"But when I am born again of the Spirit of God, I know that Jesus Christ did not come to teach only: He came to make me what He teaches I should be."
-Oswald Chambers

Thought of the Day: Sin produces sin.
Song of the Day: The Beatles-Come Together

i started my christmas shopping list today. i first write down names, then a price that i'm willing to spend, and finally, another list of each individual's interests/hobbies. it's really sad when i can only think of two or three interests for a person. for example, for some of the people i just wrote:

-clothes
-alcohol

or

-anime
-electronics

but have no fear if you qualify in either of these areas. i can usually think of something creative every birthday or Christmas. i take great pride in the gifts that i get for (most) people...except for the time i got those Dinoriders dvds for dinko. sorry about that.

Thought of the Day: Medium!
Song of the Day: Mercy Me-Homesick

last night...

i went to my very first UCI basketball game. that crap was SO fun! i learned a lot of new things last night.

1. what the Bren Events looks like.
2. that UCI has cheerleaders and a dance team!
3. that we actually beat Stanford a few days ago.
4. UCI students get to watch games for free.

i even got a yellow C.I.A (Completely Insane Anteater) t-shirt for free! i always wondered why so many people had those shirts, but i learned that they give you a new one every year for free when you attend a sporting event. it was really fun cheering with the other irvine students. Peter the Anteater, our mascot, even gave me a high-five! my favorite cheer of the night was: "IT'S ALL OVER!" *CLAPCLAP CLAPCLAP CLAP* our record is 3-1 after last night's win. i've never seen so many zot hands go up at once. never been so proud to be an Anteater in my life.

today...

at exactly 3:45pm, my car broke 200,000 miles! it was cool cause all of the digits were turning as i was pulling into my driveway. for the longest time, i always told people that i was going to throw a party when my car hit 200,000. ain't no party when you're all alone in the car. just me and her. i couldn't have asked for a more perfect situation. haha. i actually started having imaginations of my car exploding as soon as the last mile changed. if there's one worldly thing i'm thankful for this Thanksgiving, it's God's providence over my car. she may be no Mustang, but she secretly makes me really happy.

tomorrow...

i will be celebrating my second real Thanksgiving dinner at Snugs' place with a few other fellas. i am definitely looking forward to the 15 pound turkey, hours of hold'em, some Swingers, and some delectable pumpkin pie! i love that word: delectable.

Thought of the Day: Alternating Harmonic Series.
Song of the Day: Biggie-Big Poppa

there was no Lovefest last week. there is no Lovefest tonight. there will be no Lovefest next week. woe is me!

Thought of the Day: Golf is not a sport.
Song of the Day: The Ventures-Pipeline

there's this chinese girl in my math discussion who sits near me. she's pretty quiet and looks really innocent and pure kinda like nina ("neeners") or sonya. well, today after class, instead of asking the TA, she asked me if knew how many quizzes were going to be dropped out of the total. of all the times she could have chosen to talk to me, she chose a time when my runny nose was dripping with snot as i was busy wiping away with my hand. "uh...how many quizzes? i think one." *SNIFF!* she'll probably never talk to me again.

i was studying at commons last week and out of no where, this girl ran by and hit me pretty hard. "hi!" but after taking a closer look at my face, she realized that i wasn't one of her friends. "oh my, i am so sorry!" and then she scurried off all embarrassed. she had glasses. she was pretty. she'll probably never talk to me again.

i'm really sick right now and i have terrible neck pains. i desperately need your prayers for my physical condition right now. the neck pains especially are a thorn in my flesh. i don't know if it's because i'm stressed or because i studied in a bad posture for several hours or because i slept retarded. i can't even move my head back all the way cause it feels like something's going to pop in my neck. more than the girls that'll probably never talk to me again, i need for you to pray for my physical sufferings. the Lord listens to the prayers of His people. let it be true!

Thought of the Day: -3.
Song of the Day: Foo Fighters-Wind Up

why is my mom so scared to drive on the freeway?!

Thought of the Day: Covariation.
Song of the Day: Dave Matthews Band-Crash Into Me Fatboy Slim Mix

i've been taking linear algebra this quarter and i will unashamedly proclaim that it is really difficult for me. i feel so humbled when i overhear students in the class tell each other how easy this class is. what can i say? i'm just NOT GOOD AT MATH! after every clusters meeting, i have to ask d. lai for help with the homework. right before every discussion, i have to ask the white guy that always sits behind me for help with the homework. it's become so common and routine that when i asked him how to do a problem today, he sarcastically responded, "MAGIC!" that hurt my feelings...but he still helped me.

yesterday, i was so discouraged by the homework problems and lecture that i actually stayed after class to talk to the professor. this is the same professor that judy and i always make fun of because of his thick chinese accent and chipmunk physique. but after some thorough explanations on the board, i honestly understood everything he said and i was really really grateful. he wasn't even mean about it or anything. very patient with my ignorance. very pleased when i got the correct answer. "yeSS!" with a single nod. haha. he even went out of his way to ask me if the lectures were helpful and what i thought of the textbook. after i told him my concerns, he told me he was going to talk to the TA about making easier quizzes and post the solutions to the homework problems online. and believe it or not, he sent an email out to the whole class on the same day announcing that he would post up solutions to the homework problems. the only thing he lied about was the quiz. they're still hard. 1 for 2. not bad.

Thought of the Day: Angry.
Song of the Day: Foo Fighters-Lonely As You

"You must guard your imagination if you want to guard your heart. Don�t feed a lonely heart with cheesy romance novels or chick flicks and fantasize about the men or the relationships described. This can quickly become lust�lusting to be lusted after. Don�t allow yourself to imagine someone is interested in you when he is just being friendly. Don�t imagine that he had a tender look when he said hello to you, when he was really just giving you a polite greeting. In other words, do not develop wild crushes. If the man in question shows an interest elsewhere, you will be hurt, and depending on how much you indulged your imagination, you may be devastated. Be realistic about the men who show you attention. If you are too eager for a relationship, you can imagine he is godlier, funnier, sweeter, smarter, older, or taller than he really is. If you have to talk yourself into someone, you are not being realistic about this man. Don�t get desperate! Don�t allow yourself to get involved in an inappropriate relationship because you are lonely. Don�t look for a man as a ticket out. You may want to move out or move on, but that is not a good reason to get married. "
-Nancy Wilson (Douglas Wilson's wife)

scream AMEN with me! thanks, john and thank you, Mrs. Wilson!

Thought of the Day: #/0=Infinity.
Song of the Day: GOD-Meeting

i had Red Lobster for the first time tonight. garlic shrimp is delicious. i like eric and sunny. party animals.

Thought of the Day: Bahama Mama!
Song of the Day: Black Eyed Peas-My Humps

right now, i'm printing out my 22nd article for my research paper. i have two more to print out after this. i printed so many pages that i had to put in a new ink cartridge and even that one just ran out now! my brother hates my noisy printer with all his heart. i, on the other hand, hate my upper div writing class with all my heart. no, i take that back...i don't hate it. it's just A LOT of work. my research paper is always always on my mind. in fact, this morning i woke up thinking about self-esteem and identity issues that influence academic retention. !!!

after feeling discouraged from my math class, i debated whether or not i should stay for psych. but since i needed to talk to rebecca about the lab hw, i decided to bear through it. after deciding to work on the lab together after class, we went to commons and sat down at the computers. as i was looking through my backpack, i couldn't find my floppy disk anywhere! my floppy disk with my two drafts for my research paper. my floppy disk with the two crucial articles that i spent 4 hours looking for last night. losing this disk would have produced some loud cuss words for sure. but by the grace of God, it was still inside the computer that i had worked on last night. *SIIIIIIIGH* if i had not gone to class, i would've lost everything. if i had fudged the lab last week to finish early, i would've lost everything. if i had not asked rebecca to work on the lab together, i would've lost everything. was i merely lucky? heck no! that was God's providence FOR SURE!

it's only 2:30 and it's already been a long day. my articles are done printing.

Thought of the Day: Juggling too many eggs.
Song of the Day: Weezer-Beverly Hills