the weekend is finally here! i mean, the weekend is ALREADY here!!! i love my 2 days of class a week schedule.
Thought of the Day: Incommensurability.
Song of the Day: Eric Clapton-Sunshine Of Your Love
September 28, 2004
it felt pretty good being on campus again. even though parking got ALOT worse and i didn't get to add my computer science class, school was good. i love the idea of keeping my mind stimulated. even in the classes with the crappy professors who are not qualified to teach, i still learn from their attempts to give an educational lecture. i feel like it's really important to realize that we are not students of the school but rather students of God. and as students of God, we are required to do our best in our studies. we are to be witnesses in our respective secular campuses (well, even at Biola!). we are to glory in God's creation just as much as we are to recognize what sin has done to it. being a student should be a blessing, not a burden.
my last class for today was Asian-American Psychology (psych 174A). man, this class has SO many shekis! you know those retarded asian guys who only come to class to check out girls or be a wiseguy to the professor. they talk during the lecture and make sure that the whole class recognizes that they're too stupid to remember to turn their phones off before class. they're those guys who try to talk like black people yet drive their lowered AZN cars. they abhor class and encourage parties. you take one look at them and wonder HOW the admissions office didn't filter them out. shekidul! they need Christ and i need to learn to love them.
today, i found out that amy was trying to get into two of my psych. classes. amy is like a super duper senior who used to live next to me last year. i met her at ccm when i was a freshmen but i really don't know her too well. anyways, we were walking and talking about how things have been. she told me that she was kinda done with the whole ccm thing now. she realized that ccm isn't everything and that it can't keep you accountable forever. she also realized that it's kinda closed off as a group. she seemed really discouraged just with how everything was going...well pretty discouraged compared to the amy that i'm used to seeing. but the crazy thing that she said to me was, "well, i know YOU'RE doing good. you go to CPC." i'll let you chew on that for a bit.
Thought of the Day: Sensitivity.
Song of the Day: J 5
my last class for today was Asian-American Psychology (psych 174A). man, this class has SO many shekis! you know those retarded asian guys who only come to class to check out girls or be a wiseguy to the professor. they talk during the lecture and make sure that the whole class recognizes that they're too stupid to remember to turn their phones off before class. they're those guys who try to talk like black people yet drive their lowered AZN cars. they abhor class and encourage parties. you take one look at them and wonder HOW the admissions office didn't filter them out. shekidul! they need Christ and i need to learn to love them.
today, i found out that amy was trying to get into two of my psych. classes. amy is like a super duper senior who used to live next to me last year. i met her at ccm when i was a freshmen but i really don't know her too well. anyways, we were walking and talking about how things have been. she told me that she was kinda done with the whole ccm thing now. she realized that ccm isn't everything and that it can't keep you accountable forever. she also realized that it's kinda closed off as a group. she seemed really discouraged just with how everything was going...well pretty discouraged compared to the amy that i'm used to seeing. but the crazy thing that she said to me was, "well, i know YOU'RE doing good. you go to CPC." i'll let you chew on that for a bit.
Thought of the Day: Sensitivity.
Song of the Day: J 5
September 27, 2004
i feel like i have finally started off the new school year.
1. Hold'em
last night, willburt called me but i missed his call. i was pretty sure he wanted to gamble so i didn't feel like calling him back. however, he got a hold of me online and entreated me to play that night. he had all the boys gathered up and everything! i feel like i have a hard time saying no to the guy. it's not that i have a lust for gambling or anything. it just makes me happy to see willburt happy with his goofy smile. of all of my friends, i enjoy playing with these guys the most. so we kicked off our weekly poker night yesterday at frank's new place...and willburt was happy.
2. Exercise
a few nights ago...
edu: how fast can you run a mile?
me: well, i haven't run in like 4 months. i bet you once i start running again, my 2 mile is going to be around 19 min. for sure i won't go past 20 though. 20 min. is just SLOW!
so my 2 mile time today was 20:14. i lapped this one guy 3 times but by the time i was done, he had lapped me 4 times. dang it, man.
3. Clusters
chris is leading the boys and genie is leading the girls this year. we had a joint meeting today at my apt. all of the freshmen looked through all of the pictures on my computer and laughed at my yellow hair. funny...nobody laughed at me in person when i actually had the hair.
i start my first day of class tomorrow. i've already told this to a million people but this qtr., i only have class on tues. and thurs. that means i have class from 9:30am-6:20pm on those days. right now, i'm having a hard time picturing how difficult or tiring those days will be. i guess there's only one way to find out.
the summer has finally come to a close. i am seriously convinced that this summer was the best summer that i have ever had in my life. everything from paraguay to temp. job to retreats to biola to living at edu's house. i grew up alot this summer. let's see what junior year has in store for me.
Thought of the Day: Thank you, Doe.
Song of the Day: Phorte-Live Korean Megamix #1
1. Hold'em
last night, willburt called me but i missed his call. i was pretty sure he wanted to gamble so i didn't feel like calling him back. however, he got a hold of me online and entreated me to play that night. he had all the boys gathered up and everything! i feel like i have a hard time saying no to the guy. it's not that i have a lust for gambling or anything. it just makes me happy to see willburt happy with his goofy smile. of all of my friends, i enjoy playing with these guys the most. so we kicked off our weekly poker night yesterday at frank's new place...and willburt was happy.
2. Exercise
a few nights ago...
edu: how fast can you run a mile?
me: well, i haven't run in like 4 months. i bet you once i start running again, my 2 mile is going to be around 19 min. for sure i won't go past 20 though. 20 min. is just SLOW!
so my 2 mile time today was 20:14. i lapped this one guy 3 times but by the time i was done, he had lapped me 4 times. dang it, man.
3. Clusters
chris is leading the boys and genie is leading the girls this year. we had a joint meeting today at my apt. all of the freshmen looked through all of the pictures on my computer and laughed at my yellow hair. funny...nobody laughed at me in person when i actually had the hair.
i start my first day of class tomorrow. i've already told this to a million people but this qtr., i only have class on tues. and thurs. that means i have class from 9:30am-6:20pm on those days. right now, i'm having a hard time picturing how difficult or tiring those days will be. i guess there's only one way to find out.
the summer has finally come to a close. i am seriously convinced that this summer was the best summer that i have ever had in my life. everything from paraguay to temp. job to retreats to biola to living at edu's house. i grew up alot this summer. let's see what junior year has in store for me.
Thought of the Day: Thank you, Doe.
Song of the Day: Phorte-Live Korean Megamix #1
September 17, 2004
i missed friday night bible study tonight b/c my student invited me over for dinner. jin is his name. 31 years old, married to harriet, 31 years old as well. this is the second time i've had dinner with them. the first time, harriet made us spaghetti. tonight, she made us this tasty fried rice. i really like harriet. she's very gentle and kind with her words. i'm almost afraid that anything i say to her will hurt her since she's so innocent. i really like this couple b/c they're so much older than me but i can still see so much of their youth.
i feel like fobs are crazy polite with their guests. i ALWAYS get to drink hot chocolate, juice, or tea whenever i tutor my students. they're just so nice! but what makes me sad is that not a single one of my students go to church. Christ is not their Lord and Savior so i can't help but feel really different from them. all of their kind words and generous actions are not pleasing to the Lord. they merely reflect God's image through their "good" deeds but their motives are all selfish and sinful.
today at dinner...
me: do you usually pray before you eat your meals?
jin: oh! no, not yet.
me: oh, is it ok if i pray by myself then?
oh the stench of awkwardness! but i hope that even these small deeds would somehow be a witness to them. i mean actions do speak louder than words right? jin and harriet do go out to church. but i think they only go b/c the person that helped them move into this country was the pastor. jin tells me that it's still difficult to really trust God.
right now, i'm reading a book by Greg Bahnsen called "Always Ready." i got it as a gift my senior year in high school from chang and i didn't start reading it til this week. haha...better late than never right? anyways, Bahnsen says, "One does not first satisfy his intellect with certain autonomous proofs that God exists and has a particular nature, and then after gaining this understanding place his faith in the Lord. Rather, reverence and faith precede one's understanding or knowledge of God and all that He has made." and with these brilliant words, we, educated christians, know that man is dead in his sin and does not have the ability to even desire God. only God can work in people like Jin and Harriet. only God can make the times that i spend with them meaningful and effective to make the Gospel more real in their lives. and that is why only God deserves all the glory.
Thought of the Day: Two words: FINANCIAL AID.
Song of the Day: New Full Metal Alchemist Opening
i feel like fobs are crazy polite with their guests. i ALWAYS get to drink hot chocolate, juice, or tea whenever i tutor my students. they're just so nice! but what makes me sad is that not a single one of my students go to church. Christ is not their Lord and Savior so i can't help but feel really different from them. all of their kind words and generous actions are not pleasing to the Lord. they merely reflect God's image through their "good" deeds but their motives are all selfish and sinful.
today at dinner...
me: do you usually pray before you eat your meals?
jin: oh! no, not yet.
me: oh, is it ok if i pray by myself then?
oh the stench of awkwardness! but i hope that even these small deeds would somehow be a witness to them. i mean actions do speak louder than words right? jin and harriet do go out to church. but i think they only go b/c the person that helped them move into this country was the pastor. jin tells me that it's still difficult to really trust God.
right now, i'm reading a book by Greg Bahnsen called "Always Ready." i got it as a gift my senior year in high school from chang and i didn't start reading it til this week. haha...better late than never right? anyways, Bahnsen says, "One does not first satisfy his intellect with certain autonomous proofs that God exists and has a particular nature, and then after gaining this understanding place his faith in the Lord. Rather, reverence and faith precede one's understanding or knowledge of God and all that He has made." and with these brilliant words, we, educated christians, know that man is dead in his sin and does not have the ability to even desire God. only God can work in people like Jin and Harriet. only God can make the times that i spend with them meaningful and effective to make the Gospel more real in their lives. and that is why only God deserves all the glory.
Thought of the Day: Two words: FINANCIAL AID.
Song of the Day: New Full Metal Alchemist Opening
September 13, 2004
i'm here at Biola's library again with edu, doe, and zen (who has apparently replaced our beloved grandpa joe). i am sleeping over edu's place again for the next few days as we study by day and play by night. lately, people have been asking me what edu and i talk about every night before we go to sleep. well, to put it simply we talk about theology and girls: things of the good nature and things that naturally bad. (grin). but you see, when we talk about girls we don't simply go down a list of names and gossip away. we first agree that there is a strong lack of godly women in this world. then we agree that we must FIND the Cave of Godly Women.
note: edu and i do not "lovefest." only dinkas and i do that.
The Theory of The Cave of Godly Women:
look around you. spot any females? there is a 95% chance that the female(s) you have just witnessed is/are not godly. our theory is that somewhere in Africa (i don't know why we always pick Africa), there is a cave full of awesome women. women, godly AND bodily. women, who can cook and clean well with pleasure. women, who do not get angry with passages on submitting to their husbands! women, who are TEACHABLE for crying out loud!!! *tears flowing* now, you must be thinking that you know of a few lucky men who have been blessed with an incredible woman in their life. therefore, you are convinced that it IS possible to find that lucky someone out there-you are convinced that you just have to be patient.
A few suggestions:
1. a good majority of the lucky men who have godly wives are pastors.
2. the few godly women that you've run into are women who have escaped from the cave.
3. if you hit jackpot (found the cave), would you want to share it (announce it to everybody)?
nobody ever talks about the Cave of Godly Women for three reasons:
1. you found it!
2. you are so discouraged by the fact that you will never find it.
3. you are really really discouraged that you convince yourself that it does not exist.
now, the ultimate question is-where do we find the map? that is a very good question and edu has made a very wise observation concerning the matter. if you remember suggestion #1, it states that "a good majority of the lucky men who have godly wives are pastors." now think, where do all pastors go before they claim their precious jewel?
*drumroll*
answer: seminary.
you see, seminarians are so happy on their graduation days, not b/c they are finally done studying, but because they receive their maps on that day...in other words, the diploma is the map!!!
now, the matter with p. dennis. after some thought and discussion, edu and i have concluded that one of three things could have happened to our beloved reverend:
1. he is just having a hard time finding the cave.
2. somebody stole his map.
3. the fool just lost it!
so going back to what i was originally writing about, one of the things that edu and i talk about at night is girls. we encourage each other that we will find the cave someday. we remind each other that God even loves the sinful women who are not of the cave and that we too must continue to love and be patient with them. we exhort each other to keep one another in prayer. this is the fellowship that we share.
Thought of the Day: Almighty Over All finished.
Song of the Day: Eric Clapton-Sunshine For Your Love
note: edu and i do not "lovefest." only dinkas and i do that.
The Theory of The Cave of Godly Women:
look around you. spot any females? there is a 95% chance that the female(s) you have just witnessed is/are not godly. our theory is that somewhere in Africa (i don't know why we always pick Africa), there is a cave full of awesome women. women, godly AND bodily. women, who can cook and clean well with pleasure. women, who do not get angry with passages on submitting to their husbands! women, who are TEACHABLE for crying out loud!!! *tears flowing* now, you must be thinking that you know of a few lucky men who have been blessed with an incredible woman in their life. therefore, you are convinced that it IS possible to find that lucky someone out there-you are convinced that you just have to be patient.
A few suggestions:
1. a good majority of the lucky men who have godly wives are pastors.
2. the few godly women that you've run into are women who have escaped from the cave.
3. if you hit jackpot (found the cave), would you want to share it (announce it to everybody)?
nobody ever talks about the Cave of Godly Women for three reasons:
1. you found it!
2. you are so discouraged by the fact that you will never find it.
3. you are really really discouraged that you convince yourself that it does not exist.
now, the ultimate question is-where do we find the map? that is a very good question and edu has made a very wise observation concerning the matter. if you remember suggestion #1, it states that "a good majority of the lucky men who have godly wives are pastors." now think, where do all pastors go before they claim their precious jewel?
*drumroll*
answer: seminary.
you see, seminarians are so happy on their graduation days, not b/c they are finally done studying, but because they receive their maps on that day...in other words, the diploma is the map!!!
now, the matter with p. dennis. after some thought and discussion, edu and i have concluded that one of three things could have happened to our beloved reverend:
1. he is just having a hard time finding the cave.
2. somebody stole his map.
3. the fool just lost it!
so going back to what i was originally writing about, one of the things that edu and i talk about at night is girls. we encourage each other that we will find the cave someday. we remind each other that God even loves the sinful women who are not of the cave and that we too must continue to love and be patient with them. we exhort each other to keep one another in prayer. this is the fellowship that we share.
Thought of the Day: Almighty Over All finished.
Song of the Day: Eric Clapton-Sunshine For Your Love
September 11, 2004
http://www.stanford.edu/~atd10/quizes/fgquiz.html">%20border="0"%20src="
it's really warm. i cannot handle cold. i can handle warm. it's really warm.
Thought of the Day: Outreach is like Paraguay.
Song of the Day: Bebo Norman & Caedmon's Call-Holy Is Your Name
it's really warm. i cannot handle cold. i can handle warm. it's really warm.
Thought of the Day: Outreach is like Paraguay.
Song of the Day: Bebo Norman & Caedmon's Call-Holy Is Your Name
August 30, 2004
tomorrow is the end of phykas and danny boy...
here i am, sitting on my chair with my keyboard on my lap, staring at my computer monitor which sits on top of my desktop. the desk is at the new apt. along with everything else except for my bed. "I love my Nor Cal box b/c it has handles." says danny boy. he's packing all of his crap right now. man, i swear we had JUST moved in yesterday. i still remember moving into this apt. with my freakin' bed from up north and my ridiculously inconvenient desk.
apt. memories...
-watching movies on danny's computer
-crush talks
-playing hold'em with kevin
-pushups
-watching korean dramas
-cramming bio at the same time
-watching that guy play Madden like a crackhead
-listening to his stupid humming in the bathroom
-getting pumped up to WC
-that one night he ate too much In N' Out during finals week
-making food for that bastard e-v-e-r-y-d-a-y
-getting the "finger" with his stupid smile
poor danny boy...he's going to miss me SO much!
Thought of the Day: When I move you move.
Song of the Day: Modest Mouse-Float On
here i am, sitting on my chair with my keyboard on my lap, staring at my computer monitor which sits on top of my desktop. the desk is at the new apt. along with everything else except for my bed. "I love my Nor Cal box b/c it has handles." says danny boy. he's packing all of his crap right now. man, i swear we had JUST moved in yesterday. i still remember moving into this apt. with my freakin' bed from up north and my ridiculously inconvenient desk.
apt. memories...
-watching movies on danny's computer
-crush talks
-playing hold'em with kevin
-pushups
-watching korean dramas
-cramming bio at the same time
-watching that guy play Madden like a crackhead
-listening to his stupid humming in the bathroom
-getting pumped up to WC
-that one night he ate too much In N' Out during finals week
-making food for that bastard e-v-e-r-y-d-a-y
-getting the "finger" with his stupid smile
poor danny boy...he's going to miss me SO much!
Thought of the Day: When I move you move.
Song of the Day: Modest Mouse-Float On
August 28, 2004
"after you get back from paraguay, you go through some reverse culture schock thing. i'm going through it right now. really lonely. i got a call from doe, edu, and grandpa joe today. i was SO happy when they called. that is really sad."
that was an entry from july 22nd. after one month, who would've thought that those three would be the people i'd be hanging out with the most this summer. it was always a movie, eating, slapjack, or Cerritos Library.
well, the fellowship has finally broken. i drove up to nor. cal with grandpa joe to help him move in. i can't believe he lives less than a block from my uncle! moving in was alotta work but it was good spending much time with joe these past few days. i still find it funny how i've been hanging out with a 23 and 24 year old almost everyday this summer. funny what a bond in Christ can do.
some things i've learned about myself this month:
1. i CAN use earplugs to fall asleep!
2. i can be impatient.
3. i can be insensitive.
4. i can be stubborn.
5. race & background matter to me no matter how hard i try.
6. so. cal really spoils you. i really really miss it.
7. i idolize people.
8. i need to remind myself of the Gospel ALL THE TIME!!!
believe it or not, numbers 2-4 were rude awakenings for me. i apologize to all who have experienced any form or combination of those three. i am sinful and still learning and always will be. rebuke, forgive, and encourage me.
you know, i actually want school to start again. i want to start being productive and busy again. i want to learn and exercise and keep myself disciplined in alotta areas of my life. i think studying is a very difficult yet WONDERFUL thing! a loser am i? perhaps. perhaps, YOU'RE the one who needs to mature and start looking at things differently. at least i'm not the one who'll be dreading 5 days of the week 3 months at a time. that's right...life IS tough, sucka!
can someone find me a verse on encouraging others?
Thought of the Day: Abhor immature people.
Song of the Day: Yann Tiersen-Comptine D'un Autre Ete
that was an entry from july 22nd. after one month, who would've thought that those three would be the people i'd be hanging out with the most this summer. it was always a movie, eating, slapjack, or Cerritos Library.
well, the fellowship has finally broken. i drove up to nor. cal with grandpa joe to help him move in. i can't believe he lives less than a block from my uncle! moving in was alotta work but it was good spending much time with joe these past few days. i still find it funny how i've been hanging out with a 23 and 24 year old almost everyday this summer. funny what a bond in Christ can do.
some things i've learned about myself this month:
1. i CAN use earplugs to fall asleep!
2. i can be impatient.
3. i can be insensitive.
4. i can be stubborn.
5. race & background matter to me no matter how hard i try.
6. so. cal really spoils you. i really really miss it.
7. i idolize people.
8. i need to remind myself of the Gospel ALL THE TIME!!!
believe it or not, numbers 2-4 were rude awakenings for me. i apologize to all who have experienced any form or combination of those three. i am sinful and still learning and always will be. rebuke, forgive, and encourage me.
you know, i actually want school to start again. i want to start being productive and busy again. i want to learn and exercise and keep myself disciplined in alotta areas of my life. i think studying is a very difficult yet WONDERFUL thing! a loser am i? perhaps. perhaps, YOU'RE the one who needs to mature and start looking at things differently. at least i'm not the one who'll be dreading 5 days of the week 3 months at a time. that's right...life IS tough, sucka!
can someone find me a verse on encouraging others?
Thought of the Day: Abhor immature people.
Song of the Day: Yann Tiersen-Comptine D'un Autre Ete
August 23, 2004
i started writing in a journal today. i actually started writing in paraguay and i told myself i'd officially start once i got back. funny how it took me over a month. anyways, the point is that i finally started and it feels pretty good. it's almost healthy to write in a personal journal i think. i suppose blogs/xangas are just convenient in terms of transferring your thoughts at a much faster rate.
well, i guess won't be keeping up with this blog AS much as i'm used to. a few here and there when the journal is not available or when i publicly want to share with the rest of the world.
"...and in case i don't see ya, good morning, good evening, and good night." *smile*
-jim carrey
Thought of the Day: 1900!
Song of the Day: The last song of the duel
well, i guess won't be keeping up with this blog AS much as i'm used to. a few here and there when the journal is not available or when i publicly want to share with the rest of the world.
"...and in case i don't see ya, good morning, good evening, and good night." *smile*
-jim carrey
Thought of the Day: 1900!
Song of the Day: The last song of the duel
August 14, 2004
i started august with a temp. job as a counselor/babysitter for kids from all over the country. there was this conference thing for some drug company for 4 days so my job was to go on field trips all over so. cal with the kids of these pharmacists...
hours: 7am-6pm.
days: wed.-thurs.
age group: 12-17
places: Venice Beach, 3rd St., Hollywood, Hard Rock Cafe @ Citywalk, WB Studio, Soak City, and Disneyland.
i couldn't make it to Disneyland b/c i had the Freshmen Trip to go to. but man, the funniest thing was when i saw kids from states like Indiana and Ohio go up to the beach and start taking pictures of the water...
me: hey, do you want me to take a picture of you and the beach and maybe with some sand?
kid: no, it's ok. (takes 5th picture of just the water).
i really learned from this job that American kids (white/black) are SO different from Korean kids. i think American kids are just nicer in general and alot more mature. but yeah, all food, transportation, and tickets were paid for. i was having alotta fun on the fieldtrips and no tax was taken out of our paychecks. payday was indeed a GOOD day.
Freshmen Trip was pretty fun. i got to know a FEW of the freshmen a lil better since only a FEW came. but burying euggles in the sand and watching him act like a sand monster caused some good laughs. all in all, i have much hope for this year's youngest class.
after all of that good stuff, i had meetings for officers and meetings for yg counselors. busy times indeed...almost frustrating sometimes. but yg retreat was definitely a good time! i was so encouraged by my 8th grade boys whom i had this past winter retreat. there were definitely moments of immaturity and disobedience, but it just mades the serious and cooperative times that much sweeter. like i had already shared at the retreat, this was also the first retreat where my team actually got first place in the games! we got first in the rap game (JDI squared!), first in the skit ("cause i'm checkin' YOU out."), and my cabin won the scripture memory contest!!! i got to see many grow and mature. i got to know alot of the kids better. i got to show off Casa De Dios in front of the whole yg! i didn't think i'd get anything out of the retreat, but i felt like i went through a retreat just like the students did. i actually learned from the very bible studies i was teaching and even felt encouraged by some of p. jason's "reformed charismatic" sermons. haha. i don't know. even though i didn't get to go to Six Flags with my brother, i have absolutely no regrets going to the Living Out The Faith retreat. i love those yg kids. praise God!
however, the fun never ends. i still have cg retreat to go to next week and i have to move out of this apt. and move in to another one afterwards. ugh, i'm running on only 16 hours of sleep from the past 3 days. so much more i want to say but so much more tired i feel...
sophia is hecka cute!
JJJJJJDDDDDDIIIIIIII!!!
haley knows chris and becky and laura!
unreforme...
so full from VI...
tomorrow is the Lord's D...
Thought of the Day: Retreat was really good.
Song of the Day: Jesus Generation
August 9, 2004
July 30, 2004
i've been back in the states for a little over a week now. this past week and a half has been spent hanging out with edu, grandpa joe, and occasionally some of the other team members. have i been in isolation and loneliness? not really. exclusive to only paraguay team members? yeah sure, why not? but anyways, i really haven't given much thought about my experience in paraguay until yesterday's drive back down to so cal. so i guess this is my "mini-testimony", if you will...
i had made my decision to go on missions this summer during my winter break. i had really thought and prayed about it and God answered right away-the burden to evangelize, no crazy plans for the summer, and God's providence with my financial situation. He wanted me to go! but man, i really had no desire or passion to go to Paraguay. whenever i talked with past team members, all i heard about were empanadas, really nice jovenes, and how fun it was. it did not sound like much of a "missions experience" to me. my idea of cpc's annual paraguay team was just 2 weeks of serving with a well-established missionary down there with minimal evangelism. when i thought of going on missions, i thought of reaching the lost and JUST evangelizing. you can go to any missions report night in almost any church and they'll tell you that there are far too many people who have never heard the gospel. i mean, it's not like i was against people going down to paraguay from our church. it just wasn't the missions experience i was looking for. a "weaksauce missions" if you will.
however, i strongly believe that you should go on missions with your church. i'm not bashing kcm or other campus ministries but i personally find it more appropriate to go on missions with the church that you belong in. *shrug* besides, cpc gives you a gang of financial support compared to other missions organizations. so that's how i ended up going to paraguay...and i have absolutely NO regrets!
i really had no idea what to expect from this missions trip. to be honest, i wasn't expecting to change or grow much from it either. but yeah, i think so many "unexpecteds" happened to me...
1. we evangelized alot!
2. i got to know some of my team members pretty well.
3. there were many moments where i was really blessed and encouraged by seeing team members (including the Paraguayans) serve and grow.
if i wrote down every memory that i have of my Paraguay experience, this blog would never end. that is why i'll just end with three things that God taught me...
1. door-to-door or preaching in the streets isn't the only way to evangelize. God can even use activites like VBS or testimonies from different people to work in many hearts.
2. missions is not about how much you suffered or how difficult it was. just b/c you didn't struggle physically does not make your experience a "weaksauce missions." we are all called to be missionaries wherever we are. sometimes you're more blessed than others. sometimes you're not. but you're still called to be a salt and light wherever you are.
3. going on missions isn't JUST a time of evangelism. it is also a time of serving, encouraging, fellowshiping, and growing.
i praise God for everything i experienced. i encourage EVERYONE to go on missions. i won't lie to you...you'll have to sacrifice alotta time for training and the actual missions trip itself. but i promise you, God will reward your commitment. ok ciao ciao.
Thought of the Day: Stinkin' dinner with cousin.
Song of the Day: Everclear-Everything To Everyone
July 25, 2004
i found out today that many couples broke up in like the past week. i'm sure all of them are discouraged and really hating it right now. well, God is sovereign and always good. read God's word, pray, and be encouraged. ok, ciao ciao.
Thought of the Day: Aaron is not here to sign out.
Song of the Day: God Bless Korea
Thought of the Day: Aaron is not here to sign out.
Song of the Day: God Bless Korea
July 22, 2004
i can't believe edu got bbikeh!
eDDo 30 (1:49:59 PM): man, my foot hurts
i think i spent most of my time with edu in paraguay. God showed us that we were seriously meant to be together. we shared too many experiences together...
1. Juan being a gangster and dancing for us.
2. Antonio's barf prophecy being fulfilled.
3. The fat kid getting hit by the small kid out of no where (edu's favorite).
4. Eugenio farting loud (twice!) in his sleep in front of doe.
5. Laughing uncontrollably at Terrance's performance.
stuff like that. i like edu alot.
i can't believe he actually got bbikeh!
after you get back from paraguay, you go through some reverse culture schock thing. i'm going through it right now. really lonely. i got a call from doe, edu, and grandpa joe today. i was SO happy when they called. that is really sad.
Thought of the Day: Everything's weird.
Song of the Day: Foo Fighters-Times Like These
eDDo 30 (1:49:59 PM): man, my foot hurts
i think i spent most of my time with edu in paraguay. God showed us that we were seriously meant to be together. we shared too many experiences together...
1. Juan being a gangster and dancing for us.
2. Antonio's barf prophecy being fulfilled.
3. The fat kid getting hit by the small kid out of no where (edu's favorite).
4. Eugenio farting loud (twice!) in his sleep in front of doe.
5. Laughing uncontrollably at Terrance's performance.
stuff like that. i like edu alot.
i can't believe he actually got bbikeh!
after you get back from paraguay, you go through some reverse culture schock thing. i'm going through it right now. really lonely. i got a call from doe, edu, and grandpa joe today. i was SO happy when they called. that is really sad.
Thought of the Day: Everything's weird.
Song of the Day: Foo Fighters-Times Like These
July 2, 2004
i'm leaving for paraguay in 2 days. i've been in cerritos, practicing body worships, perfecting our skits, gospel training in spanish, making bracelets, and praying every single day this week. it didn't hit me until last night how privelegded i was to go on missions. most of the time, i was thinking about how I'D be helping out the people down there and how I'D be evangelizing to people who need Christ and how I'D always have to be sensitive and considerate and patient to the Paraguayans. last night, God humbled me and showed me how arrogant and impatient and conditional my heart was. i really do not deserve to go out there and share the gospel. my lips are so unclean, my mind is so unfocused, my heart is often hardened in pride...the list goes on and on. there have been too many times where i judged people on my very own team. there have been too many times where i have been bitter towards people who did not support me financially. there have been too many times where i did not train and prepare with joy. but i thank God that He has allowed me to go Paraguay, even if it's just for 2 1/2 weeks. i thank God that He chooses to uses the weak and imperfect things of this world so that He would be glorified. i thank God for being just and humbling the proud. i thank God that He still loves me even when i turn to idols for happiness. i thank God that He is so patient with me. God, be glorified through me in Paraguay.
Thought of the Day: Thuglife.
Song of the Day: 2pac-Hail Mary
Thought of the Day: Thuglife.
Song of the Day: 2pac-Hail Mary
June 27, 2004
grades for spring 2004 came out so i checked my grades today. NR for film studies?! (Original grade was NR which became F or NP after one quarter of attendance or at the end of the quarter immediately preceding award of the degree, whichever came first.) it said. my transcript didn't even show it as an attempted class. so i was getting all scared that i failed this class b/c i REALLY did not want to take it over again. i really felt like i was having one of zenia's panic attacks.
as i was about to email my TA about my grade, i found an email from the professor letting me know that they just hadn't sent in the grades yet but that i had passed. *PHEEEW* (wipes sweat off brow).
haha. it was kind of funny to see my grade turnout for this past qtr. in the classes that i concentrated and studied for the most, i did the worst. the class that i barely studied in, i got A-'s. but praise God for allowing me to pass the Film Studies courses and also giving me some very kind grades. but i'm even more glad that i learned so much from these courses. all glory to Him.
retrospect:
sophomore year was a big year of growth for me. i know that i said that i probably grew and learned the most in my freshmen year, but this year was a different kind of growth. apt. life was totally not what i expected it to be. school actually became enjoyable (to a certain degree). i became closer to people who i never would have imagined. God reevealed to me even more of my sinful nature and even more of His holy character. i feel like many of my thoughts and beliefs were sharpened and tuned during my soph. year.
memories:
1. moving into Parkwest and going to IKEA 20 million times.
2. watching Casablanca with little eddie the night before my last final.
3. studying for math final with little eddie.
4. all of those beef-based tensions with aaron.
5. talking to danny boy about girls for the first time.
6. all of those hold'em nights at willburt's.
7. crawford's surprise b-day party.
8. reading for History 21a and dropping the course.
9. all of those dorm dinners at la.
10. the night i went to la to study for finals.
11. dormal!
12. that one day we hung out at barrel's place when terrance's socks smelled really bad.
13. chilling at boba loca with terrance, sunshine, and barrel.
14. lovefest 2004.
15. trying to fix my computer after attempting to reformat.
16. playing ball at san marco.
17. studying at Cerritos Library after outreach.
18. playing hold'em with rachel and sarah for the first time.
19. studying with chris at Gateway.
20. all of those walks after class with erica.
21. seeing hannah almost every single day.
22. meeting all of my students for the first time.
23. that one time kevin stayed at my place for like over a week.
24. eating at Sergio's for the first time.
25. going to USC and hanging out with mariela and alice in ktown.
26. all of those random times barrel came over.
27. chang's wedding.
28. eating dongchimee with chang and the gang.
29. three words. Casa De Dios.
30. yg retreat.
31. taking out wisdom teeth.
32. roadtrip with la.
33. the drive up north with jane yu and jennifer moon.
34. fixing my car too many times.
35. watching danny boy playing Madden like EVERY single day for a while.
36. getting new hold'em chips.
37. getting new cell phone.
38. cafe nite.
39. noraebang in ktown with many.
40. playing ball at usc and killing them every time.
to be honest, these times weren't nearly as memorable as my freshmen year memories. all good.-dinkas.
thursday: vip, alberto's.
friday: pizza.
saturday: dongchimee, alberto's again.
i'm going to start exercising again after paraguay.
Thought of the Day: You make bracelets that don't fit in hell.
Song of the Day: MercyMe-Here Am I
as i was about to email my TA about my grade, i found an email from the professor letting me know that they just hadn't sent in the grades yet but that i had passed. *PHEEEW* (wipes sweat off brow).
haha. it was kind of funny to see my grade turnout for this past qtr. in the classes that i concentrated and studied for the most, i did the worst. the class that i barely studied in, i got A-'s. but praise God for allowing me to pass the Film Studies courses and also giving me some very kind grades. but i'm even more glad that i learned so much from these courses. all glory to Him.
retrospect:
sophomore year was a big year of growth for me. i know that i said that i probably grew and learned the most in my freshmen year, but this year was a different kind of growth. apt. life was totally not what i expected it to be. school actually became enjoyable (to a certain degree). i became closer to people who i never would have imagined. God reevealed to me even more of my sinful nature and even more of His holy character. i feel like many of my thoughts and beliefs were sharpened and tuned during my soph. year.
memories:
1. moving into Parkwest and going to IKEA 20 million times.
2. watching Casablanca with little eddie the night before my last final.
3. studying for math final with little eddie.
4. all of those beef-based tensions with aaron.
5. talking to danny boy about girls for the first time.
6. all of those hold'em nights at willburt's.
7. crawford's surprise b-day party.
8. reading for History 21a and dropping the course.
9. all of those dorm dinners at la.
10. the night i went to la to study for finals.
11. dormal!
12. that one day we hung out at barrel's place when terrance's socks smelled really bad.
13. chilling at boba loca with terrance, sunshine, and barrel.
14. lovefest 2004.
15. trying to fix my computer after attempting to reformat.
16. playing ball at san marco.
17. studying at Cerritos Library after outreach.
18. playing hold'em with rachel and sarah for the first time.
19. studying with chris at Gateway.
20. all of those walks after class with erica.
21. seeing hannah almost every single day.
22. meeting all of my students for the first time.
23. that one time kevin stayed at my place for like over a week.
24. eating at Sergio's for the first time.
25. going to USC and hanging out with mariela and alice in ktown.
26. all of those random times barrel came over.
27. chang's wedding.
28. eating dongchimee with chang and the gang.
29. three words. Casa De Dios.
30. yg retreat.
31. taking out wisdom teeth.
32. roadtrip with la.
33. the drive up north with jane yu and jennifer moon.
34. fixing my car too many times.
35. watching danny boy playing Madden like EVERY single day for a while.
36. getting new hold'em chips.
37. getting new cell phone.
38. cafe nite.
39. noraebang in ktown with many.
40. playing ball at usc and killing them every time.
to be honest, these times weren't nearly as memorable as my freshmen year memories. all good.-dinkas.
thursday: vip, alberto's.
friday: pizza.
saturday: dongchimee, alberto's again.
i'm going to start exercising again after paraguay.
Thought of the Day: You make bracelets that don't fit in hell.
Song of the Day: MercyMe-Here Am I
June 21, 2004
first official day of summer vacation.
mission: have a wasteful day.
1. woke up at 11:30.
2. didn't eat lunch til 2.
3. watched Ricki Lake, KCAL news, and the Bernstein Bears for one hour.
4. ate a tuna sandwich while playing chess with terrance at 3:30.
5. ate another tuna sandwich right after danny boy left for work.
6. watched Heavyweights at 4.
7. blogged about my wasteful day at 6.
mission accomplished.
Thought of the Day: Oh No!
Song of the Day: Jinusean-How Deep Is Your Love
June 18, 2004
You're a Speak & Spell!! You nerd, you. Just
because you were disguised as a toy doesn't
mean you weren't educational, you sneaky
bastard.
What childhood toy from the 80s are you?
brought to you by Quizilla
Thought of the Day: Calm down.
Song of the Day: Hoobastank-The Reason
June 17, 2004
the sun has suddenly appeared from the white clouds, fatboy slim is playing the right beats, and my stomach is full from In N' Out. Finals are finally fin! this long awaited day has come and it still hasn't really hit me yet. it's always like that right after your last test. i wanted to celebrate but there really isn't anybody to celebrate with...right now.
well, i took my bio final yesterday. after my first two midterms, i didn't go to class again b/c i kept falling asleep in every lecture. so just like every test in that class, i would study all of the lectures online the night before, wake up and study more, pray, take the test, and pray again. well, i felt that this final really raped me inside and out. anyways, i got home and checked my test score. i got an A??? and today, i got home and checked my final grade for the class. 87-100 = A. and lo and behold, i had 87 points. it would be absolutely retarded if i took ANY claim on this grade. all glory to God. a B would have been a very gracious grade. an A is just absolutely undeserving. all glory to God. all glory to God!
i've been doing alotta thinking about my future career lately. i think i've decided that i want to teach math. i talked to several counselors this past week and it didn't look too good for me since i have no math background. after talking to a counselor again today, there's an exciting chance that i might end up doing a math minor. funny, isn't it? phil doing something like math? as much as i really SUCK at math, i think it's a subject that i really enjoy. it's going to be interesting planning all this crap out.
Thought of the Day: J schmOE 31 (1:32:06 PM): freedom is great
Song of the Day: Fatboy Slim-Tequila Remix
well, i took my bio final yesterday. after my first two midterms, i didn't go to class again b/c i kept falling asleep in every lecture. so just like every test in that class, i would study all of the lectures online the night before, wake up and study more, pray, take the test, and pray again. well, i felt that this final really raped me inside and out. anyways, i got home and checked my test score. i got an A??? and today, i got home and checked my final grade for the class. 87-100 = A. and lo and behold, i had 87 points. it would be absolutely retarded if i took ANY claim on this grade. all glory to God. a B would have been a very gracious grade. an A is just absolutely undeserving. all glory to God. all glory to God!
i've been doing alotta thinking about my future career lately. i think i've decided that i want to teach math. i talked to several counselors this past week and it didn't look too good for me since i have no math background. after talking to a counselor again today, there's an exciting chance that i might end up doing a math minor. funny, isn't it? phil doing something like math? as much as i really SUCK at math, i think it's a subject that i really enjoy. it's going to be interesting planning all this crap out.
Thought of the Day: J schmOE 31 (1:32:06 PM): freedom is great
Song of the Day: Fatboy Slim-Tequila Remix
June 15, 2004
AsianXboi56 (5:05:14 PM): hi its mom
Pretzelboi96 (5:05:23 PM): hi mom
AsianXboi56 (5:05:58 PM): are ok?
Pretzelboi96 (5:06:05 PM): excellent!
Pretzelboi96 (5:06:16 PM): i have two more finals to take
Pretzelboi96 (5:06:20 PM): one tomorrow
Pretzelboi96 (5:06:23 PM): and last one on thursday
AsianXboi56 (5:06:28 PM): don't laughing
Pretzelboi96 (5:06:34 PM): i'm not
AsianXboi56 (5:07:15 PM): i'm so happy because simon came back
Pretzelboi96 (5:07:29 PM): haha me too
Pretzelboi96 (5:07:36 PM): his face keeps getting bigger!
AsianXboi56 (5:07:52 PM): very hot today here
AsianXboi56 (5:08:27 PM): aye
AsianXboi56 (5:08:28 PM): it's me now
AsianXboi56 (5:08:29 PM): dude
Pretzelboi96 (5:08:32 PM): ayo
AsianXboi56 (5:08:38 PM): she was SO fasinated by aim
AsianXboi56 (5:08:40 PM): hahahahahhaa
AsianXboi56 (5:08:42 PM): she was cracking up
Pretzelboi96 (5:08:46 PM): lol
Pretzelboi96 (5:08:48 PM): very nice
AsianXboi56 (5:08:48 PM): when she said "how are you"
AsianXboi56 (5:08:51 PM): and you went excellent!
AsianXboi56 (5:08:57 PM): she started laughing so hard
Pretzelboi96 (5:09:00 PM): ahhahahahhahahahha
Thought of the Day: So...how 'bout them Lakers? =D
Song of the Day: The Turtles-So Happy Together
Pretzelboi96 (5:05:23 PM): hi mom
AsianXboi56 (5:05:58 PM): are ok?
Pretzelboi96 (5:06:05 PM): excellent!
Pretzelboi96 (5:06:16 PM): i have two more finals to take
Pretzelboi96 (5:06:20 PM): one tomorrow
Pretzelboi96 (5:06:23 PM): and last one on thursday
AsianXboi56 (5:06:28 PM): don't laughing
Pretzelboi96 (5:06:34 PM): i'm not
AsianXboi56 (5:07:15 PM): i'm so happy because simon came back
Pretzelboi96 (5:07:29 PM): haha me too
Pretzelboi96 (5:07:36 PM): his face keeps getting bigger!
AsianXboi56 (5:07:52 PM): very hot today here
AsianXboi56 (5:08:27 PM): aye
AsianXboi56 (5:08:28 PM): it's me now
AsianXboi56 (5:08:29 PM): dude
Pretzelboi96 (5:08:32 PM): ayo
AsianXboi56 (5:08:38 PM): she was SO fasinated by aim
AsianXboi56 (5:08:40 PM): hahahahahhaa
AsianXboi56 (5:08:42 PM): she was cracking up
Pretzelboi96 (5:08:46 PM): lol
Pretzelboi96 (5:08:48 PM): very nice
AsianXboi56 (5:08:48 PM): when she said "how are you"
AsianXboi56 (5:08:51 PM): and you went excellent!
AsianXboi56 (5:08:57 PM): she started laughing so hard
Pretzelboi96 (5:09:00 PM): ahhahahahhahahahha
Thought of the Day: So...how 'bout them Lakers? =D
Song of the Day: The Turtles-So Happy Together
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)