i finally got to watch Minority Report after church on fri. i enjoyed the movie not too much, but enough to just simply enjoy. this was of course due to the "watch it! but don't expect too much!" responses from others. anyways, today as i was daydreaming during PJ's sermon, i was thinking about how God is omnipresent and stuff...you know, like how He watches us ALL the time right? well, remember those parts in Minority Report when all those screens would identify you with a "hello John Anderton?" ok, nevermind. that didn't make any sense. i was just thinking about God's omnipresence and somehow thought of Minority Report. our thoughts usually don't make sense anyhow...kinda like our dreams you know? ok, enough from phil.

well, i'm getting really good at working with cookies. i've already memorized the prices for the main foods. i finally mastered how to give mall discounts and add .30 to the smoothies. this sounds stupid but trust me, it was one confusing mother at first. oh, i am finally skilled at making smoothies at our store. it's kinda different from Yogurt & Salad so it took me a good 50 smoothies before i figured out the right portions. your next Rasberry Rumba's going to taste alot better from now on! the only crappy news i have about work is that i have to close everytime. i guess it's not so bad when you're actually doing it. it sucks when you think about it though. it sucks alot.

well, haven't updated about chess in a while. for those who have played with me recently, i think it's pretty apparent that i've improved in many different levels. i no longer struggle with simon's victories. his victories are simply the results of my mistakes. but then again, so is every other game i play with anyone. eh, but i can beat simon whenever i don't make a mistake. he has strategies and stuff, but it's just a matter of my mistakes. ok, no one cares. just thought i'd share cause i'm so dang proud of myself. so dang proud! haha.

random...

simon: who's helen shin? is she pretty?
me: well, i'm not going to say she's pretty or ugly. but i can tell you that she's really nice.
simon: dang, she must be hecka ugly then!

funny, i would've said the same thing...

Thought of the Day: Una Vez Mas
Song of the Day: Aaliyah-Are You That Somebody

i closed at work for the first time yesterday. it was really frustrating b/c we kept having customers after our store hours were closed. during the day, i received my first unhappy customer...

customer: how much is it?
me: i think it's 2.19.
(customer getting his change).
me: oh wait, it's 2.39.
customer: what?! you told me it was 2.19!
me: oh, i didn't know that price was w/o tax.
customer: they why'd you tell me it was 2.19?!
me: i'm sorry.

but what was REALLY frustrating was the fact that the lady i was closing with didn't explain jack crap to me! she's this short filipino lady who talks in a low voice and has an accent that i struggle with. anyways, she was in the back counting money while i was cleaning the front using my best judgement. it was tough. we have this hecka ghetto mop that always falls apart. we have a dustpan without the duster so i have to broom everything in. we have these really heavy trays that all need go in the refrigerator....dude, it's alotta trays. but after 45 struggling minutes, i got most of it done and got outta that place! ugh, i'm working saturday, 2-Close (9:30).

on the flipside, i had a great time after work. dykas got a chance to meet our beloved chang and we just hung out during the night. since chang needed some justice with his hunger, we went to the Korean restaurant on Fillmore like around 1:30 am. we came. we indulged. we praised God. on the way home, we started talking about culinary hedonism and looked at the subject in many different angles. we first started cursing the existence of the obsession, but started talking about our heroes in our lives. we talked about the "Allstar Team"-PJ for his tenacity with hot foods, Chang Mo for his speed, and Terrance for his quantity. lol. we talked about Brazilian BBQ, "domination," Tony Roma's, 5 bowls of rice, the Pho Challenge, Todai's, Terrance Kimm (lol), the "stair master," and finally Homer Simpson. man, we were cracking up so much in chang's car. i never knew talking about food could be so much fun. *sigh* it was great. three full men under the influence of pork. lol.

Thought of the Day: Jeremiah 29:13.
Song of the Day: Kim Min Jong-Beautiful Pain Trance Mix

yesterday, i went to pat's birthday party. haha. that sounds so funny, "birthday party." it sounds so childish and inappropriate. anyways, i went to my friend's birthday party. it was a whole lot better than i thought it would be. the day started off with a fantastic dinner full of sushi and ribs. it was A+ delicious! of course out of all of my friends, i appreciated the food the most. "applauding the chef." lol.

pat: BS, you can't eat ice cream. you're too fat.
everyone: ahahahahahhaah.

i got pat the same chess set that PJ has for his b-day present. i ended up playing that crap for hours! i was doing pretty good and soon received a pretty good reputation. obviously, pride got the best of me and i started playing like crap in the end.

after chess, we played some basketball at mills. it was perfect b/c the weather was just right and all the courts had new nets on the rims. we played three games of 3 on 3 and had a great sweaty time...especially me. gosh, they started calling me Ahn Jung Hwan after that game though...me and my wet wavy hair. suppposed to be a compliment or something. whatever.

after that, we had our traditional time of noraebang at Millbrae Karoke. even though we always go with the same people and always sing the same songs, we always seem to enjoy every minute at noraebang. we still cheer and clap for each other. we still laugh at the same gestures and songs. and of course, i always perform my crap almost every single time. but yes, it definitely would not be the same w/o pat. lol. he's a natural-born rapper. "family family famileeeeeh." "RASH RASH RASH!" ahahahahahahah.

to conclude the night's events, i taught my friends how to play Gumpch. BS and Alfred already knew the game, but they call it Kent and "cut" is "stop." *shrug* so we played Kent for almost 2 hours like at 12. i ended up playing with Sunny, pat's sister, and i realized that i was destined to only have one Gumpch partner...matt ji. anyways, it was alotta fun. i'd rather not describe any funny moments during our games. you'd have to understand my friends first.

today, i got my diploma from school. i don't feel any different or special. it would've been kinda cool if they actually gave it to us on the stage. but no, they make us come back to school a few weeks later to pick it up on our own. how special. how freakin' special.

work:

allan: you know what an Oreo is?
char: what?
allan: it's a black person who thinks like a white person.
me: ahahahahahahaah.

Thought of the Day: "RASH RASH RASH!"
Song of the Day: REF-What Are You

dang, everyone seems to be saying the same things in their blogs today. MINORITY REPORT WAS THE BEST CRAP IN THE WORLD! JUST DON'T EXPECT TOO MUCH! or KOREA LOST! OH WELL. 3RD PLACE blah blah blah. so it's not like i can just join you guys. first, i haven't watched the movie. second, now i WILL expect too much you idiots! third, Korea's defeat was totally expected...well, at least for me. you must be wondering why phil is speaking in such a bitter tone. well, phil is speaking in a such a bitter tone b/c he only got 5.5 hours of sleep this morning...definitely not good for a regular 10 hour executer. i don't really have any good reason to be unhappy. today's weather is fantastic. winamp's playing plenty of gay tunes. i have my friend's party to go to today. weird. it's just a non-sensical unhappiness. just really pissed dude. and it's not like i can just go back to sleep. i have work in less than an hour and i'm still in my shorts with my unbrushed teeth and oily face. ugh, let's hope i get through this day w/o hurting anybody.

Thought of the Day: ALEMANIA! GOOOOOOOOOOAL! (shuttup).
Song of the Day: DJ DOC-LIE

haha. everyone in their blogs all talk about how they haven't blogged in a long time. i guess i'm just going to have to join this cool crowd by starting off with my "i haven't blogged in so long!" it's weird though b/c i was so consistent while i was in school. however, once summer hits and now that i have nothing better to do, ironically i become very on and off with my online journal. anyways, time to reflect...

on thursday, chang and i went to this burrito place on mission. i never knew there were so many mexican restaurants on that street! i believe there were about three on the same block we decided to check out! so we tried this new place and it was really good. i think i've fallen in love with burritos. last year, it was pho. this year, burritos are definitely the way to go! of course there is a good reason why i no longer eat pho. all i can say is, i dare you to finish an x-large bowl at the millbrae pho place. i dare you.

on friday, i went to Great America with ratface. it wasn't the most exciting time but it was fun with decency. it was cool though cause the weather was pretty nice and there weren't too many people at the park that day. matt seriously got over his fear of rollercoasters this time. in 10th grade, he was this weak sauce crap that couldn't ride crap! and after friday, he became a man.

matt: i wanna ride Vortex.
me: dude, i'm telling you that ride's so gay!
(after the ride).
matt: ahahahahahahah. that was so weak!
me: yeah, i told you! ahahahahahaha.
matt: ahahahahahah.

yeap, matt was so disappointed he could only laugh. and i could only join him.

dude, have you guys ever ridden Top Gun in the way front? it is soooooo much better than the other seats. we were so lucky cause there was seriously like no line! we rode that crap like 6 times! every time was so much fun!

me: alrite matt. this is the LAST time ok?
matt: alrite.
(after the ride).
me: dude, the line is so short! let's go to the front.
matt: alrite.
(after the ride).
me: dude matt, we have to ride that crap just ONE more time!
matt: haha. yeah, i know!

oh, and if you guys go to Great America, you guys HAVE to ride Delirium! that crap looks like garbage but it's sooooo fun! that ride is now officially better than Invertigo, slowly coming right behind Top Gun. the best way to describe Delirium is that it's like a giant retarded swing. and it also has this surprising twist in the middle of it.

matt: yeah dude, you think it's over and then all of a sudden you're like OH SH*T!
me: ahahahahaahahaha. i know!

i finally learned how to give mall discounts or add .30 to the smoothies! Mrs. Field's isn't as bad as it seems. all you do is put cookies into small bags or make smoothies. it's pretty simple...just like any other food related store. now, this doesn't mean that i'm proud that i work there. it's still really embarrassing when i have to tell people where i work. anyways, it's all good. "would you like anything to drink with that?"

i had my senior banquet last night. it was nothing like i thought it would be, which has its pros and cons. rather than expressing my disappointment, i'd like to talk about my appreciation for the efforts. i think it's pretty evident that the students worked REALLY hard and were stressed out beyond words. it's ok, i've been there. i know how hard it could get. bitterness. dissatisfaction. apathy. chaos. yeap, definitely been there before. i know the skit people worked so much harder than necessary. i know the food thing didn't run too smoothly due to disorganization. and of course, speech preparation was very LAST minute. despite all these unfortunate happenings, i appreciated the whole banquet. i liked seeing everyone work so hard. i liked seeing unfamiliar faces getting involved. i liked the fact that everyone was sharing a common event together. thank you everybody. you guys are awesome and "don't be shady." hehe.

and the movie trek continues. today, i saw Scent of a Woman starring my beloved Al Pacino. this was one of those rare occasions where he actually doesn't play an unhappy gangster. gosh, this movie REALLY caused me to appreciate his acting abilities. who would've thought that this man could go from gangster to lonely blind man? anyways, i really enjoyed this one. $2.15 well spent.

Thought of the Day: "Ooo-ah!"
Song of the Day: Nappy Roots-Aw Naw

work:

allan: Philip, you should really get a laptop in college.
me: oh really? but i heard those things get stolen sometimes.
allan: oh sure they do! when i was in college, my roommate would bring friends over and they'd take cigarettes out of my drawer. so one time, i put some firecracker material inside 3 of the cigarettes and stuffed it with tobacco. after the first guy blew up, they never went through my stuff again!
(10 min. later).
allan: and that is why Hewlett Packard merged with Compaq!

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my life's been pretty monotonous these past few days. i basically wake up at 11, eat lunch and go online til 2, go to work til 5, exercise for about an hour, and watch tv or play cards til 1 in the morning. of course, a few minor changes are added here and there like picking up a book or talking on the phone, but it's pretty much the same thing everyday. the reason for this unexciting lifestyle is due to the fact that i am once again broke. i won't get paid again til next week? gosh, it's mainly b/c i went to LA and spent like 80 bucks in 2 days. i want to say it was worth it, but it really wasn't. i think next week's going to treat me alot nicer. i'll have a little money and i have two friends who have their birthdays that week.

Thought of the Day: Cell phone's messed up.
Song of the Day: The Offspring-Keep 'Em Seperated

last night, i had a very bad dream and a series of good dreams. the first dream was about my 3 plad shirts that i bought a few weeks ago. i dreamt that i was trying to wear all of them at once for some reason, and i ended up ripping all of them. i was so pissed and disappointed! i remember trying to tape up the sleeves and stuff and failing miserably, being left with pieces of fabric all over the place. it's weird cause i remember telling myself in the dream to wake up and i did!

second dream was about going to korea! in the dream, i went inside this van full of girls that were fobs and this one chinese fob who went to my school. they were all trying to talk to me b/c they were interested in the "American guy." however, i ended up talking to the chinese girl and just hanging out with her throughout the whole day. unfortunately, this happy dream was disturbed by a phone call by Chris Moon. that bastard always messes up everything! gosh, i REALLY felt like going to Korea after this dream.

third dream was about working in the mall and playing in the toy store with some lady during my break time. then i remembered i was the only one working that day and i had to get back on time. running with all my strength and speed, i ran into the two managers but they weren't pissed at me for some reason. it was a stressful yet relieving dream. to my surprise, i woke up at 12 this morning. gosh, that's like 10-11 hours of sleep AGAIN!

i finally went back to my office job today. it was nice seeing them again:

allan: hey philip!
me: hey allan.
allan: so how does it feel?
me: (assuming he was talking about being done with high school) it feels great!
allan: you don't feel sick?
me: ?
allan: how many hangovers did you have?
me: ahahahahahah. no hangovers for me.
allan: no hangovers?! c'mon philip! this is the only time you'll get to do that stuff!
me: haha. yeah.

gosh, those guys even got me a graduation card! but the best part is, they decided to surprise me with a gift inside. they opened a saving and checking account for me in the credit union with $100! man, these guys are so nice. ALL of the workers signed the card too!

char: yeap. we opened you up an account! now you can never get away from us!

exercise was alot easier today. it was still pretty freakin' hard, but easier. i wasn't panting like a fool after i was done running. haha. simon was outside and i decided to sneak up on him with my sweaty body and everything. he turned around and smacked my face pretty hard after being startled. ironically, i was so tired and "endorphined" that i didn't even feel pain. it was pretty cool and funny at the same time. hehe.

today, i watched over 4 hours of tv after dinner. the weird thing is that i didn't feel all wasted and crap afterwards. i usually hate watching tv after 2 hours. today, i felt like i could've gone on another 2 hours if there was a decent movie on. i guess i'm slowly oozing in to the summer vacation feel. it's nice. really lazy. really kick back. it's nice.

Thought of the Day: "No hangovers?!"
Song of the Day: The Offspring-Gone Away

yesterday, i got my job back at Mrs. Field's. i told them that i had to go down to LA b/c my friend had to go to court to clear up a ticket. i showed them the appointment for the court thing and they bought my excuse. in fact, they didn't really seem pissed about the whole matter at all. they were like, "ok. just call us on friday for your schedule. (smile)." so yeah, this goes back to our great God who always provides! and yes, i learned my lesson: don't ever call in sick on your second day of training no matter what. in the words of frank, "you're such an idiot!"

i also began my exercise routines yesterday. i run approximately 3 miles going through different streets full of irritating hills and unnecessary STOP signs. i call this run, Bernal, b/c that's what the last street is called and i run to the end of it and turn around all the way back to my house. for those of you who don't know, i used to be in x-country during my soph. and junior years in high school. i'm not exactly sure WHY i joined. i mean, i was pretty slow to begin with, none of my "cool" friends were on the team, and i was pretty slow to begin with. anyways, Bernal used to be our "fun" run...you know, the easy workout where everyone cheered when coach told us to do it. gosh, yesterday was one pitiful run! i am ridiculously out of shape! after i was done running, i clearly remember opening my mouth as wide as possible to get in as much oxygen as possible. afterwards, i was only able to do 3 sets of 10 push ups and 3 sets of 15 crunches. when i was in x-country, i used to be able to do 3 sets of 30 push ups and 3 sets of 45 crunches! notice the huge gap? i have literally become 3x weaker than my old body. oh pity!

right now, i am having some trouble breathing b/c i just ate some In N' Out. it's weird though b/c i just had my usual...2 cheeseburgers, fries, and a drink. i never have trouble with a meal like this! well, i'm not exactly having trouble with my breathing. but i can feel my heart beating abnormally. you guys know what i mean right? when it feels like you have a lopsided heart? gosh, my heart's taking some pretty mean abuse:

(after running)
brain: c'mon take in the oxygen!
heart: dude, you REALLY need to work out some more!

(after eating)
brain: c'mon pump through those suckers!
heart: you bastard! i can't handle this!

today, i lost one of my students that i tutor, julia. she's taking some kinda summer school thing and she won't have time for a tutor. at first, i was kinda sad b/c i won't be making as much money. however, i'm kinda relieved that i won't have to worry about making unfavorable appointments every week. i still have john so it's not so bad. i don't know...i enjoy tutoring kids. it's a nice thing to do, it's easy, and it's MONEY! but really, i also enjoy talking to the kids about their middle school problems too. some of them are so stupid yet so understandable! afterall, i was a lost middleschooler once as well. but yeah, i'm going to make the best of my last few months with john.

so what'd you guys think of the Singspiration thing today? me? i personally felt very distracted throughout the whole thing. i mean, they were good and all. great singers, great guitar and drums, and good transitions. however, i just wasn't used to hearing such fancy worship. there was also the camera guy who kept bothering me, the really entertaining drummer, and the singers who kept dancing with their hands in the air. all these small things really jacked up my focus. all in all, it was a cool worship to be in. i guess i just wasn't used to it.

jomo-i was consistent in checking your blog everyday! i don't like the term, "loser." i prefer the words, "considerate" or "faithful." haha.
mr. chi-wherever you are, that Orange Bang stuff is dope!

Thought of the Day: "JAMMINY" eehsuhyeuo!? lol.
Song of the Day: Open The Eyes Of My Heart

i'm back from LA. i had a really good time while i was down there. ate at Harris Ranch, Horodi, and El Pollo Loco. went to MGM noraebang and this nice pc bang in Torrance. i ate pat-bing-soo at this nice cafe in Alexandria. but i think of all the things we did, i enjoyed our ride back up to SF the most. i enjoyed listening to korean music, having thought-provoking discussions over thought-provoking issues, and listening to some more hardcore sermon tapes and debates. thanks for a great time chang (even though you made me drive 80% of the time). lol.

so i had a short discussion with my mom after the long journey. we talked about how/why i lost my job, how/why i didn't get the scholarship i applied for, and how/why i cannot go to missions this year. i was really depressed after our short talk. i felt so helpless, just having all these hardships punching me in the face all at once. very discouraging. i was so overwhelmed that i just had to spend some time in prayer by myself. i felt so much better after crying out all of my problems to God.

however afterwards, it was such a coincidence that i ended up listening to a sermon by Tim Keller on "Praying Our Tears." chang let me borrow this a while ago and it wasn't until today that i decided to listen to it. gosh, i have never been so blessed by a sermon in my life! i mean, it was TOTALLY speaking to me and i was able to understand so much of it. it really hit me that God understands all of our emotions b/c Jesus Christ actually came down to earth and experienced everything in his lifetime as well. He knows exactly how it feels to be abandoned b/c He experienced it on the cross. He knows exactly how it feels to be helpless b/c He experienced it on the cross. He knows exactly how it feels to have everything go wrong b/c he experienced it on the cross. God really sympathizes with us. He understands us beyond our imagination. it is ok to pray your tears to God. in fact, we are called to do so! David did it all the time in the Psalms. i'm sure Paul did it all the time as he was suffering in prison. and of course, Jesus did it in Gethsemane, right before he was to die on the cross. but in all cases, the end result was overwhelming happiness and joy that came from God. i apologize for rambling on and on....i was so convicted to share all of this in my blog today. reader, i'd really appreciate it if you can really pray for me. my family is going through many financial difficulties and they seem to be affecting different areas in my life right now. and to end, i highly encourage you to pray your tears to God. He understands and listens. thanks for reading.

Thought of the Moment: Perseverance builds character.
Song of the Moment: Ak Dong Club-Han

so i ended up going to LA with chang and B this morning. i knew i had work today and tomorrow so it was a pretty tough decision. i've already gone to LA a few times this year, but i didn't want to regret not going again with chang. i just decided to call in sick, asking them to put me on fri. and sat. instead. however, as we were driving down, around 2:00, i called the store...

me: hello? may i speak to annette?
monina: she's not here.
me: oh monina. it's me, phil. the guy who started working yesterday.
monina: ah yes. hello.
me: hi. well, you know how i was scheduled to come in today and tomorrow? well, i don't think i can come in b/c something important came up. if you can schedule me for fri. and sat., that wouldn't be a problem though.
monina: oh, i see. well, if you can't come in today or tomorrow, don't bother coming in ever again. you can just pick up your pay for yesterday's work.
me: what? but this was an emergency! i couldn't get out of it. don't you think you can just give me one more chance?
monina: i'm sorry. we don't tolerate this kind of behavior...calling in sick on your second day of work.
me: ok. bye.

i have to admit, i DID make a pretty stupid decision. i just didn't think they were going to be THAT strict b/c it was just a stupid cookie store. i feel like i wasted a whole buncha time and energy, filling out all the forms, memorizing the prices and menu, and remembering the different policies of the store. ugh, i was soooooo pissed after i hung up the phone, but i feel much better now that i am in LA. i learned that the true secret of contentment comes from eating pat-bing-soo. haha. i know that B can testify to that too! he had a boba-bing-soo. anyways, i'm having a great time down in so. cal right now. i'm currently at a nice pc bang after eating too much korean food. i'll have to worry about the job thing later. but it's ok, i am satisfied in God. He will provide.

so the stupid Lakers finally won the whole series. i have to admit, those bastards are a really good team! i saw some hardcore LA fans honking their cars in the streets with their stupid Lakers' flags on their cars tonight. gosh, that's something you'll never see Warriors' fans do. haha. but yeah, we'll see some great stuff from the Kings next year.

Thought of the Day: "hey look! the wrath of God!" lol.
Song of the Day: Jinusean-Throw Them Hands Up (remixed by Chang Mo...ahahahahahahaah).

so i started reading the Bible again and i'm still on 2 Chronicles. once again, i am reading about the sinfulness of Israel and the kings that repented and sinned over and over. once again, i am reminded that i am no better than Israel b/c i am just like it. it's a sad notion but a true one. i hope i can finish 2 Chronicles by the end of this week...it's easy to feel really "dry."

well, i start my training at Mrs. Field's tomorrow. i don't know...i'm kinda excited for some reason. i feel very optimistic about working with cookies and wearing a red apron. haha. how gay! but that's alright, i still think it's going to be fun. i just need to wait for the rest of my lazy friends to hurry up and apply. gosh, i don't know how i'm going to figure out my tutoring and office job hours with this job! everyone's just kinda being put off w/o any notice. hmmmm.....

today was kevin's birthday so he took me and my friends out to dinner in san jo. we ate soon dooboo and just pc banged for a few hours. actually, kevin and i went to go shoot pool b/c we're no good at CS. today was a great day to just chill. i totally got a chance to experience the "summer feel" today. since it was so freakin' hot, it was soooooo nice just cruising on the freeway, with the windows down, music blasting, and just enjoying the night. *sigh* i am so glad summer is back. it's been waiting for me for so long. chilling is dope yo.

(BS outside and dykas in the car).
dykas: hey little boy!
BS: what? call me master!
dykas: hey little girl!
BS: daniel, you're so gay.
dykas: what? don't make me come outside!
BS: what daniel? do you really want me to beat your *ss in san jose?
everyone: ahahahahahahaha.
(dykas gets out of the car).
(BS runs away).
dykas: BS, you're so cute!
BS: yeah? well, i won't so cute after i beat your *ss!
(dykas walks towards BS).
(BS runs away).
everyone: ahahahahahahaha.

(matt and simon playing chess).
matt: dang! i lost!
pat: what? omg matt. i can't believe you lost to a 4th grader!
everyone: oooooooo. ahahahahahahah.
pat: dude, i don't even know how to play.

i swear, i will never forget these moments. these guys are so fun to be around!

Thought of the Moment: Happy Birthday Kevin!
Song of the Moment: Lee Jung Hyun-Half (i loooooove this song!)

*clap clap clapclapclap* DAE-HAN-MIN-GOOK! man, i have never experienced such an event! last night, i went to pat's house to watch the Korea vs. USA soccer game with a whole buncha koreans. i never realized how hardcore these fellas could be! throughout the night, there was criticizm, cussing, cheering, laughing, and of course lots of eating! dang, there were so many funny moments last night.

pat: dude, he could've just tapped it in! (retarded kicking motion).
everyone: ahahahahahaahah.

KOREA SCORES!
everyone: (jumping up and down, high fiving each other) YEEEEEEEAAAAAAAAHHHHHH! OMG OMG OMG!
(BS trying to high five me and misses).
me: (smile).

well, i'd explain more but it wouldn't be funny. anyways, i realized that when it comes to soccer, koreans will absolutely HATE the other team. no matter how fair or courteous the opposing team is being, koreans will be haters. lol. while everyone was excited about the soccer game, i was excited about their reactions. it was fun. i hate soccer. but it was fun.

before we watched the soccer game, we were all watching a video of SBS Inki Gayo. omg. if you guys think i'm obsessed with Boa, you guys have to see my friends! they're comments are soooo exaggerated to me...it's disgusting. i just think she's simply cute and can really dance. not HECKA FINE! man, my friends are lust freaks. not just Boa but SES and Finkl too. gosh, what critics they could be! harsh mothers!

Thought of the Day: Dude, Korea should've won 5-1!
Song of the Day: Drunken Tiger-Return of the Tiger

have you guys ever played basketball with matt ji? man, that guy will seriously make a fool out of you! when he does some fancy crap on you, you want to get all pissed off but you can't help but laugh at what just happened. you just realize that you were trying your best to defend him and he was messing around with you the whole time! when he makes a shot, he laughs. when he misses a shot, he laughs. when you make a shot, he laughs. what a good sport!

man, i can't believe summer vacation is here! well, here's what i would like my summer schedule to be like:

1. wake up around 9 or 10.
2. go to work.
3. work out for 45 min.
4. eat dinner.
5. play?
6. go to sleep around 12 or 1.

this would be a typical day. i suppose this could get very monotonous and such. but i'm relying on my "play time" to make my summer a bit exciting. however, there's only so much you can do without spending money. *sigh* this is going to be tough and i think depressing. i'm sure alotta my leisure time will be spent reading as well. afterall, i AM trying to make this a productive summer.

the majority of my summer days will be spent working. it's funny how you think money will take care of all your problems. you think it's going to make you happier and more relaxed. i guess there is a half-truth to that. however, we all know that it's temporary joy blah blah blah. today, i learned about the "secret of contentment" in bible study. true happiness comes from being satisfied in God. i can tell that i really need alotta work in this area. i find myself being the happiest when i am having fun with my friends doing various activities. but of course, activity after activity gets boring and we look for something else that will satisfy us. we keep searching and searching until there is like absolutely nothing to do. well, i ran into this problem today and ended up wasting hours on television. and as we all know, hours of television gives you that "wasted" feeling. so tomorrow is monday. my first official day of summer vacation. i pray that i will be productive this summer. i pray that i will have fun this summer. but most of all, i pray that i be satisfied in God the most this summer.

random thought #1: esther, dykas, tammy, bs, gary...i hope at least ONE of you guys start working with me. i promise you, we will have some great times if we all work together. more the merrier dude.

random thought #2: the Nets tried really hard today. they played like crap. they caught up. they were winning. and they lost. it's over. Lakers are gay. good effort Kidd...you showed alotta effort today.

random thought #3: michael jackson can really perform. he can dance. he can sing. but nothing will change the fact that he is a freak.

random thought #4: i realized that I-fang was gone, but gone to Europe the whole time?

random thought #5: i got a fan as a graduation gift today. dang, it's the simple things that make you happy. thanks justin.

random thought #6: thanks to everyone who read every word of my evolution paper. it's my favorite piece so far.

Thought of the Day: Tired again.
Song of the Day: Michael Jackson-Billie jean

How many of you believe in the theory of evolution? Why or why not? It is a fact that less than 10 percent of the American public wholeheartedly believes in this theory. It is a fact that Darwinism, or the belief that evolution is the foundation of life, is being taught in all the public schools in its science classes. Many believe that it is a fact that through many years of scientific research, there is much evidence for the existence of evolution. However, I believe that evolution should either be taught along with the theories of Creationism, which is the belief in a creator who made everything with a purpose and design, or the theory of evolution should not be taught at all. Although science has been believed to prove the theory correct, there is still no solid evidence for the allowance of teaching Darwinism alone.

Darwin��s theory has been taught in schools for decades now. Students walk into their classrooms with an open mind, but walk out thinking they just learned something valuable without even questioning the facts. Many people see the Fossil Record as a solid piece of evidence for the theory of evolution. They argue that there are many fossils that have been discovered over the course of years and that we can clearly see the changes in process. Unfortunately, many people do not even bother to investigate the Fossil Record. The reality is that the record is very unclear with many holes. Why is it that there is an absence of ancestors for the major animal groups that appear in the Cambrian explosion? Why is it that we cannot see a gradual change in any species? Any unbiased scientist will tell you that there just is not enough evidence in the Fossil Record to support the theory of evolution. The evidence has a hole here and a hole there. Evolutionists just assume that there is a connection between those two fossils. It is also important to remember that fossils that are found go through hundreds and thousands of years of change from weather, environment, and natural disasters. It is not safe to assume that there are evolved animals because of ��changed�� fossils. The fossil record does not prove anything. Unfortunately, many scientists continue to investigate and look for small hints that will support the theory.

Darwin was also known for going to the Galopogas Islands and making observations about the birds of that land. He investigated the finches and saw that these birds had different sized beaks in different areas of the islands. He believed that this was a cause of evolution, and decided to use it as another piece of evidence. Too many people forget that the changes in the finch beak are minor variations in the species. This only supports micro-evolution, and not macro-evolution. Micro-evolution, which can be observed through today��s microscopes, makes small changes to the body. Macro-evolution creates improvements in body parts or complex organs, which could make it a different species. According to scientists, the Earth that we live in right now is approximately 4.6 billion years old. Whether this is true or not, an unbiased scientist will tell you that there just would not be enough time for simple cells to evolve into the creatures that we see today. Darwinists give these arguments without even knowing what exactly they are talking about.

In 1995, the official Position Statement of the American National Association of Biology Teachers stated:

��The diversity of life on earth is the outcome of evolution: an unsupervised, impersonal, unpredictable and natural process of temporal descent with genetic modification that is affected by natural selection, chance, historical contingencies and changing environments.��

In other words, the famous evolutionist, George Simpson, would interpret this as, ��Man is the result of a purposeless and natural process that did not have him in mind.�� This definition clearly shows many problems with the theory of evolution. With today��s technology, we can do many great things with animals and their cells. Some evolutionists like to use dog breeding as a clear example of evolution. However, this would contradict the definition of the theory because it is defined to be ��an unsupervised, impersonal, unpredictable and natural process.�� Dog breeding is obviously guided by intelligence and not by chance. This also is just another case of minor variation. Scientists will also argue that mutation is a form of evolution that can easily be proved. It does not contradict the definition of evolution, but it cannot be used as supporting evidence either. Mutation has been studied and found to lead to unfavorable conditions to species. According to Natural Selection, mutated species die out because they are not ��fit enough to survive.�� We see many people with mutations or diseases today and it is obvious that they have much trouble living in this world. In today��s society, we can also see that humans have emotions such as anger, depression, and happiness. However, how is that a purposeless and random process like evolution, make tiny cells into complex organisms with feelings? Things like morals or ethics would have no meaning because they would just be chemical reactions in the brain. Darwinism is as absurd as the belief in a flat Earth. The evidence for evolution is false evidence. They are just scientific claims that have no support or foundation.

In conclusion, one can see many problems with the theory of evolution. However, I believe the biggest problem is the fact that it is being taught in our public schools as fact, and not theory. Many students like you and I have trouble seeing what is true or false. We tend to assume that textbooks always speak the truth. I understand that evolution is a theory and many people support it. However, I believe it is even more important that we show that is just a theory and that there are many problems with it. If we are going to have schools teach Darwinism to the students, it would only be fair that they also teach Creationism as well. If they are not willing to teach Creationism, Darwinism should not be taught either. After all, Darwinism is a philosophy as well. So once again, I ask you: How many of you believe in the theory of evolution? Why or why not? Thank you.

(that's right...i wrote this all by myself!)

Thought of the Day: Tony Roma's is ALOT better than Outback!
Song of the Day: Eminem-Without Me (remixed by chang mo. lol.)

i can't believe i'm graduating today! throughout this year, i've been so excited for this day to come. i imagined feeling really free and happy to play all summer with my friends. it's so gay though cause i'm not doing anything REALLY special tonight or tomorrow. my friends had the desire to go on a roadtrip but didn't have the discipline to plan one. so gay i tell ya! however, i somehow at the last minute ended up planning a sleepover party for yg people (everyone's invited!)...

mom: so what're you doing to do tomorrow?
me: i don't know.
mom: you wanna go out and eat with a few of your friends?

(10 min. later)

me: alrite, i guess we're having a sleepover then.

today almost feels like any other last day of school...almost like a regular school day. the whole summer feel slowly oozes in, and before you know it you're having a lazy and fun break! and once school starts again, you realize how "summer-y" you were the whole time. gosh, i'm graduating. no more high school. no more tardies or detentions. no more mindless courses with teachers who have nothing better to do. no more cutting class and getting in trouble. hmmmm...this all doesn't seem right.

ok, it's a little past 10. i need to go to my last class of my high school career. oh goodie!

Thought of the Day: HAPPY GRADUATION SENIORS!
Song of the Day: Jinusean-How Deep Is Your Love

the Lakers won today. i was disappointed. so many chances. so many mistakes. i'm depending on the Nets for redemption. the Nets are our only hope.

right now, i'm reading the Pursuit of Holiness, recommended by Chang. it's a really short and simple book that talks about holiness and our sinful nature. the more i read it, the more i realize how sinful i am. it hits you pretty hard if you take it seriously. when you REALLY think about your sins, it's disgusting. you know, we tend to be obedient b/c we want to be "rewarded" by God. however, this is a very selfish and messed up focus. we ought to be obedient out of fear and love for God. we are to be holy b/c He is holy. it's a good book. it causes me to really struggle with my sins. it's hard. really hard.

i'm so sad right now. my dad can't make it to my graduation anymore b/c he couldn't find someone to watch over the store. today, i talked to my dad on the phone and he told me that he was very sorry that he couldn't make it to my graduation. b/c he's so sorry, he said for my graduation present, he was going to buy me any laptop/computer for college. and then he told me that last night, one of the workers quit or something so he only had one employee left. this is really sad b/c he has to work approximately 14 hours by himself at the store. 14 hours!!! so he can't make it to my graduation, he's working a riduculous amount of hours by himself, and he wants to buy me a laptop b/c he's sorry. *sigh* he was telling me how it was really difficult but i shouldn't worry b/c he's "strong." sounds funny yet it's really sad. really sad. i'm pretty sure he's working right now at this very moment. for all of you who get to live with your fathers, please be grateful for them. you guys are really lucky to have someone support you so easily. i haven't lived with my dad since 4th grade. it's been a while and i feel very distant from him. i can't talk to him the way i talk to my mom. it's really awkward. however, i am grateful for such a wonderful father. i don't care how poor we are. he loves us. that's all that matters...

sorry, i just needed to vent.

Thought of the Day: B. Dalton's, Footlocker, Gamekeeper, Mrs. Fields. I'm desperate.
Song of the Day: Here I Am To Worship