apologies to all of my faithful readers. everytime i want to blog, some random people just pop into my room and start using my microwave. in fact, half of my blogs are never quite complete. i just kinda have to get to the point, write my Song and Thought of the Day and publish. anyhoo, today is halloween and most of my friends are out so i actually have some time to do some blogging...

yesterday, i found out that my grandmother on my mom's side passed away. simon told me my mom looked really sad so i didn't give her a call. it was really weird when i heard the news. my reaction was very "unreactional." not to sound like a bastard or anything but it was like as if someone told me that tonight's dorm food was horrible. it's very unfortunate but i just swallow it and go on with my life. i wasn't too close with my grandmother...mainly b/c she lived in Korea and i'm over here. another unfortunate fact is that she wasn't christian. well, the way things were looking, i didn't see too much hope for her anyways. it was almost like i already knew she was going to die unsaved. i don't know. i guess i'm really jacked up. i admit, i'm really apathetic about the event. but i'm just being totally honest. i'm very curious about what kind of thoughts are going on in my mom's head cause i know she didn't have good history with her either. but gosh, i'm so grateful for the mom that God gave me. i'm so happy that i have a good relationship with her. i don't care what you guys say about your moms. my mom's super duper better!

man, more and more, i see the depravity of mankind. i meet more and more superficial people. i meet more and more "christians." i meet more and more and more and more! man, it's so hard living as a servant of God in college. it's really difficult evangelizing. it's like i lost my "cajones." but of course i always forget to pray about these things. i rant and rant, but the real solution is in prayer! funny how i know these things yet i don't apply til the last minute.
note to self: DON'T FORGET TO PRAY ABOUT THIS YOU IDIOT!

but i'm surprised to see myself being so consistent in my quiet times. i've been doing them almost EVERY single morning since i came to irvine. remember how i was always talking about how i was reading Kings and Chronicles? well, now i'm on Proverbs! i finished reading Job and Psalms. i'll be done with Proverbs in a few days. man, i really wish i had finished reading the Bible a long long time ago. but anyways, i really enjoyed reading Job cause it was the first time i read it. man, that book is just so profound! it's like you see man's perspective and then BAM! God speaks! its like so dope man. it kinda reminds me of Bahnsen's Debates on tape. like some hardcore athiest would give some funky argument and you're thinking, "oh boy! it's over for the Christian guy. it's gonna take a miracle to win this one." but of course, we all know that truth is always on our side. so the Christian refutes the argument and humbles the crap outta the athiest. it's so cool! you feel like making the biggest "DDEUH!" sound with your finite voice. but back to my point. you feel that Job is totally justified b/c he's like practially living this awesome holy life that you'll never live. but God appears and speaks to Job. man, talk about humility. God is just so AWESOME! it's funny cause he sounds so arrogant but it's like he has every right you know? man Job, IN YOUR FACE BUDDY!!! haha. but you know what i'm talking about. the book of Job is a profound book. it does a great job of showing you just a glimpse of God's character. you should read it if you haven't already.

so i visit jomo's blog and see that he's changed his template. i think it looks nicer but i have a harder time reading his entries with the dark background and the white font. perhaps my eyes just suck. BUT, i also noticed that my blog was under the "Hot Blogs" section. man, what a nudge at my self-esteem! *giggle* i know i know. i really gotta stop that giggling thing. it's really gay. anyways, the template looks nice dude. i'm still a consistent reader. thanks for always updating unlike the rest of this sinful nation.

Thought of the Day: Sarcasm has its limits. Even I can be humiliated.
Song of the Day: DJ Encore-I See Right Through You Vocal Mix

Mack611 (1:18:48 AM): hey
Pretzelboi96 (1:18:54 AM): wassup ken
Mack611 (1:18:59 AM): hows it goin?
Pretzelboi96 (1:19:03 AM): pretty good
Pretzelboi96 (1:19:09 AM): i like irvine alot
Mack611 (1:19:13 AM): i c cool
Pretzelboi96 (1:19:20 AM): how's la?
Mack611 (1:19:28 AM): i like ucla too
Mack611 (1:19:43 AM): how r ur classes?
Pretzelboi96 (1:19:56 AM): i'm taking it easy this quarter
Pretzelboi96 (1:20:03 AM): only 12 units
Mack611 (1:20:09 AM): oic
Pretzelboi96 (1:20:31 AM): you still go to church ken?
Mack611 (1:20:39 AM): hehe nah
Pretzelboi96 (1:20:58 AM): oh how come?
Mack611 (1:21:48 AM): oh i dunno, i guess i dont have that fire for it
Pretzelboi96 (1:22:08 AM): oic
Pretzelboi96 (1:22:11 AM): that's too bad
Mack611 (1:23:54 AM): yeah, i mean i believe it, but like im not into it, maybe later on in my life i will
Pretzelboi96 (1:26:20 AM): well, if you're not into it now, i don't see how you'll be "into it" later
Mack611 (1:30:11 AM): i dunno, maybe there will be some problems in my life, and i turn to christ for help through something or someone
Mack611 (1:30:23 AM): i dunno, i have no idea, its just what i think
Pretzelboi96 (1:30:56 AM): well, i encourage you to continue attending church
Pretzelboi96 (1:31:04 AM): it's definitely commanded in the Bible
Pretzelboi96 (1:31:15 AM): it shouldn't be an option just on your opinion
Pretzelboi96 (1:31:30 AM): but i can't convince you, so just really think about it ok?
Mack611 (1:31:36 AM): ok

man, so many people fall away from God in college. remember, this is just ONE example. i know alot more people who show symptoms of a pseudo-christian. but at the same time, it makes me glad that God is uncovering all of the self-deceived. i suppose it'd be better for these people to realize sooner or later. i'm not saying i know for SURE that these people aren't saved, but i think it's pretty clear that they are slowly turning away.

i had the worst sleep in college yet. connie was doing her paper on my computer til like 4 in the morning and i was finally about to fall asleep. then minh comes into my room and starts chatting away on AIM. i've grown to fall asleep even through this disturbing nonsense but last night was just a bummer. and every morning, kiyoshi wakes up around 7 and gets ready for the day. for some reason, i ALWAYS wake up from hearing everything in the morning. i think i got a total of 4 hours of sleep. it sucks being such a light sleeper. sometimes, it just doesn't work out.

however, there's actually some good news! i actually found 2 people on my floor that play chess! and ironically, will is one of them! will is like the buff, lazy guy in our floor and he actually plays chess. it's a seriously a strange world out there.

i have a habit of bragging to my friends that my brother is a really good chess player. i know they can care less but it's fun to brag...even if it's about simon.

Thought of the Day: Insomnia.
Song of the Day: 1TYM-Nasty

my visit home was really nice...

1. oh my goodness, i have never played so much pool in my life.
2. mom's food = 100 pts. dorm food = 10 pts.
3. rally was alot better than i expected. it was one of the better ones i've been too. thanks guys.
4. it was good seeing everybody again. so many people grew so much for some reason.
5. my first college service at kcpc. not bad.
6. you don't understand. i played so much pool!

i was so tired when i got back. i didn't get to buy any water or any "sticky" things for my posters, and i had to "unload." to make things worse...

(walking up to dorm with bags).
doors open.
people: ANGELS WIN!!!!! WHOOOOOOOO! YEEEEEEEEAAAAAAHHHHHH!

but it felt good to be back at irvine too. there was a part of me that missed my hallmates and of course my computer. gosh dang, simon has the sorriest computer in the world! gosh, i just wanna get a hammer and go at it! the stupid thing freezes as if it had a choice. be patient simon. after one year, we're gonna get you a super computer! maybe something like 3.0 ghz, 1 gb ram, and at least 100 gb harddrive ok?

Praise God! i got a B on my Brain & Behavior Midterm! man, i thought i bombed that sucker. dude, this once again comes to show that God is full of grace. we all know that i was supposed to fail. i mean, even Dykas got a C!

Thought of the Day: Time for 2nd Stage baby!
Song of the Day: Bi-Instead Of Goodbye

Pretzelboi96: man, so who won the Series last night hideo?
Pretzelboi96: =D
needfd33: you mean game?
Pretzelboi96: haha
needfd33: not SERIE
needfd33: S
Pretzelboi96: it's practically over buddy
Pretzelboi96: i wouldn't turn that tv on if i were you
Pretzelboi96: you guys lost like no other last night
Pretzelboi96: i'd be ashamed to be an Angels fan after last night
needfd33: naw man the giants don't have any runs left for the following 2 games
Pretzelboi96: lol
Pretzelboi96: you keep talking
Pretzelboi96: i'll just watch
Pretzelboi96: man, you guys seriously got raped
needfd33: man shut up

man, the Giants were awesome last night. i didn't get to see any of it on tv, but just listening to the radio was good enough for me. man, with a game like that, it was absolutely necessary that i watch it with Angels' fans. man, so many people at church would have been so pissed if me, dykas, and pastor dennis were there. we would've cheered like there was no tomorrow. dang, i wish i could've at least watched it with hideo. i know that guy wasn't too happy about Kent's homeruns. he called me up and was like, "what the crap was that?!" eheheheheheheh. good stuff.

it feels pretty good to be home again. last night as i walked into my room, a BIG smile came upon my face and i just could not wipe it off. it was weird. i didn't find anything funny. everything was exactly the way i left it. just the same ol' room. and gosh, what a great room it is!

this morning, i found some pictures on my desk next to my computer. the top picture looked like a picture of me but i couldn't remember what the event was. then i looked at the other pictures and realized that they were all pictures of simon. dude, that kid is seriously getting big. i went into my mom's room and found his school picture. omg. so ugly. so dark. face so big. man, he is seriously going through some hardcore evolution. he is definitely climaxing at his Ugly Stage. man, that thing i call a brother is growing up so fast. freakin' manchild.

man, i brought my books to read over the weekend, but like danny said, i don't think it's going to happen. it just doesn't feel right, coming home and making some time to study. inappropriate. it's time to play baby! lots and lots of playing.

gosh, i was talking to my mom last night and she said that my korean sounded all funny. she's definitely right cause i can't speak comfortably anymore. i stutter after every other word and i have to use more english words than i used to. man, it really sucks. i realized that you need to constantly be speaking to get better and better. man, it's only gonna get worse. but anyways, it's really good seeing my mom again. even though she's like 47 now, i still think she's one of the prettiest korean mom's out there. man, when you go off to college and come back to see your mom, you definitely feel the love. i can seriously sense the happiness my presence was bringing her. i've never seen her smile at me so much. unusual, funny, but nice.

Thought of the Day: Happy Birthday Mom!
Song of the Day: Cleo-Ready For Your Love

i showed Attack the Gas Station to my friends last night. surprisingly, these chinese fellas liked it! of course they didn't laugh at all the appropriate parts but what matters is that they enjoyed it. right after that movie, i watched the japanese version of The Ring. dang, that crap was so stupid. i thought the original was supposed to be much scarier. i guess it's b/c i heard tiff talk about it too much for my ears to handle. why is it that i always expect too much from movies? but at the same time, i also have a tendency to enjoy "stupid" movies that no one else likes.

but speaking of movies, the students at irvine have been going crazy over Mirc b/c we just recently found out that the downloads aren't restricted. this whole week, people have been watching movies movies movies in either my room or will's room. it's really fun watching movies with your dormmates. heck, it's even fun watching it alone, just knowing the fact that you finally got to download something big w/o UCI knowing it! all you non-freshmen, don't take your downloading for granted. it really is a wonderful thing.

so much to do tomorrow....

1. class.
2. hw while doing laundry.
3. pack.
4. hopefully k-town.
5. drive up baby!

much to do on fri....

1. irving.
2. miller's outpost.
3. chess.
4. pool.
5. movie.

i'm so excited!

Thought of the Day: "i'm gonna show off my skills to the cop!"
Song of the Day: You Are My World

random thought:

you know, i think rats are the saddest animals on the face of this planet. in my classes, i always learn about how the brain and body works. but i also learn that rats are like the most common test subjects. rats are constantly fed, starved, given surgery, cut up, etc.. well, i guess that's the only good purpose of having rats in this world. all they do is eat, infect, and scare girls...kinda like simon. haha.

i watched My Sassy Girl on dvd last night b/c i bought it on ebay. man, i really like that movie. i remember absolutely hating it the first time i saw it. it didn't make any sense to me cause i only watched the first 1/3 and also cause my korean sucks like no other. but after you watch it with subtitles and watch the whole thing through, it becomes one of your favorite movies. gosh, Jun Ji Hyun is soooooooo cute too!!! i'm known for being really picky and critical of alotta movies. chang and terrance hate watching movies with me. but if i liked this movie and actually went out of my way to buy the dvd, imagine how much more you'll enjoy it! so go out there and buy the dvd at a korean store nearest you.

Thought of the Day: Los Gigantes son grandes!
Song of the Day: Kaila Yu-Don't Say Goodbye

man, i had such a scary weekend. on friday after i watched Red Dragon, Arthur told me one of the scariest stories i've ever heard in my life. man, we were talking about demons and ghosts all night! it was a very "exciting" night. you know cause it's fun when you're scared. chris would make the funniest noises with his squeky voice, "i'm so scared!" lol. it was funny cause Billy didn't seem scared at all either. he was like soooooo down to do the meeting with the demon thing. gosh, serious balls man! dude, we seriously shouldn't mess with this stuff.

CPC dinner was cool. played a few games, ate some pizza, watched the baseball game, and left to go watch The Ring. man, that movie was pretty scary. i mean, it's scary as you're watching it, but it's stupid when you're done with the movie. but i still liked it b/c it was quite "original" for an American movie. i still think "Phone" was much scarier. crap, now THAT was scary! simon can testify.

so the Giants lost today. man, that was one crazy game. so many homeruns. so many errors and bad calls. just so much emotion! this is a really good World Series. i think it's finally a fair match. it's alotta fun. it's very encouraging to see Giants fans down in Irvine. we're the minority but we still have our pride. gosh, it must be soooooo dope to sit in the bleachers at Pacbell Park. dang CJ! we're supposed to be there! we've been to some great Giants games but this is something we need to experience live!

i played really well in pool tonight. i went "around the word" three times! bascially, i play with hideo, lawrence, and ben. we get one table, the winner keeps playing, and the losers just take turns playing. but once i became the winner, i went around beating them each 3 times! that's 9 in a row fool! haha. it's so weird how alotta people down here use the word, "fool." it's almost like a substitution for "dude." but perhaps it's just a thing that my idiot dormmates use with each other. lol. i love these guys. they crack me up.

so i hear that the senior girls aren't coming out to youth group as much anymore. man, this is such a bad trend that happens EVERY year! i mean, i can understand where they're coming from too. your senior year is full of stress from college apps, but also full of freedom b/c grades don't matter and you have the car almost whenever you want. yes, church can easily become the 2nd option. but if you're a senior and you're reading this, i encourage you to come out to church more often. it can be really discouraging for the youth and the staff. and besides, you're better off being in church anyways. you stupid kids.

Thought of the Day: Terrance and Dykas are scaredy cats.
Song of the Day: Jewelry-Again

right now, i'm listening to Track 04 from one of B's Techno mixes. dang, that seriously evokes alotta memories. i remember all those times i gave that stupid kid a ride home, listening to really loud music with all the windows down while he was asleep with the ugliest expression on his face. lol. i really like B b/c he was like ALWAYS down to hang out. i remember this one time, moe and i were hanging out really early in the morning and B told us to call him no matter how early it was. so we go to his house, call him while he was still asleep, and tell him to come out. B muttered something, came out of his house with the most tired and exhausted face, got into the car, and fell asleep. lol. i love that guy. so persistent. he never lets me down.

it's funny cause he can be so stupid yet be a really sharp kid too. like, he says alotta dumb things that try to make him look smart, but all we do is tell him to shuttup or punch him or sometimes both. however, when it comes to school, he gets grades that i never got in high school. he knows alotta facts. he picks up things pretty quickly. yes, B is an interesting fella. i wonder where he's going to be 10 years from now. anyways, i miss you B. you piss me off but you make me smile.

i took my psych midterm today. studying that extra hour last night actually helped. man, that's like the most i studied in a long time. cramming. not the best solution, but A solution. lol. i can't believe i still made time for pool last night. no matter how busy i am, i ALWAYS make time for pool. well, another midterm tomorrow. shtudy time!

Thought of the Day: Left Hemisphere does NOT see the L!
Song of the Day: Phil's Mix-Track 04

gosh, what a day! one day feels like a series of days...

today, i had class and learned alotta new interesting things. i learned about the "phantom limb," which is when people who have amputated body parts still "feel" that they have those body parts. gosh, it's such a sad thing for people with missing arms or legs. i'm too lazy to explain the details but my point is, never take your well-functioning body parts for granted.

i went to South Coast Plaza with Lawrence and Connie today. Connie is Law's friend from high school and she lives on our 2nd floor. man, i really don't like that mall anymore. it's just too big and inconvenient. it's kind of like Great Mall in San Jose but it's a different kind of inconvenient. sometimes, i question what kinda architects we have these days. it's a sad and stupid world folks. anyways, this was also the first mall i've been to that does not have a Millers Outpost. ok, enough said. we all know that this "great" mall is just full of sham.

however, i decided to look at some poolsticks around Sports Chalet and Sportsmart (did you know that they have alotta Sports Chalets and Sav On Drugs in so. cal., but no Longs Drugs?!). i ended up buying a beautiful poolstick for $60 and a case for $15. after tax, it came out to be $80. i was kinda worried that i had gotten a bad deal, but i later checked online to find out that the retail price was $100! i was very hesitant when buying it at first. i'm very picky when it comes to shopping...indecision at its freakin' best. but gosh, after playing with it today, i felt much more encouraged. Hideo started telling me all these good things about it like how solid it is, the good # and size of tips, and a decent weight. thank you God! may this poolstick bring you much glory!

My Poolstick


after shopping, i went straight to Clusters at Eugene's place. we just discussed what we wanna get out of these small groups. we also discussed the whole Giants and Angels going to the Series. man, so many Anaheim fans except for me, dykas, and pastor dennis. haha. but seriously, everyone knows that SF has the craziest Giants fans. we define HARDCORE! anyways, i still think the Giants are going to choke like they always do. but it's pretty cool that they made it this far. it's been what, 12 years? so yeah, Clusters was really nice and short today. but omg, for dinner dykas and i maxed out at BK! man, we ate at like 7:30 and i'm still full! i ate 3 whopper jrs. and 2 tacos. man, talk about being hungry. yeah, it's nice being a freshmen. your hyungs always spot you for cheap meals.

dude, i got a freakin' virus on my computer, something about getting a virus in my spool thing which involves my printer. it said that it couldn't repair and i started worrrying like crazy. it also said that this virus would cause my printer to start printing out alotta garbage and stuff. man, i was seriously freaking out for a few hours. but after printing out a few things, everything seemed fine. it's just a stupid virus that i can't get rid of, but i don't think that it will be a problem. gosh, there's just so much music and videos on my computer. like over 30 gigs. i can't afford to lose my computer....thank you God once again!

a little earlier tonight, i went into Connie's room and was surprised to find this guy named David playing his guitar and singing Let My Words Be Few with Connie? they're christians? and yes, i met some more people in my building. for some reason, people know that i live in Grey Havens but i don't know them at all. very interesting. but i also met jee-ang, kim, and some other people i don't remember. so many people. so many names. incessant.

ok, no more playing. whether i like it or not, i have to cram like crazy for the next two days. cramming begins tomorrow at 7. prayer is encouraged. thanks.

Thought of the Day: It's All About M.E..
Song of the Day: WC-Hoo Bangin' (simon, dl this).

i was supposed to get my study on on saturday. but right before i was going to study, i went to Mesa Court to eat lunch with dykas. as we were walking to the dining hall, we saw jeff wang and vincent fung from high school! they were staying at greg's place b/c they were going to ucla for the weekend. it's weird seeing your old schoolmates again. it's like we've grown up but we haven't. it's really weird. college does something to you....but i'll talk more about that later. we went to In N' Out and decided to shoot some pool. i guess they were pretty surprised at how good i was in pool, especially jeff. lol. afterall, his only memory of playing pool with me was when we were in 5th grade. after pool, it was about 4:30...and i was supposed to go out around 6 with my friends. well, i was able to squeeze in a few hours so i at least got something done. i guess i'll just have to cram wed. and thurs. night. oh goodie!

so i ended up going to the Block with about 17 other people. *sigh* ok, let's rewind a bit. not too many people know this about me, but i absolutely HATE hanging out in groups bigger than 10 people. 10 is the absolute max....no more, no less. it's hard enough with a group of 6, but i'm willing to tolerate 10. anyways, i hate big groups b/c nothing ever gets done. there's always that lounging around time. so much indecision. so many different conversations going on. it's almost like, what's the point of us hanging out? of course there's a few exceptions to these enormous groupings such as church people. yep, that's about it.

so lawrence ended up bringing alot of his high school friends, which were still in high school. minh brought a few of his friends. and the rest of us were just people from my hall. man, i seriously have a different perspective of high school students now. it's so weird. i mean, i know i'm not exactly the most grown up or experienced figure but these students seemed so immature! i've only been in college for 3 weeks and already, i have this brain-washed perception. perhaps, it was b/c they were just acting really stupid. perhaps, it's just a so. cal thing. perhaps, it's just lawrence's friends that act like morons. OR, perhaps my whole being is gradually hanging without even asking for my permission.

Transporter was a very stupid movie. haha. i bet terrance didn't see that one coming. the movie had some pretty tight fighting scenes...like the doorbell thing and the part where he spills all that oil on himself. then there's that stupid chinese girl who totally jacks up the plot. yes, she was cute. i'll give you that. but that's still no excuse for ruining a movie that had so much potential. i still wanna see Red Dragon. i hear it's really scary.
after the movie, i ended up eating this nasty $3.50 pho. what an awesome way to make me even unhappier. The End.

i learned something new about myself today. i noticed that whenever i meet a new girl, i have a tendency to judge that girl, seeing if she "meets my requirements." it's like this mental checklist i have and i observe and ask questions to see if she qualifies to be anything close to being a possible girlfriend. now, let's not take this out of context and twist phil's words. i am not planning on getting a gf anytime soon. i'm just saying that i have this mental girlfriend checklist thing. it sucks though cause i have yet to meet a girl in irvine that meets my standards. it makes me sad.

but today, i met this one girl that was really cool. i was attracted to her in alotta different ways but in many ways, she was totally not my type. she got alotta checks on my checklist in terms of personality and background. unfortunately, she didn't seem like a devoted christian and she joined a sorority. dude, i don't know why but i seriously cannot stand people who join frats or sororities. it's just really unattractive to me. and finally, i found out that she has a boyfriend.

gosh, she was sooooooooo nice too! not the prettiest but cute. korean. works out. VERY polite. eats very well. haha. i love girls who can eat for some reason! dang, all going down the drain. it kinda made me sad. i live in a campus where there's very few godly students. if they're out there, i just haven't met them. oh yeah, i mean freshmen specifically.

Thought of the Day: See y'all on Friday!
Song of the Day: Yoo Chae Young-Emotion

chris treated me and dykas to some Rubio's last night. gosh dang, Lobster Combo is sooooooo good! it's funny how while i was back at home, chang would always take me to these mysterious places that we'd never heard of. but down here, everyone's like...."have you tried Albert's? how about Albertita's? oh, what about Alberto's?" or something like that. there's sooooooo many places i haven't tried yet, and that's only mexican food. i have yet to try all the good chinese or korean stuff. ugh, freshmen 15.

but man, i'm never going to eat right before church again. food coma was hitting pretty freakin' hard. the friday nights at CPC are basically praise, group discussion over a topic, and then prayer in small groups. it's cool. nice and simple kinda like at kcpc. and of course, after church everyone lounges around...

eugene: we have a tendency to make plans and never do them.

so out when Red Dragon. BUT we went to Eugene's place and hung out there for a while. man, more and more i can't wait til i move into an apartment. it's going to be sooooooo dope! dykas and i wanna move into the same complex as Eugene's. 2 bedrooms. 2 monster closets. kitchen. washer and dryer. man, that's only like $1400-$1600? and it's not so far from campus. i can't wait. i can't wait! it's like the excitement i had before i moved into my dorm. eugene and chris also have an extra fridge in the living room right next to the futon so they don't have to walk all the way to the kitchen to get drinks. lazy bastards. haha. these guys are so cool.

we ended the night with a korean movie, Beat. it's like really old school....when Go So Young actually looked pretty. it was a good movie. a guy movie that is. man, i think these guys have more dvds that PJ! hardcore. dang. man, i never knew eating was so freakin' encouraged in college. like at 2 in the morning, they'd be like cooking teriyaki chicken and they'd continuously ask us if we wanted to eat. haha. "freshmen 15?! you guys are scared of getting fat? what a buncha yujas!"

me: where's eugene?
all of them: (making whip-cracking sounds (supposedy, eugene is incredibly whipped by his gf)).
me: ahahahahahahahhaah.

today, i am going to have to study study study. i have midterms on thurs. and fri.. but after studying, me and like 20 other guys are going to go watch Transporter at The Block, some big plaza with a huge movie theatre. studying hard. playing hard. the college life.

Thought of the Day: "WA-POW!"
Song of the Day: Utada Hikaru-Hikari

the days go by sooooooo fast when you're in college. i can't believe it's already friday! the weekend has finally come. but in all honesty, almost everyday feels like a weekend anyways. however, it wasn't until yesterday that i understood how serious college courses could be. in class, one of the students asked if we needed to know all the parts of the brain. the professor was like, "certainly. names, functions, and locations. everything." (jaw drops). man, that's alot dude. i seriously thought these so called "midterms" would be a piece of cake. man, i gotta study so much over the weekend. now, i understand why cj is always up all night studying. geez, the only reason why i'm up all night is b/c i'm playing with my friends. haha.

yeah, but i think i'm definitely feeling more and more settled. when i think about going back home for thanksgiving, sometimes i don't feel like going back. i feel pretty comfortable in my dorm. i don't really miss nor. cal as much as i did in the beginning. remember, i must emphasize the word, SOMETIMES! i guess it's a good thing though. i need to learn to enjoy dorm life sooner or later right? well, i'm getting more and more sick of dorm food. but i guess i shouldn't take it for granted. it's not like i go to riverside or something. ahhahahahahahahaha. i heard the food is just straight up NAST-AY!

but since i'm thinking about becoming a teacher in the future, i think i'm going to major in Sociology and minor in Education. supposedly, this is a really general and "easy" major so i think it'll work out alrite for me. ah shoot! i need to talk to my counselor today. almost forgot.

Thought of the Day: Phil is great. Blogs are cool. Xangas are gay.
Song of the Day: Ayumi Hamasaki-Fly High

did i already mention that irvine has rabbits instead of squirrels? my friends have like the funniest reactions when they see one...

minh: hey look! a rabbit!
lawrence: yes minh. a rabbit.
minh: dude, that's a rabbit!
hideo: hey, why don't you try catching it? i bet you can't!

so i hear some of the professors are going on strike next tues.. i think this is a very exciting moment for all freshmen. i guess strikes are very regular in college, especially at a place like Berkeley. anyways, i'm looking forward to tuesday. i hope it lasts for a long time. *giggle*

Thought of the Day: Giants win! 9-6!
Song of the Day: Blink 182-Please Take Me Home

i met up with pastor dennis today. it was cool just having a nice chat with him at Cornerstone Cafe. we talked about church, campus ministries, and of course DA GIANTS!!! i always forget that he's from up north so it's pretty cool talking to him. we were talking about how cool it'd be if the Giants made it to the World Series and stuff. gosh, that'd be so dope! i think P. Dennis is doing what PJ was talking about, how he would visit the different campuses like mills and lowell. dennis visits all the UC's like SD, Irvine, and LA. what a nice guy.

as i was playing pingpong today, i saw this girl playing air hockey next to our table. she looked pretty cute and i kept stealing glances at her. then i heard her friend say her name, Cheryl. *trigger* i went to elementary school with a Cheryl before. this girl was pretty short and from far away kinda looked like her. could this be the same Cheryl? i hadn't seen her since 4th grade and supposedly she turned "hecka fine" in high school. then i heard her talk to her friend and she had this REALLY REALLY high squeaky mouse voice that definitely sounded like her when she was in 4th grade. so i go up to her and ask her if she was from up north. ouch! not so fine up close. cute but not THAT pretty. but yeah, it ended up being the same Cheryl that i knew from over 8 years ago. what a coincidence. it's funny how you expect people you haven't seen in a long time to remain exactly the same. unfortunately, us humans go through things called middle school and high school. it jacks everything up. she looked very....uh, what's the right word? i don't wanna say slutty or scandalous. i guess a nicer word would be "presentable" or "conspicuous." haha. a strong explanation with no harm done....unless she reads this. *ahem*

but anyways, i played this one korean guy and he was pretty freakin' good. white people have their own style. chinese people have their own style. gosh, but i think korean people really stand out. i can't explain it. we're just different you know? at least, i think so. well, we played 3 sets and i only won one. but since i played really well, he told me he was going to start coming out more often. we introduced ourselves and shook hands. yeah, pretty cool.

i finally had Del Taco for the first time. gosh, it is sooooooo much better than Taco Bell! i had the Macho Burrito thing deal. gosh dang, so good! so filling at such a slim price! chang, i can't believe you'd deprive me of such food. to you nor. cal folks, go try it for goodness sakes! go now. shoo! off you go!

tonight was our first Clusters meeting. Clusters is basically a small group meeting you have every week with the church people that go to the same church. it's like an accountability group where we discuss different issues or read a book together. i like my clusters group. they're really nice and fun to be with. haha. watching tv with these guys is soooooo fun! they make like the funniest comments. Smallville would normally piss me off but tonight, it was actually entertaining. oh yeah, and the leader's name is Phil Chung too. yeah, the whole college group gets a kick out of it. they think it's like the funniest thing in the world. *shrug* it's just a coincidence to me. there's a guy named Simon in our group. i find that to be funnier. but the whole Phil Chung thing is just whatever. oh yeah, he went to Berkeley and KCPC too.

i think i'm starting to gain my freshmen 15. when i looked at pictures in my wallet and compared it the mirror, my face looked a lot bigger. man, such a big change in so little time.

cathy: phil, did your face get bigger from the last time i saw you?
me: what's that supposed to mean?
cathy: oh nevermind.
me: what's that suppposed to mean?
cathy: don't worry, it looks cute.

"did your face get bigger?" gosh dang. i've never heard such a comment. argh! the food is so unhealthy here and i'm always hungry. what am i supposed to do?!

Thought of the Day: I am NOT a "boy scout."
Song of the Day: Utada Hikaru-First Love

more and more, i'm starting to hate going to class. it's such a hassle. lectures can seriously be so boring. Brain & Behavior used to be interesting. now it's just straight up "drop the pencil and imagine the slideshow has something to do with your childhood." yeah, the reading is getting pretty dull too. i was in the library today and after 3 pages, i buried my head into my arms and fell asleep. gosh, i look at the crap we have to read and always tell myself that it's not going to be on the test. this helps me skip alotta pages which helps me finish "studying." i am definitely not a good study guy person student dude guy. ask simon. he knows. lol. yes, he knows...

but i have to admit, playing in college is sooooooooo much fun! today, i played some more pingpong with lawrence ("king-pong") and finally beat him! i got so much better in pingpong. if you play with me now, i'll smash anything that is not spun. that's right folks. phil is one dope pingpong playa. hmmmmm, speaking of being a playa, i need to correct CJ's comment about "pimpin' chinese girls in LA?" first of all, they're korean. second of all, i am in irvine, not LA. and third, who are you hearing this from? i simply meet people, talk to them, and that's it. no more no less.
but back to my point, college is alotta fun. today, we went the ARC (rec. center) and played some more pingpong. after pingpong, we finally got a chance to play some ball in the gym. i love playing really good 3 on 3 or 4 on 4 games! it was kinda funny b/c we were playing these 4 fobs and they were like totally confident that they were going to beat us. "dude, take him!" "roll off him!" but no, our team was surprisingly pretty good tonight. i was doing pretty good too! i realized that i could be pretty agressive when i play ball. and yes, i sweat possibly every fluid out of my body. so yeah, we beat those guys 21-10. haha. stupid fobs.

to make my day even better, i got to see the Giants beat the Braves! gosh, it's about freakin' time! it was pretty cool b/c a whole buncha Nor. Cal people were watching the small screen and all cheering for the Giants. it was cool, highfives and clapping!

and no matter how much time we have left, we always conclude the night with some pool. all of my friends ordered new sticks online over the weekend. gosh, it's so tempting. i think i'm going to get one from GE the next time i go back up.

i also noticed another thing today. my hall is really "close." pretty much everyone is cool with everyone. all of our doors are open, we eat each other's food, we go eat together, we take the same classes, we all share mpegs and mp3's with each other. it's great. i have yet to see another hall as close as us. i guess i take it for granted. dorm life is pretty cool.

random: japanese music is so dope! i love this crap.

Thought of the Day: 95 pounds ain't so bad.
Song of the Day: Amuro Namie-Walk In The Park

on friday, dykas and i went to our first fellowship nite at CPC. we got a ride from 2 juniors, eugene and chris. dude, these guys are soooooooo so. cal! they have that whole "kick-back," chillllllllll, jeeeeeeaaaahhhhhh attitude you know? haha. it's really cool. like, we'd be sitting there in the car, listening to their conversation and i would seriously feel very laid back. haha. i don't know, it's hard to explain. perhaps some of you know what i'm talking about. others of you think i'm stupid. but this isn't just eugene and chris. this also goes for my other friends at irvine, lawrence, hideo, and ben. everytime we hang out, we're never like..."ok, so this is what we're going to do. lunch at 1. class at 2. hw at 5. dinner at 6. pool at 8. ok?" (i noticed i liked to do this alot. very organinzed and not waste time...well, of course i'm exaggerating but you get the point). but with these guys, it's just like..."hey, what are you doing? oh. wanna go shoot pool? ok. cool." "hey, did you eat dinner yet? oh really? wanna eat again? ok. cool." but anyways, it was cool b/c Eugene bought us In N' Out. our third Freshmen Treat.

saturday...

eugene: so what did you do today?
me: i woke up at 12. ate at 3. and came here.
eugene: niiiiiiiiiiiice.
me: hahaahhahahaha.

up in nor. cal, i noticed that we don't have Cafe Nites at churches. apparently, they're really common down in so. cal. it's basically a night of performances and video clips for non-christians. gosh, there were some DOPE body worhip performances! i never knew you could do such an awesome job with just 2 or 3 girls! i'm more used to the 50 people doing the same thing altogether to the old school praise song. but there were these 3 girls like doing their own unique thing but making it look like on big picture. it was so cool! i wish i had the video on my computer. as pastor dennis said, "yeah, that was a great performance. it was like body worship on steroids!" ahahahahhahaha. man, that guy is so cool. he's so young, only 26 but he's still a great speaker! even though he talks ghetto, he is still faithful in speaking the gospel. he's got his doctrine straight for sure. also, he's always making fun of the girls during the announcements. "yeah, girls should come out to the football scrimage...cause you know, girls are really good at football." lol. kcpc youth group will really like him as the speaker for the upcoming rally.

i seriously have got down the whole Meeting New Freshmen procedure. it goes something like this for me...

guy: oh hi! what's your name?
me: i'm phil. what's your name?
guy: (says name). so what school do you go to?
me: irvine.
guy: oh really? what year are you?
me: i'm a first year.
guy: oh cool. what's your major?
me: i'm undecided.
guy: oic. that's good. but do you know like what you might want to study?
me: um...maybe something with Education?
guy: wow. that's great. so where are you originally from?
me: i'm from up north, near SF.
guy: oh really? who did you come here with?
me: terrance.
guy: oh, how do you know terrance?
me: we're from the same area. same school and church.
guy: oh, that's great!

i don't know HOW many conversations i've had like this. but it's all good. i'm geting to know people and people are getting to know me. i like the fact that the college group isn't so big. i don't see any clicks and everyone's been really nice to me so far. gosh, there's alotta cool people at CPC. i feel more and more comfortable with the people. some of people have found about the whole "dykas" deal! it's so funny hearing other people calling him dykas. it makes me happy.

i also met the other freshmen in the college group...andrew, sun?, and aaron who goes to irvine. right after church, and i mean RIGHT after church, we all went to a chinese restaurant right next to church called VIP. cheap and quantity, just the way we like it. as we were eating, terrance told me how happy he enjoyed eating with me b/c he doesn't know too many people that eat with passion like me and chang. then we started talking about how much we missed chang. we saw this one girl who barely ate her jjam-bbong and like totally just left it there. i mean, i would understand if she just ate the noodles and nothing else, but her food looked like it had been given one bite to chang. lol. and that reminded me of how chang would react to such a waste of food. "what an abomination!" ahahhahahahahahahha. we were cracking up! *sigh* terrance, my good food buddy. dykas always gets a crack at watching terrance eat.

mike: you wanna know the only reason why i stayed at CPC? it's b/c of VIP.

i finally did my laundry by myself for the first time. gosh, i'm such a spoiled crap...always having my laundry done by my mom. but doing laundry wasn't so bad except for the fact that i had to wait in line for a free machine. it's also easy cause you don't have ALOT of laundry to do like at home. when i'm done, i don't have to worry about separating simon's and mom's clothes. it's all mine, in my cute little basket.

after laundry, me, kevin, dykas, and terrance met up Danny (americana) and ate some Soon Doobu. gosh, that was a most excellent meal. very well cooked Galbi and decent soon doobu. it was a good meal. thank you so much danny (this would be my 4th Freshmen Treat from an upperclassmen). i still need to meet up with Jeff and receive my free dinner. haha.

Thought of the Day: Chris=Korean Girl From Sac.=Beat Me In Bastketball Today.
Song of the Day: Utada Hikaru-Hikari (oh fa sho!)

Thought of the Day: So we meet again. Big Surprise.
Song of the Day: Hamasaki Ayumi-Voyage

so there are these 3 girls that i ALWAYS run into, naomi, susie, and cathy. everywhere i go, i see them. dining hall. pool hall. dining hall. pool hall again! it's always them who are the first to see me. i hear my name being called. "phil!" and then laughter. i don't have much to say to them except for a simple hi. then i go about my business. then online, they call that being mean. what a buncha bastards! what do you want me to say? what am i supposed to say? perhaps i just don't have anything to say. perhaps, i'm busy doing other stuff like eating or have to attend to my pool game. i can never have a normal conversation online with these girls. it's always about why i hate them or they start analyzing me. goodness, i'm so glad i don't live in Middle Earth. they would seriously be on my case ALL THE TIME! i know they just wanna be "nice," but i highly recommend another solution...like maybe just accept phil for the way he is and stop asking stupid questions like "you like naomi don't you?!" gosh, i really hope none of them are reading this blog. that would be bad. really really bad.

today, dykas and i had a conversation with bs about campus ministries b/c he joined one. dykas and i learned the dangers of c.m.'s b/c it's so easy to become dependent on the people/group. it's so easy to lead you astray from church b/c the fellowships that they have are very welcoming and fun. we understand that they can be beneficial through accountable brothers/sisters and great times of fellowship through Bible Studies and Campus Evangelism. however, i think these ministries only have students that "teach" other students, which could also be VERY dangerous. i heard that there were no pastors or certified leaders overlooking the ministries. so yeah, it can be a very dangerous thing for all christians. to be blunt, we discourage it. however, BS was really into it and was being very unreasonable with his arguments. today's conversation reminded me once again of how imperfect christians could be. many times, we have good intensions but we don't see the whole picture. its important to read scripture and pray daily. campus ministries should not be your life.

man, i wanna go home. i miss mommy. i miss brudder. i miss yg. *sigh* it's only been 2 weeks. i won't be able to go home for a while. aish!

Thought of the Day: Girls cause so much trouble.
Song of the Day: Mai Kuraki-Reach For The Sky Gomi Mix

wow, Andy Garcia! that's so cool! i have grown a bigger appreciation for that slick bastard.

man, i need to get my study on today. one class and tons of hw that i should try to get done today. college makes you study study study. it's almost friday folks. hang in there.

if you've been to irvine, you'll notice that everything is around a circle. on that circular road called Ring Road, there are lots of clubs with their tables and flyers during the day. you'll see all kinds of frats, christian ministries, and asian clubs trying to get students to come out to events and join their clubs. but one club that stands out is called I.Q.. now, a normal person would first think that this was a club for nerds or "smart" people. *ahem* nope. not even close. I.Q. stands for Irvine Queers. when my friends and i first saw that, we didn't know how to react.

me: IQ?
lawrence: Irvine Queers.
me: um...woah.
lawrence: yeah.

when i think about it now, i don't laugh aloud. i know i'm cracking up inside, but on the outside i'm just emotionless. i know if i was with justin, we would've busted out laughing our heads off! lol. we'd sarcastically encourage each other to join, emphasizing how perfect it is for one another. haha. but yeah, don't you think that's the STUPIDEST thing to call your club? i mean, even if i WERE gay, i wouldn't want to be called an Irvine Queer. gosh, those stupid idiots. good luck getting people to join.

man, we are such sinful creatures before the eyes of God. today, i noticed that there's alotta "bad examples" of christians out there. i hear "christians" cussing left to right. i know "christians" that get drunk occasionally and seem to consider it ok. "what?! you don't drink at all?!" is the response i get when i tell them that i don't drink. these are people who go to church that say this to me! it's really sad. how sinful. gosh, we really do deserve hell. we are so incredibly sinful, always taking God's grace for granted. gosh, we need to continually remind ourselves of how much we need Christ. i'm not saying i'm any better b/c i don't drink. i'm no better. i really am no better...

Thought of the Day: *sniff sniff* i smell a drama coming my way.
Song of the Day: Eminem-Lose Yourself

me: hey, aren't Will and Frank from up north?
lawrence: yeah. they use that "hella, hecka" sh*t all the time too!
me: oh really? that's hecka cool!
lawrence: yeah. wait, shuttup!

Thought of the Day: Too much Eye Candy.
Song of the Day: Avril Lavigne-Skater Boy