2003 was an eventful year for me:
-finally became comfortable with cpc
-struggled and finished my dorm life experience
-passed psych. 9b (with a B-!)
-cut my bangs
-started Naruto
-bought my $500 motor vehicle
-started/stopped going out to ccm
-visited la, riverside, sd, and usc numerous times
-worked at Elite
-went to Magic Mountain, Getty Museum, Hollywood, Citywalk, Pink's, Roscoe's, and 3rd St. for the first time
-became a leader of welcoming committee
-received an A- in writing 39c
-went fishing for the first time with billy
-learned how to cook from billy
-finally went to NY
-pulled out wisdom teeth
-moved into Park West
-olivia came to ucla/cpc
-began to tutor jordan and dillon
-finished reading the Bible for the first time
-joined Outreach
-chang got married
-learned how to play hold'em
-won and lost much money at casinos
-finished the Matrix and LOTR trilogies
-PJ left yg
-old phil got engaged
-counseled at a yg retreat
-crushed on 4 girls
-lost 17 pounds
this year was definitely filled with ups and downs. i took a nice shower, cleaned off all my dead skin, gave myself a clean shave, and cut my fingernails. the only thing i've failed to do was to cut my hair. it's time to start a brand new year. i already shared this with my sophomore class, but i feel like every school year God teaches me a new lesson...
senior year: God disciplines those He loves.
freshmen year: God is faithful.
this year: God is gracious.
2004 shall be another crazy year. just as pastor eugene shared, i hope that i will grow to be a "wiser fool" compared to my past self.
Ephesians 2:10-For we are God's workmanship, created in Chirst Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do.
with that said...
1 Corinthians 10:31-So whether you eat or drink or whatever you do, do it all for the glory of God.
may this verse be our life in the year 2004.
Thought of the Day: Happy New Year.
Song of the Day: Bebo Norman-The Hammer Holds
December 31, 2003
December 27, 2003
yg retreat:
i was really excited about being a yg counselor. i couldn't even fall asleep the night before cause i couldn't stop thinking about it. however, i felt and knew that i was very distracted. i knew i was going with many thoughts of having a great time with the students. i wanted them to like me and to think i was a really cool counselor. believe me, i was very distracted.
with only four hours of sleep, i went to church and began my unexpected journey of lessons. i didn't realize how big the yg was at cpc until we actually got to the retreat site. i couldn't believe there were still many students of the yg who hadn't come...really big right? for some reason, i was expecting alot of students to approach me and get to know me for whatever curious reason. well, it actually happened to be the other way around. i think every single student i talked to, i had to be the one to iniate the conversation and introduction of each other. i was very suprised to hear that some of the students thought i was still in high school! i don't like it when people think i'm not a college student...makes me feel inferior and stupid. haha.
victory ranch wasn't as bad as i thought it'd be. the weather wasn't THAT cold and the cabins were decent. even though the food didn't receive two thumbs up, i still enjoyed every meal with that hungry stomach of mine. bathrooms were usable and there was warm water for showers. overall, the place wasn't too bad.
i was pretty impressed with the youth group's praise team too. it's definitely alot better than whatever they had at kcpc. it was pretty encouraging to see most of the people really singing and showing some respect during the worship time. however, i couldn't help but notice the very "emotional" environment that was encouraged by pastor kim. man, that guy is such a KOREAN style pastor. i really like his passionate heart for the kids but i am very discouraged by his role as a pastor. the messages were O-K. i think the only explanation i have for my critical behavior is that i was spoiled by p. john, chang, and now, p. dennis. even B and simon noticed these shady things. man, i noticed this crap when i was their age.
teaching bible study was so hard. i ended up getting the 7th graders, supposedly the most difficult group of kids to teach. these kids really don't show any appreciation and the only answer they can give to my questions was, "can we play tag?" (eyes turn into angry eyes). man, practicing our skit was really tough too. b/c i had come up with a good idea, i ended up becoming director with minimal help from the other counselors in my group. man, it's really tough trying to get your kids to do something they're so indifferent about. basically, it ended up becoming one of those skits that were either going turn out REALLY good or REALLY bad. *sigh* a terrible skit it was. you know, i learned alot from being a counselor at this retreat...
1. it is SO hard being a counselor/yg teacher. i thought about EVERY yg teacher/counselor that i had and said sorry to them in my head.
2. girls are so much more mature than guys. alotta things that i didn't understand in high school make alotta sense now.
3. i give and i give and i give...and i don't receive. it's amazing to think how often i do that to God. so humbling.
4. it's really hard to find a really good youth pastor these days.
5. teachers can influence the kids just as much as the kids can influence the teacher.
to be honest, i wasn't enjoying myself too much at the retreat but i definitely have no regrets going to it either. i learned so much about this yg and myself as a counselor. not only that but i accomplished my main purpose of even going in the first place...getting to know the yg kids of cpc:
prairie: i saw prairie very often at church and knew she was a pretty nice girl. but i felt like i got to know her a bit better at this retreat since she was so easy to talk to. i really appreciated her amiable actions with B, simon, and tiff. i feel like she was the only one who made an effort to talk to them and make them feel comfortable at the retreat. i also enjoyed working on the skit with her. practically the only person who was enthusiastic about it and really supported my ideas. a girl with an awesome machine gun laugh and dope personality test.
joe myung: i thought this kid was some punk fob kid who just came from korea and didn't know how to smile. he actually ended up being on my "favorite yg kids list" after the retreat. i actually found his laziness and complaining attitude very amusing. he told me that he liked nor cal alot better than so cal. "i like i like." a very open attitude and i thought it was so funny how he hated B even though i'd always see them together. i think i saw alot of me inside him.
i mean, i can go on and on about every student that i met but these two seemed to stand out the most in my eyes. but dude, that last night of the retreat...i've never played in such a big group before! it started off with me, carol, grace, brian, and carol just telling jokes and riddles. then we started playing assah. then came all the buffalloes! fun times for sure.
man, i started this blog with intentions of writing it into a poem (i don't know why). but that sure isn't going to happen. this sucker is way too long and detailed...
x-mas:
justin came back.
justin does not know how to play hold 'em.
justin and i have our annual hangout.
day after x-mas:
ball with the boys.
downtown sf with justin.
hold 'em and juon at terrance's.
Thought of the Day: i HATE scary movies now.
Song of the Day: Now That You're Near
i was really excited about being a yg counselor. i couldn't even fall asleep the night before cause i couldn't stop thinking about it. however, i felt and knew that i was very distracted. i knew i was going with many thoughts of having a great time with the students. i wanted them to like me and to think i was a really cool counselor. believe me, i was very distracted.
with only four hours of sleep, i went to church and began my unexpected journey of lessons. i didn't realize how big the yg was at cpc until we actually got to the retreat site. i couldn't believe there were still many students of the yg who hadn't come...really big right? for some reason, i was expecting alot of students to approach me and get to know me for whatever curious reason. well, it actually happened to be the other way around. i think every single student i talked to, i had to be the one to iniate the conversation and introduction of each other. i was very suprised to hear that some of the students thought i was still in high school! i don't like it when people think i'm not a college student...makes me feel inferior and stupid. haha.
victory ranch wasn't as bad as i thought it'd be. the weather wasn't THAT cold and the cabins were decent. even though the food didn't receive two thumbs up, i still enjoyed every meal with that hungry stomach of mine. bathrooms were usable and there was warm water for showers. overall, the place wasn't too bad.
i was pretty impressed with the youth group's praise team too. it's definitely alot better than whatever they had at kcpc. it was pretty encouraging to see most of the people really singing and showing some respect during the worship time. however, i couldn't help but notice the very "emotional" environment that was encouraged by pastor kim. man, that guy is such a KOREAN style pastor. i really like his passionate heart for the kids but i am very discouraged by his role as a pastor. the messages were O-K. i think the only explanation i have for my critical behavior is that i was spoiled by p. john, chang, and now, p. dennis. even B and simon noticed these shady things. man, i noticed this crap when i was their age.
teaching bible study was so hard. i ended up getting the 7th graders, supposedly the most difficult group of kids to teach. these kids really don't show any appreciation and the only answer they can give to my questions was, "can we play tag?" (eyes turn into angry eyes). man, practicing our skit was really tough too. b/c i had come up with a good idea, i ended up becoming director with minimal help from the other counselors in my group. man, it's really tough trying to get your kids to do something they're so indifferent about. basically, it ended up becoming one of those skits that were either going turn out REALLY good or REALLY bad. *sigh* a terrible skit it was. you know, i learned alot from being a counselor at this retreat...
1. it is SO hard being a counselor/yg teacher. i thought about EVERY yg teacher/counselor that i had and said sorry to them in my head.
2. girls are so much more mature than guys. alotta things that i didn't understand in high school make alotta sense now.
3. i give and i give and i give...and i don't receive. it's amazing to think how often i do that to God. so humbling.
4. it's really hard to find a really good youth pastor these days.
5. teachers can influence the kids just as much as the kids can influence the teacher.
to be honest, i wasn't enjoying myself too much at the retreat but i definitely have no regrets going to it either. i learned so much about this yg and myself as a counselor. not only that but i accomplished my main purpose of even going in the first place...getting to know the yg kids of cpc:
prairie: i saw prairie very often at church and knew she was a pretty nice girl. but i felt like i got to know her a bit better at this retreat since she was so easy to talk to. i really appreciated her amiable actions with B, simon, and tiff. i feel like she was the only one who made an effort to talk to them and make them feel comfortable at the retreat. i also enjoyed working on the skit with her. practically the only person who was enthusiastic about it and really supported my ideas. a girl with an awesome machine gun laugh and dope personality test.
joe myung: i thought this kid was some punk fob kid who just came from korea and didn't know how to smile. he actually ended up being on my "favorite yg kids list" after the retreat. i actually found his laziness and complaining attitude very amusing. he told me that he liked nor cal alot better than so cal. "i like i like." a very open attitude and i thought it was so funny how he hated B even though i'd always see them together. i think i saw alot of me inside him.
i mean, i can go on and on about every student that i met but these two seemed to stand out the most in my eyes. but dude, that last night of the retreat...i've never played in such a big group before! it started off with me, carol, grace, brian, and carol just telling jokes and riddles. then we started playing assah. then came all the buffalloes! fun times for sure.
man, i started this blog with intentions of writing it into a poem (i don't know why). but that sure isn't going to happen. this sucker is way too long and detailed...
x-mas:
justin came back.
justin does not know how to play hold 'em.
justin and i have our annual hangout.
day after x-mas:
ball with the boys.
downtown sf with justin.
hold 'em and juon at terrance's.
Thought of the Day: i HATE scary movies now.
Song of the Day: Now That You're Near
December 20, 2003
simon: is your chinese roommate home?
me: oh derek. no he's not home. he doesn't know how to play hold 'em anyways. he doesn't play anything actually.
danny: yeah, he's a fag.
me: lol. oh yeah, danny hates derek.
danny: no i don't. i just think he's a fag!
me: lol. there isn't a single thing about him that you like.
danny: yeah there is...i like the fact that he's never home!
so apparently, my brother and i arrived in irvine safely. it was a dangerous drive with all the rain and traffic. gosh, i really hate that combo.
i have once again hit an insomniac night with many thoughts on my mind. i've been pretty stressed about money lately cause i just realized that i really won't have much after bills, rent, and retreats. i really should have thought this through. you know, i really hate the fact that the school doesn't tell you when they're going to send out the financial aid money to the students. it would really help in my financial planning after my retreats cause i don't even have a stupid credit card to temporarily aid me. at the same time, i realize that worrying and stressing really won't get me anywhere. my mind keeps echoing Jesus' "Don't Worry" and "You of so little faith..." from Matthew, but my sinful nature keeps poking me about how i'm going to pay for everything when i haven't even included my future payments for gas. i am worried, distressed, and lack faith. all i can do is trust in God's sovereignty and grace, and be patient. oh and yeah, it's alot easier to say than do.
you know what i noticed? every time i've mentioned to someone that i no longer get pimples, my face decides to grow a fresh one! it's like taboo for me to say anything about my face. i feel like as soon as i mention one good word about anything self-facial, i'm as good as stepping on a land mine. "hey, i don't get pimples anymore!" results in plus three on the nose. hmmmm...maybe it was b/c of all of those Milano cookies.
i played alotta Hold 'Em when i was up north. i think i got alot better even though i only played with jonna, B, and my brother. i mean, they don't totally SUCK or anything! i finally undestand why guys enjoy having poker nights and crap. smoking cigars, drinking a few beers, and playing cards. i can see the puzzle pieces finally making a picture. but if i were to have a poker night, i'd minus the beers and add something like pizza. the cigars would make the pizza taste like socks, so we'd just have some soda. ok, so it pretty much looks like cards and some pizza but i still think it'd be fun. =D
do you know what the worst kinds of phones calls are? i think the worst kinds of phone calls are the ones where people call you for somebody else's number. whenever i get these calls, i get very angry...especially if it's from someone i dislike in the first place. but you know when the WORST times are to receive these calls? WHEN YOU'RE ASLEEP! you know, with their stupid "oh hey! were you sleeping? oh i'm sorry, i'll call you later." too late, you already woke me up, bucko! what good reason do you have for calling me at this hour? and as soon as you hear that question about so and so's number, out come the F words. please, do not ever call me for someone else's number...whether i'm asleep OR awake!
i really like the weather down here. i can actually walk around in my apt with just a t-shirt and shorts. i'm flabbergasted about opening windows and i've never been happier w/o my socks. i swear there's some kinda ice machine that's hidden inside my room up north that prevents me from sleeping at a comfortable temperature. i really am a so cal person now. little by little, i cannot tolerate the petty things about up north. it wasn't until this month that i started to become impatient with slow norcal drivers. you can call them "relaxed" or "patient" but if you're a driver that pisses me off, you're considered a bad driver. and yes, bad drivers do not deserve to live.
my words are slowly becoming more and more upset. i'm still not tired but i know my body needs the sleep. i hate insomnia. maybe i should just wake my brother up for fun and pretend i'm asleep. =D
Thought of the Day: NO money MO problems.
Song of the Day: Jimmy Eat World-Last Christmas
me: oh derek. no he's not home. he doesn't know how to play hold 'em anyways. he doesn't play anything actually.
danny: yeah, he's a fag.
me: lol. oh yeah, danny hates derek.
danny: no i don't. i just think he's a fag!
me: lol. there isn't a single thing about him that you like.
danny: yeah there is...i like the fact that he's never home!
so apparently, my brother and i arrived in irvine safely. it was a dangerous drive with all the rain and traffic. gosh, i really hate that combo.
i have once again hit an insomniac night with many thoughts on my mind. i've been pretty stressed about money lately cause i just realized that i really won't have much after bills, rent, and retreats. i really should have thought this through. you know, i really hate the fact that the school doesn't tell you when they're going to send out the financial aid money to the students. it would really help in my financial planning after my retreats cause i don't even have a stupid credit card to temporarily aid me. at the same time, i realize that worrying and stressing really won't get me anywhere. my mind keeps echoing Jesus' "Don't Worry" and "You of so little faith..." from Matthew, but my sinful nature keeps poking me about how i'm going to pay for everything when i haven't even included my future payments for gas. i am worried, distressed, and lack faith. all i can do is trust in God's sovereignty and grace, and be patient. oh and yeah, it's alot easier to say than do.
you know what i noticed? every time i've mentioned to someone that i no longer get pimples, my face decides to grow a fresh one! it's like taboo for me to say anything about my face. i feel like as soon as i mention one good word about anything self-facial, i'm as good as stepping on a land mine. "hey, i don't get pimples anymore!" results in plus three on the nose. hmmmm...maybe it was b/c of all of those Milano cookies.
i played alotta Hold 'Em when i was up north. i think i got alot better even though i only played with jonna, B, and my brother. i mean, they don't totally SUCK or anything! i finally undestand why guys enjoy having poker nights and crap. smoking cigars, drinking a few beers, and playing cards. i can see the puzzle pieces finally making a picture. but if i were to have a poker night, i'd minus the beers and add something like pizza. the cigars would make the pizza taste like socks, so we'd just have some soda. ok, so it pretty much looks like cards and some pizza but i still think it'd be fun. =D
do you know what the worst kinds of phones calls are? i think the worst kinds of phone calls are the ones where people call you for somebody else's number. whenever i get these calls, i get very angry...especially if it's from someone i dislike in the first place. but you know when the WORST times are to receive these calls? WHEN YOU'RE ASLEEP! you know, with their stupid "oh hey! were you sleeping? oh i'm sorry, i'll call you later." too late, you already woke me up, bucko! what good reason do you have for calling me at this hour? and as soon as you hear that question about so and so's number, out come the F words. please, do not ever call me for someone else's number...whether i'm asleep OR awake!
i really like the weather down here. i can actually walk around in my apt with just a t-shirt and shorts. i'm flabbergasted about opening windows and i've never been happier w/o my socks. i swear there's some kinda ice machine that's hidden inside my room up north that prevents me from sleeping at a comfortable temperature. i really am a so cal person now. little by little, i cannot tolerate the petty things about up north. it wasn't until this month that i started to become impatient with slow norcal drivers. you can call them "relaxed" or "patient" but if you're a driver that pisses me off, you're considered a bad driver. and yes, bad drivers do not deserve to live.
my words are slowly becoming more and more upset. i'm still not tired but i know my body needs the sleep. i hate insomnia. maybe i should just wake my brother up for fun and pretend i'm asleep. =D
Thought of the Day: NO money MO problems.
Song of the Day: Jimmy Eat World-Last Christmas
December 18, 2003
December 17, 2003
Dear Santa,
There are many things that i want for Christmas this year:
1. I want a Pulp Fiction poster that i can hang up on my wall next to my Rap Gods or Swingers poster.
2. I want the Pulp Fiction Collector's Edition dvd since i had to return it back to Target along with my brother's windbreakers that really were EXTRA large.
3. I've grown a strong love for Calvin & Hobbes this Christmas so i want the whole collection now.
4. i also want either the S300 or S307 Samsung phone, preferably the S300 since it's slightly smaller.
5. Finally, i want the Nautica Competition cologne that i got for my brother's graduation gift.
now, i understand that this sounds like alot but i think these material things are much more reasonable than getting me Keira Knightly...although i am still crossing my fingers. I'm still a little pissed that you didn't give me my Sega Genesis or Turbo Graphics 16 when i was 8 years old but i am willing to forgive you if i receive any two of the above. i know i haven't written to you in 10 years and making you cookies was just out of the question...but i promise that i've believed in you all these years. i know that i never show it around my friends or family but i've always had hope on those Christmas mornings. my apt does not have a chimney so just ring the doorbell when you arrive at my place. don't worry, i stay up pretty late now that i'm in college so i'll be waiting.
Your Most Obedient Kid Out There,
PHiL
i watched Elf at chang's place last night. i think it's so true how every year, more and more kids stop believing in Santa Clause...
me: so do you beleive in Santa Clause?
jordan: NO!
me: why not?
jordan: Santa Clause isn't real. that's stupid.
me: you never got any presents from him?
jordan: no.
me: it's probably cause you never believed in him.
jordan: no! Santa Clause isn't real!
see what i mean? it's just like Elf with the whole x-mas spirit thing getting lower and lower. but i think it's kind of good that kids aren't believing in that fat red bastard anymore. i remember i use to straight up pray to Santa and ask him for EVERYTHING with such a covetous heart. you know, it's really sad how media can really influence the mind of a kid. i strongly believed that if you wanted something SO bad, then you could have it! how many times have we heard that before, right? i was practically replacing God with Santa during x-mas time. the meaning of Christ's birth was just out the window! presents are all good but we gotta remind each other (yes, even in college students) what x-mas is all about...God's greatest gift to us, Christ.
man, i was SO angry last night.
Thought of the Day: Slow Comfort.
Song of the Day: Mase, Snoop, Salt-N-Pepa, Onyx-Santa Baby
There are many things that i want for Christmas this year:
1. I want a Pulp Fiction poster that i can hang up on my wall next to my Rap Gods or Swingers poster.
2. I want the Pulp Fiction Collector's Edition dvd since i had to return it back to Target along with my brother's windbreakers that really were EXTRA large.
3. I've grown a strong love for Calvin & Hobbes this Christmas so i want the whole collection now.
4. i also want either the S300 or S307 Samsung phone, preferably the S300 since it's slightly smaller.
5. Finally, i want the Nautica Competition cologne that i got for my brother's graduation gift.
now, i understand that this sounds like alot but i think these material things are much more reasonable than getting me Keira Knightly...although i am still crossing my fingers. I'm still a little pissed that you didn't give me my Sega Genesis or Turbo Graphics 16 when i was 8 years old but i am willing to forgive you if i receive any two of the above. i know i haven't written to you in 10 years and making you cookies was just out of the question...but i promise that i've believed in you all these years. i know that i never show it around my friends or family but i've always had hope on those Christmas mornings. my apt does not have a chimney so just ring the doorbell when you arrive at my place. don't worry, i stay up pretty late now that i'm in college so i'll be waiting.
Your Most Obedient Kid Out There,
PHiL
i watched Elf at chang's place last night. i think it's so true how every year, more and more kids stop believing in Santa Clause...
me: so do you beleive in Santa Clause?
jordan: NO!
me: why not?
jordan: Santa Clause isn't real. that's stupid.
me: you never got any presents from him?
jordan: no.
me: it's probably cause you never believed in him.
jordan: no! Santa Clause isn't real!
see what i mean? it's just like Elf with the whole x-mas spirit thing getting lower and lower. but i think it's kind of good that kids aren't believing in that fat red bastard anymore. i remember i use to straight up pray to Santa and ask him for EVERYTHING with such a covetous heart. you know, it's really sad how media can really influence the mind of a kid. i strongly believed that if you wanted something SO bad, then you could have it! how many times have we heard that before, right? i was practically replacing God with Santa during x-mas time. the meaning of Christ's birth was just out the window! presents are all good but we gotta remind each other (yes, even in college students) what x-mas is all about...God's greatest gift to us, Christ.
man, i was SO angry last night.
Thought of the Day: Slow Comfort.
Song of the Day: Mase, Snoop, Salt-N-Pepa, Onyx-Santa Baby
December 16, 2003
i visited kevin's apt. in san jo today. really small place. in fact, it was pretty similar to a single dorm...except it had its own bathroom and sink. the only thing missing was a stove but that was ok. i wouldn't mind living in a place like that by myself. anyways, meeting up with that guy always depresses me. he's always discontent with his life and everything that's going on. educationally, socially, and spiritually, i just have alot of pity for him. but he's one of the few friends i've managed to keep in touch with even after high school.
as i was driving home today, it hit me how much God has blessed me. despite all of my sinfulness and wicked ways, God is still so good to me. you know, it doesn't make any sense to me. i can't help but think, "WHO AM I TO DESERVE THIS?!" i am seriously no better than those who hate and curse God. but it all goes back to grace and mercy right? we are all creations of a wonderful God. His love has no bounds. God can forgive me an infinite number of times. He is not a God who tallies up our sins and punishes us after sin #1 million. it really is a mind-boggling thing. God loves a sinner like me. the fact that i can even realize that i'm a sinner and that God is holy...i praise Him for that. even this knowledge is grace. when i talk to non-christians, they really don't see their sinfulness or God's holiness. but for me to even recognize such a reality really does amaze me. what a gracious God! Romans 5:20-21. it always goes back to that.
Thought of the Day: Happy Birthday Danny!
Song of the Day: Phil Wickham-Jesus, Lord Of Heaven
as i was driving home today, it hit me how much God has blessed me. despite all of my sinfulness and wicked ways, God is still so good to me. you know, it doesn't make any sense to me. i can't help but think, "WHO AM I TO DESERVE THIS?!" i am seriously no better than those who hate and curse God. but it all goes back to grace and mercy right? we are all creations of a wonderful God. His love has no bounds. God can forgive me an infinite number of times. He is not a God who tallies up our sins and punishes us after sin #1 million. it really is a mind-boggling thing. God loves a sinner like me. the fact that i can even realize that i'm a sinner and that God is holy...i praise Him for that. even this knowledge is grace. when i talk to non-christians, they really don't see their sinfulness or God's holiness. but for me to even recognize such a reality really does amaze me. what a gracious God! Romans 5:20-21. it always goes back to that.
Thought of the Day: Happy Birthday Danny!
Song of the Day: Phil Wickham-Jesus, Lord Of Heaven
December 11, 2003
i got much better since i last wrote. that nyquil stuff worked like a charm. (note to self: get cherry flavor next time). i still feel like i have a cough stuck in my throat but otherwise i'm perfecty back to normal. praise God.
well, i'm practically done with finals. i took my film studies final on monday and took my calculus one yesterday. i was seriously hating the film studies one. i was blanking out like no other and i've never BSed so hard on a test before. haha, it's funny now that i think about it. i can already see the perplexed look on my TA's face when he reads my answers, trying to make sense of my jibberish, and mercifully giving me partial credit for attempting to write something. i messed up pretty hard on the calculus final too. certain problems just weren't making any sense...which will mean that many of my answers won't be doing me much good either. but admist all the playing that i did this week, i did squeeze in some crucial hours of studying. i am glad that i am finished with math 2a. i am even more glad that i am finished with film studies 85a. i have my korean final in less than six hours. that freakin' boba has caused me an uncommon insomnia. so what better thing to do at night than blog?
i gave my students their x-mas gift today. Yu-gi-oh gameboy game...
jordan: can i open it?
me: no! you have to wait til x-mas.
jordan: c'mon, please?
me: no. if you open it, i'm going to take it back home.
jordan: fine, i'm going to take my gift back too then.
me: fine.
jordan: nooooo, c'mon!!!
me: ahahahahhahah.
me: dillon, i have something to tell you.
dillon: what?
me: they ran out of yu-gi-oh and pokemon. so i had to get you a Barbie game.
dillon: WHAT?!
me: i'm sorry. but i tried playing it and it's really fun!
dillon: NOOOO! return it!
me: i can't.
dillon: yes you can!
me: i can't. just try playing it. just TRY it!
dillon: what's it called?
me: Barbie's Playhouse.
dillon: WHY DID YOU GET IT?!
me: my friend told me it was good. just try it!
dillon: you should have just waited.
me: she told me it was really good!
dillon: SHE?! it's a GIRL!
me: lol. just try it!
dillon: return it!
me: i can't.
dillon: that's not my problem. buy another one!
me: (brat!).
i love messing with kids. they're so gullible. but it was nice receiving gifts from them too. jordan gave me a pen and pencil thing and dillon gave me this lighthouse container thing? haha. it was so funny cause he was taking it out of the box as he was giving it to me, explaining that his gift was about $4. well, at least i got something right?
i got eddie the Calvin & Hobbes 10th Anniversary for x-mas. he is the first person that i know who never grew up reading Calvin & Hobbes. words cannot express the deprivation i stamped on him. but anyways, i thought it'd be an appropriate gift for him b/c in many ways, calvin reminds me of eddie. the funny temper, the childlike personality, and of course the overall physical appearance. as i was reading some of the pages, i realized that i really did not appreciate Bill Watterson as a young child. i think at the time, i was more interested in the funny faces that calvin made and the occasional colored pages that would randomly pop up. man, Bill Watterson is THE MAN! this guy really knows how to make people laugh and feel happy. i think Calvin & Hobbes is such a great comic b/c everyone (and i mean EVERYONE) can relate to him in so many ways. i can seriously sit down and read Calvin & Hobbes all day long.
lately, i've been feeling pretty dry in my spiritual life. lack of desire to read and pray, church is feeling like a chore, and no one's REALLY encouraging me. man, i think that's when you're not doing well spiritually...when you don't really feel like going to church. if your walk with God was awesome, going to church should be something you really look forward to! that's like the one place where it's purposely a place of worship. don't get me wrong, every aspect of our lives ought to be worship but you know what i mean. church is like "THE place," right? i have no desire to encourage others either. i'm just straight up DRY. i must cry out to God. it is when it is the hardest to read/pray, that we must do it the most. i'm so dry.
Thought of the Day: "Here's looking at you, kid."
Song of the Day: The Wiseguys-Start The Commotion
well, i'm practically done with finals. i took my film studies final on monday and took my calculus one yesterday. i was seriously hating the film studies one. i was blanking out like no other and i've never BSed so hard on a test before. haha, it's funny now that i think about it. i can already see the perplexed look on my TA's face when he reads my answers, trying to make sense of my jibberish, and mercifully giving me partial credit for attempting to write something. i messed up pretty hard on the calculus final too. certain problems just weren't making any sense...which will mean that many of my answers won't be doing me much good either. but admist all the playing that i did this week, i did squeeze in some crucial hours of studying. i am glad that i am finished with math 2a. i am even more glad that i am finished with film studies 85a. i have my korean final in less than six hours. that freakin' boba has caused me an uncommon insomnia. so what better thing to do at night than blog?
i gave my students their x-mas gift today. Yu-gi-oh gameboy game...
jordan: can i open it?
me: no! you have to wait til x-mas.
jordan: c'mon, please?
me: no. if you open it, i'm going to take it back home.
jordan: fine, i'm going to take my gift back too then.
me: fine.
jordan: nooooo, c'mon!!!
me: ahahahahhahah.
me: dillon, i have something to tell you.
dillon: what?
me: they ran out of yu-gi-oh and pokemon. so i had to get you a Barbie game.
dillon: WHAT?!
me: i'm sorry. but i tried playing it and it's really fun!
dillon: NOOOO! return it!
me: i can't.
dillon: yes you can!
me: i can't. just try playing it. just TRY it!
dillon: what's it called?
me: Barbie's Playhouse.
dillon: WHY DID YOU GET IT?!
me: my friend told me it was good. just try it!
dillon: you should have just waited.
me: she told me it was really good!
dillon: SHE?! it's a GIRL!
me: lol. just try it!
dillon: return it!
me: i can't.
dillon: that's not my problem. buy another one!
me: (brat!).
i love messing with kids. they're so gullible. but it was nice receiving gifts from them too. jordan gave me a pen and pencil thing and dillon gave me this lighthouse container thing? haha. it was so funny cause he was taking it out of the box as he was giving it to me, explaining that his gift was about $4. well, at least i got something right?
i got eddie the Calvin & Hobbes 10th Anniversary for x-mas. he is the first person that i know who never grew up reading Calvin & Hobbes. words cannot express the deprivation i stamped on him. but anyways, i thought it'd be an appropriate gift for him b/c in many ways, calvin reminds me of eddie. the funny temper, the childlike personality, and of course the overall physical appearance. as i was reading some of the pages, i realized that i really did not appreciate Bill Watterson as a young child. i think at the time, i was more interested in the funny faces that calvin made and the occasional colored pages that would randomly pop up. man, Bill Watterson is THE MAN! this guy really knows how to make people laugh and feel happy. i think Calvin & Hobbes is such a great comic b/c everyone (and i mean EVERYONE) can relate to him in so many ways. i can seriously sit down and read Calvin & Hobbes all day long.
lately, i've been feeling pretty dry in my spiritual life. lack of desire to read and pray, church is feeling like a chore, and no one's REALLY encouraging me. man, i think that's when you're not doing well spiritually...when you don't really feel like going to church. if your walk with God was awesome, going to church should be something you really look forward to! that's like the one place where it's purposely a place of worship. don't get me wrong, every aspect of our lives ought to be worship but you know what i mean. church is like "THE place," right? i have no desire to encourage others either. i'm just straight up DRY. i must cry out to God. it is when it is the hardest to read/pray, that we must do it the most. i'm so dry.
Thought of the Day: "Here's looking at you, kid."
Song of the Day: The Wiseguys-Start The Commotion
December 6, 2003
i'm not a big fan of medicine but i thought nyquil would really be a wise decision, especially since its finals week coming up. everyone raves about how effective nyquil is and how it'll knock you out "just like that!" freakin' sham dude. i took it last night and was waiting for the signs of drowsiness to come. none. i just went to bed cause of food coma from taco bell. same thing this afternoon, only this time i took 45 ml. just went to bed to get a power nap before i started studying for finals. but besides the false claims about drowsiness, nyquil really did make me feel better. instead of coughing, i now have an occasional runny nose. my immune system may be retarded but i think i'm getting better.
i had outreach today and as always, i tutored my student, michiyoshi. this kid is freakin' hilarious! last time, he straight up just brought a basketball and a chess set to play with me. well, he did the same thing today, only today he replaced the basketball with a soccerball. he also brought his 1st Place trophy that he won at his school's chess tournament. he brought that crap just to show it off to me. lol. oh, and you know how when you ask kids what their favorite color is? well, most kids will respond with blue or green or some ordinary color like that....but not MY student! no sir, michiyoshi's favorite color is GOLD! ahahahahahhahahah.
well, since it's finals weeks, i'm doing exactly what i'm NOT supposed to be doing: watching a gang of movies. thurs. night = Run Lola Run. fri. evening = Trainspotting. and tonight, The Last Samurai. i was actually going to consider studying after the movie but i just realized that i'm out of flash cards and i don't want to lose my parking spot by going out to get some right now. so we'll hold off studying til monday morning (as soon as it hits midnight) since i don't study on sundays. haha. fun times! if you don't want to be sad like the students in la, come join irvine on an adventurous study break.
ilikelotsofsugar (10:14:56 PM): Freaking finals week in Irvine..I swear
Thought of the Day: Studying's not going to happen.
Song of the Day: Fastball-?
i had outreach today and as always, i tutored my student, michiyoshi. this kid is freakin' hilarious! last time, he straight up just brought a basketball and a chess set to play with me. well, he did the same thing today, only today he replaced the basketball with a soccerball. he also brought his 1st Place trophy that he won at his school's chess tournament. he brought that crap just to show it off to me. lol. oh, and you know how when you ask kids what their favorite color is? well, most kids will respond with blue or green or some ordinary color like that....but not MY student! no sir, michiyoshi's favorite color is GOLD! ahahahahahhahahah.
well, since it's finals weeks, i'm doing exactly what i'm NOT supposed to be doing: watching a gang of movies. thurs. night = Run Lola Run. fri. evening = Trainspotting. and tonight, The Last Samurai. i was actually going to consider studying after the movie but i just realized that i'm out of flash cards and i don't want to lose my parking spot by going out to get some right now. so we'll hold off studying til monday morning (as soon as it hits midnight) since i don't study on sundays. haha. fun times! if you don't want to be sad like the students in la, come join irvine on an adventurous study break.
ilikelotsofsugar (10:14:56 PM): Freaking finals week in Irvine..I swear
Thought of the Day: Studying's not going to happen.
Song of the Day: Fastball-?
December 5, 2003
dude, i'm freakin' sick again. i was honestly convinced that i wasn't going to get sick this winter. i get sick EVERY winter! "you're hella weak. you can't find the germ!" right? fudge, i can think of so many possible candidates for causing me my physical humility: simon's *cough cough*. bs' *COUGH COUGH* while i was trapped in the car right next to him for over two hours. and finally, danny's open sneezing. the idiot doesn't believe that others can get sick from his sneezing...thus his independent germs entering my body. it's either that or he's kissing me while i'm sleeping at night.
so just like any other quarter, i have a strong indifference for school during the 10th and finals week of school. a very unfortunate condition it is. i think it's b/c i look forward to the break so much that i forget that there's quite a bit of studying to do before it comes. remember a few weeks ago when i had to write my final film studies paper, and i felt like it was the worst paper i had ever written in my life? well it turns out that it was an A paper! not an A-. a solid A! unfortunately, the nonchalant idiot that i was forgot to add my Works Cited page so i got a B+ (fingernails breaking on chalkboard). well, not that that paper had anything to do with 10th week or finals. just a random insert. but i SO had no desire to go to class this week...so i didn't go too much. =D goodness, what am i trying to get across to my reader? fudge, i just feel like crap right now. *cough cough*
well, i'm practically done with most of my x-mas shopping for the year. man, i've never bought so many things online before. it's kinda exciting because the offered prices (and free shipping) are to die for! but it's also kinda scary because you don't know when to expect the package to arrive and even when it does, you wonder if it'll be in one piece. but i am pretty content with what i got for everyone this year. from the words of chang: "you know a gift is good if you know it's something you want for yourself." i couldn't agree anymore.
Thought of the Day: I want to get better.
Song of the Day: Reliant K-Sadies Hawkins
so just like any other quarter, i have a strong indifference for school during the 10th and finals week of school. a very unfortunate condition it is. i think it's b/c i look forward to the break so much that i forget that there's quite a bit of studying to do before it comes. remember a few weeks ago when i had to write my final film studies paper, and i felt like it was the worst paper i had ever written in my life? well it turns out that it was an A paper! not an A-. a solid A! unfortunately, the nonchalant idiot that i was forgot to add my Works Cited page so i got a B+ (fingernails breaking on chalkboard). well, not that that paper had anything to do with 10th week or finals. just a random insert. but i SO had no desire to go to class this week...so i didn't go too much. =D goodness, what am i trying to get across to my reader? fudge, i just feel like crap right now. *cough cough*
well, i'm practically done with most of my x-mas shopping for the year. man, i've never bought so many things online before. it's kinda exciting because the offered prices (and free shipping) are to die for! but it's also kinda scary because you don't know when to expect the package to arrive and even when it does, you wonder if it'll be in one piece. but i am pretty content with what i got for everyone this year. from the words of chang: "you know a gift is good if you know it's something you want for yourself." i couldn't agree anymore.
Thought of the Day: I want to get better.
Song of the Day: Reliant K-Sadies Hawkins
December 2, 2003
during the thanksgiving break, i played texas hold 'em for the first time. i played with my fob friends in berkeley with a jackpot of 40 something dollars. i learned something from this game. i cannot hang out with fobs. i feel/am very out of place. i know it, they know it. for example, they'd be talking in their stupid korean with all their stupid korean jokes and slang and then one guy would turn to me and ask me how school was. some crap like that.
if you don't know already, one of my life's goals is to perfect my imperfect korean. i always tell people that i'm going to live in korea for a year after i graduate from irvine so that i can master the blasted language. but living in korea for a whole year...fudge. definitely will not be an easy thing to do. i guess i'll just have to drag danny along with me.
but anyways, hold 'em was really fun. stupid pat and his "sorry john. i don't remember." lol. however, i really didn't like seeing seung-bae all different. it pisses me off to see people going through the same mistakes i did. but i know that God is a just God and He will deal with everyone accordingly...including myself.
right now, i really miss my mom's food. i feel like every meal that i ate was a considered the highlight of my thanksgiving break. i really don't eat that much normally but i refused to stop chewing after my first plate for every meal. i think my new favorite food has become ggori gomtang (ox tail soup). it's a very simple piece of food but i think that's why i like it very much too. it's definitely the best thing to eat, especially in a rainy san francisco. man, i ate that crap every single day!
another memory that i have is cache creek. i usually only went with chang every time i went up north. but kevin, bs, and this fob named joe, felt like playing some cards so we drove up one night. man, we all lost our money but i thought it was a good memory. like after we all lost and came out of the casino, the guys started thinking of every possible excuse and complaint that they could think of for losing their money. i found it really amusing and even explained to them that even though we had all lost our money...
me: this is still a good memory. when you look back after some time, you'll laugh about the time we went to the casino and lost our money and started complaining.
kevin: is this memory worth $60?
everyone: ahhahahahahha.
man, i can't believe i only got to play 3 hands.
and finally, we have the drive back down. we took off at 2:30 and arrived in la by 1am. the traffic was really bad. i don't remember it being this bad when we drove last year but it was pretty bad. however once again, i was very fortunate to have a very talkative piece of company for the long trip. but unexpectedly, jane didn't have as much to say compared to the first time we drove up. i guess she IS human afterall. =D but man, she is seriously the craziest in n' out eater. i've never seen anyone eat their fries with so much concentration. this girl who can talk for hours straight does not say a single word when we're eating inside the restaurant. all you see is her hat with her head tilted down at a 45 degree angle, and fries just entering the mouth area. she's like a garbage truck that just inhales everything that is in its path. i have the strongest regrets of not taking a picture of her in action. definitely a kodak moment.
dang, jane can play canon on piano.
Thought of the Day: Chinatown sucks!
Song of the Day: 1TYM-Uh-Oh
if you don't know already, one of my life's goals is to perfect my imperfect korean. i always tell people that i'm going to live in korea for a year after i graduate from irvine so that i can master the blasted language. but living in korea for a whole year...fudge. definitely will not be an easy thing to do. i guess i'll just have to drag danny along with me.
but anyways, hold 'em was really fun. stupid pat and his "sorry john. i don't remember." lol. however, i really didn't like seeing seung-bae all different. it pisses me off to see people going through the same mistakes i did. but i know that God is a just God and He will deal with everyone accordingly...including myself.
right now, i really miss my mom's food. i feel like every meal that i ate was a considered the highlight of my thanksgiving break. i really don't eat that much normally but i refused to stop chewing after my first plate for every meal. i think my new favorite food has become ggori gomtang (ox tail soup). it's a very simple piece of food but i think that's why i like it very much too. it's definitely the best thing to eat, especially in a rainy san francisco. man, i ate that crap every single day!
another memory that i have is cache creek. i usually only went with chang every time i went up north. but kevin, bs, and this fob named joe, felt like playing some cards so we drove up one night. man, we all lost our money but i thought it was a good memory. like after we all lost and came out of the casino, the guys started thinking of every possible excuse and complaint that they could think of for losing their money. i found it really amusing and even explained to them that even though we had all lost our money...
me: this is still a good memory. when you look back after some time, you'll laugh about the time we went to the casino and lost our money and started complaining.
kevin: is this memory worth $60?
everyone: ahhahahahahha.
man, i can't believe i only got to play 3 hands.
and finally, we have the drive back down. we took off at 2:30 and arrived in la by 1am. the traffic was really bad. i don't remember it being this bad when we drove last year but it was pretty bad. however once again, i was very fortunate to have a very talkative piece of company for the long trip. but unexpectedly, jane didn't have as much to say compared to the first time we drove up. i guess she IS human afterall. =D but man, she is seriously the craziest in n' out eater. i've never seen anyone eat their fries with so much concentration. this girl who can talk for hours straight does not say a single word when we're eating inside the restaurant. all you see is her hat with her head tilted down at a 45 degree angle, and fries just entering the mouth area. she's like a garbage truck that just inhales everything that is in its path. i have the strongest regrets of not taking a picture of her in action. definitely a kodak moment.
dang, jane can play canon on piano.
Thought of the Day: Chinatown sucks!
Song of the Day: 1TYM-Uh-Oh
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