i just spent $200.64 on 21 cds from half.com and amazon. on the last night of cg retreat, i finally made the difficult decision to stop downloading music/movies. i know it's impossible to buy EVERY single cd for EVERY single song i've ever downloaded, but i'm trying to make up for it (slowly but surely). after singing I Surrender All ("Worldy pleasures all forsaken..."), it was over. i knew i was clearly sinning. no more of this illegal crap! it's always been a burden in my heart since that one discussion we had in paraguay, but my guilty conscience turned into a monster these past few months. even with things like Norton Antivirus and Windows XP, i would like to eventually go completely legit. call me conservative. call me anal. call me a pharisee. for me, it's just an integrity issue. for all you lawbreakers out there, i challenge you to join me in this movement!

in other news, i will not be going up north with jayne and sonia because sonia has "been coughing so much i think im gonna be gettin some 6 packs by the end of break." perhaps, God wanted me to avoid spending even more money on this much anticipated road trip due to the -$200.67. if is the Lord's will, then i will learn to be content.

Thought of the Day: Gay.
Song of the Day: 98 Degrees-Because Of You

this yg retreat was the most bittersweet retreat i've ever been to in my life.

bitter:

1. senior boys upset me alot.
2. i've never seen my students pay so little attention to me.
3. too cold to enjoy weather. not cold enough to snow.
4. the rooms and dining hall were cramped.
5. for the price of the retreat, the food should've been much better.
6. skits were poor in quality. edification was lacking.
7. sean and terrance both got their laptops stolen. really sorry guys.
8. many students were sick and got others sick.

sweet:

1. pastor peter sim was sola scriptura and christ-centered up the butt. "heaven does not begin when you die; it begins when you believe...on the cross, Christ was thirsty so that we would never have to be thristy again...your life is not worthless because God gave up His son for you and your life now brings glory to God...we do not become saints; we ARE saints...we will persevere beacuse Jesus persevered...in heaven, we will sit down at the throne of God: we are kings!"
2. many many students learned and appreciated TULIP.
3. my team won best cheer and skit. well, with this year's groups, i guess that doesn't really say much. mighty mighty Calvinists!
4. terrance made john the stone ro cry...along with the rest of the yg.
5.
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so i've received a few gifts for Christmas already. you know a gift is bad when you're scrambling to look for the gift receipt. my brother never gives me gifts because he never has money. this year, he gave me a $10 giftcard to BestBuy. i don't like receiving giftcards as gifts...but receiving it from Sheemones makes it the best x-mas gift ever.

Thought of the Day: Best of the best.
Song of the Day: Foo Fighters-End Over End

i had an 89.6% in my psych. research methods class and he gave me a B+. it truly was the worst class i ever took at UCI.

i paid $12.50 to watch Memoirs of a Geisha at the Grove at 11:40pm. i liked it.

crush.

Thought of the Day: Ditzy.
Song of the Day: 98 Degrees-Because Of You

If thou hast drawn a thousand times
Oh Lord draw me again.

Thought of the Day: Disciplines.
Song of the Day: If Thou Hast Drawn

Lucky Sevens

seven things i plan to do before i die:
1. Find myself a God-fearing woman.
2. Become a GOOD 8th/9th grade math teacher.
3. Eat Italian food in Italy.
4. Go to a Foo concert in the pit this time.
5. Perfect my Korean.
6. Eat sushi/ramen in Japan.
7. Directly evangelize to someone and see them come to Christ.

seven things i can do:
1. Make pretzels.
2. Eat a lot of salad.
3. Pop my jaw.
4. Beat anyone in Super Puzzle Fighter and Streetfighter vs. X-Men (playstation only).
5. Drive up north without stopping once.
6. Watch Pulp Fiction and Swingers over and over and over again.
7. Make you laugh with my dance moves.

seven things i cannot do:
1. Sleep with any noise/light.
2. Play guitar.
3. Arminianism.
4. Pop gum.
5. Roll my tongue.
6. Beat John Ro in pingpong.
7. Write legibly.

seven things that attract me to the opposite sex:
1. humorous-we both have to be able to make each other laugh.
2. teachable-i have to be able to lead you.
3. generous-self-explanatory.
4. cute-we're talking physical and personality. can't learn it. it's all genes here.
5. diligent-girls aren't supposed to be lazy. only guys are.
6. healthy-proper nutrition, exercise, and hygiene is good for physical attraction.
7. mature-proper relationships and humility is good for emotional attraction.

send in your resumes, ladies. =D

seven things that i say most often:
1. what up?
2. oh no!
3. what a lil baby!
4. can you just...
5. goodbye.
6. Sheemones!
7. oh yeah?

seven celebrity crushes (only in these appearances):
1. Jennifer Love Hewitt (Can't Hardly Wait)
2. Jennifer Anniston (Friends)
3. Renee Zellweger (Jerry Maguire)
4. Nicole Kidman (Batman Forever/Moulin Rouge)
5. Keira Knightley (Love Actually)
6. Audrey Hepburn (Roman Holiday)
7. Emmy Rossum (The Day After Tomorrow/Phantom of the Opera)

Quotes

"These songs (Mercy Me) are for middle-aged people and not for younger people right? I mean, it's not like one of those crazy songs like "ONE WAY! JE~SUS!""
-Mom

"I did not see him with my bodily eyes, but with the eyes of mine understanding; and thus it was. One day I was very sad, I think sadder than at any one time in my life; and this sadness was through a fresh sight of the greatness and vileness of my sins: and as i was then looking for nothing but Hell, and the everlasting damnation of my soul, suddenly, as I thought, I saw the Lord Jesus look down from Heaven upon me, and saying, 'Believe on the Lord Jesus Christ, and thou shalt be saved.'
But I replied, 'Lord, I am a great, a very great sinner'; and he answered, 'My grace is sufficient for thee.' Then I said 'But Lord, what is believing?' And then I saw from that saying He that cometh to me shall never hunger, and he that believe on me shall never thrist that believing and coming was all one, and that he that came, that is, run out in his heart and affections after salvation by Christ, he indeed believed in Christ. Then the water stood in mine eyes, and I asked further, 'But Lord, may such a great sinner as I am be indeed accepted of thee, and be saved by thee?' And I heard him say, 'And him that cometh to me, I will in no wise cast out.' Then I said, 'But how, Lord, must I consider of thee in my coming to thee, that my faith may be placed aright upon thee?' Then he said, 'Christ Jesus came into the world to save sinners. He is the end of the law for righteousness to every one that believes. He died for our sins, and rose again for our justification. He loved us, and washed us from our sins in his own blood. He is mediator between God and us. He ever liveth to make interecession for us.' From all which I gathered that I must look for righteousness in his person, and for satisfaction for my sins by his blood; that what he did in obedience to the Father's law, and in submitting to the penalty thereof, was not for himself, but for him that will accept it for his salvation, and be thankful. And now was my heart full of joy, mine eyes full of tears, and mine affections running over with love, to the name, people and ways of Jesus Christ...
It made me see that all the world, notwithstanding all the righteousness thereof, is in a state of condemnation. It made me see that God the Father, though he be just, can justly justify the coming sinner. It made me greatly ashamed of the vileness of my former life, and confounded me with the sense of mine own ignorannce; for there never came through into mine heart before now that showed me so the beauty of Jesus Christ. It made me love a holy life, and long to do something for the honour and glory of the name of the Lord Jesus. Yea, I thought, that had I now a thousand gallons of blood in my body, I could spill it all for the sake of the Lord Jesus."
-Hopeful from The Pilgrim's Progress

Thought of the Day: Bad girl.
Song of the Day: Let Us Love And Sing And Wonder

i've been on winter break since wednesday 10:00am. i blanked out on both of my finals so i was unable to produce the best results of my long hours of studying. it's ok though; it's not about the grade anyways. but to celebrate from finishing the hardest qtr i've ever had in my life, i went straight to riverside to play with sonia blade, yommy, and turrence (from puraguay). after a long day (and an even longer night) with those companions, i drove back towards cerritos. as i was driving on the 91, i saw this big billboard that said, "Remember the reason for the season. Luke 2:11." i thought that was a nice reminder for the thousands of drivers who pass by the area. when i got home, i also read chang's xanga about how the joy of celebrating Christ should not be limited to just December 25th or Easter Sunday. another very encouraging reminder. but today as i was brushing my teeth, i thought about that Christ being the reason statement. i think for chrisitans, that statement should be shortened to just: Remember the reason! we do not merely remember the reason for the season alone. we ought to remember the reason for EVERYTHING. the reason for studying. the reason for hanging out in riverside. the reason for watching stupid things like Family Guy or bowling on Wednesday nights. the reason why we work at our part-time jobs. the reason why we have what we have and do what we do. we breathe, feel, and move because of one thing: Christ.

Acts 17:24-25-The God who made the world and everything in it is the Lord of heaven and earth and does not live in temples built by hands. And he is not served by human hands, as if he needed anything, because he himself gives all men life and breath and everything else.

1 Corinthians 10:31-So whether you eat or drink or whatever you do, do it all for the glory of God.

Yes!!!

my cd-rom won't open. can somebody help me?

i'm getting fat.

Thought of the Day: "KEVIN!"
Song of the Day: Mariah Carey-All I Want For Christmas Is You

Philip:

I have it :)
Thank you for such a wonderful quarter.
Dr. C

i just sighed out 50 pounds of relief. Thank you, Lord!

a few things that have made my day so far...

1. as i was walking through the parking lot, i saw this sweater-hooded girl inside her car with the front seat pushed up all the way to the steering wheel. the front seat was tilted forward at a good 50 degree angle and her head lay motionless on top of the steering wheel. i like it when i see other students sharing in my sufferings.

2. as soon as i finished my psych. final, i went straight to the nearest garbage can and thew away EVERY SINGLE handout, lab, lecture note, and article. then i sold both of my psych books. purge.

3. on Beach and Artesia, i saw a guy with sunglasses, dressed up in a Santa Clause suit, with a sign that said "Tool Sale." it's a pretty warm day for December. life is tough.

4. Foo Fighters. catharsis.

5. all four blogs/xangas i just read were really good.

(6). the last thing that will make/complete my day is when i receive Dr. C's email indicating that she safely received my folder containing my 20 page paper & co. i cannot accurately describe the anxiety i'm experiencing right now because of this. yeah, that would hella make my day.

btw, i am still under the bondage of Mr. Delirious Man.

phil is under the bondange of Mr. Delirious Man.

his only means of escape is sleep.

he reads words like "caffeine," as "cocaine."

Mr. Delirious Man wishes Sunshine Kim a happy 22.

somebody save phil!

Thought of the Day: Down.
Song of the Day: Andy Williams-It's The Most Wonderful Time Of The Year

"Those who know God's mercy must operate on the principle of mercy. If they do not show mercy but insist on justice, they willl receive justice rather than mercy. We must not minimize the seriousness of this matter. An unforgiving heart is a heart that is subject to torment "until (its debtor) should pay back all" that is owed, which in the case of any human being equates to forever. A truly forgiving heart is the fruit of regeneration."
-Reformation of the Study Bible

lol. ponzu sauce.

lol. snugs.

Thought of the Day: Just a sinner who didn't get enough sleep.
Song of the Day: Queen-Crazy Little Thing Called Love