i'm having a pretty rough week so far. ever since monday, things have been getting worse and worse...

monday:

dmv at 9:50 am. didn't have enough money to pay $56.00 fee. gotta mail in forms and wait instead of receiving everything on the spot.

cell phone bill was almost $100. i haven't been scolded by my mom for a looooong time.

tuesday:

i check my bank account history and find out that i've spent almost $700 in one month.

today:

revelations of being slandered w/o having any idea the whole time.

i've been doing alotta thinking today. God is really revealing so much to me all at once. you know, it hits you even harder when you haven't faced any serious problems for a long time. you were pretty content with everything for a period of time. but since you're so used to that easy ride, when all problems arise you get stomped with unhappiness as if you were feeling it for the first time.

i can't believe i spent that much money in just 30 days. even if i had a job, it'd take me 2 months to save up the amount that i spent. what's wrong with me?

i can't believe i used over 600 minutes in one month. this was the first time in a LONG that i went over my minutes...300 minutes over!

you know, i'm not used to hearing that people really dislike or hate me for the way i am. it just hasn't been common in the history of my life. i generally tend to get along with others or don't get noticed much...but rarely feelings of bitterness towards me. and i was thinking to myself....am i being persecuted for my faith? am i suffereing b/c i'm a christian? and sadly, the answer is no. i am being hated just b/c of my regular imperfect behavior. it's very discouraging stuff.

as i was walking to class today, i was thinking about the people that i personally dislike or hate. the people that i do not get along with and i try to avoid. more specifically, people who are not christian. you know, we are called to love them and to witness to them. but i find myself with more frequent thoughts of having them struggle or go through difficult times. instead of hoping that they'll find Christ, i find myself wishing curses upon them...and try to justify my reasoning by saying that God should punish them b/c God is a just God. man, what the heck is wrong with me? such a sinful and messed up thought process.

do people pray for me?

i really wish some people wouldn't read my blog.

Thought of the Day: Hebrews 12 is my favorite passage.
Song of the Day: City On A Hill-Sing Alleluia

do you ever type or write something but you all of a sudden forget how to spell that something? it could be the simplest, most easiest word that you've probably used thousands of times before. well, 2 min. ago, my word happened to be "awful." at first, i typed "aweful." then i typed "awful." then i looked at the two and they both looked funny to me. but the weird thing is, this same word has caused me the same confusion in the past....and i'm not talking about 2 or 3 years ago. i'm talking more like 2 or 3 months ago. it happens quite frequently...well, much more frequently than it should. i'm sure it has something do with long/short term memory being retarded. or perhaps, i'm the only stupid that's going insane.

so i was thinking about how i have a number of readers who read my stuff everyday. i get about 40-50 visits on my blog per day and i just started wondering-why do the people who visit this page actually visit this page? are people actually interested in my material? do people wonder what kinda stuff goes on in my life? do people just check to see if i wrote about them or not? do people just wait for my photo gallery to be updated? i mean, who are you people?! what do you want?! =D i'm just a curious sucker about my blog readers. i guess i read people's blogs for specific and mulitple reasons. for some people, i'm very interested in what goes on in their lives. others have a writing style that encourages me to read their material...funny or not. some of you may have the crappiest material but, yes i do check to see if you wrote about me or not. then of course there are the blogs/xangas that get me all interested but eventually runs out of gas and i don't have the motivation to read your stuff. *shrug* put funny pictures up or something. hehe. i'll visit if you start giving me reason to laugh everyday.

last night, the people in my dorm were drinking so i slept at dykas's place that night. gosh, words cannot describe the wrathful and malicious feelings and thoughts i was having as i left that building. more and more, i see the sinfulness and futility of nonchristians. they seek happiness in these temporary fleeting pleasures, only feeling empty after a while and just going back to it again and again. it disgusts me even more when you hear so called "christians" or "catholics" engaging in these activities as well. i mean, i know what it's like...been there, done that. possibly one of the most depressing times of my life. i think at the time, it hit me harder b/c i had already experienced true and genuine happiness that can only come from God. but anyways, being a light sleeper is a real pain for sure. if you can't sleep (especially when you gotta wake up really early the next morning), you get cranky. when you get cranky, you complain. when you complain and you get ignored, you get bitter. when you get bitter, you start getting these really bad thoughts. and with these bad thoughts, the wrong person/moment can cause you to do some things you wish you had never done. it didn't hit me til later today that i was sinning the whole time with my heart. so much anger and malice and lack of impatience. in God's eyes, i am no better than the people that i live with. such a difficult situation.

after helping out at the new church, i went to the in-reach picnic at CPE. after lunch, we played assah with like over 15 people. this was the first time playing with the older cpc people but it was really fun. dinko's "CHINGOO YAH!" and eddie's "brraaaahhhhhhh!" lol. freakin' hilarious. i'm really glad that we have cool pastor like dennis. like i was eating with charlene, mike and dennis on the ground and they started talking about the best "summertime" songs. lol. then charlene starts busting out with Warren G and dennis starts rapping with her. ahhahahahahaha. so funny. man, that's so cool how he used the "rooster dance!" as his assah symbol. ugh, all these disorganized thoughts to describe the in-reach picnic. just know that it was a nice saturday for us all. =D

after my oh-so-refreshing nap, dykas took me out to soon doobu for dinner. more than just the food, we had a good talk about our families. it's not too often that you stop and think about your family members. very interesting to see the similarities and differences in korean people. and gosh, that reminds me...we watched Marrying the Mafia on vcd cause i accidently bought the wrong one on ebay (i'm so stupid!). gosh, the actress was really really cute and that reminded me of all these other korean dramas and movies that i watch with the pretty actresses. i just think about how there are so many pretty korean girls out there in the world. so so many that are very attractive and "FIOONE!" (haha, karen). but i was thinking, dude of all those really pretty korean girls out there, there HAS TO BE one, ONE godly woman out there for me! why cannot i not any godly women that i can be attracted to physically? first of all, it's really hard to meet godly women these days to begin with. and even after meeting a godly person, what are the odds that she will be really pretty? pretty slim no? not to sound picky or anything but dang, i'm never going to get married!

random: i'm going all out on ebay these days.

Thought of the Day: I don't think they like me anymore.
Song of the Day: Nas-The Message Remix

irvine meets riverside!

we saw the funniest thing as soon as we got off the freeway in riverside. we saw this big sign that said RIVERSIDE PRIDE! omg. ahahahahahahah. we were all cracking up in the car, yelling "OXYMORON!" and "PARADOX!" haha. the next time we see that sign, we decided to take a picture with us throwing up the JJOT! haha.

so we met up with every riversider except milky (for some reason, no one bothered to call her. *shrug*). but we checked out everyone's dorm. i have to admit, their dorms aren't too bad. good amount of space and they get air conditioning! they're dorms are probably the only thing that's better than la. oh yeah, bathrooms weren't too bad either. the halls were pretty much like la's except that the rooms were better. very dormy unlike irvine.

but for sure, the campus was no great sight. alot smaller than i expected and the bad air didn't help either. haha. i didn't even realize that i had a scowl on my face until suzy started laughing at me and pointing it out to everyone. but i guess the rumors were true. my eyes met a good number of cute girls all around the campus and dorms. not bad not bad.

Jilberto's was really good though. it's kind of like Albert Taco's but supposedly not as good? i really enjoyed my carne asada or what i thought to be a guacamole burrito, but nevertheless delicious!

1 Hour Photo wasn't that great. i appreciated Robin Williams's performance but the plot and theme wasn't that great. but the "sharingan" part was hilarious. ahahahahahah. how can dykas think of something like that?

in terms of sports, the Giants won, iverson scored 55 pts and the Lakers lost even though KG fouled out. boba is the way to celebrate! i love milk tea so much more than i ever did. i know i can drink like two of those now and still not get sick of it. i should limit myself to one a week.

we conclude the night with BSB and Moulin Rouge songs. singing in the car is one of the funnest things in the world. no one can disagree with that.

i had my interview at eugene's work place, Elite, today. it's like a SAT center and i'll probaby start around may. start at 8 bucks and probably stay with 8 bucks. seems like an easy job with flexible hours. i may stay down south afterall.

Thought of the Day: VCD?!
Song of the Day: Wu-tang Clan-Shaolin Worldwide

in korean, we paired up to make up this dialogue thing to perform in front of class. so i get paired up with this girl named Joanne. up until today, i thought she was this nice, quiet, studious girl who seemed pretty americanized...you know, just a nice korean girl. but dang, when we were discussing the dialogue...

me: ok, so let's just talk about the performance part and make it up as we go along ok?
joanne: how about we just go over what we're going to talk about?
me: alrite.
(discussing).
me: wait, i'm the actor and you're the girl.
joanne: yeah! so you ask me about the play!
me: but I'M the actor! YOU'RE supposed to ask ME! i think you misunderstood the story.
joanne: (gives me a bad look). no he's not!
me: yes he is.
joanne: prove it!
(i show her).
joanne: oh ok.

dang, she was like this totally different person from what i expected. i guess my dialogue with her makes her appear to be this angry stubborn monster girl. but really, she isn't. i was just shocked to see her this way today. totally not what i expected.

midterm grades:

bio: 22/29...with the curve it'll probably be a B.
psych: 46/60...the garbage teacher doesn't believe in curves.

but these days, i've been walking through Aldrich Park which is the middle part of Irvine. it's this big park with lots of trees and grass. looks VERY nice these days with the awesome sun and blue sky. it totally tells you that it's springtime. i really appreciate it every time i walk through it. it's one of the few things that i take pride in our campus. you know you appreciate something when you just stare and say to yourself, "damn that's beautiful." hehe.

Thought of the Day: Today is a B day.
Song of the Day: The Vines-Get Free

so i finally finished my first round of midterms for this quarter. gosh, the price you have to pay for not studying on a regular basis. on monday night, i crammed 80 pages from 10-5 in the morning. excluding the breaks, that's 6 hours of psychology for ya. during these studious hours, i learned just how intolerant my body is to caffeine. i bought 4 vanilla frappuchinios, assuming that i'd be needing all of them to stay up all night. haha. my loser body drank one at 11 and didn't need another one til the midterm. it's weird how some people can actually fall asleep after they drink coffee. it's almost like a sleeping pill for them. but gosh, i really feel the effects of caffeine after 15 min.. body starts getting all jittery, my eyes feel like they have no blindspots, and i have this desire to clench my teeth. it's practically a drug for me with many side effects. i wonder if i'll ever become a coffee addict.

last night, we celebrated old phil's birthday by eating at this japanese restaurant. it was cool cause we finally got to see his girlfriend, cathy! man, i wasn't sure who she was at first cause she looked really young. i just thought she was a friend of one of the third years but she actually turned out to be his girlfriend! gosh, i'm so proud of phil. that old guy found a pretty cool chick who was actually pretty attractive. she was really quiet, polite, and nice...kinda reminded me of chang's FIANCEE, young. hmmmm, i actually think they're the same age too! but yeah, i was pretty glad that phil liked his gift from us. we got him a card that said, "REST EASY GRAND-DAD." lol. and we just covered the inside part of the card with a nice picture of Barry Bonds hitting a homerun. ahahahahaahha. but his real gift was a white Angels jersey. fortunately, it fit him just right! i know that fool liked our gift. ASSAH!

i forget why but i started listening to the Beatles. i always thought some of their big hits were catchy but it wasn't until yesterday that i decided to give them a chance. i wanna listen to like ALL of their stuff but stupid Filetopia is being gay and i'm having trouble downloading stuff. but some of the stuff that i got is pretty good. it's kind of like Seotaiji. a very revolutionary group that made music you can appreciate no matter how many years have passed. if you have any recommendations, my ears are wide open.

geez, there's really alotta stuff i wanted to blog about but i'm just freakin' lazy right now. lack of motivation.

Thought of the Day: "As long as I'm serving God, it really doesn't matter."
Song of the Day: DJ Logic & Fuzion-Track 15

after last night, i realized that i am definitely sick and tired of dorm life. there are just so many reasons why i hate living in the dorms. fall quarter was freakin' awesome. so much fun hanging out all night doing stupid stuff. winter quarter calmed down a bit and there wasn't much bother. but this quarter, it's really hitting me that i cannot stand living in the dorms with certain people. i seriously cannot wait til i move into the apartments with just 3 other people. living with 9 other people just takes away all of your privacy, respect, and most of all YOUR SLEEP! people coming in and out of the rooms, looking through your stuff, borrowing your stuff, eating your stuff, breaking your stuff. people knocking on your door when you're sleeping to ask you a stupid question. people leaving your room and not bothering to close it. people bringing over their friends at the most inconvenient hours and being louder than necessary. i mean dang, some people can be so inconsiderate. very selfish and not giving a garbage about you. and i mean, it's not like you can do anything about it you know? you can't whine and complain to these people about your inconveniences. they'll ignore you and/or look at you as a bitter person that needs to "chill." that's the worst you know? when you're stuck in a bad situation and you're forced to keep it to yourself. well, 7 more weeks to go in this hellhole. it's a wonder how some people can be so patient.

i was talking to genie last night in her room after church. it pretty cool cause i like never talk to her besides hellos, goodbyes, and questions about the psych. final. i think she already told me this earlier during the year but she said told me again. she told me that one thing she really regrets about freshmen year was not taking advantage of her education. we pay thousands and thousands of dollars for these classes and we often take it for granted. we never open the book until it's time to cram for the final. we never look through our notes during the week just to review previous lectures. basically, her point was that college is FOR us! it's here to help us and teach us. we ought to learn learn learn! gosh, i should stop bsing my classes and really study it! even it the material isn't on the midterm, i should still learn and understand it for my own sake. words of wisdom from genie kim. thank you.

congratulations to all who are getting confirmed tomorrow. confirmation/baptism means nothing if you're not living it. go out there and show the world guys!

Thought of the Day: I do not love.
Song of the Day: Linkin Park-Don't Stay

the long awaited thursday was In N' Out Nite! all you can eat In N' Out cheeseburgers for dinner! i remember when i was taking the Middle Earth tour during the summer, the tour guide told us about different themes that they had in the dining halls throughout the year, and the only one i remembered was In N' Out Nite. haha. i was so excited this week that my JJOT crew and i postponed riverside's visit to next week. so my record for In N' Out is 3 cheeseburgers including fries. on thursday, since i hadn't had a SINGLE thing to eat the whole day (not even water) and b/c i had unloaded right before dinner, i was able to finish 4 cheeseburgers including fries! i honestly could have forced down a fifth but that would have just been gluttonous. man, i can't believe "karen" ate 4 cheeseburgers AND a grip of ribs! haha. but i knew that his 4th burger was totally forced cause he felt like throwing up afterwards. lol.

this week has been a pretty good week for me. very chill in terms of school. i basically missed almost all of my morning classes and just chilled after all of my classes. no studying at all! so school was cool. in terms of my walk, i had a very blessed week as i fasted lunch everyday and spent time reading the gospels. God also gave me the opportunity to have some good conversations with people that actually applied to what i've been reading this whole week...ROMANS 4! i've come to realize that many people struggle with "living up to the standards of a christian." i think too many people don't realize that Christ's death justifies us and makes us perfect in God's eyes. people keep saying things like, "it's too hard to live the christian life." or "i don't see too many christians living the way they are supposed to be." the common idea is that salvation is work-based and not faith-based. that is what Romans 4 was about...how Abraham was justified by his faith and not by his works. but of course, we cannot forget that faith PRODUCES works. and we cannot forget that yes, even christians are imperfect and still sin! i suppose it is a very difficult concept for nonbelievers to grasp. i mean, the concept of faith is pretty hard to swallow if you yourself do not believe. only God's grace can change that i suppose. so while i had some difficult conversations with different people, i am still encouraged that God is sovereign and as a reult, glorified!

so today's Good Friday was very good to me. i think of all the years i've been a christian, this was the first Good Friday that i actually took the time to appreciate Christ's death. it finally hit me that i do not spend enough time reading the Bible or praying for my fellow believers and myself. man, what a conviction! during today's sermon, i was thinking about how Jesus was praying in the garden of Gethsemane to ask for any possible way out. sweating blood and praying words with tears, suffering was something He did not want to face if He did not have to. that really hit me you know? to beg to His own Father, but still following through with what was to happen. that is a love that you cannot describe. that is a grace that you will never fully comprehend.

funny moment of the day:
(playing Nirvana-Smells Like Teen Spirit).
aaron starts going insane with his imaginary drums.

me and dykas: ahahahahahahahha.

random:
(from my brother's blog).

so my mom came back today at around 2:30ish. man....... the first thing she said when she walked in the door. "ahahahahhahaha... how is my little dedgi gogi!" in korean.

lol. my mom and i are so similar in some spects.

Thought of the Day: Oh the wonderful cross!
Song of the Day: Oasis-Wonderwall

you know when your spiritual life isn't doing so well and you pray to God to restore you and stuff? when your life is crap and God is totally discipling the humility out of you (actually into you), that's when you go to God when you have no where else to turn to. but i've been thinking, do we turn to God b/c we are called to turn back to God or just b/c we wanna be happy again? i think that i often turn to God just to be happy. a very selfish yet honest reason. everything that i do seems to be for the sake of me being happy. i study hard so that i can get a good job to live a happy life. i hang out with friends b/c having fun makes me happy. and nevertheless, i turn to God b/c He is the only one that can make me happy. happy happy happy. what if turning to God didn't make us happy? what if it only straightened our lives and that's it? would i still turn to God? of course God is the ulitmate source of happiness but what if you know? even though God disciplined us and everything, would we still turn to HIm if He didn't bring us happiness? i wonder if this makes any sense. i wonder.

i've been pretty lazy these days. i didn't go to my psych. class yesterday and i didn't go to my bio class today. i mean, i wake up on time and everything. i even get out of my bed to pee. but i climb back onto my bed and start thinking...do i really wanna go to class today? is it absolutely necessary that i go to today's lecture? and i start listing all the pros and cons and i usually have many more cons. but gosh, those pros just sound so much favorable when you're that tired you know? haha.

last night, i got a chance to hang out with esther ko from ccm. i learned that she can eat very well (5 chicken tacos at 2:30 in the morning!) and that she really loves spicy food. she also has these awesome nicknames like "esther the molester," "esther the fester," "esther ko ko puffs," and "esther ko ko mong." lol. gosh, i didn't know what a fester was until she told me that nickname (a sore that generates puss...gross). after we worked out the arc, we watched the Korea vs. Japan soccer game at howard's place with sharon. it was pretty fun watching korea play soccer again. notice how i didn't say i liked watching soccer, but rather liked watching KOREA play soccer. gosh, i seriously hate watching that sport. back and forth and back and forth and ALMOST and back and forth! it was pretty frustrating cause Japan won in overtime when they were SO close to going into Sudden Death! the stupid ball bounced off the guy's body in the air and barely fit into the goal. AISH! haha. so that's why i didn't go to class today. going to bed at 5:30 and losing to Japan in OT just doesn't encourage you to review The Brain.

Thought of the Day: DAE HAN MIN GOOK!
Song of the Day: Moulin Rouge-Your Song

you know, i was thinking about how people do nice things for each other. example: treating to a movie, helping with a math problem, giving a friend a ride, etc.. why do we do nice things for each other? and i think i was reading my psychology book and it said something like people do these things for selfish reasons. people expect something in return for these "kind" acts. if you drive someone somewhere, you EXPECT a thank you. if you buy someone a gift, you EXPECT them to get you one too (don't we all during x-mas?). the list goes on and on. and i was thinking about how i tell myself that i should be nice and do all these things b/c it's a "christian" thing to do. but gosh, i don't think i've ever done a free deed w/o selfish reasons. i mean, i'll tell myself that it's a good thing to do but unconsciously i'll want something in return...even if it means having that person think that i'm a nice person. i'm a selfish bastard no?

this week is Passion Week which has Good Friday and Easter towards the end. alotta people have decided to fast throughout the week through not eating a meal, no aim, or no tv. i think that's great and all how we're sacrificing our regular "necessities" of life for God this week. however, i think too many times people forget WHY and HOW we are to fast. like if someone is fasting from eating, they grumble and complain about how hungry they are. or if someone can't use their computer, they let everyone know about how they're sacrificing such a big thing for a whole week. but gosh, what does Jesus tell us in the Bible? we are not to be like the pharisees who try to get everyone's attention to be worthy of sympathy and praise. guys, we are called to fast in secret with God. this does not mean that you can't tell anybody that you're fasting, but you shouldn't go running around your campus yelling how you haven't eaten for 12 hours! and when you fast, you don't just abstain from the act that you're sacrificing. those times of sacrifice ought to be used in times of meditation...prayer and scripture. i mean, what's the whole point of fasting and just going along with your regular day? that's right, i don't see any significance in it either. guys, not only do i encourage you to fast during this week, but really think about HOW and WHY you're fasting. and i know i'm guilty of this too but fasting shouldn't only be done on these special occasions. these moments should continue even after easter or any other day. guys, let us try to focus on Christ's death and what it means for us this week.

finally finished Jeremiah. on to Lamentations.

Thought of the Day: Praise God!
Song of the Day: Chris Tomlin-Everything

i saw Better Luck Tomorrow yesterday with terrance, andrew, and sun. i didn't hear about it til a few days ago when my roommate showed me the trailer. unlike alotta people, i kinda liked the movie. i thought it sorta original in its own way and there were a number of entertaining parts. "i never agreed to this. this is gonna cost you extra." haha. i mean, there were alotta fake parts and stupid exaggerations. but at least the girl was cute and the movie actually focused on asian americans for once!

man, i've been gambling with willburt everyday for like 2 weeks now! don't worry, it's not like i'm a crazy maniac with money as its god. i go in with about 2 dollars and just have fun that can last anywhere from 10 min. to 2 hours. i like to think of it as an arcade. you're throwing away two dollars but you have fun with those two dollars. and sometimes, you actually win money unlike real arcades that only give you 5 min. of pleasure. whoever has the most money plays house until someone starts winning alot. but yeah, it's really fun when like everyone plays...bunz, willburt, frankburt, and minh. the more the merrier...or sometimes, the more the sadness.

today, i went to watch Phone Booth with dykas and leonard. it was alrite. not the greatest but surely not a sucker. that collin ferrel guy's not a bad actor. he's no kevin spacey but i think he performed pretty decently. after the movie, we had dinner together and dang did i eat so much today! you know when you have those days when you can just eat and eat and eat? like you find yourself going after seconds, then thirds, then fourths, and sometimes even fifths? i'm normally not a junkfood freak but today, i ate 2 pizzas, 2 plates of salad, a corndog, and a banana. if you're not surprised, it's b/c you don't know me that well. i usually stop after 1 pizza and 1 plate of salad...not b/c i'm on a diet but b/c that's just all i can usually take for dinner. but after eating twice as much the usual, i was still debating whether or not to eat a second corndog! THEN, i come back to the dorms and i start eating a whole buncha oatmeal raisin cookies (i never eat cookies). the fun doesn't stop there. i see willburt eating minh's Pringles so i join his snacking and i decide to quit after one final cookie and an orange. gosh, can my burp get any louder?

after i dropped dykas off, i bought me 6 pairs of socks at Mervyn's. gosh, makes me so happy. i love buying small things that we usually never appreciate. you know, things like Kleenex, gum, shampoo, film, etc.. i don't know, it just makes me full good when i buy these things cause i won't have to worry about them for a while again. but today was socks. i came into college bringing alotta pairs but too many became too holy so i just sent them to the can. aren't new socks the greatest? your feet feel so good dude! it's like dude, my feet feel so good! haha. i'm so stupid.

Thought of the Day: Studying. That's something I didn't do today.
Song of the Day: Park Yong Ha-Like That First Day

i THINK i've figured out how my classes work. bio will only test things from the lectures. psych. is just straight up following the book. korean, i just go for fun. hehe. but anyways, since i've figured out how i'm supposd to study, that means i'll only be reading from my psych. book...mondays and wednesdays. every other day is just chill. i mean, i've already returned my bio book. haha.

if you follow my reasoning, thursday was a free day for me after class. sooooooo, i decided to take a trip to ucla with dykas. man, ucla really IS a great campus! i definitely think it's the best UC to go to...

me: dang dude. this place is so nice!
dykas: yeah, it makes me wish that i had studied harder! it's so....hey look a squirrel!
me: ahhaahhahaha.

ucla is basically a whole buncha bricks, construction, and stairs and stairs and STAIRS! their store is really awesome. they have a gang of dining halls. the dorm food was in a high class of its own. the campus is super big. olivia is definitely going to love it.

i was thinking about how much better la was than irvine. but i think i like irvine so much more in alotta ways too. we're not super big so everything won't be more than a mile away. i still think we have hotter girls. we don't have billions of stairs. our dorms our nicer. we have fewer dining halls but i really do appreciate the food that we eat. and finally, the PEOPLE! irvine just has a buncha awesome people. i think since irvine doesn't have too many "smart" people, we're all so chill you know? everyone likes to play and just have a good time. man, can i sound anymore biased? with this reasoning, i guess SD would be a good balance b/w irvine and LA. *shrug* as long as we have aaron (aka karen), we're still the best UC. haha. JJOT!

afterwards, dykas and i went to the ccm bonfire thing. tonight, i met terry (?), jennifer, eugene, naomi (chinese chick!), and this other girl with a weird name. gosh, all these fools live in mesa court! the only middle earthers are me, esther, and hana. oh that reminds me! esther and i were talking about majors. that reminded me of...

jess: psych. major?! YOU?!
me: yeah why?
jess: that's the last major i'd expect you to be!

(eating my second plate of salad).
jess: psych. major and SALAD?! PHYKAS?!
me: oh yeah you guys don't know. i really like salad.

you know, i just recently found out that psych. majors have the stereotype of being lazy and choosing it as a last resort. that's so weird cause the whole time, i thought psychology majors were cool! i thought it was kind of a "smart" major cause it's like you're studying a mix of science and people stuff. bah! what do they know? bio majors are the stupid ones! cs majors are the losers. i win. they lose.

Thought of the Day: Thanks jess. Thanks crawford.
Song of the Day: HOT-Wedding X-mas

awesome!

I am Krusty the Clown!
Which Simpsons Character are YOU?

Thought of the Day: Simon's coming down.
Song of the Day: Chris Tomlin-Everything

i had a pretty good day today. here are the reasons....

1. i got to drop my writing class. no problem.

2. brandywine had good salad today.

3. i was able to sell by bio book for its full price.

4. i turned in my fafsa stuff and the lady gave me a one month extension for me to send in my dad's stuff later.

5. i got naruto 26 today.

6. i finished all of my psych. reading. 30 pages on different theories on emotions is tough stuff.

7. i got into gospel choir!

so dykas has been bothering me for a while to join this class cause it's supposed to be really fun and an easy A. i was pretty reluctant at first mainly b/c i was lazy and i didn't want to go to class from 7-10 at night every monday. however, since alotta other people were taking it and i also heard that it's such a fun class, i gave it a try. man, so many people! our teacher is obviously black and fudge can that man sing! he's definitely talented in music as he teaches us how to sing as he plays the piano and sings along with us. man, he's so amazing! he knows how all the altos and sopranos and tenors and basses are supposed to sing. but not only is he talanted but he's also really nice and funny. remember, i have a thing for big fat black guys. haha. he kinda reminds me of Cedrick the Entertainer but a christian version. "oh LoooOOORRD!" lol. and dang, he makes our crappy voices sound so good as we all sing our parts together. we really DO sound angelic and actually DO sound somewhat like a gospel choir. i seriously now have a strong appreciation for gospel choir music. i never did understand what was so great about it but after tonight, i feel that it's like "REAL" praise. and yeah, you totally understand why those black choirs sway left and right, clap their hands, and smile with their loud voices. you totally get into it. Phil gives it two thumbs up!

afterwards, i seriously worked my body OUT! my usual work out PLUS an hour of some intense basketball. i played alrite today but man, my shot's been pissing me off alot these days. i don't know what it is. ever since spring break, NOTHING'S been going in. i'm sure dykas notices the change in my game too cause i play with him almost all the time. argh! HOWEVER, the exercise was really good. totally sweated out gallons onto my shirt and believe me, it's no thing to be proud of. well, except for the fact that i exercised like no other. i'm just thankful that i didn't pull my right calve. ALMOST, but not quite. my eighth reason for having a good day.

random:

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teacher: now, if a normal person were to see a fly and a tree, what kind of connection would he make?
student: they're both living things.
teacher: yes, that works. well, this one time i had a schizophrenic patient and i asked him the same thing. he told me, "well, flies live around trees and they have thousands of eyes...but they're all staring at me.
me: what the...

Thought of the Day: "Glory Glory...Hallelujah!"
Song of the Day: Nicole Nordeman-Holy

well, it looks like i'll be moving into Park West on september 6th. three weeks before school starts again. so i don't know what i'm going to be doing this summer. i mean i want a job and pretty much play. my original plan was to take eugene's job at the tutoring place and just live in my new apartment. but since i won't have the apt. and since i don't really wanna live with other people during the summer, it looks like i'll be up north for most of the time. that actually might work out if i could start working at the credit union again and start tutoring some kids. hmmmmm...easy money with a very very flexible schedule. but i have plenty of time to worry about that later.

today wasn't such a great day of news. people getting kicked out of schools and breaking up with girlfriends. some unfortunate stuff to swallow you know? man, it's times like these when it takes alotta faith to still praise God. such difficult circumstances that you just don't understand. but like i learned in bible study today, it's when we're humbled that we are closest and most depended on God. repentance is key.

so in my korean class, i ended up being partners with one of my classmates, fabiana, from my last korean class. she's a pretty nice girl. originally from brazil and she can understand portuguese! i find that very interesting how so many korean people are from brazil. it's even more interesting when you hear them speak portuguese. it's like a mix of french and spanish or something. and gosh, they come up with the funkiest names! i mean dude, fabiana and simone? haha. hmmmm, i don't even remember why i started writing about all this. random words coming out of my typing fingers.

Thought of the Day: I suck at basketball.
Song of the Day: Rebecca St. James-Pray

so next year's roommates have come down to dykas, aaron, and this guy named derek. the three of us don't know derek too well but aaron met him at some newsong thing. just yesterday i found out that he was chinese and we all had lunch together today. he seems like a pretty nice guy. he doesn't seem too social and he doesn't like any sports except ice hockey. chinese guy liking a sport like hockey. that's a first no? he doesn't play much video games but he does play cs. oh, a big plus about him was that he could supposedly cook! but anyways, i guess he'll be ok to live with. i mean, it's not like you have to be the bestest of buddies with whoever you're living with right? especially since he's chinese! hehe, just kidding.

tonight, i had dinner with a whole bunch of ccm people at commons. man, i guess it really is true how these campus ministries are great places to meet some cool people. today, i got to know some of the sophomore girls a lil better. their volumes are a bit high but they're nice and fun people. haha. and sitting next to jamie was an interesting experience. i've come to realize that whenever i meet people, i either come off as being kinda quiet or really mean. i guess that's just my type of humor. the mean kind. but that's ok, people laugh and that's how i get to know them. i mean, there IS a nice side of me in here somewhere. you just gotta dig dig dig!

oh but there was this one thing i forgot to write about last night. that guy, james, (that's his name, james...the guy who's really passionate about apologetics). he shared something very interesting at ccm. his one dream in life was to study like crazy and have a televised debate against the world's most renown atheist an just rock him! haha. i thought that was a pretty cool dream that he shared with us. i mean, most people dream of becoming rich or finding cures for diseases. but james's thing was to show the whole world the futility of nonchristians. awesome.

tonight, almost everyone in my suite went drinking or clubbing or partying or something. they asked me to come but i denied the offer. however, i became all discouraged about the whole deal cause i started thinking about it in a little more depth. i might have appeared to show no interest in going out with the pagans. however, what exactly was going on in phil's heart? of course i wanted to go! i wanted to get drunk like a moron and dance the night away! oh how fun it must be, hanging out with a whole buncha girls and not having a care about the world. you see, just the fact that i even entertained the thought of having a sinfest comes to show how ungodly i am. i shouldn't even be CONSIDERING the party! a godly person would have straight up thought that it was wrong and displeasing to God. oh how i lack godliness. oh Jesus come and take me home!

Thought of the Day: Ross is my favorite character.
Song of the Day: Moulin Rouge-Lady Marmalade

these past few days, i've been working out at the arc. pushups, stomach machine things, and 2 miles. i even decided to start using minh's weights to work out my biceps and forearms. pretty cool huh? but don't worry, the last thing you'll be seeing is a buff homo. i'm just trying to stay in some sort of shape and trying to stay away from flabs...not that i don't have them already. i was gonna brag that i've been very consistent (3 days or more), but i missed my workout today cause i went to ccm.

ccm was pretty cool today. once again, met some more people. we all went to Harber House, which is supposed to have some bomb omelettes. *shrug* i was too full to eat anything so i passed on every offer. for dinner, i ate a chicken burger, curly fries, 2 small plates of caesar salad, a bowl of soup, a plate of this rice thing, and a banana. one more bite would have tore my stomach. *phew* but i did have alotta pleasant conversations with laura and becky. 2 juniors. it's so weird cause becky reminds me so much of third year susan. in my eyes, they look alike and i keep telling myself that they act alike too. but i had alotta fun with them.

i also met this one guy who's supposedly hardcore with theological books. i mentioned stuff about apologetics and we started getting all worked about Bahnsen. lol. he was like, "dude, i thought i was the only one! it's so awesome to meet someone else who knows about this stuff too!" haha. it was pretty cool meeting another student so passionate about theology. he'd have a great time with chang for sure!

and finally, i took esther and dykas home. since esther lived in middle earth with me, we had a long walk from parking lot 1B. she's a pretty cool chick cause i feel like we're kinda similar on some levels. like the more we talked, the more we realized that we were both not fobs, but not SUPER americanized either. like we had a good balance you know? i think that's really cool cause i have yet to meet someone who's in the same boat as me. *shrug* but she's a cool chick.

esther: who's dykas?
me: daniel! that's what we call him.
esther: oh really? why?
me: you know, how people call me phykas?
esther: they call you phykas?
me: *sigh*

i hope all these people i'm meeting result in some good friendships. none of this another stupid acquaintance crap. i mean, it's alrite and everything but my list is full!

Thought of the Day: The brain only uses 10% of its resources. Myth.
Song of the Day: Jaci Velasquez-God So Loved The World