so today in church, i learned about the biblical view of women. basically, women are to serve as helpers for men and "be busy at home." it was a really good discussion for the college group. haha. lots of comments that offended both guys and girls but we all had a great theological time. so as we were discussing the characteristics of a godly woman, i once again realized that this is indeed a dying breed. godly women are compared to what was it...rubies? it's really a special thing, to have a woman who loves God. so when dennis was like, "behind every man there is a....." i was thinking, "there is a stronger man!" haha. it's really hard to think that there's godly women out there. it's almost like a myth or a fairytale. but of course we all know that they exist somewhere in this world. i think they're all just hiding in a secret cave somewhere in Canada. i'm determined to find that cave someday!

tonight was connie's b-day so everybody drank in our room again. another night of temptation and boredom. it really sucks when you're the only one who's fighting the good battle. everyone attacking all at once and i have no backup. so my only choice is to runaway right? it's tough though. sometimes, don't you just wish God would straight up reward you for your "good" deeds? "well done, good and faithful servant." but at the sametime, i guess i take His grace for granted ALL the time. yeah, this is war. it's like 10 vs. 1. however, if God is for us, who can be against us right?

happy birthday connie.