so there's this opening for yg teachers in church right now. am i ready to become a teacher? am i willing to really commit to the students? will i be able to handle all the responsibilites? i prayed and thought about it for a while. i talked to a few people about it, only receiving vague and ambiguous answers. don't you wish people could just give you straight answers sometimes? i always end up with answers that depend on the circumstance or where it's "up to me." anyways, i started to grow a heart for the yg kids this year. i had a desire to really teach the youth and just be an older brother to those who were going through their adolescent years. but the more i thought about it, the more i felt like i wasn't ready. i still have alotta growing to do. i'm still learning a grip in college group and i'd rather be really commited to one thing than being half-hearted to two different things. i mean, there is a need for yg teachers but i think i've made up my mind for now: co-lead welcoming committee.

but yeah, it's alot harder than i thought it would be. i just thought i'd be sitting at the desk, greeting everybody, taking attendance, and welcoming newcomers. nice and easy. head of welcoming committee. haha. but nooooooo, there's responsibility: writing down absent people for every week, sending out cards, setting up dinners, planning annual budget, assigning people to do stuff...geez, delegating stuff. i like and dislike doing that. i don't like to be mr. control-freak boss, but i also do want people to get certain things done my way. oh geez, being a leader. i'm sure i'm over thinking all this stuff. once i get the hang of things, everything should be routine routine! but thanks to crawford and jess for joining the team. i need some people that i can work with comfortably. man, this is going to be some experience! may God be glorified!

man, chatting and blogging don't go hand in hand too well. your train of thought is so inconsistent. hey, it's kind of like being the whole yg teacher thing. i need to be commited to one thing at a time. how ironic.

ok now i can finally concentrate on one thing...

so the freshies came up to college group on sunday. man, they look so small. i mean, i know that they're still in high school but still. they look so small compared to us. but i'm looking forward to getting to know them. the sophomores (us) are working pretty hard on this banquet. dude, are gifts are so nice and we put in alotta time in the video. those kids better come this friday.

last night, the ccm freshmen had our freshmen outing...well kinda. we seriously didn't do anything for like the first 3 hours, but things started getting a little fun after we started telling stupid jokes..."ihaveahondaishould'veboughtayamaha." ahahahahaha. and of course, "SPARKY!" lol. i got to know boden, the other chinese guy in ccm. it's so weird cause he looks JUST like jeff wang with a hat on. but they sound and act totally different. he's a pretty cool guy...first b-boy i ever met. and he's real good too!

so we got all bored again so i introduced the sentence game to everyone. unexpectedly, everyone really liked the game so we started playing for a while. but an RA stopped us and wrote us all up for being too loud, telling us this was like our third complaint. whack...

ra: are you guys some organization?
us: no, we're just chillin.
ra: then what's with all the clapping?
us: oh, we're playing a game! ahahahahahahahha

but it was so funny cause boden look REALLY scared. aahahahhahaha. "555."

so we walk to cha's and continue playing as we were walking. we just chilled there for a long time, talking about random things...ghosts, catholicism, boden's scared face, and CLUBBING! looks like simone's taking us out this thurs. night. those freakin' girls thought we were joking the whole time too. geez.

but the more i hang out with these guys, the more i realize that our friendships are superficial. we're pretty much no different from pagans. i mean, hanging out like this is supposed to be a bridge to fellowship right? something deeper. something that's more christ-centered. i guess it's cause our group is just so big. man, i really gotta do something about this.

this morning, my mom called to tell me that my dad was coming to visit us next tues. crazy. i haven't seen him since last summer. doesn't seem that long ago either. but it's really weird cause i'm not even that excited that he's coming. it's really unfortunate that i didn't get to grow up with my dad. i feel like the older i get, the less i appreciate my dad. i mean, that kinda tends to be the case b/w sons and fathers. but i think my case is different from other people. i still love the guy but his presence doesn't seem to affect me as much anymore. sad.

so tonight's my gospel choir concert. all those hours of practicing will be used for tonight. i'm kinda nervous cause i think we're gonna mess up. to be honest, i think we are so unprepared. but the songs we do know, we sing them pretty well. i'm just really glad that i got to take this course. a new perspective and appreciation for gospel music. and all the stuff we sing are GREAT songs! i so wish i could record our singing. well, time to get ready...nnnnnn laters.

Thought of the Day: World History replaces World Religions. WOOHOO!
Song of the Day: Utada Hikaru-First Love Piano Mix

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have strong faith in yourself and those around
you. A true leader, you are relentless in your
persuit.


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riverside visited us yesterday. we ate at commons and they absolutely loved it! gosh, it must've been like a feast to them since they eat food that tastes like dirt. i'm sure they liked mesa dorms but man were they criticizing my crap. and gosh, there's been this problem with my computer where it shows adult website ads when i just leave my computer alone. so they walk into my room...

me: so this is my room.
(everyone with awkward smiles with their backs turned to my computer).
me: oh geez. this stuff always comes up!
esther: yeah suuuuure!
everyone: ahahahahahahha.

freakin' embarrassing.

last night, me, dykas, aaron, and jay started filming for the freshmen welcoming banquet. we're making this video that gives tips for the incoming freshmen...Good Idea vs. Bad Idea. we had a great time making the video, but it's going to be like one of those things where it's going to be REALLY sullong or really funny. it sucks when you try to be funny and all you do is cause awkward silence and fake laughter. we'll see we'll see.

Thought of the Day: TGIF!
Song of the Day: Switchfoot-Meant To Live

CPC Day wasn't as bad as i thought it'd be. i didn't even get lost on the first try so that was a good sign for a very pleasant day. lots of volleyball with yg and EM. man, us college students really need to start playing volleyball or something. we got rocked out there by both groups. you would think that not being too old and not being so young would put you in the best position of winning everything. but no, we lose in wheelbarrel (all thanks to me), lose the watermelon eating contest (even with dykas?!), and end up winning candy for a pitiful third place (out of three) in volleyball.

but i had a really good time at the picnic. church picnics never fail to bring the best food and the weather was freakin' beautiful. lots of old people playing games and young kids sitting in the shade eating watermelon...me eating with them of course. =D it was fun playing catch with joe and playing with that cute baby that thought i was pretty. haha. it's amazing how much two year olds can understand when you talk to them. absolutely amazing!

i was extremely tired and ready to pass out as soon as i got back to my dorm. but joey jojo wanted to play some more so we watched this chinese movie called Shower in his room. not the best movie to watch for three EXHAUSTED college students in a highly temperatured room. but after we got through that, we ate dinner and decided to crash the ccm senior banquet. we didn't think they were going to let us in, but i said hi to jenn, smiled, and walked right in with joe's sweater and my shorts. it was really funny seeing people's reactions as soon as they saw us. everyone all dressed up and smelling good while three dirty kids greeted everyone in their oversized sweaters and dark faces.

man, ccm banquet was crap compared to cpc's banquet. but like i told esther, a free banquet is always a good banquet. haha. freakin' $25 dude! the food didn't even look that great and there were one too many bad skits....the senior class one for sure. but there was alotta time and effort put into the banquet and you could definitely feel the appreciation for the leaving seniors. i really liked kevin osako's speech how he encouraged us to use everything that we learn in ccm to be used for our churches. he encouraged us to be more involved with church rather than this pera-church. a loud amen to that!

i took jisun home and stopped by her place to check it out. pretty small but nice and cozy. one of those places where you wouldn't go there all the time but just stop by when you have nothing to do.

so there's a need for yg teachers at cpc now. i really need to discuss with dennis. but more importantly, i need to pray about it.

Thought of the Day: Drained.
Song of the Day: Amazing

Jars Of Clay-Worlds Apart

I am the only one to blame for this
Somehow it all ends up the same
Soaring on the wings of selfish pride
I flew too high and like Icarus I collide
With a world I try so hard to leave behind
To rid myself of all but love
to give and die

To turn away and not become
Another nail to pierce the skin of one who loves
more deeply than the oceans,
more abundant than the tears
Of a world embracing every heartache

Can I be the one to sacrifice
Or grip the spear and watch the blood and water flow

To love you - take my world apart
To need you - I am on my knees
To love you - take my world apart
To need you - broken on my knees

All said and done I stand alone
Amongst remains of a life I should not own
It takes all I am to believe
In the mercy that covers me

Did you really have to die for me?
All I am for all you are
Because what I need and what I believe are worlds apart

Additional lyrics:

I look beyond the empty cross
forgetting what my life has cost
and wipe away the crimson stains
and dull the nails that still remain
More and more I need you now,
I owe you more each passing hour
the battle between grace and pride
I gave up not so long ago
So steal my heart and take the pain
and wash the feet and cleanse my pride
take the selfish, take the weak,
and all the things I cannot hide
take the beauty, take my tears
my sin soaked heart and make it yours --correction
take my world all apart
take it now, take it now
and serve the ones that I despise
speak the words I can't deny
watch the world I used to love
fall to dust and thrown away
I look beyond the empty cross
forgetting what my life has cost
so wipe away the crimson stains
and dull the nails that still remain
so steal my heart and take the pain
take the selfish, take the weak
and all the things I cannot hide
take the beauty, take my tears
take my world apart, take my world apart
I pray, I pray, I pray
take my world apart

man, i love this song.

man, i practiced so hard for my part in the body worship. freakin' suzy training my slow learning body, and what do i at the senior banquet? 75% is turned into phil's bs moves. fortunately, no one noticed...i think.

the senior banquet was awesome...

1. Korea World Cup song welcoming.
2. "Run To You" intro.
3. "hella grip" of food.
4. dennis tearin' it up! lol.
5. sean's hidden moves.
6. junior girls's "3! 4!" dance.
7. oh, almost forgot about amenda & liza's video. ahhaahhahahaha.
8. amenda getting punk'd.
9. jay's drama fo yo mama.

it was like a much nicer yg banquet. bangin' food, much more formal wear (the senior girls were wearing hangboks!), and a grip of performances. 6:30-11? even dennis thought that this was the best senior banquet he had ever seen. and you know pastors see alotta banquets in their time.

so it looks like i'm gonna be head of welcoming committee. i still do not understand why they would pick a young soon to be sophomore like me to lead the whole committee. well, i'm actually co-leading with chester esther, but why me? i'm just a dumb freshmen who doesn't know anything about welcoming committee. never did it in yg either. but yeah, looks like this will be my position for now. may God use me effectively to make newcomers feel welcome.

man, so i finally got to eat Islands today. the last time i ate it was during the summer with chris, chang, and dykas. long time ago. man, those burgers still haven't let me down. freakin' delicious. it was nice to have crawford and drew as company too. i'm learning that lisa crawford is a very generous fellow...always down to spot people when they're low on cash. how nice. she may not be the prettiest girl in the world, but she sure is benevolent.

as i interact with more and more people, i've to realize that i like hearing Thank You's from people. it really bothers me when people don't show any signs of gratefulness to people who deserve it. i mean, of course they could be thankful in their hearts and not say a word. but that doesn't do much good for the benefactor does it now? i mean, is it so hard to so a simple Thanks or Thank You? but of course, who am i to demand such a thing when i myself fail to thank my God who is constantly blessing me? once again, my reflections have once again led to reminders of my hyopcrisy. seriously, when you think about it, alotta of your reflections always end up with the same answer. sin. it's b/c of sin. that's b/c of sin. we are b/c of sin.

oh how i pity the fool who does not see the sin in himself.

Thought of the Day: Clean.
Song of the Day: Unchanging

I scored a 65% on the "are you HELLA nor cal?" Quizie! What about you?

Thought of the Day: It's so hard to play with the right heart.
Song of the Day: Jars Of Clay-Worlds Apart

ok so imagine this. you've stayed up all night cramming for your psych. midterm and only got 2 1/2 hours of sleep. you actually could've gotten an extra hour of sleep but your worn out brain accidently told you that your midterm was at 10 and not 11. not cool. you take a freakin' difficult midterm with the most meticulous questions that have nothing to do with applicable psychology. you come home and crash into your bed. JUST as you are about to fall asleep, KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK!
GO AWAY! WE'RE SLEEPING!
WE JUST WANNA GET "SMASH" FROM MINH'S DRAWER.

10 min. later...

KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK!

10 min. later...

KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK!
MINH, OPEN THE DOOR! LET'S GO!
GO AWAY!!! HE'S SLEEPING!
MINH TOLD US TO WAKE HIM UP!
HEY, I'M TOO TIRED JUST GO WITHOUT ME.
WHAT? I CAN'T HEAR YOU. OPEN THE DOOR.

10 min. later...

PHONE RINGS!
NO I'M TOO TIRED. JUST GO WITHOUT ME......OKOK. I'M COMING.

do you honestly believe that i can still fall asleep after this? oh wait, what a coincidence, i'm listening to a song that's totally capturing the moment...

Linkin Park-A Place For My Head

I watch how the
Moon sits in the sky / in the dark night
Shining with the light from the sun
The sun doesn't give / light to the moon assuming
The moon�s going to owe it one
It makes me think of how you act to me / You do
Favors and then rapidly / You just
Turn around and start asking me / about
Things you want back from me
I�m sick of the tension / sick of the hunger
Sick of you acting like I owe you this
Find another place / to feed your greed
While I find a place to rest
I want to be in another place
I hate when you say you don�t understand
(You�ll see it's not meant to be)
I want to be in the energy, not with the enemy
A place for my head
Maybe someday I�ll be just like you / and
Step on people like you do and / Run
Away the people I thought I knew
I remember back then who you were
You used to be calm / used to be strong
Used to be generous / but you should�ve known / That you�d
Wear out your welcome / now you see
How quiet it is / all alone / I�m so
Sick of the tension / sick of the hunger
Sick of you acting like I owe you this
Find another place / to feed your greed
While / I find a place to rest / I�m so
Sick of the tension / sick of the hunger
Sick of you acting like I owe you this
Find another place / to feed your greed
While / I find a place to rest
I want to be in another place
I hate when you say you don�t understand
(You�ll see it's not meant to be)
I want to be in the energy, not with the enemy
A place for my head

You try to take the best of me
Go away
You try to take the best of me
Go away
You try to take the best of me
Go away
You try to take the best of me
Go away
You try to take the best of me
Go away
You try to take the best of me
Go away
You try to take the best of me
Go away
You try to take the best of me
Go away

I want to be in another place
I hate when you say you don�t understand
(You�ll see it's not meant to be)
I want to be in the energy, not with the enemy
A place for my head

Shut...up

I�m so sick of the tension / sick of the hunger
Sick of you acting like I owe you this
Find another place / to feed your greed
While I find a place to rest

I�m so sick of the tension / sick of the hunger
Sick of you acting like I owe you this
Find another place / to feed your greed
While I find a place to rest

that's ok if you didn't read the lyrics. i never read lyrics in other people's blogs either. just know that sleep is something missing in my life right now and for some reason, God's not letting me have it. it's not that minh is a bastard or anything. it's living WITH him that's a bastard. i seriously wonder how much more peaceful this room would be if he had moved out. no more people knocking on that cursed door. no more phone calls from that phone that should've been turned off. no more no more NO MORE! i repeat, it's not that minh is a bastard (all the time...hehe). but it's living WITH him that's a bastard. *sigh*

so yesterday, after much thought i decided to take summer school. i haven't taken summer school since 6th grade b/c i'm a strong believer of being against summer school. it's just too hard you know? haha. summer was meant to relax and take a break. maybe make a few bucks or take a trip to korea. summer school? NO! but i've finally decided to take writing 39C for the following reasons...

1. it's supposedly easier during the summer.
2. you only have to concentrate on this subject which is already a handful.
3. summer school is only a month.
4. i won't have to worry about paying for arc during the summer.
5. i'm being productive.
6. mommy is encouraging son to take it.
7. i just gotta get this fudging class out of the way.

man, ever since i got my car, my driving skills have gotten alot worse. seriously, i make the worst decisions when i'm driving with aaron and/or dykas. it's so weird. i KNOW they think i'm the crappiest driver in the world, taking longer routes, making wrong turns, and getting lost. i seriously don't understand it. i know that everyone thinks that they are good drivers but i really feel like i'm a whole lot better than this. it's really frustrating. if i were to see myself drive, i know i'd be yelling the crap out of my head. geez, such a stupid idiot.

Thought of the Day: "I want to fly away..."
Song of the Day: Finch-Letters To You

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now this is what i call Barnum Effect!

friday...

jinwoo: hey carol, i have that same piano at my house!
carol oh really? we should be best friends!
everyone: ahahahhahahaha.

so freakin' funny.

saturday...

6 Flags Magic Mountain with ccm freshmen. this past week, i really got a chance to know the ccm freshmen better...pho 54, matrix 2, and finally 6 Flags. it wasn't really the eating, watching the movie, or riding the roller coasters together that helped us bond. it was all during the insignificant times...the time after the meal, the hour long wait in line for Matrix, and those looooong hours in line just to ride Riddler's Revenge. it's really cool hanging out with a big group and getting to know each and every one of them a little better. everyone's so different and interesting in their own way. you have your fobs (jeesun), idiots (joe), silence (teri), and just happy fun (esther & sharon). man, freakin' joe...

joe: let's get some Dip N' Dots! DOUBLE D'S!

(walking through oriental music).
joe: hey, what's that place called in lord of the rings?
me: middle earth?
joe: THE SHIRE! hey aaron, IT'S THE SHIRE! ahahahahhaha.
me: omg. ahhahahhahaha.

seriously, i knew that guy was goofy and i always like to mess around. but it wasn't until saturday that i got a very good idea of what aaron had to grow up with. haha. that guy is SERIOUSLY so goofy. man, "goofy" is such a stupid word, but that's the best thing to describe joe.

and afterwards, we went to howard's place cause his parents prepared a grip of korean food for us! so incredibly generous and kind. food for 13 college students who had not eaten for 10 hours. man, all the freshmen think i'm some kind of food monster just b/c of two incidents. the time when i finished ALL of my pho really quickly and after finishing all of my food before everyone else. the only reason why i finished 2 plates before everyone else could finish their first was b/c they were watching Punk'd and were conversating with one another. my back was facing the tv and i didn't say a single word during our meal. whatever. they'll get to know dykas pretty soon.

so today's sunday service was possibly the worst service i've been to in my life. since dennis wasn't there today, we had pastor ezra kim speak for us. man, this guy made a whole buncha random points and ended his sermon by trying to be funny. i'm sure he jacked up everyone's sunday b/c of that, preaching sooooo unfaithfully. it makes me so mad to see someone totally disgrace the Word of God like that. it also doesn't help me with the already bad image i have of him...calling me right before my midterm and criticizing my application for the summer tutoring for over 10 min.. ugh, so hard to love people like him.

man, my brother's blogs are the highlights of my days. his criticism of Matrix was RIGHT on the money! YES! Trinity SHOULD have died! i totally feel for him and it makes me smile to see how similar we are. it's so true...simon is a mini version of me. haha. i love the way he describes stupid things like how he drinks the nasty medicine and the trembling. lol. he just needs to work on his grammar, "awesomely craziness." stupid idiot.

so i ended up getting an A- on my bio midterm. praise God! my very first A- on a midterm. one more midterm on tuesday. i just finished memorizing over 100 flashcards. tomorrow's assignment is to read over 100 pages.

Thought of the Day: Winning streak ends on Sunday.
Song of the Day: Jars Of Clay-Worlds Apart

so i've been playing alotta 21 with my roommate. this past week, God's really been blessing me with wins wins WINS! so today was no different from cleaning out my stubborn roommate...

(all sad).
minh: did you check the mail?
me: yeah, didn't you see the note i put on your desk?
minh: (jumps out of bed). oh really? my day is good once again! (runs out the door). i'm running like the forest!
me: ahhahahahahah.

isn't it supposed to be "running like the wind?"

dang, it's so weird how girls seem to be really into the nba playoffs these days. since the lakers lost last night, alotta people were upset in irvine. haha. suckers. but yeah, it's so cool to have girls so excited to watch basketball. you even hear some of them talk about the players and how they've been doing all season. man, some of them even sacrifice dinner just to watch the game. craziness fo sho. it's tight. it makes me so happy to see Lakers fans so unhappy. take that LA!

so the idiot decides to cram the night before the midterm again. i sleep at 6:30 in the morning and wake up 2 hours later. i totally got jacked on contraleteral eye processing and corticospinal tracts. man, i was so unhappy with those two questions. so i was thinking about how i told myself and even prayed that i would be content with my efforts. so i was reminded of Job and decided to read...

Job 1:20-22: "Naked I came from my mother's womb, and naked I will depart. The Lord gave and the Lord has taken away; may the name of the Lord be praised." In all this, Job did not sin by charging God with wrongdoing.

and...

Job 41:7-9: "Brace yourself like a man; I will question you, and you shall answer me. "Would you discredit my justice? Would you condemn me to justify yourself? Do you have an arm like God's, and can your voice thunder like his?

man, how humbling.

i finally went to Irvine Spectrum for the first time. it's kinda like a combination of Great Mall and The Block. the only stupid thing about buying Matrix tickets in advance was that the guy wouldn't let me buy multiple tickets b/c i wasn't 21. isn't that so stupid? they're getting really strict on the under 17 thing, trying to prevent underage kids from sliding in. anyways, dykas and i looked around the stores and it was so great cause i bought 100 blank cds for $20! TDK 80 min. and everything. it was a buy one get one free thing. don't you love it when you see stuff with great offers or steep discounts? especially if it's one of those stores where they overprice their stuff.

so we go back in line to buy a ticket for aaron but we see that the same worker is in the booth. so i ask the guys in front of me if they can buy my ticket...

me: excuse me, are you guys buying tickets for Matrix 2?
guy: (looks at his friend). no.
me: oh alright.
guy: why?
me: well, i was wondering if you guys can buy me a ticket cause you're not allowed to buy multiple tickets if you're not 21.
guy: oh really? (looks at friend again).
me: yeah, i'd really appreciate it.
guy: (looks at friend again). wanna buy it for him?
friend: alright.
me: thanks.

dude, people these days...so hesitant to help out strangers with a simple favor. was it b/c i was asian? or was it b/c they were just unwilling jerks who needed a nudge of sympathy? when he was giving me my ticket, i found out that they actually were buying tickets for Matrix 2. (shaking head). some people are so....but those cheap cds seriously turned my frowns upside down. i won't have to buy cds for another year!

after we get back, i'm pretty tired cause i had gotten less than 3 hours of sleep. but how could i turn down pingpong with frank? it was really funny cause as we were playing (we were hitting some really good rallies), this one guy asked him if he wanted to play for money. lol. what the crap right? of all the things, this guy wanted to play pingpong for money. seriously, there are some funny people out there.

so i'm like really really tired by now and i know that if i had decided to sleep, i wouldn't have woken up for a while. so i decide to catch up on my psych. reading and omg, i actually finish! it was especially hard towards the end cause the guys next door were drinking. don't you hate it when you ask people to do a simple favor and they just completely ignore you? is it so hard to just close the door so that you won't disturb others, specifically those that are living right next to you? and it's not like you guys are chilling in the halls. you guys are INSIDE the room, but the bumping music and the annoying laughter is just so loud with your stupid door open. but i mean, what can you do right? you ask, you ask, and you ASK! i just gotta keep telling myself that i only have a few more weeks left in the dorms. i should be able to put up with this stuff for just a little bit longer.

while i was studying, chris gave me a call and encouraged me to come to ccm cause there was this awesome speaker for the night. Mark Eastman, author of "Evidence of Creation?" sure enough, this guy struck me with awe. hardcore science guy, giving evidence for a creator and not evolution. very interesting stuff that i'm sure gave everyone a whole new perspective on science. the only problem i had was that he was trying to prove God using science. this guy was basically an evidentialist. i mean sure, evidentialism may seem more "practical" and "effective," but i think God would be more pleased with apologetics that was more biblical. start with God. end with God. highly debatable issue. but it was cool listening to all the things he had to say.

i had my first day of work today. Elite, a tutoring place for SATS and different placement tests. so i'm like the front desk guy who just answers phone calls, registers people, handles billing, makes copies, and start/end/correct tests. eugene is in the process of training me and i'm still trying to get the hang of things. i really hate the fact that i'm a slow learner. i seriously need people to show me multiple times until i finally get it the first time. but in time, i'm sure i'll be a super worker. man, looking at all that SAT stuff really depresses me, bringing back bad memories of junior year. eugene told me that starting my brother's year, they're gonna change the SAT so that there's like a writing section that's similar to SAT II in the SAT I. harder and longer. poor simon. you're not gonna get into any college.

last night, pho 54 with ccm freshmen. tonight, matrix 2 with ccm freshmen. saturday, 6 Flags with ccm freshmen. i'm meeting alotta cool people but i wonder if these friendships are pleasing to God. so far, it's just been all superficial fun fun fun. i wonder if i could really make some good friendships with these people. friendships that are grounded under Christ.

i was disappointed with Matrix 2. even before i went to go watch it, i talked to some people who had already seen it and they didn't seem too satisfied themselves. just a whole buncha "it's OK." i think alotta people were disappointed too. they were just being nice when people asked them about what they thought. but yeah, too many corny lines, unnecessary scenes, and bad plot? however, i did find alot of the fight scenes entertaining and dude, wasn't that french chick incredibly hot? i mean, i thought she was really attractive in alotta ways...the face, the dress, the accent. good stuff. haha. and yeah, the preview for Matrix 3 looked pretty whack. i'm kinda mad that there's a third one coming out cause then i have to go watch it just to know what happens. they should've just left it with the first one. oh well, french chick was hot. =D

Thought of the Day: "OMELAAAAAAAY!"
Song of the Day: For This Cause

Disorder	Rating
Paranoid:	Low
Schizoid:	Low
Schizotypal:	Moderate
Antisocial:	Moderate
Borderline:	Moderate
Histrionic:	Moderate
Narcissistic:	High
Avoidant:	Moderate
Dependent:	Moderate
Obsessive-Compulsive:	Moderate
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instead of our usual Denny's after friday night bible study, we went to eugene's place and cooked us up some ramen and fried rice. man, fun stuff cooking up your own meal, your own style, and sharing it with everyone. if i live in eugene's apt. over the summer (which seems very probable right now), i think i'm gonna have alotta fun...and get really fat.

on saturday, the freshmen met up to do our Senior Banquet thing. dude, suzy is seriously one talented chick! she can think of some crazy body worship in a few minutes and teach it really well too. i haven't done body worship in a looooong time. i think the last time was junior year, WOW rally. lol. man, i practiced and practiced but just never got it down. but i was able to pull it off at the rally so that was cool. but yeah, i think our presentation is going to be great! with suzy's skills and dinko's leadership, we're gonna tear it up like no other.

later that night, i took norman and frank out to watch Identity cause they were the only people that were down to watch it with me. man, that movie wasn't too bad at all. simon WAS right! well, i didn't like it as much as he did but it was pretty good. it's just really unfortunate that the preview really sucked so people like me wouldn't have wanted to watch it. but yeah, "whores don't get a second chance." crazy.

today, i brought norman and frank out to cpc cause they wanted to check it out. i actually have a personal struggle with bringing friends to my church b/c i always worry about if they're gonna like the service/people or not. i have a hard time worshipping freely w/o any distractions when my newcomer friends are there experiencing this whole new place. however, i was glad that they liked it...

(crawford slaps me hard on the arm).
me: yeah, she's not too pretty is she?
(frank & norman laugh).

later...
frank: dang dude, that girl slapped you pretty hard!
me: yeah, i was rubbing my arm when she wasn't looking.

since i was in a good mood today, i treated them out to Thai Spice in irvine. second time eating thai food. not bad.

but dang, i've slowly been developing a sweet tooth lately. back in high school, i never ate sweets even if it was free or whatever. i mean, it's good and all but i just never prefered it. and in the dining halls, they always have these awesome cakes and pies and cookies and ice cream...all free all you can eat! but dang, i never touched any of them until lately...those cookies just started to beg me to nip at them! so what can i do? i can't just leave them alone and have them wait for me. i gotta satifsy THEIR need and even help out a brother or two. ugh, i gotta stop this unhealthiness...it's only making my workouts go to waste.

but the weird thing is, i weighed myself after i worked out today. 152 pounds. i lost 3 pounds in 2 weeks. how is that possible? i haven't been this light since sophomore year in high school? another funny thing is that i just found out today that i've been working one of the machines all wrong the whole time! i always thought i was working out pretty strong and making some progress. turns out that i've been wasting about 50% of my time for the past 5 weeks? instead of flexing my abs, i was flexing my upper body and not getting a full workout on my love handles. i always wondered how this was helping me out, but just concluded that alotta sweat meant alotta progress. i'm such a stupid idiot.

so henry was drinking tonight...

everyone: take another shot!!
henry: i can't...i...fool...no, you...i can't take another shot!
everyone: c'mon, just one more!
henry: i....you...i...naw, you try taking another shot! i feel sick.
lester: hey, you alrite? try standing up.
minh: naw, he's coo.
lester: alrite, just finish up your burrito then.

ahahahahahahahahah. i thought that was like the funniest thing. everyone's telling him to drink but he was feeling all sick. then lester suggests that henry just finish his burrito. lol. man, what funny reasoning.

dude, my wrist still isn't fully healed. i was talking to minh about it and he was telling me how his wrists still hurt too and it's been 2 months! fudge! the pain he was describing was very similar to mine. like when a person shakes my hand, i have to turn away and close eyes and bite down real hard. freakin' aaron, everytime he shakes my hand, i'm screaming bloody murder in my head! my hand will never be the same all thanks to my bastard roommate. i hate that idiot!

i just realized that my blogs have been short summaries of what i've been doing everyday. man, my entries are really lacking substance. i don't reflect much and when i do, it's just for a few sentences. reason: laziness.

you know, i think alotta people see me as cynical person. while i try to challenge to really see if they're thinking logically (or biblically), i think i rub off the wrong way to alotta people. i think many see me as this guy who's just out there to get them...really doubting their motives and reasons for their actions. so if you happen to be one of my "victims" of cynicsm, please don't take it the wrong way. i'm not out there to get you for my own wicked pleasure. i mean, i myself hate cynical people...always so pessimistic and doubting your reasons for everything.

Thought of the Day: 6 Flags!
Song of the Day: For This Cause

after clusters tonight, eugene was dropping the freshies off in our dorms. for some reason, irvine looked really really ghetto tonight...kinda like downtown sf. he takes a right onto el camino and i tell him that i can take the freshmen home from here. we get off and see a Samtrans bus (the old school version) and we start pushing it. as we're pushing, we have to stop at every bus stop cause all of the people at the bus stops are wondering why we're just passing them by. so of all the people, i am made the bus driver. i push, i drive, i push, i drive. i don't know why. gosh, controlling that bus is really hard with all of the swerving and almost missing the bus stops. when i decide to drive the bus again, i go up to the front but i see these two mexican guys who just got off work from the post office. i tell them that i'm the bus driver and they get off my seat. man, i was really scared that they weren't going to believe me.

(cell phone goes off).

me: (really tired). hello?
monica: hi phil, this is monica from Elite.
me: (wake up right away). OH HEY!
monica: yeah, i think i'll be hiring you so do you think you can come in for training?
me: oh great! yeah, i'm free on thursdays after 2.
monica: alrite great. how's next thursday at 2?
me: sounds good.
monica: ok see you then.
me: bye.

so bad dream but good news! i pretty much got the job and i'll be going through training. if i like the job, i'll be staying down here for the summer...might even pick up that tutoring job that was offered at church. awesome!

i saw Chicago last night alone in the dark cause i was so bored. unlike most people, i actually liked the movie. i thought it was really creative with two different parts going on at the same time. i liked the dancing, the characters, and yes those awesome gangster suits! even some of the music wasn't so bad. however, i am really displeased with how Rene Zellwegger turned out over the years. i really wish she could stay the way she looked in Jerry Mcguire...man, so pretty in that movie. oh well, you can't be beautiful forever...not even hyori.

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for mother's day, i wrote my mom a letter in korean, not just cause we had to do it for korean class, but i also wanted to. so wrote me an email telling me that this was by far the best mother's day gift she had ever received from me...a simple letter written to her in korean. i think today was the VERY first time i ever received an email from my mom too...actually any kind of letter in fact from her. i'm really glad that i have a mom who really loves her God. she always encourages me to pray and read the Bible, always trusting in God's sovereignty. not the typical korean mom stuff. i'm definitely a lucky child.

man, i wish i was closer with the ccm freshmen. they all seem so tight, hanging out together all the time...eating, playing ball, you know just chillin'. ugh, it's not like i just wanna include myself either when i haven't even been invited to whatever. all i do is class, study, 3 hour nap, dinner, work out, then gamble. i just kill time doing the regular stuff. oh well, i ought to be content with what i have. it could be worse...so much worse.

Thought of the Day: Not the usual Thursday.
Song of the Day: Boa-Shine We Are

Pretzelboi96 (3:55:12 AM): right now, i'm just looking through random xangas
Pretzelboi96 (3:55:13 AM): haha
Pretzelboi96 (3:55:15 AM): do you ever do that?
Pretzelboi96 (3:55:22 AM): just keep clicking on the links?
StReSsFuLLcHiCa (3:55:36 AM): hahahhaha
StReSsFuLLcHiCa (3:55:40 AM): HAHA i know what u mean

so i was looking through this one xanga with a girl from new york. interesting entry...

things i liked about los angeles:
- every single public bathroom i went to had toilet seat covers
- there are four to five highway lanes
- parking spaces everywhere
- there is a universal driving lane in the middle of local roads for cars to make left turns whenever and wherever they want...it prevents traffic jams and it's very smart and convenient
- palm trees instead of deciduous ones
- everything is cheaper
- the people there aren't so angry and are much nicer to you
- i've never had such yummy eggs in my life
- everyone drives nice ass cars
- all the houses and buildings look so clean..as a matter of fact...everything in LA is clean!!
- the beaches are beautiful
- no freaking pot holes

things i disliked about los angeles:
- you can't get around without a car...there is no well developed public transportation
- it gets too cold at night
- the water doesn't taste as good as new york
- they call eight bunched up skyscrapers a city
- their riceboys lower their cars only in the front so that the ass of the car is sticking up madd high...hahahaha
- it's not the shit like tupac says it is
- so many homeless people
- they think 50 degrees fahrenheit is cold...wtf? people in new york start wearing shorts in that kind of weather..haha
- i didn't get to see brad pitt
- LA is not new york...i am forever a new yorker! hee hee..i love nyc~!

man, it's pretty late right now...4 in the morning. i'm usually in bed by now but my eyes don't seem to want to rest for just a little bit longer. i think part of it is b/c i ate In N' Out at like 11. man, i really dislike eating food after 7. i don't like going to sleep all bloated and full cause you feel gross in the morning. dang, i totally sound like a girl.

Thought of the Day: Dormal no. Pat bing soo jeah!
Song of the Day: Fly To The Sky-Sea Of Love

today, i finally got to introduce chang to aaron! i always wanted aaron to meet chang cause you know, i just thought it'd be really interesting to see them interact. so i leave them alone in a room and when i come back, i see aaron reading the Bible. i ask aaron what he learned from chang and he shows me the REAL Revelations that is in b/w the Old and New Testaments. i'm thinking WOW! this is such an amazing thing...why didn't i ever see this? the whole time, chang is playing Smash by himself and i tell him how everyone's all into Smash except for me.

weird dream.

my roommate likes to play this punching game with people whenever he gets the chance. basically, you take turns hitting each other in the arm as hard as you can...kinda like bloody knuckles but you're hitting arms. so just out of the blue late at night last night, he starts bothering and bothering me to play with him. you have to understand that i think this is the stupidest game in the world. i know that he CAN punch and that i definitely do NOT know how to punch. this one time, he played with henry and minh seriously colored that arm black! it was definitely a Kodak moment...man, i regret not taking a picture of that crap. haha.

so just to shut my roommate up, i agree to one punch. he punches me first, which hurt but supposedly was a very bad punch for him. so then it's my turn. i have NO idea how to punch. i've seen people hit pretty well. i've seen people swing like idiots. *shrug* so i try to hit him as hard as possible, but i KNOW i threw that punch like a pansy. i think i hurt myself more than i hurt him.

so here i am now, the idiot who decided to play that stupid game with a jacked up wrist. everytime i turn a doorknob, wipe my butt, or try to climb up onto my bed, i close my eyes tight and clench my teeth with pain. we seriously take all of the smaller body parts for granted, more specifically our wrists. i can't do normal pushups and my hand gets all tight after writing a few words. yeah, you would think that i would start using my left hand to do all the normal stuff. BAH! that left hand better not think it's going to start getting my attention. my stubborn self is going to put my right hand through hell and back!

i've been thinking alot about friendship lately. i find myself totally following the Exchange Theory where a relationship won't last if you give and do not receive. i think we all have set expectations for different people in our lives. when a person doesn't meet up to a standard, you complain or you end the friendship. selfish. for a while now, i've been thinking about why certain people can't just change. why do they have to be like this? why can they NOT be like this? and after learning about meekness in clusters today, my eyes were open to my sinfulness. while i'm judging and asking people to change, i am being a big hypocrite. some people are harder to love than others. but dude, you just gotta be content with what you have and stop complaining. i'm still working on it for sure...i always will be.

yesterday in gospel choir, we learned this new song called A Praying Spirit. man, it's such a good song...pretty slow with some moving lyrics. i so do not regret taking this course at all. i think it's great how we can all sing songs that totally praise God as a course for 2 units! not only is it fun and easy, but you also get to hear some awesome music. and as you're singing these great lyrics, you can't help but think-dude, all these nonchristians are singing praises to God whether they like it or not! i mean God obviously only looks at the heart, but someday these sinful souls will be praising God b/c they really want to! it's gonna be awesome folks.

new 2 mile record: 16:57!

Thought of the Day: Blessed are the meek. For they will inherit the earth.
Song of the Day: YG Family-STP

dang, i hate it when i don't blog for a long time. there's always so much to remember and write about. just TOO much!

i finally got to visit the last major campus down here in so. cal.. i first visited San Diego, then LA, then riverside, and thursday was USC. man, that whole day was just full of events. before we even got to the school, i thought i was gonna get pulled over for cutting out of the carpool lanes cause i ALMOST missed the exit. as soon as i exited, i looked in my rear view mirror and there was a cop RIGHT behind me. FUDGE! i started getting all these thoughts of paying hundreds of dollars and doing traffic school all over again. dude, i'm such a lucky bastard. i got to USC safe. no ticket.

roseann gave us a tour around campus during the day. quite impressive. water fountains, nicely arranged colored flowers, and gosh those stupid brick buildings. it was like going to ucla all over again only it had no hills and it was much smaller. usc is basically a crappier version of la that's stuck in a ghetto but contained by these big gates all around the school. i liked it.

so as soon as we meet up with albert, he suggests that we play some mad ball. he was saying all this stuff how we gotta get to the courts before the "hooks" (short for hook-geens) get there. lol. irvine vs. usc. dykas and i seriously tore up the courts. oh there was also this one really funny incident...

a group of black guys come up to us....

guy: hey wassup guys. we just have a quick question. you guys go here right? i mean, we know y'all are intelligent and all.
us: (laughing).
guy: we were wondering, isn't it true that in order to go to any college, that you need to take the SAT?
us: yeah.
guy: alrite thanks guy. appreciate it. (walking back to his other friends on the other court). STUPIDEST sons of...
us: ahahahhahahaha.

it was really funny cause even after they had asked us, we saw those guys just standing there for like 30 min. just arguing and complaining. haha.

after ball, we started talking about "shabba shabba," "ding ding ding DING!," and "GOT 'EM COACH!" lol.

since we were so close to k-town, i told him that i really wanted pat-bing-soo cause i hadn't had in a long time...

me: pat.
albert: bing.
(silence).
dykas: soo.
albert: omg. jjah jeung nah!

ahahhahhhahah.

last funny incident...

me: dykas has a photographic memory.
dykas: dude shuttup!
albert: oh are you serious? (does a fob pose). dykas, take a photo.
everyone: (laughter).

on friday, i went to this annual korean festival thing in Garden Grove with hannah, esther, and dykas. the only reason why we went was to see kangta and shin hye sung in person. haha. *shrug* i had nothing to do and i thought it was going to be cool cause they were filming Dream Team there too. so we get there and don't see our expected stars. we got too see the Turbo guy, kim ming jong (?) (the guy who looked like the turbo guy from Namja Set Yuja Set), Bi, and Harisu. oh yeah, the only cool person who came was Cha Tae Hyun...the guy from My Sassy Girl. he looked like a pretty cool guy, always smiling and just chillin'...what girls would call "cute." whatever.

saturday:

x2: good movie.
YMCA: bad movie.

dude, i just realized that i am super busy this month. 2 midterms, 2 tests, one project, and 3 different banquet to work on. not exactly having the bestest of sundays.

Thought of the Day: Dormal?
Song of the Day: Park Ji Yoon-Track 9

i'm having a pretty rough week so far. ever since monday, things have been getting worse and worse...

monday:

dmv at 9:50 am. didn't have enough money to pay $56.00 fee. gotta mail in forms and wait instead of receiving everything on the spot.

cell phone bill was almost $100. i haven't been scolded by my mom for a looooong time.

tuesday:

i check my bank account history and find out that i've spent almost $700 in one month.

today:

revelations of being slandered w/o having any idea the whole time.

i've been doing alotta thinking today. God is really revealing so much to me all at once. you know, it hits you even harder when you haven't faced any serious problems for a long time. you were pretty content with everything for a period of time. but since you're so used to that easy ride, when all problems arise you get stomped with unhappiness as if you were feeling it for the first time.

i can't believe i spent that much money in just 30 days. even if i had a job, it'd take me 2 months to save up the amount that i spent. what's wrong with me?

i can't believe i used over 600 minutes in one month. this was the first time in a LONG that i went over my minutes...300 minutes over!

you know, i'm not used to hearing that people really dislike or hate me for the way i am. it just hasn't been common in the history of my life. i generally tend to get along with others or don't get noticed much...but rarely feelings of bitterness towards me. and i was thinking to myself....am i being persecuted for my faith? am i suffereing b/c i'm a christian? and sadly, the answer is no. i am being hated just b/c of my regular imperfect behavior. it's very discouraging stuff.

as i was walking to class today, i was thinking about the people that i personally dislike or hate. the people that i do not get along with and i try to avoid. more specifically, people who are not christian. you know, we are called to love them and to witness to them. but i find myself with more frequent thoughts of having them struggle or go through difficult times. instead of hoping that they'll find Christ, i find myself wishing curses upon them...and try to justify my reasoning by saying that God should punish them b/c God is a just God. man, what the heck is wrong with me? such a sinful and messed up thought process.

do people pray for me?

i really wish some people wouldn't read my blog.

Thought of the Day: Hebrews 12 is my favorite passage.
Song of the Day: City On A Hill-Sing Alleluia

do you ever type or write something but you all of a sudden forget how to spell that something? it could be the simplest, most easiest word that you've probably used thousands of times before. well, 2 min. ago, my word happened to be "awful." at first, i typed "aweful." then i typed "awful." then i looked at the two and they both looked funny to me. but the weird thing is, this same word has caused me the same confusion in the past....and i'm not talking about 2 or 3 years ago. i'm talking more like 2 or 3 months ago. it happens quite frequently...well, much more frequently than it should. i'm sure it has something do with long/short term memory being retarded. or perhaps, i'm the only stupid that's going insane.

so i was thinking about how i have a number of readers who read my stuff everyday. i get about 40-50 visits on my blog per day and i just started wondering-why do the people who visit this page actually visit this page? are people actually interested in my material? do people wonder what kinda stuff goes on in my life? do people just check to see if i wrote about them or not? do people just wait for my photo gallery to be updated? i mean, who are you people?! what do you want?! =D i'm just a curious sucker about my blog readers. i guess i read people's blogs for specific and mulitple reasons. for some people, i'm very interested in what goes on in their lives. others have a writing style that encourages me to read their material...funny or not. some of you may have the crappiest material but, yes i do check to see if you wrote about me or not. then of course there are the blogs/xangas that get me all interested but eventually runs out of gas and i don't have the motivation to read your stuff. *shrug* put funny pictures up or something. hehe. i'll visit if you start giving me reason to laugh everyday.

last night, the people in my dorm were drinking so i slept at dykas's place that night. gosh, words cannot describe the wrathful and malicious feelings and thoughts i was having as i left that building. more and more, i see the sinfulness and futility of nonchristians. they seek happiness in these temporary fleeting pleasures, only feeling empty after a while and just going back to it again and again. it disgusts me even more when you hear so called "christians" or "catholics" engaging in these activities as well. i mean, i know what it's like...been there, done that. possibly one of the most depressing times of my life. i think at the time, it hit me harder b/c i had already experienced true and genuine happiness that can only come from God. but anyways, being a light sleeper is a real pain for sure. if you can't sleep (especially when you gotta wake up really early the next morning), you get cranky. when you get cranky, you complain. when you complain and you get ignored, you get bitter. when you get bitter, you start getting these really bad thoughts. and with these bad thoughts, the wrong person/moment can cause you to do some things you wish you had never done. it didn't hit me til later today that i was sinning the whole time with my heart. so much anger and malice and lack of impatience. in God's eyes, i am no better than the people that i live with. such a difficult situation.

after helping out at the new church, i went to the in-reach picnic at CPE. after lunch, we played assah with like over 15 people. this was the first time playing with the older cpc people but it was really fun. dinko's "CHINGOO YAH!" and eddie's "brraaaahhhhhhh!" lol. freakin' hilarious. i'm really glad that we have cool pastor like dennis. like i was eating with charlene, mike and dennis on the ground and they started talking about the best "summertime" songs. lol. then charlene starts busting out with Warren G and dennis starts rapping with her. ahhahahahahaha. so funny. man, that's so cool how he used the "rooster dance!" as his assah symbol. ugh, all these disorganized thoughts to describe the in-reach picnic. just know that it was a nice saturday for us all. =D

after my oh-so-refreshing nap, dykas took me out to soon doobu for dinner. more than just the food, we had a good talk about our families. it's not too often that you stop and think about your family members. very interesting to see the similarities and differences in korean people. and gosh, that reminds me...we watched Marrying the Mafia on vcd cause i accidently bought the wrong one on ebay (i'm so stupid!). gosh, the actress was really really cute and that reminded me of all these other korean dramas and movies that i watch with the pretty actresses. i just think about how there are so many pretty korean girls out there in the world. so so many that are very attractive and "FIOONE!" (haha, karen). but i was thinking, dude of all those really pretty korean girls out there, there HAS TO BE one, ONE godly woman out there for me! why cannot i not any godly women that i can be attracted to physically? first of all, it's really hard to meet godly women these days to begin with. and even after meeting a godly person, what are the odds that she will be really pretty? pretty slim no? not to sound picky or anything but dang, i'm never going to get married!

random: i'm going all out on ebay these days.

Thought of the Day: I don't think they like me anymore.
Song of the Day: Nas-The Message Remix

irvine meets riverside!

we saw the funniest thing as soon as we got off the freeway in riverside. we saw this big sign that said RIVERSIDE PRIDE! omg. ahahahahahahah. we were all cracking up in the car, yelling "OXYMORON!" and "PARADOX!" haha. the next time we see that sign, we decided to take a picture with us throwing up the JJOT! haha.

so we met up with every riversider except milky (for some reason, no one bothered to call her. *shrug*). but we checked out everyone's dorm. i have to admit, their dorms aren't too bad. good amount of space and they get air conditioning! they're dorms are probably the only thing that's better than la. oh yeah, bathrooms weren't too bad either. the halls were pretty much like la's except that the rooms were better. very dormy unlike irvine.

but for sure, the campus was no great sight. alot smaller than i expected and the bad air didn't help either. haha. i didn't even realize that i had a scowl on my face until suzy started laughing at me and pointing it out to everyone. but i guess the rumors were true. my eyes met a good number of cute girls all around the campus and dorms. not bad not bad.

Jilberto's was really good though. it's kind of like Albert Taco's but supposedly not as good? i really enjoyed my carne asada or what i thought to be a guacamole burrito, but nevertheless delicious!

1 Hour Photo wasn't that great. i appreciated Robin Williams's performance but the plot and theme wasn't that great. but the "sharingan" part was hilarious. ahahahahahah. how can dykas think of something like that?

in terms of sports, the Giants won, iverson scored 55 pts and the Lakers lost even though KG fouled out. boba is the way to celebrate! i love milk tea so much more than i ever did. i know i can drink like two of those now and still not get sick of it. i should limit myself to one a week.

we conclude the night with BSB and Moulin Rouge songs. singing in the car is one of the funnest things in the world. no one can disagree with that.

i had my interview at eugene's work place, Elite, today. it's like a SAT center and i'll probaby start around may. start at 8 bucks and probably stay with 8 bucks. seems like an easy job with flexible hours. i may stay down south afterall.

Thought of the Day: VCD?!
Song of the Day: Wu-tang Clan-Shaolin Worldwide

in korean, we paired up to make up this dialogue thing to perform in front of class. so i get paired up with this girl named Joanne. up until today, i thought she was this nice, quiet, studious girl who seemed pretty americanized...you know, just a nice korean girl. but dang, when we were discussing the dialogue...

me: ok, so let's just talk about the performance part and make it up as we go along ok?
joanne: how about we just go over what we're going to talk about?
me: alrite.
(discussing).
me: wait, i'm the actor and you're the girl.
joanne: yeah! so you ask me about the play!
me: but I'M the actor! YOU'RE supposed to ask ME! i think you misunderstood the story.
joanne: (gives me a bad look). no he's not!
me: yes he is.
joanne: prove it!
(i show her).
joanne: oh ok.

dang, she was like this totally different person from what i expected. i guess my dialogue with her makes her appear to be this angry stubborn monster girl. but really, she isn't. i was just shocked to see her this way today. totally not what i expected.

midterm grades:

bio: 22/29...with the curve it'll probably be a B.
psych: 46/60...the garbage teacher doesn't believe in curves.

but these days, i've been walking through Aldrich Park which is the middle part of Irvine. it's this big park with lots of trees and grass. looks VERY nice these days with the awesome sun and blue sky. it totally tells you that it's springtime. i really appreciate it every time i walk through it. it's one of the few things that i take pride in our campus. you know you appreciate something when you just stare and say to yourself, "damn that's beautiful." hehe.

Thought of the Day: Today is a B day.
Song of the Day: The Vines-Get Free

so i finally finished my first round of midterms for this quarter. gosh, the price you have to pay for not studying on a regular basis. on monday night, i crammed 80 pages from 10-5 in the morning. excluding the breaks, that's 6 hours of psychology for ya. during these studious hours, i learned just how intolerant my body is to caffeine. i bought 4 vanilla frappuchinios, assuming that i'd be needing all of them to stay up all night. haha. my loser body drank one at 11 and didn't need another one til the midterm. it's weird how some people can actually fall asleep after they drink coffee. it's almost like a sleeping pill for them. but gosh, i really feel the effects of caffeine after 15 min.. body starts getting all jittery, my eyes feel like they have no blindspots, and i have this desire to clench my teeth. it's practically a drug for me with many side effects. i wonder if i'll ever become a coffee addict.

last night, we celebrated old phil's birthday by eating at this japanese restaurant. it was cool cause we finally got to see his girlfriend, cathy! man, i wasn't sure who she was at first cause she looked really young. i just thought she was a friend of one of the third years but she actually turned out to be his girlfriend! gosh, i'm so proud of phil. that old guy found a pretty cool chick who was actually pretty attractive. she was really quiet, polite, and nice...kinda reminded me of chang's FIANCEE, young. hmmmm, i actually think they're the same age too! but yeah, i was pretty glad that phil liked his gift from us. we got him a card that said, "REST EASY GRAND-DAD." lol. and we just covered the inside part of the card with a nice picture of Barry Bonds hitting a homerun. ahahahahaahha. but his real gift was a white Angels jersey. fortunately, it fit him just right! i know that fool liked our gift. ASSAH!

i forget why but i started listening to the Beatles. i always thought some of their big hits were catchy but it wasn't until yesterday that i decided to give them a chance. i wanna listen to like ALL of their stuff but stupid Filetopia is being gay and i'm having trouble downloading stuff. but some of the stuff that i got is pretty good. it's kind of like Seotaiji. a very revolutionary group that made music you can appreciate no matter how many years have passed. if you have any recommendations, my ears are wide open.

geez, there's really alotta stuff i wanted to blog about but i'm just freakin' lazy right now. lack of motivation.

Thought of the Day: "As long as I'm serving God, it really doesn't matter."
Song of the Day: DJ Logic & Fuzion-Track 15

after last night, i realized that i am definitely sick and tired of dorm life. there are just so many reasons why i hate living in the dorms. fall quarter was freakin' awesome. so much fun hanging out all night doing stupid stuff. winter quarter calmed down a bit and there wasn't much bother. but this quarter, it's really hitting me that i cannot stand living in the dorms with certain people. i seriously cannot wait til i move into the apartments with just 3 other people. living with 9 other people just takes away all of your privacy, respect, and most of all YOUR SLEEP! people coming in and out of the rooms, looking through your stuff, borrowing your stuff, eating your stuff, breaking your stuff. people knocking on your door when you're sleeping to ask you a stupid question. people leaving your room and not bothering to close it. people bringing over their friends at the most inconvenient hours and being louder than necessary. i mean dang, some people can be so inconsiderate. very selfish and not giving a garbage about you. and i mean, it's not like you can do anything about it you know? you can't whine and complain to these people about your inconveniences. they'll ignore you and/or look at you as a bitter person that needs to "chill." that's the worst you know? when you're stuck in a bad situation and you're forced to keep it to yourself. well, 7 more weeks to go in this hellhole. it's a wonder how some people can be so patient.

i was talking to genie last night in her room after church. it pretty cool cause i like never talk to her besides hellos, goodbyes, and questions about the psych. final. i think she already told me this earlier during the year but she said told me again. she told me that one thing she really regrets about freshmen year was not taking advantage of her education. we pay thousands and thousands of dollars for these classes and we often take it for granted. we never open the book until it's time to cram for the final. we never look through our notes during the week just to review previous lectures. basically, her point was that college is FOR us! it's here to help us and teach us. we ought to learn learn learn! gosh, i should stop bsing my classes and really study it! even it the material isn't on the midterm, i should still learn and understand it for my own sake. words of wisdom from genie kim. thank you.

congratulations to all who are getting confirmed tomorrow. confirmation/baptism means nothing if you're not living it. go out there and show the world guys!

Thought of the Day: I do not love.
Song of the Day: Linkin Park-Don't Stay

the long awaited thursday was In N' Out Nite! all you can eat In N' Out cheeseburgers for dinner! i remember when i was taking the Middle Earth tour during the summer, the tour guide told us about different themes that they had in the dining halls throughout the year, and the only one i remembered was In N' Out Nite. haha. i was so excited this week that my JJOT crew and i postponed riverside's visit to next week. so my record for In N' Out is 3 cheeseburgers including fries. on thursday, since i hadn't had a SINGLE thing to eat the whole day (not even water) and b/c i had unloaded right before dinner, i was able to finish 4 cheeseburgers including fries! i honestly could have forced down a fifth but that would have just been gluttonous. man, i can't believe "karen" ate 4 cheeseburgers AND a grip of ribs! haha. but i knew that his 4th burger was totally forced cause he felt like throwing up afterwards. lol.

this week has been a pretty good week for me. very chill in terms of school. i basically missed almost all of my morning classes and just chilled after all of my classes. no studying at all! so school was cool. in terms of my walk, i had a very blessed week as i fasted lunch everyday and spent time reading the gospels. God also gave me the opportunity to have some good conversations with people that actually applied to what i've been reading this whole week...ROMANS 4! i've come to realize that many people struggle with "living up to the standards of a christian." i think too many people don't realize that Christ's death justifies us and makes us perfect in God's eyes. people keep saying things like, "it's too hard to live the christian life." or "i don't see too many christians living the way they are supposed to be." the common idea is that salvation is work-based and not faith-based. that is what Romans 4 was about...how Abraham was justified by his faith and not by his works. but of course, we cannot forget that faith PRODUCES works. and we cannot forget that yes, even christians are imperfect and still sin! i suppose it is a very difficult concept for nonbelievers to grasp. i mean, the concept of faith is pretty hard to swallow if you yourself do not believe. only God's grace can change that i suppose. so while i had some difficult conversations with different people, i am still encouraged that God is sovereign and as a reult, glorified!

so today's Good Friday was very good to me. i think of all the years i've been a christian, this was the first Good Friday that i actually took the time to appreciate Christ's death. it finally hit me that i do not spend enough time reading the Bible or praying for my fellow believers and myself. man, what a conviction! during today's sermon, i was thinking about how Jesus was praying in the garden of Gethsemane to ask for any possible way out. sweating blood and praying words with tears, suffering was something He did not want to face if He did not have to. that really hit me you know? to beg to His own Father, but still following through with what was to happen. that is a love that you cannot describe. that is a grace that you will never fully comprehend.

funny moment of the day:
(playing Nirvana-Smells Like Teen Spirit).
aaron starts going insane with his imaginary drums.

me and dykas: ahahahahahahahha.

random:
(from my brother's blog).

so my mom came back today at around 2:30ish. man....... the first thing she said when she walked in the door. "ahahahahhahaha... how is my little dedgi gogi!" in korean.

lol. my mom and i are so similar in some spects.

Thought of the Day: Oh the wonderful cross!
Song of the Day: Oasis-Wonderwall

you know when your spiritual life isn't doing so well and you pray to God to restore you and stuff? when your life is crap and God is totally discipling the humility out of you (actually into you), that's when you go to God when you have no where else to turn to. but i've been thinking, do we turn to God b/c we are called to turn back to God or just b/c we wanna be happy again? i think that i often turn to God just to be happy. a very selfish yet honest reason. everything that i do seems to be for the sake of me being happy. i study hard so that i can get a good job to live a happy life. i hang out with friends b/c having fun makes me happy. and nevertheless, i turn to God b/c He is the only one that can make me happy. happy happy happy. what if turning to God didn't make us happy? what if it only straightened our lives and that's it? would i still turn to God? of course God is the ulitmate source of happiness but what if you know? even though God disciplined us and everything, would we still turn to HIm if He didn't bring us happiness? i wonder if this makes any sense. i wonder.

i've been pretty lazy these days. i didn't go to my psych. class yesterday and i didn't go to my bio class today. i mean, i wake up on time and everything. i even get out of my bed to pee. but i climb back onto my bed and start thinking...do i really wanna go to class today? is it absolutely necessary that i go to today's lecture? and i start listing all the pros and cons and i usually have many more cons. but gosh, those pros just sound so much favorable when you're that tired you know? haha.

last night, i got a chance to hang out with esther ko from ccm. i learned that she can eat very well (5 chicken tacos at 2:30 in the morning!) and that she really loves spicy food. she also has these awesome nicknames like "esther the molester," "esther the fester," "esther ko ko puffs," and "esther ko ko mong." lol. gosh, i didn't know what a fester was until she told me that nickname (a sore that generates puss...gross). after we worked out the arc, we watched the Korea vs. Japan soccer game at howard's place with sharon. it was pretty fun watching korea play soccer again. notice how i didn't say i liked watching soccer, but rather liked watching KOREA play soccer. gosh, i seriously hate watching that sport. back and forth and back and forth and ALMOST and back and forth! it was pretty frustrating cause Japan won in overtime when they were SO close to going into Sudden Death! the stupid ball bounced off the guy's body in the air and barely fit into the goal. AISH! haha. so that's why i didn't go to class today. going to bed at 5:30 and losing to Japan in OT just doesn't encourage you to review The Brain.

Thought of the Day: DAE HAN MIN GOOK!
Song of the Day: Moulin Rouge-Your Song

you know, i was thinking about how people do nice things for each other. example: treating to a movie, helping with a math problem, giving a friend a ride, etc.. why do we do nice things for each other? and i think i was reading my psychology book and it said something like people do these things for selfish reasons. people expect something in return for these "kind" acts. if you drive someone somewhere, you EXPECT a thank you. if you buy someone a gift, you EXPECT them to get you one too (don't we all during x-mas?). the list goes on and on. and i was thinking about how i tell myself that i should be nice and do all these things b/c it's a "christian" thing to do. but gosh, i don't think i've ever done a free deed w/o selfish reasons. i mean, i'll tell myself that it's a good thing to do but unconsciously i'll want something in return...even if it means having that person think that i'm a nice person. i'm a selfish bastard no?

this week is Passion Week which has Good Friday and Easter towards the end. alotta people have decided to fast throughout the week through not eating a meal, no aim, or no tv. i think that's great and all how we're sacrificing our regular "necessities" of life for God this week. however, i think too many times people forget WHY and HOW we are to fast. like if someone is fasting from eating, they grumble and complain about how hungry they are. or if someone can't use their computer, they let everyone know about how they're sacrificing such a big thing for a whole week. but gosh, what does Jesus tell us in the Bible? we are not to be like the pharisees who try to get everyone's attention to be worthy of sympathy and praise. guys, we are called to fast in secret with God. this does not mean that you can't tell anybody that you're fasting, but you shouldn't go running around your campus yelling how you haven't eaten for 12 hours! and when you fast, you don't just abstain from the act that you're sacrificing. those times of sacrifice ought to be used in times of meditation...prayer and scripture. i mean, what's the whole point of fasting and just going along with your regular day? that's right, i don't see any significance in it either. guys, not only do i encourage you to fast during this week, but really think about HOW and WHY you're fasting. and i know i'm guilty of this too but fasting shouldn't only be done on these special occasions. these moments should continue even after easter or any other day. guys, let us try to focus on Christ's death and what it means for us this week.

finally finished Jeremiah. on to Lamentations.

Thought of the Day: Praise God!
Song of the Day: Chris Tomlin-Everything

i saw Better Luck Tomorrow yesterday with terrance, andrew, and sun. i didn't hear about it til a few days ago when my roommate showed me the trailer. unlike alotta people, i kinda liked the movie. i thought it sorta original in its own way and there were a number of entertaining parts. "i never agreed to this. this is gonna cost you extra." haha. i mean, there were alotta fake parts and stupid exaggerations. but at least the girl was cute and the movie actually focused on asian americans for once!

man, i've been gambling with willburt everyday for like 2 weeks now! don't worry, it's not like i'm a crazy maniac with money as its god. i go in with about 2 dollars and just have fun that can last anywhere from 10 min. to 2 hours. i like to think of it as an arcade. you're throwing away two dollars but you have fun with those two dollars. and sometimes, you actually win money unlike real arcades that only give you 5 min. of pleasure. whoever has the most money plays house until someone starts winning alot. but yeah, it's really fun when like everyone plays...bunz, willburt, frankburt, and minh. the more the merrier...or sometimes, the more the sadness.

today, i went to watch Phone Booth with dykas and leonard. it was alrite. not the greatest but surely not a sucker. that collin ferrel guy's not a bad actor. he's no kevin spacey but i think he performed pretty decently. after the movie, we had dinner together and dang did i eat so much today! you know when you have those days when you can just eat and eat and eat? like you find yourself going after seconds, then thirds, then fourths, and sometimes even fifths? i'm normally not a junkfood freak but today, i ate 2 pizzas, 2 plates of salad, a corndog, and a banana. if you're not surprised, it's b/c you don't know me that well. i usually stop after 1 pizza and 1 plate of salad...not b/c i'm on a diet but b/c that's just all i can usually take for dinner. but after eating twice as much the usual, i was still debating whether or not to eat a second corndog! THEN, i come back to the dorms and i start eating a whole buncha oatmeal raisin cookies (i never eat cookies). the fun doesn't stop there. i see willburt eating minh's Pringles so i join his snacking and i decide to quit after one final cookie and an orange. gosh, can my burp get any louder?

after i dropped dykas off, i bought me 6 pairs of socks at Mervyn's. gosh, makes me so happy. i love buying small things that we usually never appreciate. you know, things like Kleenex, gum, shampoo, film, etc.. i don't know, it just makes me full good when i buy these things cause i won't have to worry about them for a while again. but today was socks. i came into college bringing alotta pairs but too many became too holy so i just sent them to the can. aren't new socks the greatest? your feet feel so good dude! it's like dude, my feet feel so good! haha. i'm so stupid.

Thought of the Day: Studying. That's something I didn't do today.
Song of the Day: Park Yong Ha-Like That First Day

i THINK i've figured out how my classes work. bio will only test things from the lectures. psych. is just straight up following the book. korean, i just go for fun. hehe. but anyways, since i've figured out how i'm supposd to study, that means i'll only be reading from my psych. book...mondays and wednesdays. every other day is just chill. i mean, i've already returned my bio book. haha.

if you follow my reasoning, thursday was a free day for me after class. sooooooo, i decided to take a trip to ucla with dykas. man, ucla really IS a great campus! i definitely think it's the best UC to go to...

me: dang dude. this place is so nice!
dykas: yeah, it makes me wish that i had studied harder! it's so....hey look a squirrel!
me: ahhaahhahaha.

ucla is basically a whole buncha bricks, construction, and stairs and stairs and STAIRS! their store is really awesome. they have a gang of dining halls. the dorm food was in a high class of its own. the campus is super big. olivia is definitely going to love it.

i was thinking about how much better la was than irvine. but i think i like irvine so much more in alotta ways too. we're not super big so everything won't be more than a mile away. i still think we have hotter girls. we don't have billions of stairs. our dorms our nicer. we have fewer dining halls but i really do appreciate the food that we eat. and finally, the PEOPLE! irvine just has a buncha awesome people. i think since irvine doesn't have too many "smart" people, we're all so chill you know? everyone likes to play and just have a good time. man, can i sound anymore biased? with this reasoning, i guess SD would be a good balance b/w irvine and LA. *shrug* as long as we have aaron (aka karen), we're still the best UC. haha. JJOT!

afterwards, dykas and i went to the ccm bonfire thing. tonight, i met terry (?), jennifer, eugene, naomi (chinese chick!), and this other girl with a weird name. gosh, all these fools live in mesa court! the only middle earthers are me, esther, and hana. oh that reminds me! esther and i were talking about majors. that reminded me of...

jess: psych. major?! YOU?!
me: yeah why?
jess: that's the last major i'd expect you to be!

(eating my second plate of salad).
jess: psych. major and SALAD?! PHYKAS?!
me: oh yeah you guys don't know. i really like salad.

you know, i just recently found out that psych. majors have the stereotype of being lazy and choosing it as a last resort. that's so weird cause the whole time, i thought psychology majors were cool! i thought it was kind of a "smart" major cause it's like you're studying a mix of science and people stuff. bah! what do they know? bio majors are the stupid ones! cs majors are the losers. i win. they lose.

Thought of the Day: Thanks jess. Thanks crawford.
Song of the Day: HOT-Wedding X-mas

awesome!

I am Krusty the Clown!
Which Simpsons Character are YOU?

Thought of the Day: Simon's coming down.
Song of the Day: Chris Tomlin-Everything

i had a pretty good day today. here are the reasons....

1. i got to drop my writing class. no problem.

2. brandywine had good salad today.

3. i was able to sell by bio book for its full price.

4. i turned in my fafsa stuff and the lady gave me a one month extension for me to send in my dad's stuff later.

5. i got naruto 26 today.

6. i finished all of my psych. reading. 30 pages on different theories on emotions is tough stuff.

7. i got into gospel choir!

so dykas has been bothering me for a while to join this class cause it's supposed to be really fun and an easy A. i was pretty reluctant at first mainly b/c i was lazy and i didn't want to go to class from 7-10 at night every monday. however, since alotta other people were taking it and i also heard that it's such a fun class, i gave it a try. man, so many people! our teacher is obviously black and fudge can that man sing! he's definitely talented in music as he teaches us how to sing as he plays the piano and sings along with us. man, he's so amazing! he knows how all the altos and sopranos and tenors and basses are supposed to sing. but not only is he talanted but he's also really nice and funny. remember, i have a thing for big fat black guys. haha. he kinda reminds me of Cedrick the Entertainer but a christian version. "oh LoooOOORRD!" lol. and dang, he makes our crappy voices sound so good as we all sing our parts together. we really DO sound angelic and actually DO sound somewhat like a gospel choir. i seriously now have a strong appreciation for gospel choir music. i never did understand what was so great about it but after tonight, i feel that it's like "REAL" praise. and yeah, you totally understand why those black choirs sway left and right, clap their hands, and smile with their loud voices. you totally get into it. Phil gives it two thumbs up!

afterwards, i seriously worked my body OUT! my usual work out PLUS an hour of some intense basketball. i played alrite today but man, my shot's been pissing me off alot these days. i don't know what it is. ever since spring break, NOTHING'S been going in. i'm sure dykas notices the change in my game too cause i play with him almost all the time. argh! HOWEVER, the exercise was really good. totally sweated out gallons onto my shirt and believe me, it's no thing to be proud of. well, except for the fact that i exercised like no other. i'm just thankful that i didn't pull my right calve. ALMOST, but not quite. my eighth reason for having a good day.

random:

(bio).

teacher: now, if a normal person were to see a fly and a tree, what kind of connection would he make?
student: they're both living things.
teacher: yes, that works. well, this one time i had a schizophrenic patient and i asked him the same thing. he told me, "well, flies live around trees and they have thousands of eyes...but they're all staring at me.
me: what the...

Thought of the Day: "Glory Glory...Hallelujah!"
Song of the Day: Nicole Nordeman-Holy

well, it looks like i'll be moving into Park West on september 6th. three weeks before school starts again. so i don't know what i'm going to be doing this summer. i mean i want a job and pretty much play. my original plan was to take eugene's job at the tutoring place and just live in my new apartment. but since i won't have the apt. and since i don't really wanna live with other people during the summer, it looks like i'll be up north for most of the time. that actually might work out if i could start working at the credit union again and start tutoring some kids. hmmmmm...easy money with a very very flexible schedule. but i have plenty of time to worry about that later.

today wasn't such a great day of news. people getting kicked out of schools and breaking up with girlfriends. some unfortunate stuff to swallow you know? man, it's times like these when it takes alotta faith to still praise God. such difficult circumstances that you just don't understand. but like i learned in bible study today, it's when we're humbled that we are closest and most depended on God. repentance is key.

so in my korean class, i ended up being partners with one of my classmates, fabiana, from my last korean class. she's a pretty nice girl. originally from brazil and she can understand portuguese! i find that very interesting how so many korean people are from brazil. it's even more interesting when you hear them speak portuguese. it's like a mix of french and spanish or something. and gosh, they come up with the funkiest names! i mean dude, fabiana and simone? haha. hmmmm, i don't even remember why i started writing about all this. random words coming out of my typing fingers.

Thought of the Day: I suck at basketball.
Song of the Day: Rebecca St. James-Pray

so next year's roommates have come down to dykas, aaron, and this guy named derek. the three of us don't know derek too well but aaron met him at some newsong thing. just yesterday i found out that he was chinese and we all had lunch together today. he seems like a pretty nice guy. he doesn't seem too social and he doesn't like any sports except ice hockey. chinese guy liking a sport like hockey. that's a first no? he doesn't play much video games but he does play cs. oh, a big plus about him was that he could supposedly cook! but anyways, i guess he'll be ok to live with. i mean, it's not like you have to be the bestest of buddies with whoever you're living with right? especially since he's chinese! hehe, just kidding.

tonight, i had dinner with a whole bunch of ccm people at commons. man, i guess it really is true how these campus ministries are great places to meet some cool people. today, i got to know some of the sophomore girls a lil better. their volumes are a bit high but they're nice and fun people. haha. and sitting next to jamie was an interesting experience. i've come to realize that whenever i meet people, i either come off as being kinda quiet or really mean. i guess that's just my type of humor. the mean kind. but that's ok, people laugh and that's how i get to know them. i mean, there IS a nice side of me in here somewhere. you just gotta dig dig dig!

oh but there was this one thing i forgot to write about last night. that guy, james, (that's his name, james...the guy who's really passionate about apologetics). he shared something very interesting at ccm. his one dream in life was to study like crazy and have a televised debate against the world's most renown atheist an just rock him! haha. i thought that was a pretty cool dream that he shared with us. i mean, most people dream of becoming rich or finding cures for diseases. but james's thing was to show the whole world the futility of nonchristians. awesome.

tonight, almost everyone in my suite went drinking or clubbing or partying or something. they asked me to come but i denied the offer. however, i became all discouraged about the whole deal cause i started thinking about it in a little more depth. i might have appeared to show no interest in going out with the pagans. however, what exactly was going on in phil's heart? of course i wanted to go! i wanted to get drunk like a moron and dance the night away! oh how fun it must be, hanging out with a whole buncha girls and not having a care about the world. you see, just the fact that i even entertained the thought of having a sinfest comes to show how ungodly i am. i shouldn't even be CONSIDERING the party! a godly person would have straight up thought that it was wrong and displeasing to God. oh how i lack godliness. oh Jesus come and take me home!

Thought of the Day: Ross is my favorite character.
Song of the Day: Moulin Rouge-Lady Marmalade

these past few days, i've been working out at the arc. pushups, stomach machine things, and 2 miles. i even decided to start using minh's weights to work out my biceps and forearms. pretty cool huh? but don't worry, the last thing you'll be seeing is a buff homo. i'm just trying to stay in some sort of shape and trying to stay away from flabs...not that i don't have them already. i was gonna brag that i've been very consistent (3 days or more), but i missed my workout today cause i went to ccm.

ccm was pretty cool today. once again, met some more people. we all went to Harber House, which is supposed to have some bomb omelettes. *shrug* i was too full to eat anything so i passed on every offer. for dinner, i ate a chicken burger, curly fries, 2 small plates of caesar salad, a bowl of soup, a plate of this rice thing, and a banana. one more bite would have tore my stomach. *phew* but i did have alotta pleasant conversations with laura and becky. 2 juniors. it's so weird cause becky reminds me so much of third year susan. in my eyes, they look alike and i keep telling myself that they act alike too. but i had alotta fun with them.

i also met this one guy who's supposedly hardcore with theological books. i mentioned stuff about apologetics and we started getting all worked about Bahnsen. lol. he was like, "dude, i thought i was the only one! it's so awesome to meet someone else who knows about this stuff too!" haha. it was pretty cool meeting another student so passionate about theology. he'd have a great time with chang for sure!

and finally, i took esther and dykas home. since esther lived in middle earth with me, we had a long walk from parking lot 1B. she's a pretty cool chick cause i feel like we're kinda similar on some levels. like the more we talked, the more we realized that we were both not fobs, but not SUPER americanized either. like we had a good balance you know? i think that's really cool cause i have yet to meet someone who's in the same boat as me. *shrug* but she's a cool chick.

esther: who's dykas?
me: daniel! that's what we call him.
esther: oh really? why?
me: you know, how people call me phykas?
esther: they call you phykas?
me: *sigh*

i hope all these people i'm meeting result in some good friendships. none of this another stupid acquaintance crap. i mean, it's alrite and everything but my list is full!

Thought of the Day: The brain only uses 10% of its resources. Myth.
Song of the Day: Jaci Velasquez-God So Loved The World