this four day weekend has been pretty good so far. lots of playing the whole day. i don't think there's been a moment where i felt bored these past two days. i went to la to go visit crawford and eddie on thursday. man, boxing is so much fun! it's really tiring but oh so satisfying when you hit the person in the face...right crawford? =D i didn't stay in la too long but i found out that jisun and deborah were there too so i decided to check out torrance for the first time.

torrance really isn't as bad as they said it was. yes it's kinda ghetto but it's not like they have absolutely NOTHING. there's Redondo Beach, that awesome park in PV, and "bobo juice!" haha. i don't know, i thought torrance was alrite. i always have a good time hanging out with those two girls. i finally figured out how to look for the Big Dipper! gosh, i couldn't tell you garbage about stars or space. it's an area that i'm quite interested in and i really enjoy looking at a starry night. but dude, i am one ignoramus when it comes to astronomologicalitionaly stuff...

if i had a gf...

me: you see that star over there?
girl: yeah?
me: that's a pretty star huh?

whatever...stupid stars. haha.

but i did learn something about myself that night. i am a VERY analytical person. i always observe. i always notice. i always realize. i'm always thinking and thinking and i almost always want to share my thoughts with people. i guess that's why people tell me that psychology fits me pretty well. i don't know, i don't think i was always like this. i think i am a result of hanging out with chang too much. that guy really taught me to think beyond the surface, to really go deeper and really THINK! but i suppose i can overdo it sometimes. i mean, what kinda person enjoys listening to unceasing analyses about everything.

this also reminds me of ANOTHER realization. haha. i think the older you get, the more you see your bad qualities. i think when we're younger, we tend to think that we're some awesome and perfect piece of creation. i'm not stupid. they are. i'm not ugly. they are. i'm normal. they're weird. but i notice that i see more and more imperfections rather that the "good qualities" in myself. you see problems with your personality, physique, walk with God, speech, habits, etc.. i guess it's kinda like sin. as you grow older and mature, you become more and more sanctified, growing in holiness. and as a result, you see more and more of your sin. well, not just your sin but sin in general...the sinfulness of man. the sin of this world. so i guess it's a good thing. i mean, i don't think it'd be good everyone just got prouder and prouder of themselves. man, some people are already too arrogant.

previous 4th of july's...

9th grade: blew up firecrackers for the first time at bis.
10th grade: Giants/Dodger game.
11th grade: Korea.
12th grade: Chili's and hang out at terrance's place.

this year was probably my best 4th of july ever. it was such a chill day. i woke up at 12. got a haircut from dykas. went to Los Alizanes. went to Nickle Nickle for 2 hours. lol. went to arthur's house and watched them play with fireworks for a long long time. went to Pink's. saw daybear there...freakin' coincidence. and it was really hot the whole day so i loved it.

ever since alice told me about how she LOVES hot weather b/c she loves to sweat, i started to really like hot weather too. she was telling me how she loves to sweat b/c it's so refreshing, opening up all your pores and just sweating! i really liked that kinda mentality. so ever since, i've been looking forward to some hot HOT weather in irvine. and today's weather happend to do much justice to my desires.

man, my walk with God is so dry these days. i read and pray but there's no passion. there's no fire. must i be broken for the nth time to come back to God in humility and give Him the praise that He deserves?
Job 1:21: naked i came from my mother's womb and naked i will depart. the Lord gave and the Lord has taken away. may the name of the Lord be praised.
*sigh* may the name of the Lord be praised. no matter what state i am in, i am to praise God. difficult.

Thought of the Day: Simon came back safe.
Song of the Day: Good Charlotte-La Clique