April 30, 2002

i would first like to comment on justin jang's blog. dang, i can only think of one word...cute. haha. i thought it was very nice how he compared us on a list with all of our differences but ending with our similarites. dang, i'm kind of out of words. i just don't know what to say. i want to scream but i smile. i want to demand for a "better" blog but i'm satisfied. justin's blog. cute.

so april has come and gone. looks like it's another time for reflection. i want to say that this month was awesome and i want to go back. in a sense that is true but this month was just simply "not bad." yes, i admit Los Angeles was a blast! STOMP was a great performance. Prom was definitely a night to remember. and of course, i finally decided to go to UC Irvine. i went through alot this month. but i like i said, it just kinda came and left. i don't know, i guess i'll appreciate all those memories when i'm in college. but yeah, i guess a big reason why i'm not "satisifed" with this month is b/c it was a month where i was really distant from God. my spiritual life was a joke...totally unacceptable. yeah, all of it is temporary joy. only God lasts forever. so as i see May rolling around the corner, i will try to make this month a month that is full of happiness in God. i want it to be full of discipline and perserverance...no more of this "i'm kinda tired" crap! and as always, prayers are ALWAYS encouraged! c'mon phil, you can do it!

man, i just realized that cutting school can become an addiction. i mean, the first few times you just kinda enjoy it and then you go back to your regular routines. but after cutting a few more times, it starts to become a way of life. i mean, i'm really NOTHING compared to my friends....these fellas are hardcore and hate going to school with a passion! but i definitely need to watch my habits. sleeping til 10 is nice. it really is. but as chang mentioned in his blog, more sleep does not mean more energy. indolence only increases (exponentially in my case). ugh, one more month dude.

matt-don't ever take your mom for granted. i know she can be a big itch but NEVER EVER take her for granted.

Thought of the Day: Watch out now!
Song of the Day: Watergate-Maid of Orleans (doobo-dl this one too)

April 29, 2002

guess what? chicken butt. you know where? in your underwear. you know why? because your butt's dry!

i really like justin jang. this homosexual friend of mine is like no other. he's very immature, rude, arrogant, selfish, and last but not least very parsimonious! but this is what i like about him. this is what defines him. his sinfulness causes me to test my patience and love. every time he says a belittling comment to me, i am humbled as if it was planned discipline. every time he steals money from me, i am given the chance to work even harder for my money. every time he wastes my time on the phone, i am given the chance to practice keeping my tongue clean. man, what a guy! what a sinful bad guy! but as much trouble he may give me, i still like justin jang. he is my homosexual friend. and that is that.

justin-you're just as dangerous as i am. be terrified of yourself. however, i am glad that we can share a similar struggle.

5 min. later...

AzNMaLOnE: dood why do you criticize me like that
Pretzelboi96: it's good criticizm
Pretzelboi96: i tell it like it is
AzNMaLOnE: lol
AzNMaLOnE: i am humble, generous, and nice
AzNMaLOnE: bastard
Pretzelboi96: lol
Pretzelboi96: i love you too

Song of the Day: 2pac-Dear Mama
Thought of the Day: Eighteen and strung out on confusion!

April 28, 2002

interesting...i just realized that thursday's blog was not posted so you can read that after/before today's entry.

i had a very good week. i got a chance to have many good discussions, lots of catching up, lots of learning, and of course LOTS OF FUN! here's a quick summary of this weekend:
1. catching up with chang.
2. "hanging out" with doobo for hours in the car...ahahahahaha, was i ghetto or just stupid?
3. i got to talk some more with chang....thanks chang really.
4. move church stuff.
5. Macy's.
6. lots of chess...ups and downs.
7. lots of speed...ups and downs.
8. Tomatina *drool*
9. Scorpion King was exactly what i expected it to be. Jason X was very...um, i'd better not say.
10. lots of GUMPCH....ahahahaahahha, GOSH DANGIT!

after today, i am going to start something very "different." i feel like indolence has had its way with me for too long. starting tomorrow, i am going to start reading! 15 pages a day...mon.-thurs. haha, i feel really stupid writing this right now but it's the truth. my life is going to change after i start reading books again. geez, it's seriously been a while since i last read a book out of choice....hmmm, i believe it was 8th grade? anyways, i am going to start my awesome journey with "Defeating Darwinism." haha, i didn't know talking about reading sounded so dorky? ok, i'm just a fool who hasn't read in a looooong time. i'm telling you guys, this is going to change my life! haha. good luck phil.

after today, i am also going to work longer hours. instead of maxing out on 11 hours a week, i will discipline myself to work a whole 30 min. more! i know this sounds ridiculous but you have to understand that i don't exactly come to work on time everyday. in fact, i honestly only work about 8 hours a week? so yeah, i'm definitely trying to work on the integrity thing. dang, 11.5 hours a week is going to be tough since i'm not used to it. but yeah, i'm broke. i need to save up so i can throw it all away on a special weekend. geez, i hate borrowing money, i really do.

ok so Spiderman and Deuces Wild are coming out this week. hmmmmm, i don't have much money. how is this going to work? argh, why do good movies have to come out at the same time? why can't they come out like every month or something? oh shoot, after that there's also going to be Star Wars 2! man, what a dilemma. sometimes, i wished i had more students to tutor. it's a pain but it's also hecka bank...oh, and it's cash too! anyways, i really need to discipline myself with money this May. all these great movies and i also have my senior picnic coming up. great events + no money = frowning phil.

dang PJ's sermons have been really pleasing to my ears these past few weeks. i loved today's message! it was pretty biblical and i only daydreamt about 15 times (this is seriously pretty good). i was amazed with the whole connetion b/w Eve and Sarai. their sinfulness disgusts me but at the same time i know that i am just like them...i mean, we all are! also, the whole thing about Hagar being blessed even though she didn't deserve it...how encouraging to see how our God is so full of grace! man, bible study was awesome too! ahahahahaah, chang was so passionate today! it was very educational, happy, and God-glorifying! even Hyun-Soo had a few things to say! but yeah, thank you PJ and Chang Mo!

tomorrow's going to be hard on me. i'm going to be starting my new routines but even before that, i will have to face my Calculus test. man, i haven't studied a single bit! i am going to fail miserably. my test will be full of circles, X's, and minuses when i get it back. it's like i study but i don't. yes, i know it doesn't make any sense. don't worry, it's not supposed to. i just don't want to see that test tomorrow. *whimper*

justin-great to have you back!
jomo-you seriously crack me up! and yes, your blog left me very perplexed.
doobo-i love doobo cause she's sooooooo delicious! i love doobo!
terrance-how was the convention?
marshall-mormans?! get in here! ahahahaahahhaha.
matt-i don't like your attitude. we are too good!
B-tell me where i can dl Fly to the Sky 3.

Thought of the Day: I am so very dangerous. I need to be terrified!
Song of the Day: Let Your Glory Fall

April 25, 2002

ok, so i'm stuck at work again and i have one hour to kill. but i got a chance to talk to Cathy about an interesting issue. we were talking about how alotta young people are becoming really rich these days...you know, rich enough to live the rest of your life in "happiness." just recently, there was a 28 year old guy who payed 20 million just to go to space for one day? this guy is worth 506 million or something like that. and just last week was it...there was that 20 year old girl who won the lotto. these people are young and filthy rich...they can play for the rest of their lives! but as we thought about it, we realized that these people will most likely get all jacked up in the end. they'll most likely lose all their friends b/c they can't do the "regular" things anymore. they'll eventually get sick of all the material things out there cause there's only so much you can buy. they'll eventually just become bored of life b/c they have nothing to live for. i came to the conclusion that i'd be happy with about 1 million dollars. that isn't exactly FILTHY rich but it's enough to make me happy for a while right? after taxes, i'll probably have like $500,000 left and i can buy alotta cool stuff with that. i would still go to college and pursue a career, i'd have enough money to pay for college and a nice car, and i can buy alotta other material things that i've always wanted...like an even NICER chess set! haha. anyways, money isn't everything. it's something, but not everything. omg, i can't believe only 10 min. passed by!

Thought of the Day: Hey school, are you sick of me? Cause I sure am sick of you!
Song of the Day: No Doubt-Hella Good

April 24, 2002

Good Fellas was pretty disappointing to me...not as bad as Casino but almost as bad. once again, those two Italians, Robert De Niro and Joe Pesci, came out in the film. i'm really starting to dislike Joe Pesci. why does he always have to come out as the angry, violent, and stubborn gangster who beats up all these people for stupid reasons? (kinda sounds like justin to me). he's got this big attitude problem and i was kinda happy about what happened to him in Casino in the end. what goes around, comes around right? anyways, in Good Fellas, we see that the characters have a big problem with handling money. they are never quite satisfied and once they have it, they kill a whole buncha people "just in case" you know? as i was driving home thinking about the movie, i realized that these people really needed Christ that much more! no matter how much money and respect they were getting, they were never quite satisfied. i mean, sure it'd be nice having stacks of 20's and 100's! i'm sure it'd make me pretty happy...hehe. HOWEVER, it's all temporary joy! there must be more! there must be Christ! brothers and sister in Christ, don't ever take your salvation for granted. so many people out there look for the true source of happiness. these people kill, steal, and lie just to see if certain things will make them truly happy. these people are desperate for what we already have. we know where our true joy comes from. we know where our ONLY true joy can come from. GOD. that's it.

ok, my movie list has gone down to 3 movies (i don't know, i'm kinda happy about this):
1. cast away.
2. devil's advocate.
3. little man tate.

terrance-you make me very unhappy. bad bad man.

Thought of the Day: dang, i really AM good at speed!
Song of the Day: No Doubt-Hella Good

April 23, 2002

now that i think about it, i have alotta memories with my student, john. today, as we were just sitting there and just talking, i realized that i have been tutoring him for over a year! man, i'm kinda going to miss the kid when i go off to college. i KNOW he's going to miss me! haha. after all, i am his easiest tutor. i'm the only one who doesn't give him homework and i actually talk about "cool" stuff with him. i'll never forget the time i got my highest score in Snake on my cellphone. he was the only one to experience the moment! we were rejoicing after i got my 1512! (i have yet to hear someone with a higher score). ok, all this had nothing to do with anything. i just felt like writing about john. he's a good kid.

random #1: i just realized that one of the workers, Cathy, (the big jolly lady) is ALOT like Phoebe from Friends. she has the same laugh, same voice, and occasionally the same humor. yeah, she's a hecka cool dude too. not as cool as Char, but still hecka cool.

random #2: my friend showed me the Import Jams cd today in class. it doesn't look that great but i still want to get it. man, it's like one of those underground things. i was going to ask him to burn it for me but i don't know...eh, as long as i have the main song. ayo thomas, my friend's brother is going out with Natalise. dang, all these funky connections...or as you'd like to put it, "what a trip!" haha.

random #3: Joyride is bad. do not watch it. simon could've farted out a better movie!

random #4: weather is great! i wish it could stay like this forever.

random #5: i like the new Enrique Iglesias song, "Escape." gosh, it's one of those "it's ok to be homosexual" songs, but i have to admit it has a catchy beat. argh, i still don't like the guy.

random #6: everyone who was planning on going to the bonfire with me this friday: i have a dentist appointment at 5:30. if you guys still need/want to go with me, that's fine with me. just let me know ahead of time ok?

random #7: today's song of the day is Throw Them Hands Up...not Throw Your Hands Up. ok, download and enjoy!
prom pictures are here! man, i was really scared that i would come out with my eyes and mouth half open or something. but thank goodness they all came out fine. man, when i see our group picture, i can't help but feel a little disappointed that all of my friends couldn't be in it. i wanted to look back at that picture and remember all of them at once. those stupid fobs can care less! anyways, tiff and i only have a handful of pictures so they will be sold at a dollar a piece! get 'em while you can!

i finally got to try the 7 Layer Nachos at Taco Bell today. i was very disappointed when i saw how small it was. i mean, it's definitely worth the dollar but STILL...you commercial people have limits too you know?! anyways, i always enjoy eating taco bell with pat. man, he's like my only friend who's down for Taco Bell anyday! i mean, i'm usually the one who ends up spotting him but that's not the point! we share very amusing talks with one another and both agree that we feel sorry for the employees every time. haha.

on the way to Taco Bell...
me: oh yeah, i got my prom pictures today.
pat: oh, save me one.
me: you know, i don't have that many but i'm SPECIALLY saving you one!
pat: what're you talking about? phil, you don't even have any friends. just shuttup and give me one!
me: ahahahahaha...you're stupid.

dang, i ALWAYS have to listen to YG Family in that guy's car! well, i have to admit it was pretty nice listening to How Deep Is Your Love. the song fit perfectly with our moods. geez, what a combination...Taco Bell and JS.

man, i saw char really pissed for the first time today! she was yelling at tess b/c she was being lazy and complaining or something.

char: F*CKING i will NOT slap you sooooo hard!

but after that, she was back to normal.

char: hey philip, try my glasses on.
me: WOAH!
char: yeah, pretty bad eh? happened when i turned 40!

judy-dude, that link on your blog is hilarious! just stream it here


Thought of the Day: Mr. Sun, how deep is YOUR love?
Song of the Day: JS-Throw Your Hands Up (haven't heard this for sooooo long! it was in their 1.5 album remember?)

April 22, 2002

so i got a chance to talk to thomas today. two words sum up this guy: Ghetto Fabulous! haha, this guy is awesome though! i'm learning all kinds of new slang terms and seeing through the eyes of a "different" person. i think it's really important that i talk to more people that don't fall into the asian stereotype...i mean those are the only types of friends i have. sad no? but yeah, i encourage all yg members to get to know him. i know he looks a bit intimidating but i promise he doesn't bite, right thomas? hehe.

random: jennifer love hewitt is hot! ehehehehehehehe. lust is bad.

Thought of the Day: Indolence is the key to unhappiness...phil, you lazy lazy crap!
Song of the Day: JD-Welcome to Atlanta Remix

April 21, 2002

praise God for a great weekend! i got many things accomplished and ended these past few days with some fun as well.
1. FINALLY spiced up my blog with a few changes...ugh, too many hours spent unfortunately. (thanks grendel...you html loser!).
2. health project finished...too many hours as well.
3. got gary's hecka cool gift...happy b-day gary!
4. Irvine has the privelege of officially receiving me as their student. hehe.
5. GUMPCH!
6. Untouchables was horrible but Andy Garcia was tiiiiight...my love for gangster suits has escalated.
7. finally got to try Ocean Taqueria's burritos (the burrito place next to church)...not THAT great, but definitely worth the money. after today's meal, i realized that chang is very different from us...that monster.
8. Can't Hardly Wait was very entertaining...frank, i loved that crap (in fact, i still wouldn't mind borrowing it for the uncut scenes).
9. finally found that high energy song i was in love with for the longest time! (*sigh* thanks again you loser).

is it just me or was PJ's sermon today hecka awesome? i don't know, he made alotta good points about God being a Covenant God. i never realized that he didn't make Abram make the covenant with Him b/c He knew Abram would fail. dang, that just hits me with so much awe! the description, "Faithful Father," becomes so alive to me. oh, and the whole thing about God keeping His promise was very encouraging. we live difficult christian lives yet God's promise to come back with judgement and everything brings me so much joy! and yes, the more sin, the sooner Christ is coming! this reminds me of that song by Crystal Lewis. "so people get ready...Jesus is comin! soon we'll be goin' home!"

geez, Bible Study was good too! i learned many new things about the Sabbath...really broadened my perception of things. well, i can go on and on, BUT drowsiness is hitting hard. thanks for the tight lesson slum!

Thought of the Day: "man, what a raging b*tch!"
Song of the Day: Natalise-Love Goes On (favorite song right now).

April 20, 2002

testing...

lol
geez, praise God for yet another beautiful day! the weather has been awesome these past few days...but then again i don't live in pacifica or sf. anyways, i had a pretty cool day yesterday. i opened my hecka cool checking and automatic savings account at Washington Mutual. haha. when i closed my account at my previous bank, the lady was pretty unhappy about my decision to leave Union Bank.

lady: so why are you closing your account over here?
me: oh, i'm going off to Irvine pretty soon and i need a bigger bank.
lady: Irvine? i thought we had a few of our branches down there.
me: nope, i didn't see any.
lady: (looks at pamphlet). um, it says right here that there's 3 of them in irvine.
me: oh, well i didn't see any of them. sorry?
lady: (fake smile).

after church, i went to Walgreen's b/c i needed to buy a razor. as i was looking at the selections, they all looked pretty much the same to me. there was the smooth cutting one. there was this blue one. there were a whole buncha gray ones. i didn't know what was good so i went with my next best decision making skill. i chose the razor that looked the coolest! haha. i bought the Gilette Mach 3 thingy with this cool black case. gosh, the words, "Mach 3," made it sound so special! so when i got home, i decided to give it a try. omg, i have never shaved with so much joy! i liked it so much, i decided to just shave a little bit so that i can shave in the morning too! dude, i am so excited! reader, if you ever come to my house, i'll even let you try it out! haha. this is definitely a winner.

Things to do today:
1. take a shower.
2. SHAVE!
3. work on project.
4. go to Kinko's.
5. finish college stuff.
6. go to hillsdale?

Thought of the Day: 7-Layer Nachos at Taco Bell are only 99 cents!
Song of the Day: Black Beat-Wing

April 18, 2002

so today at school, i heard that a few of the chinese people read my blog about the prom thing. to all of you angry people, i want to apologize for the misunderstanding. that entry just showed alot of that day's frustration. i was kinda stressed out about prom and didn't feel like going to prom with you guys. however, going with you guys was obviously a very good decision. i once again apologize if i came off as being a "hater."

i have been a loyal customer to Union Bank of California. i remember when i first opened my savings account there when i was in 9th grade...geez, what a long time ago. dang, i can't believe i stuck with them for over 3 years! anyways, now that i am 18 years old, i think it is time to switch banks. i need something that's close to my house. i need something that has no minimum balance...for obvious reasons. i need something that is kinda big so that i can spot it in different locations. aha! i found it! Washington Mutual is the lucky winner! tomorrow, i am going to close my account at Union Bank and switch over to my new bank. ok, as you can see, i have nothing better to write about. geez, work is so boring right now...one more hour left.

chang-radical romantic...ahahaahhahah. oh, what was that Jodie Foster movie you recommended called again?
pastor dave-i did not give you permission to retire like that...you have 10 min. to come up with an excellent apology.
lois-I'LL SEE YOU TOMORROW!

Thought of the Day: Me and my big mouth.
Song of the Day: Aqua-Barbie Girl

April 16, 2002

dream: i was taking a nap before i went to work today. i think of all the dreams i've ever dreamt, this had to be the most...random? in my dream, i dreamt that i was dreaming. however, in that dream, i also dreamt that i was dreaming! so in my REAL dream, i woke up and told everyone that i dreamt that i was dreaming...and they all told me that i was stupid. then i woke up in real life, and i realized that i dreamt that i was dreaming in a dream? ok, now the word, "dream," sounds weird. try it out...repeat the word about 20 times. ok, so like i said, i had a weird dream. i've never dreamt such a thing. i apologize for such a stupid entry, i just wanted to share.

Thought of the Day: Brrrrr...it's cold in here. There's something something something atmosphere!
Song of the Day: Blink 182-Adam's Song

April 15, 2002

you know what? i need to watch a movie right now. my brain needs to concentrate on something else. my head is full of unhappy emotions right now. perhaps, exercise is the answer. endorphins are always a plus...besides, i could use the exercise. on second thought, i NEED the exercise. boy oh boy do i need the exercise. hmmm, it's 10:00...geez, it requires so much energy! i love sitting on my chair and listening to music. moving sucks. eh, there's always time for chess.

Thought of the Day: Sad now?!
Song of the Day: J-Until Then (niiiiiice song!)

April 14, 2002

before prom...

i was sooooo bored! simon wasn't home to beat me at chess. justin wasn't willing to come over so that i can beat him at chess. blogger wasn't working so that i can write about chess. this led me to the most unfortunate 2 hours of my life...i watched ET on video! boredom hit me harder than i was initially feeling. however, there were a few parts that evoked some great childhood memories. you guys remember that one part where the kid calls his brother a "penis breath?" ahahahahahaha. so immature. so stupid. so young. dang, i'm an idiot.

prom...

dinner: XYZ wasn't as bad as i thought it would be. i ordered this chicken breast thing that cost the least but ended up tasting the best compared to everyone else's meal. dang, there was alotta teasing throughout the dinner. it was like "let's try to remember all the stupid things phil has said/done in the past" nite. but it was alright...there was alotta pleasant dialogue with the majority of the people. i was VERY happy about that.

justin: i'm going to eat a horse!
matt: (sarcastic laughter).
everyone: ahahahahahahaha.

dance: getting to the dance was a very displeasing experience. i drove. i got lost. i drove some more. i got lost. i drove a bit more. i ended up in Castro. *shudder* after about an hour, i miraculously found the Galleria Design Center with the help of my good CHINESE friend, weyman. dang, seeing all of my school friends in their tuxedos and dresses made me very happy. but no matter how mature and sophisticated we looked, nothing could prevent my friends from acting like idiots. when we were taking pictures, a few of my friends who were already done, started dancing like idiots to make the people taking pictures come out laughing in their pictures. ahahahahhaha. anyways, taking pictures was a bastard! it wasted so much of our precious dancing time. they played all the good old school stuff when we were in line. when we finally started dancing, they started playing all the new crap...geez, what garbage! anyways, i got to see EVERYONE dance...yes, even justin jang! seeing all the losers was interesting. seeing all the "cool" people was interesting. seeing old faces was interesting. but yes, as tiffanie already mentioned, the decorations were a huge disappointment. i think they were too concerned with making the desserts and drinks all nice...i guess they ran out of decoration money or something. but after some thought, i realized that i like all dances no matter how bad the music is. it's just a matter of how much better it could've been...

after prom: everything was pretty good until after prom. as we were driving to noraebang, my right tire popped on the freeway. Praise God that i did not get into a serious accident, it could've been all over right there! Praise God that i have some friends that know how to replace spare tires. Praise God for getting me home safely even though i was driving on a FLAT spare tire (which i did not find out until this morning). we did not get to go to noraebang cause it was closed. no matter, i was tired...oh so very tired!

reflection...

so everyone at church asked me, "How was Prom?" i responded with a simple, "It was fun." however after much reflection today, i realized that i LOVED it! i was kinda depressed today as i was thinking about last night's events. i REALLY wish i could go back in time and go through it all over again (except for the flat tire). i never knew i could look so good in a tux! ahahahahahaha. now i understand why so many people make a big deal out of Prom. it's the one night where you get to spend alotta money and just hang out with your friends with almost no worries. dang, i'm never going to be able to do that again. never ever. i mean, i'll get to go to balls and all these formals in college, but it will never be like a high school prom. i highly encourage EVERYONE to go to their high school prom. i honestly pity those who chose not to go this year...you guys seriously missed out. but then again, not EVERYONE enjoys prom. i just happen to be a sucker for my own tux. tiff, you KNOW i looked good last night! lol. but yes, PRAISE GOD! THANK YOU FOR A WONDERFUL NIGHT!

new movie list:
1. can't hardly wait.
2. untouchables.
3. good fellas.
4. cast away.
5. devil's advocate.

justin-were you getting your groove on or trying to make us laugh?
tiff-thanks for a great time. you were a very cool date. i know i know, i am no where close to even being called a "gentlemen."
matt-how could you c-walk in such an outfit?!
julia-you hairy hairy girl! lol.
marshall-i never knew you read my blogs. tell me when you start yours.
i-fang-sorry i didn't get to talk to you. hopefully, today's entry answered most of your questions.
dykas-dude, prom would have been complete if you, BS, and tap came. *sigh* on a brighter note, WE HAVE A SUB IN BIO TOMORROW! I'M SO EXCITED!
pastor dave-it's not what you think ok?! if we really need to talk about this, you know where to find me.
mr. chi-no c-walking eh? geez, that's tough...and REALLY ghetto.
terrance-thanks for driving me today.
simon-why do you ALWAYS over-exaggerate in your blogs?
chang-you don't know how grateful i am for your gift. oh by the way, i REALLY enjoy reading your theological blogs. very thought-provoking stuff...keep it up (i still think your template's incredibly ugly. haha.)
frank-i really need that video dawg!

Thought of the Day: If Prom was that great, how much more greater heaven must be!
Song of the Day: Fat Boy Slim-Gangster Tripping (yee-uh!)

April 11, 2002

Chang's Story...

Vantilian522: dood did i tell you about the 9-11 challenge
Vantilian522: ?
Vantilian522: oh man...
Vantilian522: it's a hot-wing play in santa clara...they're supposed to have the most spicy hot-wings in the world
Vantilian522: it's called 9-11 challenge
Vantilian522: and you have to sign a waiver to eat it
Vantilian522: like saying that you wont sue and stuff
Vantilian522: i only over-heard it from other people
Vantilian522: like even the most hard-core people can't do it.
Vantilian522: so when jeff came up...
Vantilian522: we went
Vantilian522: we drove all the over there
Vantilian522: we were all confident about it
Vantilian522: saying things like, "if it's part of creation, i'll take it down!"
Vantilian522: so when we got there there were like 20 different spicy levels
Vantilian522: the highest on the menu was called something like globle-termal-nuclear.
Vantilian522: but "secret" challenge was the 9-11 challenge
Vantilian522: you have to eat 12 wings in 10 mins and you get a t-shirt
Vantilian522: if you do it.
Vantilian522: so i sign the waiver form
Vantilian522: and the bottom of the form it says things like "you will experience nose-bleeds, head-aches, etc..."
Vantilian522: then at the way bottom it says "I'm an idiot!"
Vantilian522: So i sign it.
Vantilian522: and jeff got all scared.
Vantilian522: so he just went for the globle-termal-nuclear
Vantilian522: and i did the 9-11 challenge
Vantilian522: oh man...
Vantilian522: i took one bit...and I knew i was overs
Vantilian522: *bite
Vantilian522: i said "NO!"
Vantilian522: it was way too spicy...never in my life tasted anything like it.
Vantilian522: so i gave up after one bite!
Vantilian522: and jeff after two wings....
Vantilian522: 9-11 is 5 times as spicy as globle-termal nuclear
Vantilian522: jeff started to cry and sweat all at the same time
Vantilian522: with just 2 wings
Vantilian522: so we were so humbled
Vantilian522: my stomach was killing me that night
Vantilian522: i was screaming
Vantilian522: like a baby
Vantilian522: yeah
Vantilian522: you don't understand
Vantilian522: it's NOT part of creation.
Vantilian522: me and jeff used to say that there is this one spiciest fried rice
Vantilian522: that can like cure cancer because it's spicy
Vantilian522: but this wing.
Vantilian522: it can resurrect someone
Vantilian522: !!!!
Vantilian522: it's crazy
Vantilian522: yeah...
Vantilian522: it's crazy.
Vantilian522: seriously i can't really say that i like spicy food anymore
Vantilian522: ...i was some humbled that i take it easy now with spicy
Vantilian522: *so
Vantilian522: yeah...knowing that 9-11 is out there...it discourages me.
Vantilian522: no more spicy food for me
Vantilian522: !!!!
Vantilian522: my career is over!
Vantilian522: yes...9-11 challenge is not possible.
Vantilian522: i want you to try it for yourself
Vantilian522: ...
Vantilian522: =)
Vantilian522: so i had a point in telling you this...
Vantilian522: like a moral to the story
Vantilian522: ...but i forgot!=)
Vantilian522: something about being humble and taking on challenge...
Vantilian522: ah!...forget it

The End. (i took out all of my responses b/c they were just full of LOL'S and AHAHAHAHAHAHA'S and OMG'S!)

ok, chess has become a sin in my life. i'm taking it waaaaay too seriously! to be honest, i wasn't joking when i said, "chess isn't just a game. chess is life." it has become a pride issue. *sigh* it's gotten really bad. i can't play for fun anymore. i only play to make my opponent angry. i am going to take a break from chess b/c i get really pissed when i lose...simon knows. *sigh* simon knows....

ok, i know i'd have to face the consequences of the garlic fries sooner or later, but WHY NOW?! i grew three pimples in less than 20 hours! it's not like these are huge suckers but they are nevertheless very unfortunate. why is it that when we were kids, no matter what we ate we never grew pimples? why is it that when our looks start to matter, that's when our pimples seem to take a stand? i want to say that the garlic fries were worth it but three pimples is just three too many!

on a happier note...

me: yeah, i was thinking about ordering the black angus steak thing but...
char: yeah! order that! it should be...(looks at the price)...excuse the french but F***!
me: ahahahahahha.

char: oh, you should order a Shirley Temple, Margarita, or (starts laughing) SEX ON THE BEACH!
me: a what?!
char: (explains the drinks in great detail but ending each one w/o alcohol).
me: sex on the beach huh?

i swear that lady makes me feel so happy. before she left today, she gave me a hug and made me promise to have a wonderful time at prom. gosh, what a mom!

Thought of the Day: Morp is Prom spelled backwards!
Song of the Day: HOT-You & I

April 10, 2002

SHINJO SCORES!

ahahahahahahah. what a great baseball game! today, justin finally gave me my late birthday present. he bought tickets to a sold out Dodger game way before my birthday...specifically planning to take me out on this day. so here i am, bragging about my gift b/c i promised him that i'd write about it in my blog. man, i really feel sorry for the Dodger Center Fielder, something Roberts? that guy was the closest to the bleachers and we were bagging on him throughout the whole game!

giants fan: what's the matter with Roberts?!
crowd: HE'S A BUM!
giants fan: what's the matter with Roberts?!
crowd: HE'S A BUM!

ahahahahahaha. and in the 9th inning, when he dove and caught the ball, we saw this one guy in the front with his middle finger in the air yelling F You Roberts! gosh, i think Giants fans are the greatest! we hate LA with a passion! when our pitcher almost hits one of their batters, we laugh at the mistake. if we see their pitcher almost hit one of our hitters, we curse them with a sinful tongue. this is my first game at Pacific Bell Park. oh my freakin' goodness, it is soooooo nice! i overheard this one fan say something like, "man Seattle's nice, but boy is this one f***ing ballpark!" justin also bought me more than enough food...superdog, nachos, and garlic fries! *droooooool* it was expensive like a mother but like i told justin 100 times-how often do you get to go to a baseball game?! i just love the whole ballpark atmosphere...the overpriced food, the drunk Giants fans, and our cold SF weather. throughout the game, our main cheer was BEAT LA!...and that was exactly what we did.

justin-we should give shinjo a visit in J-town. ahahahahahahaha. bonds is soooooo fake to him! that fat bastard...ahahahahahahaha.
chang-dude, your blog is hardcore!
tiff-the restaurant is called XYZ.
lois-*wave wave*
simon-i'll let you warm up...you need the practice. lol.
terrance-dang, it's about time!
i-fang-entertainment center...you just wait!

Thought of the Day: THANK YOU JUSTIN JANG!
Song of the Day: Spice Girls-Wannabe (gay is how i feel...what about you?)

April 9, 2002

as i was doing some reflecting today, i ran into a small "problem." i know that i do not take my devotionals seriously and my prayer life is very inconsistent. however, i noticed that i think about God throughout the day. when i'm walking to school, driving in the car, or just sitting at my desk, i find myself having these mental conversations with God. in a sense, i feel like i'm doing "alrite" in my walk because i am not distant from Him? but at the same time, i realize that if were being a "good christian," my actions would definitely show it. i'm sure there is a simple explanation to this but i can't quite put my finger on it...some advice would be appreciated.

i liked almost everyone's blog today...thanks guys.

Thought of the Day: Geez, dark blue roses WOULD look nice!
Song of the Day: Ginny Owens-If You Want Me To

April 8, 2002

the stress of prom has finally woken up from its annual slumber. unfortunately, it decided to give me a visit tonight. a few problems that have come up already:
1. we have to go with the chinese people (no offense I-Fang).
2. they want to do EVERYTHING together.
3. there are a few people in the group that i personally dislike with almost all of my heart.
4. i can smell some beef b/w some people already.
5. they want to do EVERYTHING together!!!

prom wasn't supposed to be like this. it was supposed to be a great night out with your friends! but noooooooo, we have to do everything that everyone else wants to do. ratface, you could've fixed this problem for me BIG time!

chang-loved what you did with your page. i actually noticed all of the great changes before but i just forgot to write about it.
justin-why couldn't it have been just koreans?
lois-"cool loser?" i believe that would be an oxymoron.
simon-you're no where near beating Bobby Fischer.
dykas-it still isn't too late!
mr. chi-NY is ghetto fabulous dawg...you'll fit right in.
thomas-did you or did you not start a blog?
matt-dang it matt! it's all your fault!

Thought of the Moment: I wish I wish I hadn't killed that fish.
Song of them Moment: Rebecca St. James-Lord, You're Beautiful (me gusta mucho!)
i learned a new word today! the word, "flu," originated from the real term, "influenza!" gosh, i remember at my old church, this health group came to give everyone an anti-flu shot or something. unfortunately, i was at McDonald's after coming back from a retreat. man, i was so close to never contracting the flu again! for the first time, a Big Mac made me feel very unhappy...eh, i guess it was worth it (smile).

geez, my dislike for school grows day by day, week by week. some classes i just cannot stand b/c of severe boredom or "irrevelvant education." calculus is getting really hard. i was surprised to find out that i'm still getting a C in the class. it's just a matter of time...the D will come. senioritis is hitting hard. my desire for summer is hitting hard. dang, it's going to be the two longest months of my life!

Thought of the Day: It just didn't make any sense to me.
Song of the Day: Weezer-Glorious Day

April 7, 2002

ok, i am definitely out of the hiphop phase now. i was listening to WC-Can't Hold Back and for the first time in a while and it just sounded like any other song. it didn't even get my head bopping! in a sense, i'm kind of disappointed in myself for losing my appreciation for such music. i mean, i know they're good but my ears long for something like JTL these days. hehe, JTL IS pretty good. ok, time to change my playlist...

spring break memories:
1. too much In N' Out.
2. tiffanie being THIS close to breaking her ugly foot.
3. the over-rated Cho-Sun Galbee.
4. IRVINE!
5. painful hours of driving.
6. JTL!
7. Serramonte, the world of filipinos.
8. you can either love or hate Todai's.
9. chesssssssssssssssssss.
10. oh shoot, ALMOST forgot about STOMP!

Thank you Lord for watching over me this Spring Break. You truly kept me safe throughout this week. I hopefully brought you much glory through my events and may you continue to pour out your grace upon this week that i go back to school.

Thought of the Day: Illness=Humility.
Song of the Day: Shinhwa-I Love You

April 6, 2002

everybody, i have just experienced a little piece of heaven. the secret ingredients are Mozart-Canon in D and Richard Clayderman-Ballade Por Adeline, a chess set, and some good ol' Thera Flu. when you have the flu, you are caused to go into a humble state of mind but once the drugs kick in, serenity takes care of the rest (grin). i'm in so much pain yet i'm in so much peace. maybe this is what death is like. as you're slowly fading away, you get closer and closer to heaven. man, how nice...
note: Phil is experiencing the effects of Thera Flu!

so i just finished watching Searching For Bobby Fischer today. after watching little Josh work his magic, my brain told me to go home and play some chess myself. it's really weird how these kinds of movies really motivate you to do things you normally wouldn't do. for example: after watching Rounders, me, justin, and i simon started gambling with a whole bunch of pennies. after watching Rocky IV, i started doing pushups like there was no tomorrow. after watching Scream 2, my friends started using the F-word after every other sentence. the list goes on and on but my point is...ok, i have no point. just go watch Searching For Bobby Fischer.

If i had $50,000, i would buy:
1. a brand new HP laptop with 40 gigs, pentium IV, at least 256 ram, a burner/dvd player, a lazer mouse, and Windows XP.
2. the blue and gray Iverson's.
3. a black Lexus IS300.
4. all of the DJ DOC albums.
5. a white, black, red, and gray Old Navy anoraks...the old ones.
6. a dark blue Nike and Polo hat.
7. a new pair of black Anchor Blue jeans.
8. PJ's chess set.
9. a regular pack of Bicycle playing cards...preferably blue.
10. a Panasonic DVD player, mp3/cdrw player, and camera.
11. a new black JanSport/GAP backpack.
12. a fake pair of black Oakley's from Tijuana.

yeah, that would be nice.

ok so going back to the Bobby Fischer movie, i realized that little Josh reminds me of Simon in some ways. they're both young, play chess, have no friends, and have no life. but the main reason why he reminded me of Simon was b/c my brother is really good at chess. here's this kid who's 5 years younger than me, speaks arrogant words in his games, does not have to think too hard in his moves, and can periodically beat chang! i remember when i got my first computer, it had chess as one of the computer games already installed. 5 year old simon would play against me and actually win most of the games. i never admitted that he was better than me, i'd just kinda stop playing and sulk in anger....then i would beat him up if he started making fun of me. yeah, he was always better than me. in fact, i think HE was the one who taught me how to play! sometimes i wonder how this could've happened. i want to deny it but i know it's the truth. i'm a loser. he's a winner. i get pissed off. he's just good. man, chess is all about humility...you hear that chang? i said HUMILITY!
note: Phil is still experiencing the effects of Thera Flu.

What Phil looks for in a girl:
1. Christian.
2. Korean.
3. HECKA fine.

it's as simple as that.

ok, back to chesstalk. a little earlier as i was looking at my chessboard, i realized that this is quite an amazing game. i mean, it requires so much thinking and skill to be good. there's so much order and logic to the game. it's brilliant! i don't know, it somehow got me thinking about God. if man created a great game like chess, how much more greater is God who created the universe? it's impossible to see how great God is b/c our minds are finite. when you keep trying and trying, you are forced to stop. you have to accept that God is just too great beyond our imagination. man, as much i love the game of chess, there is nothing compared to my God...can i get an amen?

reader, you must wondering why i'm blogging so much today. well, i am currently in a state of boredom b/c my brother is watching Searching For Bobby Fischer at the moment. he made me promise to play him after he finished the movie...boy, am i in for it! the medicine is starting to wear off. i am slowly coming back to reality and i am starting to feel sad. gosh, if only i weren't sick today. i'd be dancing or exercising or eating dinner! i lack energy. i lack zeal. i am just plain ol' bored. eh, i guess it could be worse...

grendel-show me the money!
simon-you're sick. i'm sick. thanks alot stupid!
dykas-i finally watched it!

ok, i'm running out of gas...you have just concluded another wonderful episode of "God is great. Phil is cool. You are gay."

Thought of the Day: COUGH!
Song of the Day: Mozart-Canon in D

April 5, 2002

This blog is dedicated to Michelle who for some reason finds my blog to be very entertaining...

day's events: haircut...lois & michelle...bed tray...tux...dress...compusa...macy's...sbarro...orange julius (lol)...chevy's...church...chess...blog.

random thought #1: ayo fellas, do you guys remember that girl from Jerry Maguire? dang, she's HECKA cute! frank, i'd have to give her a fat 9!

random thought #2: SF really needs a place like Alexandria in K-town. man, they had that tight arcade with the PUMP machines, the lovegety machine, and the noraebang practice boxes! that plaza also had a noreabang, nice korean restaurants, and a pat-bing-soo place, and i believe a nice cafe? what more can a korean ask for?

random thought #3: ok, friday has come to an end which means we only have saturday and sunday left in our spring break. man, this is going to be my last high school spring break. i'm so sad. i want to go back to LA. we didn't do crap but it was still fun right? dang, i seriously just want to cry...maybe God will see my superficial reasons and for some funny reason give me back my "taken for granted" spring break. boy oh boy do i need God right now...i'm becoming LA dependent!

chang-aigo!
winston & jomo-IRVINE fa sho!
tiff-that guy raps too fast.
mr. chi-i remember server chatrooms! those seriously hooked you up!
lauri-kidney stones are full of OUCHes!
pastor dave-i miss seeing your happy face.
matt-gambling leads to sin leads to discipline leads to repentance leads to God leads to happiness.
lois-no more dramas ya hear?

Song of the Moment: JTL-Just Say Goodbye (fa sho!)
Thought of the Moment: No. Cal lacks nice cafes.
i guess thursday read my previous blog and decided to treat me a WHOLE lot better on my spring break! davis was definitely not what i expected it to be. believe it or not, i actually kinda liked it. the environment is the exact opposite of irvine's, which has its pros and cons. i am definitely leaning towards irvine, but i'm not 100% definite on my final answer. gosh, i haven't prayed about picking the "right college" even once! man, my prayer life is way down in the pits! *sigh* i guess i'm going to be experiencing some more discipline until i am moved to change. hint: pray for me if you have time.

blade 2 wasn't so bad. the storyline could have been better towards the end but the movie left me with a satisfied smile. good action. interesting music. a few amusing dialogues. pretty much like the first blade movie. i give it 1 thumb up (this is a good thing).

speaking of good entertainment, STOMP was one tiiiiiiiight show! *bang, clap, growl, jump, dance* i'd rather not explain what it's about but for those of you who have seen it, you guys KNOW it is soooooo worth the time and effort to go there and watch it. *sigh*

Thought of the Day: For once, I wish Friday would not come JUST yet!
Song of the Day: Mos Def & Massive Attack-I Against I (bass...lots of it!)

April 3, 2002

los angeles: smog, pat-bing-soo, korean people, korean food, warm weather, big malls that we never got to visit-i miss it already! depression is hitting me hard right now. i had no worries. i had money. i had fun. it's all gone...all gone *sniff*

memories: ridiculous hours of traffic, lots and lots of korean music, in & out with our beloved terrance, "tommy boy", highways 110, 10, 485, and that cursed highway 5, watching "Friends", JTL fa sho!, koreatown a few times too many, the nice cafe with that cute boy, the beautiful grounds of UC IRVINE, and last but not least our inevitable fatigue.

today: accomplished a fat NOTHING on this nice wednesday. i woke up at 10. i ate lunch. i got my car fixed. i dropped my camera off at Long's. i watched 4 hours of that stupid winter korean drama. here i am blogging after making a wise decision to stop watching those videos. if only i can go back in time and fix this unforgivable mistake!

thought #1: so my spring break is passing by much faster than i expected. tomorrow is already thursday and i have to "use" it up with a tour at UC DAVIS. why can i not spend some quality time with my dear friends? i still want to watch Clockstoppers and Blade 2. i still need to pick out my tux for prom. i still need to rent Jerry Mcquire and that one other movie i can't seem to remember. i still want to watch STOMP! argh! thoughts of school hurt my feelings. no more assignments. no more tests. no more homework. PLEASE, it really hurts!

thought #2: i discovered another hidden treasure! well actually, it was never hidden...i was just a bit stubborn. man, JTL is one greeeeeeat group! their music is incredibly unique and distinct. there's something about it that gives me a taste of the past HOT magic. this treasure was introduced to me by my good friend, moe. that girl and i have opposing tastes in music but JTL definitely changed that. well, i still think she needs to learn how to listen music "properly." anyways, i never knew i could be so stubborn when it comes to korean music...PRAISE GOD FOR CHANGING THAT!

thought #3: as i was driving to Long's today, this old lady almost hit my car b/c she wasn't looking. i honked and she was so deaf that she didn't even bother to turn around to look at me. as i was cursing in my head, something that i learned in health came back to me. i remembered how my teacher was talking about how we really need to learn how to treat our elders better. too many times, we forget that they cannot help the way they are and all they are doing is trying their best to "not mess up." this explains why they take short steps, count out their change very slowly, and cook the most delicious meals. our elders fear getting old just as much as we do. i think we should try to treat them with a lil more respect...even if they were THIS close to jacking up your car!

judy-that made me laugh. thanks.
simon-you sick annoying crap!
justin-4/10 is marked!
jomo-in my experiences, i am convicted that physics comes from the devil.
pastor dave and mr. chi-IRVINE was uh, "dope?"
girl in red-i keep thinking you're from so. cal. for some reason.
jessica-your blog is the weakest link. goodbye!

Thought of the Day: "Gyu Ool Yun Gah" wasted 4 hours of my life.
Song of the Day: JTL-Hard For Me (highly recommended).