it's one of those nights where you're tired and probaby should be sleeping, but you don't feel like it b/c sleep is pleasurable but nevertheless really boring. i just finished watching "East of Eden" since Anna let me borrow it. it wasn't as good as i thought it would be. James Dean was a lot more whiny and stupid than i thought he would be. i guess i just need to watch "Rebel Without A Cause "or something to redeem his esteem. this second half of the summer's been kind of weird. ever since i finished my CSETs, i've been throwing away my days watching movies, seeing the same people day to day, and fantasizing scary events in Korea. i'm also pretty anxious about my CSET scores, mainly because i do not want to study for them ever again in my life. i literally think about them every single day. i wonder if you can call that idolatry. i don't know. everything feels kinda weird these days. it's like everything is normal but it's not. maybe i'm so used to irregularity that once i have regularity, i think it's irregular. kind of like when you have that one day to sleep in but you end up waking up at 7am anyways. does that even make sense? Curtis packed me three times today in basketball. i hate it when i get packed. it's the most humbling experience in basketball. it's better to miss every single shot you've taken the whole game than to score a million and then get stuffed real good by a youth group student. i bet that boosted his ego cause it sure killed mine. i feel like i just wrote a John Yi xanga entry. i'm gonna stop being stupid now and go to bed. good night.

Thought of the Day: Korean Resume.
Song of the Day: Muse-Starlight