i have been really tired these days. for the past few weeks, i've only been able to catch up on my sleep on sunday afternoons. there is absolutely NO day where i can sleep in at all. if you know me, i have a hard time functioning with little or no sleep. i mean, it's not like i choose to be cranky or complain when i'm drowsy. my body just won't allow me to act in a socially and physically acceptable manner. i finally realized just HOW tired i was today when i just could not wake up from my nap to go to my film class. sleep deprivation really does catch up to you...

9:00 bio class...

*eyes close*
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*eyes close*
*eyes open*
(class is over).
*yawn*

see what i mean?

so it's that wonderful time of the year again. signing up for next qtr's classes. if you do not already know, i am declared psychology major, planning on minoring education. my future career plans are to teach either middle or high school students. anyways, i was looking to sign up for my classes and i realized that i didn't know what the education courses were. so i went to the education department today and picked up a few handouts that talked about future careers in teaching. for the first time in a long time, i started worrying about my future plans...

if i want to teach middle or high school, i need to choose a subject to teach. the handouts explained how it would be good if i had a strong background in math courses for teaching math, strong background in history courses for teaching history, etc.. so here's the problem. i HAVE NO strong background in any subject. i'm majoring under psychology but that is not a subject that i can really teach in secondary schools. i mean, there's alotta subjects that i'm interested in but i'm just not good at them. there's also alotta subjects that i'm decent in but i just have no interest. i feel like all of that "just go with the flow" attitude is really catching up to me right now. at times like this, i just need to remember Jeremiah 29:11-13. whenever people are distressed or unhappy with the events of their lives, i simply remind them that God is sovereign and gracious. God is always good.

this may sound kinda bad/wrong depending on how you look at it, but honestly speaking...i really hope that God does not want me to become a pastor. (nervous chuckle).

Thought of the Day: I do what i do not want to do.
Song of the Day: Mercy Me-Here With Me