just got back from la.
irvine vs. usc...8 wins 3 losses:
dykas is the most dangerous baller i know b/c his appearance is SO deceptive. for his weight and height, he can jump and drive really really well. he can read people very well when he's playing D so he averages one block per game. but his most dangerous skill is his consistent shot. that's really the only reason why we won today. he scored 80% of all our points! i used to hate playing with dykas before but now he's my favorite person to play with. i don't know if he can say the same about me but that's ok...every team has to have at least one sucky player. =D i like playing with joey too...aka LFM (last five min.) and PND (plays no defense). lol.
chonos:
ghetto burrito joint. burrito wasn't that great but my hunger enjoyed it.
kcm:
pretty reluctant to go but majority outruled. speakers talked about Jesus or personal testimony but ended up concluding by encouraging everyone to come out to a winter conference. !!! it was as if all of tonight's messages were geared towards promoting that one event! good intentions but dude, your presentation was totally taking away all the glory!
home cafe:
fobs are so funny. fobs are so greedy (dduk whore). albert is a fob.
rewind....
7am. Midas. tired. radiator. leak. replacement. $365. F.
i've spent about $1000 on fixing my car now. that's 200% of what i bought my car for. can there possibly be anymore problems? my goal is to be able to use it through sophomore year. that'd be a great accomplishment.
another hilarious
Thought of the Day: "Ssagaajee!"
Song of the Day: CB Mass-Movement
October 29, 2003
tonight, i was chilling with a whole bunch of college group people at someone's house. just mindless fun, eating, laughing, and looking around the house. i remember making april and esther park (la freshmen) crack up so hard and all of our faces turning red. anyways, i went to the living room where it was nice and cool so i just sat on the sofa. hey, they set up their coffee table just like drew's apt.! after playing around with the funny remote control, i found out how to access the batcave and later found out that eugene was really batman! nice try, eugene...
i was never really interested in the circus until tonight. i was with someone but currently my memory seems to be failing me. so many great events with the giraffes and the fireworks and the colors. beautiful. my friend that was accompanying me became really cool with the circus owner and started working in his office. anyways, it was time to go and i remember being raised REALLY high on one of the giraffe's necks. oh the life-threatening height! clinging onto the man's shirt, i apologized and he told me not to worry about it. arrival: San Francisco. my friend finds the circus owner a very attractive korean girl who looks really similar to Tia Carrere, except she's a fob. it's just like you see it in tv when the friend tries to hook you up with a really nice person.
after the show, dinko and i get dropped off at my car near the beach late at night. farewell to the circus and hello to 4 flat tires! two cross dressers who really looked like women offered to help but i refused. apologies to dinko and he gives me his smile and tells me not to worry. i'm so pissed and stressed that i wanna cry. i shake my head telling myself that this HAD to be a dream...
and i'm still grateful that it was. my car was low on coolant about a month ago so i stopped by Jiffy Lube and got it all taken care of. this past sunday, my car started heating up so i filled it up with coolant again. today, i pulled out of my parking spot at school and saw a whole buncha green on the ground. *shaking fist* my car ALWAYS has problems! as a result, i need to take my car to Midas at 7:30 in the morning tomorrow. car trouble always gives you stress. stress gives you naps with bad dreams.
Thought of the Day: Not so excited about Thursday morning.
Song of the Day: Blink 182-Feeling This
i was never really interested in the circus until tonight. i was with someone but currently my memory seems to be failing me. so many great events with the giraffes and the fireworks and the colors. beautiful. my friend that was accompanying me became really cool with the circus owner and started working in his office. anyways, it was time to go and i remember being raised REALLY high on one of the giraffe's necks. oh the life-threatening height! clinging onto the man's shirt, i apologized and he told me not to worry about it. arrival: San Francisco. my friend finds the circus owner a very attractive korean girl who looks really similar to Tia Carrere, except she's a fob. it's just like you see it in tv when the friend tries to hook you up with a really nice person.
after the show, dinko and i get dropped off at my car near the beach late at night. farewell to the circus and hello to 4 flat tires! two cross dressers who really looked like women offered to help but i refused. apologies to dinko and he gives me his smile and tells me not to worry. i'm so pissed and stressed that i wanna cry. i shake my head telling myself that this HAD to be a dream...
and i'm still grateful that it was. my car was low on coolant about a month ago so i stopped by Jiffy Lube and got it all taken care of. this past sunday, my car started heating up so i filled it up with coolant again. today, i pulled out of my parking spot at school and saw a whole buncha green on the ground. *shaking fist* my car ALWAYS has problems! as a result, i need to take my car to Midas at 7:30 in the morning tomorrow. car trouble always gives you stress. stress gives you naps with bad dreams.
Thought of the Day: Not so excited about Thursday morning.
Song of the Day: Blink 182-Feeling This
yesterday...
me: dillon, do you know what common and proper nouns are?
dillon: yes. common noun would be like "boy." proper noun would be "Dillon." common noun, "girl." proper noun, "Jordan."
me: ahhahahahahahah.
jordan: hey shuttup!
as immature as it sounds, i thought it was some high quality humor!
in the beginning of my senior year, i began studying apologetics with chang. i remember that past summer, alot of my friends were going to take the Humanities course so their summer reading happened to be the Bible! i remember in my past experiences, my favorite argument against atheists was, "have you ever read the whole Bible? how can you say that the Bible isn't true if you haven't read the book?" so this was in a sense, payback time and oh yeah, i was going to pay. these unbelieving sinners finished that 1000 page book in 2 months while i had my whole life to pace myself, and hadn't even finished a single testament. oh yes, i was convicted! i even remember the night that i began Genesis. it was Barnes & Noble, the one next to Hillsdale. i was determined to finish the sucker in 3 months. (smile).
well, i've been through alot since that night i started to read the Bible. over the months, i was reading the Old Testament straight up. big mistake. i think i struggled alot in those months w/o any New Testament nourishment. in those months, i learned that you need a healthy balance of the two testaments. not JUST NEW or JUST OLD, but a little bit of BOTH! one thing i take pride in is the fact that i was very consistent with my Bible reading despite the lack of ANY accountability from anyone. even though no one asked me how i was doing scripturally, by the grace of God i was one consistent bastard. even after those regretful mornings in the dorms, i always managed to open up the book and read to start off my day.
that same boy who promised chang that he'd finish the Bible in three months has finally finished today. not to boast, but rather to encourage: if phil can read the whole Bible, ANYBODY can read the whole Bible!
thanks for the haircut, dykas.
i like this
Thought of the Day: I'm so excited about Thursday.
Song of the Day: Phil Wickham-Jesus, Lord Of Heaven
me: dillon, do you know what common and proper nouns are?
dillon: yes. common noun would be like "boy." proper noun would be "Dillon." common noun, "girl." proper noun, "Jordan."
me: ahhahahahahahah.
jordan: hey shuttup!
as immature as it sounds, i thought it was some high quality humor!
in the beginning of my senior year, i began studying apologetics with chang. i remember that past summer, alot of my friends were going to take the Humanities course so their summer reading happened to be the Bible! i remember in my past experiences, my favorite argument against atheists was, "have you ever read the whole Bible? how can you say that the Bible isn't true if you haven't read the book?" so this was in a sense, payback time and oh yeah, i was going to pay. these unbelieving sinners finished that 1000 page book in 2 months while i had my whole life to pace myself, and hadn't even finished a single testament. oh yes, i was convicted! i even remember the night that i began Genesis. it was Barnes & Noble, the one next to Hillsdale. i was determined to finish the sucker in 3 months. (smile).
well, i've been through alot since that night i started to read the Bible. over the months, i was reading the Old Testament straight up. big mistake. i think i struggled alot in those months w/o any New Testament nourishment. in those months, i learned that you need a healthy balance of the two testaments. not JUST NEW or JUST OLD, but a little bit of BOTH! one thing i take pride in is the fact that i was very consistent with my Bible reading despite the lack of ANY accountability from anyone. even though no one asked me how i was doing scripturally, by the grace of God i was one consistent bastard. even after those regretful mornings in the dorms, i always managed to open up the book and read to start off my day.
that same boy who promised chang that he'd finish the Bible in three months has finally finished today. not to boast, but rather to encourage: if phil can read the whole Bible, ANYBODY can read the whole Bible!
thanks for the haircut, dykas.
i like this
Thought of the Day: I'm so excited about Thursday.
Song of the Day: Phil Wickham-Jesus, Lord Of Heaven
October 25, 2003
i'm in one of those rare moods where i actually FEEL like blogging! perhaps it is b/c i am done with my first round of midterms. perhaps it is b/c the weekend has finally come. perhaps it is b/c i am digesting my beloved double-double. perhaps it is b/c i am listening to dinko's Audioslave-Like A Stone. perhaps i am just so randomly happy right now...
my math midterm was freakin' difficult. so many problems with so little time. so many derivatives with so little space. but there's no point in worrying about it now. i'm done and there's nothing i can do about it. i tried and i tried and i even found myself enjoying math MUCH more than senior year. may God be pleased!
tonight for bible study, we went over Predestination! ooooooo what a topic! i am so encouraged whenever we study the fundamentals of reformed theology. i LOVE it! so we're going over this huge topic and i actually found myself having NO doubts or questions at all. i was kinda surprised/discouraged to see so many people with such "basic" questions concerning Romans 9 and Ephesians 1. that's the arrogant and sinful side of me talking. i was so blessed to have a teacher like chang to teach me all the goods at such a young age. i am so grateful to God that He has given me such understanding and knowledge concerning these reformed truths. i rejoice in these mysteries as i see more and more of God's glory. all glory to Him. i know i say that alot but may it be true!
tonight, i talked to ben kang for the first time. i've never actually shared anything or even prayed with him before. it's funny how that arrogant bastard can say some encouraging things to you...not cliches, but things you've actually never heard before. i almost feel energized for the first time, all encouraged to live more passionately in this sinful world. God can even use droopy-eyed ben for good purposes!
i never enjoyed reading the book of Revelations until recently. as a child, this book was one of the scariest books to ever be written in history. the destruction, the persecution of christians, the battle against Satan. but now that i have a better understanding of eschatology, i find this book to be so much more encouraging! apart from the fallen angels, evil dragons, and falling believers, there is the coming of Christ! with all the sin and chaos in this world, there will be Christ! we're all going home guys...we're finally going home! and i'll get to say my "all glory to Him"'s forever and ever. encouraging.
Thought of the Day: "Who do you like?"
Song of the Day: Jars Of Clay-Flood
my math midterm was freakin' difficult. so many problems with so little time. so many derivatives with so little space. but there's no point in worrying about it now. i'm done and there's nothing i can do about it. i tried and i tried and i even found myself enjoying math MUCH more than senior year. may God be pleased!
tonight for bible study, we went over Predestination! ooooooo what a topic! i am so encouraged whenever we study the fundamentals of reformed theology. i LOVE it! so we're going over this huge topic and i actually found myself having NO doubts or questions at all. i was kinda surprised/discouraged to see so many people with such "basic" questions concerning Romans 9 and Ephesians 1. that's the arrogant and sinful side of me talking. i was so blessed to have a teacher like chang to teach me all the goods at such a young age. i am so grateful to God that He has given me such understanding and knowledge concerning these reformed truths. i rejoice in these mysteries as i see more and more of God's glory. all glory to Him. i know i say that alot but may it be true!
tonight, i talked to ben kang for the first time. i've never actually shared anything or even prayed with him before. it's funny how that arrogant bastard can say some encouraging things to you...not cliches, but things you've actually never heard before. i almost feel energized for the first time, all encouraged to live more passionately in this sinful world. God can even use droopy-eyed ben for good purposes!
i never enjoyed reading the book of Revelations until recently. as a child, this book was one of the scariest books to ever be written in history. the destruction, the persecution of christians, the battle against Satan. but now that i have a better understanding of eschatology, i find this book to be so much more encouraging! apart from the fallen angels, evil dragons, and falling believers, there is the coming of Christ! with all the sin and chaos in this world, there will be Christ! we're all going home guys...we're finally going home! and i'll get to say my "all glory to Him"'s forever and ever. encouraging.
Thought of the Day: "Who do you like?"
Song of the Day: Jars Of Clay-Flood
October 24, 2003
i made a pretty big move with my students today. everyone knows that kids absolutely cannot sit still for more than one minute. jordan likes to put his feet on my legs, rock his chair, lean on me, punch me in the face, flick my face...HARRASS ME! dillon likes to rock back and forth, take the book off the table and position it so that i cannot see the words, stand on top of the chair, and pick his ear with a pencil. yeah, i don't like that last one either. so as i was saying, i made a pretty big move with my students today. i got so sick of all this fidgeting from these restless kids that i offered them a deal...
me: jordan, you're like a monkey! you just won't sit still! you wanna hug me, put your feet on me, and lean on me! MONKEY BOY!!!
jordan: ahahahahhah. i'm not a monkey!
me: ok i'll tell you what. jordan, if you can sit still w/o moving around ONCE, i'll give you anything you want!
jordan: *gasp*
me: dillon, ANYTHING you want!
dillon: (smiles and stares off into space).
you see, my plan was to see what they wanted and to just give them their rewards for x-mas, while they attempted to sit still the whole time. it'd be like killing 2 birds with 1 stone! i thought there was no way they could sit still for the whole 30 min. or 1 hour w/o rocking that cursed chair once or touching any part of my body. they are to sit just as i sit! so after i explain the rules to dillon, we go for a practice run today. that kid did not budge once! freakin' a, the bastard really wants that pokemon game. looks like the birds are going to throw that stone back at me.
Thought of the Day: (tanx)'=-sec^2 x
Song of the Day: Justin Timberlake-Like I Love You
me: jordan, you're like a monkey! you just won't sit still! you wanna hug me, put your feet on me, and lean on me! MONKEY BOY!!!
jordan: ahahahahhah. i'm not a monkey!
me: ok i'll tell you what. jordan, if you can sit still w/o moving around ONCE, i'll give you anything you want!
jordan: *gasp*
me: dillon, ANYTHING you want!
dillon: (smiles and stares off into space).
you see, my plan was to see what they wanted and to just give them their rewards for x-mas, while they attempted to sit still the whole time. it'd be like killing 2 birds with 1 stone! i thought there was no way they could sit still for the whole 30 min. or 1 hour w/o rocking that cursed chair once or touching any part of my body. they are to sit just as i sit! so after i explain the rules to dillon, we go for a practice run today. that kid did not budge once! freakin' a, the bastard really wants that pokemon game. looks like the birds are going to throw that stone back at me.
Thought of the Day: (tanx)'=-sec^2 x
Song of the Day: Justin Timberlake-Like I Love You
October 22, 2003
| Disorder | Rating |
| Paranoid: | Moderate |
| Schizoid: | Low |
| Schizotypal: | Low |
| Antisocial: | Moderate |
| Borderline: | Low |
| Histrionic: | Low |
| Narcissistic: | Moderate |
| Avoidant: | Moderate |
| Dependent: | Low |
| Obsessive-Compulsive: | Low |
-- Personality Disorder Test - Take It! -- | |
i'm a much healthier person compared to last year.
Thought of the Day: Chili's was a bad idea.
Song of the Day: INOJ-Love You Down
October 21, 2003
i'm really enjoying my film studies class right now. ever since i started taking the class, my whole perspective on advertisement has changed. like when i watch commercials or see ads in magazines, i see what they're REALLY trying to sell. it's kinda like how neo sees the matrix as it really is with all the codes and junk. when i watch a commercial, i no longer enjoy it like i used to cause i'm too busy analyzing it now. but i really enjoy talking about film stuff with hannah. we both agree that we cannot discuss such things with "the ignorant," while we can appeciate these stupid things by ourselves...
me: hey, you see his hands? you should talk about how they're old so it's directed more towards an older audience.
hannah: oh yeah! like being old means wisdom!
me: oh yeah! that's good...like experienced and stuff!
hannah: yeah!
we are so cool.
there's been this recurring theme of dealing with temptations in my life lately. like in my book, The Purpose Driven Life, it was talking about fighting temptations and being faithful. and this sunday, dennis preached about how every temptation we face is an opportunity to be faithful to God. the same exact theme in 3 days! sounds and looks like a coincidence but i strongly disagree! but really, this idea of having an "opportunity" has really encouraged me to be faithful in numerous different situations. Jesus faced every temptation and never fell. may we strive to be like Christ!
random: you know what really bothers and annoys me? you know when people pray and do that whole "lord father God father lord" crap? you know, the whole..."Dear heavenly father lord god, we thank you for this day heavenly father lord god." (shaking head). they say that phase at least twice in every sentence of their prayer! what i'm thinking is...do you not know what saying the Lord's name in vain means? lemme give you an example by iming carol right now...
Pretzelboi96 (12:32:45 AM): carol, how was your day today carol?
cRzYkRnGaL (12:32:47 AM): oh
cRzYkRnGaL (12:32:48 AM): haha
cRzYkRnGaL (12:33:06 AM): hmm... it was pretty tiring actually
Pretzelboi96 (12:33:27 AM): what was so tiring about it carol?
cRzYkRnGaL (12:34:20 AM): i think the weekend just caught up with me and i was extremely tired
Pretzelboi96 (12:34:41 AM): carol, you should rest carol
cRzYkRnGaL (12:34:44 AM): cuz i drove around a lot over the weekend... going to cerritos, back to r-side... blahblah then to la blahblah
cRzYkRnGaL (12:35:03 AM): haha.. phil are u just saying that so u can leave too phil?
Pretzelboi96 (12:35:11 AM): lol
and now olivia...
Pretzelboi96 (12:33:05 AM): olivia
Pretzelboi96 (12:33:12 AM): what'd you do today olivia?
SwTpiNkStaR (12:33:13 AM): /
SwTpiNkStaR (12:33:30 AM): i told u
SwTpiNkStaR (12:33:34 AM): is this phiL?
Pretzelboi96 (12:33:40 AM): olivia, i asked you how it was
Pretzelboi96 (12:33:44 AM): not what you did olivia
Pretzelboi96 (12:34:06 AM): and yes olivia, this is phil
SwTpiNkStaR (12:34:38 AM): why do u keep sayin mai name?
SwTpiNkStaR (12:34:49 AM): ok...
Pretzelboi96 (12:34:52 AM): olivia, does it sound foolish when i'm saying your name?
SwTpiNkStaR (12:35:01 AM): no...it's BEAUTIFUL
SwTpiNkStaR (12:35:09 AM): but u sound weird phil
SwTpiNkStaR (12:35:12 AM): like it's not phil
SwTpiNkStaR (12:35:15 AM): but ok
Pretzelboi96 (12:35:16 AM): lol
SwTpiNkStaR (12:35:16 AM): anyways
Pretzelboi96 (12:35:23 AM): just an experiment
SwTpiNkStaR (12:35:36 AM): experiment?
SwTpiNkStaR (12:35:40 AM): why phil?
SwTpiNkStaR (12:35:46 AM): is it supposed to sound foolish phil?
SwTpiNkStaR (12:35:56 AM): when u keep repeating someone's name phil?
see my point?
if there is one name we should not be abusing, it should be the LORD'S! i understand that sometimes we're just trying to emphasize how He's our father and God and whatnot, but more often that not...it's mindless. if you're a victim, please do change or im me and i'll war with you. otherwise, spread the word if you're in consent! =D
Thought of the Day: Illegibility has consequences.
Song of the Day: Avril Lavigne-My World
me: hey, you see his hands? you should talk about how they're old so it's directed more towards an older audience.
hannah: oh yeah! like being old means wisdom!
me: oh yeah! that's good...like experienced and stuff!
hannah: yeah!
we are so cool.
there's been this recurring theme of dealing with temptations in my life lately. like in my book, The Purpose Driven Life, it was talking about fighting temptations and being faithful. and this sunday, dennis preached about how every temptation we face is an opportunity to be faithful to God. the same exact theme in 3 days! sounds and looks like a coincidence but i strongly disagree! but really, this idea of having an "opportunity" has really encouraged me to be faithful in numerous different situations. Jesus faced every temptation and never fell. may we strive to be like Christ!
random: you know what really bothers and annoys me? you know when people pray and do that whole "lord father God father lord" crap? you know, the whole..."Dear heavenly father lord god, we thank you for this day heavenly father lord god." (shaking head). they say that phase at least twice in every sentence of their prayer! what i'm thinking is...do you not know what saying the Lord's name in vain means? lemme give you an example by iming carol right now...
Pretzelboi96 (12:32:45 AM): carol, how was your day today carol?
cRzYkRnGaL (12:32:47 AM): oh
cRzYkRnGaL (12:32:48 AM): haha
cRzYkRnGaL (12:33:06 AM): hmm... it was pretty tiring actually
Pretzelboi96 (12:33:27 AM): what was so tiring about it carol?
cRzYkRnGaL (12:34:20 AM): i think the weekend just caught up with me and i was extremely tired
Pretzelboi96 (12:34:41 AM): carol, you should rest carol
cRzYkRnGaL (12:34:44 AM): cuz i drove around a lot over the weekend... going to cerritos, back to r-side... blahblah then to la blahblah
cRzYkRnGaL (12:35:03 AM): haha.. phil are u just saying that so u can leave too phil?
Pretzelboi96 (12:35:11 AM): lol
and now olivia...
Pretzelboi96 (12:33:05 AM): olivia
Pretzelboi96 (12:33:12 AM): what'd you do today olivia?
SwTpiNkStaR (12:33:13 AM): /
SwTpiNkStaR (12:33:30 AM): i told u
SwTpiNkStaR (12:33:34 AM): is this phiL?
Pretzelboi96 (12:33:40 AM): olivia, i asked you how it was
Pretzelboi96 (12:33:44 AM): not what you did olivia
Pretzelboi96 (12:34:06 AM): and yes olivia, this is phil
SwTpiNkStaR (12:34:38 AM): why do u keep sayin mai name?
SwTpiNkStaR (12:34:49 AM): ok...
Pretzelboi96 (12:34:52 AM): olivia, does it sound foolish when i'm saying your name?
SwTpiNkStaR (12:35:01 AM): no...it's BEAUTIFUL
SwTpiNkStaR (12:35:09 AM): but u sound weird phil
SwTpiNkStaR (12:35:12 AM): like it's not phil
SwTpiNkStaR (12:35:15 AM): but ok
Pretzelboi96 (12:35:16 AM): lol
SwTpiNkStaR (12:35:16 AM): anyways
Pretzelboi96 (12:35:23 AM): just an experiment
SwTpiNkStaR (12:35:36 AM): experiment?
SwTpiNkStaR (12:35:40 AM): why phil?
SwTpiNkStaR (12:35:46 AM): is it supposed to sound foolish phil?
SwTpiNkStaR (12:35:56 AM): when u keep repeating someone's name phil?
see my point?
if there is one name we should not be abusing, it should be the LORD'S! i understand that sometimes we're just trying to emphasize how He's our father and God and whatnot, but more often that not...it's mindless. if you're a victim, please do change or im me and i'll war with you. otherwise, spread the word if you're in consent! =D
Thought of the Day: Illegibility has consequences.
Song of the Day: Avril Lavigne-My World
October 17, 2003
aaron: guys make fun of each other. that's how they bond.
eddie: then how do girls bond? they cry huh? they cry together and become closer to each other.
joe: hey, do you play ball?
freshmen: no, i'm REALLY bad!
joe: oooooooo really? you wanna play for money?
ahahahahahhha.
Thought of the Day: Bacardi Limon. Unexpected.
Song of the Day: Chris Tomlin-Holy Is The Lord
eddie: then how do girls bond? they cry huh? they cry together and become closer to each other.
joe: hey, do you play ball?
freshmen: no, i'm REALLY bad!
joe: oooooooo really? you wanna play for money?
ahahahahahhha.
Thought of the Day: Bacardi Limon. Unexpected.
Song of the Day: Chris Tomlin-Holy Is The Lord
October 15, 2003
i'm sure everyone can agree with me that we're all relieved that cafe nite is over. that day was seriously killing me physically. when you're too stressed out, your body won't allow you to fall asleep. with only 2 hours of sleep, saturday was really working me...even if i wasn't as productive as the rest of cpc. anyways, a little disappointed that almost every person in irvine who was supposed to come did not come. but people DID come and that's all that matters. dinko and zenia did a terrific job MCing. great videos. every performance definitely reflected all those hours of practice...lol, dinko's the man! praise God for a very decent cafe nite!
Kill Bill is good. i knew it was going to be good. if you made a movie like Pulp Fiction, you are one dope bastard.
tutoring has been going through some weird stages lately. basically, dillon and jordan have switched roles in who gets to be the bastard student. i think b/c i was so cool with jordan, he saw me more as a friend than a teacher. as a result, he's been trying to step all over me and not expect me to be productive with him. man, i really dislike scolding him b/c i know he gets all sullen and starts hating our times together. on the contrary, my times with dillon have become alot better. i've learned that he's a very smart student and he's been hating it b/c i was going too slow. well, i'm kinda letting him lead the way and i think he's been enjoying it these days. why can't i just have two very good students? i mean, those kids get to have a really good teacher! =D
anyways, i think my days of stress have finally settled down. i am all caught up with my readings for film studies. it's good to have a regular pace of school now. all those hours at common's. seriously, it is only by God's grace that i could've done all that reading. only by His grace.
we started clusters last night. looks like we have a group of 14 if everyone comes out. freakin' a, you call that a small group? more like the Church of Irvine. haha. anyways, it was good. we all gave charges to the year below us and ended in prayer. nice way to start off our year of clusters. gosh, we have so much pride in our clusters group. we know that we shouldn't be but we all know we're such an awesome group. no one dislikes going to clusters. but irvine clusters or not, may God really work in every group this year.
i met J at the arc tonight. man, i really need to go visit everyone.
i got rid of all my popups and succesfully installed Easy CD Creator 5 Platinum.
Thought of the Day: "Vegas baby! AAAAAAHHHHH!"
Song of the Day: Chris Tomlin-Holy Is The Lord
Kill Bill is good. i knew it was going to be good. if you made a movie like Pulp Fiction, you are one dope bastard.
tutoring has been going through some weird stages lately. basically, dillon and jordan have switched roles in who gets to be the bastard student. i think b/c i was so cool with jordan, he saw me more as a friend than a teacher. as a result, he's been trying to step all over me and not expect me to be productive with him. man, i really dislike scolding him b/c i know he gets all sullen and starts hating our times together. on the contrary, my times with dillon have become alot better. i've learned that he's a very smart student and he's been hating it b/c i was going too slow. well, i'm kinda letting him lead the way and i think he's been enjoying it these days. why can't i just have two very good students? i mean, those kids get to have a really good teacher! =D
anyways, i think my days of stress have finally settled down. i am all caught up with my readings for film studies. it's good to have a regular pace of school now. all those hours at common's. seriously, it is only by God's grace that i could've done all that reading. only by His grace.
we started clusters last night. looks like we have a group of 14 if everyone comes out. freakin' a, you call that a small group? more like the Church of Irvine. haha. anyways, it was good. we all gave charges to the year below us and ended in prayer. nice way to start off our year of clusters. gosh, we have so much pride in our clusters group. we know that we shouldn't be but we all know we're such an awesome group. no one dislikes going to clusters. but irvine clusters or not, may God really work in every group this year.
i met J at the arc tonight. man, i really need to go visit everyone.
i got rid of all my popups and succesfully installed Easy CD Creator 5 Platinum.
Thought of the Day: "Vegas baby! AAAAAAHHHHH!"
Song of the Day: Chris Tomlin-Holy Is The Lord
October 11, 2003
"Your most profound and intimate experiences of worship will likely be in your darkest days-when your heart is broken, when you feel abandoned, when you're out of options, when the pain is great-and you turn to God alone. It is during suffering that we learn to pray our most authentic, heartfelt, honest-to-God prayers. When we're in pain, we don't have the energy for supeficial prayers."
-Rick Warren
Thought of the Day: Our skit is going to be dope.
Song of the Day: Party Song
-Rick Warren
Thought of the Day: Our skit is going to be dope.
Song of the Day: Party Song
October 10, 2003
1st half of thursday was BAD...
1. i really dislike it when the teacher is willing to hold up the whole class just b/c some dumb students have some dumb questions. "is there going to a problem like #39 on the quiz?" the teacher says no and still goes over the whole problem just b/c of the student doesn't understand. after that tedious process, we just start all over again with another raised hand.
2. film studies discussion. icons, symbols, and market value. they all speak of a language that i do not understand. stop looking at me, expecting to hear some intelligent contribution to the group. lost - Past tense and past participle of lose. lose - To fail to hear, see, or understand.
3. korean-1st draft story due monday. cafe nite is really preventing any productive school work from happening.
4. effect: 10 min. late to tutoring. cause: driving on campus instead of harvard. 2 REALLY bad drivers caused me to stop at 2 min. red lights. "GOD! WHY?!"
2nd half of thursday was GOOD...
1. actually fell alseep and woke up 2 hours later.
2. find parking at hannah's place and enter right in time for Friends.
3. delectable pie.
4. go over all film studies lectures/studios in 2 hours. the material i find interest. i've never had so much gratitude for hannah.
5. visit jack's place. nice place.
6. get a chunk of the film studies reading done. the contrast b/w the readings from history and film studies is incredible. i was actually enjoying what i was reading earlier tonight. this stuff on film and art and media is so interesting! and dude, you can't go wrong with books that are loaded with pictures. out of there by 2am.
7. find parking!
i concluded the night with a praise to God...hands lifted up and looking up into the sky. a very content smile...
let's just hope that smile can last throughout the weekend.
Thought of the Day: Dykas liked Swingers!
Song of the Day: Tamaki Nami-Realize
1. i really dislike it when the teacher is willing to hold up the whole class just b/c some dumb students have some dumb questions. "is there going to a problem like #39 on the quiz?" the teacher says no and still goes over the whole problem just b/c of the student doesn't understand. after that tedious process, we just start all over again with another raised hand.
2. film studies discussion. icons, symbols, and market value. they all speak of a language that i do not understand. stop looking at me, expecting to hear some intelligent contribution to the group. lost - Past tense and past participle of lose. lose - To fail to hear, see, or understand.
3. korean-1st draft story due monday. cafe nite is really preventing any productive school work from happening.
4. effect: 10 min. late to tutoring. cause: driving on campus instead of harvard. 2 REALLY bad drivers caused me to stop at 2 min. red lights. "GOD! WHY?!"
2nd half of thursday was GOOD...
1. actually fell alseep and woke up 2 hours later.
2. find parking at hannah's place and enter right in time for Friends.
3. delectable pie.
4. go over all film studies lectures/studios in 2 hours. the material i find interest. i've never had so much gratitude for hannah.
5. visit jack's place. nice place.
6. get a chunk of the film studies reading done. the contrast b/w the readings from history and film studies is incredible. i was actually enjoying what i was reading earlier tonight. this stuff on film and art and media is so interesting! and dude, you can't go wrong with books that are loaded with pictures. out of there by 2am.
7. find parking!
i concluded the night with a praise to God...hands lifted up and looking up into the sky. a very content smile...
let's just hope that smile can last throughout the weekend.
Thought of the Day: Dykas liked Swingers!
Song of the Day: Tamaki Nami-Realize
October 9, 2003
as you can tell from my last entry, i've been pretty stressed out with school...particularly with history. b/c i hadn't finished the reading that day, i finished it yesterday in common's. just sat there and read. you read and don't stop until you've come to an end of a chapter. you read even if you don't understand words that show up in every paragraph like "kleptocracy." curse that word cause i don't care! i need to get this reading done!
so basically, i ended up finishing ALL of it around 1am last night and signed onto aim...
hAnNaH bAnAnA xP (1:41:32 AM): wut happened?!!
hAnNaH bAnAnA xP (1:41:38 AM): did u get added?
Pretzelboi96 (1:41:47 AM): looks like it's not going to happen
hAnNaH bAnAnA xP (1:41:51 AM): awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww
hAnNaH bAnAnA xP (1:41:52 AM): awwwwwwwwwwwwwwww
hAnNaH bAnAnA xP (1:41:54 AM): awwwwwwwwwwwwwwww
hAnNaH bAnAnA xP (1:41:56 AM): freaking...
hAnNaH bAnAnA xP (1:42:02 AM): y did u figure out ur passion for film studies so lATE!
(checking email).
Pretzelboi96 (1:42:18 AM): omg wait
hAnNaH bAnAnA xP (1:42:29 AM): ??
Pretzelboi96 (1:43:22 AM): haha
hAnNaH bAnAnA xP (1:43:26 AM): ????
Pretzelboi96 (1:43:28 AM): ok so i guess i can add
hAnNaH bAnAnA xP (1:43:29 AM): awwwww freaking
hAnNaH bAnAnA xP (1:43:32 AM): u cAN?!
hAnNaH bAnAnA xP (1:43:33 AM): u got in?!!
Pretzelboi96 (1:43:34 AM): i just got an email
Pretzelboi96 (1:43:38 AM): tomorrow
Pretzelboi96 (1:43:39 AM): 5pm
hAnNaH bAnAnA xP (1:43:39 AM): YAY!!!!
Pretzelboi96 (1:43:41 AM): her office
Pretzelboi96 (1:43:46 AM): omg dude
hAnNaH bAnAnA xP (1:43:53 AM): YAYAYAYAY
Pretzelboi96 (1:43:54 AM): i read 133 pages yesterday and today for history
Pretzelboi96 (1:44:04 AM): i JUST finished reading 15 min. ago
Pretzelboi96 (1:44:12 AM): literally 7 hours of reading
Pretzelboi96 (1:44:23 AM): i had a feeling something like this was going to happen
i didn't know whether to feel happy or angry. it was a little bit of both. there's still a part of me that is angry about all the pointless reading/stressing i did. i even hesitated to go to the professor's office today to add the class, wondering if it really was worth it. i've missed 2 weeks of lectures and studio. but after a talk with hannah, i think i'm going to give it a try. point of no return. do or die. hit or miss. no pain, no gain. no guts, no glory. if i'm going down, i'm going down in flames. if you know you're going to get wet anyways, might as well go swimming. ok shuttup.
that market thing on ring road finally came this week. i bought 2 posters...the Rap Gods one that i always wanted and a Swingers poster! "Baby, you are so money, and you don't even know it man!!" lol. that's what it says at the bottom with this tight pose of trent, mikey, and lou. once i bought that poster, i knew right away that Swingers was my favorite movie. ignorance, immaturity, and insecurity of guys...all nicely grafted into a hilarious movie. you love it b/c you can relate. girls love it b/c they see it happening in real life. somebody hurry and get this movie another award!
cafe nite this saturday. dykas and i actually practiced the whole skit today and it looks alot better than when we first started. starting next week, my life should be getting a whole lot better. class schedules, working days, and steady church activities beginning next week. we can do this guys! hwateeng!
Thought of the Day: C-P-C!!!
Song of the Day: Schubert-Ave Maria
so basically, i ended up finishing ALL of it around 1am last night and signed onto aim...
hAnNaH bAnAnA xP (1:41:32 AM): wut happened?!!
hAnNaH bAnAnA xP (1:41:38 AM): did u get added?
Pretzelboi96 (1:41:47 AM): looks like it's not going to happen
hAnNaH bAnAnA xP (1:41:51 AM): awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww
hAnNaH bAnAnA xP (1:41:52 AM): awwwwwwwwwwwwwwww
hAnNaH bAnAnA xP (1:41:54 AM): awwwwwwwwwwwwwwww
hAnNaH bAnAnA xP (1:41:56 AM): freaking...
hAnNaH bAnAnA xP (1:42:02 AM): y did u figure out ur passion for film studies so lATE!
(checking email).
Pretzelboi96 (1:42:18 AM): omg wait
hAnNaH bAnAnA xP (1:42:29 AM): ??
Pretzelboi96 (1:43:22 AM): haha
hAnNaH bAnAnA xP (1:43:26 AM): ????
Pretzelboi96 (1:43:28 AM): ok so i guess i can add
hAnNaH bAnAnA xP (1:43:29 AM): awwwww freaking
hAnNaH bAnAnA xP (1:43:32 AM): u cAN?!
hAnNaH bAnAnA xP (1:43:33 AM): u got in?!!
Pretzelboi96 (1:43:34 AM): i just got an email
Pretzelboi96 (1:43:38 AM): tomorrow
Pretzelboi96 (1:43:39 AM): 5pm
hAnNaH bAnAnA xP (1:43:39 AM): YAY!!!!
Pretzelboi96 (1:43:41 AM): her office
Pretzelboi96 (1:43:46 AM): omg dude
hAnNaH bAnAnA xP (1:43:53 AM): YAYAYAYAY
Pretzelboi96 (1:43:54 AM): i read 133 pages yesterday and today for history
Pretzelboi96 (1:44:04 AM): i JUST finished reading 15 min. ago
Pretzelboi96 (1:44:12 AM): literally 7 hours of reading
Pretzelboi96 (1:44:23 AM): i had a feeling something like this was going to happen
i didn't know whether to feel happy or angry. it was a little bit of both. there's still a part of me that is angry about all the pointless reading/stressing i did. i even hesitated to go to the professor's office today to add the class, wondering if it really was worth it. i've missed 2 weeks of lectures and studio. but after a talk with hannah, i think i'm going to give it a try. point of no return. do or die. hit or miss. no pain, no gain. no guts, no glory. if i'm going down, i'm going down in flames. if you know you're going to get wet anyways, might as well go swimming. ok shuttup.
that market thing on ring road finally came this week. i bought 2 posters...the Rap Gods one that i always wanted and a Swingers poster! "Baby, you are so money, and you don't even know it man!!" lol. that's what it says at the bottom with this tight pose of trent, mikey, and lou. once i bought that poster, i knew right away that Swingers was my favorite movie. ignorance, immaturity, and insecurity of guys...all nicely grafted into a hilarious movie. you love it b/c you can relate. girls love it b/c they see it happening in real life. somebody hurry and get this movie another award!
cafe nite this saturday. dykas and i actually practiced the whole skit today and it looks alot better than when we first started. starting next week, my life should be getting a whole lot better. class schedules, working days, and steady church activities beginning next week. we can do this guys! hwateeng!
Thought of the Day: C-P-C!!!
Song of the Day: Schubert-Ave Maria
October 7, 2003
a day of humility...
1. i don't have a printout of my history lecture notes.
2. film studies not added. looks very unlikely.
3. shin ramen is CUP shin ramen! dissatisfying. glasses of milk only add to the diarrhea.
4. decide not to tutor due to lack of strength.
5. cannot even fall asleep for an energizing nap.
6. fall asleep around 6:30 and wake up to phone calls.
7. bad dinner.
8. 5 hours of reading and still do not finish reading 133 pages on history of Southeastern Asia and crops of fruit.
9. find out that i was supposed to tutor at 6:30 today. postponed to tomorrow at 8. gonna miss the first meeting of clusters.
10. no parking in Parkwest. two parking spots are taken up by one car. resort to parking next to Chevron. btw, this is at 1am.
11. not much rice left in the cooker ready for me to eat tomorrow morning.
ok that last one was forced but i am just tired, stressed, and distressed.
James 1:2-3-Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance.
it is when we are humbled that we depend on God the most. don't complain phil.
Thought of the Day: The End.
Song of the Day: David Crowder-Holy Is The Lord
1. i don't have a printout of my history lecture notes.
2. film studies not added. looks very unlikely.
3. shin ramen is CUP shin ramen! dissatisfying. glasses of milk only add to the diarrhea.
4. decide not to tutor due to lack of strength.
5. cannot even fall asleep for an energizing nap.
6. fall asleep around 6:30 and wake up to phone calls.
7. bad dinner.
8. 5 hours of reading and still do not finish reading 133 pages on history of Southeastern Asia and crops of fruit.
9. find out that i was supposed to tutor at 6:30 today. postponed to tomorrow at 8. gonna miss the first meeting of clusters.
10. no parking in Parkwest. two parking spots are taken up by one car. resort to parking next to Chevron. btw, this is at 1am.
11. not much rice left in the cooker ready for me to eat tomorrow morning.
ok that last one was forced but i am just tired, stressed, and distressed.
James 1:2-3-Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance.
it is when we are humbled that we depend on God the most. don't complain phil.
Thought of the Day: The End.
Song of the Day: David Crowder-Holy Is The Lord
October 6, 2003
man, so many freshmen every week...
1. ken.
2. erica.
3. joyce.
4. yo-han.
5. julie.
6. fred.
asking them the same questions and giving them the same advice. so many stinkin' freshmen.
anyways, i really wanna drop history. i had a talk with hannah and she was telling me all these wonderful things about film studies. that's all i could think about these days. will the professor add me tomorrow even though there's a "waitlist?" will others drop it for whatever reason so that i can replace them? God was giving me all the signs...
1. history is a GRIP of reading.
2. minh's in my discussion.
3. film studies is supposed to be REALLY good.
4. if i drop history, my earliest class will be at 12!
i was thinking today about how i'm part of welcoming committee and how i'm supposed to be real welcoming to new visitors. then a crazy thought struck my head! what if minh came out to cpc? how would i act towards him? would i even greet him? man, we as christians are not supposed to have beef with anybody. i'm probably the worst example of a christian in his life. i really should've cleared things up with him right before i left the dorms. i don't have to LIKE him, but i should've at least reconciled. now, i'm just left with awkwardness and shame. oh the weight of pride.
today's message on prayer was a really good message. i wasn't enjoying it much at the time, but when i think about it i can't help but feel compelled to PRAY! we ought to pray all the time for it is a sign of reverence and humility to our God. how awesome it is to even have the privilege of coming before our Lord and calling Him, Father. only by His love and grace. we should really take advantage of prayer as well. we should never be lacking in prayer and thanksgiving. AMEN!
another thing i realized today...
i met yo-han at ccm on wednesday and took him home from church today. that guy seriously just loves talking about God and nothing else...kinda reminded me of darren. however, when i started talking to julie or fred, we'd talk more about superficial things like school and people. the sad thing was that i felt more comfortable talking to fred and julie, while alotta my conversation with yo-han was kinda forced. man, i've become so shallow, so consumed with this world that i would prefer to talk about stupid meaningless things over talking about God. the Bible says that the words that come out of our mouth often reflect our heart. sinful.
the christian life is all about seeing more of your sinfulness and seeing more of God's holiness. it's humbling but i think at the same time it should be encouraging. how AWESOME it is that we have a God who is SO much holier than us.
Romans 5:20-21- The law was added so that the trespass might increase. But where sin increased, grace increased all the more, so that, just as sin reigned in death, so also grace might reign through righteousness to bring eternal life through Jesus Christ our Lord.
oh how this is hitting me on the head right now! praise God!
Thought of the Day: I think I'm pretty.
Song of the Day: Chris Tomlin-Holy Is The Lord
1. ken.
2. erica.
3. joyce.
4. yo-han.
5. julie.
6. fred.
asking them the same questions and giving them the same advice. so many stinkin' freshmen.
anyways, i really wanna drop history. i had a talk with hannah and she was telling me all these wonderful things about film studies. that's all i could think about these days. will the professor add me tomorrow even though there's a "waitlist?" will others drop it for whatever reason so that i can replace them? God was giving me all the signs...
1. history is a GRIP of reading.
2. minh's in my discussion.
3. film studies is supposed to be REALLY good.
4. if i drop history, my earliest class will be at 12!
i was thinking today about how i'm part of welcoming committee and how i'm supposed to be real welcoming to new visitors. then a crazy thought struck my head! what if minh came out to cpc? how would i act towards him? would i even greet him? man, we as christians are not supposed to have beef with anybody. i'm probably the worst example of a christian in his life. i really should've cleared things up with him right before i left the dorms. i don't have to LIKE him, but i should've at least reconciled. now, i'm just left with awkwardness and shame. oh the weight of pride.
today's message on prayer was a really good message. i wasn't enjoying it much at the time, but when i think about it i can't help but feel compelled to PRAY! we ought to pray all the time for it is a sign of reverence and humility to our God. how awesome it is to even have the privilege of coming before our Lord and calling Him, Father. only by His love and grace. we should really take advantage of prayer as well. we should never be lacking in prayer and thanksgiving. AMEN!
another thing i realized today...
i met yo-han at ccm on wednesday and took him home from church today. that guy seriously just loves talking about God and nothing else...kinda reminded me of darren. however, when i started talking to julie or fred, we'd talk more about superficial things like school and people. the sad thing was that i felt more comfortable talking to fred and julie, while alotta my conversation with yo-han was kinda forced. man, i've become so shallow, so consumed with this world that i would prefer to talk about stupid meaningless things over talking about God. the Bible says that the words that come out of our mouth often reflect our heart. sinful.
the christian life is all about seeing more of your sinfulness and seeing more of God's holiness. it's humbling but i think at the same time it should be encouraging. how AWESOME it is that we have a God who is SO much holier than us.
Romans 5:20-21- The law was added so that the trespass might increase. But where sin increased, grace increased all the more, so that, just as sin reigned in death, so also grace might reign through righteousness to bring eternal life through Jesus Christ our Lord.
oh how this is hitting me on the head right now! praise God!
Thought of the Day: I think I'm pretty.
Song of the Day: Chris Tomlin-Holy Is The Lord
October 4, 2003
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Thought of the Day: Errands.
Song of the Day: Wax-Money
October 3, 2003
man, i can't believe i'm blogging right now.
man, i was so productive today. after class, i studied at common's for the first time in my life. i actually went inside and read my stupid history book for 2 hours. yeah i took a nap for 15 min. but the point is, i actually sat there and accomplished my goal.
brandywine really sucks now. eddie swiped me in for dinner so i was really excited to eat some good ol' pasta and phillycheesesteak sandwiches with my caesar salad. *angry sigh* no more salad and no pasta. fries are same as pippin's and common's and the sandwiches aren't even the same. that budget cut is really hurting us students. i mean, the poor freshmen can't even enjoy brandywine like i did. and if they can't enjoy it, that means i can't enjoy it with them. that schwarzenegger better do something about it if he becomes governor. "calilflower." lol.
is it just me or does this season of Friends really suck? i'm seriously only watching it now to see what's going to happen b/w rachel, ross, and joey. the cast is so not funny anymore. you can even hear the audience forcing their laughs. goodness, the writers must be hating it right now.
so as i was saying, i was really productive today. i actually went to go work out at the arc b/c of sean's motivational im. man, it feels SO good to be working out again. my 2 mile time wasn't so bad either-18:23. but gosh, i was seriously hating it on the last half mile. haha. i remember telling myself that i'm never ever going to eat greasy food again. i started thinking about the dorm food i had eaten for dinner, last night's midnight Doritos, and that cheesy pizza from Domino's with my roommates. fiiiiig that was good. haha. but FUDGE i was hating it on the last half mile.
i saw alotta people at the arc today...joyce, joanne, ted, james, joe, simon, gerald, euggie (lol), ashley, joe, eddie, cpc eddie, allan, john, and kris! man, kris changed sooo much...
kris: phil.
me: (looking around).
kris: phil, it's me!
me: (stare).
kris: KRIS!
me: (staring some more)...omg, i didn't even recognize you. you look SO different!
kris: really? how?
me: maybe it's the makeup.
kris: i'm not wearing any makeup. but i did lose 15 pounds.
me: yeah! you got alot skinnier. wow!
man, her face lost like alotta fat. you can see her cheekbones and stuff now. woman, you gotta gain some weight! but she got alot prettier. =D
so i'm all caught up with my reading. i read a good 80 pages on cavemen and food production. cavemen stuff is boring. food production was actually interesting. i think i'm actually going to get alot out of this history course. it's OH SO MUCH READING but i can't deny that i'm learning.
i still can't remember why i decided to blog tonight.
Thought of the Day: "Big L, rest in peace!"
Song of the Day: Gangstar-Full Clip
man, i was so productive today. after class, i studied at common's for the first time in my life. i actually went inside and read my stupid history book for 2 hours. yeah i took a nap for 15 min. but the point is, i actually sat there and accomplished my goal.
brandywine really sucks now. eddie swiped me in for dinner so i was really excited to eat some good ol' pasta and phillycheesesteak sandwiches with my caesar salad. *angry sigh* no more salad and no pasta. fries are same as pippin's and common's and the sandwiches aren't even the same. that budget cut is really hurting us students. i mean, the poor freshmen can't even enjoy brandywine like i did. and if they can't enjoy it, that means i can't enjoy it with them. that schwarzenegger better do something about it if he becomes governor. "calilflower." lol.
is it just me or does this season of Friends really suck? i'm seriously only watching it now to see what's going to happen b/w rachel, ross, and joey. the cast is so not funny anymore. you can even hear the audience forcing their laughs. goodness, the writers must be hating it right now.
so as i was saying, i was really productive today. i actually went to go work out at the arc b/c of sean's motivational im. man, it feels SO good to be working out again. my 2 mile time wasn't so bad either-18:23. but gosh, i was seriously hating it on the last half mile. haha. i remember telling myself that i'm never ever going to eat greasy food again. i started thinking about the dorm food i had eaten for dinner, last night's midnight Doritos, and that cheesy pizza from Domino's with my roommates. fiiiiig that was good. haha. but FUDGE i was hating it on the last half mile.
i saw alotta people at the arc today...joyce, joanne, ted, james, joe, simon, gerald, euggie (lol), ashley, joe, eddie, cpc eddie, allan, john, and kris! man, kris changed sooo much...
kris: phil.
me: (looking around).
kris: phil, it's me!
me: (stare).
kris: KRIS!
me: (staring some more)...omg, i didn't even recognize you. you look SO different!
kris: really? how?
me: maybe it's the makeup.
kris: i'm not wearing any makeup. but i did lose 15 pounds.
me: yeah! you got alot skinnier. wow!
man, her face lost like alotta fat. you can see her cheekbones and stuff now. woman, you gotta gain some weight! but she got alot prettier. =D
so i'm all caught up with my reading. i read a good 80 pages on cavemen and food production. cavemen stuff is boring. food production was actually interesting. i think i'm actually going to get alot out of this history course. it's OH SO MUCH READING but i can't deny that i'm learning.
i still can't remember why i decided to blog tonight.
Thought of the Day: "Big L, rest in peace!"
Song of the Day: Gangstar-Full Clip
October 2, 2003
venting thoughts...
i guess this is the first official week of school. this year is SO much busier than freshmen year. i think it's mainly b/c i'm working and going to school now. it just takes up alotta time and energy. i leave the apt. at 11 and come home at 5:30 everyday. draining. i seriously do not see anyway for me to make time to work out cause by the time i get home, i just won't have enough energy to study (like i do anyways right?). inconsistent. man, i really wanna start working out again too. when i'm this discouraged, how the heck am i going to manage next year? am i doomed to stay out of shape forever?
last night, i started watching Gaeul Donghwa with dykas on his computer cause we got the cds from a friend. that was definitely my most favorite drama ever. i remember watching that crap during my junior year. my brother and i watched the first two videos so many times cause we liked it so much. it's like whatevers now but at the time, it was SO DEPRESSING as if it were in real life...
(in spanish AP taking a test)...
me: (stare). *sigh*
lol. my brother always cracks up when i tell him about that incident. but yeah, song hye gyo is still so attractive. i can't believe she was like only 18 or 19 at the time. good stuff man.
well i had a pretty long day today. class from 11-3 nonstop and tutor til 5. you know what's crazy? last night, i had a dream of my old dorm roommate, minh. if you don't remember, we ended on pretty bad terms and didn't even say bye to each other on the last day. so anyways, i had a dream about him which is really weird b/c i've never dreamt about him in my life. well like most dreams, i didn't remember what happened but i just forgot about it and went to school. the thing is, i heard from one of my friends that he was taking the same history class as me. i didn't think much of it since it's a pretty big lecture hall and you usually can't see people you know anyways.
so i go to my tiny tiny discussion section today. woah, richard's in this class...and he's in my discussion too! what a coincidence. so about 15 min. into the class, door opens, and in walks minh. i straight up said in my head, "GOD, that is so not funny!" of all the classes, of all the discussions, we just had to end up in the same one. and unforutnately, discussion is mandatory and part of your grade so yeah, i'll be seeing him every time there's class. oh the awkwardness...i hate it. i wonder how hard God is laughing right now.
better news: my two kids are liking me more and more. i know jordan enjoys studying with me cause we have alot of fun...
me: "voices." jordan, use that in a sentence.
jordan: philip has many strange voices.
me: ahahhahahaha.
as i was leaving today...
jordan: you know philip...
mom: yeah, you like him alot huh?
jordan: no, is he coming tomorrow?
GRIN.
i think dillon's liking me more too. no hard evidence but i got a hunch. very subtle things. the best part is that i can see them improving little by little. praise God!
speaking of which, i went out to ccm today for the first time in a long time. lots of old familiar faces and a handful of new freshmen. but i made a big decision today: i'm going to stop going out to ccm. i never went for the "fellowship" or accountability or whatever. i just went out to meet people cause i didn't know too many christians my freshmen year. but now, i just feel like i'm going and i'm wasting my time. i don't feel like socializing and they just go out and eat more often than i can afford...especially with new freshmen and all. haha. now i understand why genie and eugene stopped coming out last year. it all makes sense now. however, i still encourage freshmen to go to these clubs to meet people. great place to meet people and occasional good messages. that's about it.
i don't know if it's b/c i'm really busy these days but i really enjoy spending time in the apt. it's just so quiet and relaxing. i can just sit at my computer and listen to music. i can do my hw and study in solitude. i can sleep and eat with no trouble at all. ugh, what am i kidding...i'm getting old.
Thought of the Day: Exhausted.
Song of the Day: Notorious BIG-Going Back To Cali
i guess this is the first official week of school. this year is SO much busier than freshmen year. i think it's mainly b/c i'm working and going to school now. it just takes up alotta time and energy. i leave the apt. at 11 and come home at 5:30 everyday. draining. i seriously do not see anyway for me to make time to work out cause by the time i get home, i just won't have enough energy to study (like i do anyways right?). inconsistent. man, i really wanna start working out again too. when i'm this discouraged, how the heck am i going to manage next year? am i doomed to stay out of shape forever?
last night, i started watching Gaeul Donghwa with dykas on his computer cause we got the cds from a friend. that was definitely my most favorite drama ever. i remember watching that crap during my junior year. my brother and i watched the first two videos so many times cause we liked it so much. it's like whatevers now but at the time, it was SO DEPRESSING as if it were in real life...
(in spanish AP taking a test)...
me: (stare). *sigh*
lol. my brother always cracks up when i tell him about that incident. but yeah, song hye gyo is still so attractive. i can't believe she was like only 18 or 19 at the time. good stuff man.
well i had a pretty long day today. class from 11-3 nonstop and tutor til 5. you know what's crazy? last night, i had a dream of my old dorm roommate, minh. if you don't remember, we ended on pretty bad terms and didn't even say bye to each other on the last day. so anyways, i had a dream about him which is really weird b/c i've never dreamt about him in my life. well like most dreams, i didn't remember what happened but i just forgot about it and went to school. the thing is, i heard from one of my friends that he was taking the same history class as me. i didn't think much of it since it's a pretty big lecture hall and you usually can't see people you know anyways.
so i go to my tiny tiny discussion section today. woah, richard's in this class...and he's in my discussion too! what a coincidence. so about 15 min. into the class, door opens, and in walks minh. i straight up said in my head, "GOD, that is so not funny!" of all the classes, of all the discussions, we just had to end up in the same one. and unforutnately, discussion is mandatory and part of your grade so yeah, i'll be seeing him every time there's class. oh the awkwardness...i hate it. i wonder how hard God is laughing right now.
better news: my two kids are liking me more and more. i know jordan enjoys studying with me cause we have alot of fun...
me: "voices." jordan, use that in a sentence.
jordan: philip has many strange voices.
me: ahahhahahaha.
as i was leaving today...
jordan: you know philip...
mom: yeah, you like him alot huh?
jordan: no, is he coming tomorrow?
GRIN.
i think dillon's liking me more too. no hard evidence but i got a hunch. very subtle things. the best part is that i can see them improving little by little. praise God!
speaking of which, i went out to ccm today for the first time in a long time. lots of old familiar faces and a handful of new freshmen. but i made a big decision today: i'm going to stop going out to ccm. i never went for the "fellowship" or accountability or whatever. i just went out to meet people cause i didn't know too many christians my freshmen year. but now, i just feel like i'm going and i'm wasting my time. i don't feel like socializing and they just go out and eat more often than i can afford...especially with new freshmen and all. haha. now i understand why genie and eugene stopped coming out last year. it all makes sense now. however, i still encourage freshmen to go to these clubs to meet people. great place to meet people and occasional good messages. that's about it.
i don't know if it's b/c i'm really busy these days but i really enjoy spending time in the apt. it's just so quiet and relaxing. i can just sit at my computer and listen to music. i can do my hw and study in solitude. i can sleep and eat with no trouble at all. ugh, what am i kidding...i'm getting old.
Thought of the Day: Exhausted.
Song of the Day: Notorious BIG-Going Back To Cali
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