was just full of events. before we even got to the school, i thought i was gonna get pulled over for cutting out of the carpool lanes cause i ALMOST missed the exit. as soon as i exited, i looked in my rear view mirror and there was a cop RIGHT behind me. FUDGE! i started getting all these thoughts of paying hundreds of dollars and doing traffic school all over again. dude, i'm such a lucky bastard. i got to USC safe. no ticket.
roseann gave us a tour around campus during the day. quite impressive. water fountains, nicely arranged colored flowers, and gosh those stupid brick buildings. it was like going to ucla all over again only it had no hills and it was much smaller. usc is basically a crappier version of la that's stuck in a ghetto but contained by these big gates all around the school. i liked it.
so as soon as we meet up with albert, he suggests that we play some mad ball. he was saying all this stuff how we gotta get to the courts before the "hooks" (short for hook-geens) get there. lol. irvine vs. usc. dykas and i seriously tore up the courts. oh there was also this one really funny incident...
a group of black guys come up to us....
guy: hey wassup guys. we just have a quick question. you guys go here right? i mean, we know y'all are intelligent and all.
us: (laughing).
guy: we were wondering, isn't it true that in order to go to any college, that you need to take the SAT?
us: yeah.
guy: alrite thanks guy. appreciate it. (walking back to his other friends on the other court). STUPIDEST sons of...
us: ahahahhahahaha.
it was really funny cause even after they had asked us, we saw those guys just standing there for like 30 min. just arguing and complaining. haha.
after ball, we started talking about "shabba shabba," "ding ding ding DING!," and "GOT 'EM COACH!" lol.
since we were so close to k-town, i told him that i really wanted pat-bing-soo cause i hadn't had in a long time...
me: pat.
albert: bing.
(silence).
dykas: soo.
albert: omg. jjah jeung nah!
ahahhahhhahah.
last funny incident...
me: dykas has a photographic memory.
dykas: dude shuttup!
albert: oh are you serious? (does a fob pose). dykas, take a photo.
everyone: (laughter).
on friday, i went to this annual korean festival thing in Garden Grove with hannah, esther, and dykas. the only reason why we went was to see kangta and shin hye sung in person. haha. *shrug* i had nothing to do and i thought it was going to be cool cause they were filming Dream Team there too. so we get there and don't see our expected stars. we got too see the Turbo guy, kim ming jong (?) (the guy who looked like the turbo guy from Namja Set Yuja Set), Bi, and Harisu. oh yeah, the only cool person who came was Cha Tae Hyun...the guy from My Sassy Girl. he looked like a pretty cool guy, always smiling and just chillin'...what girls would call "cute." whatever.
saturday:
x2: good movie.
YMCA: bad movie.
dude, i just realized that i am super busy this month. 2 midterms, 2 tests, one project, and 3 different banquet to work on. not exactly having the bestest of sundays.
Thought of the Day: Dormal?
Song of the Day: Park Ji Yoon-Track 9
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