man, so many freshmen every week...

1. ken.
2. erica.
3. joyce.
4. yo-han.
5. julie.
6. fred.

asking them the same questions and giving them the same advice. so many stinkin' freshmen.

anyways, i really wanna drop history. i had a talk with hannah and she was telling me all these wonderful things about film studies. that's all i could think about these days. will the professor add me tomorrow even though there's a "waitlist?" will others drop it for whatever reason so that i can replace them? God was giving me all the signs...

1. history is a GRIP of reading.
2. minh's in my discussion.
3. film studies is supposed to be REALLY good.
4. if i drop history, my earliest class will be at 12!

i was thinking today about how i'm part of welcoming committee and how i'm supposed to be real welcoming to new visitors. then a crazy thought struck my head! what if minh came out to cpc? how would i act towards him? would i even greet him? man, we as christians are not supposed to have beef with anybody. i'm probably the worst example of a christian in his life. i really should've cleared things up with him right before i left the dorms. i don't have to LIKE him, but i should've at least reconciled. now, i'm just left with awkwardness and shame. oh the weight of pride.

today's message on prayer was a really good message. i wasn't enjoying it much at the time, but when i think about it i can't help but feel compelled to PRAY! we ought to pray all the time for it is a sign of reverence and humility to our God. how awesome it is to even have the privilege of coming before our Lord and calling Him, Father. only by His love and grace. we should really take advantage of prayer as well. we should never be lacking in prayer and thanksgiving. AMEN!

another thing i realized today...

i met yo-han at ccm on wednesday and took him home from church today. that guy seriously just loves talking about God and nothing else...kinda reminded me of darren. however, when i started talking to julie or fred, we'd talk more about superficial things like school and people. the sad thing was that i felt more comfortable talking to fred and julie, while alotta my conversation with yo-han was kinda forced. man, i've become so shallow, so consumed with this world that i would prefer to talk about stupid meaningless things over talking about God. the Bible says that the words that come out of our mouth often reflect our heart. sinful.

the christian life is all about seeing more of your sinfulness and seeing more of God's holiness. it's humbling but i think at the same time it should be encouraging. how AWESOME it is that we have a God who is SO much holier than us.

Romans 5:20-21- The law was added so that the trespass might increase. But where sin increased, grace increased all the more, so that, just as sin reigned in death, so also grace might reign through righteousness to bring eternal life through Jesus Christ our Lord.

oh how this is hitting me on the head right now! praise God!

Thought of the Day: I think I'm pretty.
Song of the Day: Chris Tomlin-Holy Is The Lord