i haven't felt so good going to church in a long time. i think how you look at church is a good indicator of how you're doing in your spiritual walk with God. i believe that those who enjoy worshipping God are those that are strong in their walk. i believe those those who do not enjoy worship are those who are living their lives apart from God. now, i'm not saying i don't live this awesome holy life just b/c i really enjoyed worship today. i just feel that yesterday's prayer was a genuine prayer and i feel that i am once again at peace with God. so in a sense, i guess it's a kick start for me. another clean slate that i ought to keep clean. man, worshipping God is true happiness.

today in Bible Study, we were going over the 10 Commandments and putting them to application. when we came upon the commandment of not murdering, i felt like this was totally irrelevant to me. how can i, a young and innocent christian boy, ever murder someone? but we got into the specifics of how the heart is the real deal. if you have hatred towards a brother, that's the same as murdering him. instead of hating, we ought to love...pray for him, encourage him, correct him, etc.. i was thinking about this and i thought of one person who i really dislike in my life. everytime i think about him, i get really angry and just want to tae bo his face. however, after giving it some thought i realized that i had totally erased the idea of "loving your enemies." i had never in my mind thought of even praying for this fool. i'm going to try to "love" him from now on. it's going to be freakin' difficult but i gotta do what i gotta do.
note: this person that i is dislike is not justin jang. i've already learned to love that bastard.

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