oh wow! blogger changed it's page quite a bit. weird.

ok, so i'm finally done with my freshmen year of college. i haven't written a LONG blog in a LONG time so just don't read if you don't like to read for a LONG time...

good/bad memories of this year:

1. meeting minh & kiyoshi for the first time.
2. shooting pool EVERYday.
3. minh hiding willburt's cupnoodle. lol.
4. watching all those movies on my computer.
5. exchanging x-mas gifts in the dorms.
6. gambling almost every single night! bang-bao to vegas.
7. crying after taking my psych. final...only by the grace of God!
8. all those parties in my room.
9. playing ball at the arc.
10. eating at common's everyday with dykas first quarter.
11. playing pingpong with bunz.
12. cramming for all those midterms/finals in our studyroom. those were some lonely nights.
13. doing pushups with minh.
14. watching gto w/J, annie, and minh.
15. watching naruto with minh.
16. watching minh watch slamdunk.
17. my first day at cpc.
18. winter retreat.
19. freshmen retreat.
20. women's/senior/freshmen banquet.
21. fellowship with clusters.
22. meeting aaron for the first time. lol.
23. watching all those korean movies with karen & dykas.
24. eating pizza for almost every dinner.
25. first time at ccm.
26. 6 flags!
27. pho 54.
28. chillin' at jisun's place on a very sick day.
29. first time at BCD's.
30. first time meeting eugene & chris! lol.
31. hurting my wrist after punching minh.
32. being so lonely the first two weeks of college.
33. running at the arc.
34. pool tournaments!
35. bleaching my hair!
36. cutting my hair!
37. visiting all the UC's.
38. *sigh* clubbing.
39. late night talks with minh.
40. meeting esther & hannah at progressive dinner...even though i had already met them before?
41. getting written up for playing the sentence game too loud.
42. buying my poolstick.
43. hating dormlife.
44. practicing & practicing that impossible bodyworship.
45. going to The Block for the first time with 20+ people.
46. casino morrango.
47. teaching everyone how to play gumpch at winter retreat.
48. justin playing in irvine.
49. GOSPEL CHOIR!
50. patbingsoo w/usc & crawford.

hmm, i'm kinda disappointed in myself. i thought i'd have way more memories than 50. well, i obviously have alotta small ones but i think these were the big ones. man, freshmen year is such a crazy year. just so much happens. you move in. you meet sooooooo many people! you study so hard. you play so much harder. you mature in unimaginable ways. you learn learn learn!

but this year, i must say that i've grown sooooo much closer to God. of all the years of my life, i think i've grown the most this year. i think one of the biggest things i learned this year was the idea of friendship. who your true friends are. who your hangout buddies are. who your acquaintances are. really, you see so much difficulty in making "real" friends in college. i think everyone also goes through some hard difficult times of loneliness. but it is in these times, you realize that man is that imperfect and God is that much MORE PERFECT! He is the only REAL friend. the only one that can understand what you're going through the most...even better than you! He is your only true source of comfort. He is always listening.

man, words can't express how sinful i've been this year. my actions, my mentality, my judgements, my desires. i know that i have been a horrible witness to nonchristian AND christian people alike. too many times i have been hypocritical and have been very selfish in my speech. how pitiful.

but through it all...my good times and bad times, God has ALWAYS been there with me. i think it is very true that God is closest to you in your most humbling circumstances...when you depend on Him the most. it is so true what it says in James 4:8...Draw near to God and God will draw near to you. so very true. i also think that as you get older, life gets tougher. but b/c life gets tougher, you also grow closer to God. it's true that you grow in holiness over time. not only do you mature physically and mentally, but most definitely SPIRITUALLY!

man, i have so many different ideas and i can't seem to write them in an organized manner. i wish i had like 20 different heads so i could just say everything at once. man, this year...this year. it was quite a year. man, college is quite something. i never knew it'd be like this. but gosh, praise God! everything that happened is only b/c of God. all Glory to Him. that's all i can say.

Thought of the Day: It is finished.
Song of the Day: Cannibus-Second Round KO