another insomniac night...

after i woke up to a phone call, i knew i wouldn't be able to fall back asleep. i just kinda sat on my bed in the dark and began to reflect alot. i thought about the different things i could blog about but for some reason, i didn't feel like writing any of it. i just wanted to sit there and think. however, i really do feel that writing out your ideas really helps you to think more concretely and to express your thoughts better. you have a better idea of what you're really thinking inside too.

yesterday, i shot pool with jay at zotzone. i hadn't shot pool for a while so i thought it'd be fun playing with my discipler. man, what was supposed to be about 1 hour turned out to be 3. i lost count of how many times i had said, "alrite, let's play one more." it was really fun though. i think there are very few people who enjoy pool as much as i do. i feel like it's one of those games that are just so rewarding since it involves so much precision and skill...and when you have that precsion and skill, you definitely feel rewarded. =D just like the good ol' days. anyways, as we were playing i asked jay if he liked to gamble. he shared with me his thoughts on gambling and it really struck me when he said, "all i'm saying is, if you're playing 20 dollar blackjack hands, you'd better be willing to give that much for offering on Sundays." that gave me a new perspective on my personal position with gambling. jay may sound legalistic with his statement but i think his point was more focused on where your heart is and how we ought to be careful with how we choose to use our money. i guess we tend to brush gambling off more as a liberty than a danger. unfortunately, i think i had to learn the hard way this past year. i must agree with jay when he says, "everything is permissable but not beneficial. i think it does more harm than good."
note: when i say "gambling," i mean gambling in casinos.

today, we worked on the sisters apprecation nite at church. lately, i've just been thinking about the college group for next year. who're going to be our new officers? who the heck is going to take charge and lead our ministry? when i look at the college group right now, my heart fills with sorrow as i see a lack of leadership in our people. when i think about our seniors leaving after this year, i feel like the college group is going to go down the drain. that's right guys, it's time to leave cpc and find a new church! =D just kidding. i mean, i know that God uses the weak to do great things in this world. but gosh, i'm just so curious!

watching All About Eve...

ben: you know that kim so young girl? i freakin' want to kill her!

danny: gosh, i wish she'd grow some balls so i can kick them!

ben: you know that part when chae rim is trying to speak english? it makes me want to cuss!

i think it's more entertaining just talking about the drama than watching it. haha.

places i still need eat at:

1. Spaghetti Factory
2. Brazilian BBQ
3. Priscilla's restaurant

Thought of the Day: "Ehneh!"
Song of the Day: Jaci Velasquez-If This World