eugene and i started doing devotionals together on friday. we decided to read proverbs on our own and go over a chapter of Romans every time we met up. even though i do devotionals every morning, i think this will be really good for me b/c i've only been doing OT qts for the past year and a half. i know i should read alotta NT too but i just felt that i should stick with the OT so that i can finish it. but this will be a good balance for me, trying to finish the OT and still going over an awesome book like Romans. i really enjoy having fellowship with eugene. i remember the first time i met him, i thought he was one of those church goers who just went for fun and was very "untheological." but i also remember that same friday, he was like asking all these questions to dennis and he seemed to be pretty into Bible Study. but yeah, i feel like we agree on alotta points in our discussions and theology. i should really take advantage of these times. this once again comes to show that God truly uses the weak to be the strong...well, not that eugene is a weak christian or anything. i mean, he's not strong but...um...ok, i'm just digging a bigger hole for myself. eugene is a good discipler. haha.

but friday was a really good time of prayer for me. feeling all dry and indifferent about praising God, as always i tried really hard to pray. i think it's so true how when you don't know what to say to God, our Spirit really provides us with words that we cannot express. it was really difficult but all i could think of was SHOW ME YOUR GLORY!!! it's time like this where your heart is just full of faith and you're desperate for God to listen to you. man, the Holy Spirit is an awesome thing. such a powerful thing.

afterwards, i got a chance to share and pray with aaron. i see that guy about 3 times a week but we rarely have time to just talk you know? but friday was really good how we just shared about alotta different struggles and praises. i really like him cause he's a great listener. i already shared this with a friend, but he's a great person to talk to. very understanding and considerate. i encourage you guys to get to know him better.

man, i woke up feeling all sick on saturday. i ate some lunch and started studying for my psych. final. after an hour, i felt really tired and weak. body was aching and i felt like i had a minor flu. fortunately, 3 hours of sleep is just what the doctor prescribed. an annoying runny nose but i'll live. i studied from 7-12:30, but actually didn't meet my goal in memorizing all of my index cards. after i got another haircut from willburt, my brain was fried so i felt like i had maxed out. unfortunately, my body didn't want to fall asleep til after 5am so i had to try extra hard to pay attention in church today. gosh, my sleeping schedule is soooo whack these days! it's officially, no earlier than 4am now.

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Pretzelboi96 (11:49:48 PM): i go to sleep at 4 or 5 everynight
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so today's my wittle brudder's berf-day! the big 1-4! i gave him a call after dinner just to wish him Happy Birthday. gosh, i can't believe no one got him any presents! no one remembered his birthday except for my family. dang, i felt really bad for him, not having the fun treatment he deserves while he's still young. i mean, i soooo would've taken him out if i was up north. it'd be a day totally dedicated to that fat kid. i remember when i turned 14. no one remembered my birthday except for my bestfriend. he got me SES's first album in this badly wrapped gift. but gosh, what a great gift! but anyways, i really feel for sharkface. i can't believe you bastards didn't do anything for him!!!

man, i had another bad dream today. i dreamt that my dad died and it was during funeral time. as i had expected, i was in shock and didn't show any signs of depression. but slowly, i started feeling really really sad in front of alotta people at a party in our new house. then i woke up.

why am i having all these bad dreams? "what's goiiiiiiiiin oooooooon!" i think it's b/c earlier today, a friend of mine called me and told me that her mom was in the hospital under critical condition. she sounded really sad and i felt really bad for her. man, i just cannot imagine losing any of family members right now. lately, there's been alotta reminders to never take your loved ones for granted. but at the same time, it's not like you can have that attitude every moment of your life! just imagine how abnormal your life would be right? but i guess that's why there's reminders here and there from time to time. i've just been getting it alot these days.

so phil, do you even have any good news at all? why of course i do!

good news #1:

i was standing in line to get some food and this really really cute korean girl stands behind me. i mean, you see some pretty freshmen here and there but this one definitely caught my attention. every time i see an attractive girl, i am obligated to inform my roommate, minh. it was funny cause...

minh: man, that's the same girl you always think is cute! that's YOUR girl! all of grey havens knows!"

J: yeah, that's the same girl you guys thought looked like boa when you guys saw her up close, you guys didn't think she was that cute.

funny how i don't even realize that i check out the same girls every time. it's kinda like i have anterograde anmesia...inability to make new memories. (yep, that's the psychology talking). but dang dude, she's so cute!

good news #2: olivia got into LA and marshall got into Irvine! congratulations young ones. i am very proud of you two.

Thought of the Day: Happy Birthday Simon! Happy Birthday Elisa Kim!
Song of the Day: Chris Tomlin-Unchanging