i'm in a pretty bad mood right now. i played four games of chess with simon and i only beat him once. dude, he really did get better over the weekend! i mean, the first three games i didn't really care and i kept my cool. but on the fourth game, as he was slowly eating away my pieces move after move, he started with his ugly grins again. everytime he checked my king, he would start laughing with that sick voice of his. the thing that pissed me off the most was the fact that i was one move away from checkmating him! but noooo...CHECK! CHECK! AHAHAHAHAHAH! CHECKMATE! (no chang, this is NOT just a game!).

dang, for the first time, i had drivers actually yell at me for driving like a moron. i got off an exit but there was alotta traffic so i decided to change lanes and cut in the front. the car that i cut off honked and i was ok with that. however, after i turned into the street, this lady drives up hecka fast, honks, and i see her mouthing these angry words at me! i was shocked! dang, some drivers really need to chill! i mean, i have my moments of road rage but i never honk, roll down the window, and start cussing off! gosh, i KNOW she wouldn't have done that to me if i wasn't korean!

may i have everyone's attention! A WALK TO REMEMBER was a very bad movie! i am soooo glad i did not throw away 9 bucks to watch that garbage in the theatres! lois, be honest...you were drunk while you were watching it right? how could you have enjoyed that unrealistic, corny, and loooooong movie? and you said you were bawling throughout the movie. dude, i wanted to cry b/c it was so bad! gosh, i deleted that crap as soon as i finished the movie! (sorry, no cd dude).

why is it that i only feel like praising God when i'm listening to christian music? i rarely think about His love when i'm not reminded by the music i listen to. gosh, it's so sad and messed up. i feel like my love for God is sooooo conditional! gosh, i'm such a fool...i know that i must pray and read the Bible. i've experienced great things in the past when i did these things, yet i still choose not to b/c i'm lazy. man, christian life is so hard! i just want to go to heaven and never have to worry about anything ever again! do you guys ever wonder why God created YOU? why am i here? what is my purpose? why did He save me? why do i get to know Jesus Christ? why not my friends? *sigh* who can know the plans and thoughts of God? He is sovereign over everything and He is perfect...that is all we can trust. GOD, GIVE ME PEACE! BREAK ME AND DISCIPLINE ME IF YOU MUST!

Thought of the Day: Endure hardship as discipline.
Song of the Day: Third Day-I've Always Loved You