yesterday, i decided to look at my checkings account history just to see how much i had spent in the last month. when you just look at the withdrawals, it doesn't look so bad. lots of 20 and 40 dollar withdrawals. ok, time to bust out the calculator. uhoh. 11/27-12/27 = over $900!!! okok, let's just see how much i spent ever since i came up home. over $450?! so i was a little depressed and angry with myself last night, thinking about all the stupid things i wasted my money on. lots of pool, movies, and gas. man, i didn't even like this winter break and i spent over $450?! man, i'm pathetic.

today, i went to my uncle's house to "seh-beh" early since i'm leaving tomorrow. it's funny how i can see so much of my dad in my uncle. they're so different yet so alike. he can walk the walk and talk the talk. yeah, it was just a funny observation. i was looking at some pictures of my nephews and nieces. dude, they got really big! i can't believe they're like 5 or 6 now! i can start talking to them now. haha. i wonder how they look at me and my brother? are we still strangers to them? do they have a sense of who we are? if i saw them in a store, would they say hi back to me? probably not. anyways, they made me eat soooooo much! alotta mandoo gook (potsticker soup).

uncle: you want some more?
me: oh no! i'm really full.
uncle: here, have 3 of mine.
me: *sigh*
simon: here, take one. i'm too full.
me: *siiiiiiiiiigh*

it was a really good dinner though. some bangin' kimchee and awesome beef too. *drool* well, not right now. i feel like i need to go the hospital. cut open my stomach and give some of the food to the poor or something. um nevermind. that's pretty disgusting. haha.

new year's eves...

freshmen yr.: friend's house.
soph. yr.: home alone, counting off for the year 2000 all by myself.
junior yr.: party.
senior yr.: church.
this yr.: most likely church.

flytothelimits (4:01:46 PM): yeh im going to church
flytothelimits (4:02:09 PM): of course
flytothelimits (4:02:20 PM): for the past 18 years i have been going to church on new years eve
flytothelimits (4:02:25 PM): its not changing this year
Pretzelboi96 (4:02:53 PM): haha
Pretzelboi96 (4:03:07 PM): and for the past 18 years you have gone to church high
flytothelimits (4:03:18 PM): dont tell anyone
Pretzelboi96 (4:03:52 PM): don't worry

Thought of the Day: I'm finally going back!
Song of the Day: MXPX-Turning Japanese

last night, i had some korean bbq b/c it was dykas's dad's b-day. all these other families were there and i didn't feel too comfortable about going, but dykas insisted. so we ate alotta good korean food: gal-bee, samgyupsal, kimchee...you know, the typical stuff. anyways, the adults were drinking soju and i noticed that the dads could REALLY drink! i found out that one of the hardcore dads was jessica yoo's dad! "homeboy's still drinking!" he's one of those cool korean dads that have that strong laugh and always say start/end every sentence with "jahsheekah!" you know, the kind of person that'll give all of his newphews and nieces a whole buncha money when he's drunk. smoking and "go-stop" is a given. oh yeah, and these dads have this tendency to LOVE kids who can eat! haha. every korean knows what i'm talking about. you just can't miss them. man, last night was the first time i've been in a family dinner since korea!

after dinner, i saw Requiem For A Dream on my computer. omg. what a depressing movie! not a sad drama but a very pitiful disturbing movie. it was basically another one of those drug reality movies. gosh, i hate watching these movies with simon. after the movie, he was like, "why do you watch these movies?" you stupid idiot! you don't understand such things b/c you're so young. there's a reason why certain movies are Rated R! but it's not like i'm not going to let him watch just b/c it's a Rated R movie. i didn't even know what the movie was about but i downloaded it back in irvine. but geez, that guy had one disgusting arm!

i received a Christmas Card from my old work place...Allan, Tess, Char, and Cathy. they also gave me a calander in the envelope. i feel kinda bad not stopping by to say hi to them. i'll say wassup during the summer when i might be able to work for them again. but yeah, those guys are the nicest people in the world...still treat me like i work there or something.

so i'm going back down in 2 days. like it says in dykas's profile, i'm kinda happy but kinda sad too. i miss irvine weather and sometimes, even the food! haha, gross right? but most of all, i miss my dormmates...gambling with minh do, playing frustration with J and annie, saying, "hello connie" to connie and "hi willburt" to willburt, and telling bunz to get out of my room. haha. but i won't see them til sunday b/c i have my first official college retreat coming up! i really do not know what to expect from it. hopefully, i'll become closer with some people and just have a refreshing time before i head back into the sinful world of irvine. we'll see wassup. BUT! there's also the pinch of melancholy that i have when i think about leaving home. no more good pool tables, no more driving my own car, no more of mama's cookin', and no more private bathrooms. yeah, it's really no big deal. i'm more happy that i'm leaving than staying here. this break has been super duper boring. now i know why alotta college students don't like going back home. if they do, it's just for a brief. aw man, i just remembered that i'm going to have to be inside a car for an eternity! noooooooooooo!

Thought of the Day: Two Towers?
Song of the Day: Shinhwa-My Own Secret

well, there's plenty to write about but i really just don't feel like it right now. i cleaned up my blog a little bit. fixed my archives and got rid of the korean music banners. kinda messy and inconsistent. man, i wish i knew how to html. what a time killer.

Thought of the Day: Wasting time.
Song of the Day: MXPX-Scooby Doo, Where Are You

last night, i finally played frustration with my most challenging player, tiffanie kimmmmmm. there was no competition for her. "oh dang," was all that came out of my mouth. we must've played like 10 games and i didn't win a single one. what kind of techinque was she using? how could she remember where every card was? in conclusion, i am forced to conclude (haha dykas!) that little ms. tiffanie has HAD an advantage over me this whole time! photographic memory. no fair. she wins. i lose.

right now, it is 5 in the afternoon. i just woke up an hour ago. literally, half of my day is spent in a world of dreams. but these dreams seem to become more and more fun to dream. with the blurred memory that i have, i can still remember having dreams where simon was eating my fried rice, where justin came to irvine and we were eating sandwiches in a restaurant even though the place looked nothing like irvine, where i bumped into these gangsters and they wanted to fight but i somehow got the ability to fight with my leg just like in Surf Ninjas, and finally a dream where simon came into the room and told me to wake up b/c it was 2:09pm. they don't sound so exciting but if you were there with me, you would've had a good time. even though they weren't eventful dreams, they were happy dreams you know? when i woke up, my back was aching alot though. ugh, today's weather is crap.

Thought of the Day: I need a sleeping bag.
Song of the Day: Forever God Is Faithful

my brother took his braces off yesterday and is now wearing retainers. man, that evokes alotta memories of when i used to wear braces. when i was 6-8, all of my friends were getting braces and it was supposed to be a really big deal...a cool thing in fact. haha. i was so excited when i got braces for the first time at the age of 6. i got my first retainer at 7. after two years of perfect teeth, all of my baby teeth were replaced with new UGLY permanent teeth. so when i was 10, i got braces again. this time, braces were NOT so cool. the next year and a half consisted of poking wires, intense rubber band patterns, and an occasional bloody mouth.

one really bad memory:

so 2 days after i got my braces, my school was going to Outdoor Ed. my teeth were still hurting ALOT and my wire was already beginning to come out of place, constantly poking my cheek. so i basically had trouble eating anything except for things like soup and water. in 5th grade, Bagel Bites were a big deal among all of the students. if your mom packed you Bagel Bites for lunch, you were the most popular kid for the next 40 minutes. you can trade it for almost anything...chips, candy, pencils, homework, toys, etc.. it was like gold to all of us! so one of my friends brings a whole bunch of bagel bites for lunch and everyone's asking away. i don't remember how i ended up getting one, but i do remember it was the most unpleasant eating experience i've ever had in my life. everytime i chewed, my teeth felt like they were going to break. my mouth was in agony and i was trying to fight back the tears, somehow trying to find whatever pleasure there was left in eating this curse. THEN all of a sudden, i hear a snap. A CRUNCH! oh my, so much pain! i was so scared to find out what happened, so i just swallowed everything that was in my mouth. later, i went to the bathroom and looked at my teeth in the mirror. a good centimeter of my top wire was missing!!! so basically, one bagel bite had caused me to break my braces and even eat a piece of it. yummy. i never ate a Bagel Bite again.

i'm so happy i finished all my orthodontics before high school.

last night, i went out with moe, olivia, cj, and seung-bae. i really didn't feel like going to noraebang, but justin was the driver so we had to go where he wanted to go. freakin' bastard. make all of us go to the bank to take out money. even though i finally got to hear Olivia sing her heart out, that was the worst noraebang experience i've ever had in my life. then we go to Denny's and call it a night. it was really fun hanging out with them in the beginning, but things just got really crappy in the end. i am so serious, Friend don't let friends hang out with Justin!

today, my mom's friends left for korea. i'm pretty happy that they're finally gone. i can now use the bathroom whenever i want, watch tv downstairs, and pee with the door open. *giggle* but i know my mom's really sad that they're gone. they were like her only friends. i KNOW she enjoyed their company so much. it's kinda like that feeling when you're in korea for vacation and it's time to go. korea was just so much fun and now it's back to crappy ol' America. *shrug*

Thought of the Day: Not chubby, but FAT!
Song of the Day: DJ Quiksilver-Planet Love

so yesterday, i had this awesome dream that i was back in the dorms. it was weird b/c the dorms looked nothing like they do in reality. it was nighttime and everyone was just chillin'. alotta people were in our room and a few people who usually don't come to our room were there too. it just felt really good to be back at home, greeting everyone and yeah, just chillaxin'! then all of a sudden, i hear my cell phone go off. aw crap! it was just a dream! J wanted to wish me a Merry Christmas. i was a bit unhappy that i was woken up but nevertheless grateful for the greeting. Merry Christmas to you too J! but geez, i seriously get phone calls EVERY SINGLE MORNING!!! well, they're not exactly in the morning. more like between the hours of 12-3...ugh, when i'm still asleep.

but last night, i had alotta trouble falling asleep. freakin' insomnia! i go to bed at 5:30 and don't fall asleep til 7:30am. what the crap right? so i just kinda lie there in bed, thinking about random people and reminiscing some good and bad times. i think i do this every night before i go to sleep. don't you guys?

i went to go watch Catch Me If You Can with dykas, dumbo, and B. haha, i have nicknames for everyone. anyways, the movie actually turned out to be quite entertaining. i actually liked it terrance! when you just watch the previews, it doesn't look like one of those movies that are going to turn out good. but you always have to remember who's directing the freakin' thing, and i guess they got real lucky b/c it was Steven Spiedlburg. man, that guy is seriously a genius. i don't think i've ever disliked a single movie coming from that man. God bless you Mr. Spiedlburg! you're my hero!

i mean, the man can even direct movies with DiCaprio! well, i guess i kinda respect this guy as an actor but just like every guy, i think he's gay. isn't he like bi or something? i don't know, i heard some bad news about that guy. but unlike mr. dicaprihomio, there are a few actors i think that are really talented...

1. edward norton.
2. tom cruise.
3. tom hanks.
4. kevin spacey.
5. john travolta.
6. al pacino.
7. jim carrey.

notice how i did not list any actresses? well, that's b/c they all suck. i mean, they don't suck but they're not outstanding. take another look at those 8 men i listed. those guys are special. definitely not your everyday actors. they're special. my heroes.

i didn't get much this christmas, but i sure did get a crapload of money! i usually don't receive money as a gift but i really got alot this year. it kinda sucks though when i get money b/c i just dump it into my account where i already have a few thousand dollars from my mom. when you put money into an account that is already full of someone else's money, it loses alotta significance. if my account was just full of money that i had saved up from work and i added more x-mas money, that'd be alrite. but i haven't worked in months so i just live off of some money my mom saved for a while. i feel pretty bad taking her money. someday, i'm going to make it up to her. i'm going to pay back every cent she gave to me. geez, i'm going to end up buying her a car or something.

Thought of the Day: Boring X-mas.
Song of the Day: J-Deep In The Night

today is Christmas Day. Christ+Mas = More Christ or Worship Christ. however, this isn't exactly the way i feel. last night, i went to the Christmas Eve service and i saw the adults doing their presentations with songs and videos. when i saw them get together and fellowship with one another, it made me very jealous. they were all so happy, eating dinner together, playing games, and exchanging gifts. they were having so much fun. and then i look at my family. my mom goes out with her friends to some other family's house and they have their fun. my dad's in korea. my brother and i just stay home and eat whatever's in the fridge. now, i'm not asking for a conversation full of pity but i just cannot help feeling bitter. i mean, i know i am sooooooo better off compared to many people who are MUCH less fortunate. there are people with single parents or even no parents at all. there are people with no homes. no friends. no money. nobody. nothing. and here i am complaining. so i am in a very frustrated mood. i wanna be angry but i shouldn't. i wanna complain but i have no right to. i deserve better, but i honestly do not. it's really hard celebrating x-mas. like thanksgiving, it's just another day.

so i was eating a really late dinner and my mom comes home with her friends. and as i'm eating, they decide to sit at the table and have a conversation with me.

lady: do you know how much your mother loves you? you know how much she loves you right?
me: (busy eating). yeah sure.
lady: she loves you very much. we don't have to tell you that. your mother tells us that all the time.

and believe me, this is not the first time i've heard this stuff before. my mom always makes sure i know that she thinks that she is VERY proud of me. it's very depressing. i feel like she thinks i'm going away forever or something. i think she's going through her menopause thing. i heard those things are supposed to make you really depressed or something. lots of mood swings and stuff right? i don't know. it was just a conversation that i did not feel like having on Christmas Eve.

well, if you can't tell by now, i'm writing in a really unhappy tone at the moment. i had a pretty crappy day yesterday. i felt like i was abandoned, used, and betrayed all at once. i felt like yesterday was such a waste...kinda like "why did yesterday have to happen?" well, i did have some pleasant conversations with different friends but all in all, the day was pretty depressing. if i had to sum it all up in one word, it would have be the word, "fake!" but i was thinking about this while i was driving last night. why are you so unhappy right now? why are alotta small things getting to you? so i pondered and pondered. the best answer i could think of was the fact that i was just plain ol' bored! not just bored at the moment but bored with life in general. everything just kinda sucks. meaningless. pointless. boring. don't worry, this is no suicide note. i'm just doing a little expression therapy with myself. i need to blow some steam on my blog. much wiser than beating up simon or doing some angry driving. i feel so unstable. i feel quite irritated. argh! maybe it's just the fact that it's 5 in the morning. emotions are usually unstable at this hour. man, when am i going to wake up tomorrow?! alrite, that's enough for tonight. time for some sleep therapy.

Thought of the Day: Hi Tiff.
Song of the Day: DJ Sammy-Boys Of Summer

today, i played some basketball with the boys. lots of sweat and blisters. the usual fun. i even got simon's basketball pumped up today so that was a fat plus! after a nice shower, i picked up my pictures from Long's. dang, i haven't had such good pictures in a long time! i got some great pictures of friends from irvine and up here. i'm only disappointed with the ones that i took at the x-mas sleepover. those came out like crap...especially the blanket game one. man, that was just chaos and ugliness. haha. no matter (i totally regret not taking pictures of henry's bruised arm. that sucker was definitely a kodak moment. lol.).

so tonight, i made dykas and simon watch Office Space with me again. it wasn't as good as the first time but i still like it alot. i think they just did a really good job with the characters. brilliant! oh, speaking of brilliance i cannot wait til the movies of 2003! they either stir up curiosity, expectation, or just straight up excitement...

1. T3-c'mon, this will probably be Arnold's last movie. he only knows how to play mindless explosion gun movies.
2. When Lloyd Met Harry-boy wasn't i caught off guard! i am soooo Dumb & Dumber all the way....with or w/o Jim Carrey!
3. Bruce Almighty-2 words. Jennifer Anniston!
4. Matrix 2-no need for an explanation here.

there's some other stuff i'm considering but these are my Must See's.

we were all chillin' in my room and then i get a call from my cell phone. it's my mom. she calls twice. she can hear us from my room. we need to turn it down. amazing what cell phones are used for these days.

gosh, the book of Isaiah is a pretty "dry" book to read. there's over 60 chapters and i'm not even half way through. gosh, i can't wait til i get to the New Testament.

Thought of the Day: Winter break is just chillaxin'.
Song of the Day: T-You (Sad But True)

testing...

i finally watched Office Space on my computer like at 2 in the morning last night. man, that movie is one funny movie! i love the exaggerations, the symbolism, the themes, the humor, and of course every male's beloved Jennifer Anniston. dang, she's seriously a really pretty actress no? sometimes i wonder...what does Brad Pitt have that i don't? well, one thing's for sure and that's Jennifer Anniston! mmmmmm, that's about it.

today, i came home from church and took a very unrelaxing nap. i felt like i was asleep even though i wasn't. a few tosses here and a few tosses there. grrrr...frustration. hmmmm, speaking of frustration, i haven't played that card game since annie left? dang, i remember when i used to play that game with tiffanie back when i was senior. i mean, we were like REALLY good at that game. geez, when we played that game it was definitely no game. the winner was arrogant and the loser was pissed. i'm still scared to ask her to play. not a good christian game at all! that also reminds me of the times i used to play alotta chess with simon. crazy. absolutely crazy. all i can say is, sometimes i can be one bitter mother. ahahahahahahaha. that ALSO reminds me of that time when i was beating the crap outta bunz in pool. he would like throw the ball on the table and then cajun would imitate him with the F word. ahahahhahahahaha. i think only dykas remembers. man, good memories. lol. alrite, enough of this disorganized nonsense...

i took simon to go shoot some pool b/c i was bored and he was bored. man, it was terribly boring, winning OR losing to him! when you're just playing with someone that sucks, it takes the fun out of the game. so instead of playing for 2 hours, we called it quits after 1 and drove home. haha. i have this really bad habit with my brother whenever we're talking about games or competition. like whenever he starts talking about people who are really good at something like let's say pool, i ALWAYS have to ask him if they're better than me...

simon: yeah, he's pretty good at pool.
me: oh really? you think i can beat him?
simon: um...i don't know. you guys are both pretty good.
me: but you've seen me shoot alot. i can probably beat him right?
simon: uh yeah. probably. you guys are good in different ways.
me: yeah, i can probably beat him.

this also goes for Puzzle Fighter, chess, basketball, monopoly, speed, driving, frustration, wait...did i just say driving?!

after yet another delicious meal of korean food, i went out with chang, cj, moe, and olivia.

noraebang...

(after justin sings).
chang: man, i want to get that song now.
justin: was it b/c my singing was good or b/c the song was good?
chang: no, the song was good.
me: ahahahhahahahah.

two weeks notice...

olivia: gosh, that was such a cute movie!
moe: yeah, it was good.
me: um, it was alrite. an ok chick flick.
justin: dude, i loved it!

ok, can someone say GAY?! okok. that's kinda messed up. i have my share of favorite chick flicks as well. let's see, there's Legally Blonde, Notting Hill, and My Sassy Girl. but that's about it! 3 or less is fine. 4 or more is gay.

so today would be Christmas Eve's Eve. 2 days until X-mas. man, of all the winters, this year seems to be lacking the "x-mas feel" the most. perhaps, every year gets worse and worse. this also goes for my birthdays, thanksgivings, and winter and summer breaks. but before i go off topic again, today's message was about how the birth of Christ is the epitome of promise and grace. it's pretty hard trying to celebrate x-mas with the right heart when society has completely transformed this holiday into just giving and receiving gifts. i mean, i'm all for gifts too....who isn't right? but still, we need to constantly remind ourselves what dec. 25th is all about. and as PJ preached today, it's about promise and grace. the best gift of all.

random...

so as i was zoning out during church today, i was thinking about a conversation about God that i had with my friend several weeks ago. i remember we were talking about how Christians are the only ones who can be genuinely happy and Non-Christians cannot. so as i was thinking about our conversation and i JUST remembered that i forgot to tell my friend WHAT make christians so different from others. and the reason for this is b/c believers have a personal relationship with God. it isn't just like He's up there and we're down here. there is a very personal and intimate relationship we have with the Big Guy Upstairs. that's what makes christians so different from other religions. while the other beliefs and philosophies are JUST about being a "good" person and serving their god, christians have something special with their Creator. we do this through reading the Bible and prayer, which leads to an obedient lifestyle. church seems like a very boring, strict, and time-consuming lifestyle that only causes controversies in people's conversations. this whole personal relationship thing with God-it is a very difficult concept for unbelievers to fathom. but what can i say? if you knew the truth, wouldn't you want others to believe too?

Thought of the Day: Obedience = Contentment
Song of the Day: Eve-Lover

so far, i've taken simon to go watch Drumline, Hot Chick, and Empire. i feel kinda bad not taking him out much this break. i've only been shooting pool with jonna, chillin' with cj, and sleeping in like no other. man, just about every college student has been ranting on their blogs about how their sleeping schedule is messed up. but i assure you, i am by far the "worst" sleeper of you all. try going to bed at 3:00am and waking up at 3:00pm! gross. look at the indolence. the lack of productivity. the gaining of weight. and it's not like i'm catching up on my sleep from college either. i get plenty! i go to irvine, remember?

cj: man, high school is nothing. wait til you take college courses!
moe: i don't want to go to college!
me: don't even trip. college is cake! haha.
moe: screw it, i'm going to irvine. UC Irvine High School!
olivia: yeah, me too!

last night was the annual yg x-mas sleepover. i wasn't exactly sure what to expect that night. well, there's always the "grip" of food, the out-of-control games that B cannot control, and the nerve-racking gift exchange. man, the games were so much funner than i expected though. we first played the "blanket game." you basically have a blanket serving as a wall for both teams. you have a representative on each team and the other teammates try to distract the other representative. when the blanket comes down, the representatives have to call out the other representative's name first. lol.

chang: ahhhhhhh!!!
me: chang!

the second game was "circle of death." it's kinda like mafia except the 2 killers are the people who get the jokers. they kill people by winking at them and people try to guess who the killers are. if you guess wrong, you die.

me: (sarcastically) gosh, susan's so stupid!
simon: ahahhahahahahah.

and last but not least, the infamous Mafia! this was probably the funnest game b/c it's always fun accusing people and see the accused getting all pissed and defensive...

cj: i object!

but i think last night was a good indicator that i've grown up alot.

1. listening to middle schoolers talk about their meaningless drama. it's so cute! haha.
2. once again, almost all of the boys STILL play video games all night.
3. i actually had a conversation with frank that lasted for more than 10 min.!
4. almost every conversation i had involved the subject of college.
5. talking with high school students (in general) was sooooo boring!

what can i say? i've changed. i'm still changing. want an apology? i'm sorry. it's inevitable. BUT! i did realize a GOOD thing about last night. even though i felt a little out of place last night, i felt like i was having a much more genuine fun compared to the parties in the dorms. perhaps, it is b/c we have a reason for the fellowship that we have. not to "just have fun," but rather b/c we gather for a special reason. there's that unity that pagans cannot have. we all gather together as believers and God provides the happiness. yeah, i didn't have MUCH fun, but i nevertheless had FUN! you feel me?

loudest laugh of the night...

cj: my name is justin. i'm...
jonna: GAY!
everyone: ahahahahahahahahahah.

Thought of the Day: Why do we live as if we're defeated and not victorious?
Song of the Day: Sharp-With Coffee

last night, i was planning on just relaxing at home and watch some anime before i went to bed. BUT NO! i just HAD to go out b/c cj wanted to chill with weyman and brandon. so i go all the way to san jo to go see weyman's place. his place is pretty big cause it has like 3 rooms and 2 bathrooms...6 people! so we were just talking and he told me how he kinda regrets not dorming cause his apt. life is really boring. poor guy. dormlife is like a once in a lifetime thing! anyways, since pothead brandon was there, they were going to blaze so we just bounced...

weyman: c'mon! finals are done! it's winter break. you don't have a curfew anymore. let's smoke phil!
me: no, i'm cool guys. enjoy yourselves.
weyman: alrite, we'll get you next week. haha.

however, later that night...

me: i only have a 100 dollar bill.
cj: just pay for the whole thing alrite?
me: dude! we're supposed to split 50-50!
cj: ok, how about 70-30?
me: no! why are you trying to take advantage of me? 50-50!
cj: dude ok, i'll pay i'll pay!
(i break my 100 and get change and decide to tip $6).
cj: hey, she was really nice to us. give her more!
me: no, i only have a 6 and a 10.
cj: give her 10.
me: fine!

this went on for quite a while but i ended up paying for the whole bill. he only paid for gas. (no Skaters! last night is now considered the dinner i promised you!). man, no more going out with cj. i hate that stubborn bastard.

Thought of the Day: Friend don't let friends hang out with Justin.
Song of the Day: Boxcar Racer-Letters To God

cj's gift: fancy looking silver Guess watch. thanks man.

koko house: korean restaurant with alotta loud drunk koreans. ended up paying too much but i had a good time with cj and chang.

lord of the rings: awesome movie. it was so much better than the first one, but you still need to watch the first one to understand the second one. at irvine, we have one side of the dorms called Middle Earth and all the buildings fall under the Lord of the Rings theme...

Rohan, Pippins, Gandolf, Evenstar, Lorien, Rivendell, Isengard, Hobbiton, Shire...but no Grey Havens?!

because i watched the movie at 4 in the morning, i got some sleep at 9:30 and woke up at 2:30. we went to go eat hotdogs and pizza and Costco...

chang: i hate eating the hotdog with the buns! why can't they just give me the hotdog w/o the bun?
me: ahahahhhahaha. sick!

dang, annie's right. each day goes by oh so slow! that's cool though. i like it that way. at least the sky's been clearing up these days.

Thought of the Day: Exhausted.
Song of the Day: SM Town-My Angel My Light

i was walking home this morning and thought to myself...what is the purpose of life? what do people live for? and i think the obvious yet profound answer is TO BE HAPPY! people find happiness in many different ways:doing drugs, having a boyfriend/girlfriend, making/spending money, etc.. so i was thinking, what is my true source of happiness? and this obvious and profound answer is GOD! everything else is very momentary, vanishing, temporary, finite, dissatisfactory, blah blah blah. i know that the only way to be content is to have happiness that the Lord gives us. and these days, i look at my life and it is quite discontent. i try to find happiness in secular things such as "chillin'." i already know the solution to my problem. i almost always do. i am no ignoramus. BUT, i am still a fool. what kinda idiot continues to solve the problem when he already knows the answer. straight up stupid!

so anyways, i tried to find some accountability in some friends of mine. it's always encouraging to have people watch your back in the things you say or do. i make promises. they make promises. however, why is it that my "real" friends aren't out there for me? why aren't they helping me run this race that we call life? and i guess the answer to this question is that they too are struggling themselves. they are either ignorant, indifferent, or both...idiots. so i always ask God to help me with my sins and struggles. unfortunately, you cannot just "let go and let God." you need to show a little effort yourself...actually alotta effort. i mean what's faith w/o works right? and with the whole accountability thing...i guess if you want the job done right, you just gotta do it yourself. *shrug*

note: all non-christians readers will most likely not understand or misunderstand my written thoughts. we live in two different worlds. discussion is always welcome...

right now, i don't even care about my reputation. if people are disappointed in me, so be it. if people are still cool with me, so be it. it doesn't matter. the only thing that means to me is how God looks at me. He knows wassup.

Thought of the Day: It's all up there.
Song of the Day: Here I Am To Worship

i met up with cj last night and chilled, not exactly like old times but it was good seeing him again. driving home in the rain was no fun at all. i ran into two flooded areas (and i mean FLOODED!) that scared the crap outta me. as i was driving, i could slowly see the water rising and i was worried about the water seeping into the doors. it was that flooded! but after i got past them w/o seeing any water in the car, i was relieved and got the best freakin' sleep in a long time.

i had two REALLY good dreams that i can still almost remember clearly. now that i think about it, i can see what kinda thoughts my brain was having...my worries, desires, and even what kind of relationships i have with people. anyways, i was rudely awakened by mills high school students who got school cancelled b/c their power went out. man, so many blackouts all over the san mateo county. you don't understand how many people have told me about fallen trees and leaks in their houses b/c of this cursed weather.

so i'm chillin' at hillsdale and i receive a phone call from my mom....

me: hello?
mom: where exactly did you go last night?
me: um, i went to go pick up justin and went to Denny's.
mom: the carpets in our car are all wet. what happened?!

stupid floods.

earlier today, cj came over and i gave him his x-mas gift: JDRAZOR! i received my expected reaction. complaints with alotta smiles. "what am i supposed to do with this?! you are so gay! you always get me things that you like for yourself. why are you so gay?! don't you know it snows in Cornell til may? you are such a homo!" and so forth. no worries. i know he likes it. it's his own way of telling me thanks. you're welcome dude.

Thought of the Day: Rain rain go away.
Song of the Day: No Use For A Name-Why Doesn't Anybody Like Me

last night, i tried to teach olivia how to shoot pool. the poor thing told me she had never played pool in her life! 17 years old and never touched a pool stick. man, such deprivation. anyways, we got the rules and the basics down. at least she knows how to hold the darn thing now. haha.

olivia: don't you need to be muscular to shoot pool?
me: no. pool is not a sport. it's a game. even you can play.

so after i dropped her off, i gave her the x-mas gift i got her but later found out that it shattered during some part of the trip. guilt trip and apologies. what a waste.

i went to yg service today b/c i was just too tired to go to the college one. i really enjoyed PJ's message about how God works in our good AND bad situations. i mean, we already know this stuff but it's always encouraging to hear it again. but it was kinda discouraging to see that alot of the senior girls were missing. gosh, what a bad trend. anyways, i also got my criticism for my hair and clothes. irvine this, irvine that! la this, la that! *sigh* you jealous northerners. =D

Thought of the Day: CJ's coming tonight!
Song of the Day: LFO-Girl On TV

oh yeah, i always forget to write about this...

the rumors are true! students actually "streak" during finals week!
(streak = running around outside butt naked).

last night...

so since minh do was done with his finals, he had a strong desire to drink that night. so he invited over a "few friends," which ended up turning our hall into a party with over 20 people. it's pretty boring when everyone's "having fun" and you're the only one that's fighting the temptations. but i guess it's a good lesson for me for future experiences. i mean, overcoming temptations do make us stronger in the end right? but anyways, homeboy drank soooooo much last night. beer after beer after beer. then came the best part: BLAHEAU!!! first time seeing minh do throw up and look sick. but it's fun seeing him intoxicated. running around, making people drink, yelling and always smiling. DO MAH!

driving up home wasn't as bad i thought it would. i was asleep more than half the time and i got to sit shotgun the whole ride. so we're driving on highway 5 and as soon as we hit 151, it's starts raining. then it starts to get really really windy. naomi was driving a heavy jeep full of bags and people, but had no rear view...in a very windy and wet situation. scary stuff. solution? fall asleep fa sho!

man, coming back home was quite welcoming. a few lightning bolts here and a loud thunder there. man, it's pretty cold up here. i wish i was in irvine...

me: dang man, there's like lightning and thunder and rain! it's so gay.
minh: oh really?! dude, it's so nice out here.

it's official. there's no such thing as winter in so. cal.

Thought of the Day: "HECKA"?!
Song of the Day: DJ Sammy & Yanou-Heaven Piano Acapella Mix

me: omg! i got an A!
everyone: oh wow! cool!
me: oh wait. nevermind, i got a B.
everyone: ahahahahahahaha.

i was originally expecting a B but i felt pretty good about yesterday's final. as it turns out, of all the tests i took in that class, i did the worst on my final. 5 pts. away from an A. ugh. i was a little disappointed at first but i'm gradually feeling more and more content...or should i say indifferent? but it's all good. school is over and i have over 3 weeks of winter fun! alotta people have already gone home so it's becoming more and more quiet in the dorms. but as long as i have J, minh, and annie to chill with, it should be alrite at Grey Havens. today is the day to chill. tomorrow is the day to pack.

but speaking of packing, i'll be in a jeep packed with 3 girls, dykas, and alotta bags...for 8 hours on saturday?! oh the misery. the injustice!

Thought of the Day: This is how we do it and it's Thursday night!
Song of the Day: Avril Lavigne-Complicated

my first quarter in college is officially complete. i took my last final today which actually seemed a little too easy. it's kinda weird how i tend to stress during midterms but during finals, i am sooooo chill. J knows. bunz knows. simon knows. and the best part is that i'm not going home til sat.! i get to hang out with my irvine buddies for a few days w/o any studying to do! man, how sweet is that? but speaking of sweet, i got another x-mas gift today...

(coming back from finals).
me: i'm a free man!
minh: notice anything different about our room?
me: no. oh wait! what's that?!
minh: annie got us gifts.
me: all of that?!
minh: open yours!
me: *gasp*

annie got me a freakin' UCI sweater! gosh, she also went out of her way to write a card. i feel kinda bad cause minh and i just got her some stupid lotion. ugh. philburt says thank you to annie chung. awesome...size is perfect too!

Thought of the Day: Time to relaaaaaaaaaaaaaaze.
Song of the Day: Blink 182-I Won't Be Home For Christmas

i wanna first start off by welcoming my friends, Connie and J, to the blogging community.
J: much thanks for the kind words. your company is always a joy to our room.

after sharing a few song recommendations with my friend, annie chung, she encouraged me to download a few songs myself. Finch and No Use For A Name. freakin' dope. this moved me to find out about the remaining mysteries of Boxcar Racer and New Found Glory. *drool* what hidden treasures! i'm in that alternative mood or phase again. loud headbanging ear pleasure!

yesterday was supposed to be my studying day for my psych. final. what was supposed to be at least 4 hours of studying got cut in half...

david: what the hell?! what are you doing fool?!
me: playing cards.
david: you aren't studying?!
me: nope. i just finished wrapping my x-mas gifts and i'm just chillin'.
david: dang, i studied more than you last time and you still did better than me!
me: dude, just chill. you're stressing out.
david: yeah, i think i'd better go wrap some x-mas presents.

eh, playing Frustration outside in the halls is so much more fun than reading about Language Development.

well, i was actually planning on studying at night but we ended up exchanging our x-mas gifts in our suite b/c minh do wanted to get it out of the way. it was pretty fun exchanging gifts with everyone. i was happy that minh was happy with my gift, new speakers for his computer. i got some pajama pants from willburt and connie and a $5 thing for In N' Out from Mindy and Natalie. it was actually kinda funny cause minh and i were just eating dinner and we see Natalie...

natalie: hey guys! i'm going to stop by Grey Havens later to give you your gifts.
(she leaves).
me: DUDE, SHE GOT US SOMETHING! WE NEED TO GET HER SOMETHING BEFORE SHE COMES INTO OUR DORM!

so we hurry back to our place and burn a cd for Natalie and Mindy. then annie unexpectedly comes over and we make her decorate the cds. SUCCESS! they love it!

today...

i was supposed to be in bed by 2 last night but i ended up sleeping after 3:30. i took my psych. final and felt like i could have done so much better. but like my friend's email says, "C is for cookie and that's good enough for me." haha.

Thought of the Day: One down. One to go.
Song of the Day: New Found Glory-Never Ending Story Theme Song

it is officially finals week in the UC campuses. a week of staying up, stress, and study. however, i don't quite fall under the last two S's. yes, i do stay up, but i replace stress and studying with playing cards and listening to music. i see students studying really late at night in the studyrooms as i stroll around outside on minh's scooter. haha. what am i doing?! man, my roommate influences me alot..the way i talk, play, eat, and sleep.

me: minh, you're such a bad influence. what kind of roommate are you?!
minh: THE BEST!

Avril Lavigne to Good Charlotte. i thought they were just another one of those wannabe groups that only last for 1 album, but i decided to give them a chance after hearing Lifestyles of the Rich and Famous. man, i've come to realize that alotta groups are similar to one another but they're all unique in their own different way. Good Charlotte is awesome. just awesome.

today, i finally got a chance to talk to my friend about God. man, it has seriously been a while since i've tried evangelizing to anyone. it was a long chat but it was good. of course, it wasn't exactly the most pleasant or easiest conversation. it's just like any other time i talk to people about God....it's frustrating, confusing, and difficult. but i tried my best to answer and clarify any questions that my friend had. my presentation wasn't so great but may God be pleased with my efforts. people don't change people. God does.

Thought of the Day: Stomachache.
Song of the Day: Nemo-Goldfish Song (hahahahahah.)

yesterday, i got about 62.5% of my x-mas shopping done and it only took me 3 hours! i feel like i'm getting better and better at choosing gifts and managing my money. well, i'm actually still working on the over-spending...especially on gifts for myself. yeah!!! so according to my calculations, i'll be spending $300 instead of $200. i know this is bad, but i suppose this could always be worse, right? oh, and if you don't get a gift from me this year, it was probably b/c you weren't that nice to me. i have my own checklist called NICE THINGS THAT PEOPLE DO FOR ME. the top 10% will receive gifts. the remaining 90% should not even expect to receive a card. yeah, sometimes life just isn't fair.

last night, i played blackjack for hits with minh, janet, and annie. i usually suck at cards but i was lucking out like crazy last night. everytime i won, i went all out on minh's arm. i must have won 15 while my poor roommate won 3. we had to stop b/c his arm was starting to look like it was chewed up by a dog. but the fun didn't stop there...

i haven't gambled with cards in a really long time. i think the last time i played for money was when i was in 8th grade. man, that was a long time ago. i remember playing matt ji for pushups and i remember ending up with like over 200 pushups. in otherwords, i was destined to stay away from places like Las Vegas or Tahoe. but i felt really lucky tonight so we all decided to play with our laundry money. towards the end, i ended up winning 3 dollars from minh...which is kind of alot if you're playing with quarters! but the last game, i decided to make it a little more exciting and put in all 3 dollars. my roommate who was seriously playing like crap the whole night got a blackjack and won all of our money. so i ended up not gaining or losing any of my money. gosh, gambling is alot of fun! i can see how people can make it an idol but i can also see how people can just enjoy gambling for the sake of having fun. and of course, winning is always cool.

Thought of the Day: Last lecture of 2002!
Song of the Day: Wheesung-A Bad Dream

it's funny how i told myself i was going to do some crazy studying this week, starting with monday? however, my decisions turned to start with tues...then wed...then sat...and after finding out my psych. final isn't cummulative, i'm pretty sure i'm going to have to once again postpone my diligence to perhaps something like the day before the final? =D so it'll be like taking another midterm only it'll be worth a few more points. monday, i have no class so i'll just cram. tuesday, i'll have nothing after the pysch. final so i'll cram again that night for my next day's bio. MINH DO STYLE! *sigh* i know i ought to be disappointed in myself but i feel somewhat proud that i can pull off such indolence. haha. the upperclassmen tell me and dykas to not slack off but i feel a sense of pride when they look at their procrastinating youth. afterall, this IS my last weekend in Irvine before i have to go back up north. i definitely want to spend x-mas with my dormmates so i'll just make the best of my days that i should be studying. (simon, i know what you're thinking. just close the mouth and accept my lifestyle).

last night, i made my x-mas shopping list which consists a total of 15 people? this is alot better compared to my annual 20+. and b/c i don't work anymore, i'll have to be extra stingy with my gifts, especially on people like CJ (who ask for gay expensive things like Prada?!). this year, my x-mas budget has shrunk from a usual $500+ to a maximal $200. even though i don't know my dormmates THAT well, i'm happy to find myself picking out appropriate gifts at an appropriate price. gosh, notice how i relate every gift/person to money? man, this is seriously a korean thing. korean people are oh so cheap! i mean, my actions aren't so blunt about it but deep down inside, i know i'm counting every penny. why am i like this?! but i guess that's just our sinful nature. i heard that the richer you are, the cheaper you become...but the poorer you are, the more generous you tend to be. yes, it is definitely true. but of course this doesn't hold for all people. it's just the general trend or pattern that we see. anyways, my original point was supposed to be about how my x-mas shopping isn't so bad this year but it somehow turned into something about korean people being a Scrooge. oh well, enjoy your shopping everyone!

Thought of the Day: Merry Shopping!
Song of the Day: Cherry Filter-Sweet Little Kitty

i absolutely abhor siging up for classes! i remember when i first got the Schedule of Classes for winter quarter. i picked out all of my desired classes so that everything fit nice and snug into my comfortable schedule. you would think that finding out about your enrollment window and signing up early would get you all the classes at the right times. um..a big fat NO! it just doesn't work that way. classes fill up super duper fast. gosh, i can just imagine what it would be like if students had to sign up at a certain place at school rather than going online. people would be running, screaming, pulling, pushing, throwing, kicking, and perhaps even biting each other just to sign up for a class. thank goodness we have telephones and the internet. however, what classes am i left with? well, if i'm lucky i just might be able to squeeze into the waiting list. however, in most cases i'm forced to choose a different class, which most likely is already filled up, then another class, then another, and another...until i finally give up and go to my blogger and start ranting about the injustice.

me: i'm just a small freshmen that wants to get into Bio 10. is that so much to ask for?
uci system: IT IS TOO MUCH TO ASK FOR! MOVE TO BIO 45! THAT CLASS IS BORING AND EMPTY. YOU EITHER ADD THAT CLASS OR DIE!!!
me: *sniff* yessir.

well, at least dorm life is still really fun. we do the dumbest things but they seem to be funnest things we can think of...

1. blackjack for quarters.
2. punching each other's arms.
3. punching each other's stomachs.
4. racing down the halls with Razors.
5. flipping onto my bunk.
6. flipping off of my bunk.
7. hanging from my bunk.
8. jumping onto my bunk.
9. watching "one episode" of GTO.
10. helping bunz and annie with their final project.

willburt: highfive highfive! (runs away). LOSER LOSER!

Thought of the Day: Winter Quarter is going to be gay.
Song of the Day: Brown Eyes-For You

dude, the weather is sooooooo nice over here! i don't need to wear any stupid sweaters or put on warm socks as soon as i wake up. it's supposed to be winter but it still feels like late summer over here...

i went into mindy's dorm today and i was left speechless. she lives in a phase 1, which is supposed to be the crappiest dorms at Middle Earth. however, her floor was transformed into something awesome. mindy's roommate, natalie, decorated their living room with a whole buncha x-mas stuff and their room is polluted with posters and pictures on the walls. i mean, i've seen some pretty creative decorations in my day but this is by far the dopest of them all. it makes my room feel really naked. it makes bunz's room look like a joke. haha. it's ok though. i guess it's a girl thing and i am obviously no girl, right?

phuuuu! finals are next week. so much studying to do. i'm actually going to try to study little by little everyday instead of my usual cramming style. but after finals, i get to chill like crazy. that's the great thing about quarter system. after finals, you're completely done with that class. no hw. no projects. you're done. so when you break, you BREAK! you can enjoy winter break as if it was a short summer vacation. spring break will be the same too. gosh, all i want is a B in psych. and bio. A is unrealistic. C is just crap.

Thought of the Day: Anti-social.
Song of the Day: Juvenile-Back That Ass Up

8.5 hours is a long time in a car...

my thanksgiving break wasn't as great as i thought it would be. not a single bite of turkey. too many moments of boredom in my room. seeing my friends didn't seem like a big deal either. i don't know. what exactly was i suppposed to expect? well, let's see the flipside or the more optimistic version of the story.

i went to Stonestown with kevin just cause we were so bored. however, shopping was actually fun cause we ended up buying lots of clothes that had prices too good to be true. you can definitely feel the christmas season finally kicking in with all of its gay songs and x-mas trees in every corner of each store. it's cool though. i like it but i don't like it. it's like you like the x-mas feeling but at the same time you feel that it's really annoying and overdone, right? it's like you can't wait to get a whole buncha presents from everyone but you remember that you also have to a part of this x-mas exchanging garbage. why can't i just receive? why do i need to give too? i'm a poor college student fool! i wanna buy stuff for myself! it doesn't say anywhere in the Bible that receiving is a sin does it?
note: this story isn't going anywhere.

but after shopping, we met up with the boys and went to Serra Bowl. it was good seeing everyone again. not much changes. just a few pounds here and there and everyone sporting their college gear. ah yes, and the reactions to my beloved hair. "phil looks like a korean back-dancer!" "you're gonna go bald phil!" yeahyeah. thanks everyone. i love you too guys.

at night, i went to GE again and met up with two of my beloved friends ("saekki" and "bastard"). it was weird seeing them. proud yet disappointed. confused yet apathetic. pissed yet happy? no scratch that last one. it's hard to put such emotions into proper words. i don't know. you guys are growing up so late. i started growing up in freshmen year. haha. ambiguous no? let's keep it that way.

basketball was pretty fun. i sucked like a mother but it was still fun.

pat: what?! you can't let matt make those!

hahahahahahaha.

dinner was crap. i never want to go to Macaroni Grill again. we waited too long and the food wasn't even that great. i've had better pasta from canned ravioli. with the amount of money we spent that night, we should've just gone all out at a korean restaurant. stupid pat, always making the gayest plans!

noraebang wasn't that great either. it seems like we have less and less fun everytime we go. not everyone sings. alot of pity cheering. not so much joking and laughing. what's going on? are we getting too old for this stuff? is there too much shame in the game? 2 hours = 100 bucks. 13 people. you do the math.

over the break, i saw alot of people who i haven't seen in a long time. some people got pretty freakin' fat. some became miraculously thin! so much fluctuation in the physical world amongst my relationships with people. i guess i'm doing fairly decent so far. 2 months = 2 pounds. if this keeps up, i should have gained only 9 pounds out of the traditional 15 by the end of the year. but then again, exponential curves start out pretty slow in the beginning too. hmmmm...today's 3 cheeseburgers at In N' Out won't be much help either. but i guess if it tastes good, you just gotta let it pass right?

i did alot of pondering in the car today. lots of "conflict" going on in my life. a whole buncha thoughts on "should's" and "shouldn't's." so much thinking. just so much. but that all ended when i finally arrived to my beloved IRVINE! man, i never realized how much i really missed irvine. it's good seeing minh do again. it's good seeing willburt again. heck, it was even nice seeing henry again! lol. and of course, my sleeping schedule automatically changes again. up north, 1am is normal. down south, 5am is normal.

man, what a disorganized random story. really sucks. if i were a teacher, i'd give this crap a C-!

Thought of the Day: Praise God I'm back!
Song of the Day: Avalon-Testify To Love

this morning...

simon: phil, do you still feel like turkey and mashed potatoes?
me: um, kinda. why?! do we have some?!
simon: no. i was just asking.
me: stupid idiot.

last night, unlike all of you americanized bastards, me and my family had korean food. well, actually it wasn't even my whole family. just me and simon cause my mom went to go eat with her friends. it's alrite though. Thanksgiving really is no biggie in our family. it's just another holiday for us where all the stores are closed and there's nothing good on tv. unfortunately, last night was the only time i was craving for thanksgiving food for some mysterious reason. i had already eaten 3 thanksgiving meals at irvine and i was pretty sick of turkey and such. but after watching Friends and Will and Grace, my stomach was encouraging me to indulge in some gravy.

rewind...

the drive up north took me over 8 hours b/c of 2 hours stuck in LA traffic. man, that is one tough cookie! but after leaving around 8, we finally got home a little after 4 in the morning. i woke up around 12 in the afternoon, and said hi to mom and simon. she gives me the "dyeing your hair again" lecture, but my presence overcomes her disappointment.

mother's cooking is always a gift from heaven. nothing can compare to such a meal. no doubt man! anyways, after some time spent in sitting and starting at the wall, i played some chess with simon and went to GE with jonna and yumi. after a little over 2 hours, we went home and ate my acceptible thanksgiving dinner with simon. food coma and boredom caused my day to cease at 9pm. yesterday was alot more boring than "relazing" (funny how i always type that in even though i try to type in "relaxing.").

play...

so i woke up at 9am today...exactly 12 hours of sleep all at one time. i feel pretty refreshed, but a little sad that the sky in millbrae is so much cooler than the sky in irvine. in fact, i already put on my sweater and my windbreakers. it's FUR-EEZIN'!!! but speaking of irvine, i already miss it. i already miss almost everyone in my hall. i KINDA feel like eating some dorm food and i have this burning desire to hug my computer! simon's computer sucks like ISH!

but since there's nothing to do so early in the morning, i just might crack open my psych. book and catch up on my reading. then after some lunch with the family, i hope to meet up with the boys and play some ball. chill. eat dinner. chill. noraebang! *shrug* we'll see wassup.

Thought of the Day: The white is slowly turning blue!
Song of the Day: Anything but Chakra 3!

yesterday was one of the most unproductive days i've ever had at irvine, but i think one of the more memorable ones. it was like a typical dorm life night. eating cupnoodles, popcorn, and redvines at 12. starting another movie on my computer. random people just coming in to watch. it's great. dorm life is bomb dude.

will: norman made my day by saying Happy Thanksgiving to me.
me: wow, that's so cool! Happy Thanksgiving Willburt.
will: Happy Thanksgiving Philburt.

everyone in the dorms are pretty happy about going home today. there's only a few of us left in our hall. i still have to go to one more class, eat dinner, take a shower, pack up, and off i go to eat some more dinner!

tiff-hey butthole! i am no longer in youth group. i am a college student. and not just ANY college! we're talking prestigious here! we're talking top of the line meat! UCI! zot zot zot!!! go anteaters! riverside sucks!

Thought of the Day: I'm going home today!
Song of the Day: FF X-Julie's Piano Solo

i was reading tiff's blog and noticed that gary's blog was under the "yummy blogs" category. in the past, i only remember seeing a whole bunch of I LOVE YOU!'s to his gf and lots of GOD IS GOOD ALL THE TIME!'s. this is why i stopped reading his blog for quite a while. so assuming "yummy blogs" are fairly decent blogs to read, i thought that gary might have added some spice to his online journal. *sigh* unfortunately, it looks like he's just added more mud. man, reading that one post where he writes his 1 billion "I MISS YOU BABE!!!'s" made me think of only one word. IDOLATRY. then of course, he adds his GOD IS GOOD stuff here and there. i don't know man. it doesn't seem like it makes any sense. it sounds more like I LOVE GOD! I LOVE MY GF EVEN MORE! but i know his blog is HIS journal and if i have a problem with it, then it's my problem. but i guess what got me all started on the matter was the fact that his blog was under the "yummy blogs." so now, i'm assuming that my initial assumption was a terrible assumption. clarification anyone?

Take the test, by Emily.

i like the test but i dislike the results.

Thought of the Day: I hope I do my laundry tonight.
Song of the Day: Good Charlotte-Lifestyles of the Rich and the Famous

irvine's weather decided to take a twisted turn today with a very very windy windy day day. it's really weird b/c it's still really warm outside. it's windy like a winter in Daly City but warm like a spring in Millbrae. it actually feels kinda cool b/c it feels like you're walking around in a big warm bubble but there's a nice giant fan keeping you cool at the same time. the only negative is that little pieces of leaves constantly get into your eyes. those tiny bastards!

so last night, minh and will found out about my world famous blog...all b/c stupid olivia was talking to minh online. but i guess it's no big deal having them read my "diary." supposedly, these guys are going to start one too but i don't know. these guys don't seem up for the challenge. it's kinda like salvation. true writers aren't always consistent but they always come back to blog. however, the pseudo-writers just start, self-sham theirselves into thinking that they're a blogger, and they stop writing after a few weeks or months. haha. what a dumb analogy. but i'm too lazy to erase it.

man, my sleeping schedule is seriously all retarded now. i take naps at like around 3 or 4 in the afternoon for about 3 hours and then go to sleep around 5. i can't believe simon goes to bed around 12. that's like when me and my dormmates start to watch a movie or take a shower. last night, i went to bed at 5:45 b/c minh and i decided to rearrange our room again for the 230,384th time! we realized that having the fridge in the corner b/w our desks was just too uncomfortable so we moved both of our dressers and my bed. i think this arrangement is a keeper. please God, no more!!! cause us to be content with our circumstances. hehe.

before all of that worthwhile labor, minh brought some bleach from home. i was bored so i decided to put some streaks in my hair. what was supposed to turn into streaks actually led to my whole head turning a bright yellow. i was a bit displeased last night cause it looked so different, but i'm getting more and more used to it. also, alot of people have been telling me that it looks nice or cool. so i guess it looks nice or cool. man, my mom's going to disown me when she sees my hair.

i'm so happy that i found out about DC++ (in your face dykas!). i can finally dl at speeds that are beyond appropriate. i can dl at like over 900kb/sec, which means i can finish songs in less than 10 seconds and finish movies within 10 minutes. niiiiiice.

man, i'm really excited about thanksgiving break. i've been thinking about it every single day. good korean food. chess with simon. driving to GE with jonna. ball and noraebang with the boys. yeah, i really feel like i need this break. not exactly to run away from my problems but to just chill for a while you know? spend some quality time with good ol' Burlingame. man, but the drive up north is going to be a bastard. it really is quite unpleasant and uncomfortable, especially if it's not you that's driving (no terrance i do not want to drive). the only other bad thing about going up north is that i'll be missing ken's party. man, it sounds like so much fun! eh, it'll be worth missing.

Green Day to Weezer to Blink 182 to Jimmy Eat World to Avril Lavigne. this is one cool chick. great album!

Thought of the Day: Autumn Fairytale.
Song of the Day: Avril Lavigne-Complicated

I'm a Pina Colada, discover your ALcoHoLiC personality!

i haven't felt so good going to church in a long time. i think how you look at church is a good indicator of how you're doing in your spiritual walk with God. i believe that those who enjoy worshipping God are those that are strong in their walk. i believe those those who do not enjoy worship are those who are living their lives apart from God. now, i'm not saying i don't live this awesome holy life just b/c i really enjoyed worship today. i just feel that yesterday's prayer was a genuine prayer and i feel that i am once again at peace with God. so in a sense, i guess it's a kick start for me. another clean slate that i ought to keep clean. man, worshipping God is true happiness.

today in Bible Study, we were going over the 10 Commandments and putting them to application. when we came upon the commandment of not murdering, i felt like this was totally irrelevant to me. how can i, a young and innocent christian boy, ever murder someone? but we got into the specifics of how the heart is the real deal. if you have hatred towards a brother, that's the same as murdering him. instead of hating, we ought to love...pray for him, encourage him, correct him, etc.. i was thinking about this and i thought of one person who i really dislike in my life. everytime i think about him, i get really angry and just want to tae bo his face. however, after giving it some thought i realized that i had totally erased the idea of "loving your enemies." i had never in my mind thought of even praying for this fool. i'm going to try to "love" him from now on. it's going to be freakin' difficult but i gotta do what i gotta do.
note: this person that i is dislike is not justin jang. i've already learned to love that bastard.

Thought of the Day: Highlights?
Song of the Day: Avril Lavinge-Losing Grip

man, my so called brain is just overwhelmed with thoughts. "write about that! no, don't write about that! that'd be funny. nono, that'll be inappropriate!" let's see where my thoughts take us...

you know, alotta people have been commenting about my blogs, about how college life sounds really fun and just chill. in many ways, YES! college life is seriously so much fun. lots of good times. but what you readers are forgetting is that there is always a flipside in all these things. there is much pain and suffering in my life as well. ok, that came out a bit strong...not THAT bad! haha. but my life does have its downs. lots of downs actually. a good example is my spiritual life.

i go to a pretty strong church with lots of good theology and fellowship. it's a really great place to grow in your walk with God i believe. however, just b/c you got the right tools does not mean that you are going to build the prettiest doghouse. in fact, i think my doghouse looks like ISH! it's freakin' garbage. so much hypocrisy. lots of inconsistency. no commitment you know? it wasn't until today that i finally got another good slap in the face from God. i was totally lacking discipline and i had become quite spoiled. i fell. i could not get back up. but today, i cried out to God again. it had been a while. haven't had a serious prayer in God knows how long! man, Hebrews 12 is seriously the most encouraging stuff out there. even though we fall away, God will always bring his true sons back. man, that's grace. that's mercy. that's dope. fudge.

man, you REALLY grow up in college. when i read the blogs of high school students, they seem so young and immature. i'm sure i've already talked about this but it once again just hit me on the head pretty hard. i feel so much older these days. last night, i went to go watch Die Another Day and minh brought some of his friends who were still in high school. they're so different. so naive. so ignorant. but that's life i guess. there's always someone who's older than you. afterall, i'm just a dumb inexperienced freshmen myself right? i have yet to be done with this college crap.

cj: dude, jomo won't put me on the BCS ranking! it's so gay! but he said he said that you're pretty close from getting kicked off.
me: yeah. i don't really care though. it's stupid.
cj: yeah. who cares.

notice how cj and i are totally different but we still click quite well. i was on the BCS ranking. he was not. but in the end, we were totally indifferent about it. i guess you can call this a response to his blog: One Voice-Thru It All. dl this song homo. i've been listening to this crap for the past 2 hours now. it's dedicated to your gay self. (and yes, Buff Homo is even buffer than ever!).

man, i am sooooooo chillaxin' right now. it's great. the perfect word. chillin' + relax = chillaxin'

Thought of the Day: No more drinking.
Song of the Day: One Voice-Thru It All.

i had my first late night talk with minh last night. he was teling me about alotta stuff on drugs, sex, and girls. this fool is really educated in this area! he knows so much crap that i never even heard of. it was quite a moment of "bonding." he's a good guy though. but earlier today...

minh: yeah, i went to the housing office today. i have to move out by dec. 10.
me: what?! are you serious?
minh: yeah.
me: so this is for sure? you're moving out?
minh: fa sho.
me: dang. man, that really sucks.
(10 min. later...)
minh: hey, i was just messing with you fool.
me: what're you talking about?
minh: i don't have to move out.
me: REALLY?!
minh: yeah.
me: YES!!!

thank you LORD!

random thought: as opposed to CJ's really cold weather, Irvine has been REALLY hot for almost the past 2 weeks. i seriously feel no sense of Fall over here. feels like summer all year round. so. cal weather is the best. shorts all year round!

Thought of the Day: I can't believe I lost my appetite.
Song of the Day: Whyte Shadow-You Are The One DJ Tinment's Mix

just a little earlier...

minh: did you ever find the cup noodle?
(minh had already eaten it upstairs).
will: nope. never found it.

"cause i got what it takes to rock the mic right yeah!"

i experienced my very first live freestyle battle at irvine! after i was done shooting pool, dykas told me there was this cool battle going on so i went to go check it out, thinking it was a buncha guys breakdancing. as it turned out, there was this huge crowd with two guys busting flows right and left. man, these guys weren't weak sauce either. they were really creative and honestly full of humor.

"man, you so ugly you causin' a scene! yo, don't you know it ain't even halloween?"

haha. that's the only one i remember. but there were alotta good rhymes. lots of cheering. lots of laughing.

after i took a shower today, will wanted to cook a cup noodle in my room with our microwave. but after the water was done, minh came in and accidently kicked the cup and spilled all the water.

will: dang foo! what the hell?!
minh: dude! you spilled it!
will: dude, you kicked the cup!

will goes to get some more water. minh sees the cup noodle and decides to hide it in his closet b/c he is hungry.

will: where's my cup noodle?
(minh leaves room).
me: i don't know man.
will: what the hell?! where's my kimchee noodle?!
me: ahahahhahaha. i don't know man.
(running around the halls asking every single person).
will: c'mon phil. where is it man?
me: i don't know.
will: dude, i KNOW minh stole it! that *&(*!
(talks to minh for a while).
me: ahahahahahahahhahaha.
will: why you laughing fool?
me: cause it's so funny how you just lost your cup noodle.
minh: yeah foo. you clumsy!
will: where is it fool?!
minh: i don't know man!
(minh leaves room again).

so this goes on for a good 15 min.. all these accusations, running around, laughing, cussing, etc.. then will sees minh heating up some water.

will: why the hell you heating that water up foo!?
(minh runs away and tries to close our door. will pushes the door and minh lets him in).
minh: what fool? i just wanna heat up some water!
will: shuttup fool! you have my cup noodle!
minh: i don't man! i just want some warm water!

as this goes on for a little bit, i'm sitting in my chair, laughing my freakin' head off! it's like the most hilarious scene. you have to know the history b/w these guys first though. cause you see, will and minh always steal each other's stuff, hide it, eat it, whatever. they punch each other, run away giggling, closing the door. they go into each other's rooms and mess around on the computer, giving them a bad image online. it's really a humorous chemistry that they have. but tonight's event has to be the most funniest event so far. but this one time, minh hid will's shampoo so he couldn't take a shower. after alotta accusations and complaining, will sees minh using his shampoo.

minh: i have the same shampoo as you fool!

ahahahahahah. and yeah, you can figure out the rest.

dorm life is great. i love my dormmates. funniest idiots in the world.

Thought of the Day: Breakbeats are dope.
Song of the Day: DJ Icey - Not a Test Scratchin' Breakbeat Mix

oh my! what the! another post?!

so i was doing some reflecting today and out of nowhere popped up my lovelife. bam! phil chung's lovelife. what a mysterious thing. what a dangerous thing. what an interesting thing! i don't know, i haven't really thought about anyone in my mind for a while...like i've been emotionally numb to girls for God knows how long. but lately, for some reason i've been getting these small crushes. let me say that word again. CRUSHES. not one. but actually two! it's a really weird feeling, liking two different girls at the same time. two totally different girls. one is very sociable and fun to talk to. she's really nice...like gf material nice, which is probably why she's still going out with her bf in Santa Barbara. the other one is really quiet. she seems like the innocent type but the whole world knows she can drink like crazy. it's all these small things about her that make her seem cute though. very hard to explain. and the unfortunate thing is that they're both non-christian. what's gotten into me? and of course, when there's crushes involved, your amygdala stimulates random intervals of depression.

but that leads me to another source of depression. my roommate is most likely going to be moving out after this quarter. his family cannot support him financially and his fafsa just doesn't take care of it. it's really gay. if he goes, i'll probably get a new roommate that was on the waiting list. no more of our little parties. no more watching movies together. gosh, he was seriously the best roommate anyone could ask for. he always gave people food. he bought people drinks. he practically let anyone sleep in his bed. we both listened to the same type of music. he always brought me back food. he always encouraged me to workout. he's one of those REALLY nice guys that you rarely meet. me and my other dormmates were talking about it too. we're all depressed about it. gosh, it feels like a close buddy of yours is moving away. it's really depressing.

you know, it's funny how i thought irvine was totally not what people would expect it to be. UC Irvine has this image of being a "party school," "University of Civics and Integras," "University of Chinese Immigrants," "the school with all the girls," or basically a place where christians will struggle b/c of it's worldliness. well, my first month here was totally not what i expected. i mean, YES it is a school polluted with too many asians. YES it is a school with so many evil looking pretty girls. HOWEVER, i did not think it was a party school! i am slowly realizing that this school, that has been verbally abused by many, really is starting to reveal all of its truths.

the past few days have been full of parties in my room, hosted by my one and only Minh Do (mah!). it can get really uncomfortable like no other...cramming 15+ people in a triple room that is actually the size of a double. random people, blazing, drinking, and talking til like 5 or 6 in the morning while i'm trying to get just a BIT of shut eye! i can't express the bitterness, the rage, the WRATH that phil chung was feeling this morning! those blasted ear plugs just don't do their job. i felt really bad for my japanese roommate cause he goes to bed at like 12 and that's like when the party got started. but this morning...

me: hey kiyoshi. how did you sleep? did you sleep well?
kiyoshi: yeah.
me: really? are you serious?
kiyoshi: yeah, don't worry.
me: oh ok. (lucky weird bastard).

but last night's meteor shower was really dope. a whole bunch of us went outside at like 3 in the morning, just lying down on our grassy hill and just looking at all the stars passing by. "WOAH!" "HEY, DID YOU SEE THAT ONE?!" "WOAH!!!"

jack: dude, this is like such a cool time of bonding! so how were your days?
random guy: man shuttup!

ahahahahahhaha.

i was in denial of CJ's rants at first, but after some close observation, i have confirmed that i now have a so. cal accent. i talk pretty much like any other stupid southern californian with some of that "chill" slang and retarded pronunciation.
for example...
before irvine: "later."
after irvine: "lateer."

before irvine: "that's like..."
after irvine: "das like..."

i don't know. i can't really write out how i pronounce my speech but if you hear it, you'll definitely be able to point it out. but i guess it's really subtle...i mean, even dykas and terrance can't tell...i think.

well, i finally cut my freakin' hair! after 2 months of not a single haircut, it was the longest i've ever had my hair. i was going to wait til thanksgiving and go to Ceci cause she's like the only person that knows how i want my hair cut. but apparently, desperation got the best of me and i asked one of my hallmates, will, to cut my hair. well, he gave me one of those "badboy" haircuts where they cut almost everything off except the bangs. i wasn't too comfortable with it at first but i'm getting used to it on my second day. and besides, my head no longer looks like it's secretly growing a tree with the ugliest leaves. AND, it was free right?!

after talking to some people last night, i find it really sad how some people live their lives. alot of them were either dropouts or already dropped out. all they do is "chill" (blaze and/or drink). they don't go home b/c they hate their family. they find security in their friends, who are most of the time undependable. it's really sad. it really comes to show how much more we need Christ in our lives.

today, my Clusters group is having a big Thanksgiving dinner! woohoo! all this free food and none of the freshmen have to prepare anything! haha, it's more like a Thanks-RECEIVING dinner to me, but it's all good in the hood.

Thought of the Day: It's all gravy. Literally.
Song of the Day: Eve-Feeling You

man, i can't believe i haven't blogged in over a week! apparently, so much has happened every single day since nov. 8. there was absolutely no opportunity for me to blog in the condtions i was in. seeing my BCS ranking fall back 3 pts is a bit discouraging but at the same time, i feel happy that my life actually has some action for once.

so much...

1. B on pysch. midterm.
2. 8 mile with Terrance.
3. Korean food with 2 Riversiders and Dykas.
4. My Sassy Girl twice.
5. Ontario Mills, another copy of Great Mall.
6. Church picnic.
7. B on bio midterm. 1 pt away from an A-. God is being really gracious to me.
8. Magicshows have creepy music. $15 and 3 hours down the drain.
9. "Celebrate" on the phone with CJ.
10. And the "Celebration" continues but ends after 5 Pixie Sticks.

that's what sucks about not writing in your blog for a long time. the best you can do is list out your events but can't go into detail b/c that would either...
1. take an eternity.
2. discourage readers from ever visiting your blog again.
3. reveal some bad things about bad people.
(4. or of course, all of the above!).

gosh, i wonder when the next time i'm going to blog is. it's a mystery.

Thought of the Day: Soooooooooo embarrassing!
Song of the Day: Rage Against The Machine-Renegades Of Funk

man, 2 in the morning. my two roommates are asleep and the others are eating Del Taco in the studyroom. i finally get some privacy!

Simon Says...

AsianXboi56 (6:20:20 PM): chess?
Pretzelboi96 (6:20:29 PM): can't
Pretzelboi96 (6:20:36 PM): i have a midterm tomorrow
Pretzelboi96 (6:20:44 PM): i'm going out to eat tonight at my friend's place
AsianXboi56 (6:20:50 PM): ....
Pretzelboi96 (6:20:53 PM): these 2 girls from church are buying us dinner
AsianXboi56 (6:21:09 PM): you have a midterm though
Pretzelboi96 (6:21:10 PM): and after that, i need to study my head off
AsianXboi56 (6:21:13 PM): doesn't that mean you have to study?
Pretzelboi96 (6:21:26 PM): well, there's this thing called dinner
Pretzelboi96 (6:21:38 PM): and it's usually good to attend to this "dinner"
Pretzelboi96 (6:21:48 PM): so if it's alrite with you, i'm going to eat tonight
Pretzelboi96 (6:21:51 PM): is that ok simon?
AsianXboi56 (6:21:57 PM): lol
AsianXboi56 (6:22:23 PM): why did you say you had a midterm then to me?
AsianXboi56 (6:22:27 PM): why was that one of your reasons
AsianXboi56 (6:22:31 PM): to not to play chess
AsianXboi56 (6:22:50 PM): NEVERMIND
AsianXboi56 (6:22:52 PM): just go eat
Pretzelboi96 (6:22:57 PM): ahahhahahahaha
AsianXboi56 (6:23:07 PM): dang
Pretzelboi96 (6:23:09 PM): stupid simon
AsianXboi56 (6:23:12 PM): can't argue with you at all
Pretzelboi96 (6:23:14 PM): think before you speak
AsianXboi56 (6:23:19 PM): just shut up
Pretzelboi96 (6:23:27 PM): don't be such a baby
AsianXboi56 (6:23:38 PM): ahahahhahaha
AsianXboi56 (6:23:41 PM): your so gay dude
AsianXboi56 (6:23:43 PM): ooooo my
Pretzelboi96 (6:23:51 PM): oooooooo....simon's best comeback
Pretzelboi96 (6:23:56 PM): "shuttup phil!"
Pretzelboi96 (6:24:01 PM): "you're so gay!"
AsianXboi56 (6:24:05 PM): SHUT UP
AsianXboi56 (6:24:06 PM): YOUR GAY
AsianXboi56 (6:24:10 PM): I SAID SHUT UP
Pretzelboi96 (6:24:10 PM): ooooooo
Pretzelboi96 (6:24:15 PM): combo!
AsianXboi56 (6:24:16 PM): OH MY GOSH
AsianXboi56 (6:24:18 PM): your gay
AsianXboi56 (6:24:20 PM): SHUT UP!
Pretzelboi96 (6:24:23 PM): ahahahahaha
Pretzelboi96 (6:24:44 PM): the OH MY GOSH really gives your speech alotta emphasis
Pretzelboi96 (6:24:46 PM): it's good
Pretzelboi96 (6:24:50 PM): makes you sound strong
AsianXboi56 (6:24:51 PM): lol
AsianXboi56 (6:25:09 PM): just go eat your dinner

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Auto response from Pretzelboi96 (11:02:52 PM): midterms = sin's curse
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AsianXboi56 (11:02:55 PM): study again?
AsianXboi56 (11:02:56 PM): crap
AsianXboi56 (11:03:03 PM): i wanna see you study
AsianXboi56 (11:03:05 PM): for an hour
AsianXboi56 (11:03:07 PM): sheesh
AsianXboi56 (11:03:09 PM): never seen that before
AsianXboi56 (11:03:33 PM): oh well
AsianXboi56 (11:03:33 PM): gonna sleep now


midterms...

man, i don't think i've ever studied so much in my life! 8:30-12! i know that sounds like nothing but that's seriously the most i've ever studied at once. it was pretty funny though cause as i was studying...

david: dang nigga! you studying?!
me: yeap.
david: alrite, lemme study with you.

david's a korean guy from the third floor and we're in the same psych. class. he reminds me alot of thomas, christian and really ghetto. but anyways, all that studying really paid off. i think i did pretty well. while i was take tests, i have these conversations with myself with each question...

"alrite, i remember this one. it can't be A, B, or D b/c those are just straight up stupid. but C looks tricky. hmmmm, let's look at A again. wait, you should always stick with your inital feeling of an answer. alrite, i think it's going to be C. ok, thank you God. next question. HA! is this guy kidding me?! this one is soooooo easy! thank you so much God! next question. wait a minute. none of the answers seem to be correct. uhoh. i KNEW i should have read chapter 4!"

but i felt pretty good after i was done. the test only took me 35 min. even though we were given 1 hour and 20 min.. that either means A, i crammed all the right material and knew my stuff, or B, i'm a self-deceived moron who's going to hit an F so hard that i'm going to wish i never came to college. either way, i can't change anything so may God be pleased with my efforts.

pingpong...

i had a really good day in pingpong today. i finally beat lawrence 2 games to 1! i was returning his serves really well and slamming even his slow shots. our last game ended in a 21-10.

lawrence: you know if you lose like that, that means you can't figure out what the other person is doing. you were slamming my serves and you were serving pretty well so i couldn't return well.
me: yeah.
lawrence: ok, you know you play too much pingpong when you start analyzing the game.
me: ahahahahahhaha. yeah.

pool...

i also played really good in pool today, possibly the best i've ever played in my life. i was seriously "on" tonight cause i went around the world 1 2/3 times!

me: dang hideo. calm down japanese guy.
lawrence: ok, japan and korea are doing pretty well tonight. what about China?
(janet hits 8 ball in to win the game).
janet: CHINA!!!!!

chess...

i finally got a chess set from Target today...7 bucks. pretty good. i played against Jack and Minh. man, those guys really suck. of course, i didn't say this in front of them cause i don't like to present myself as the arrogant type unless i know the person pretty well...chang knows. but yes, it's cool winning in everything today.

i just had a really good day today. no more midterm. no hw for the weekend. good lunch. good pingpong. good dinner. good episode of Friends. good pool. good chess. and now, time for some good sleep.

Thought of the Day: Our actions usually reflect our heart.
Song of the Day: 6kies-Fateful Promise

objective: jack one of the 2 seat sofas from one of the buildings in Middle Earth.
purpose: have a room where people can actually have a place to sit down and chill.

attempt 1...
place: Our Study Room
outcome: coming out of the study room with the sofa, an RA catches us and tells us we can't take any furniture out of the study room. 2 of her friends laugh at us.

attempt 2...
place: Rohan.
outcome: living room is on 2nd floor. people watching tv.

attempt 3...
place: Rohan Study Rooms
outcome: all 2 seat sofas have already been jacked. only 3 seat sofas available.

attempt 4...
place: Calmindon
outcome: go to third floor. cross over to next building. look down to 2nd floor living room. too many people. distance is too far. (what were we thinking?!)

attempt 5...
place: Our Living Room on second floor.
outcome: major tension in forearms and brain trauma. success.

our room is really cramped up now, but it is definitely a place to chill. people come into our room all the time so now they have a place to sit down. we replaced the 2 seat sofa with a couch from our study room. we are too smooth!

Thought of the Day: Even Harvard professors can be manipulated.
Song of the Day: Jurassic 5-Break

the month of november has arrived and what a way i spent the weekend to start off the month!

i was supposed to go clubbing on fri. but minh told me that the DJ wasn't getting paid that night so the music was going to suck. minh is my vietnamise roommate. he is one of the most interesting people i have ever met in my life. my roommate BY FAR lives the most hardcore life of the party. all he does is wake up, miss class, eat a lunch at 4pm, works out, watches a movie, drinks/goes to a party, and goes to bed at 6am. haha. i'm afraid that this guy is going to drop out of irvine. but somehow by the grace of God, he still manages to sneak in a few minutes for studying on the night right before midterms, and occasionally does better than his friends (barely passing). haha. he's a really nice guy though. he always buys cup ramens and feeds everyone in our hall late at night. whenever he goes out to eat, he always asks if i want anything. minh is also a very funny person. you see, he talks like a fob and has a habit of adding some vietnamise here and there in his speech. and if you've ever heard vietnamise people talk, it is definitely the funniest language to ever be spoken on this planet. lol. it cracks me up just seeing him sleep right now. last night, he went to bed at 9am, woke up at 3pm, and he just went to bed again an hour ago. minh is officially my new hero....not that i ever had one before.

(CJ has spilled his guts. i have spilled mine. i can't believe he was hiding so much from me).

saturday's freshmen bbq was pretty cool. i got to meet alotta other freshmen from CPC. it's pretty cool b/c it's really diverse, people from LA, SD, *sigh* and yes Riverside, terrance. i like how CPC is a really welcoming church. first, they're REALLY nice to you on your first sunday. second, they have a welcoming dinner for all newcomers. and third, we get a freshmen bbq! and they're really nice everytime they see you too. lots of nice people. God has provided me with an awesome church.

right now, our bible study is going over Reformed Faith. i find it interesting that i am the only one who has studied this in my group. anyways, i was just doing some random pondering and thought about how different the teaching styles of Dennis and Chang were. i mean, gosh dang! chang is so hardcore! haha. like when he teaches something, he TEACHES it! Dennis is good too cause he explains things very simply and easily for unfamiliar students to understand. to break it down...

chang = intellelectual, intense, long
dennis = ghetto, simple, short

but i'm really grateful that i got a chance to be taught by someone crazy like chang. that guy is just this amazing monster...physically and spiritually. haha.

Thought of the Day: "He's" changing me.
Song of the Day: David Crowder-Our Love Is Loud

apologies to all of my faithful readers. everytime i want to blog, some random people just pop into my room and start using my microwave. in fact, half of my blogs are never quite complete. i just kinda have to get to the point, write my Song and Thought of the Day and publish. anyhoo, today is halloween and most of my friends are out so i actually have some time to do some blogging...

yesterday, i found out that my grandmother on my mom's side passed away. simon told me my mom looked really sad so i didn't give her a call. it was really weird when i heard the news. my reaction was very "unreactional." not to sound like a bastard or anything but it was like as if someone told me that tonight's dorm food was horrible. it's very unfortunate but i just swallow it and go on with my life. i wasn't too close with my grandmother...mainly b/c she lived in Korea and i'm over here. another unfortunate fact is that she wasn't christian. well, the way things were looking, i didn't see too much hope for her anyways. it was almost like i already knew she was going to die unsaved. i don't know. i guess i'm really jacked up. i admit, i'm really apathetic about the event. but i'm just being totally honest. i'm very curious about what kind of thoughts are going on in my mom's head cause i know she didn't have good history with her either. but gosh, i'm so grateful for the mom that God gave me. i'm so happy that i have a good relationship with her. i don't care what you guys say about your moms. my mom's super duper better!

man, more and more, i see the depravity of mankind. i meet more and more superficial people. i meet more and more "christians." i meet more and more and more and more! man, it's so hard living as a servant of God in college. it's really difficult evangelizing. it's like i lost my "cajones." but of course i always forget to pray about these things. i rant and rant, but the real solution is in prayer! funny how i know these things yet i don't apply til the last minute.
note to self: DON'T FORGET TO PRAY ABOUT THIS YOU IDIOT!

but i'm surprised to see myself being so consistent in my quiet times. i've been doing them almost EVERY single morning since i came to irvine. remember how i was always talking about how i was reading Kings and Chronicles? well, now i'm on Proverbs! i finished reading Job and Psalms. i'll be done with Proverbs in a few days. man, i really wish i had finished reading the Bible a long long time ago. but anyways, i really enjoyed reading Job cause it was the first time i read it. man, that book is just so profound! it's like you see man's perspective and then BAM! God speaks! its like so dope man. it kinda reminds me of Bahnsen's Debates on tape. like some hardcore athiest would give some funky argument and you're thinking, "oh boy! it's over for the Christian guy. it's gonna take a miracle to win this one." but of course, we all know that truth is always on our side. so the Christian refutes the argument and humbles the crap outta the athiest. it's so cool! you feel like making the biggest "DDEUH!" sound with your finite voice. but back to my point. you feel that Job is totally justified b/c he's like practially living this awesome holy life that you'll never live. but God appears and speaks to Job. man, talk about humility. God is just so AWESOME! it's funny cause he sounds so arrogant but it's like he has every right you know? man Job, IN YOUR FACE BUDDY!!! haha. but you know what i'm talking about. the book of Job is a profound book. it does a great job of showing you just a glimpse of God's character. you should read it if you haven't already.

so i visit jomo's blog and see that he's changed his template. i think it looks nicer but i have a harder time reading his entries with the dark background and the white font. perhaps my eyes just suck. BUT, i also noticed that my blog was under the "Hot Blogs" section. man, what a nudge at my self-esteem! *giggle* i know i know. i really gotta stop that giggling thing. it's really gay. anyways, the template looks nice dude. i'm still a consistent reader. thanks for always updating unlike the rest of this sinful nation.

Thought of the Day: Sarcasm has its limits. Even I can be humiliated.
Song of the Day: DJ Encore-I See Right Through You Vocal Mix