last night, i tried to teach olivia how to shoot pool. the poor thing told me she had never played pool in her life! 17 years old and never touched a pool stick. man, such deprivation. anyways, we got the rules and the basics down. at least she knows how to hold the darn thing now. haha.

olivia: don't you need to be muscular to shoot pool?
me: no. pool is not a sport. it's a game. even you can play.

so after i dropped her off, i gave her the x-mas gift i got her but later found out that it shattered during some part of the trip. guilt trip and apologies. what a waste.

i went to yg service today b/c i was just too tired to go to the college one. i really enjoyed PJ's message about how God works in our good AND bad situations. i mean, we already know this stuff but it's always encouraging to hear it again. but it was kinda discouraging to see that alot of the senior girls were missing. gosh, what a bad trend. anyways, i also got my criticism for my hair and clothes. irvine this, irvine that! la this, la that! *sigh* you jealous northerners. =D

Thought of the Day: CJ's coming tonight!
Song of the Day: LFO-Girl On TV

oh yeah, i always forget to write about this...

the rumors are true! students actually "streak" during finals week!
(streak = running around outside butt naked).

last night...

so since minh do was done with his finals, he had a strong desire to drink that night. so he invited over a "few friends," which ended up turning our hall into a party with over 20 people. it's pretty boring when everyone's "having fun" and you're the only one that's fighting the temptations. but i guess it's a good lesson for me for future experiences. i mean, overcoming temptations do make us stronger in the end right? but anyways, homeboy drank soooooo much last night. beer after beer after beer. then came the best part: BLAHEAU!!! first time seeing minh do throw up and look sick. but it's fun seeing him intoxicated. running around, making people drink, yelling and always smiling. DO MAH!

driving up home wasn't as bad i thought it would. i was asleep more than half the time and i got to sit shotgun the whole ride. so we're driving on highway 5 and as soon as we hit 151, it's starts raining. then it starts to get really really windy. naomi was driving a heavy jeep full of bags and people, but had no rear view...in a very windy and wet situation. scary stuff. solution? fall asleep fa sho!

man, coming back home was quite welcoming. a few lightning bolts here and a loud thunder there. man, it's pretty cold up here. i wish i was in irvine...

me: dang man, there's like lightning and thunder and rain! it's so gay.
minh: oh really?! dude, it's so nice out here.

it's official. there's no such thing as winter in so. cal.

Thought of the Day: "HECKA"?!
Song of the Day: DJ Sammy & Yanou-Heaven Piano Acapella Mix

me: omg! i got an A!
everyone: oh wow! cool!
me: oh wait. nevermind, i got a B.
everyone: ahahahahahahaha.

i was originally expecting a B but i felt pretty good about yesterday's final. as it turns out, of all the tests i took in that class, i did the worst on my final. 5 pts. away from an A. ugh. i was a little disappointed at first but i'm gradually feeling more and more content...or should i say indifferent? but it's all good. school is over and i have over 3 weeks of winter fun! alotta people have already gone home so it's becoming more and more quiet in the dorms. but as long as i have J, minh, and annie to chill with, it should be alrite at Grey Havens. today is the day to chill. tomorrow is the day to pack.

but speaking of packing, i'll be in a jeep packed with 3 girls, dykas, and alotta bags...for 8 hours on saturday?! oh the misery. the injustice!

Thought of the Day: This is how we do it and it's Thursday night!
Song of the Day: Avril Lavigne-Complicated

my first quarter in college is officially complete. i took my last final today which actually seemed a little too easy. it's kinda weird how i tend to stress during midterms but during finals, i am sooooo chill. J knows. bunz knows. simon knows. and the best part is that i'm not going home til sat.! i get to hang out with my irvine buddies for a few days w/o any studying to do! man, how sweet is that? but speaking of sweet, i got another x-mas gift today...

(coming back from finals).
me: i'm a free man!
minh: notice anything different about our room?
me: no. oh wait! what's that?!
minh: annie got us gifts.
me: all of that?!
minh: open yours!
me: *gasp*

annie got me a freakin' UCI sweater! gosh, she also went out of her way to write a card. i feel kinda bad cause minh and i just got her some stupid lotion. ugh. philburt says thank you to annie chung. awesome...size is perfect too!

Thought of the Day: Time to relaaaaaaaaaaaaaaze.
Song of the Day: Blink 182-I Won't Be Home For Christmas

i wanna first start off by welcoming my friends, Connie and J, to the blogging community.
J: much thanks for the kind words. your company is always a joy to our room.

after sharing a few song recommendations with my friend, annie chung, she encouraged me to download a few songs myself. Finch and No Use For A Name. freakin' dope. this moved me to find out about the remaining mysteries of Boxcar Racer and New Found Glory. *drool* what hidden treasures! i'm in that alternative mood or phase again. loud headbanging ear pleasure!

yesterday was supposed to be my studying day for my psych. final. what was supposed to be at least 4 hours of studying got cut in half...

david: what the hell?! what are you doing fool?!
me: playing cards.
david: you aren't studying?!
me: nope. i just finished wrapping my x-mas gifts and i'm just chillin'.
david: dang, i studied more than you last time and you still did better than me!
me: dude, just chill. you're stressing out.
david: yeah, i think i'd better go wrap some x-mas presents.

eh, playing Frustration outside in the halls is so much more fun than reading about Language Development.

well, i was actually planning on studying at night but we ended up exchanging our x-mas gifts in our suite b/c minh do wanted to get it out of the way. it was pretty fun exchanging gifts with everyone. i was happy that minh was happy with my gift, new speakers for his computer. i got some pajama pants from willburt and connie and a $5 thing for In N' Out from Mindy and Natalie. it was actually kinda funny cause minh and i were just eating dinner and we see Natalie...

natalie: hey guys! i'm going to stop by Grey Havens later to give you your gifts.
(she leaves).
me: DUDE, SHE GOT US SOMETHING! WE NEED TO GET HER SOMETHING BEFORE SHE COMES INTO OUR DORM!

so we hurry back to our place and burn a cd for Natalie and Mindy. then annie unexpectedly comes over and we make her decorate the cds. SUCCESS! they love it!

today...

i was supposed to be in bed by 2 last night but i ended up sleeping after 3:30. i took my psych. final and felt like i could have done so much better. but like my friend's email says, "C is for cookie and that's good enough for me." haha.

Thought of the Day: One down. One to go.
Song of the Day: New Found Glory-Never Ending Story Theme Song

it is officially finals week in the UC campuses. a week of staying up, stress, and study. however, i don't quite fall under the last two S's. yes, i do stay up, but i replace stress and studying with playing cards and listening to music. i see students studying really late at night in the studyrooms as i stroll around outside on minh's scooter. haha. what am i doing?! man, my roommate influences me alot..the way i talk, play, eat, and sleep.

me: minh, you're such a bad influence. what kind of roommate are you?!
minh: THE BEST!

Avril Lavigne to Good Charlotte. i thought they were just another one of those wannabe groups that only last for 1 album, but i decided to give them a chance after hearing Lifestyles of the Rich and Famous. man, i've come to realize that alotta groups are similar to one another but they're all unique in their own different way. Good Charlotte is awesome. just awesome.

today, i finally got a chance to talk to my friend about God. man, it has seriously been a while since i've tried evangelizing to anyone. it was a long chat but it was good. of course, it wasn't exactly the most pleasant or easiest conversation. it's just like any other time i talk to people about God....it's frustrating, confusing, and difficult. but i tried my best to answer and clarify any questions that my friend had. my presentation wasn't so great but may God be pleased with my efforts. people don't change people. God does.

Thought of the Day: Stomachache.
Song of the Day: Nemo-Goldfish Song (hahahahahah.)

yesterday, i got about 62.5% of my x-mas shopping done and it only took me 3 hours! i feel like i'm getting better and better at choosing gifts and managing my money. well, i'm actually still working on the over-spending...especially on gifts for myself. yeah!!! so according to my calculations, i'll be spending $300 instead of $200. i know this is bad, but i suppose this could always be worse, right? oh, and if you don't get a gift from me this year, it was probably b/c you weren't that nice to me. i have my own checklist called NICE THINGS THAT PEOPLE DO FOR ME. the top 10% will receive gifts. the remaining 90% should not even expect to receive a card. yeah, sometimes life just isn't fair.

last night, i played blackjack for hits with minh, janet, and annie. i usually suck at cards but i was lucking out like crazy last night. everytime i won, i went all out on minh's arm. i must have won 15 while my poor roommate won 3. we had to stop b/c his arm was starting to look like it was chewed up by a dog. but the fun didn't stop there...

i haven't gambled with cards in a really long time. i think the last time i played for money was when i was in 8th grade. man, that was a long time ago. i remember playing matt ji for pushups and i remember ending up with like over 200 pushups. in otherwords, i was destined to stay away from places like Las Vegas or Tahoe. but i felt really lucky tonight so we all decided to play with our laundry money. towards the end, i ended up winning 3 dollars from minh...which is kind of alot if you're playing with quarters! but the last game, i decided to make it a little more exciting and put in all 3 dollars. my roommate who was seriously playing like crap the whole night got a blackjack and won all of our money. so i ended up not gaining or losing any of my money. gosh, gambling is alot of fun! i can see how people can make it an idol but i can also see how people can just enjoy gambling for the sake of having fun. and of course, winning is always cool.

Thought of the Day: Last lecture of 2002!
Song of the Day: Wheesung-A Bad Dream

it's funny how i told myself i was going to do some crazy studying this week, starting with monday? however, my decisions turned to start with tues...then wed...then sat...and after finding out my psych. final isn't cummulative, i'm pretty sure i'm going to have to once again postpone my diligence to perhaps something like the day before the final? =D so it'll be like taking another midterm only it'll be worth a few more points. monday, i have no class so i'll just cram. tuesday, i'll have nothing after the pysch. final so i'll cram again that night for my next day's bio. MINH DO STYLE! *sigh* i know i ought to be disappointed in myself but i feel somewhat proud that i can pull off such indolence. haha. the upperclassmen tell me and dykas to not slack off but i feel a sense of pride when they look at their procrastinating youth. afterall, this IS my last weekend in Irvine before i have to go back up north. i definitely want to spend x-mas with my dormmates so i'll just make the best of my days that i should be studying. (simon, i know what you're thinking. just close the mouth and accept my lifestyle).

last night, i made my x-mas shopping list which consists a total of 15 people? this is alot better compared to my annual 20+. and b/c i don't work anymore, i'll have to be extra stingy with my gifts, especially on people like CJ (who ask for gay expensive things like Prada?!). this year, my x-mas budget has shrunk from a usual $500+ to a maximal $200. even though i don't know my dormmates THAT well, i'm happy to find myself picking out appropriate gifts at an appropriate price. gosh, notice how i relate every gift/person to money? man, this is seriously a korean thing. korean people are oh so cheap! i mean, my actions aren't so blunt about it but deep down inside, i know i'm counting every penny. why am i like this?! but i guess that's just our sinful nature. i heard that the richer you are, the cheaper you become...but the poorer you are, the more generous you tend to be. yes, it is definitely true. but of course this doesn't hold for all people. it's just the general trend or pattern that we see. anyways, my original point was supposed to be about how my x-mas shopping isn't so bad this year but it somehow turned into something about korean people being a Scrooge. oh well, enjoy your shopping everyone!

Thought of the Day: Merry Shopping!
Song of the Day: Cherry Filter-Sweet Little Kitty

i absolutely abhor siging up for classes! i remember when i first got the Schedule of Classes for winter quarter. i picked out all of my desired classes so that everything fit nice and snug into my comfortable schedule. you would think that finding out about your enrollment window and signing up early would get you all the classes at the right times. um..a big fat NO! it just doesn't work that way. classes fill up super duper fast. gosh, i can just imagine what it would be like if students had to sign up at a certain place at school rather than going online. people would be running, screaming, pulling, pushing, throwing, kicking, and perhaps even biting each other just to sign up for a class. thank goodness we have telephones and the internet. however, what classes am i left with? well, if i'm lucky i just might be able to squeeze into the waiting list. however, in most cases i'm forced to choose a different class, which most likely is already filled up, then another class, then another, and another...until i finally give up and go to my blogger and start ranting about the injustice.

me: i'm just a small freshmen that wants to get into Bio 10. is that so much to ask for?
uci system: IT IS TOO MUCH TO ASK FOR! MOVE TO BIO 45! THAT CLASS IS BORING AND EMPTY. YOU EITHER ADD THAT CLASS OR DIE!!!
me: *sniff* yessir.

well, at least dorm life is still really fun. we do the dumbest things but they seem to be funnest things we can think of...

1. blackjack for quarters.
2. punching each other's arms.
3. punching each other's stomachs.
4. racing down the halls with Razors.
5. flipping onto my bunk.
6. flipping off of my bunk.
7. hanging from my bunk.
8. jumping onto my bunk.
9. watching "one episode" of GTO.
10. helping bunz and annie with their final project.

willburt: highfive highfive! (runs away). LOSER LOSER!

Thought of the Day: Winter Quarter is going to be gay.
Song of the Day: Brown Eyes-For You

dude, the weather is sooooooo nice over here! i don't need to wear any stupid sweaters or put on warm socks as soon as i wake up. it's supposed to be winter but it still feels like late summer over here...

i went into mindy's dorm today and i was left speechless. she lives in a phase 1, which is supposed to be the crappiest dorms at Middle Earth. however, her floor was transformed into something awesome. mindy's roommate, natalie, decorated their living room with a whole buncha x-mas stuff and their room is polluted with posters and pictures on the walls. i mean, i've seen some pretty creative decorations in my day but this is by far the dopest of them all. it makes my room feel really naked. it makes bunz's room look like a joke. haha. it's ok though. i guess it's a girl thing and i am obviously no girl, right?

phuuuu! finals are next week. so much studying to do. i'm actually going to try to study little by little everyday instead of my usual cramming style. but after finals, i get to chill like crazy. that's the great thing about quarter system. after finals, you're completely done with that class. no hw. no projects. you're done. so when you break, you BREAK! you can enjoy winter break as if it was a short summer vacation. spring break will be the same too. gosh, all i want is a B in psych. and bio. A is unrealistic. C is just crap.

Thought of the Day: Anti-social.
Song of the Day: Juvenile-Back That Ass Up

8.5 hours is a long time in a car...

my thanksgiving break wasn't as great as i thought it would be. not a single bite of turkey. too many moments of boredom in my room. seeing my friends didn't seem like a big deal either. i don't know. what exactly was i suppposed to expect? well, let's see the flipside or the more optimistic version of the story.

i went to Stonestown with kevin just cause we were so bored. however, shopping was actually fun cause we ended up buying lots of clothes that had prices too good to be true. you can definitely feel the christmas season finally kicking in with all of its gay songs and x-mas trees in every corner of each store. it's cool though. i like it but i don't like it. it's like you like the x-mas feeling but at the same time you feel that it's really annoying and overdone, right? it's like you can't wait to get a whole buncha presents from everyone but you remember that you also have to a part of this x-mas exchanging garbage. why can't i just receive? why do i need to give too? i'm a poor college student fool! i wanna buy stuff for myself! it doesn't say anywhere in the Bible that receiving is a sin does it?
note: this story isn't going anywhere.

but after shopping, we met up with the boys and went to Serra Bowl. it was good seeing everyone again. not much changes. just a few pounds here and there and everyone sporting their college gear. ah yes, and the reactions to my beloved hair. "phil looks like a korean back-dancer!" "you're gonna go bald phil!" yeahyeah. thanks everyone. i love you too guys.

at night, i went to GE again and met up with two of my beloved friends ("saekki" and "bastard"). it was weird seeing them. proud yet disappointed. confused yet apathetic. pissed yet happy? no scratch that last one. it's hard to put such emotions into proper words. i don't know. you guys are growing up so late. i started growing up in freshmen year. haha. ambiguous no? let's keep it that way.

basketball was pretty fun. i sucked like a mother but it was still fun.

pat: what?! you can't let matt make those!

hahahahahahaha.

dinner was crap. i never want to go to Macaroni Grill again. we waited too long and the food wasn't even that great. i've had better pasta from canned ravioli. with the amount of money we spent that night, we should've just gone all out at a korean restaurant. stupid pat, always making the gayest plans!

noraebang wasn't that great either. it seems like we have less and less fun everytime we go. not everyone sings. alot of pity cheering. not so much joking and laughing. what's going on? are we getting too old for this stuff? is there too much shame in the game? 2 hours = 100 bucks. 13 people. you do the math.

over the break, i saw alot of people who i haven't seen in a long time. some people got pretty freakin' fat. some became miraculously thin! so much fluctuation in the physical world amongst my relationships with people. i guess i'm doing fairly decent so far. 2 months = 2 pounds. if this keeps up, i should have gained only 9 pounds out of the traditional 15 by the end of the year. but then again, exponential curves start out pretty slow in the beginning too. hmmmm...today's 3 cheeseburgers at In N' Out won't be much help either. but i guess if it tastes good, you just gotta let it pass right?

i did alot of pondering in the car today. lots of "conflict" going on in my life. a whole buncha thoughts on "should's" and "shouldn't's." so much thinking. just so much. but that all ended when i finally arrived to my beloved IRVINE! man, i never realized how much i really missed irvine. it's good seeing minh do again. it's good seeing willburt again. heck, it was even nice seeing henry again! lol. and of course, my sleeping schedule automatically changes again. up north, 1am is normal. down south, 5am is normal.

man, what a disorganized random story. really sucks. if i were a teacher, i'd give this crap a C-!

Thought of the Day: Praise God I'm back!
Song of the Day: Avalon-Testify To Love

this morning...

simon: phil, do you still feel like turkey and mashed potatoes?
me: um, kinda. why?! do we have some?!
simon: no. i was just asking.
me: stupid idiot.

last night, unlike all of you americanized bastards, me and my family had korean food. well, actually it wasn't even my whole family. just me and simon cause my mom went to go eat with her friends. it's alrite though. Thanksgiving really is no biggie in our family. it's just another holiday for us where all the stores are closed and there's nothing good on tv. unfortunately, last night was the only time i was craving for thanksgiving food for some mysterious reason. i had already eaten 3 thanksgiving meals at irvine and i was pretty sick of turkey and such. but after watching Friends and Will and Grace, my stomach was encouraging me to indulge in some gravy.

rewind...

the drive up north took me over 8 hours b/c of 2 hours stuck in LA traffic. man, that is one tough cookie! but after leaving around 8, we finally got home a little after 4 in the morning. i woke up around 12 in the afternoon, and said hi to mom and simon. she gives me the "dyeing your hair again" lecture, but my presence overcomes her disappointment.

mother's cooking is always a gift from heaven. nothing can compare to such a meal. no doubt man! anyways, after some time spent in sitting and starting at the wall, i played some chess with simon and went to GE with jonna and yumi. after a little over 2 hours, we went home and ate my acceptible thanksgiving dinner with simon. food coma and boredom caused my day to cease at 9pm. yesterday was alot more boring than "relazing" (funny how i always type that in even though i try to type in "relaxing.").

play...

so i woke up at 9am today...exactly 12 hours of sleep all at one time. i feel pretty refreshed, but a little sad that the sky in millbrae is so much cooler than the sky in irvine. in fact, i already put on my sweater and my windbreakers. it's FUR-EEZIN'!!! but speaking of irvine, i already miss it. i already miss almost everyone in my hall. i KINDA feel like eating some dorm food and i have this burning desire to hug my computer! simon's computer sucks like ISH!

but since there's nothing to do so early in the morning, i just might crack open my psych. book and catch up on my reading. then after some lunch with the family, i hope to meet up with the boys and play some ball. chill. eat dinner. chill. noraebang! *shrug* we'll see wassup.

Thought of the Day: The white is slowly turning blue!
Song of the Day: Anything but Chakra 3!

yesterday was one of the most unproductive days i've ever had at irvine, but i think one of the more memorable ones. it was like a typical dorm life night. eating cupnoodles, popcorn, and redvines at 12. starting another movie on my computer. random people just coming in to watch. it's great. dorm life is bomb dude.

will: norman made my day by saying Happy Thanksgiving to me.
me: wow, that's so cool! Happy Thanksgiving Willburt.
will: Happy Thanksgiving Philburt.

everyone in the dorms are pretty happy about going home today. there's only a few of us left in our hall. i still have to go to one more class, eat dinner, take a shower, pack up, and off i go to eat some more dinner!

tiff-hey butthole! i am no longer in youth group. i am a college student. and not just ANY college! we're talking prestigious here! we're talking top of the line meat! UCI! zot zot zot!!! go anteaters! riverside sucks!

Thought of the Day: I'm going home today!
Song of the Day: FF X-Julie's Piano Solo

i was reading tiff's blog and noticed that gary's blog was under the "yummy blogs" category. in the past, i only remember seeing a whole bunch of I LOVE YOU!'s to his gf and lots of GOD IS GOOD ALL THE TIME!'s. this is why i stopped reading his blog for quite a while. so assuming "yummy blogs" are fairly decent blogs to read, i thought that gary might have added some spice to his online journal. *sigh* unfortunately, it looks like he's just added more mud. man, reading that one post where he writes his 1 billion "I MISS YOU BABE!!!'s" made me think of only one word. IDOLATRY. then of course, he adds his GOD IS GOOD stuff here and there. i don't know man. it doesn't seem like it makes any sense. it sounds more like I LOVE GOD! I LOVE MY GF EVEN MORE! but i know his blog is HIS journal and if i have a problem with it, then it's my problem. but i guess what got me all started on the matter was the fact that his blog was under the "yummy blogs." so now, i'm assuming that my initial assumption was a terrible assumption. clarification anyone?

Take the test, by Emily.

i like the test but i dislike the results.

Thought of the Day: I hope I do my laundry tonight.
Song of the Day: Good Charlotte-Lifestyles of the Rich and the Famous

irvine's weather decided to take a twisted turn today with a very very windy windy day day. it's really weird b/c it's still really warm outside. it's windy like a winter in Daly City but warm like a spring in Millbrae. it actually feels kinda cool b/c it feels like you're walking around in a big warm bubble but there's a nice giant fan keeping you cool at the same time. the only negative is that little pieces of leaves constantly get into your eyes. those tiny bastards!

so last night, minh and will found out about my world famous blog...all b/c stupid olivia was talking to minh online. but i guess it's no big deal having them read my "diary." supposedly, these guys are going to start one too but i don't know. these guys don't seem up for the challenge. it's kinda like salvation. true writers aren't always consistent but they always come back to blog. however, the pseudo-writers just start, self-sham theirselves into thinking that they're a blogger, and they stop writing after a few weeks or months. haha. what a dumb analogy. but i'm too lazy to erase it.

man, my sleeping schedule is seriously all retarded now. i take naps at like around 3 or 4 in the afternoon for about 3 hours and then go to sleep around 5. i can't believe simon goes to bed around 12. that's like when me and my dormmates start to watch a movie or take a shower. last night, i went to bed at 5:45 b/c minh and i decided to rearrange our room again for the 230,384th time! we realized that having the fridge in the corner b/w our desks was just too uncomfortable so we moved both of our dressers and my bed. i think this arrangement is a keeper. please God, no more!!! cause us to be content with our circumstances. hehe.

before all of that worthwhile labor, minh brought some bleach from home. i was bored so i decided to put some streaks in my hair. what was supposed to turn into streaks actually led to my whole head turning a bright yellow. i was a bit displeased last night cause it looked so different, but i'm getting more and more used to it. also, alot of people have been telling me that it looks nice or cool. so i guess it looks nice or cool. man, my mom's going to disown me when she sees my hair.

i'm so happy that i found out about DC++ (in your face dykas!). i can finally dl at speeds that are beyond appropriate. i can dl at like over 900kb/sec, which means i can finish songs in less than 10 seconds and finish movies within 10 minutes. niiiiiice.

man, i'm really excited about thanksgiving break. i've been thinking about it every single day. good korean food. chess with simon. driving to GE with jonna. ball and noraebang with the boys. yeah, i really feel like i need this break. not exactly to run away from my problems but to just chill for a while you know? spend some quality time with good ol' Burlingame. man, but the drive up north is going to be a bastard. it really is quite unpleasant and uncomfortable, especially if it's not you that's driving (no terrance i do not want to drive). the only other bad thing about going up north is that i'll be missing ken's party. man, it sounds like so much fun! eh, it'll be worth missing.

Green Day to Weezer to Blink 182 to Jimmy Eat World to Avril Lavigne. this is one cool chick. great album!

Thought of the Day: Autumn Fairytale.
Song of the Day: Avril Lavigne-Complicated

I'm a Pina Colada, discover your ALcoHoLiC personality!

i haven't felt so good going to church in a long time. i think how you look at church is a good indicator of how you're doing in your spiritual walk with God. i believe that those who enjoy worshipping God are those that are strong in their walk. i believe those those who do not enjoy worship are those who are living their lives apart from God. now, i'm not saying i don't live this awesome holy life just b/c i really enjoyed worship today. i just feel that yesterday's prayer was a genuine prayer and i feel that i am once again at peace with God. so in a sense, i guess it's a kick start for me. another clean slate that i ought to keep clean. man, worshipping God is true happiness.

today in Bible Study, we were going over the 10 Commandments and putting them to application. when we came upon the commandment of not murdering, i felt like this was totally irrelevant to me. how can i, a young and innocent christian boy, ever murder someone? but we got into the specifics of how the heart is the real deal. if you have hatred towards a brother, that's the same as murdering him. instead of hating, we ought to love...pray for him, encourage him, correct him, etc.. i was thinking about this and i thought of one person who i really dislike in my life. everytime i think about him, i get really angry and just want to tae bo his face. however, after giving it some thought i realized that i had totally erased the idea of "loving your enemies." i had never in my mind thought of even praying for this fool. i'm going to try to "love" him from now on. it's going to be freakin' difficult but i gotta do what i gotta do.
note: this person that i is dislike is not justin jang. i've already learned to love that bastard.

Thought of the Day: Highlights?
Song of the Day: Avril Lavinge-Losing Grip

man, my so called brain is just overwhelmed with thoughts. "write about that! no, don't write about that! that'd be funny. nono, that'll be inappropriate!" let's see where my thoughts take us...

you know, alotta people have been commenting about my blogs, about how college life sounds really fun and just chill. in many ways, YES! college life is seriously so much fun. lots of good times. but what you readers are forgetting is that there is always a flipside in all these things. there is much pain and suffering in my life as well. ok, that came out a bit strong...not THAT bad! haha. but my life does have its downs. lots of downs actually. a good example is my spiritual life.

i go to a pretty strong church with lots of good theology and fellowship. it's a really great place to grow in your walk with God i believe. however, just b/c you got the right tools does not mean that you are going to build the prettiest doghouse. in fact, i think my doghouse looks like ISH! it's freakin' garbage. so much hypocrisy. lots of inconsistency. no commitment you know? it wasn't until today that i finally got another good slap in the face from God. i was totally lacking discipline and i had become quite spoiled. i fell. i could not get back up. but today, i cried out to God again. it had been a while. haven't had a serious prayer in God knows how long! man, Hebrews 12 is seriously the most encouraging stuff out there. even though we fall away, God will always bring his true sons back. man, that's grace. that's mercy. that's dope. fudge.

man, you REALLY grow up in college. when i read the blogs of high school students, they seem so young and immature. i'm sure i've already talked about this but it once again just hit me on the head pretty hard. i feel so much older these days. last night, i went to go watch Die Another Day and minh brought some of his friends who were still in high school. they're so different. so naive. so ignorant. but that's life i guess. there's always someone who's older than you. afterall, i'm just a dumb inexperienced freshmen myself right? i have yet to be done with this college crap.

cj: dude, jomo won't put me on the BCS ranking! it's so gay! but he said he said that you're pretty close from getting kicked off.
me: yeah. i don't really care though. it's stupid.
cj: yeah. who cares.

notice how cj and i are totally different but we still click quite well. i was on the BCS ranking. he was not. but in the end, we were totally indifferent about it. i guess you can call this a response to his blog: One Voice-Thru It All. dl this song homo. i've been listening to this crap for the past 2 hours now. it's dedicated to your gay self. (and yes, Buff Homo is even buffer than ever!).

man, i am sooooooo chillaxin' right now. it's great. the perfect word. chillin' + relax = chillaxin'

Thought of the Day: No more drinking.
Song of the Day: One Voice-Thru It All.

i had my first late night talk with minh last night. he was teling me about alotta stuff on drugs, sex, and girls. this fool is really educated in this area! he knows so much crap that i never even heard of. it was quite a moment of "bonding." he's a good guy though. but earlier today...

minh: yeah, i went to the housing office today. i have to move out by dec. 10.
me: what?! are you serious?
minh: yeah.
me: so this is for sure? you're moving out?
minh: fa sho.
me: dang. man, that really sucks.
(10 min. later...)
minh: hey, i was just messing with you fool.
me: what're you talking about?
minh: i don't have to move out.
me: REALLY?!
minh: yeah.
me: YES!!!

thank you LORD!

random thought: as opposed to CJ's really cold weather, Irvine has been REALLY hot for almost the past 2 weeks. i seriously feel no sense of Fall over here. feels like summer all year round. so. cal weather is the best. shorts all year round!

Thought of the Day: I can't believe I lost my appetite.
Song of the Day: Whyte Shadow-You Are The One DJ Tinment's Mix

just a little earlier...

minh: did you ever find the cup noodle?
(minh had already eaten it upstairs).
will: nope. never found it.

"cause i got what it takes to rock the mic right yeah!"

i experienced my very first live freestyle battle at irvine! after i was done shooting pool, dykas told me there was this cool battle going on so i went to go check it out, thinking it was a buncha guys breakdancing. as it turned out, there was this huge crowd with two guys busting flows right and left. man, these guys weren't weak sauce either. they were really creative and honestly full of humor.

"man, you so ugly you causin' a scene! yo, don't you know it ain't even halloween?"

haha. that's the only one i remember. but there were alotta good rhymes. lots of cheering. lots of laughing.

after i took a shower today, will wanted to cook a cup noodle in my room with our microwave. but after the water was done, minh came in and accidently kicked the cup and spilled all the water.

will: dang foo! what the hell?!
minh: dude! you spilled it!
will: dude, you kicked the cup!

will goes to get some more water. minh sees the cup noodle and decides to hide it in his closet b/c he is hungry.

will: where's my cup noodle?
(minh leaves room).
me: i don't know man.
will: what the hell?! where's my kimchee noodle?!
me: ahahahhahaha. i don't know man.
(running around the halls asking every single person).
will: c'mon phil. where is it man?
me: i don't know.
will: dude, i KNOW minh stole it! that *&(*!
(talks to minh for a while).
me: ahahahahahahahhahaha.
will: why you laughing fool?
me: cause it's so funny how you just lost your cup noodle.
minh: yeah foo. you clumsy!
will: where is it fool?!
minh: i don't know man!
(minh leaves room again).

so this goes on for a good 15 min.. all these accusations, running around, laughing, cussing, etc.. then will sees minh heating up some water.

will: why the hell you heating that water up foo!?
(minh runs away and tries to close our door. will pushes the door and minh lets him in).
minh: what fool? i just wanna heat up some water!
will: shuttup fool! you have my cup noodle!
minh: i don't man! i just want some warm water!

as this goes on for a little bit, i'm sitting in my chair, laughing my freakin' head off! it's like the most hilarious scene. you have to know the history b/w these guys first though. cause you see, will and minh always steal each other's stuff, hide it, eat it, whatever. they punch each other, run away giggling, closing the door. they go into each other's rooms and mess around on the computer, giving them a bad image online. it's really a humorous chemistry that they have. but tonight's event has to be the most funniest event so far. but this one time, minh hid will's shampoo so he couldn't take a shower. after alotta accusations and complaining, will sees minh using his shampoo.

minh: i have the same shampoo as you fool!

ahahahahahah. and yeah, you can figure out the rest.

dorm life is great. i love my dormmates. funniest idiots in the world.

Thought of the Day: Breakbeats are dope.
Song of the Day: DJ Icey - Not a Test Scratchin' Breakbeat Mix

oh my! what the! another post?!

so i was doing some reflecting today and out of nowhere popped up my lovelife. bam! phil chung's lovelife. what a mysterious thing. what a dangerous thing. what an interesting thing! i don't know, i haven't really thought about anyone in my mind for a while...like i've been emotionally numb to girls for God knows how long. but lately, for some reason i've been getting these small crushes. let me say that word again. CRUSHES. not one. but actually two! it's a really weird feeling, liking two different girls at the same time. two totally different girls. one is very sociable and fun to talk to. she's really nice...like gf material nice, which is probably why she's still going out with her bf in Santa Barbara. the other one is really quiet. she seems like the innocent type but the whole world knows she can drink like crazy. it's all these small things about her that make her seem cute though. very hard to explain. and the unfortunate thing is that they're both non-christian. what's gotten into me? and of course, when there's crushes involved, your amygdala stimulates random intervals of depression.

but that leads me to another source of depression. my roommate is most likely going to be moving out after this quarter. his family cannot support him financially and his fafsa just doesn't take care of it. it's really gay. if he goes, i'll probably get a new roommate that was on the waiting list. no more of our little parties. no more watching movies together. gosh, he was seriously the best roommate anyone could ask for. he always gave people food. he bought people drinks. he practically let anyone sleep in his bed. we both listened to the same type of music. he always brought me back food. he always encouraged me to workout. he's one of those REALLY nice guys that you rarely meet. me and my other dormmates were talking about it too. we're all depressed about it. gosh, it feels like a close buddy of yours is moving away. it's really depressing.

you know, it's funny how i thought irvine was totally not what people would expect it to be. UC Irvine has this image of being a "party school," "University of Civics and Integras," "University of Chinese Immigrants," "the school with all the girls," or basically a place where christians will struggle b/c of it's worldliness. well, my first month here was totally not what i expected. i mean, YES it is a school polluted with too many asians. YES it is a school with so many evil looking pretty girls. HOWEVER, i did not think it was a party school! i am slowly realizing that this school, that has been verbally abused by many, really is starting to reveal all of its truths.

the past few days have been full of parties in my room, hosted by my one and only Minh Do (mah!). it can get really uncomfortable like no other...cramming 15+ people in a triple room that is actually the size of a double. random people, blazing, drinking, and talking til like 5 or 6 in the morning while i'm trying to get just a BIT of shut eye! i can't express the bitterness, the rage, the WRATH that phil chung was feeling this morning! those blasted ear plugs just don't do their job. i felt really bad for my japanese roommate cause he goes to bed at like 12 and that's like when the party got started. but this morning...

me: hey kiyoshi. how did you sleep? did you sleep well?
kiyoshi: yeah.
me: really? are you serious?
kiyoshi: yeah, don't worry.
me: oh ok. (lucky weird bastard).

but last night's meteor shower was really dope. a whole bunch of us went outside at like 3 in the morning, just lying down on our grassy hill and just looking at all the stars passing by. "WOAH!" "HEY, DID YOU SEE THAT ONE?!" "WOAH!!!"

jack: dude, this is like such a cool time of bonding! so how were your days?
random guy: man shuttup!

ahahahahahhaha.

i was in denial of CJ's rants at first, but after some close observation, i have confirmed that i now have a so. cal accent. i talk pretty much like any other stupid southern californian with some of that "chill" slang and retarded pronunciation.
for example...
before irvine: "later."
after irvine: "lateer."

before irvine: "that's like..."
after irvine: "das like..."

i don't know. i can't really write out how i pronounce my speech but if you hear it, you'll definitely be able to point it out. but i guess it's really subtle...i mean, even dykas and terrance can't tell...i think.

well, i finally cut my freakin' hair! after 2 months of not a single haircut, it was the longest i've ever had my hair. i was going to wait til thanksgiving and go to Ceci cause she's like the only person that knows how i want my hair cut. but apparently, desperation got the best of me and i asked one of my hallmates, will, to cut my hair. well, he gave me one of those "badboy" haircuts where they cut almost everything off except the bangs. i wasn't too comfortable with it at first but i'm getting used to it on my second day. and besides, my head no longer looks like it's secretly growing a tree with the ugliest leaves. AND, it was free right?!

after talking to some people last night, i find it really sad how some people live their lives. alot of them were either dropouts or already dropped out. all they do is "chill" (blaze and/or drink). they don't go home b/c they hate their family. they find security in their friends, who are most of the time undependable. it's really sad. it really comes to show how much more we need Christ in our lives.

today, my Clusters group is having a big Thanksgiving dinner! woohoo! all this free food and none of the freshmen have to prepare anything! haha, it's more like a Thanks-RECEIVING dinner to me, but it's all good in the hood.

Thought of the Day: It's all gravy. Literally.
Song of the Day: Eve-Feeling You

man, i can't believe i haven't blogged in over a week! apparently, so much has happened every single day since nov. 8. there was absolutely no opportunity for me to blog in the condtions i was in. seeing my BCS ranking fall back 3 pts is a bit discouraging but at the same time, i feel happy that my life actually has some action for once.

so much...

1. B on pysch. midterm.
2. 8 mile with Terrance.
3. Korean food with 2 Riversiders and Dykas.
4. My Sassy Girl twice.
5. Ontario Mills, another copy of Great Mall.
6. Church picnic.
7. B on bio midterm. 1 pt away from an A-. God is being really gracious to me.
8. Magicshows have creepy music. $15 and 3 hours down the drain.
9. "Celebrate" on the phone with CJ.
10. And the "Celebration" continues but ends after 5 Pixie Sticks.

that's what sucks about not writing in your blog for a long time. the best you can do is list out your events but can't go into detail b/c that would either...
1. take an eternity.
2. discourage readers from ever visiting your blog again.
3. reveal some bad things about bad people.
(4. or of course, all of the above!).

gosh, i wonder when the next time i'm going to blog is. it's a mystery.

Thought of the Day: Soooooooooo embarrassing!
Song of the Day: Rage Against The Machine-Renegades Of Funk

man, 2 in the morning. my two roommates are asleep and the others are eating Del Taco in the studyroom. i finally get some privacy!

Simon Says...

AsianXboi56 (6:20:20 PM): chess?
Pretzelboi96 (6:20:29 PM): can't
Pretzelboi96 (6:20:36 PM): i have a midterm tomorrow
Pretzelboi96 (6:20:44 PM): i'm going out to eat tonight at my friend's place
AsianXboi56 (6:20:50 PM): ....
Pretzelboi96 (6:20:53 PM): these 2 girls from church are buying us dinner
AsianXboi56 (6:21:09 PM): you have a midterm though
Pretzelboi96 (6:21:10 PM): and after that, i need to study my head off
AsianXboi56 (6:21:13 PM): doesn't that mean you have to study?
Pretzelboi96 (6:21:26 PM): well, there's this thing called dinner
Pretzelboi96 (6:21:38 PM): and it's usually good to attend to this "dinner"
Pretzelboi96 (6:21:48 PM): so if it's alrite with you, i'm going to eat tonight
Pretzelboi96 (6:21:51 PM): is that ok simon?
AsianXboi56 (6:21:57 PM): lol
AsianXboi56 (6:22:23 PM): why did you say you had a midterm then to me?
AsianXboi56 (6:22:27 PM): why was that one of your reasons
AsianXboi56 (6:22:31 PM): to not to play chess
AsianXboi56 (6:22:50 PM): NEVERMIND
AsianXboi56 (6:22:52 PM): just go eat
Pretzelboi96 (6:22:57 PM): ahahhahahahaha
AsianXboi56 (6:23:07 PM): dang
Pretzelboi96 (6:23:09 PM): stupid simon
AsianXboi56 (6:23:12 PM): can't argue with you at all
Pretzelboi96 (6:23:14 PM): think before you speak
AsianXboi56 (6:23:19 PM): just shut up
Pretzelboi96 (6:23:27 PM): don't be such a baby
AsianXboi56 (6:23:38 PM): ahahahhahaha
AsianXboi56 (6:23:41 PM): your so gay dude
AsianXboi56 (6:23:43 PM): ooooo my
Pretzelboi96 (6:23:51 PM): oooooooo....simon's best comeback
Pretzelboi96 (6:23:56 PM): "shuttup phil!"
Pretzelboi96 (6:24:01 PM): "you're so gay!"
AsianXboi56 (6:24:05 PM): SHUT UP
AsianXboi56 (6:24:06 PM): YOUR GAY
AsianXboi56 (6:24:10 PM): I SAID SHUT UP
Pretzelboi96 (6:24:10 PM): ooooooo
Pretzelboi96 (6:24:15 PM): combo!
AsianXboi56 (6:24:16 PM): OH MY GOSH
AsianXboi56 (6:24:18 PM): your gay
AsianXboi56 (6:24:20 PM): SHUT UP!
Pretzelboi96 (6:24:23 PM): ahahahahaha
Pretzelboi96 (6:24:44 PM): the OH MY GOSH really gives your speech alotta emphasis
Pretzelboi96 (6:24:46 PM): it's good
Pretzelboi96 (6:24:50 PM): makes you sound strong
AsianXboi56 (6:24:51 PM): lol
AsianXboi56 (6:25:09 PM): just go eat your dinner

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Auto response from Pretzelboi96 (11:02:52 PM): midterms = sin's curse
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AsianXboi56 (11:02:55 PM): study again?
AsianXboi56 (11:02:56 PM): crap
AsianXboi56 (11:03:03 PM): i wanna see you study
AsianXboi56 (11:03:05 PM): for an hour
AsianXboi56 (11:03:07 PM): sheesh
AsianXboi56 (11:03:09 PM): never seen that before
AsianXboi56 (11:03:33 PM): oh well
AsianXboi56 (11:03:33 PM): gonna sleep now


midterms...

man, i don't think i've ever studied so much in my life! 8:30-12! i know that sounds like nothing but that's seriously the most i've ever studied at once. it was pretty funny though cause as i was studying...

david: dang nigga! you studying?!
me: yeap.
david: alrite, lemme study with you.

david's a korean guy from the third floor and we're in the same psych. class. he reminds me alot of thomas, christian and really ghetto. but anyways, all that studying really paid off. i think i did pretty well. while i was take tests, i have these conversations with myself with each question...

"alrite, i remember this one. it can't be A, B, or D b/c those are just straight up stupid. but C looks tricky. hmmmm, let's look at A again. wait, you should always stick with your inital feeling of an answer. alrite, i think it's going to be C. ok, thank you God. next question. HA! is this guy kidding me?! this one is soooooo easy! thank you so much God! next question. wait a minute. none of the answers seem to be correct. uhoh. i KNEW i should have read chapter 4!"

but i felt pretty good after i was done. the test only took me 35 min. even though we were given 1 hour and 20 min.. that either means A, i crammed all the right material and knew my stuff, or B, i'm a self-deceived moron who's going to hit an F so hard that i'm going to wish i never came to college. either way, i can't change anything so may God be pleased with my efforts.

pingpong...

i had a really good day in pingpong today. i finally beat lawrence 2 games to 1! i was returning his serves really well and slamming even his slow shots. our last game ended in a 21-10.

lawrence: you know if you lose like that, that means you can't figure out what the other person is doing. you were slamming my serves and you were serving pretty well so i couldn't return well.
me: yeah.
lawrence: ok, you know you play too much pingpong when you start analyzing the game.
me: ahahahahahhaha. yeah.

pool...

i also played really good in pool today, possibly the best i've ever played in my life. i was seriously "on" tonight cause i went around the world 1 2/3 times!

me: dang hideo. calm down japanese guy.
lawrence: ok, japan and korea are doing pretty well tonight. what about China?
(janet hits 8 ball in to win the game).
janet: CHINA!!!!!

chess...

i finally got a chess set from Target today...7 bucks. pretty good. i played against Jack and Minh. man, those guys really suck. of course, i didn't say this in front of them cause i don't like to present myself as the arrogant type unless i know the person pretty well...chang knows. but yes, it's cool winning in everything today.

i just had a really good day today. no more midterm. no hw for the weekend. good lunch. good pingpong. good dinner. good episode of Friends. good pool. good chess. and now, time for some good sleep.

Thought of the Day: Our actions usually reflect our heart.
Song of the Day: 6kies-Fateful Promise

objective: jack one of the 2 seat sofas from one of the buildings in Middle Earth.
purpose: have a room where people can actually have a place to sit down and chill.

attempt 1...
place: Our Study Room
outcome: coming out of the study room with the sofa, an RA catches us and tells us we can't take any furniture out of the study room. 2 of her friends laugh at us.

attempt 2...
place: Rohan.
outcome: living room is on 2nd floor. people watching tv.

attempt 3...
place: Rohan Study Rooms
outcome: all 2 seat sofas have already been jacked. only 3 seat sofas available.

attempt 4...
place: Calmindon
outcome: go to third floor. cross over to next building. look down to 2nd floor living room. too many people. distance is too far. (what were we thinking?!)

attempt 5...
place: Our Living Room on second floor.
outcome: major tension in forearms and brain trauma. success.

our room is really cramped up now, but it is definitely a place to chill. people come into our room all the time so now they have a place to sit down. we replaced the 2 seat sofa with a couch from our study room. we are too smooth!

Thought of the Day: Even Harvard professors can be manipulated.
Song of the Day: Jurassic 5-Break

the month of november has arrived and what a way i spent the weekend to start off the month!

i was supposed to go clubbing on fri. but minh told me that the DJ wasn't getting paid that night so the music was going to suck. minh is my vietnamise roommate. he is one of the most interesting people i have ever met in my life. my roommate BY FAR lives the most hardcore life of the party. all he does is wake up, miss class, eat a lunch at 4pm, works out, watches a movie, drinks/goes to a party, and goes to bed at 6am. haha. i'm afraid that this guy is going to drop out of irvine. but somehow by the grace of God, he still manages to sneak in a few minutes for studying on the night right before midterms, and occasionally does better than his friends (barely passing). haha. he's a really nice guy though. he always buys cup ramens and feeds everyone in our hall late at night. whenever he goes out to eat, he always asks if i want anything. minh is also a very funny person. you see, he talks like a fob and has a habit of adding some vietnamise here and there in his speech. and if you've ever heard vietnamise people talk, it is definitely the funniest language to ever be spoken on this planet. lol. it cracks me up just seeing him sleep right now. last night, he went to bed at 9am, woke up at 3pm, and he just went to bed again an hour ago. minh is officially my new hero....not that i ever had one before.

(CJ has spilled his guts. i have spilled mine. i can't believe he was hiding so much from me).

saturday's freshmen bbq was pretty cool. i got to meet alotta other freshmen from CPC. it's pretty cool b/c it's really diverse, people from LA, SD, *sigh* and yes Riverside, terrance. i like how CPC is a really welcoming church. first, they're REALLY nice to you on your first sunday. second, they have a welcoming dinner for all newcomers. and third, we get a freshmen bbq! and they're really nice everytime they see you too. lots of nice people. God has provided me with an awesome church.

right now, our bible study is going over Reformed Faith. i find it interesting that i am the only one who has studied this in my group. anyways, i was just doing some random pondering and thought about how different the teaching styles of Dennis and Chang were. i mean, gosh dang! chang is so hardcore! haha. like when he teaches something, he TEACHES it! Dennis is good too cause he explains things very simply and easily for unfamiliar students to understand. to break it down...

chang = intellelectual, intense, long
dennis = ghetto, simple, short

but i'm really grateful that i got a chance to be taught by someone crazy like chang. that guy is just this amazing monster...physically and spiritually. haha.

Thought of the Day: "He's" changing me.
Song of the Day: David Crowder-Our Love Is Loud

apologies to all of my faithful readers. everytime i want to blog, some random people just pop into my room and start using my microwave. in fact, half of my blogs are never quite complete. i just kinda have to get to the point, write my Song and Thought of the Day and publish. anyhoo, today is halloween and most of my friends are out so i actually have some time to do some blogging...

yesterday, i found out that my grandmother on my mom's side passed away. simon told me my mom looked really sad so i didn't give her a call. it was really weird when i heard the news. my reaction was very "unreactional." not to sound like a bastard or anything but it was like as if someone told me that tonight's dorm food was horrible. it's very unfortunate but i just swallow it and go on with my life. i wasn't too close with my grandmother...mainly b/c she lived in Korea and i'm over here. another unfortunate fact is that she wasn't christian. well, the way things were looking, i didn't see too much hope for her anyways. it was almost like i already knew she was going to die unsaved. i don't know. i guess i'm really jacked up. i admit, i'm really apathetic about the event. but i'm just being totally honest. i'm very curious about what kind of thoughts are going on in my mom's head cause i know she didn't have good history with her either. but gosh, i'm so grateful for the mom that God gave me. i'm so happy that i have a good relationship with her. i don't care what you guys say about your moms. my mom's super duper better!

man, more and more, i see the depravity of mankind. i meet more and more superficial people. i meet more and more "christians." i meet more and more and more and more! man, it's so hard living as a servant of God in college. it's really difficult evangelizing. it's like i lost my "cajones." but of course i always forget to pray about these things. i rant and rant, but the real solution is in prayer! funny how i know these things yet i don't apply til the last minute.
note to self: DON'T FORGET TO PRAY ABOUT THIS YOU IDIOT!

but i'm surprised to see myself being so consistent in my quiet times. i've been doing them almost EVERY single morning since i came to irvine. remember how i was always talking about how i was reading Kings and Chronicles? well, now i'm on Proverbs! i finished reading Job and Psalms. i'll be done with Proverbs in a few days. man, i really wish i had finished reading the Bible a long long time ago. but anyways, i really enjoyed reading Job cause it was the first time i read it. man, that book is just so profound! it's like you see man's perspective and then BAM! God speaks! its like so dope man. it kinda reminds me of Bahnsen's Debates on tape. like some hardcore athiest would give some funky argument and you're thinking, "oh boy! it's over for the Christian guy. it's gonna take a miracle to win this one." but of course, we all know that truth is always on our side. so the Christian refutes the argument and humbles the crap outta the athiest. it's so cool! you feel like making the biggest "DDEUH!" sound with your finite voice. but back to my point. you feel that Job is totally justified b/c he's like practially living this awesome holy life that you'll never live. but God appears and speaks to Job. man, talk about humility. God is just so AWESOME! it's funny cause he sounds so arrogant but it's like he has every right you know? man Job, IN YOUR FACE BUDDY!!! haha. but you know what i'm talking about. the book of Job is a profound book. it does a great job of showing you just a glimpse of God's character. you should read it if you haven't already.

so i visit jomo's blog and see that he's changed his template. i think it looks nicer but i have a harder time reading his entries with the dark background and the white font. perhaps my eyes just suck. BUT, i also noticed that my blog was under the "Hot Blogs" section. man, what a nudge at my self-esteem! *giggle* i know i know. i really gotta stop that giggling thing. it's really gay. anyways, the template looks nice dude. i'm still a consistent reader. thanks for always updating unlike the rest of this sinful nation.

Thought of the Day: Sarcasm has its limits. Even I can be humiliated.
Song of the Day: DJ Encore-I See Right Through You Vocal Mix

Mack611 (1:18:48 AM): hey
Pretzelboi96 (1:18:54 AM): wassup ken
Mack611 (1:18:59 AM): hows it goin?
Pretzelboi96 (1:19:03 AM): pretty good
Pretzelboi96 (1:19:09 AM): i like irvine alot
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Pretzelboi96 (1:19:20 AM): how's la?
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Mack611 (1:19:43 AM): how r ur classes?
Pretzelboi96 (1:19:56 AM): i'm taking it easy this quarter
Pretzelboi96 (1:20:03 AM): only 12 units
Mack611 (1:20:09 AM): oic
Pretzelboi96 (1:20:31 AM): you still go to church ken?
Mack611 (1:20:39 AM): hehe nah
Pretzelboi96 (1:20:58 AM): oh how come?
Mack611 (1:21:48 AM): oh i dunno, i guess i dont have that fire for it
Pretzelboi96 (1:22:08 AM): oic
Pretzelboi96 (1:22:11 AM): that's too bad
Mack611 (1:23:54 AM): yeah, i mean i believe it, but like im not into it, maybe later on in my life i will
Pretzelboi96 (1:26:20 AM): well, if you're not into it now, i don't see how you'll be "into it" later
Mack611 (1:30:11 AM): i dunno, maybe there will be some problems in my life, and i turn to christ for help through something or someone
Mack611 (1:30:23 AM): i dunno, i have no idea, its just what i think
Pretzelboi96 (1:30:56 AM): well, i encourage you to continue attending church
Pretzelboi96 (1:31:04 AM): it's definitely commanded in the Bible
Pretzelboi96 (1:31:15 AM): it shouldn't be an option just on your opinion
Pretzelboi96 (1:31:30 AM): but i can't convince you, so just really think about it ok?
Mack611 (1:31:36 AM): ok

man, so many people fall away from God in college. remember, this is just ONE example. i know alot more people who show symptoms of a pseudo-christian. but at the same time, it makes me glad that God is uncovering all of the self-deceived. i suppose it'd be better for these people to realize sooner or later. i'm not saying i know for SURE that these people aren't saved, but i think it's pretty clear that they are slowly turning away.

i had the worst sleep in college yet. connie was doing her paper on my computer til like 4 in the morning and i was finally about to fall asleep. then minh comes into my room and starts chatting away on AIM. i've grown to fall asleep even through this disturbing nonsense but last night was just a bummer. and every morning, kiyoshi wakes up around 7 and gets ready for the day. for some reason, i ALWAYS wake up from hearing everything in the morning. i think i got a total of 4 hours of sleep. it sucks being such a light sleeper. sometimes, it just doesn't work out.

however, there's actually some good news! i actually found 2 people on my floor that play chess! and ironically, will is one of them! will is like the buff, lazy guy in our floor and he actually plays chess. it's a seriously a strange world out there.

i have a habit of bragging to my friends that my brother is a really good chess player. i know they can care less but it's fun to brag...even if it's about simon.

Thought of the Day: Insomnia.
Song of the Day: 1TYM-Nasty

my visit home was really nice...

1. oh my goodness, i have never played so much pool in my life.
2. mom's food = 100 pts. dorm food = 10 pts.
3. rally was alot better than i expected. it was one of the better ones i've been too. thanks guys.
4. it was good seeing everybody again. so many people grew so much for some reason.
5. my first college service at kcpc. not bad.
6. you don't understand. i played so much pool!

i was so tired when i got back. i didn't get to buy any water or any "sticky" things for my posters, and i had to "unload." to make things worse...

(walking up to dorm with bags).
doors open.
people: ANGELS WIN!!!!! WHOOOOOOOO! YEEEEEEEEAAAAAAHHHHHH!

but it felt good to be back at irvine too. there was a part of me that missed my hallmates and of course my computer. gosh dang, simon has the sorriest computer in the world! gosh, i just wanna get a hammer and go at it! the stupid thing freezes as if it had a choice. be patient simon. after one year, we're gonna get you a super computer! maybe something like 3.0 ghz, 1 gb ram, and at least 100 gb harddrive ok?

Praise God! i got a B on my Brain & Behavior Midterm! man, i thought i bombed that sucker. dude, this once again comes to show that God is full of grace. we all know that i was supposed to fail. i mean, even Dykas got a C!

Thought of the Day: Time for 2nd Stage baby!
Song of the Day: Bi-Instead Of Goodbye

Pretzelboi96: man, so who won the Series last night hideo?
Pretzelboi96: =D
needfd33: you mean game?
Pretzelboi96: haha
needfd33: not SERIE
needfd33: S
Pretzelboi96: it's practically over buddy
Pretzelboi96: i wouldn't turn that tv on if i were you
Pretzelboi96: you guys lost like no other last night
Pretzelboi96: i'd be ashamed to be an Angels fan after last night
needfd33: naw man the giants don't have any runs left for the following 2 games
Pretzelboi96: lol
Pretzelboi96: you keep talking
Pretzelboi96: i'll just watch
Pretzelboi96: man, you guys seriously got raped
needfd33: man shut up

man, the Giants were awesome last night. i didn't get to see any of it on tv, but just listening to the radio was good enough for me. man, with a game like that, it was absolutely necessary that i watch it with Angels' fans. man, so many people at church would have been so pissed if me, dykas, and pastor dennis were there. we would've cheered like there was no tomorrow. dang, i wish i could've at least watched it with hideo. i know that guy wasn't too happy about Kent's homeruns. he called me up and was like, "what the crap was that?!" eheheheheheheh. good stuff.

it feels pretty good to be home again. last night as i walked into my room, a BIG smile came upon my face and i just could not wipe it off. it was weird. i didn't find anything funny. everything was exactly the way i left it. just the same ol' room. and gosh, what a great room it is!

this morning, i found some pictures on my desk next to my computer. the top picture looked like a picture of me but i couldn't remember what the event was. then i looked at the other pictures and realized that they were all pictures of simon. dude, that kid is seriously getting big. i went into my mom's room and found his school picture. omg. so ugly. so dark. face so big. man, he is seriously going through some hardcore evolution. he is definitely climaxing at his Ugly Stage. man, that thing i call a brother is growing up so fast. freakin' manchild.

man, i brought my books to read over the weekend, but like danny said, i don't think it's going to happen. it just doesn't feel right, coming home and making some time to study. inappropriate. it's time to play baby! lots and lots of playing.

gosh, i was talking to my mom last night and she said that my korean sounded all funny. she's definitely right cause i can't speak comfortably anymore. i stutter after every other word and i have to use more english words than i used to. man, it really sucks. i realized that you need to constantly be speaking to get better and better. man, it's only gonna get worse. but anyways, it's really good seeing my mom again. even though she's like 47 now, i still think she's one of the prettiest korean mom's out there. man, when you go off to college and come back to see your mom, you definitely feel the love. i can seriously sense the happiness my presence was bringing her. i've never seen her smile at me so much. unusual, funny, but nice.

Thought of the Day: Happy Birthday Mom!
Song of the Day: Cleo-Ready For Your Love

i showed Attack the Gas Station to my friends last night. surprisingly, these chinese fellas liked it! of course they didn't laugh at all the appropriate parts but what matters is that they enjoyed it. right after that movie, i watched the japanese version of The Ring. dang, that crap was so stupid. i thought the original was supposed to be much scarier. i guess it's b/c i heard tiff talk about it too much for my ears to handle. why is it that i always expect too much from movies? but at the same time, i also have a tendency to enjoy "stupid" movies that no one else likes.

but speaking of movies, the students at irvine have been going crazy over Mirc b/c we just recently found out that the downloads aren't restricted. this whole week, people have been watching movies movies movies in either my room or will's room. it's really fun watching movies with your dormmates. heck, it's even fun watching it alone, just knowing the fact that you finally got to download something big w/o UCI knowing it! all you non-freshmen, don't take your downloading for granted. it really is a wonderful thing.

so much to do tomorrow....

1. class.
2. hw while doing laundry.
3. pack.
4. hopefully k-town.
5. drive up baby!

much to do on fri....

1. irving.
2. miller's outpost.
3. chess.
4. pool.
5. movie.

i'm so excited!

Thought of the Day: "i'm gonna show off my skills to the cop!"
Song of the Day: You Are My World

random thought:

you know, i think rats are the saddest animals on the face of this planet. in my classes, i always learn about how the brain and body works. but i also learn that rats are like the most common test subjects. rats are constantly fed, starved, given surgery, cut up, etc.. well, i guess that's the only good purpose of having rats in this world. all they do is eat, infect, and scare girls...kinda like simon. haha.

i watched My Sassy Girl on dvd last night b/c i bought it on ebay. man, i really like that movie. i remember absolutely hating it the first time i saw it. it didn't make any sense to me cause i only watched the first 1/3 and also cause my korean sucks like no other. but after you watch it with subtitles and watch the whole thing through, it becomes one of your favorite movies. gosh, Jun Ji Hyun is soooooooo cute too!!! i'm known for being really picky and critical of alotta movies. chang and terrance hate watching movies with me. but if i liked this movie and actually went out of my way to buy the dvd, imagine how much more you'll enjoy it! so go out there and buy the dvd at a korean store nearest you.

Thought of the Day: Los Gigantes son grandes!
Song of the Day: Kaila Yu-Don't Say Goodbye

man, i had such a scary weekend. on friday after i watched Red Dragon, Arthur told me one of the scariest stories i've ever heard in my life. man, we were talking about demons and ghosts all night! it was a very "exciting" night. you know cause it's fun when you're scared. chris would make the funniest noises with his squeky voice, "i'm so scared!" lol. it was funny cause Billy didn't seem scared at all either. he was like soooooo down to do the meeting with the demon thing. gosh, serious balls man! dude, we seriously shouldn't mess with this stuff.

CPC dinner was cool. played a few games, ate some pizza, watched the baseball game, and left to go watch The Ring. man, that movie was pretty scary. i mean, it's scary as you're watching it, but it's stupid when you're done with the movie. but i still liked it b/c it was quite "original" for an American movie. i still think "Phone" was much scarier. crap, now THAT was scary! simon can testify.

so the Giants lost today. man, that was one crazy game. so many homeruns. so many errors and bad calls. just so much emotion! this is a really good World Series. i think it's finally a fair match. it's alotta fun. it's very encouraging to see Giants fans down in Irvine. we're the minority but we still have our pride. gosh, it must be soooooo dope to sit in the bleachers at Pacbell Park. dang CJ! we're supposed to be there! we've been to some great Giants games but this is something we need to experience live!

i played really well in pool tonight. i went "around the word" three times! bascially, i play with hideo, lawrence, and ben. we get one table, the winner keeps playing, and the losers just take turns playing. but once i became the winner, i went around beating them each 3 times! that's 9 in a row fool! haha. it's so weird how alotta people down here use the word, "fool." it's almost like a substitution for "dude." but perhaps it's just a thing that my idiot dormmates use with each other. lol. i love these guys. they crack me up.

so i hear that the senior girls aren't coming out to youth group as much anymore. man, this is such a bad trend that happens EVERY year! i mean, i can understand where they're coming from too. your senior year is full of stress from college apps, but also full of freedom b/c grades don't matter and you have the car almost whenever you want. yes, church can easily become the 2nd option. but if you're a senior and you're reading this, i encourage you to come out to church more often. it can be really discouraging for the youth and the staff. and besides, you're better off being in church anyways. you stupid kids.

Thought of the Day: Terrance and Dykas are scaredy cats.
Song of the Day: Jewelry-Again

right now, i'm listening to Track 04 from one of B's Techno mixes. dang, that seriously evokes alotta memories. i remember all those times i gave that stupid kid a ride home, listening to really loud music with all the windows down while he was asleep with the ugliest expression on his face. lol. i really like B b/c he was like ALWAYS down to hang out. i remember this one time, moe and i were hanging out really early in the morning and B told us to call him no matter how early it was. so we go to his house, call him while he was still asleep, and tell him to come out. B muttered something, came out of his house with the most tired and exhausted face, got into the car, and fell asleep. lol. i love that guy. so persistent. he never lets me down.

it's funny cause he can be so stupid yet be a really sharp kid too. like, he says alotta dumb things that try to make him look smart, but all we do is tell him to shuttup or punch him or sometimes both. however, when it comes to school, he gets grades that i never got in high school. he knows alotta facts. he picks up things pretty quickly. yes, B is an interesting fella. i wonder where he's going to be 10 years from now. anyways, i miss you B. you piss me off but you make me smile.

i took my psych midterm today. studying that extra hour last night actually helped. man, that's like the most i studied in a long time. cramming. not the best solution, but A solution. lol. i can't believe i still made time for pool last night. no matter how busy i am, i ALWAYS make time for pool. well, another midterm tomorrow. shtudy time!

Thought of the Day: Left Hemisphere does NOT see the L!
Song of the Day: Phil's Mix-Track 04

gosh, what a day! one day feels like a series of days...

today, i had class and learned alotta new interesting things. i learned about the "phantom limb," which is when people who have amputated body parts still "feel" that they have those body parts. gosh, it's such a sad thing for people with missing arms or legs. i'm too lazy to explain the details but my point is, never take your well-functioning body parts for granted.

i went to South Coast Plaza with Lawrence and Connie today. Connie is Law's friend from high school and she lives on our 2nd floor. man, i really don't like that mall anymore. it's just too big and inconvenient. it's kind of like Great Mall in San Jose but it's a different kind of inconvenient. sometimes, i question what kinda architects we have these days. it's a sad and stupid world folks. anyways, this was also the first mall i've been to that does not have a Millers Outpost. ok, enough said. we all know that this "great" mall is just full of sham.

however, i decided to look at some poolsticks around Sports Chalet and Sportsmart (did you know that they have alotta Sports Chalets and Sav On Drugs in so. cal., but no Longs Drugs?!). i ended up buying a beautiful poolstick for $60 and a case for $15. after tax, it came out to be $80. i was kinda worried that i had gotten a bad deal, but i later checked online to find out that the retail price was $100! i was very hesitant when buying it at first. i'm very picky when it comes to shopping...indecision at its freakin' best. but gosh, after playing with it today, i felt much more encouraged. Hideo started telling me all these good things about it like how solid it is, the good # and size of tips, and a decent weight. thank you God! may this poolstick bring you much glory!

My Poolstick


after shopping, i went straight to Clusters at Eugene's place. we just discussed what we wanna get out of these small groups. we also discussed the whole Giants and Angels going to the Series. man, so many Anaheim fans except for me, dykas, and pastor dennis. haha. but seriously, everyone knows that SF has the craziest Giants fans. we define HARDCORE! anyways, i still think the Giants are going to choke like they always do. but it's pretty cool that they made it this far. it's been what, 12 years? so yeah, Clusters was really nice and short today. but omg, for dinner dykas and i maxed out at BK! man, we ate at like 7:30 and i'm still full! i ate 3 whopper jrs. and 2 tacos. man, talk about being hungry. yeah, it's nice being a freshmen. your hyungs always spot you for cheap meals.

dude, i got a freakin' virus on my computer, something about getting a virus in my spool thing which involves my printer. it said that it couldn't repair and i started worrrying like crazy. it also said that this virus would cause my printer to start printing out alotta garbage and stuff. man, i was seriously freaking out for a few hours. but after printing out a few things, everything seemed fine. it's just a stupid virus that i can't get rid of, but i don't think that it will be a problem. gosh, there's just so much music and videos on my computer. like over 30 gigs. i can't afford to lose my computer....thank you God once again!

a little earlier tonight, i went into Connie's room and was surprised to find this guy named David playing his guitar and singing Let My Words Be Few with Connie? they're christians? and yes, i met some more people in my building. for some reason, people know that i live in Grey Havens but i don't know them at all. very interesting. but i also met jee-ang, kim, and some other people i don't remember. so many people. so many names. incessant.

ok, no more playing. whether i like it or not, i have to cram like crazy for the next two days. cramming begins tomorrow at 7. prayer is encouraged. thanks.

Thought of the Day: It's All About M.E..
Song of the Day: WC-Hoo Bangin' (simon, dl this).

i was supposed to get my study on on saturday. but right before i was going to study, i went to Mesa Court to eat lunch with dykas. as we were walking to the dining hall, we saw jeff wang and vincent fung from high school! they were staying at greg's place b/c they were going to ucla for the weekend. it's weird seeing your old schoolmates again. it's like we've grown up but we haven't. it's really weird. college does something to you....but i'll talk more about that later. we went to In N' Out and decided to shoot some pool. i guess they were pretty surprised at how good i was in pool, especially jeff. lol. afterall, his only memory of playing pool with me was when we were in 5th grade. after pool, it was about 4:30...and i was supposed to go out around 6 with my friends. well, i was able to squeeze in a few hours so i at least got something done. i guess i'll just have to cram wed. and thurs. night. oh goodie!

so i ended up going to the Block with about 17 other people. *sigh* ok, let's rewind a bit. not too many people know this about me, but i absolutely HATE hanging out in groups bigger than 10 people. 10 is the absolute max....no more, no less. it's hard enough with a group of 6, but i'm willing to tolerate 10. anyways, i hate big groups b/c nothing ever gets done. there's always that lounging around time. so much indecision. so many different conversations going on. it's almost like, what's the point of us hanging out? of course there's a few exceptions to these enormous groupings such as church people. yep, that's about it.

so lawrence ended up bringing alot of his high school friends, which were still in high school. minh brought a few of his friends. and the rest of us were just people from my hall. man, i seriously have a different perspective of high school students now. it's so weird. i mean, i know i'm not exactly the most grown up or experienced figure but these students seemed so immature! i've only been in college for 3 weeks and already, i have this brain-washed perception. perhaps, it was b/c they were just acting really stupid. perhaps, it's just a so. cal thing. perhaps, it's just lawrence's friends that act like morons. OR, perhaps my whole being is gradually hanging without even asking for my permission.

Transporter was a very stupid movie. haha. i bet terrance didn't see that one coming. the movie had some pretty tight fighting scenes...like the doorbell thing and the part where he spills all that oil on himself. then there's that stupid chinese girl who totally jacks up the plot. yes, she was cute. i'll give you that. but that's still no excuse for ruining a movie that had so much potential. i still wanna see Red Dragon. i hear it's really scary.
after the movie, i ended up eating this nasty $3.50 pho. what an awesome way to make me even unhappier. The End.

i learned something new about myself today. i noticed that whenever i meet a new girl, i have a tendency to judge that girl, seeing if she "meets my requirements." it's like this mental checklist i have and i observe and ask questions to see if she qualifies to be anything close to being a possible girlfriend. now, let's not take this out of context and twist phil's words. i am not planning on getting a gf anytime soon. i'm just saying that i have this mental girlfriend checklist thing. it sucks though cause i have yet to meet a girl in irvine that meets my standards. it makes me sad.

but today, i met this one girl that was really cool. i was attracted to her in alotta different ways but in many ways, she was totally not my type. she got alotta checks on my checklist in terms of personality and background. unfortunately, she didn't seem like a devoted christian and she joined a sorority. dude, i don't know why but i seriously cannot stand people who join frats or sororities. it's just really unattractive to me. and finally, i found out that she has a boyfriend.

gosh, she was sooooooooo nice too! not the prettiest but cute. korean. works out. VERY polite. eats very well. haha. i love girls who can eat for some reason! dang, all going down the drain. it kinda made me sad. i live in a campus where there's very few godly students. if they're out there, i just haven't met them. oh yeah, i mean freshmen specifically.

Thought of the Day: See y'all on Friday!
Song of the Day: Yoo Chae Young-Emotion

chris treated me and dykas to some Rubio's last night. gosh dang, Lobster Combo is sooooooo good! it's funny how while i was back at home, chang would always take me to these mysterious places that we'd never heard of. but down here, everyone's like...."have you tried Albert's? how about Albertita's? oh, what about Alberto's?" or something like that. there's sooooooo many places i haven't tried yet, and that's only mexican food. i have yet to try all the good chinese or korean stuff. ugh, freshmen 15.

but man, i'm never going to eat right before church again. food coma was hitting pretty freakin' hard. the friday nights at CPC are basically praise, group discussion over a topic, and then prayer in small groups. it's cool. nice and simple kinda like at kcpc. and of course, after church everyone lounges around...

eugene: we have a tendency to make plans and never do them.

so out when Red Dragon. BUT we went to Eugene's place and hung out there for a while. man, more and more i can't wait til i move into an apartment. it's going to be sooooooo dope! dykas and i wanna move into the same complex as Eugene's. 2 bedrooms. 2 monster closets. kitchen. washer and dryer. man, that's only like $1400-$1600? and it's not so far from campus. i can't wait. i can't wait! it's like the excitement i had before i moved into my dorm. eugene and chris also have an extra fridge in the living room right next to the futon so they don't have to walk all the way to the kitchen to get drinks. lazy bastards. haha. these guys are so cool.

we ended the night with a korean movie, Beat. it's like really old school....when Go So Young actually looked pretty. it was a good movie. a guy movie that is. man, i think these guys have more dvds that PJ! hardcore. dang. man, i never knew eating was so freakin' encouraged in college. like at 2 in the morning, they'd be like cooking teriyaki chicken and they'd continuously ask us if we wanted to eat. haha. "freshmen 15?! you guys are scared of getting fat? what a buncha yujas!"

me: where's eugene?
all of them: (making whip-cracking sounds (supposedy, eugene is incredibly whipped by his gf)).
me: ahahahahahahahhaah.

today, i am going to have to study study study. i have midterms on thurs. and fri.. but after studying, me and like 20 other guys are going to go watch Transporter at The Block, some big plaza with a huge movie theatre. studying hard. playing hard. the college life.

Thought of the Day: "WA-POW!"
Song of the Day: Utada Hikaru-Hikari

the days go by sooooooo fast when you're in college. i can't believe it's already friday! the weekend has finally come. but in all honesty, almost everyday feels like a weekend anyways. however, it wasn't until yesterday that i understood how serious college courses could be. in class, one of the students asked if we needed to know all the parts of the brain. the professor was like, "certainly. names, functions, and locations. everything." (jaw drops). man, that's alot dude. i seriously thought these so called "midterms" would be a piece of cake. man, i gotta study so much over the weekend. now, i understand why cj is always up all night studying. geez, the only reason why i'm up all night is b/c i'm playing with my friends. haha.

yeah, but i think i'm definitely feeling more and more settled. when i think about going back home for thanksgiving, sometimes i don't feel like going back. i feel pretty comfortable in my dorm. i don't really miss nor. cal as much as i did in the beginning. remember, i must emphasize the word, SOMETIMES! i guess it's a good thing though. i need to learn to enjoy dorm life sooner or later right? well, i'm getting more and more sick of dorm food. but i guess i shouldn't take it for granted. it's not like i go to riverside or something. ahhahahahahahahaha. i heard the food is just straight up NAST-AY!

but since i'm thinking about becoming a teacher in the future, i think i'm going to major in Sociology and minor in Education. supposedly, this is a really general and "easy" major so i think it'll work out alrite for me. ah shoot! i need to talk to my counselor today. almost forgot.

Thought of the Day: Phil is great. Blogs are cool. Xangas are gay.
Song of the Day: Ayumi Hamasaki-Fly High

did i already mention that irvine has rabbits instead of squirrels? my friends have like the funniest reactions when they see one...

minh: hey look! a rabbit!
lawrence: yes minh. a rabbit.
minh: dude, that's a rabbit!
hideo: hey, why don't you try catching it? i bet you can't!

so i hear some of the professors are going on strike next tues.. i think this is a very exciting moment for all freshmen. i guess strikes are very regular in college, especially at a place like Berkeley. anyways, i'm looking forward to tuesday. i hope it lasts for a long time. *giggle*

Thought of the Day: Giants win! 9-6!
Song of the Day: Blink 182-Please Take Me Home

i met up with pastor dennis today. it was cool just having a nice chat with him at Cornerstone Cafe. we talked about church, campus ministries, and of course DA GIANTS!!! i always forget that he's from up north so it's pretty cool talking to him. we were talking about how cool it'd be if the Giants made it to the World Series and stuff. gosh, that'd be so dope! i think P. Dennis is doing what PJ was talking about, how he would visit the different campuses like mills and lowell. dennis visits all the UC's like SD, Irvine, and LA. what a nice guy.

as i was playing pingpong today, i saw this girl playing air hockey next to our table. she looked pretty cute and i kept stealing glances at her. then i heard her friend say her name, Cheryl. *trigger* i went to elementary school with a Cheryl before. this girl was pretty short and from far away kinda looked like her. could this be the same Cheryl? i hadn't seen her since 4th grade and supposedly she turned "hecka fine" in high school. then i heard her talk to her friend and she had this REALLY REALLY high squeaky mouse voice that definitely sounded like her when she was in 4th grade. so i go up to her and ask her if she was from up north. ouch! not so fine up close. cute but not THAT pretty. but yeah, it ended up being the same Cheryl that i knew from over 8 years ago. what a coincidence. it's funny how you expect people you haven't seen in a long time to remain exactly the same. unfortunately, us humans go through things called middle school and high school. it jacks everything up. she looked very....uh, what's the right word? i don't wanna say slutty or scandalous. i guess a nicer word would be "presentable" or "conspicuous." haha. a strong explanation with no harm done....unless she reads this. *ahem*

but anyways, i played this one korean guy and he was pretty freakin' good. white people have their own style. chinese people have their own style. gosh, but i think korean people really stand out. i can't explain it. we're just different you know? at least, i think so. well, we played 3 sets and i only won one. but since i played really well, he told me he was going to start coming out more often. we introduced ourselves and shook hands. yeah, pretty cool.

i finally had Del Taco for the first time. gosh, it is sooooooo much better than Taco Bell! i had the Macho Burrito thing deal. gosh dang, so good! so filling at such a slim price! chang, i can't believe you'd deprive me of such food. to you nor. cal folks, go try it for goodness sakes! go now. shoo! off you go!

tonight was our first Clusters meeting. Clusters is basically a small group meeting you have every week with the church people that go to the same church. it's like an accountability group where we discuss different issues or read a book together. i like my clusters group. they're really nice and fun to be with. haha. watching tv with these guys is soooooo fun! they make like the funniest comments. Smallville would normally piss me off but tonight, it was actually entertaining. oh yeah, and the leader's name is Phil Chung too. yeah, the whole college group gets a kick out of it. they think it's like the funniest thing in the world. *shrug* it's just a coincidence to me. there's a guy named Simon in our group. i find that to be funnier. but the whole Phil Chung thing is just whatever. oh yeah, he went to Berkeley and KCPC too.

i think i'm starting to gain my freshmen 15. when i looked at pictures in my wallet and compared it the mirror, my face looked a lot bigger. man, such a big change in so little time.

cathy: phil, did your face get bigger from the last time i saw you?
me: what's that supposed to mean?
cathy: oh nevermind.
me: what's that suppposed to mean?
cathy: don't worry, it looks cute.

"did your face get bigger?" gosh dang. i've never heard such a comment. argh! the food is so unhealthy here and i'm always hungry. what am i supposed to do?!

Thought of the Day: I am NOT a "boy scout."
Song of the Day: Utada Hikaru-First Love

more and more, i'm starting to hate going to class. it's such a hassle. lectures can seriously be so boring. Brain & Behavior used to be interesting. now it's just straight up "drop the pencil and imagine the slideshow has something to do with your childhood." yeah, the reading is getting pretty dull too. i was in the library today and after 3 pages, i buried my head into my arms and fell asleep. gosh, i look at the crap we have to read and always tell myself that it's not going to be on the test. this helps me skip alotta pages which helps me finish "studying." i am definitely not a good study guy person student dude guy. ask simon. he knows. lol. yes, he knows...

but i have to admit, playing in college is sooooooooo much fun! today, i played some more pingpong with lawrence ("king-pong") and finally beat him! i got so much better in pingpong. if you play with me now, i'll smash anything that is not spun. that's right folks. phil is one dope pingpong playa. hmmmmm, speaking of being a playa, i need to correct CJ's comment about "pimpin' chinese girls in LA?" first of all, they're korean. second of all, i am in irvine, not LA. and third, who are you hearing this from? i simply meet people, talk to them, and that's it. no more no less.
but back to my point, college is alotta fun. today, we went the ARC (rec. center) and played some more pingpong. after pingpong, we finally got a chance to play some ball in the gym. i love playing really good 3 on 3 or 4 on 4 games! it was kinda funny b/c we were playing these 4 fobs and they were like totally confident that they were going to beat us. "dude, take him!" "roll off him!" but no, our team was surprisingly pretty good tonight. i was doing pretty good too! i realized that i could be pretty agressive when i play ball. and yes, i sweat possibly every fluid out of my body. so yeah, we beat those guys 21-10. haha. stupid fobs.

to make my day even better, i got to see the Giants beat the Braves! gosh, it's about freakin' time! it was pretty cool b/c a whole buncha Nor. Cal people were watching the small screen and all cheering for the Giants. it was cool, highfives and clapping!

and no matter how much time we have left, we always conclude the night with some pool. all of my friends ordered new sticks online over the weekend. gosh, it's so tempting. i think i'm going to get one from GE the next time i go back up.

i also noticed another thing today. my hall is really "close." pretty much everyone is cool with everyone. all of our doors are open, we eat each other's food, we go eat together, we take the same classes, we all share mpegs and mp3's with each other. it's great. i have yet to see another hall as close as us. i guess i take it for granted. dorm life is pretty cool.

random: japanese music is so dope! i love this crap.

Thought of the Day: 95 pounds ain't so bad.
Song of the Day: Amuro Namie-Walk In The Park