tomorrow is the end of phykas and danny boy...

here i am, sitting on my chair with my keyboard on my lap, staring at my computer monitor which sits on top of my desktop. the desk is at the new apt. along with everything else except for my bed. "I love my Nor Cal box b/c it has handles." says danny boy. he's packing all of his crap right now. man, i swear we had JUST moved in yesterday. i still remember moving into this apt. with my freakin' bed from up north and my ridiculously inconvenient desk.

apt. memories...

-watching movies on danny's computer
-crush talks
-playing hold'em with kevin
-pushups
-watching korean dramas
-cramming bio at the same time
-watching that guy play Madden like a crackhead
-listening to his stupid humming in the bathroom
-getting pumped up to WC
-that one night he ate too much In N' Out during finals week
-making food for that bastard e-v-e-r-y-d-a-y
-getting the "finger" with his stupid smile

poor danny boy...he's going to miss me SO much!

Thought of the Day: When I move you move.
Song of the Day: Modest Mouse-Float On

"after you get back from paraguay, you go through some reverse culture schock thing. i'm going through it right now. really lonely. i got a call from doe, edu, and grandpa joe today. i was SO happy when they called. that is really sad."

that was an entry from july 22nd. after one month, who would've thought that those three would be the people i'd be hanging out with the most this summer. it was always a movie, eating, slapjack, or Cerritos Library.

well, the fellowship has finally broken. i drove up to nor. cal with grandpa joe to help him move in. i can't believe he lives less than a block from my uncle! moving in was alotta work but it was good spending much time with joe these past few days. i still find it funny how i've been hanging out with a 23 and 24 year old almost everyday this summer. funny what a bond in Christ can do.

some things i've learned about myself this month:

1. i CAN use earplugs to fall asleep!
2. i can be impatient.
3. i can be insensitive.
4. i can be stubborn.
5. race & background matter to me no matter how hard i try.
6. so. cal really spoils you. i really really miss it.
7. i idolize people.
8. i need to remind myself of the Gospel ALL THE TIME!!!

believe it or not, numbers 2-4 were rude awakenings for me. i apologize to all who have experienced any form or combination of those three. i am sinful and still learning and always will be. rebuke, forgive, and encourage me.

you know, i actually want school to start again. i want to start being productive and busy again. i want to learn and exercise and keep myself disciplined in alotta areas of my life. i think studying is a very difficult yet WONDERFUL thing! a loser am i? perhaps. perhaps, YOU'RE the one who needs to mature and start looking at things differently. at least i'm not the one who'll be dreading 5 days of the week 3 months at a time. that's right...life IS tough, sucka!

can someone find me a verse on encouraging others?

Thought of the Day: Abhor immature people.
Song of the Day: Yann Tiersen-Comptine D'un Autre Ete

i started writing in a journal today. i actually started writing in paraguay and i told myself i'd officially start once i got back. funny how it took me over a month. anyways, the point is that i finally started and it feels pretty good. it's almost healthy to write in a personal journal i think. i suppose blogs/xangas are just convenient in terms of transferring your thoughts at a much faster rate.

well, i guess won't be keeping up with this blog AS much as i'm used to. a few here and there when the journal is not available or when i publicly want to share with the rest of the world.
"...and in case i don't see ya, good morning, good evening, and good night." *smile*
-jim carrey

Thought of the Day: 1900!
Song of the Day: The last song of the duel

i started august with a temp. job as a counselor/babysitter for kids from all over the country. there was this conference thing for some drug company for 4 days so my job was to go on field trips all over so. cal with the kids of these pharmacists...

hours: 7am-6pm.
days: wed.-thurs.
age group: 12-17
places: Venice Beach, 3rd St., Hollywood, Hard Rock Cafe @ Citywalk, WB Studio, Soak City, and Disneyland.

i couldn't make it to Disneyland b/c i had the Freshmen Trip to go to. but man, the funniest thing was when i saw kids from states like Indiana and Ohio go up to the beach and start taking pictures of the water...

me: hey, do you want me to take a picture of you and the beach and maybe with some sand?
kid: no, it's ok. (takes 5th picture of just the water).

i really learned from this job that American kids (white/black) are SO different from Korean kids. i think American kids are just nicer in general and alot more mature. but yeah, all food, transportation, and tickets were paid for. i was having alotta fun on the fieldtrips and no tax was taken out of our paychecks. payday was indeed a GOOD day.

Freshmen Trip was pretty fun. i got to know a FEW of the freshmen a lil better since only a FEW came. but burying euggles in the sand and watching him act like a sand monster caused some good laughs. all in all, i have much hope for this year's youngest class.

after all of that good stuff, i had meetings for officers and meetings for yg counselors. busy times indeed...almost frustrating sometimes. but yg retreat was definitely a good time! i was so encouraged by my 8th grade boys whom i had this past winter retreat. there were definitely moments of immaturity and disobedience, but it just mades the serious and cooperative times that much sweeter. like i had already shared at the retreat, this was also the first retreat where my team actually got first place in the games! we got first in the rap game (JDI squared!), first in the skit ("cause i'm checkin' YOU out."), and my cabin won the scripture memory contest!!! i got to see many grow and mature. i got to know alot of the kids better. i got to show off Casa De Dios in front of the whole yg! i didn't think i'd get anything out of the retreat, but i felt like i went through a retreat just like the students did. i actually learned from the very bible studies i was teaching and even felt encouraged by some of p. jason's "reformed charismatic" sermons. haha. i don't know. even though i didn't get to go to Six Flags with my brother, i have absolutely no regrets going to the Living Out The Faith retreat. i love those yg kids. praise God!

however, the fun never ends. i still have cg retreat to go to next week and i have to move out of this apt. and move in to another one afterwards. ugh, i'm running on only 16 hours of sleep from the past 3 days. so much more i want to say but so much more tired i feel...

sophia is hecka cute!

JJJJJJDDDDDDIIIIIIII!!!

haley knows chris and becky and laura!

unreforme...

so full from VI...

tomorrow is the Lord's D...

Thought of the Day: Retreat was really good.

Song of the Day: Jesus Generation

as busy as i am, i am enjoying my summer. i have never had a busier summer than this one. everyday is a jampacked day! Jesus, take me now!

Thought of the Day: Another officers' meeting.
Song of the Day: You Said

i've been back in the states for a little over a week now. this past week and a half has been spent hanging out with edu, grandpa joe, and occasionally some of the other team members. have i been in isolation and loneliness? not really. exclusive to only paraguay team members? yeah sure, why not? but anyways, i really haven't given much thought about my experience in paraguay until yesterday's drive back down to so cal. so i guess this is my "mini-testimony", if you will...

i had made my decision to go on missions this summer during my winter break. i had really thought and prayed about it and God answered right away-the burden to evangelize, no crazy plans for the summer, and God's providence with my financial situation. He wanted me to go! but man, i really had no desire or passion to go to Paraguay. whenever i talked with past team members, all i heard about were empanadas, really nice jovenes, and how fun it was. it did not sound like much of a "missions experience" to me. my idea of cpc's annual paraguay team was just 2 weeks of serving with a well-established missionary down there with minimal evangelism. when i thought of going on missions, i thought of reaching the lost and JUST evangelizing. you can go to any missions report night in almost any church and they'll tell you that there are far too many people who have never heard the gospel. i mean, it's not like i was against people going down to paraguay from our church. it just wasn't the missions experience i was looking for. a "weaksauce missions" if you will.

however, i strongly believe that you should go on missions with your church. i'm not bashing kcm or other campus ministries but i personally find it more appropriate to go on missions with the church that you belong in. *shrug* besides, cpc gives you a gang of financial support compared to other missions organizations. so that's how i ended up going to paraguay...and i have absolutely NO regrets!

i really had no idea what to expect from this missions trip. to be honest, i wasn't expecting to change or grow much from it either. but yeah, i think so many "unexpecteds" happened to me...

1. we evangelized alot!

2. i got to know some of my team members pretty well.

3. there were many moments where i was really blessed and encouraged by seeing team members (including the Paraguayans) serve and grow.

if i wrote down every memory that i have of my Paraguay experience, this blog would never end. that is why i'll just end with three things that God taught me...

1. door-to-door or preaching in the streets isn't the only way to evangelize. God can even use activites like VBS or testimonies from different people to work in many hearts.

2. missions is not about how much you suffered or how difficult it was. just b/c you didn't struggle physically does not make your experience a "weaksauce missions." we are all called to be missionaries wherever we are. sometimes you're more blessed than others. sometimes you're not. but you're still called to be a salt and light wherever you are.

3. going on missions isn't JUST a time of evangelism. it is also a time of serving, encouraging, fellowshiping, and growing.

i praise God for everything i experienced. i encourage EVERYONE to go on missions. i won't lie to you...you'll have to sacrifice alotta time for training and the actual missions trip itself. but i promise you, God will reward your commitment. ok ciao ciao.

Thought of the Day: Stinkin' dinner with cousin.

Song of the Day: Everclear-Everything To Everyone

i found out today that many couples broke up in like the past week.  i'm sure all of them are discouraged and really hating it right now.  well, God is sovereign and always good.  read God's word, pray, and be encouraged.  ok, ciao ciao.

Thought of the Day:  Aaron is not here to sign out.
Song of the Day:  God Bless Korea

i can't believe edu got bbikeh!

eDDo 30 (1:49:59 PM): man, my foot hurts

i think i spent most of my time with edu in paraguay.  God showed us that we were seriously meant to be together.  we shared too many experiences together...

1.  Juan being a gangster and dancing for us.
2.  Antonio's barf prophecy being fulfilled.
3.  The fat kid getting hit by the small kid out of no where (edu's favorite).
4.  Eugenio farting loud (twice!) in his sleep in front of doe.
5.  Laughing uncontrollably at Terrance's performance.

stuff like that.  i like edu alot. 

i can't believe he actually got bbikeh!

after you get back from paraguay, you go through some reverse culture schock thing.  i'm going through it right now.  really lonely.  i got a call from doe, edu, and grandpa joe today.  i was SO happy when they called.  that is really sad.

Thought of the Day:  Everything's weird.
Song of the Day:  Foo Fighters-Times Like These

i'm leaving for paraguay in 2 days. i've been in cerritos, practicing body worships, perfecting our skits, gospel training in spanish, making bracelets, and praying every single day this week. it didn't hit me until last night how privelegded i was to go on missions. most of the time, i was thinking about how I'D be helping out the people down there and how I'D be evangelizing to people who need Christ and how I'D always have to be sensitive and considerate and patient to the Paraguayans. last night, God humbled me and showed me how arrogant and impatient and conditional my heart was. i really do not deserve to go out there and share the gospel. my lips are so unclean, my mind is so unfocused, my heart is often hardened in pride...the list goes on and on. there have been too many times where i judged people on my very own team. there have been too many times where i have been bitter towards people who did not support me financially. there have been too many times where i did not train and prepare with joy. but i thank God that He has allowed me to go Paraguay, even if it's just for 2 1/2 weeks. i thank God that He chooses to uses the weak and imperfect things of this world so that He would be glorified. i thank God for being just and humbling the proud. i thank God that He still loves me even when i turn to idols for happiness. i thank God that He is so patient with me. God, be glorified through me in Paraguay.

Thought of the Day: Thuglife.
Song of the Day: 2pac-Hail Mary

grades for spring 2004 came out so i checked my grades today. NR for film studies?! (Original grade was NR which became F or NP after one quarter of attendance or at the end of the quarter immediately preceding award of the degree, whichever came first.) it said. my transcript didn't even show it as an attempted class. so i was getting all scared that i failed this class b/c i REALLY did not want to take it over again. i really felt like i was having one of zenia's panic attacks.

as i was about to email my TA about my grade, i found an email from the professor letting me know that they just hadn't sent in the grades yet but that i had passed. *PHEEEW* (wipes sweat off brow).

haha. it was kind of funny to see my grade turnout for this past qtr. in the classes that i concentrated and studied for the most, i did the worst. the class that i barely studied in, i got A-'s. but praise God for allowing me to pass the Film Studies courses and also giving me some very kind grades. but i'm even more glad that i learned so much from these courses. all glory to Him.

retrospect:

sophomore year was a big year of growth for me. i know that i said that i probably grew and learned the most in my freshmen year, but this year was a different kind of growth. apt. life was totally not what i expected it to be. school actually became enjoyable (to a certain degree). i became closer to people who i never would have imagined. God reevealed to me even more of my sinful nature and even more of His holy character. i feel like many of my thoughts and beliefs were sharpened and tuned during my soph. year.

memories:

1. moving into Parkwest and going to IKEA 20 million times.
2. watching Casablanca with little eddie the night before my last final.
3. studying for math final with little eddie.
4. all of those beef-based tensions with aaron.
5. talking to danny boy about girls for the first time.
6. all of those hold'em nights at willburt's.
7. crawford's surprise b-day party.
8. reading for History 21a and dropping the course.
9. all of those dorm dinners at la.
10. the night i went to la to study for finals.
11. dormal!
12. that one day we hung out at barrel's place when terrance's socks smelled really bad.
13. chilling at boba loca with terrance, sunshine, and barrel.
14. lovefest 2004.
15. trying to fix my computer after attempting to reformat.
16. playing ball at san marco.
17. studying at Cerritos Library after outreach.
18. playing hold'em with rachel and sarah for the first time.
19. studying with chris at Gateway.
20. all of those walks after class with erica.
21. seeing hannah almost every single day.
22. meeting all of my students for the first time.
23. that one time kevin stayed at my place for like over a week.
24. eating at Sergio's for the first time.
25. going to USC and hanging out with mariela and alice in ktown.
26. all of those random times barrel came over.
27. chang's wedding.
28. eating dongchimee with chang and the gang.
29. three words. Casa De Dios.
30. yg retreat.
31. taking out wisdom teeth.
32. roadtrip with la.
33. the drive up north with jane yu and jennifer moon.
34. fixing my car too many times.
35. watching danny boy playing Madden like EVERY single day for a while.
36. getting new hold'em chips.
37. getting new cell phone.
38. cafe nite.
39. noraebang in ktown with many.
40. playing ball at usc and killing them every time.

to be honest, these times weren't nearly as memorable as my freshmen year memories. all good.-dinkas.

thursday: vip, alberto's.
friday: pizza.
saturday: dongchimee, alberto's again.

i'm going to start exercising again after paraguay.

Thought of the Day: You make bracelets that don't fit in hell.
Song of the Day: MercyMe-Here Am I

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first official day of summer vacation.
mission: have a wasteful day.

1. woke up at 11:30.
2. didn't eat lunch til 2.
3. watched Ricki Lake, KCAL news, and the Bernstein Bears for one hour.
4. ate a tuna sandwich while playing chess with terrance at 3:30.
5. ate another tuna sandwich right after danny boy left for work.
6. watched Heavyweights at 4.
7. blogged about my wasteful day at 6.

mission accomplished.

Thought of the Day: Oh No!
Song of the Day: Jinusean-How Deep Is Your Love

You're a Speak & Spell!! You nerd, you. Just
because you were disguised as a toy doesn't
mean you weren't educational, you sneaky
bastard.


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Thought of the Day: Calm down.
Song of the Day: Hoobastank-The Reason

the sun has suddenly appeared from the white clouds, fatboy slim is playing the right beats, and my stomach is full from In N' Out. Finals are finally fin! this long awaited day has come and it still hasn't really hit me yet. it's always like that right after your last test. i wanted to celebrate but there really isn't anybody to celebrate with...right now.

well, i took my bio final yesterday. after my first two midterms, i didn't go to class again b/c i kept falling asleep in every lecture. so just like every test in that class, i would study all of the lectures online the night before, wake up and study more, pray, take the test, and pray again. well, i felt that this final really raped me inside and out. anyways, i got home and checked my test score. i got an A??? and today, i got home and checked my final grade for the class. 87-100 = A. and lo and behold, i had 87 points. it would be absolutely retarded if i took ANY claim on this grade. all glory to God. a B would have been a very gracious grade. an A is just absolutely undeserving. all glory to God. all glory to God!

i've been doing alotta thinking about my future career lately. i think i've decided that i want to teach math. i talked to several counselors this past week and it didn't look too good for me since i have no math background. after talking to a counselor again today, there's an exciting chance that i might end up doing a math minor. funny, isn't it? phil doing something like math? as much as i really SUCK at math, i think it's a subject that i really enjoy. it's going to be interesting planning all this crap out.

Thought of the Day: J schmOE 31 (1:32:06 PM): freedom is great
Song of the Day: Fatboy Slim-Tequila Remix

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Pretzelboi96 (5:06:16 PM): i have two more finals to take
Pretzelboi96 (5:06:20 PM): one tomorrow
Pretzelboi96 (5:06:23 PM): and last one on thursday
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Thought of the Day: So...how 'bout them Lakers? =D
Song of the Day: The Turtles-So Happy Together

congratulations. you are the "you smell like
butt" bunny. your brutally honest and
always say whats on your mind.


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my favorite time of the year has come. i think jay said it best when he told me how "we always ends up finding other things to do rather than studying for finals." studying is always a last resort. i've already started one movie for the week, checked my email, read everyone's blog, checked everyone's away message, and even tried to fall asleep early so that i can just study in the morning. well before i hit that book another rare time, i've decided to blog b/c blogging kills lots of precious productive time.

this qtr.'s final week schedule is one final everyday from monday-thursday. that means that i've already finished my first one, film. as i was taking my final, i took one last good look at my secret crush but a whole buncha interest just left me. it's not that she looked any different or anything but all that secret crush stuff just suddenly left me without a warning. so unfortunately, i did not get to ask her out to dinner. *shrug* happens all the time. me being the romantic that i am probably would have just bought her in n' out or something anyway.

party in irvine. wednesday. be there, or be square (like jess kim).

Thought of the Day: Aaron is leaving this saturday.
Song of the Day: Boa-My Name

Casa De Dios

First verse:
Mejor es un dia en la casa de Dios
Que mil anos lejos de El
Prefiero un rincon en la casa de Dios
Que todo el palacio de un rey
Que todo el palacio de un rey

Chorus:
Ven conmigo a la casa de Dios
Celebraremos juntos su amor
Haremos fiesta en honor de aquel que nos amo
Estando aqui en la casa de Dios
Alegraremos su corazon
Le brindearemos ofrendas de obediencia y amor
En la casa de Dios

Second verse:
Arde mi alma, arde de amor
Porque el que me dio la vida
Por eso le anhela mi corazon
Anhela de su compania
Anhela de su compania

Thought of the Day: Computer is back to officially back to normal.
Song of the Day: Casa De Dios

i have this secret crush on this girl in my film class. while she sits on the far right side in the front of the class, i'm on the far left in the 4th or 5th row secretly spying on her. since my eyes are bad, i can't see her all too clearly. but from what i can make out, she seems to have a pretty face, shoulder length black hair, and skinny body. my best guess is that she's japanese but i could be totally mistaking a chinese of some kind. so anyways, i have film on mondays and wednesdays. i always steal quick glances at her while i'm supposed to be paying attention to the professor. but sometimes we make this unprepared and unexpected eye contact. scary times dude! but of course, my blurred vision could be showing some false realities. perhaps she is just looking at hannah who is sitting right next to me. perhaps she is just looking at the ugly wall that stands right beside me. whatever the case, i cannot take any risks b/c she finding out that me slyly spying on her would absolutely end my life. man, i don't even know her name. i don't know a SINGLE thing about her. but i do know that i like the way she dresses. maybe i'll ask her out after finals. HAHA! man, i hate the bozo who sits right behind her and always talks to her. that guy is annoying.

AsianXboi56 (10:04:26 PM): shouldn't you be studying
Pretzelboi96 (10:04:51 PM): but shouldn't i also not push myself too hard?
Pretzelboi96 (10:05:02 PM): you know, life isn't all about studying
Pretzelboi96 (10:05:07 PM): there's more to this life
AsianXboi56 (10:05:10 PM): right phil
AsianXboi56 (10:05:16 PM): you're really pushing yourself

cynics can be such bastards.

i went to go study at Gateway Commons last night for the first time with chris. i always heard about the 24 hour study area but i never gave myself the opportunity to actually take a visit...since i don't study. =D so we're passing by all these computer labs and there's all these engineers there. lol. you could totally smell the lack of shampoo in those rooms. well, chris was doing his own thing and i was doing mine, and i had come upon some very interesting words from an article i had to read for my film final. terrance once asked me if i had to choose to watch just one, would i choose korean dramas or anime. at the time, i said korean dramas b/c i thought watching real life people was more appealing to the eye. but after reading this article, i really don't know anymore. this guy gives such a cool explanation...

Tomov: Animation has its charm and qualities. It delivers different aesthetic and emotional experience. It is not just about telling a story the fastest and the cheapest way. The Triplets would have not been nearly as interesting and unique if it was a live action film. The hand made, drawn feel that comes from the screen, the stylization of the characters (you can not find actors with this kind of bizarre physics) resonate quite well with the equally bizarre story we are witnessing.

when i read that, i was like WOAH! (and i'm sure when you read that, you were like LOSER!). i'm no film major but i definitely appreciate alotta different things i'm learning in this class. as much as i have hated my film TAs for this year and as much as i have hated writing those (insert bad word) papers, film is so cool. you should go watch The Triplets of Belleville. i should go listen to my brother's words.

Thought of the Day: Oh yeah, I have to study for Korean Oral Test!
Song of the Day: Ataris-Boys Of The Summer

i watched Day After Tomorrow yesterday with sun and terrance. i always thought the preview looked kinda cool but everyone i asked seemed to have no interest in the movie. luckily, i have my set group of movie friends who are down to watch almost anything with me. i think we all agreed that it had been pretty long since we all felt so tense during a movie. it is probably the best disaster movie i've ever seen! but man, there was this one part that really opened my eyes...

so this kid's dad is a climate expert and he tells his son to tell everyone that he needs to stay inside or else they were going to freeze to death outside. so everybody starts leaving the place to walk outside b/c they don't see the danger. the kid desperately asks people to stay inside and to trust him b/c he knows that his dad is right with these kinds of things. but everyone is leaving and many people freeze to death. i think that scene is so similar to evangelizing to nonchristians. our Father knows best and tells us to tell spread the important news to everyone. but people have such hardened hearts and they do not listen. the scary thing is that they will not merely experience a freezing to death. they will experience spritual death...forever.

i got sick last night. i got REALLY sick today at church. it went from a minor sore throat to an aching flu or fever. today was like the first time i didn't finish my jjajangmyun at VIP. when everything you eat tastes like newspaper, you really appreciate your regular appetite that you have...which reminds me of another anology:

Romans 5 talks about with so much sin, there is so much more grace. however, we definitely should not think that we ought to sin more so that grace would inrease. i was thinking about my life and how i foolishly live in my sinfulness. we know so much better but we continue to fall in our sin. i was thinking that was pretty similar to cutting your leg and taking medicine. when you're in so much pain, you appreciate the medicine b/c it relieves and heals the pain. the greater the pain, the more you love and cherish the medicine. however, only a fool would continue to cut his leg just so that his apprecation for medicine would increase more. i don't know, i'm never good with analogies. but this was something that i just thought about during the week (whether or not it makes sense).

Thought of the Day: I really envy SD and Riverside
Song of the Day: Mercy Me-Here Am I

i have been really tired these days. for the past few weeks, i've only been able to catch up on my sleep on sunday afternoons. there is absolutely NO day where i can sleep in at all. if you know me, i have a hard time functioning with little or no sleep. i mean, it's not like i choose to be cranky or complain when i'm drowsy. my body just won't allow me to act in a socially and physically acceptable manner. i finally realized just HOW tired i was today when i just could not wake up from my nap to go to my film class. sleep deprivation really does catch up to you...

9:00 bio class...

*eyes close*
*eyes open*
(slide changes).
*eyes close*
*eyes open*
(slide changes again).
*eyes close*
*eyes open*
(class is over).
*yawn*

see what i mean?

so it's that wonderful time of the year again. signing up for next qtr's classes. if you do not already know, i am declared psychology major, planning on minoring education. my future career plans are to teach either middle or high school students. anyways, i was looking to sign up for my classes and i realized that i didn't know what the education courses were. so i went to the education department today and picked up a few handouts that talked about future careers in teaching. for the first time in a long time, i started worrying about my future plans...

if i want to teach middle or high school, i need to choose a subject to teach. the handouts explained how it would be good if i had a strong background in math courses for teaching math, strong background in history courses for teaching history, etc.. so here's the problem. i HAVE NO strong background in any subject. i'm majoring under psychology but that is not a subject that i can really teach in secondary schools. i mean, there's alotta subjects that i'm interested in but i'm just not good at them. there's also alotta subjects that i'm decent in but i just have no interest. i feel like all of that "just go with the flow" attitude is really catching up to me right now. at times like this, i just need to remember Jeremiah 29:11-13. whenever people are distressed or unhappy with the events of their lives, i simply remind them that God is sovereign and gracious. God is always good.

this may sound kinda bad/wrong depending on how you look at it, but honestly speaking...i really hope that God does not want me to become a pastor. (nervous chuckle).

Thought of the Day: I do what i do not want to do.
Song of the Day: Mercy Me-Here With Me

take it backwards, one step at a time...

i just got back from watching Troy. i didn't even feel like watching it much so i guess my low expectations helped me enjoy the movie afterwards. i'm not really a big fan of brad pitt either. i think he's totally overrated-of course my two roommates would think otherwise. i wouldn't say he's a terrible actor but i DEFINITELY would not say that he's underrated. if anything, Troy just helped me recognize why girls would lust after such a fellow. physically speaking, the guy is pretty dang flawless. on top of that, all of his movie roles give him that deceitful charm. but besides continuing to discourage Pitt (which i think i can do for some time), Troy was a fun movie to watch. like every other movie out there, every character needs Christ. w/o Christ, there is only sin and death. man, that one guy in the beginning was HUGE!

i was really really tired at church on sunday. waking up was difficult, staying awake during the sermon required alotta effort, and not peeping a word during bible study was a given. dormal was a money spender! dormal was a gas eater! dormal was a time stealer! dormal was...


really fun.

for the past two weeks, those stupid la girls would ask me almost everyday if i was excited to go to dormal. i think the best and honest answer to their question was that i wasn't as excited as THEY were. =D but kind of like watching Troy, it only made my night that much more enjoyable. after prom, i never would have thought i'd go to another formal ever again. i was actually planning on going to my dormal last year with ccm freshmen but it didn't work out.

i thought it was kinda interesting how all the girls were la and all the guys were irvine. haha. joe calls it an "intermarriage." *barf* anyways, everything that night was great! esther (molester) park-i couldn't have asked for a better date. not only did i think she was the best dancer there but she was also the most encouraging. i promise you that we had the most fun out of everyone (i could just see it on everyone's face). =D

i think the only negative was that i got a $40 parking ticket at Island's. everyone told me the sign said No Parking MON-FRI. and none of the other cars got stupid $40 tickets! but esther and anna felt really bad so they actually helped pay for the ticket. fudge, girls can be so stubborn...and so kind. on the way back, i barely said a word in the car. when you haven't gotten much sleep from two nights before, deprived your sleep from a yg lockin the night before, did outreach with your eyes half-open, got through missions training only through drinking tterrehreh, and then danced for almost 3 hours straight, you're pretty tired. but like i told aaron when we got home, "i have no regrets going."

i took a 4 hour nap after church and i only woke up b/c i forced myself to. right now, it is 1:20am. i think i'm going to be up for a while.

Thought of the Day: Jjajang bap is my favorite at church.
Song of the Day: J-Kwon-Tipsy Youngbuck Mix