i'm really enjoying my film studies class right now. ever since i started taking the class, my whole perspective on advertisement has changed. like when i watch commercials or see ads in magazines, i see what they're REALLY trying to sell. it's kinda like how neo sees the matrix as it really is with all the codes and junk. when i watch a commercial, i no longer enjoy it like i used to cause i'm too busy analyzing it now. but i really enjoy talking about film stuff with hannah. we both agree that we cannot discuss such things with "the ignorant," while we can appeciate these stupid things by ourselves...
me: hey, you see his hands? you should talk about how they're old so it's directed more towards an older audience.
hannah: oh yeah! like being old means wisdom!
me: oh yeah! that's good...like experienced and stuff!
hannah: yeah!
we are so cool.
there's been this recurring theme of dealing with temptations in my life lately. like in my book, The Purpose Driven Life, it was talking about fighting temptations and being faithful. and this sunday, dennis preached about how every temptation we face is an opportunity to be faithful to God. the same exact theme in 3 days! sounds and looks like a coincidence but i strongly disagree! but really, this idea of having an "opportunity" has really encouraged me to be faithful in numerous different situations. Jesus faced every temptation and never fell. may we strive to be like Christ!
random: you know what really bothers and annoys me? you know when people pray and do that whole "lord father God father lord" crap? you know, the whole..."Dear heavenly father lord god, we thank you for this day heavenly father lord god." (shaking head). they say that phase at least twice in every sentence of their prayer! what i'm thinking is...do you not know what saying the Lord's name in vain means? lemme give you an example by iming carol right now...
Pretzelboi96 (12:32:45 AM): carol, how was your day today carol?
cRzYkRnGaL (12:32:47 AM): oh
cRzYkRnGaL (12:32:48 AM): haha
cRzYkRnGaL (12:33:06 AM): hmm... it was pretty tiring actually
Pretzelboi96 (12:33:27 AM): what was so tiring about it carol?
cRzYkRnGaL (12:34:20 AM): i think the weekend just caught up with me and i was extremely tired
Pretzelboi96 (12:34:41 AM): carol, you should rest carol
cRzYkRnGaL (12:34:44 AM): cuz i drove around a lot over the weekend... going to cerritos, back to r-side... blahblah then to la blahblah
cRzYkRnGaL (12:35:03 AM): haha.. phil are u just saying that so u can leave too phil?
Pretzelboi96 (12:35:11 AM): lol
and now olivia...
Pretzelboi96 (12:33:05 AM): olivia
Pretzelboi96 (12:33:12 AM): what'd you do today olivia?
SwTpiNkStaR (12:33:13 AM): /
SwTpiNkStaR (12:33:30 AM): i told u
SwTpiNkStaR (12:33:34 AM): is this phiL?
Pretzelboi96 (12:33:40 AM): olivia, i asked you how it was
Pretzelboi96 (12:33:44 AM): not what you did olivia
Pretzelboi96 (12:34:06 AM): and yes olivia, this is phil
SwTpiNkStaR (12:34:38 AM): why do u keep sayin mai name?
SwTpiNkStaR (12:34:49 AM): ok...
Pretzelboi96 (12:34:52 AM): olivia, does it sound foolish when i'm saying your name?
SwTpiNkStaR (12:35:01 AM): no...it's BEAUTIFUL
SwTpiNkStaR (12:35:09 AM): but u sound weird phil
SwTpiNkStaR (12:35:12 AM): like it's not phil
SwTpiNkStaR (12:35:15 AM): but ok
Pretzelboi96 (12:35:16 AM): lol
SwTpiNkStaR (12:35:16 AM): anyways
Pretzelboi96 (12:35:23 AM): just an experiment
SwTpiNkStaR (12:35:36 AM): experiment?
SwTpiNkStaR (12:35:40 AM): why phil?
SwTpiNkStaR (12:35:46 AM): is it supposed to sound foolish phil?
SwTpiNkStaR (12:35:56 AM): when u keep repeating someone's name phil?
see my point?
if there is one name we should not be abusing, it should be the LORD'S! i understand that sometimes we're just trying to emphasize how He's our father and God and whatnot, but more often that not...it's mindless. if you're a victim, please do change or im me and i'll war with you. otherwise, spread the word if you're in consent! =D
Thought of the Day: Illegibility has consequences.
Song of the Day: Avril Lavigne-My World
October 17, 2003
aaron: guys make fun of each other. that's how they bond.
eddie: then how do girls bond? they cry huh? they cry together and become closer to each other.
joe: hey, do you play ball?
freshmen: no, i'm REALLY bad!
joe: oooooooo really? you wanna play for money?
ahahahahahhha.
Thought of the Day: Bacardi Limon. Unexpected.
Song of the Day: Chris Tomlin-Holy Is The Lord
eddie: then how do girls bond? they cry huh? they cry together and become closer to each other.
joe: hey, do you play ball?
freshmen: no, i'm REALLY bad!
joe: oooooooo really? you wanna play for money?
ahahahahahhha.
Thought of the Day: Bacardi Limon. Unexpected.
Song of the Day: Chris Tomlin-Holy Is The Lord
October 15, 2003
i'm sure everyone can agree with me that we're all relieved that cafe nite is over. that day was seriously killing me physically. when you're too stressed out, your body won't allow you to fall asleep. with only 2 hours of sleep, saturday was really working me...even if i wasn't as productive as the rest of cpc. anyways, a little disappointed that almost every person in irvine who was supposed to come did not come. but people DID come and that's all that matters. dinko and zenia did a terrific job MCing. great videos. every performance definitely reflected all those hours of practice...lol, dinko's the man! praise God for a very decent cafe nite!
Kill Bill is good. i knew it was going to be good. if you made a movie like Pulp Fiction, you are one dope bastard.
tutoring has been going through some weird stages lately. basically, dillon and jordan have switched roles in who gets to be the bastard student. i think b/c i was so cool with jordan, he saw me more as a friend than a teacher. as a result, he's been trying to step all over me and not expect me to be productive with him. man, i really dislike scolding him b/c i know he gets all sullen and starts hating our times together. on the contrary, my times with dillon have become alot better. i've learned that he's a very smart student and he's been hating it b/c i was going too slow. well, i'm kinda letting him lead the way and i think he's been enjoying it these days. why can't i just have two very good students? i mean, those kids get to have a really good teacher! =D
anyways, i think my days of stress have finally settled down. i am all caught up with my readings for film studies. it's good to have a regular pace of school now. all those hours at common's. seriously, it is only by God's grace that i could've done all that reading. only by His grace.
we started clusters last night. looks like we have a group of 14 if everyone comes out. freakin' a, you call that a small group? more like the Church of Irvine. haha. anyways, it was good. we all gave charges to the year below us and ended in prayer. nice way to start off our year of clusters. gosh, we have so much pride in our clusters group. we know that we shouldn't be but we all know we're such an awesome group. no one dislikes going to clusters. but irvine clusters or not, may God really work in every group this year.
i met J at the arc tonight. man, i really need to go visit everyone.
i got rid of all my popups and succesfully installed Easy CD Creator 5 Platinum.
Thought of the Day: "Vegas baby! AAAAAAHHHHH!"
Song of the Day: Chris Tomlin-Holy Is The Lord
Kill Bill is good. i knew it was going to be good. if you made a movie like Pulp Fiction, you are one dope bastard.
tutoring has been going through some weird stages lately. basically, dillon and jordan have switched roles in who gets to be the bastard student. i think b/c i was so cool with jordan, he saw me more as a friend than a teacher. as a result, he's been trying to step all over me and not expect me to be productive with him. man, i really dislike scolding him b/c i know he gets all sullen and starts hating our times together. on the contrary, my times with dillon have become alot better. i've learned that he's a very smart student and he's been hating it b/c i was going too slow. well, i'm kinda letting him lead the way and i think he's been enjoying it these days. why can't i just have two very good students? i mean, those kids get to have a really good teacher! =D
anyways, i think my days of stress have finally settled down. i am all caught up with my readings for film studies. it's good to have a regular pace of school now. all those hours at common's. seriously, it is only by God's grace that i could've done all that reading. only by His grace.
we started clusters last night. looks like we have a group of 14 if everyone comes out. freakin' a, you call that a small group? more like the Church of Irvine. haha. anyways, it was good. we all gave charges to the year below us and ended in prayer. nice way to start off our year of clusters. gosh, we have so much pride in our clusters group. we know that we shouldn't be but we all know we're such an awesome group. no one dislikes going to clusters. but irvine clusters or not, may God really work in every group this year.
i met J at the arc tonight. man, i really need to go visit everyone.
i got rid of all my popups and succesfully installed Easy CD Creator 5 Platinum.
Thought of the Day: "Vegas baby! AAAAAAHHHHH!"
Song of the Day: Chris Tomlin-Holy Is The Lord
October 11, 2003
"Your most profound and intimate experiences of worship will likely be in your darkest days-when your heart is broken, when you feel abandoned, when you're out of options, when the pain is great-and you turn to God alone. It is during suffering that we learn to pray our most authentic, heartfelt, honest-to-God prayers. When we're in pain, we don't have the energy for supeficial prayers."
-Rick Warren
Thought of the Day: Our skit is going to be dope.
Song of the Day: Party Song
-Rick Warren
Thought of the Day: Our skit is going to be dope.
Song of the Day: Party Song
October 10, 2003
1st half of thursday was BAD...
1. i really dislike it when the teacher is willing to hold up the whole class just b/c some dumb students have some dumb questions. "is there going to a problem like #39 on the quiz?" the teacher says no and still goes over the whole problem just b/c of the student doesn't understand. after that tedious process, we just start all over again with another raised hand.
2. film studies discussion. icons, symbols, and market value. they all speak of a language that i do not understand. stop looking at me, expecting to hear some intelligent contribution to the group. lost - Past tense and past participle of lose. lose - To fail to hear, see, or understand.
3. korean-1st draft story due monday. cafe nite is really preventing any productive school work from happening.
4. effect: 10 min. late to tutoring. cause: driving on campus instead of harvard. 2 REALLY bad drivers caused me to stop at 2 min. red lights. "GOD! WHY?!"
2nd half of thursday was GOOD...
1. actually fell alseep and woke up 2 hours later.
2. find parking at hannah's place and enter right in time for Friends.
3. delectable pie.
4. go over all film studies lectures/studios in 2 hours. the material i find interest. i've never had so much gratitude for hannah.
5. visit jack's place. nice place.
6. get a chunk of the film studies reading done. the contrast b/w the readings from history and film studies is incredible. i was actually enjoying what i was reading earlier tonight. this stuff on film and art and media is so interesting! and dude, you can't go wrong with books that are loaded with pictures. out of there by 2am.
7. find parking!
i concluded the night with a praise to God...hands lifted up and looking up into the sky. a very content smile...
let's just hope that smile can last throughout the weekend.
Thought of the Day: Dykas liked Swingers!
Song of the Day: Tamaki Nami-Realize
1. i really dislike it when the teacher is willing to hold up the whole class just b/c some dumb students have some dumb questions. "is there going to a problem like #39 on the quiz?" the teacher says no and still goes over the whole problem just b/c of the student doesn't understand. after that tedious process, we just start all over again with another raised hand.
2. film studies discussion. icons, symbols, and market value. they all speak of a language that i do not understand. stop looking at me, expecting to hear some intelligent contribution to the group. lost - Past tense and past participle of lose. lose - To fail to hear, see, or understand.
3. korean-1st draft story due monday. cafe nite is really preventing any productive school work from happening.
4. effect: 10 min. late to tutoring. cause: driving on campus instead of harvard. 2 REALLY bad drivers caused me to stop at 2 min. red lights. "GOD! WHY?!"
2nd half of thursday was GOOD...
1. actually fell alseep and woke up 2 hours later.
2. find parking at hannah's place and enter right in time for Friends.
3. delectable pie.
4. go over all film studies lectures/studios in 2 hours. the material i find interest. i've never had so much gratitude for hannah.
5. visit jack's place. nice place.
6. get a chunk of the film studies reading done. the contrast b/w the readings from history and film studies is incredible. i was actually enjoying what i was reading earlier tonight. this stuff on film and art and media is so interesting! and dude, you can't go wrong with books that are loaded with pictures. out of there by 2am.
7. find parking!
i concluded the night with a praise to God...hands lifted up and looking up into the sky. a very content smile...
let's just hope that smile can last throughout the weekend.
Thought of the Day: Dykas liked Swingers!
Song of the Day: Tamaki Nami-Realize
October 9, 2003
as you can tell from my last entry, i've been pretty stressed out with school...particularly with history. b/c i hadn't finished the reading that day, i finished it yesterday in common's. just sat there and read. you read and don't stop until you've come to an end of a chapter. you read even if you don't understand words that show up in every paragraph like "kleptocracy." curse that word cause i don't care! i need to get this reading done!
so basically, i ended up finishing ALL of it around 1am last night and signed onto aim...
hAnNaH bAnAnA xP (1:41:32 AM): wut happened?!!
hAnNaH bAnAnA xP (1:41:38 AM): did u get added?
Pretzelboi96 (1:41:47 AM): looks like it's not going to happen
hAnNaH bAnAnA xP (1:41:51 AM): awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww
hAnNaH bAnAnA xP (1:41:52 AM): awwwwwwwwwwwwwwww
hAnNaH bAnAnA xP (1:41:54 AM): awwwwwwwwwwwwwwww
hAnNaH bAnAnA xP (1:41:56 AM): freaking...
hAnNaH bAnAnA xP (1:42:02 AM): y did u figure out ur passion for film studies so lATE!
(checking email).
Pretzelboi96 (1:42:18 AM): omg wait
hAnNaH bAnAnA xP (1:42:29 AM): ??
Pretzelboi96 (1:43:22 AM): haha
hAnNaH bAnAnA xP (1:43:26 AM): ????
Pretzelboi96 (1:43:28 AM): ok so i guess i can add
hAnNaH bAnAnA xP (1:43:29 AM): awwwww freaking
hAnNaH bAnAnA xP (1:43:32 AM): u cAN?!
hAnNaH bAnAnA xP (1:43:33 AM): u got in?!!
Pretzelboi96 (1:43:34 AM): i just got an email
Pretzelboi96 (1:43:38 AM): tomorrow
Pretzelboi96 (1:43:39 AM): 5pm
hAnNaH bAnAnA xP (1:43:39 AM): YAY!!!!
Pretzelboi96 (1:43:41 AM): her office
Pretzelboi96 (1:43:46 AM): omg dude
hAnNaH bAnAnA xP (1:43:53 AM): YAYAYAYAY
Pretzelboi96 (1:43:54 AM): i read 133 pages yesterday and today for history
Pretzelboi96 (1:44:04 AM): i JUST finished reading 15 min. ago
Pretzelboi96 (1:44:12 AM): literally 7 hours of reading
Pretzelboi96 (1:44:23 AM): i had a feeling something like this was going to happen
i didn't know whether to feel happy or angry. it was a little bit of both. there's still a part of me that is angry about all the pointless reading/stressing i did. i even hesitated to go to the professor's office today to add the class, wondering if it really was worth it. i've missed 2 weeks of lectures and studio. but after a talk with hannah, i think i'm going to give it a try. point of no return. do or die. hit or miss. no pain, no gain. no guts, no glory. if i'm going down, i'm going down in flames. if you know you're going to get wet anyways, might as well go swimming. ok shuttup.
that market thing on ring road finally came this week. i bought 2 posters...the Rap Gods one that i always wanted and a Swingers poster! "Baby, you are so money, and you don't even know it man!!" lol. that's what it says at the bottom with this tight pose of trent, mikey, and lou. once i bought that poster, i knew right away that Swingers was my favorite movie. ignorance, immaturity, and insecurity of guys...all nicely grafted into a hilarious movie. you love it b/c you can relate. girls love it b/c they see it happening in real life. somebody hurry and get this movie another award!
cafe nite this saturday. dykas and i actually practiced the whole skit today and it looks alot better than when we first started. starting next week, my life should be getting a whole lot better. class schedules, working days, and steady church activities beginning next week. we can do this guys! hwateeng!
Thought of the Day: C-P-C!!!
Song of the Day: Schubert-Ave Maria
so basically, i ended up finishing ALL of it around 1am last night and signed onto aim...
hAnNaH bAnAnA xP (1:41:32 AM): wut happened?!!
hAnNaH bAnAnA xP (1:41:38 AM): did u get added?
Pretzelboi96 (1:41:47 AM): looks like it's not going to happen
hAnNaH bAnAnA xP (1:41:51 AM): awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww
hAnNaH bAnAnA xP (1:41:52 AM): awwwwwwwwwwwwwwww
hAnNaH bAnAnA xP (1:41:54 AM): awwwwwwwwwwwwwwww
hAnNaH bAnAnA xP (1:41:56 AM): freaking...
hAnNaH bAnAnA xP (1:42:02 AM): y did u figure out ur passion for film studies so lATE!
(checking email).
Pretzelboi96 (1:42:18 AM): omg wait
hAnNaH bAnAnA xP (1:42:29 AM): ??
Pretzelboi96 (1:43:22 AM): haha
hAnNaH bAnAnA xP (1:43:26 AM): ????
Pretzelboi96 (1:43:28 AM): ok so i guess i can add
hAnNaH bAnAnA xP (1:43:29 AM): awwwww freaking
hAnNaH bAnAnA xP (1:43:32 AM): u cAN?!
hAnNaH bAnAnA xP (1:43:33 AM): u got in?!!
Pretzelboi96 (1:43:34 AM): i just got an email
Pretzelboi96 (1:43:38 AM): tomorrow
Pretzelboi96 (1:43:39 AM): 5pm
hAnNaH bAnAnA xP (1:43:39 AM): YAY!!!!
Pretzelboi96 (1:43:41 AM): her office
Pretzelboi96 (1:43:46 AM): omg dude
hAnNaH bAnAnA xP (1:43:53 AM): YAYAYAYAY
Pretzelboi96 (1:43:54 AM): i read 133 pages yesterday and today for history
Pretzelboi96 (1:44:04 AM): i JUST finished reading 15 min. ago
Pretzelboi96 (1:44:12 AM): literally 7 hours of reading
Pretzelboi96 (1:44:23 AM): i had a feeling something like this was going to happen
i didn't know whether to feel happy or angry. it was a little bit of both. there's still a part of me that is angry about all the pointless reading/stressing i did. i even hesitated to go to the professor's office today to add the class, wondering if it really was worth it. i've missed 2 weeks of lectures and studio. but after a talk with hannah, i think i'm going to give it a try. point of no return. do or die. hit or miss. no pain, no gain. no guts, no glory. if i'm going down, i'm going down in flames. if you know you're going to get wet anyways, might as well go swimming. ok shuttup.
that market thing on ring road finally came this week. i bought 2 posters...the Rap Gods one that i always wanted and a Swingers poster! "Baby, you are so money, and you don't even know it man!!" lol. that's what it says at the bottom with this tight pose of trent, mikey, and lou. once i bought that poster, i knew right away that Swingers was my favorite movie. ignorance, immaturity, and insecurity of guys...all nicely grafted into a hilarious movie. you love it b/c you can relate. girls love it b/c they see it happening in real life. somebody hurry and get this movie another award!
cafe nite this saturday. dykas and i actually practiced the whole skit today and it looks alot better than when we first started. starting next week, my life should be getting a whole lot better. class schedules, working days, and steady church activities beginning next week. we can do this guys! hwateeng!
Thought of the Day: C-P-C!!!
Song of the Day: Schubert-Ave Maria
October 7, 2003
a day of humility...
1. i don't have a printout of my history lecture notes.
2. film studies not added. looks very unlikely.
3. shin ramen is CUP shin ramen! dissatisfying. glasses of milk only add to the diarrhea.
4. decide not to tutor due to lack of strength.
5. cannot even fall asleep for an energizing nap.
6. fall asleep around 6:30 and wake up to phone calls.
7. bad dinner.
8. 5 hours of reading and still do not finish reading 133 pages on history of Southeastern Asia and crops of fruit.
9. find out that i was supposed to tutor at 6:30 today. postponed to tomorrow at 8. gonna miss the first meeting of clusters.
10. no parking in Parkwest. two parking spots are taken up by one car. resort to parking next to Chevron. btw, this is at 1am.
11. not much rice left in the cooker ready for me to eat tomorrow morning.
ok that last one was forced but i am just tired, stressed, and distressed.
James 1:2-3-Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance.
it is when we are humbled that we depend on God the most. don't complain phil.
Thought of the Day: The End.
Song of the Day: David Crowder-Holy Is The Lord
1. i don't have a printout of my history lecture notes.
2. film studies not added. looks very unlikely.
3. shin ramen is CUP shin ramen! dissatisfying. glasses of milk only add to the diarrhea.
4. decide not to tutor due to lack of strength.
5. cannot even fall asleep for an energizing nap.
6. fall asleep around 6:30 and wake up to phone calls.
7. bad dinner.
8. 5 hours of reading and still do not finish reading 133 pages on history of Southeastern Asia and crops of fruit.
9. find out that i was supposed to tutor at 6:30 today. postponed to tomorrow at 8. gonna miss the first meeting of clusters.
10. no parking in Parkwest. two parking spots are taken up by one car. resort to parking next to Chevron. btw, this is at 1am.
11. not much rice left in the cooker ready for me to eat tomorrow morning.
ok that last one was forced but i am just tired, stressed, and distressed.
James 1:2-3-Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance.
it is when we are humbled that we depend on God the most. don't complain phil.
Thought of the Day: The End.
Song of the Day: David Crowder-Holy Is The Lord
October 6, 2003
man, so many freshmen every week...
1. ken.
2. erica.
3. joyce.
4. yo-han.
5. julie.
6. fred.
asking them the same questions and giving them the same advice. so many stinkin' freshmen.
anyways, i really wanna drop history. i had a talk with hannah and she was telling me all these wonderful things about film studies. that's all i could think about these days. will the professor add me tomorrow even though there's a "waitlist?" will others drop it for whatever reason so that i can replace them? God was giving me all the signs...
1. history is a GRIP of reading.
2. minh's in my discussion.
3. film studies is supposed to be REALLY good.
4. if i drop history, my earliest class will be at 12!
i was thinking today about how i'm part of welcoming committee and how i'm supposed to be real welcoming to new visitors. then a crazy thought struck my head! what if minh came out to cpc? how would i act towards him? would i even greet him? man, we as christians are not supposed to have beef with anybody. i'm probably the worst example of a christian in his life. i really should've cleared things up with him right before i left the dorms. i don't have to LIKE him, but i should've at least reconciled. now, i'm just left with awkwardness and shame. oh the weight of pride.
today's message on prayer was a really good message. i wasn't enjoying it much at the time, but when i think about it i can't help but feel compelled to PRAY! we ought to pray all the time for it is a sign of reverence and humility to our God. how awesome it is to even have the privilege of coming before our Lord and calling Him, Father. only by His love and grace. we should really take advantage of prayer as well. we should never be lacking in prayer and thanksgiving. AMEN!
another thing i realized today...
i met yo-han at ccm on wednesday and took him home from church today. that guy seriously just loves talking about God and nothing else...kinda reminded me of darren. however, when i started talking to julie or fred, we'd talk more about superficial things like school and people. the sad thing was that i felt more comfortable talking to fred and julie, while alotta my conversation with yo-han was kinda forced. man, i've become so shallow, so consumed with this world that i would prefer to talk about stupid meaningless things over talking about God. the Bible says that the words that come out of our mouth often reflect our heart. sinful.
the christian life is all about seeing more of your sinfulness and seeing more of God's holiness. it's humbling but i think at the same time it should be encouraging. how AWESOME it is that we have a God who is SO much holier than us.
Romans 5:20-21- The law was added so that the trespass might increase. But where sin increased, grace increased all the more, so that, just as sin reigned in death, so also grace might reign through righteousness to bring eternal life through Jesus Christ our Lord.
oh how this is hitting me on the head right now! praise God!
Thought of the Day: I think I'm pretty.
Song of the Day: Chris Tomlin-Holy Is The Lord
1. ken.
2. erica.
3. joyce.
4. yo-han.
5. julie.
6. fred.
asking them the same questions and giving them the same advice. so many stinkin' freshmen.
anyways, i really wanna drop history. i had a talk with hannah and she was telling me all these wonderful things about film studies. that's all i could think about these days. will the professor add me tomorrow even though there's a "waitlist?" will others drop it for whatever reason so that i can replace them? God was giving me all the signs...
1. history is a GRIP of reading.
2. minh's in my discussion.
3. film studies is supposed to be REALLY good.
4. if i drop history, my earliest class will be at 12!
i was thinking today about how i'm part of welcoming committee and how i'm supposed to be real welcoming to new visitors. then a crazy thought struck my head! what if minh came out to cpc? how would i act towards him? would i even greet him? man, we as christians are not supposed to have beef with anybody. i'm probably the worst example of a christian in his life. i really should've cleared things up with him right before i left the dorms. i don't have to LIKE him, but i should've at least reconciled. now, i'm just left with awkwardness and shame. oh the weight of pride.
today's message on prayer was a really good message. i wasn't enjoying it much at the time, but when i think about it i can't help but feel compelled to PRAY! we ought to pray all the time for it is a sign of reverence and humility to our God. how awesome it is to even have the privilege of coming before our Lord and calling Him, Father. only by His love and grace. we should really take advantage of prayer as well. we should never be lacking in prayer and thanksgiving. AMEN!
another thing i realized today...
i met yo-han at ccm on wednesday and took him home from church today. that guy seriously just loves talking about God and nothing else...kinda reminded me of darren. however, when i started talking to julie or fred, we'd talk more about superficial things like school and people. the sad thing was that i felt more comfortable talking to fred and julie, while alotta my conversation with yo-han was kinda forced. man, i've become so shallow, so consumed with this world that i would prefer to talk about stupid meaningless things over talking about God. the Bible says that the words that come out of our mouth often reflect our heart. sinful.
the christian life is all about seeing more of your sinfulness and seeing more of God's holiness. it's humbling but i think at the same time it should be encouraging. how AWESOME it is that we have a God who is SO much holier than us.
Romans 5:20-21- The law was added so that the trespass might increase. But where sin increased, grace increased all the more, so that, just as sin reigned in death, so also grace might reign through righteousness to bring eternal life through Jesus Christ our Lord.
oh how this is hitting me on the head right now! praise God!
Thought of the Day: I think I'm pretty.
Song of the Day: Chris Tomlin-Holy Is The Lord
October 4, 2003
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Thought of the Day: Errands.
Song of the Day: Wax-Money
October 3, 2003
man, i can't believe i'm blogging right now.
man, i was so productive today. after class, i studied at common's for the first time in my life. i actually went inside and read my stupid history book for 2 hours. yeah i took a nap for 15 min. but the point is, i actually sat there and accomplished my goal.
brandywine really sucks now. eddie swiped me in for dinner so i was really excited to eat some good ol' pasta and phillycheesesteak sandwiches with my caesar salad. *angry sigh* no more salad and no pasta. fries are same as pippin's and common's and the sandwiches aren't even the same. that budget cut is really hurting us students. i mean, the poor freshmen can't even enjoy brandywine like i did. and if they can't enjoy it, that means i can't enjoy it with them. that schwarzenegger better do something about it if he becomes governor. "calilflower." lol.
is it just me or does this season of Friends really suck? i'm seriously only watching it now to see what's going to happen b/w rachel, ross, and joey. the cast is so not funny anymore. you can even hear the audience forcing their laughs. goodness, the writers must be hating it right now.
so as i was saying, i was really productive today. i actually went to go work out at the arc b/c of sean's motivational im. man, it feels SO good to be working out again. my 2 mile time wasn't so bad either-18:23. but gosh, i was seriously hating it on the last half mile. haha. i remember telling myself that i'm never ever going to eat greasy food again. i started thinking about the dorm food i had eaten for dinner, last night's midnight Doritos, and that cheesy pizza from Domino's with my roommates. fiiiiig that was good. haha. but FUDGE i was hating it on the last half mile.
i saw alotta people at the arc today...joyce, joanne, ted, james, joe, simon, gerald, euggie (lol), ashley, joe, eddie, cpc eddie, allan, john, and kris! man, kris changed sooo much...
kris: phil.
me: (looking around).
kris: phil, it's me!
me: (stare).
kris: KRIS!
me: (staring some more)...omg, i didn't even recognize you. you look SO different!
kris: really? how?
me: maybe it's the makeup.
kris: i'm not wearing any makeup. but i did lose 15 pounds.
me: yeah! you got alot skinnier. wow!
man, her face lost like alotta fat. you can see her cheekbones and stuff now. woman, you gotta gain some weight! but she got alot prettier. =D
so i'm all caught up with my reading. i read a good 80 pages on cavemen and food production. cavemen stuff is boring. food production was actually interesting. i think i'm actually going to get alot out of this history course. it's OH SO MUCH READING but i can't deny that i'm learning.
i still can't remember why i decided to blog tonight.
Thought of the Day: "Big L, rest in peace!"
Song of the Day: Gangstar-Full Clip
man, i was so productive today. after class, i studied at common's for the first time in my life. i actually went inside and read my stupid history book for 2 hours. yeah i took a nap for 15 min. but the point is, i actually sat there and accomplished my goal.
brandywine really sucks now. eddie swiped me in for dinner so i was really excited to eat some good ol' pasta and phillycheesesteak sandwiches with my caesar salad. *angry sigh* no more salad and no pasta. fries are same as pippin's and common's and the sandwiches aren't even the same. that budget cut is really hurting us students. i mean, the poor freshmen can't even enjoy brandywine like i did. and if they can't enjoy it, that means i can't enjoy it with them. that schwarzenegger better do something about it if he becomes governor. "calilflower." lol.
is it just me or does this season of Friends really suck? i'm seriously only watching it now to see what's going to happen b/w rachel, ross, and joey. the cast is so not funny anymore. you can even hear the audience forcing their laughs. goodness, the writers must be hating it right now.
so as i was saying, i was really productive today. i actually went to go work out at the arc b/c of sean's motivational im. man, it feels SO good to be working out again. my 2 mile time wasn't so bad either-18:23. but gosh, i was seriously hating it on the last half mile. haha. i remember telling myself that i'm never ever going to eat greasy food again. i started thinking about the dorm food i had eaten for dinner, last night's midnight Doritos, and that cheesy pizza from Domino's with my roommates. fiiiiig that was good. haha. but FUDGE i was hating it on the last half mile.
i saw alotta people at the arc today...joyce, joanne, ted, james, joe, simon, gerald, euggie (lol), ashley, joe, eddie, cpc eddie, allan, john, and kris! man, kris changed sooo much...
kris: phil.
me: (looking around).
kris: phil, it's me!
me: (stare).
kris: KRIS!
me: (staring some more)...omg, i didn't even recognize you. you look SO different!
kris: really? how?
me: maybe it's the makeup.
kris: i'm not wearing any makeup. but i did lose 15 pounds.
me: yeah! you got alot skinnier. wow!
man, her face lost like alotta fat. you can see her cheekbones and stuff now. woman, you gotta gain some weight! but she got alot prettier. =D
so i'm all caught up with my reading. i read a good 80 pages on cavemen and food production. cavemen stuff is boring. food production was actually interesting. i think i'm actually going to get alot out of this history course. it's OH SO MUCH READING but i can't deny that i'm learning.
i still can't remember why i decided to blog tonight.
Thought of the Day: "Big L, rest in peace!"
Song of the Day: Gangstar-Full Clip
October 2, 2003
venting thoughts...
i guess this is the first official week of school. this year is SO much busier than freshmen year. i think it's mainly b/c i'm working and going to school now. it just takes up alotta time and energy. i leave the apt. at 11 and come home at 5:30 everyday. draining. i seriously do not see anyway for me to make time to work out cause by the time i get home, i just won't have enough energy to study (like i do anyways right?). inconsistent. man, i really wanna start working out again too. when i'm this discouraged, how the heck am i going to manage next year? am i doomed to stay out of shape forever?
last night, i started watching Gaeul Donghwa with dykas on his computer cause we got the cds from a friend. that was definitely my most favorite drama ever. i remember watching that crap during my junior year. my brother and i watched the first two videos so many times cause we liked it so much. it's like whatevers now but at the time, it was SO DEPRESSING as if it were in real life...
(in spanish AP taking a test)...
me: (stare). *sigh*
lol. my brother always cracks up when i tell him about that incident. but yeah, song hye gyo is still so attractive. i can't believe she was like only 18 or 19 at the time. good stuff man.
well i had a pretty long day today. class from 11-3 nonstop and tutor til 5. you know what's crazy? last night, i had a dream of my old dorm roommate, minh. if you don't remember, we ended on pretty bad terms and didn't even say bye to each other on the last day. so anyways, i had a dream about him which is really weird b/c i've never dreamt about him in my life. well like most dreams, i didn't remember what happened but i just forgot about it and went to school. the thing is, i heard from one of my friends that he was taking the same history class as me. i didn't think much of it since it's a pretty big lecture hall and you usually can't see people you know anyways.
so i go to my tiny tiny discussion section today. woah, richard's in this class...and he's in my discussion too! what a coincidence. so about 15 min. into the class, door opens, and in walks minh. i straight up said in my head, "GOD, that is so not funny!" of all the classes, of all the discussions, we just had to end up in the same one. and unforutnately, discussion is mandatory and part of your grade so yeah, i'll be seeing him every time there's class. oh the awkwardness...i hate it. i wonder how hard God is laughing right now.
better news: my two kids are liking me more and more. i know jordan enjoys studying with me cause we have alot of fun...
me: "voices." jordan, use that in a sentence.
jordan: philip has many strange voices.
me: ahahhahahaha.
as i was leaving today...
jordan: you know philip...
mom: yeah, you like him alot huh?
jordan: no, is he coming tomorrow?
GRIN.
i think dillon's liking me more too. no hard evidence but i got a hunch. very subtle things. the best part is that i can see them improving little by little. praise God!
speaking of which, i went out to ccm today for the first time in a long time. lots of old familiar faces and a handful of new freshmen. but i made a big decision today: i'm going to stop going out to ccm. i never went for the "fellowship" or accountability or whatever. i just went out to meet people cause i didn't know too many christians my freshmen year. but now, i just feel like i'm going and i'm wasting my time. i don't feel like socializing and they just go out and eat more often than i can afford...especially with new freshmen and all. haha. now i understand why genie and eugene stopped coming out last year. it all makes sense now. however, i still encourage freshmen to go to these clubs to meet people. great place to meet people and occasional good messages. that's about it.
i don't know if it's b/c i'm really busy these days but i really enjoy spending time in the apt. it's just so quiet and relaxing. i can just sit at my computer and listen to music. i can do my hw and study in solitude. i can sleep and eat with no trouble at all. ugh, what am i kidding...i'm getting old.
Thought of the Day: Exhausted.
Song of the Day: Notorious BIG-Going Back To Cali
i guess this is the first official week of school. this year is SO much busier than freshmen year. i think it's mainly b/c i'm working and going to school now. it just takes up alotta time and energy. i leave the apt. at 11 and come home at 5:30 everyday. draining. i seriously do not see anyway for me to make time to work out cause by the time i get home, i just won't have enough energy to study (like i do anyways right?). inconsistent. man, i really wanna start working out again too. when i'm this discouraged, how the heck am i going to manage next year? am i doomed to stay out of shape forever?
last night, i started watching Gaeul Donghwa with dykas on his computer cause we got the cds from a friend. that was definitely my most favorite drama ever. i remember watching that crap during my junior year. my brother and i watched the first two videos so many times cause we liked it so much. it's like whatevers now but at the time, it was SO DEPRESSING as if it were in real life...
(in spanish AP taking a test)...
me: (stare). *sigh*
lol. my brother always cracks up when i tell him about that incident. but yeah, song hye gyo is still so attractive. i can't believe she was like only 18 or 19 at the time. good stuff man.
well i had a pretty long day today. class from 11-3 nonstop and tutor til 5. you know what's crazy? last night, i had a dream of my old dorm roommate, minh. if you don't remember, we ended on pretty bad terms and didn't even say bye to each other on the last day. so anyways, i had a dream about him which is really weird b/c i've never dreamt about him in my life. well like most dreams, i didn't remember what happened but i just forgot about it and went to school. the thing is, i heard from one of my friends that he was taking the same history class as me. i didn't think much of it since it's a pretty big lecture hall and you usually can't see people you know anyways.
so i go to my tiny tiny discussion section today. woah, richard's in this class...and he's in my discussion too! what a coincidence. so about 15 min. into the class, door opens, and in walks minh. i straight up said in my head, "GOD, that is so not funny!" of all the classes, of all the discussions, we just had to end up in the same one. and unforutnately, discussion is mandatory and part of your grade so yeah, i'll be seeing him every time there's class. oh the awkwardness...i hate it. i wonder how hard God is laughing right now.
better news: my two kids are liking me more and more. i know jordan enjoys studying with me cause we have alot of fun...
me: "voices." jordan, use that in a sentence.
jordan: philip has many strange voices.
me: ahahhahahaha.
as i was leaving today...
jordan: you know philip...
mom: yeah, you like him alot huh?
jordan: no, is he coming tomorrow?
GRIN.
i think dillon's liking me more too. no hard evidence but i got a hunch. very subtle things. the best part is that i can see them improving little by little. praise God!
speaking of which, i went out to ccm today for the first time in a long time. lots of old familiar faces and a handful of new freshmen. but i made a big decision today: i'm going to stop going out to ccm. i never went for the "fellowship" or accountability or whatever. i just went out to meet people cause i didn't know too many christians my freshmen year. but now, i just feel like i'm going and i'm wasting my time. i don't feel like socializing and they just go out and eat more often than i can afford...especially with new freshmen and all. haha. now i understand why genie and eugene stopped coming out last year. it all makes sense now. however, i still encourage freshmen to go to these clubs to meet people. great place to meet people and occasional good messages. that's about it.
i don't know if it's b/c i'm really busy these days but i really enjoy spending time in the apt. it's just so quiet and relaxing. i can just sit at my computer and listen to music. i can do my hw and study in solitude. i can sleep and eat with no trouble at all. ugh, what am i kidding...i'm getting old.
Thought of the Day: Exhausted.
Song of the Day: Notorious BIG-Going Back To Cali
September 28, 2003
i slept too much on saturday. 11 hours at night and 2 hours during the day. our bodies were not meant to be dormant for more than half a day. i am punished with insomnia on this early sunday morning.
as i was tossing and turning in my bed, i started thinking about the new freshmen of this year. i've been trying to give alotta advice to the new students and encourage them to do things differently from my past. but i've come to realize that i sound just like any other old guy who told me the same things right before i became a freshmen. you listen to what they have to say, you nod your head, and try to understand just what the heck they were talking about. the truth is, you're not going to understand what i was talking about until you've actually experienced it...and boy are they going to experience alot
-the lonely first two weeks
-dorm food, meal after meal
-visiting home and feeling really different (this does not apply to deprived Cerritos residents)
-getting lost on campus
-cramming like you've never crammed before
-meeting hundreds of people and being asked where you're from and what your major is
-LOVING dormlife
-HATING dormlife
-using your feet as your main source of transportation
-late night foodruns
-homesickness
i remember dave and i were talking about different transitions that we make in life. we both agreed that the transition from high school senior year to college freshmen year is a HUGE step. when you take a high school senior and a college freshmen, you have two people on different planets. you just experience so much in that first year. man, you're either going to fall hard or grow hard.
so enough about them and more about ME! i am now a sophomore in college. i feel like i've become so much more independent in these past few months. as i was eating dinner by myself today, i thought about how i'm doing a pretty good job of taking care of myself. i really feel like i can live in this so called world and really manage ok. i've had plenty of work experience. i can go to the market and cook my own meals. i even know how to pay my own bills. if i am lacking something, i know how to meet the need. if there is a problem, i will be able to find a solution. look at me mom, i'm all growed up!
Philippians 2:12-13- Continue to work out your salvation with fear and trembling, for it is God who works in you to will and to act according to his good purpose.
i was sitting for a while and just thinking about my spiritual life these days. all i could think of was SINNER. this idea of having an attitude of "fear and trembling," is really incredible. this God that we serve and love and pray to...how often do we come before Him in fear and trembling? our omnipotent and sovereign God that we are to revere, do we really fear Him? i was reviewing tomorrow's Bible study and read through the first two chapters of Judges.
Judges 2:4- When the angel of the Lord had spoken these things to all the Israelites, the people wept aloud
seriously, the only times that i will fear God is when He disciplines me and i am humbled. it's like my sinful nature will not allow me to have this fear and love for God unless i am broken. WHY?! i mean, we're called to live these holy lives with holy attitudes and i can't do it. i'm just so dry and i try and try but i just cannot. so i continue to sit and stare and continue thinking to myself, SINNER. i read and pray and i feel like i can only ask God to break me so that i would live a more obedient life that is pleasing to Him.
but i suppose i keep forgetting the second part of the verse in Philippians: "for it is God who works in you to will and to act according to his good purpose." it is God who works in me and not myself. it is only by HIM that i can have an attitude of fear and trembling. our God is a God of grace. i cannot forget that. it is only by his grace that we can do all things.
Philippians 1:6- that he who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until th day of Christ Jesus.
praise God.
Thought of the Day: Grace.
Song of the Day: David Crowder-Deliver Me
as i was tossing and turning in my bed, i started thinking about the new freshmen of this year. i've been trying to give alotta advice to the new students and encourage them to do things differently from my past. but i've come to realize that i sound just like any other old guy who told me the same things right before i became a freshmen. you listen to what they have to say, you nod your head, and try to understand just what the heck they were talking about. the truth is, you're not going to understand what i was talking about until you've actually experienced it...and boy are they going to experience alot
-the lonely first two weeks
-dorm food, meal after meal
-visiting home and feeling really different (this does not apply to deprived Cerritos residents)
-getting lost on campus
-cramming like you've never crammed before
-meeting hundreds of people and being asked where you're from and what your major is
-LOVING dormlife
-HATING dormlife
-using your feet as your main source of transportation
-late night foodruns
-homesickness
i remember dave and i were talking about different transitions that we make in life. we both agreed that the transition from high school senior year to college freshmen year is a HUGE step. when you take a high school senior and a college freshmen, you have two people on different planets. you just experience so much in that first year. man, you're either going to fall hard or grow hard.
so enough about them and more about ME! i am now a sophomore in college. i feel like i've become so much more independent in these past few months. as i was eating dinner by myself today, i thought about how i'm doing a pretty good job of taking care of myself. i really feel like i can live in this so called world and really manage ok. i've had plenty of work experience. i can go to the market and cook my own meals. i even know how to pay my own bills. if i am lacking something, i know how to meet the need. if there is a problem, i will be able to find a solution. look at me mom, i'm all growed up!
Philippians 2:12-13- Continue to work out your salvation with fear and trembling, for it is God who works in you to will and to act according to his good purpose.
i was sitting for a while and just thinking about my spiritual life these days. all i could think of was SINNER. this idea of having an attitude of "fear and trembling," is really incredible. this God that we serve and love and pray to...how often do we come before Him in fear and trembling? our omnipotent and sovereign God that we are to revere, do we really fear Him? i was reviewing tomorrow's Bible study and read through the first two chapters of Judges.
Judges 2:4- When the angel of the Lord had spoken these things to all the Israelites, the people wept aloud
seriously, the only times that i will fear God is when He disciplines me and i am humbled. it's like my sinful nature will not allow me to have this fear and love for God unless i am broken. WHY?! i mean, we're called to live these holy lives with holy attitudes and i can't do it. i'm just so dry and i try and try but i just cannot. so i continue to sit and stare and continue thinking to myself, SINNER. i read and pray and i feel like i can only ask God to break me so that i would live a more obedient life that is pleasing to Him.
but i suppose i keep forgetting the second part of the verse in Philippians: "for it is God who works in you to will and to act according to his good purpose." it is God who works in me and not myself. it is only by HIM that i can have an attitude of fear and trembling. our God is a God of grace. i cannot forget that. it is only by his grace that we can do all things.
Philippians 1:6- that he who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until th day of Christ Jesus.
praise God.
Thought of the Day: Grace.
Song of the Day: David Crowder-Deliver Me
September 27, 2003
me: so dillon, can i see your diary?
dillon: no.
me: why not?
dillon: because i didn't write in it.
me: why not?
dillon: because i write in it when i want to write in it.
me: can you start writing in it everyday?
dillon: no.
me: why not?
dillon: because i write in it when i want to write in it.
me: do you like it when i teach you?
dillon: no.
me: so dillon, how can i improve?
dillon: i don't know.
me: is it boring?
dillon: only when you talk.
me: ok we have 5 min. left. wanna see a magic trick?
dillon: no.
me: oh. is it no fun?
dillon: yeah.
me: ok, do you want to show me a magic trick?
dillon: no.
me: ok. go get your brother. it's his turn.
a sharp contrast...
me: ok so what was this paragraph talking about?
jordan: it's talking about the MAMMOTH and the TUSK! after they break the tusk, they use it as a weapon and go RAAAAAAAHHHHH!
me: ahahhahahahah.
jordan: "sousands" of years...
me: no jordan. it's TH-ousands. say it with a TH. not a S.
jordan: SOUNSANDS!
me: no!
jordan: SOOOOOUSANDS!!!
me: ahahhahahaha.
(leaving).
mother: so how was the teacher today?
jordan: FABULOUS!
mother: aigo!
me: ahahahahhahaha.
i need to beat the bad attitude out of the younger one. the older one's good. =D
Thought of the Day: DERELICTE!
Song of the Day: As One-Day By Day Pop Mix
dillon: no.
me: why not?
dillon: because i didn't write in it.
me: why not?
dillon: because i write in it when i want to write in it.
me: can you start writing in it everyday?
dillon: no.
me: why not?
dillon: because i write in it when i want to write in it.
me: do you like it when i teach you?
dillon: no.
me: so dillon, how can i improve?
dillon: i don't know.
me: is it boring?
dillon: only when you talk.
me: ok we have 5 min. left. wanna see a magic trick?
dillon: no.
me: oh. is it no fun?
dillon: yeah.
me: ok, do you want to show me a magic trick?
dillon: no.
me: ok. go get your brother. it's his turn.
a sharp contrast...
me: ok so what was this paragraph talking about?
jordan: it's talking about the MAMMOTH and the TUSK! after they break the tusk, they use it as a weapon and go RAAAAAAAHHHHH!
me: ahahhahahahah.
jordan: "sousands" of years...
me: no jordan. it's TH-ousands. say it with a TH. not a S.
jordan: SOUNSANDS!
me: no!
jordan: SOOOOOUSANDS!!!
me: ahahhahahaha.
(leaving).
mother: so how was the teacher today?
jordan: FABULOUS!
mother: aigo!
me: ahahahahhahaha.
i need to beat the bad attitude out of the younger one. the older one's good. =D
Thought of the Day: DERELICTE!
Song of the Day: As One-Day By Day Pop Mix
September 25, 2003
sunday: crawford's birthday.
so we discussed this whole surprise party thing like a week in advance. screw the going out to lunch, going out to dinner, or hanging out in la thing. we're gonna scare that bastard on her birthday! =D man, all those phone calls and preparation really paid off after seeing her lunge her body into the wall. i still rip my hair out for not taking a picture...i mean, it's not like i have a PHOTOGRAPHIC MEMORY like dykas! but it was fun.
monday: campus.
i bought my parking permit and books...close to $600. man, i almost forgot what 0 week was like...clubs, flyers, and hot girls. but i saw some ccm people and they didn't even recognize me. no one seems to be able to recognize me these days for some reason. i walk up to them smiling and they give me this stranger stare until i finally shake their hand. perhaps it's just been a long summer...or my long hair.
i saw andrew kim, joyce so, and james lee. seems like they haven't changed a bit. disappointed. but i got to see eddie's dorm and he even swiped me and drew into commons. it's crazy how i took the salad for granted! it's SO good. man, i realized that these new freshmen are still like high school kids. when i observed eddie and allan playing Capcom Vs. SNK 2, i couldn't believe how high school they sounded. eh, it'll pass.
but the night ended with lots of ball. played like crap in an out of shape body. i hate that. i think i got sick from freezing in my sweat. gross right?
tuesday: he quits Elite!
surprisingly, monica was a little sad that i was leaving...like she really wanted me to stay! either that or she was acting it real well. either way, i'm outta there!
so my left cheek started swelling up as if i had just pulled out my wisdom teeth again. i decided to go see dr. kim all the way in garden grove. ugh, i abhor traffic! but i get it all checked out and he tells me that i probably had another infection due to a wound that wasn't fully closed. result: swollen cheek. *sigh* even the thought of typing about this pisses me off. BECAUSE i only have student health insurance, my medication costed $80. too much pain and so little patience = i buy the drugs and drive home angry. but the reason why i'm angry right now is b/c i just found out today that there was a pharmacy at school and i could've just bought my medication there for a whole lot cheaper. you know when you're real mad and you can't stop thinking about it? yeah, lots of sin in your heart. *punch wall*
and yeah, dennis got confirmed. looooong service but i could tell he was happy. congrats to "the rev."
underworld sucks. vampires are weak. accents are inconsistent. victor was an old fart. i think i was discontent b/c the movie had so much potential and they just threw it all away. i'm just glad i didn't pay for that crap.
wednesday: haircut after 2.5 months.
i liked not cutting my hair. no worries about getting haircuts ever. but there was an appearance factor that finally caused me to reconsider. so now i have this high fade that i've never had before. i don't hate it but i don't like it either. content. thanks roomies.
ugh, called in for work b/c andrea is sick? what part of I QUIT do they not understand? and then dykas reminded me that they were korean. hehe. seriously, us korean people are so weird and different from the rest of the world. retarded we are! but i work and go to my first tutoring session. i felt SO bad for being late and the parents made me feel worse too. "we waited a long time." ugh, i can already imagine the critical words behind my back. *sniff*
tutoring a 3rd and 4th grader is VERY different from tutoring a 7th or 8th grader. they pay less attention, don't do what you tell them to do, and they're stupid. haha just kidding. but it takes alot more patience and understanding with these younger kids. jordan and dillon. original names for koreans if you ask me. but my first day wasn't so great with the kids. dillon killed all of my magic tricks and i had a hard time managing the time. it'll take me a while to get used to them. oh yeah, these kids are fobs. another area of inexperience. teaching english....far from being a forte.
man, why is my last week of summer so freakin' busy?
Thought of the Day: Parkwest tows before 12.
Song of the Day: David Crowder-O Praise Him
so we discussed this whole surprise party thing like a week in advance. screw the going out to lunch, going out to dinner, or hanging out in la thing. we're gonna scare that bastard on her birthday! =D man, all those phone calls and preparation really paid off after seeing her lunge her body into the wall. i still rip my hair out for not taking a picture...i mean, it's not like i have a PHOTOGRAPHIC MEMORY like dykas! but it was fun.
monday: campus.
i bought my parking permit and books...close to $600. man, i almost forgot what 0 week was like...clubs, flyers, and hot girls. but i saw some ccm people and they didn't even recognize me. no one seems to be able to recognize me these days for some reason. i walk up to them smiling and they give me this stranger stare until i finally shake their hand. perhaps it's just been a long summer...or my long hair.
i saw andrew kim, joyce so, and james lee. seems like they haven't changed a bit. disappointed. but i got to see eddie's dorm and he even swiped me and drew into commons. it's crazy how i took the salad for granted! it's SO good. man, i realized that these new freshmen are still like high school kids. when i observed eddie and allan playing Capcom Vs. SNK 2, i couldn't believe how high school they sounded. eh, it'll pass.
but the night ended with lots of ball. played like crap in an out of shape body. i hate that. i think i got sick from freezing in my sweat. gross right?
tuesday: he quits Elite!
surprisingly, monica was a little sad that i was leaving...like she really wanted me to stay! either that or she was acting it real well. either way, i'm outta there!
so my left cheek started swelling up as if i had just pulled out my wisdom teeth again. i decided to go see dr. kim all the way in garden grove. ugh, i abhor traffic! but i get it all checked out and he tells me that i probably had another infection due to a wound that wasn't fully closed. result: swollen cheek. *sigh* even the thought of typing about this pisses me off. BECAUSE i only have student health insurance, my medication costed $80. too much pain and so little patience = i buy the drugs and drive home angry. but the reason why i'm angry right now is b/c i just found out today that there was a pharmacy at school and i could've just bought my medication there for a whole lot cheaper. you know when you're real mad and you can't stop thinking about it? yeah, lots of sin in your heart. *punch wall*
and yeah, dennis got confirmed. looooong service but i could tell he was happy. congrats to "the rev."
underworld sucks. vampires are weak. accents are inconsistent. victor was an old fart. i think i was discontent b/c the movie had so much potential and they just threw it all away. i'm just glad i didn't pay for that crap.
wednesday: haircut after 2.5 months.
i liked not cutting my hair. no worries about getting haircuts ever. but there was an appearance factor that finally caused me to reconsider. so now i have this high fade that i've never had before. i don't hate it but i don't like it either. content. thanks roomies.
ugh, called in for work b/c andrea is sick? what part of I QUIT do they not understand? and then dykas reminded me that they were korean. hehe. seriously, us korean people are so weird and different from the rest of the world. retarded we are! but i work and go to my first tutoring session. i felt SO bad for being late and the parents made me feel worse too. "we waited a long time." ugh, i can already imagine the critical words behind my back. *sniff*
tutoring a 3rd and 4th grader is VERY different from tutoring a 7th or 8th grader. they pay less attention, don't do what you tell them to do, and they're stupid. haha just kidding. but it takes alot more patience and understanding with these younger kids. jordan and dillon. original names for koreans if you ask me. but my first day wasn't so great with the kids. dillon killed all of my magic tricks and i had a hard time managing the time. it'll take me a while to get used to them. oh yeah, these kids are fobs. another area of inexperience. teaching english....far from being a forte.
man, why is my last week of summer so freakin' busy?
Thought of the Day: Parkwest tows before 12.
Song of the Day: David Crowder-O Praise Him
September 20, 2003
statement: it's been a long time...it really has.
reason: kevin's been over.
details: kevin is one of my good friends from up north. i've known him since 9th grade after meeting him for the first time at church and seeing him at school for the next 4 years. a fob he is. i feel like we've been through lots of ups and downs together. good friend.
he's been staying at my apt. for the past week now, eating, sleeping, and of course, chilling. during these past number of days, i've gotten to know him a little better. long story short, i realized that we are very similar to one another. a few examples:
1. kevin has a 15 year old brother. i have a 14 year old brother.
2. his father works/lives in korea. my father works/lives in korea.
3. he has a "bad" history. i can relate.
4. he lusts after girls who can eat well. i agree that girls who do not appreciate food do not deserve to live.
5. kevin's drama with girls? i know wassup.
if you know me well, you'll know that fobs and i do not go hand in hand. i can tolerate them to a certain degree...kevin being inches from the borderline. but man, it's the greatest feeling when you take a fob to the movies and he actually comes out enjoying it! kevin is no princess but he's definitely no simple pleaser either. however, Matchstick Men gave him much entertainment and i got much entertainment from seeing his pleasure. it's so funny how fobs try to describe and reenact different scenes from a movie. lol. just nod and smile.
alrite, i am SO ready to quit my job. i've finally come to realize that God did not intend for me to work as a secretary. i drive my boss nuts EVERY SINGLE TIME i go to work. my korean sucks on the phone and this crap is just getting monotonous. God willing, i'll be starting my tutoring act before october. man, i am so money driven.
well, i also accomplished MANY things this week:
1. finished watching every single episode of Friends. i'm ready for 10th season (beginning next week).
2. derek's mom got us chairs for our dining table! shuttup, i know i didn't accomplish that.
3. took care of cable/interent bill (my first bill).
4. signed up for credit card.
5. laundry.
6. contact papered the kitchen drawers.
7. permanently hung up our clock.
8. FINALLY got my financial aid check. hey, being patient can be considered an accomplishment too.
9. FINALLY went to 3rd St. peeing on someone's garbage can, walking on the "Baywatch" beach, and talking about how expensive gfs are, and blasting lee jung hyun. good memories.
10. finally wrote a blog.
Thought of the Day: I HATE my job.
Song of the Day: That Beethoven song.
reason: kevin's been over.
details: kevin is one of my good friends from up north. i've known him since 9th grade after meeting him for the first time at church and seeing him at school for the next 4 years. a fob he is. i feel like we've been through lots of ups and downs together. good friend.
he's been staying at my apt. for the past week now, eating, sleeping, and of course, chilling. during these past number of days, i've gotten to know him a little better. long story short, i realized that we are very similar to one another. a few examples:
1. kevin has a 15 year old brother. i have a 14 year old brother.
2. his father works/lives in korea. my father works/lives in korea.
3. he has a "bad" history. i can relate.
4. he lusts after girls who can eat well. i agree that girls who do not appreciate food do not deserve to live.
5. kevin's drama with girls? i know wassup.
if you know me well, you'll know that fobs and i do not go hand in hand. i can tolerate them to a certain degree...kevin being inches from the borderline. but man, it's the greatest feeling when you take a fob to the movies and he actually comes out enjoying it! kevin is no princess but he's definitely no simple pleaser either. however, Matchstick Men gave him much entertainment and i got much entertainment from seeing his pleasure. it's so funny how fobs try to describe and reenact different scenes from a movie. lol. just nod and smile.
alrite, i am SO ready to quit my job. i've finally come to realize that God did not intend for me to work as a secretary. i drive my boss nuts EVERY SINGLE TIME i go to work. my korean sucks on the phone and this crap is just getting monotonous. God willing, i'll be starting my tutoring act before october. man, i am so money driven.
well, i also accomplished MANY things this week:
1. finished watching every single episode of Friends. i'm ready for 10th season (beginning next week).
2. derek's mom got us chairs for our dining table! shuttup, i know i didn't accomplish that.
3. took care of cable/interent bill (my first bill).
4. signed up for credit card.
5. laundry.
6. contact papered the kitchen drawers.
7. permanently hung up our clock.
8. FINALLY got my financial aid check. hey, being patient can be considered an accomplishment too.
9. FINALLY went to 3rd St. peeing on someone's garbage can, walking on the "Baywatch" beach, and talking about how expensive gfs are, and blasting lee jung hyun. good memories.
10. finally wrote a blog.
Thought of the Day: I HATE my job.
Song of the Day: That Beethoven song.
September 14, 2003
You are Sakura. You're Intelligent, Confindent, but
sometimes a smartass. You hide your true self
to tough it out.When you Love , You Love hard.
What Naruto Character are you
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alot has happened in the past week...
1. drove up north with crawford. that's right...SEVEN hours with the behemoth.
2. took her to Nation's, 19th ave., Irving (for the best boba in the world), J-town, and threw her away at berserkley.
3. caught up with pat.
4. drove down solo...a much quieter drive. =D
5. MOVED IN!!!
thursday and friday were stinkin' busy days. lots and LOTS of shopping. it really hits you how much you've taken all the small things for granted...eating and cooking utensils, toilet paper, fridge, trash cans, and lights! but praise the Lord for i absolutley love my apt. supposedly, the Parkwest apts have the biggest floor plans for the rooms so i'm content with that. we have so much storage space and our living room is spacious as well. you wanna have crowds of people over? BRING IT ON!
i also realized that there are a grip of ccm people living all around parkwest. man, i see these people like everyday. i guess it's cool though. better than being completely alone like esther's San Leon. the poor thing.
to be honest, i didn't think much of my 3rd roommate, derek, before we moved in. i thought there'd be alotta conflict living with him after planning things through aim. but after these past few days, i realized that he's not such a bad guy. buuuuut, i did learn that he's possibly one of the worst drivers in the world. haha. the guy drives just like my mom! (derek, if you're reading this...don't barge into my room and start complaining. just let me know that you read my blog and i'll never ever write about you again. thanks roomie).
random:
(last night).
me: they all went to go eat pho.
joe: PHO-get them!
me: ahahahhahahah.
it's good seeing joey again.
when i was up north, i finally got to see some of my parents' childhood pictures for the first time! it's been confirmed...i look just like my mom. that would explain the rare smiles and the whole chubby phase i went through. man, i really can't say that my mom was all that pretty either growing up. to be honest, i think she looks the best right now in her late forties. haha. sad no? yeah, even jisun's friends saw a picture of my parents and they were all saying that i resemble my mom! i swear that's a first. but what do you care right?
Thought of the Day: "God bless Korea!"
Song of the Day: Rich Mullins-Step By Step
1. drove up north with crawford. that's right...SEVEN hours with the behemoth.
2. took her to Nation's, 19th ave., Irving (for the best boba in the world), J-town, and threw her away at berserkley.
3. caught up with pat.
4. drove down solo...a much quieter drive. =D
5. MOVED IN!!!
thursday and friday were stinkin' busy days. lots and LOTS of shopping. it really hits you how much you've taken all the small things for granted...eating and cooking utensils, toilet paper, fridge, trash cans, and lights! but praise the Lord for i absolutley love my apt. supposedly, the Parkwest apts have the biggest floor plans for the rooms so i'm content with that. we have so much storage space and our living room is spacious as well. you wanna have crowds of people over? BRING IT ON!
i also realized that there are a grip of ccm people living all around parkwest. man, i see these people like everyday. i guess it's cool though. better than being completely alone like esther's San Leon. the poor thing.
to be honest, i didn't think much of my 3rd roommate, derek, before we moved in. i thought there'd be alotta conflict living with him after planning things through aim. but after these past few days, i realized that he's not such a bad guy. buuuuut, i did learn that he's possibly one of the worst drivers in the world. haha. the guy drives just like my mom! (derek, if you're reading this...don't barge into my room and start complaining. just let me know that you read my blog and i'll never ever write about you again. thanks roomie).
random:
(last night).
me: they all went to go eat pho.
joe: PHO-get them!
me: ahahahhahahah.
it's good seeing joey again.
when i was up north, i finally got to see some of my parents' childhood pictures for the first time! it's been confirmed...i look just like my mom. that would explain the rare smiles and the whole chubby phase i went through. man, i really can't say that my mom was all that pretty either growing up. to be honest, i think she looks the best right now in her late forties. haha. sad no? yeah, even jisun's friends saw a picture of my parents and they were all saying that i resemble my mom! i swear that's a first. but what do you care right?
Thought of the Day: "God bless Korea!"
Song of the Day: Rich Mullins-Step By Step
September 8, 2003
last night, chris took me out to dinner to eat with his parents in Garden Grove. DDUK BO SAAAAAAAAAAAM!!! man, chris' family is great, NOT just b/c they paid for a bujee dinner but they're just a really pleasant and warm family. it makes so much sense why chris is the way he is today. well last night, a few of his little cousins were there too. man, his cousin, diana, was stinkin' adorable. gosh, another reminder of how much i want a younger sister...
chris: diana, how old are you?
diana: 6! (big smile).
me: lol.
chris: when did you turn 6?
diana: on my birthday!
me: lol.
chris: oh when is your birthday? is it on december 25th?
diana: no! that's Jesus' birhtday! (big smile).
fiiiiiiig.
sometimes i wonder how i would've turned out if i had a younger sister. i wonder how simon would've turned out. i wonder what it'd be like if we had another younger brother. i wonder. perhaps this is why i want both a son and a daughter when i'm older. the son being the older one and the daughter at least 3 years apart. i guess it's true that the greater the age difference, the more likely that they're going to get along. yeah, 3 years should be fine...but if that doesn't work, CHILDREN FOR SALE! =D
borrowing crawford's friend's idea:
MY MUST SEE MOVIES:
* = if you refuse to watch this movie, i will hurt you.
1. Back To The Future Trilogy
2. Rocky IV
3. American History X
4. Austin Powers Trilogy
5. Braveheart
6. Dumb & Dumber*
7. Forrest Gump*
8. Good Will Hunting
9. Jerry Maguire
10. Moulin Rouge
11. Office Space*
12. Pulp Fiction*
13. Rounders
14. Shrek
15. Swingers*
16. The Matrix
17. The Original Kings of Comedy
18. The Rock
19. The Shawshank Redemption
20. The Usual Suspects
brilliant movies!
funny phrases of the weekend:
eugene: redeem = to deem again.
phoebe: "what the mother of crap?"
zeus: "hollify."
lol.
Thought of the Day: Dehydrated.
Song of the Day: CB Mass-Movement
chris: diana, how old are you?
diana: 6! (big smile).
me: lol.
chris: when did you turn 6?
diana: on my birthday!
me: lol.
chris: oh when is your birthday? is it on december 25th?
diana: no! that's Jesus' birhtday! (big smile).
fiiiiiiig.
sometimes i wonder how i would've turned out if i had a younger sister. i wonder how simon would've turned out. i wonder what it'd be like if we had another younger brother. i wonder. perhaps this is why i want both a son and a daughter when i'm older. the son being the older one and the daughter at least 3 years apart. i guess it's true that the greater the age difference, the more likely that they're going to get along. yeah, 3 years should be fine...but if that doesn't work, CHILDREN FOR SALE! =D
borrowing crawford's friend's idea:
MY MUST SEE MOVIES:
* = if you refuse to watch this movie, i will hurt you.
1. Back To The Future Trilogy
2. Rocky IV
3. American History X
4. Austin Powers Trilogy
5. Braveheart
6. Dumb & Dumber*
7. Forrest Gump*
8. Good Will Hunting
9. Jerry Maguire
10. Moulin Rouge
11. Office Space*
12. Pulp Fiction*
13. Rounders
14. Shrek
15. Swingers*
16. The Matrix
17. The Original Kings of Comedy
18. The Rock
19. The Shawshank Redemption
20. The Usual Suspects
brilliant movies!
funny phrases of the weekend:
eugene: redeem = to deem again.
phoebe: "what the mother of crap?"
zeus: "hollify."
lol.
Thought of the Day: Dehydrated.
Song of the Day: CB Mass-Movement
September 6, 2003
what a tough day at work today...emotionally that is. i only got 3 1/2 hours of sleep last night b/c of last night's health hazardous meal at molca salsa (drool). oh the pleasure of food coma slumbler. haha. but today was sign-up day for all the kids for the fall season. crowds of parents trying to give you their checks and student after student asking what room they belong in. soooooo many DT's to give out and way too many phone calls for us to handle. it's the worst when my boss is stressed or tired cause she kinda takes her emotions out on you. her expectations go like WAY UP HERE and her tolerance level is just as bad. so unfortunately, we had this one lady who was complaining that her son wasn't supposed to take the SAT DT cause he was only in 9th grade, but the little crap told me he was a sophomore and even responded with, "yes. PSAT." after she calls, the dad calls. same complaint. i get yelled at. the lady actually comes back with another lady and they start complaining about how our academy is so retarded. freakin' korean people dude.
and finally, i had to pay for lunch today. that's $30 for three people. man, i should've just been patient and eaten at home. how discouraging. i calculated how money i would make for coming down early to work a few days. profit = $10. dude, after today that's just disheartening.
let's write a little more happy...
so i've continued reading The Purpose Driven Life and i'm actually starting to enjoy it a little more. i can't say i totally agree with everything, but i'm picking out some good things from the book. i guess that's just what you have to do with any book that you read. no matter what it is, you just gotta be wise and take good things out of it. along with this book, i'm almost done reading the Bible! if i really push myself, i can even finish it before school starts! it's kinda sad that i'm finally going to finish reading the Bible for the first time in my second year of college. 19 1/2 years to read a book. (shaking head). BUT better now than never right?
and this just in....
aaron can hook us up with a rice cooker and a tv.
basic cable is only $6 more every month along with our internet.
great!
i'm all encouraged and comforted now.
i'm a simple man with simple pleasures.
=D
the sibling knows me well...
AsianXboi56 (4:58:00 PM): i KNOW why your coming on monday
AsianXboi56 (4:58:02 PM): you wanna go to cpc
AsianXboi56 (4:58:03 PM): haha
Pretzelboi96 (4:58:36 PM): bingo
Thought of the Day: To camp or not to camp.
Song of the Day: Beach Boys-California Girls
and finally, i had to pay for lunch today. that's $30 for three people. man, i should've just been patient and eaten at home. how discouraging. i calculated how money i would make for coming down early to work a few days. profit = $10. dude, after today that's just disheartening.
let's write a little more happy...
so i've continued reading The Purpose Driven Life and i'm actually starting to enjoy it a little more. i can't say i totally agree with everything, but i'm picking out some good things from the book. i guess that's just what you have to do with any book that you read. no matter what it is, you just gotta be wise and take good things out of it. along with this book, i'm almost done reading the Bible! if i really push myself, i can even finish it before school starts! it's kinda sad that i'm finally going to finish reading the Bible for the first time in my second year of college. 19 1/2 years to read a book. (shaking head). BUT better now than never right?
and this just in....
aaron can hook us up with a rice cooker and a tv.
basic cable is only $6 more every month along with our internet.
great!
i'm all encouraged and comforted now.
i'm a simple man with simple pleasures.
=D
the sibling knows me well...
AsianXboi56 (4:58:00 PM): i KNOW why your coming on monday
AsianXboi56 (4:58:02 PM): you wanna go to cpc
AsianXboi56 (4:58:03 PM): haha
Pretzelboi96 (4:58:36 PM): bingo
Thought of the Day: To camp or not to camp.
Song of the Day: Beach Boys-California Girls
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