i think blogging at the most inappropriate times of the day are the funnest times to blog. my reason for writing tonight is that i ate ramen a little less than two hours ago and i can't fall asleep on a full stomach. i am crazy awake right now, it's ridiculous. no more than ten minutes ago, andrew kim just farted in his sleep. funny. i don't think i've ever heard him fart in my life.



these days, whenever people ask me how i'm doing, i find myself having a hard time answering that question. as much as i hate telling them the typical "not too bad" or "i've been pretty busy," i still tell them that. how do you answer such a question? i really hate mindless chit-chat. i think Uma Thurman said it best in Pulp Fiction, "why do we feel it's necessary to yak about bull**** in order to be comfortable?" that's one of the reasons why i hate bumping into people on campus, especially those i haven't seen in a long time. we both hate the game, but social rules tell us that we must play. man, i sound terribly antisocial and hostile right now. this wasn't the direction i was intending to write in...

so, how ARE you doing?

i got my mp3 player last friday. it looks pretty different from the picture i posted up. i definitely do not adore it as much as i did before i possessed it though. it's always like that. our imagination always exceeds reality. i'm still glad i got it though.

i started my education fieldwork on wednesday. i observe 7th graders and help them with their homework for three hours every wednesday. i mainly work with Hispanic kids who live in Tustin. i tried to remember what it was like for me to be a 7th grader. oh man that's blurry. all i remember was hating Mrs. Breon for being so hard and being really depressed for no reason. sorry kids, no help from this volunteer.

i also finished watching Full House that night. the previous night, i had watched three episodes. the next night, eugene and i just decided to finish it with a sweep. four episodes in a row. crappy ending but a pretty fun one to watch. "gom seh marheegah, han jeebeh eesuh..." i love that song.


wednesday, 4:56am. phone goes off. "Jordan's Mom." ringer silenced. go back to sleep.

thursday, 11:06am. voicemail. "Jordan's Mom." call her back any time after 3:30.

thursday, 3:31pm. i get my old job back.

"But no matter, God will provide."
-Chang Yuon

and that He did. O praise Him.


"not too bad...i've been pretty busy."

Thought of the Day: I suck at bowling.
Song of the Day: Eminem-Renegade

23 freshmen.

so much fun.

so encouraging.


ear infection.

6 days.

so burdensome.

Thought of the Day: WHO AM I?!
Song of the Day: Velvet Revolver-Slither

to my big stylez friends...

obesity: weight that is greater than 20% for your avg. weight for your age/size
-about 65% of adults are overweight/obese
-over 25% of children are obese
-tendency: those who watch much tv tend to be overweight
-rate of obesity increases by 2% for every hour of tv

Thought of the Day: Freshmen Retreat
Song of the Day: Roora-OH

i tutor fatima (2nd grader) and ibrahim (3rd grader) every friday, 30 min. each. man, these two are the most difficult students i've ever had to teach in my life. since they both have learning disabilites, you have to be really really really patient with them. like ibrahim will ask you a question and as soon as you're about to answer him, he'll start reading from his book; or fatima will have trouble reading a word and you'll review it with her for 3 min. until she tells you that she gets it...but she really doesn't. *trembling anger* it goes even further than this. you see, they NEVER listen to what i tell them to do. "fatima, we need to study right now." "ibrahim, can you go get your sister right now, please?!" i was so convinced that they hated me b/c they'll do anything to lag or avoid studying with me.

but...

on friday, as soon as i was about to leave, fatima held her arms out for a hug. so i hugged her. "bye, phil." "bye, fatima." and that simple act made me forget about every discouragement i've ever had with her. *sigh* tricky kids.



i want you SO bad!

Thought of the Day: Undermine.
Song of the Day: Mobb Deep-Burn

dinko816 (12:14:07 AM): in light of current events



dang, freshmen retreat. that was seriously one of the most memorable moments of my freshmen year. i remember the sunday after that retreat, we all exchanged screennames and cell phone numbers with each other. who would've known that 2 days would produce so many wonderful relationships. only God knew.



right now, i'm watching the korean drama, Full House, with Song Hye Gyo and Bi. in today's episode, there was a scene where they fell asleep on each other's heads while watching a very nice view of the sunset at the beach. i'm no lover-boy but i have to admit that it was a pretty romantic scene. in fact, it gave me that "i wish i had a girlfriend" feeling.

in every relationship, a girl wants to see romance coming from the guy. korean dramas overdo it. zenia lusts after it. movies portray it all the time. but i'm not bashing romance at all. actually, my point is that we desire these things b/c it is in fact a very beautiful thing for a man and woman to show their love for each other through "romantic" words and actions. but goodness, if romance is as good as it appears and feels, how much more pleasurable and blissful will our eternal marriage with Christ be? i don't think this is limited to just relationships or marriage. imagine every pleasure that the world has to offer. every pleasure is just a glimpse of what God has in store for us one day. even if i can't marry Song Hye Gyo or drive Bi's car, i have assurance that i will have something infinitely better in heaven.

Hosea 2:19-20: I will betroth you to me forever; I will betroth you in righteousness and justice, in love and compassion. I will betroth you in faithfulness, and you will acknowledge the Lord.

what are our idols compared to God?

Thought of the Day: Indulgence.
Song of the Day: Matt Redman-Nothing But The Blood

snowboarding seems to be THE THING to do in college. i never really thought much about it til the whole world was shocked that i had never gone in my life. *shrug* i had opportunities to go every winter but i wasn't willing to spend or learn. i mean, just how fun could snowboarding be, right? you attach yourself to a piece of board and throw yourself off a mountain. long story short-i went snowboarding on wednesday cause it was cheap and andrew was willing to teach me. the good news is that i learned fairly quick and had a VERY good time. the bad news is that my body is sorer than Mr. Sore who lives on Sore St. ugh, i love it. if you haven't gone, you're definitely missing out. i know i was.

first day of class...

professor: well since it's Zero Week, there should be Zero work. bye guys.
class: (cheering).

i wish every week was Zero Week.

you have always been there to listen to me. whenever i was sad, i could freely express myself to you. whenever i was angry, i could vent and you wouldn't complain. you were there for many of my personal moments and memories. you don't care about my image or what i write about. you find no shame in showing pictures of my friends to the world. there were moments where i really needed you but you weren't available...but i forgive you. afterall, you're the one always reminding me how finite and inconsistent i am. i can tell you about anything in the world. thank you for the wonderful memories that you create and store. happy 3rd anniversary...i love you, blog.

Thought of the Day: Full House is SO good.
Song of the Day: Foo Fighters-Up In Arms

Thought of the Day: TOE!
Song of the Day: Foo Fighters-All My Life