"after you get back from paraguay, you go through some reverse culture schock thing. i'm going through it right now. really lonely. i got a call from doe, edu, and grandpa joe today. i was SO happy when they called. that is really sad."

that was an entry from july 22nd. after one month, who would've thought that those three would be the people i'd be hanging out with the most this summer. it was always a movie, eating, slapjack, or Cerritos Library.

well, the fellowship has finally broken. i drove up to nor. cal with grandpa joe to help him move in. i can't believe he lives less than a block from my uncle! moving in was alotta work but it was good spending much time with joe these past few days. i still find it funny how i've been hanging out with a 23 and 24 year old almost everyday this summer. funny what a bond in Christ can do.

some things i've learned about myself this month:

1. i CAN use earplugs to fall asleep!
2. i can be impatient.
3. i can be insensitive.
4. i can be stubborn.
5. race & background matter to me no matter how hard i try.
6. so. cal really spoils you. i really really miss it.
7. i idolize people.
8. i need to remind myself of the Gospel ALL THE TIME!!!

believe it or not, numbers 2-4 were rude awakenings for me. i apologize to all who have experienced any form or combination of those three. i am sinful and still learning and always will be. rebuke, forgive, and encourage me.

you know, i actually want school to start again. i want to start being productive and busy again. i want to learn and exercise and keep myself disciplined in alotta areas of my life. i think studying is a very difficult yet WONDERFUL thing! a loser am i? perhaps. perhaps, YOU'RE the one who needs to mature and start looking at things differently. at least i'm not the one who'll be dreading 5 days of the week 3 months at a time. that's right...life IS tough, sucka!

can someone find me a verse on encouraging others?

Thought of the Day: Abhor immature people.
Song of the Day: Yann Tiersen-Comptine D'un Autre Ete